Not to worry Zenda. Many of us can be very sensitive, but that goes with the territory. As psychologist I'm sure you will understand.
You apology is take, sufficient and, because it's you. will be accepted, I'm pretty sure.
As for the question, this was raised before or may have been mentioned as part of another discussion, some time ago. It's an interesting topic and good that it sould be broght up.
I recall, I mentioned, that I had also come very close to doing this. In my case, I was about 17 and had one of those supersharp knives which had recently become available at the time. I breifly imagined that one quick slice and it would be gone.
I have thought about it a number of time since and realised that the mental mechanisms I used to get past that little bit of hell, seem to have become rather ingrained in me. I'm pretty sure others must be in a similar situation. I have wondered how many of us have become neurotic as a result and what the varying effects of that are, upon the individual and the community at large?
Interesting.