Thank you Danielle and Nadine. Sadly struggle has been the overarching theme of my life. I don't mention most of the things I deal with and go through on here, but the reality is that things are significantly worse than portrayed. I don't want to be a font of negativity so I keep most things to myself. I want others to believe there is hope and things will turn out well. We are inundated by the deluge of stories of struggles and failures. I don't feel that my experiences would add to that. Most of my problems have almost nothing to do with being transgender so I feel they are irrelevant to the discussion on this board.
A few things that are relevant but not here-to-for shared. I lost my insurance about 9 months ago. I cannot afford any of the options available to me due to all our other expenses ballooning. We now pay 2.5x in rent compared to what or mortgage was,. We went from 0 car payment to 2 over the last 2 years. That has eaten up almost all of our income. Being without insurance I have been without any medical care/medicines for almost 6 months now. That means no treatment for my depression, bpd, or hormones. So I've been dealing with everything including being a very angry man looks like a woman. It's honestly a cluster. I've been pushing on despite everything. I am approaching/at the point where I honestly give up. As I said the reality of everything is and always has been fat worse than the glimpses folks here are aware of. It's difficult to keep trying when you have no hope of anything ever getting better.
