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Offline Christy Lee

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Re: What made you unhappy today? 7.0
« Reply #740 on: December 29, 2017, 08:17:14 am »
I found my old posts from here, from way back in 2006... its from my old account..... im now 31 *sigh*

hi people my name is christy-lee i am a m-f transgender who has not come out of the closet yet, i am 19 years old and have had this feeling most of my life no one knows that i am transgender, and i have not started the operation or hormones yet but once i come out of the closet i will

i have told my cousin that i am biesexual, and she took it ok, and this girl i met on the internet (who lives close to me) knows fully about me wanting to be fem but thats as close as ive got

oh yeh im from australia :)


yeh i would gladly switch places with u :)

ive known pretty much all my life but only really smart enough to realise what i knew at 13ish

well i knew around about 15 actually because 2 years before that i spent wanting to be female for a guy and i found how natural it for me as a female

 was he was bi curious so so we were together for awhile but he broke it off  :(

Was chatting with a ftm heh

Me trying to figure sh!t out, i now realize it wasnt just for that guy, i was using him as an excuse to think about it.. or atleast give myself permission to think about it? idk ...., also i feel like im alot more secure about it then i was back then, well kind of yes and no

I know im def not Bisexual...
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Re: What made you unhappy today? 7.0
« Reply #741 on: December 29, 2017, 10:46:52 am »
The scale.  Up 10 pounds from last year, 15 from my lowest of 2017.  I always eat too much of thev holiday treats but avoided the weight bump last year.  Too many lame excuses not to get to the gym to keep it under control this year I guess. 

If there's any good in this, my pants still fit so I guess its going to the right places now. 

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Re: What made you unhappy today? 7.0
« Reply #742 on: December 29, 2017, 12:06:41 pm »
The scale.  Up 10 pounds from last year, 15 from my lowest of 2017.  I always eat too much of thev holiday treats but avoided the weight bump last year.  Too many lame excuses not to get to the gym to keep it under control this year I guess. 

If there's any good in this, my pants still fit so I guess its going to the right places now. 

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Re: What made you unhappy today? 7.0
« Reply #743 on: December 29, 2017, 12:30:54 pm »
The scale.  Up 10 pounds from last year, 15 from my lowest of 2017.  I always eat too much of thev holiday treats but avoided the weight bump last year.  Too many lame excuses not to get to the gym to keep it under control this year I guess. 

If there's any good in this, my pants still fit so I guess its going to the right places now. 

Scale says I gained 5 pounds with all the big dinners & eating out I did in the last couple weeks. For good or ill, I STILL feel full. That might actually be a bit of the bug that's been going around town, though.
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Re: What made you unhappy today? 7.0
« Reply #744 on: December 29, 2017, 03:31:10 pm »
The POS who was tormenting the learning disabled guy & his carer yesterday kicked a homeless guy in the face as he walked past.

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Re: What made you unhappy today? 7.0
« Reply #745 on: January 02, 2018, 04:28:09 pm »
Work was atrocious today.  Seriously, can they put me on with someone other than the guy with an IQ of 80?  If we are understaffed to begin with I can't spend all day babysitting my coworker.

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Re: What made you unhappy today? 7.0
« Reply #746 on: January 02, 2018, 06:41:17 pm »
Amber I'm right there with you hun I took every chance to run out of work even without my coat on. Had a random guy in the lobby at my job ask me "where you going? Are you leaving?"
Like it's none of your business!! I don't know why it annoys me. Yet I'm single and not really too thrilled about that either. What's wrong with me?

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Re: What made you unhappy today? 7.0
« Reply #747 on: January 02, 2018, 07:28:00 pm »
After work I met my sister at my grandmother's house. My grandmother passed away on easter and her house finally sold and tomorrow is the closing. we've gone a few times recently and hung out but tonight was our absolute last chance. She brought her dog and we were in the bedroom where my grandma died and the dog got all sad and started to whimper. at one point my sister took her dog outside and I was all alone in that house possibly for the first time ever. I tried to feel some spiritual connection to it but it just wasn't there, i was really hoping to feel my grandmother's presence and I didn't and I think I realized that her being there is what made it special. Then when we were about to leave we stepped out into the back room and I said "this was always my favorite room" and that's when I started to lose it. I got choked up and shed a few tears. Then once I got out to my car I just broke down crying, I think I cried harder tonight than I did on the day of her funeral!

