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Re: Kathy's journey
« Reply #120 on: January 16, 2018, 04:37:59 pm »
Ouch! Some face zapping sessions are worse than others. I try to zone out and almost end up in a meditative state. I have even been known to fall asleep during a session, but there are some areas that no amount of zoning out or numbing cream can ease the pain. Upper lip near the nose cones to mind. That area causes the tears to just start flowing. I try taking my mind to a happy place, but the fire stick in my face keeps me focused on the pain. It’s a necessary evil.

I feel your pain Kathy.

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Re: Kathy's journey
« Reply #121 on: January 17, 2018, 07:44:55 am »
OMG, I have been there.  I have laughter defense mechanism, so when I giggle a little my electrocutionist knows it hurts.  Of course when we go beyond that is the problem.  My Dr prescribed me numbing cream that is 6% lidocain among other stuff.  It takes just enough edge off I don't cry.  A mental exercise of mine is thinking about the absurdity of what we are doing.  Also, another thought is when you are done that day, will be a long rest until the next time.  Hang in there!

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Re: Kathy's journey
« Reply #122 on: January 17, 2018, 08:44:52 am »
Two laser sessions ago Brandi had to scrape me off the ceiling when she was done. My internal systems had experienced an ID 10T error. I hadn’t had much water in the last 24 hours, and I drank a cup of heavily caffeinated tea on the 1:15 trip to her office. Plus I hadn’t given the numbing cream enough time to work.

This last time I attached a fire hose to the input port, avoided all caffeine like the plague, and gave the cream over an hour spin up to full RPM. For most of the session I didn’t feel a thing. Yes, there were a few spots on my neck, corners of the mouth, under the nose, that had me squeezing the life out of the foam thingy she gives me. I wish I understood how to “zone out” or whatever “mindfulness” is.

And I am terrified of hair removal at the “south pole.” I’ll do it if necessary, of course, but I’m afraid it may be permanently mentally scarring. Yes, I’m a wimp.

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Re: Kathy's journey
« Reply #123 on: January 17, 2018, 09:43:11 am »
I think I managed to avoid all the ID 10T errors.  I almost had a Nanaimo bar (a uniquely Canadian dessert that contains a lot of chocolate) at lunch, but caught myself in time.  Fluid level topped up, cream on face an hour + ahead of time, well covered with cling wrap.  But I can't imagine ever not feeling it.  The only time I didn't feel it was when I got the dentist to numb my upper and lower lips.  The best I can do is to take the edge off the pain.

I am pretty good at mindfulness, and when the numbing works well and she's only using the 'stun' setting on her phaser, I can actually get into a head space where the shocks are happening in another room.  Yesterday, she was able to clear quite a bit that way.  But towards the end of the session she was using the 'kill' setting on a few stubborn hairs, and the cream had been wiped off for an hour.

I think I might see my doctor for a prescription for something stronger.  I've got the strongest over-the-counter cream I can get, and it ain't working.

As I told my electrocutioner yesterday as I wiped my eyes, "Yeah, but it's got to be done."

I can't actually imagine doing the 'south pole'.  Fortunately, Brassard doesn't require it, and the cosmetic procedure I want doesn't need it.  Whew!
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Re: Kathy's journey
« Reply #124 on: January 17, 2018, 11:20:30 am »
I have to honestly say that the work on the “South Pole” was nowhere near as uncomfortable as doing the upper or lower lip.  No, really.

I used the EMLA cream and plastic wrap tricks down there, several small sheets of plastic in overlapping bands so my electrolyst could uncover one area and leave the cream in place on others.  That helped.

We also talked and had music playing while working on the South Pole.  That helps enormously as a distraction.

Clearing down there was done in several sessions, seperated by about 3 weeks once the initial clearing was done, to allow for the normal hair growth cycle.  Time to clear was down to about 30 minutes at the last session, mostly hunting for tiny, whispy hairs.

The electrolyst was able to use a shorter probe and lower current for the last sessions, with nothing but tiny new hairs to zap.  That was much more comfortable.  (The same is true for my face clearings, BTW)
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Re: Kathy's journey
« Reply #125 on: January 20, 2018, 05:52:06 am »
Today is a milestone in my journey: one year on HRT!  (Hear that, boobs?   Time to get growing.)
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Re: Kathy's journey
« Reply #126 on: January 20, 2018, 11:30:26 am »
Wow, a busy couple of days, and lots of posts to catch up on.  I'm doing lights and sound for a stage play that my wife is in.  Wednesday night's rehearsal was cancelled due to heavy snow, so we had it Thursday night.  Then yesterday, I had to drive 5 hours (2.5 each way) to go pick up a kitty that we are adopring.  My wife is very particular about what kind of kitty she would adopt: a neutered adult orange tabby boy.  Hence the long drive when one was available.  Fortunately, the roads were good.  The rest of the day was spent making sure the new cat and our existing animals (a greyhound and a tabby girl cat) were introduced safely.  Then this morning, we had another rehearsal.

