Well, I don't know what more to say that hasn't been said. I do know one absolutely wondrous thing - we do make it through EVERYTHING! We do!
I have been at this forever and I have worked with people like yourself who are NOT empowered, and treated horribly. You DO become empowered (freedom from family, job income, alt that comes with emancipation) To you right now that probably feels like an eternity of time away - but it DOES COME!
Be there for it! You must stay around to get the rewards from all this suffering you are enduring now.
We hear you - we really do. It can be tough.
Oh my oh my oh my