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Turning a corner! :)

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Karlee:
I've been sad and depressed lately. I've had bad, bad thoughts...

sometimes I feel non-existent. Sometimes I feel like a hindrance. Sometimes I feel like a waste of space. Sometimes I feel like I just don't belong in the world, and that in death would bring me some peace, and my heart and soul can rest. It was a scary week, coming close to loosing it a few times.

Life is good. I'm not working today (another slow day) and I live by the beach. I can go surfing today (yay!) and go out for a nice coffee after wards. I can spend more time of the forums and more time questioning myself (hopefully getting answers).

Yes, I am one very, very confused and young transgirl. I've been on this earth for 19 years. I haven't given myself the time to learn myself, to sculpt my life, to be the real me. I've made so many promises to myself and to this community, and I am a girl of my word, so I am not giving up. I am not giving up on my life, the life that has been kept hidden, selfishly, from me.

I'm turning a corner. The past is in the past, and that is what defines me. I can't change the fact I was born like this. It's time to look to the future. The sweeping corner ahead of me is not scary. It's not blind, I can see some of what is coming. Eventual happiness. But I can't know everything. There are going to be scary and sad times, as well as exciting and happy times.

Trying to stay optimistic. Loving all my friends on here. You are the light in the dark times. Thank you so much for being there. Thank you so much for reading this.

Love,
Karlee.x

MarinaM:
:) Stay strong! Only nineteen years, you've got a long way tio go.

Cindy.:
Hi Honey,

Stay strong, you have lots of stuff going forward for you. I know it might not seem like that but take a deep breath and look at the positives. At least you are not an old cow like me :laugh: :laugh: :laugh:

Hugs

Cindy

Karlee:
Thanks girls. :)

Cindy and Emma, you both give me hope. Thank you dearly for that.

Love,
Karlee.x

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