I still haven't told my sister about me yet but I want to soon. A couple weeks ago I decided that the house wasn't the place to tell her about it, it didn't seem right, but I want to tell her within the next 3 weeks. For a while I thought she was suspecting something but then I made a comment last night about how it hurt to shave yesterday because my skin was so bad because of how cold it's been the last couple days and she said I just shouldn't shave then. I told her I didn't want a beard and then changed the subject lol
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Re: What made you unhappy today? 7.0
« Reply #748 on: January 02, 2018, 10:40:37 pm »
Monster tooth ache from the bad place  :P  and I forgot to pick up some Oragel at the store earlier  :eusa_doh:
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Re: What made you unhappy today? 7.0
« Reply #749 on: January 02, 2018, 10:44:28 pm »
Sounds like the name of a horror movie "Monster Toothache from the Bad Place". 

Hope it gets better thar Ms Clint Eastwoodette :)

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Re: What made you unhappy today? 7.0
« Reply #750 on: January 02, 2018, 11:42:07 pm »
My work shorted my pay by 30 hours  15 of them are time and a half so mad can not figure out how they can not add and the people that can sign a cheque are on vacation

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Re: What made you unhappy today? 7.0
« Reply #751 on: January 03, 2018, 12:30:22 am »
The horror gets even better  :-\   When I put my glasses on to watch TV I noticed that one of the lenses has gone missing... Ugh!!!
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Re: What made you unhappy today? 7.0
« Reply #752 on: January 03, 2018, 02:10:33 am »
OK, I'm not complaining -- or, if I am, I have only myself to blame -- but I fell off the diet wagon yesterday. I've lost a lot of weight since March, I hit my target weight (finally!) about 10 days ago ... but there is a transitioning period back to maintenance level calorie intake, during which I continue to lose weight, but gain it back. End-of-diet weight gain is frustrating, but unavoidable. I want to *stay* at or below my target.

So, yesterday, I had a few drinks, ate popcorn (which I love) and some candy and raisins -- not much -- that were lying around. All-in-all, I think I consumed about 500 calories more than my maintenance level -- enough to gain maybe one-sixth of a pound -- which was, nonetheless, about 1600 more than I was supposed to, on the program. My weight shot up past my target (water retention). I know it will come back down again; but it's still a bummer to look at the scales and see the number I saw when I got up today.

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Re: What made you unhappy today? 7.0
« Reply #753 on: January 03, 2018, 04:46:02 am »
OK, I'm not complaining -- or, if I am, I have only myself to blame -- but I fell off the diet wagon yesterday. I've lost a lot of weight since March, I hit my target weight (finally!) about 10 days ago ... but there is a transitioning period back to maintenance level calorie intake, during which I continue to lose weight, but gain it back. End-of-diet weight gain is frustrating, but unavoidable. I want to *stay* at or below my target.

So, yesterday, I had a few drinks, ate popcorn (which I love) and some candy and raisins -- not much -- that were lying around. All-in-all, I think I consumed about 500 calories more than my maintenance level -- enough to gain maybe one-sixth of a pound -- which was, nonetheless, about 1600 more than I was supposed to, on the program. My weight shot up past my target (water retention). I know it will come back down again; but it's still a bummer to look at the scales and see the number I saw when I got up today.

I hit my goal like 2 or 3 weeks ago and I've been cheating ever since because of all the food around for the holidays, I'm terrified to weigh myself again! I think I'm going to weigh in on friday, I've been eating better this week
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Re: What made you unhappy today? 7.0
« Reply #754 on: January 03, 2018, 12:39:55 pm »
Just when I thought I was getting ahead cra hit me with a $1115 bill for income tax

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Re: What made you unhappy today? 7.0
« Reply #755 on: January 03, 2018, 12:48:14 pm »
Mean CRA, mean!

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Re: What made you unhappy today? 7.0
« Reply #756 on: January 03, 2018, 12:59:35 pm »
I hit my goal like 2 or 3 weeks ago and I've been cheating ever since because of all the food around for the holidays, I'm terrified to weigh myself again! I think I'm going to weigh in on friday, I've been eating better this week

I'm right there with you.  I am trying to eat better now, but damn, this season sucks for the diet.

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Re: What made you unhappy today? 7.0
« Reply #757 on: January 03, 2018, 01:01:30 pm »
VM - Cyclops glasses, woooooo.

Your comment reminded me that I need to start looking at new frames.

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Re: What made you unhappy today? 7.0
« Reply #758 on: January 03, 2018, 02:24:10 pm »
What makes me unhappy is the fact that I worry a lot about my future and ability to live as a woman, and I can't for the life of me put this into words, not even to my partner. So I'm in a situation where I somehow have to accept this emotional chaos going on in my head and try not to worry myself to death (quite literally so).
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Re: What made you unhappy today? 7.0
« Reply #759 on: January 03, 2018, 04:07:31 pm »
Arguing with some silly woman at the bank that I don't WANT any note on my file stating my former name/gender even though she INSISTED it would 'prevent problems in the future!' and that it was 'for my own good!'

..I'm gonna call the bank tomorrow and speak to someone else to have it removed.

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