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New here! Pre-HRT transwoman
« on: September 16, 2018, 10:39:16 am »
Hello there! Name's Alyssa!

Or at least that's what it will be... not my legal name yet!  :P

I'm fairly new to the trans community, since coming out of my ignorance toward gender identity... during my childhood up until late 20's... I'm 28 right now and only just learned that HRT and SRS were a thing at 27. Recently started dressing female, wearing makeup and also practicing my voice towards feminizing myself and feeling super hyped about it! Peers at work that know I'm trans have noticed a brightening of my mood ever since I've started ''coming out'' as a transwoman.

Very positive about the future, that I am!! But... my past wasn't that positive... er... very dark and sad indeed...

 I always knew I was different, and more inclined towards feminine things and activities, so much that it had attracted bullies during my childhood. I had to learn to be masculine... even if I disliked it to go on through life. Sealing away my feminine identity almost proved to be fatal with depression and suicidal ideology... Nobody knew i had a set to hang myself... not even my parents.

Always sported long hair and no beard (I had a mental meltdown when I started having body hair), the only times I had cut my hair were to get a job... had to cover mirrors at home 'cause I hated seeing myself with short, masculine haircuts... gender dysphoria at it's best...  :'(

Nowadays I work at a GM yogurt industry... it's been 3 years already! Loving the people there! Also, after coming out some of my colleagues (most of them female) have told me they had a relative who has had transitioned, and supporting me in my quest to transition and practice being female again. It feels so great to be supported that way!  :angel:

But...

Requesting HRT doesn't seem easy at all! Especially since my GP has retired so I have to wait for a new one... Let alone SRS, especially in Canada... Seems like everywhere have months of waiting to just get an appointment... it's scary! Closest landmark city is Montreal... but still... the wait times... Ugh! I don't know what to do anymore!  ???

Budget is a non-issue but I'd like to be full-time female sooner than later!  >:(

Well at least there's the GRC there with specialized SRS surgeons. That's one good thing at least!  ;)


... that aside, I'm glad to have found Susan's transgender community, I already feel like it's going to be family.  :D
Here's a preview of how I look when dressed and wearing makeup! https://scontent.fymy1-2.fna.fbcdn.net/v/t1.0-9/40421317_117505362533227_1451672965790826496_n.jpg?_nc_cat=0&oh=ef5269a7d50f81164bc1744c76f815aa&oe=5C30868B
Do note I'm wearing silicone breasts... These are 36D, otherwise I'm 36AA obviously!  :P
Tell me what you think!  :-*

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Re: New here! Pre-HRT transwoman
« Reply #1 on: September 16, 2018, 11:00:06 am »
Welcome to the site Alyssa.  I hope all goes well with your upcoming transition to female.
Assigned Male at Birth - 1958
Came out as Gay  1994
Came out, started living full time - Thanksgiving 2015
Started HRT - 5-27-2016

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Re: New here! Pre-HRT transwoman
« Reply #2 on: September 16, 2018, 11:17:31 am »
Hey Alyssa!

Congratulations with realisation of who you really are and with having such supportive surrounding! Btw you looks great and I think you have a lot of potential :)

We're more or less at same stage now :) I'm 27 and just recently found out transgenders are exist and I'm not freak. Right now I try to solve some general problems like finding new job, quit smoke and lose weight, so you'll probably will be ahead of me :) Pls share your progress with us so I could follow :)

And yeah warm welcome ;)

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Re: New here! Pre-HRT transwoman
« Reply #3 on: September 16, 2018, 11:30:42 am »
Hi Alyssa 🙋‍♀️ Welcome to Susan’s Place!  I’m Jessica.
Wow Alyssa, you are on a very positive path to be who you are!
You are a very beautiful woman!
I’m so happy you are getting support at work.
There are some other Canadian members here that may have some tips for you.

I see your new here, so I’ll post some links that may help you get better acquainted with the site. Pay attention to the site rules they can be of great help and don’t forget the link highlighted red.  It has answers to questions that are commonly asked.  Then join in on a topic you find interesting and learn and share.



Things that you should read

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Re: New here! Pre-HRT transwoman
« Reply #4 on: September 16, 2018, 01:27:35 pm »
Alyssa
I wish you well on your journey, and the pic looks wonderful.
I'm a gender confused old man. I believe that I was influenced by DES. I have crossdressed in public a few times (my avatar picture which is doctored a little bit). But I also like being a guy, at least a feminine guy. I don't care for the testosterone driven sex drive as it has gotten me in trouble a few times. Hence I am on Spiro only right now (started July 16, 2018), with a possibility of an orchiectomy later.


