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Re: Grrr, why is this so complicated?
« Reply #520 on: May 15, 2020, 09:42:09 am »
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Re: Grrr, why is this so complicated?
« Reply #521 on: October 17, 2020, 06:40:06 pm »
It's been forever.  Update.  I've completely given up on everything.

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Re: Grrr, why is this so complicated?
« Reply #522 on: October 17, 2020, 06:52:28 pm »
It's been forever.  Update.  I've completely given up on everything.

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My favorite redhead came back...  I have dearly missed you.
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       Never give up, never surrender.....
   

HUGS and welcome back, it is good to see you again,
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Re: Grrr, why is this so complicated?
« Reply #523 on: October 18, 2020, 08:30:33 am »
Hi Amber -

I can't say that I read every word of every post, but I did just spend the last hour or so reading through all 27 pages of this thread.  I just wanted to say I am so very sorry that everything has been so difficult for you over these past few years.  I wish you my very best in overcoming your struggles. 

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Re: Grrr, why is this so complicated?
« Reply #524 on: October 18, 2020, 09:13:48 am »
Thank you Danielle and Nadine.  Sadly struggle has been the overarching theme of my life.  I don't mention most of the things I deal with and go through on here, but the reality is that things are significantly worse than portrayed.  I don't want to be a font of negativity so I keep most things to myself.  I want others to believe there is hope and things will turn out well.  We are inundated by the deluge of stories of struggles and failures.  I don't feel that my experiences would add to that.  Most of my problems have almost nothing to do with being transgender so I feel they are irrelevant to the discussion on this board.

A few things that are relevant but not here-to-for shared.  I lost my insurance about 9 months ago.  I cannot afford any of the options available to me due to all our other expenses ballooning.  We now pay 2.5x in rent compared to what or mortgage was,. We went from 0 car payment to 2 over the last 2 years.  That has eaten up almost all of our income.  Being without insurance I have been without any medical care/medicines for almost 6 months now.  That means no treatment for my depression, bpd, or hormones.  So I've been dealing with everything including being a very angry man looks like a woman.  It's honestly a cluster.  I've been pushing on despite everything.  I am approaching/at the point where I honestly give up.  As I said the reality of everything is and always has been fat worse than the glimpses folks here are aware of.  It's difficult to keep trying when you have no hope of anything ever getting better.

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Re: Grrr, why is this so complicated?
« Reply #525 on: October 18, 2020, 11:23:02 am »
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Dear Amber....
Here is one of my hugs for you!!!
There are many more,
Danielle

                             
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A New Chapter: ALASKAN DANIELLE's Chronicles
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Things change re: ALASKAN DANIELLE
Positive Mindset... put away negativity

Started HRT:   March 2015
Went Full-Time    December 2016
Quit my male-mode job and relocated to a very small town in Alaska in January 2017
I'm a blonde, blue eyed woman, Age 40

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