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Offline TonyaW

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Re: This Is Me
« Reply #340 on: December 08, 2019, 01:47:10 am »
Looking beautiful as always, Tonya:)

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Re: This Is Me
« Reply #341 on: December 11, 2019, 07:05:26 am »
Doctor appointment Monday.
Labs better but I still think the estrogen is too low. Asked about increasing snx she is agreeable but we are holding off until after surgery.

From progress notes on mychart that my doctor shared with me, I found out something about my surgery that is either really awesome or potentially bad.
Insurance PA is expiring on 01/17/20 and some one has me down for that date for my surgery. I've no conformation of that from anywhere and from what I've gathered its quite unlikely that the surgeon can fit me in then or before. That would throw it back to the insurance and then who knows. I sent yet another message to the surgeon saying I was confused. I know they're understaffed there so hope I'm not seeming like a pest about it.

Couple things going on this week.  Holiday party for our apartment complex that I'm actually not working during so we've planned to go. 

Thursday is Christmas on the Avenue a benefit concert for the local nonprofit radio station that's always on in my car.  It's part of Dan Rodriguez's "All I Want For Christmas Is Whiskey" tour. 

Friday we fly to Phoenix for what will be a rather emotional couple of days.  Had to burn up some vacation days and this is the only time that fit with everything. Reason for going is to visit my step dad. His cancer has come back and has been told its not going away this time.  The timing is such that we will be there on what would have been my mom's 81st birthday on Saturday. The funeral home that her service was at has a holiday service for the families they served during the year, and it happens to be on Saturday.

Throw the usual bits of dysphoria on top of the stress of waiting for the surgery to get scheduled, the upcoming weekend and the first Christmas without my mom and I've been an emotional wreck lately.

Here's my HRT levels since forever if anyone is interested


ESTRADIOL LEVELS
SEX                     pg/ml
Women (> 18 years old)    
      Follicular Phase  30-120
      Ovulatory Peak   130-370
      Luteal Phase      70-250
      Post-Menopausal   15-60
Male                    15-60

TOTAL TESTOSTERONE LEVELS
SEX      ng/dl        ng/ml
Females  6 - 86     0.1 - 1.2
Males  270 - 1100   2.4 - 12

Conversion factor: 1 ng/ml = 3.47 nmol/l


Pre-hrt 02/17/17
Test 437
Est     19

05/10/17
Test  156
Est      61

08/10/17
Test  32
Est    73  

02/13/18
Test  3. 
Est.  162

12/05/18
Test 26
Est 58

03/05/19
Test 26
Est 56

12/09/19
Test 10
Est 72






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Re: This Is Me
« Reply #342 on: December 11, 2019, 07:08:25 am »
Doctor appointment Monday.
Labs better but I still think the estrogen is too low. Asked about increasing snx she is agreeable but we are holding off until after surgery.

From progress notes on mychart that my doctor shared with me, I found out something about my surgery that is either really awesome or potentially bad.
Insurance PA is expiring on 01/17/20 and some one has me down for that date for my surgery. I've no conformation of that from anywhere and from what I've gathered its quite unlikely that the surgeon can fit me in then or before. That would throw it back to the insurance and then who knows. I sent yet another message to the surgeon saying I was confused. I know they're understaffed there so hope I'm not seeming like a pest about it.

Couple things going on this week.  Holiday party for our apartment complex that I'm actually not working during so we've planned to go. 

Thursday is Christmas on the Avenue a benefit concert for the local nonprofit radio station that's always on in my car.  It's part of Dan Rodriguez's "All I Want For Christmas Is Whiskey" tour. 

Friday we fly to Phoenix for what will be a rather emotional couple of days.  Had to burn up some vacation days and this is the only time that fit with everything. Reason for going is to visit my step dad. His cancer has come back and has been told its not going away this time.  The timing is such that we will be there on what would have been my mom's 81st birthday on Saturday. The funeral home that her service was at has a holiday service for the families they served during the year, and it happens to be on Saturday.

Throw the usual bits of dysphoria on top of the stress of waiting for the surgery to get scheduled, the upcoming weekend and the first Christmas without my mom and I've been an emotional wreck lately.

Here's my HRT levels since forever if anyone is interested


ESTRADIOL LEVELS
SEX                     pg/ml
Women (> 18 years old)   
      Follicular Phase  30-120
      Ovulatory Peak   130-370
      Luteal Phase      70-250
      Post-Menopausal   15-60
Male                    15-60

TOTAL TESTOSTERONE LEVELS
SEX      ng/dl        ng/ml
Females  6 - 86     0.1 - 1.2
Males  270 - 1100   2.4 - 12

Conversion factor: 1 ng/ml = 3.47 nmol/l


Pre-hrt 02/17/17
Test 437
Est     19

05/10/17
Test  156
Est      61

08/10/17
Test  32
Est    73 

02/13/18
Test  3.
Est.  162

12/05/18
Test 26
Est 58

03/05/19
Test 26
Est 56

12/09/19
Test 10
Est 72






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Gosh, you have a lot going on. Sending hugs for support. Xxx


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Re: This Is Me
« Reply #343 on: December 12, 2019, 06:22:08 pm »
Me too! Hugs Tonya to get through everything coming up.

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Re: This Is Me
« Reply #344 on: December 13, 2019, 01:36:41 pm »
Gosh, you have a lot going on. Sending hugs for support. Xxx


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Me too! Hugs Tonya to get through everything coming up.
Thanks Pammie and Maddie.

