Well hi there, and welcome to Susan's
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As usual, I will put forth my disclaimer to avoid any confusion. I am not transgendered so for the cross-dressing issues I am not qualified to answer, but believe you me, you will get plenty of replies and insight from other members that will more than make up for what I lack! We're a friendly bunch, too....
I'm a Christian, too, friend, so first off I welcome you in the name of Christ. I can very well understand how you would have some inner struggle about whether your words/thoughts/actions are in line with your religious and/or spiritual values. What I have learned over the years is that the Bible is not a rule-book and God is not a police officer. He is not peering down from heaven waiting for you to screw up so that He can smite you. He certainly doesn't want for us to be so burdened by the Law that we live our lives in fear and walk on eggshells.
The Gospel of Christ proclaims freedom to all who claim it. Not only freedom that comes in the afterlife, but freedom for life here on earth. It does not mean we are free to sin because God will forgive us anyway; to believe that is to make a mockery of Christ's sacrifice. It does mean we have the freedom of knowing that we cannot do anything to make God love us more....and we cannot do anything to make God love us less. It means that we do good for the sake of doing good, because we love God and others--we do not do good to earn brownie points in Heaven. It means that in all of our frailties and imperfections, we can repent, confess, and move on, and not be laden with guilt and shame.
Most Christian sites say that crossdressing is okay...still some say it's not.
So my first suggestion is this: yes, ask yourself questions, try to earnestly seek that which is the right thing to do in any given situation. But don't let a web-site tell you what your personal morality, ethics, or values should or should not be. Examine your heart...examine God's heart...talk to Him...and listen for Him...you can read all the books, listen to all the preachers, find all the websites, memorize the Bible, but none of that will give you what it is truly important, which is communion with your Heavenly Father. Only God can give you the answers you seek; He speaks through people, books, events, His word, nature...but you cannot replace His wisdom or His companionship with those things.
(Making yourself look completely like a girl.) That is not my desire and it's not the reason I wear panties. I wear panties because I think they are much more comfortable then anything available in the mens department.
Personally, why you wear women's panties is of little concern to me either way. KNow what? I sometimes buy men's shoes, men's shirts, men's fragrances, for various reasons. I love ties (but I've never worn one). If I were Roman Catholic I'd want to be a monk, not a nun. They have cooler-looking clothes and they chant better. Do ya' think God cares? How do we know that men's and women's underpants didn't start out looking the same? Who dictates what 'men's' and 'women's' stuff is, anyway?
Do you think God is more concerned about the clothes on your body, or whether you help clothe the poor? Does He care more about the letter of the law, or the spirit of the law? Would He rather have children that never break the rules, are always clean, neatly groomed, pay the tithe, never miss church on Sunday, and yet who love little and look down their noses at people? Or would He rather have us a little scruffy and ragged and yet with big hearts of love, trust, joy, peace, compassion?
Just a few things to consider... I don't think anyone goes to their grave saying, 'I wish I would have been more of a legalist', but many go to their graves wishing they had been more understanding, more truthful, less judgmental...
Another thing to consider is that the scriptures are often taken very literally, and very much out of context. There were very different circumstances in ancient Israel that led to the institution of certain regulations. Quite frankly, I do not think for one minute that trans-genderism is sinful. You are wearing women's clothes because they're comfortable, not because you're trying to have a disguise to rob a bank in....who's to say that Christ Himself wouldn't be more comfortable in girl clothes?
I still live in my parents home and they have no clue about my panty wearing. It's not the crossdressing that's bothering me, it's my parents not knowing and me still living under their roof.
Well, friend, yes, you're under your parents' roof, I understand that. Believe it or not, they don't need to know everything
that goes on. Sure, if they knew that you wear women's panties, they wouldn't be happy. Some religious parents would not be happy if they found out their kid masturbated....most parents really don't want to know this type of information, unless they are acting as police officers, intent on discovering some terrible thing about people so they can give them a thrashing and assert their moral 'superiority'.
I don't think you need to tell them. Don't let your guilt cause you to engage in self-sabotaging acts. You feel guilty that you're doing something you know your parents disapprove of--the issue right now is not your parents dispproval, but your relationship with yourself and with God. It sounds as if you're not comfortable with who you are.....you will hurt yourself if you go around 'confessing' to people who will be less comfortable with you than you are.
Fear of discovery is another issue that I am not qualified to answer. Someone else will surely step in, though.
Bottom line, though, and I hope you never lose sight of this, is that God created you and is wild about you. Nothing you think,say, or do comes as a surprise to Him, he understands you more than you understand yourself. He loves you completely, infinitely, and nothing about you will ever, ever
I don't believe it is a sin unless you over-do it. (Making yourself look completely like a girl.)
One last thing: Everyone here is entitled to their viewpoint, and is welcome here as long as they follow they rules. There are about as many types of people to be found here as there are individuals!
If you think total cross-dressing is a sin, you've a right to that view, but remember that other cross-dressers are our brothers and sisters here on Susan's, as well as people who have different religious views, and God loves them as much as He does you and I. Remember to be respectful of diversity and of each individual that you encounter here.
By the way, how shall we address you? You didn't sign your name, so for now I just call you 'Friend'... I hope I've been of some help to you and that i didn't scare you off with my long-winded reply. I also hope it makes some sense---I got less than 4 hours sleep last night!
You are among friends here, so I hope you'll stick around for a while. As Cassie would say, 'Good journey'....