I've already told my dad that I don't like being a girl and that I want to be a boy, and he asked all the usual questions:
Are you gay?
Do you want to transition?
When did you know for yourself?
He only asked because I asked him to tell mom for me. I'm not sure if he knows what a transsexual is, because I never actually used the word. At that point, I was just coming to realize everything that was going on enough to be able to answer some of his questions. I'm still not sure if I'm gay, because I've never been in love, but I'm pretty sure I am, so that's what I told him. I also didn't know if I wanted to transition or not (In my condition, thoughts came on slowly and intensified over time.). Now I am sure I want to transition.
I feel as though, right now, I am at the peak of my thoughts towards this. One more step, and I'll fall off the edge and become suicidal. I don't want to be that way. Right now, I still have a long wait to go before I can be the true me.
So, I wanted your opinions on whether or not I should send an email to my dad about it before I leave to my mom's tomorrow night (my parents are divorced). That way, he'd get the email after I'm gone and will have a week to contemplate it before I see him again (I'm going to my mom's for the last half of winter break.) Basically, in the email, I will describe transsexualism in the best way I can, and tell him a bit about how I feel. I'll also give him some ideas as to how he can help me. Maybe this will start me on a better trail. What do you think?