In Milwaukee having lunch with the youngins before we head to airport.

Christmas concert last night, Dan Rodriguez All I Want for Christmas is Whiskey  tour.

Bought a couple CDs after which Dan signed for us. 

Knew the song in the link below was coming but of course I still cried through the whole song.


https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=282361922410239&id=163871216662





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Re: This Is Me
« Reply #345 on: January 24, 2020, 09:46:30 pm »
Squee. 

July 8th is the day I will need to learn how to pee again.

A reserved squee since it's later than I was hoping for and will need to go through insurance approval again. Our plan year runs June 1 to May 31 so its possible a new plan will need to approve it.



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Re: This Is Me
« Reply #346 on: January 24, 2020, 09:52:47 pm »
Squee. 

July 8th is the day I will need to learn how to pee again.

A reserved squee since it's later than I was hoping for and will need to go through insurance approval again. Our plan year runs June 1 to May 31 so its possible a new plan will need to approve it.

Well, I’m not reserving it.

SQUEEEE!!

BTW, peeing isn’t the problem. Keeping your butt dry... that’s a problem. It is, as @HappyMoni says, “messy pees.”


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Re: This Is Me
« Reply #347 on: January 24, 2020, 10:02:49 pm »
Well, I’m not reserving it.

SQUEEEE!!

BTW, peeing isn’t the problem. Keeping your butt dry... that’s a problem. It is, as @HappyMoni says, “messy pees.”


- Stephanie
Yes, what I meant was learning how to pee with out making a mess. 

And thank you

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Re: This Is Me
« Reply #348 on: January 24, 2020, 10:09:17 pm »
Yes, what I meant was learning how to pee with out making a mess. 

And thank you

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4 1/2 months post-op and still kinda messy. Getting better though!


- Stephanie
Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/11/2019 * Name and Gender Change on Birth Certificate 11/21/2019 * Accepted Internally That Transition is Completed 11/28/2019

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Re: This Is Me
« Reply #349 on: January 25, 2020, 06:42:45 am »
4 1/2 months post-op and still kinda messy. Getting better though!


- Stephanie
I think my doctor said it would be 6 months  (maybe it was a year even) before all the swelling is gone and things healed before the stream would go straight down.

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Re: This Is Me
« Reply #350 on: January 28, 2020, 10:51:48 pm »
Hi Tonya girl
Happy for your date in July :)
Squee now and more squee to come as this drama plays out with renewals, approvals, and signoffigans


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Re: This Is Me
« Reply #351 on: January 29, 2020, 06:44:50 am »
Hi Tonya girl
Happy for your date in July :)
Squee now and more squee to come as this drama plays out with renewals, approvals, and signoffigans
Hoping for no more drama.  One positive of the July date and insurance renewal in June is that I should be able to opt for the lower deductible plan to lower my out of pocket costs. I'll have to run the math of higher premiums vs the lower deductible when open enrollment comes up.

PS

Love the new avatar pic

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Re: This Is Me
« Reply #352 on: July 10, 2020, 08:01:01 am »
I know i haven't posted here in awhile but if anyone is still watching or remembers,  I had my surgery with Dr Gast in Madison on Wednesday. Shallow vaginoplasty,  dressing came off this morning so should be leaving hospital today.

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Re: This Is Me
« Reply #353 on: July 10, 2020, 08:19:02 am »
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Re: This Is Me
« Reply #354 on: July 10, 2020, 09:39:41 am »
Congratulations Tonya!
Big healing hugs.
Happyily wishing you recovery and comfort.

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Re: This Is Me
« Reply #355 on: July 10, 2020, 01:36:08 pm »
Speedy recovery dear, long wait but now you are whole .XXX
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Re: This Is Me
« Reply #356 on: June 09, 2021, 06:46:35 pm »
@TonyaW
Dear Tonya:
It is has been almost a year since you last posted on your thread.  I and the rest of your followers really miss seeing and reading your updates and postings....   I trust that you are OK and staying healthy and happy.

Now, an important part of my reply posting to you..........

YOUR Birthday to celebrate tomorrow on June 10th

All of us here on the Forums are wishing you
....a very :icon_flower: :icon_flower: Happy Birthday :icon_flower: :icon_flower:
I hope that your special day includes time with family and friends...
... with  Candles and CAKE.


***NOTE: On June 10th be certain to check your profile for a special birthday surprise! :)

HUGS and best wishes on your special day and birthday.
Danielle

                     
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Re: This Is Me
« Reply #357 on: July 22, 2021, 03:10:30 pm »
Still alive. Still golfing. 

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Re: This Is Me
« Reply #358 on: July 22, 2021, 03:15:16 pm »
@TonyaW
Dear Tonya:
Thank you for logging in again and letting all of us know that you are still alive and kickin'

When you have the time and only if you feel comfortable sharing and posting, it would be
great to read about your healing and recovery from last year's surgery.

HUGS and best wishes to you.
Danielle
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The Ramblings of a Northern*Star Girl
A New Chapter: ALASKAN DANIELLE's Chronicles
I am the HUNTED PREY: Danielle’s Chronicles
Things change re: ALASKAN DANIELLE
Positive Mindset... put away negativity

Started HRT:   March 2015
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Quit my male-mode job and relocated to a very small town in Alaska in January 2017
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Re: This Is Me
« Reply #359 on: July 22, 2021, 03:18:15 pm »
Looking smashing dear, dont be so long before posting as we miss you
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