I've also met a number of FTM's who try too hard, so what? It would help to know if you are referring to post-op, pre-op, pre-everything, what stage of transition? It makes a difference. I'm a late-transitioner, early in transition. By which I mean I cross-dress regularly, in public, too, but am not on HRT, I don't have a prayer of passing anytime soon, and I know it. Nevertheless, I greatly enjoy myself when I'm dressed - it just feels so right. I pretty much live for the next opportunity. I need to be female full-time. I'm not worried, I'll get there. But... I have a LOT to learn. Someone who observes me may thing I'm trying too hard about something. I don't let it bother me. And could you maybe use caps once in a while, and some punctuation? Thx...