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jmax:
This is one of the biggest things holding me back from transitioning...the thought of some event that brings the family together (like a reunion, or wedding, or holiday party, or illness or death in the family) and there I am after transitioning.  Possibly having to explain to some.  The awkwardness from those who know.  Seeing myself there with my deep voice and five o'clock shadow and people staring at me or refusing to look at me.  My mom standing there, ashamed.  Even though I haven't transitioned yet, there's already been a lot of awkwardness from the family members that know.  I was at my niece's birthday party back in the summer and one of my aunts who knows showed up.  It was very uncomfortable.

I know I shouldn't worry about what others think but I do.  As far as people in my everyday life, I can always move and start over with no one knowing.  But with my family...  Thankfully, they don't often get together.  It doesn't help that I'm adopted and I already feel like I"m on the outer edge.

It's just the thought of being the elephant in the room that no one wants to acknowledge.

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