Obsessed..... Well I can understand that. I feel I'm somewhat obsessed, but I don't think its just the pantys...and it is more than that for you too Jeffrene. Because you also desire for others to see you...or in other words to be able to dress how you feel.
Obsessed....I believe living a secret, always holding yourself back....does make it like an obsession, but it is more a loney traped feeling. Feelings that we need and ought to be able to be free and honest with.
Obsessed....to express honestly ourselves, but we are all dressed up with nowhere to go. Feelin pretty with no one to notice. Caged by our own fear...alone inside ourselves will make you obsessed.
Obsessed to be free!!!!
Good luck to you Jeffrene and may Susans help you find your path to happieness!