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Online Jessica

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Re: Jessica's Rose Garden
« Reply #560 on: February 14, 2019, 09:54:57 am »
Jessica, I’m sad for your brothers health. If you’ve said your goodbyes, that is all that Carl needs.

But, today is also a day of love!

Happy Valentines Day!  Give Susan a hug for us!  💕💕💕


Hugs and smiles, Jess

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Re: Jessica's Rose Garden
« Reply #561 on: February 14, 2019, 03:59:59 pm »
Jessica,

  Services are not for the person that passed.  You said your goodbyes and you do have to carry on with life.  There will always be people that want to judge. 

Sorry for your loss,

Hugs,

Julie
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Re: Jessica's Rose Garden
« Reply #562 on: February 14, 2019, 09:46:23 pm »
Thanks @Jessica and @Julie -2010 . That does make me feel a little better. Although I will still feel a bit guilty, I did go see him when he asked. Apparently he is now riddled with cancer, and all they can do is try to keep him comfortable.
My journal thread - Jessica's Rose Garden
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Re: Jessica's Rose Garden
« Reply #563 on: February 15, 2019, 11:33:05 am »
I’m sure Carl would want you to keep your surgery date. Even though you said you were not very close, you are brother and sister and that you are closer than you may realize. Big Brothers tend to like to keep everyone guessing.

Big hugs to you and yours Jess! Happy Valentines day.
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Re: Jessica's Rose Garden
« Reply #564 on: February 16, 2019, 07:11:59 am »
One year ago today I came out at work, and Jessica has never looked back. I was scared, I had no idea how my co-workers would react, but my soul was ready to leave the dark place where she had been imprisoned all of her life. I still find it hard to believe how far I have come. I have a second chance in life, and this time I did not allow others to tell me who I am.

This was the hardest thing I have ever done, and it was also the most rewarding. I still feel anguish over many of the things I did in my past life, even though that wasn't really me. Although slowly fading, those memories will haunt me for the rest of my days. I had been on the road to destruction, now I travel down an unfamiliar, yet joyful path. I survived the darkness, and soon I will be free. In just five days I will be having GCS.

The refrain from "I Am Woman" by Helen Reddy sums up how I feel:

"Yes I am wise, but it's wisdom born of pain.
Yes I've paid a price, but look how much I've gained.
If I have to, I can do anything.
I am strong, I am invincible, I am woman
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My family stayed by my side, the people who mattered most in my life accepted me, and I have made many new friends. I am at peace. I could not have done this without the help of my friends here at Susan's Place. I owe you more than I can ever repay. Thank you.

Love always -- Jessica Rose

Feb 2017 - March 2018 - Feb 2019
My journal thread - Jessica's Rose Garden
My National Coming Out Day video - Coming Out - Jessica Rose
My GCS Thread - GCS and BA with Dr. Ley on 21 Feb 2019 - Jessica_Rose
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Re: Jessica's Rose Garden
« Reply #565 on: February 16, 2019, 03:11:02 pm »
Lovely transformation and progress. Hugs
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Re: Jessica's Rose Garden
« Reply #566 on: February 16, 2019, 11:16:20 pm »
Wow Jessica, what a great change! I'll bet your coworkers like you better now. I'd certainly be more comfortable with the woman on the right.

Good luck on your surgery! I'm sure with your positive outlook that it will go well. Sometimes pain is the portal to progress.

I'm so sorry about the impending loss of your brother. You've done what you needed to do for him. Now take care of yourself.

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Re: Jessica's Rose Garden
« Reply #567 on: February 19, 2019, 12:48:34 pm »
One year ago today I came out at work, and Jessica has never looked back. I was scared, I had no idea how my co-workers would react, but my soul was ready to leave the dark place where she had been imprisoned all of her life. I still find it hard to believe how far I have come. I have a second chance in life, and this time I did not allow others to tell me who I am.

This was the hardest thing I have ever done, and it was also the most rewarding. I still feel anguish over many of the things I did in my past life, even though that wasn't really me. Although slowly fading, those memories will haunt me for the rest of my days. I had been on the road to destruction, now I travel down an unfamiliar, yet joyful path. I survived the darkness, and soon I will be free. In just five days I will be having GCS.

The refrain from "I Am Woman" by Helen Reddy sums up how I feel:

"Yes I am wise, but it's wisdom born of pain.
Yes I've paid a price, but look how much I've gained.
If I have to, I can do anything.
I am strong, I am invincible, I am woman
."

My family stayed by my side, the people who mattered most in my life accepted me, and I have made many new friends. I am at peace. I could not have done this without the help of my friends here at Susan's Place. I owe you more than I can ever repay. Thank you.

Love always -- Jessica Rose

Feb 2017 - March 2018 - Feb 2019


Right back at you Jessica! Onward through our journey's we go girl. Your GCS is coming up fast. Congratulations and a speedy recovery.