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Re: New here! Pre-HRT transwoman
« Reply #5 on: September 16, 2018, 03:58:41 pm »
Hi Alyssa  :icon_wave:

Welcome to Susan's Place  :)  Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

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Re: New here! Pre-HRT transwoman
« Reply #6 on: September 16, 2018, 07:13:50 pm »
@alyssalove2790
Dear Alyssalove2790 :
I see that you were just welcomed here earlier today by our lovely California Girl  @Jessica ....
... if you would, please allow me to also give you a warm WELCOME TO SUSAN'S PLACE

I am thinking that you may have lots more questions and concerns, this is the right place for you to be to find out what others have done that may have been in your circumstances.
Be aware that there are a lot of members here that can identify with your situation..
 
You will find this a safe and friendly place to share with others  and to read about others similar trials, tribulations, and successes.  When frustrated or if you have successes you can share it here on the Forums if you wish and receive support from others and offer support to others. ....

 ***It's a very good chance that you might find that you will make some new friends here. 
Please come in and continue to be involved at your own pace. 

In her Welcome Message  Jessica  included Important LINKS that will tell you about Susan's Place.  Included there is information about the site that will help you navigate around and best utilize the features here.   
Please look closely at the LINKS in RED, answers are there to many questions that new members ask.   

Please don't be a stranger, we want to share postings and thoughts with you.

Again, Welcome to Susan's Place.
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Re: New here! Pre-HRT transwoman
« Reply #7 on: September 16, 2018, 07:20:11 pm »
Hi! I'm just a bit younger than you and only recently came around to fully realizing I might be happier if I transitioned as well. You look really good in your picture!

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Re: New here! Pre-HRT transwoman
« Reply #8 on: September 16, 2018, 08:27:10 pm »
Thank you everyone!! Your words of encouragement means a lot to me!  ^-^

Just woke up for another weekend night, indulging myself with butterscotch flavored coffee and browsing through the forum rules and guidelines posted here.  ;)

The night is young! Oh... I do live the night 'cause night shift work and I like it more than daytime work. You can label me a vampire I suppose!  >:-) :P


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Re: New here! Pre-HRT transwoman
« Reply #9 on: September 16, 2018, 08:39:17 pm »
Thank you everyone!! Your words of encouragement means a lot to me!  ^-^

Just woke up for another weekend night, indulging myself with butterscotch flavored coffee and browsing through the forum rules and guidelines posted here.  ;)

The night is young! Oh... I do live the night 'cause night shift work and I like it more than daytime work. You can label me a vampire I suppose!  >:-) :P

When had to work occasionally at night, I was a zombie the next day!

... it's like running a car on ethanol when it's supposed to take gasoline... it'll work, but it's eventually gonna break down until you put it on the proper fuel.

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Re: New here! Pre-HRT transwoman
« Reply #10 on: September 16, 2018, 08:56:30 pm »
The trick is to sleep at day when living during the night. I hold no interest in brains!

I prefer my blood- er I mean tomato juice!

Teehee!  :P

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Re: New here! Pre-HRT transwoman
« Reply #11 on: September 17, 2018, 12:01:16 am »
hi Alyssa :)

Your excitement and happiness is wonderful, and nice picture! :)

back 2 or 3 weeks ago I thought I would wait for 3 or 4 months before starting HRT. I'm really glad I was feeling impatient and tried to setup a dr appointment, because yeah, at the LGBT clinic here there is a 3 month wait for the first appointment for me as well.

I think I knew, before my "awakening", that transitioning was something people did, but I never really knew that I could do that or that it was an option for me... if you know what I mean. I felt so alone, so... alien, before the awakening (not sure what to call it so thats what i'm going with lol.... ) I kinda took it from Brene Brown (okay, totally took it from her). A book of hers is really hitting home.. its not specific to trans but still a good psychological assistance type of book: https://www.amazon.com/Gifts-Imperfection-Think-Supposed-Embrace-ebook/dp/B00BS03LL6/ref=sr_1_5?ie=UTF8&qid=1537160244&sr=8-5&keywords=brene+brown

Best,
Anita




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