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Re: Darn Endocrinologist
« Reply #220 on: March 13, 2020, 05:45:21 pm »
Yayyyyy! Different grocery store but another Male Fail! I gotta get out of the house more often!

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Re: Darn Endocrinologist
« Reply #221 on: March 13, 2020, 05:46:48 pm »
Yayyyyy! Different grocery store but another Male Fail! I gotta get out of the house more often!



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Re: Darn Endocrinologist
« Reply #222 on: March 13, 2020, 09:29:00 pm »
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Re: Darn Endocrinologist
« Reply #223 on: March 13, 2020, 10:16:27 pm »
Surely headed for a miserable fall, but I'll take it while I can get it.

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Re: Darn Endocrinologist
« Reply #224 on: March 21, 2020, 02:29:14 am »
Far out! Best Male Fail yet!


Was purchasing my last pre-lockdown groceries today when someone called to me (from behind), "Excuse me, Miss?"
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Re: Darn Endocrinologist
« Reply #225 on: March 21, 2020, 07:01:27 am »
Far out! Best Male Fail yet!


Was purchasing my last pre-lockdown groceries today when someone called to me (from behind), "Excuse me, Miss?"
It’s one of those weird situations where you just want to SQUEEEE right then and there, but you have be to so careful not to overreact and out yourself. It’s such a wonderful feeling! It’s obvious you can look forward to more and more occurrences until it becomes “the new norm.” Believe me, though, it never gets old!

Congratulations, girl!


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Re: Darn Endocrinologist
« Reply #226 on: March 21, 2020, 10:30:43 am »
Plus, maybe I don't have a middle-aged hiney!


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Re: Darn Endocrinologist
« Reply #227 on: March 21, 2020, 01:36:54 pm »
Plus, maybe I don't have a middle-aged hiney!


It was pointed out to me a while ago that when we are done with transition and fat redistribution, we may end up with body shapes that are the envy of many ciswomen because we won’t have the middle age spread.

I admit that I am thrilled with the shape I ended up with. Full disclosure, I short cut the process by getting lipo body sculpting. They pulled fat out of my mid section and put it where I needed it. I think it would have happened naturally over time, but at my age I don’t have time to waste. Warning: out of everything I’ve had done, including GCS, it was by far the most painful procedure I had done.

I would try to show what I ended up with with a bikini pic (I’ve tried already in the “You Look Fabulous Darling” thread) but Tapatalk won’t post it because it thinks it’s porn. I admit it’s disturbing, but not for that reason!


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Re: Darn Endocrinologist
« Reply #228 on: March 21, 2020, 05:03:10 pm »
Stephanie! I could use a little help from lipo body sculpting myself. Admittedly my first endo kept me at a very low dose for the first half of my time on HRT, so I didn't see much change. The second half was only marginally better on a full dose. But with injections, I've seen a major boost growth in the girls but still marginal in my hips and derriere.

I have a friend that went through lipo body sculpting a few months ago. It may be due to who she went to but it was a horrible experience for her. They did the procedure and sent her on her way the same day.

I understand Kaiser may eventually cover lipo body sculpting, but as you described it and seeing what my friend went through, I may give HRT another year or so before signing up. It is a cause of dysphoria for me.
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Re: Darn Endocrinologist
« Reply #229 on: April 07, 2020, 12:17:20 pm »
Ah, estrogen! Time for my weekly shot of sweet, sweet estrogen! Wish I'd had this stuff when I was going through my first puberty.

If anyone wonders why my recent Male Fails are all happening at grocery stores, it's because I'm the one in my household who runs errands during lockdown. No sense in exposing everyone else.

And I got another Male Fail the other day at another grocery store!  :D

This time it was a little guy, maybe five years old. I passed him and his mother in the aisle, and he referred to me as "that lady" in talking to his mom. Seems that a ponytail, makeup, nail polish, and breasts are pretty strong cues. Go figure.
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Re: Darn Endocrinologist
« Reply #230 on: April 28, 2020, 05:48:50 pm »
Got some feedback I never would have expected today.