Hugs.
Rebirth June 9, 2017. Started HRT August 22, 2017. Came out June 16, 2017, Full time July 9, 2018.
Started FHR August 9, 2018, Started VFT September 19, 2018, Name and Gender change October 19. 2018.

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Re: Jessica's Rose Garden
« Reply #568 on: February 21, 2019, 11:29:53 am »
Hi Jessica,                              21 February 019

Congratulations, this is your Big Day. I wish you God Speed and God Bless you. Your post of 16 February brought tears of joy, your words and pictures said it all. Looking forward to following you in your path later this year, hopefully in Phoenix and with Dr. Ley.

Best Always, Love
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Re: Jessica's Rose Garden
« Reply #569 on: February 21, 2019, 05:24:07 pm »
Woke up about two hours ago. No issues during surgery. All is well!
My journal thread - Jessica's Rose Garden
My National Coming Out Day video - Coming Out - Jessica Rose
My GCS Thread - GCS and BA with Dr. Ley on 21 Feb 2019 - Jessica_Rose
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Re: Jessica's Rose Garden
« Reply #570 on: February 21, 2019, 05:33:52 pm »
Woke up about two hours ago. No issues during surgery. All is well!

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Re: Jessica's Rose Garden
« Reply #571 on: February 21, 2019, 06:01:46 pm »
Woke up about two hours ago. No issues during surgery. All is well!

@Jessica_Rose
Dear Jessica:
This is very wonderful news, thank you for posting your update and your good report.
Your 3 pictures that you recently posted are a terrific testimony to not only HRT but also your desire to transform into the beautiful woman that you are.   HRT does not do it alone, your efforts are essential and they have paid off big time.

Thank you for sharing with all of your followers, we are you biggest fans and are always rooting for your success.
Heal well and recover in good time.
Hugs and best wishes,
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Re: Jessica's Rose Garden
« Reply #572 on: February 21, 2019, 06:07:59 pm »
Woo-hoo!!  Congratulations, Jessica!
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Re: Jessica's Rose Garden
« Reply #573 on: February 21, 2019, 06:38:30 pm »
Congratulations Jessica, now best wishes for your recovery.

Tia Anne & Deb

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Re: Jessica's Rose Garden
« Reply #574 on: February 21, 2019, 10:20:33 pm »
Woke up about two hours ago. No issues during surgery. All is well!

Jessica,  Congratulations!!  So happy for you.  I'm glad everything went well.

Hugs

Julie
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Re: Jessica's Rose Garden
« Reply #575 on: February 22, 2019, 01:00:44 am »
Wow!  Nice and fast! And up and posting so quickly!  I bet you’ll be one of those fast healers.

Now, just follow doctors orders and heal without damage to your better bits.

Congratulations, girl!
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Re: Jessica's Rose Garden
« Reply #576 on: February 22, 2019, 01:08:34 am »
Sorry girl!!! I went to a FFluid meeting tonight I just got home and settled in for the night. I hope you will be able to get a good night's sleep dear. Big hugs girl


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Re: Jessica's Rose Garden
« Reply #577 on: February 22, 2019, 01:19:21 am »
Woke up about two hours ago. No issues during surgery. All is well!
Great to hear you are awake and no problem with the surgery

Congratulations


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Re: Jessica's Rose Garden
« Reply #578 on: February 22, 2019, 04:03:21 am »
Thanks everyone!

I seem to be waking up every hour or so, but all things considered I am feeling great. If you want more details, check the link to my GCS thread in my signature.
My journal thread - Jessica's Rose Garden
My National Coming Out Day video - Coming Out - Jessica Rose
My GCS Thread - GCS and BA with Dr. Ley on 21 Feb 2019 - Jessica_Rose
23 Mar 2017 - Started Estradiol
16 Feb 2018 - Out at work / Full Time!
21 Feb 2019 - GCS w/Dr. Ley
"It is never too late to be what you might have been." - George Eliot



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Re: Jessica's Rose Garden
« Reply #579 on: February 25, 2019, 12:45:37 pm »
Susan has taken my surgery extremely well. She is always at my side when I need help, and she makes sure that I have everything I need. She is out shopping right now, I asked her to be courteous and leave a few things behind for other shoppers! Recovery is still going smoothly. Wednesday is the big day -- packing removal and start of dilation. If all goes well I will be released on Saturday (2 March), and we will begin the drive home on Sunday. I don't return to work until 8 April, and we have a friend taking care of our furry kids, so there is no rush to get home. Hopefully it will only take 2 - 3 days for the 12-13 hour drive, but we will need to watch the weather and road conditions closely.
My journal thread - Jessica's Rose Garden
My National Coming Out Day video - Coming Out - Jessica Rose
My GCS Thread - GCS and BA with Dr. Ley on 21 Feb 2019 - Jessica_Rose
23 Mar 2017 - Started Estradiol
16 Feb 2018 - Out at work / Full Time!
21 Feb 2019 - GCS w/Dr. Ley
"It is never too late to be what you might have been." - George Eliot



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