I'd like to tune in, with some of my own thoughts on this, if that's ok. I tried living as a man for many years, even though I knew at a far younger age, I was hating growing up as such. There was absolutely nothing I could do to change, that but deep down I had already rejected growing and developing into a man. When I turned around 18, I basically also came out to myself, too and accepted I needed to released myself from this mental torment.
The mental torment, of knowing your some one different inside, to how other people see you on the outside, well not 'all' people, several friends knew anyway, that I behave differently to other guys. So anyway, I was kind of locked into that life, and I did try to conform, to how people thought I should behave, and live a life as a man.
In the end, all this did, was cause me to explode, I went off to see my GP, told him about my feelings, and how I would like to start some kind of transition towards changing my gender, this was when I was like 17/18 ish as I say, he asked that I discuss it further with my mother, and to bring her with me on another visit. I completely 'bottled out' because my mother, being rather conservative in her attitudes.
Suffice to say I suffered with 'not' doing anything, for many years, and utterly regret not telling my mother about how I was really feeling at a much younger age. I didn't start living as a woman until I was 25, and probably chose my own way to start transitioning,. I was already living in 'role' even before, going to a clinic, and only began therapy of any kind during the transition. The thing is, you need to be sure if this is right for you, when you choose to go through transitioning, how how you wish to start it. It really depends on a lot of things too. I do NOT think any operation is a 'cure' for gender dysphoria, and its my believe you will probably still suffer with different kinds of dysphoria even when your post op. I feel the operations, the HRT, releave the symptoms but it will never be a cure.
Despite the fact I am 11 yrs post op, I some times still get a spat of depressions, where I still wish I had just been born 'correctly' rather than a mix of things. I developed a self hatred of my appearance, which got much worse once male puberty set in. At the end of the day, you must be true to yourself, and be who you are. No one should be allowed to even try and take that away from you.