Ask Matt: Will I Always Look Like a Trans Guy?
April 30, 2012 by Matt Kaileyhttp://tranifesto.com/2012/04/30/ask-matt-will-i-always-look-like-a-trans-guy/
A reader writes: “I’m twenty-seven, but only a couple of years ago realized that I have to do something about my gender dysphoria, otherwise I’ll get too depressed and only feel more and more like I’m a guest in this body of mine. The problem is that I’m a perfectionist – too much a perfectionist.
“All my life I’ve gone to bed at night wishing and praying I could wake up and my body would be that of a boy/man, but I’ve nevertheless been reluctant to start transitioning because I’m afraid it’s not going to be ‘good enough.’ I basically want to look like a cis man, not like a trans man. I don’t want people to ever take me for a woman, I don’t want people commenting on that I have a rather feminine body for a man or anything like that.
“The worst part is that in its essence, my body is very feminine. I’ve done all I can to make it less so, but my bone structure is just so feminine – wide hips, narrow shoulders, narrow wrists, small hands, and all that stuff.