All of which explains the one-liner post above.

Now that things have slowed down a bit, I can walk the dog, bring in firewood, and try to figure out where the @#$% mice are getting into the pantry.  No, neither cat is a mouser. :(

This real-life stuff keeps me busy!
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Re: Kathy's journey
« Reply #127 on: January 20, 2018, 01:42:19 pm »
Today is a milestone in my journey: one year on HRT!  (Hear that, boobs?   Time to get growing.)

I'm going to start talking to mine, see if that helps too:)  if not, we can always do BA.  I don't think I'd ever do anything bigger than a C anyway, you?

Bari Jo
My Avatar is from faceapp.  I believe this can be achieved based on my starting point, and it's pretty.  It's a guide for the girl I feel I am inside.

11/6/17 - came out to sister, best day of my life
9/5/17 - formal diagnosis and stopping DIY in favor if prescribed HRT
6/18/17 - decided to stop fighting the trans beast, back on DIY.
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Re: Kathy's journey
« Reply #128 on: January 20, 2018, 02:26:13 pm »
Congratulations on your one year HRT anniversary. It must be nice settling in doing simple every day normal life stuff.

I hope the cats and dog all get along well together.

Jayne
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Re: Kathy's journey
« Reply #129 on: January 20, 2018, 02:53:18 pm »
I don't think I'd ever do anything bigger than a C anyway, you?
I'd be happy with a B.  Heck, who am I kidding?  I'd even be happy with an A!  (C'mon, girls, you can do it!)
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Re: Kathy's journey
« Reply #130 on: January 20, 2018, 02:58:40 pm »
Congratulations on your one year HRT anniversary. It must be nice settling in dong simple every day normal life stuff.

I hope the cats and dog all get along well together.

Jayne
Really Jayne? What kind of simple?

Wow, a busy couple of days, and lots of posts to catch up on.  I'm doing lights and sound for a stage play that my wife is in.  Wednesday night's rehearsal was cancelled due to heavy snow, so we had it Thursday night.  Then yesterday, I had to drive 5 hours (2.5 each way) to go pick up a kitty that we are adopring.  My wife is very particular about what kind of kitty she would adopt: a neutered adult orange tabby boy.  Hence the long drive when one was available.  Fortunately, the roads were good.  The rest of the day was spent making sure the new cat and our existing animals (a greyhound and a tabby girl cat) were introduced safely.  Then this morning, we had another rehearsal.

All of which explains the one-liner post above.

Now that things have slowed down a bit, I can walk the dog, bring in firewood, and try to figure out where the @#$% mice are getting into the pantry.  No, neither cat is a mouser. :(

This real-life stuff keeps me busy!

  Mice huh? I actually saw where mine were exiting from hiding and put 2 traps there. I got 10 of the little suckers and then nothing for 2 weeks so I put the traps away.
  Congrats on the year Kathy. I keep forgetting you are a couple months behind me in HRT but I know you are way ahead in most of the rest and still pulling away. Keep it up and I'll have to get that dang passport.

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Re: Kathy's journey
« Reply #131 on: January 20, 2018, 03:14:58 pm »
Really Jayne? What kind of simple?
Simple as in everyday, nothing to do with being trans kind of stuff. ie, new cat, chasing mice, social events, etc.

Well, waiting for the boobs to grow is trans related. Maybe we can start a cheer squad.
Give me a “B”, give me an “O”, give me ..........

What’s does it spell?
boooOOOOBS!!!!!

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Re: Kathy's journey
« Reply #132 on: January 20, 2018, 10:27:43 pm »
Simple as in everyday, nothing to do with being trans kind of stuff. ie, new cat, chasing mice, social events, etc.

Well, waiting for the boobs to grow is trans related. Maybe we can start a cheer squad.
Give me a “B”, give me an “O”, give me ..........

What’s does it spell?
boooOOOOBS!!!!!

Jayne
I think you need to reread your simple post.

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Re: Kathy's journey
« Reply #133 on: January 20, 2018, 10:41:16 pm »
I think you need to reread your simple post.

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Re: Kathy's journey
« Reply #134 on: January 20, 2018, 10:53:54 pm »
Never mind Jayne I guess it's different upside down.  I corrected the typo for you.

Hugs,
  Laurie
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Re: Kathy's journey
« Reply #135 on: January 21, 2018, 06:15:30 am »
Never mind Jayne I guess it's different upside down.  I corrected the typo for you.

Hugs,
  Laurie

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