Yea...I'm an exception to many rules..I get that alot.
Oh yes, I definitly fully realize all that testosterone can do. That was a huge part of therapy. Making sure I understood all that hormone replacement therapy would do. My voice has deepened quite a bit. I didn't actually expect that...I thought I was doing a "low dose" but...it didn't work out that way. I do like my voice though, now that I"m adjusted to it.
Growing my clit was actually not even really on my radar. (at the time I started therapy) I actually started hormones because I'd dealt with depression and anxiety for many many years...and as my hormone cycles would come...I didn't deal with it so well. My spouse is MtF and I watched her depression lessen and nearly disappear. I noticed some very fine changes, very light and hard to describe...but mainly her moods were just so much better. I started to wonder if my depression was based on my hormones being wrong for my body. I knew I was trans, I knew I was androgyn but I REALLY started to wonder about what hormones would be right for my body/mind.
Turns out testosterone is totally right.
I have to take the pros and the cons. Not everything is going to be perfect, or entirely desirable. My therapist asked me how i would deal if I should start losing my hair. If that would stop me from taking T. I wondered outloud back at her...does a natal male like that part of being male? Do they have to? Should they start transition to female because they fear/dislike balding? No. Not everything will be perfect. I can't pick and choose how hormones will effect me...and I'm ok with that mostly. Sometimes I struggle with the changes...but then again, I don't like change much in general.
I do have a beard now, and I quite like it. Societies feelings about a woman with a beard is something I struggle with and feel uncomfortable about...but when I'm just at home I'll let it grow and I like it quite a bit. My wife doesn't...so I do shave at least once a week. lol
I have grown some body hair though very very little, and it's very light and fine (as of yet) and if it gets to be too much...laser hair removal is an option though I doubt I'll need it if it keeps up like this.
My menstruation was already VERY messed up far before I started T. So that wasn't much of a worry. Being done menstruating sounded wonderful. Oddly I still haven't stopped altogether and none of my doctors can figure out why. I've been on T for over a year and a half and I should definitely be done bleeding but...nope. Figures that I'll bleed more often on T than I did on E. *sigh* Whatever. I take the good with the bad. (before anyone freaks about my menstruation...we've checked my blood, we've sent me for ultrasound, I've gone to a specialist and all of them shrug and say everything looks fine.)