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Re: Taking Hormones But Not Transitioning
« Reply #20 on: September 10, 2017, 01:17:24 pm »
I don't try to hide anything regardless of what "mode" I am in.  I am happy with myself and what somebody else thinks is their problem. 

Gotta agree!! I've been 'transitioning' for over 40 years but life just continues to 'get in the way'. First was my parents (living situation), then job career, marriage, kids (and divorce) now it's 'grandbabies', two in-house as we speak.

Am 'out' if anyone cares to 'look it up'. Same Judge my 'ex' tried to shame me in front of eventually gave me 'full custody' of the kids. Surpressed my urge to 'crossdress', luv it when people mistake me for ma'am  ;)

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"But it's no use now," thought poor Alice, "to pretend be two people!
"Why, there's hardly enough of me left to make one respectable person!"

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Re: Taking Hormones But Not Transitioning
« Reply #21 on: September 10, 2017, 10:26:00 pm »
I'm probably going through the same boat myself.  I'm in my late 40s and I won't be nearly as passable or ever passable as my avatar pict.  Being on hrt is calming the GD which is paramount for me.  I know some feminization will occur.  It won't be unwanted, but time will tell if it will be enough for a full transition.  I don't plan on hiding anything, just don't plan on being overly open.
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Re: Taking Hormones But Not Transitioning
« Reply #22 on: September 11, 2017, 04:38:16 am »
I'm in my late 40s . . .

Bari Jo I remember my 'late forties' you pick your moments can be lots of fun.

Could tell you stories. As a senior employee for major airline (same as BeverlyAnn now retired) my nickname was 'ponytail'  and, with uniforms being the same, from a distance was mistook for either gay or female more often than not.

A fellow 'old grump' approuched me one day exclaiming "Hey <lastname> why don't you cut your hair!" "You look like a girl!" to which I replied "As long as I don't look like an ATTRACTIVE GIRL to YOU what does it matter, why do you care??"

lol He shutup after that . . . A new, young black girl was very rude, silent toward me because she thought I was 'gay' until I told her I had 'kids & a family' we became best co-workers after that . . . Most people, when you finally declare 'the truth', find it quite amusing & are accepting to say the least.

Two big black guys I regularly worked with (on Tuesdays I think) busted out laughing one day when a 'new girl' was assigned to help until I insisted ""Hell no I'm the only girl on this pier""

Apparently I only confirmed what they were thinking all along. We used to work like dogs at 6'0' 160lbs I was in the best shape of my life. I retired from that job at 52, took 4-5 years off home with the kids and now I drive the most beautiful classic truck, fast becoming unique just like us!!!

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"But it's no use now," thought poor Alice, "to pretend be two people!
"Why, there's hardly enough of me left to make one respectable person!"

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Re: Taking Hormones But Not Transitioning
« Reply #23 on: September 11, 2017, 05:10:01 am »
I'm in my late 40s and I won't be nearly as passable or ever passable as my avatar pict. 

Yer kidding, right? Your profile pic is beautiful.
I was the same early on in my transition, then I learned a neat trick. Every day, I would look at myself in the mirror, and encourage myself aloud.
I've said this a gazillion times, we are our worst critic. We look for faults, we want to critique every aspect.
I can tell you, one day you'll believe it.

Another thing, and I believe it, its you that needs to convince you're beautiful...not necessarily what others think.
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Re: Taking Hormones But Not Transitioning
« Reply #24 on: September 11, 2017, 07:01:43 am »
Yer kidding, right? Your profile pic is beautiful.

Bari Jo! LOL I tried that "FaceApp" put yours back!! As Nina says Your as beautiful as you feel!!

Smoke too much need more help than that (always hated 'selfies", never learned 'the nack"!!)
"But it's no use now," thought poor Alice, "to pretend be two people!
"Why, there's hardly enough of me left to make one respectable person!"

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Re: Taking Hormones But Not Transitioning
« Reply #25 on: September 11, 2017, 08:07:18 am »
Yoyo-ing is bad for your mental state, it becomes all consuming.

I took a calculated risk going on HRT.  Mentally I'm in a better place, I can focus on what's actually important to me, rather than fighting my body day in, day out.

Weigh up the advantages and disadvantages - don't worry so much about the family, unless you suddenly get a hankering to show up in a mini and 8" stilettos at the next family gathering, they will tend to see what they want to see unless you choose to take your shirt off.
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Re: Taking Hormones But Not Transitioning
« Reply #26 on: September 11, 2017, 09:34:27 am »
Well, there is a SLIGHT temptation to slip on the stilettos and skirt but that won't be happening for a while! Not sure I have the legs for it and I'm sure I don't have the face for it. Still, as I read everyone's responses, I do feel better thinking that maybe I can just be me for me. Maybe I transition. Maybe I don't. Maybe I can grow boobs. Maybe I can't. But anything is better than the stress of doing nothing, I suppose. Although that's where I continue to end up.

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Re: Taking Hormones But Not Transitioning
« Reply #27 on: September 11, 2017, 09:45:14 am »
Bari Jo! LOL I tried that "FaceApp" put yours back!! As Nina says Your as beautiful as you feel!!

Smoke too much need more help than that (always hated 'selfies", never learned 'the nack"!!)

Thanks, I think.  I just switched back to the non faceapp pict that I'm comfortable with.  I prefer the other as it helps me have a goal.  It seemed to confuse others as they thought the faceapp was my true self.
My Avatar is from faceapp.  I believe this can be achieved based on my starting point, and it's pretty.  It's a guide for the girl I feel I am inside.

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Re: Taking Hormones But Not Transitioning
« Reply #28 on: September 11, 2017, 09:57:11 am »
Still, as I read everyone's responses, I do feel better thinking that maybe I can just be me for me. Maybe I transition. Maybe I don't. Maybe I can grow boobs. Maybe I can't. But anything is better than the stress of doing nothing, I suppose. Although that's where I continue to end up.
It is better than that stress.  After 2 plus years on HRT I don't wear dresses and I don't wear much makeup.  I don't feel like my old self is dead but rather that my real self is complete and at peace.  I don't present female nor do I present male but rather I present as myself.  That people often assume that self is female now just makes me happy.  I feel good, I look good (at least to myself), and my mind is now free to focus on important things rather than simply being mired in a constant morass of dysphoria.  To those who say I'm damned I say "not until you have walked a mile in my shoes."  There is nothing to lose with this but only something to find. :)
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