My youngest is back home from college, finishing out the term online. She's a little slip of a thing, maybe 100 lbs. soaking wet.

Today she told me, "The only thing I don't like about your transition is that your breasts are bigger than mine!"



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Re: Darn Endocrinologist
« Reply #231 on: April 28, 2020, 06:55:07 pm »
What do they say?, .... "From the mouths of babes!"!  That is wonderful.  Please give her a big hug from all of us.

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Re: Darn Endocrinologist
« Reply #232 on: April 28, 2020, 09:48:42 pm »
Being a fond, foolish father, I think my kid is utterly gorgeous, and she looks entirely proportionate to my eyes.

I, on the other hand, am short and barrel-chested, sorta like a fire hydrant with arms - I don't yet have anywhere near the development I desire and wouldn't doubt that BA lies in the future should I wish to have a pair that suits my build.

(How about that for a long sentence? Y'all think I don't have fun playing with the language when I post on here?)

So... yeah. My poor baby. Of all my many misdeeds as a parent, I never thought I'd make her jealous of my rack.
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Re: Darn Endocrinologist
« Reply #233 on: May 10, 2020, 11:05:42 am »
Oh, Lordy! I'm still sniffling over this one.

The kid had to hotfoot it out this morning to get a Mother's Day card before DW got up. Kid called me in from the other room that I could sign it.

When I sat down, where was printed "Happy Mother's Day," she had crossed out the apostrophe and had signed "To the mother I've always had, and to the one I'm just getting to know."

Getting choked up recounting this. Feels like my feet are floating about twelve inches off the ground.

Things were pretty bad between her and me for all my rotten behavior during my long years of drinking. I definitely needed to make a change from that life, and it hasn't been easy or fun. But maybe there is a little hope life can get better, huh?
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Re: Darn Endocrinologist
« Reply #234 on: May 11, 2020, 03:34:13 pm »
Oh, Lordy! I'm still sniffling over this one.

The kid had to hotfoot it out this morning to get a Mother's Day card before DW got up. Kid called me in from the other room that I could sign it.

When I sat down, where was printed "Happy Mother's Day," she had crossed out the apostrophe and had signed "To the mother I've always had, and to the one I'm just getting to know."

Getting choked up recounting this. Feels like my feet are floating about twelve inches off the ground.

Things were pretty bad between her and me for all my rotten behavior during my long years of drinking. I definitely needed to make a change from that life, and it hasn't been easy or fun. But maybe there is a little hope life can get better, huh?

Battle Goddess,  I'm happy you were able to feel so good on Mother's Day. 

......"To the mother I've always had, and to the one I'm just getting to know."......

That is truly awesome  :)


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Re: Darn Endocrinologist
« Reply #235 on: May 12, 2020, 11:29:17 am »
That is a beautiful sentiment!

Sounds like more than a little hope.
Thanks for sharing. Please keep enjoying the rollercoaster ride.
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Re: Darn Endocrinologist
« Reply #236 on: May 12, 2020, 05:04:43 pm »
That was an awesome card. It sounds like your daughter is trying to patch the past and move forward.
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Re: Darn Endocrinologist
« Reply #237 on: June 01, 2020, 11:31:04 pm »
Started out writing a post about anosmia to the coronavirus thread, but it ended up getting all personal and reflective, so I decided to put it here instead.

Just for reference, a certain level of anosmia runs in my family. We don't have good senses of smell or taste. I'm fortunate in that I can still smell natural gas, but it's hard to recognize when food has begun to turn. Am perpetually bemused that DW throws away food that smells perfectly good, and I have been very curious what it's been like for folks who have become anosmic as a result of covid.

Hadn't expected it, but HRT has begun to somewhat lift the cloak of my anosmia. I can smell and taste much more vividly! It's thrilling and fascinating, but I also find myself evolving coping strategies. It's not that the new smells are overpowering, but I'm not quite prepared to deal with all of them. Too many mice headed for the mousehole all at the same time. It's just too much.

That's sort of how it was when I was first coming to grips with the unnerving possibility that I might be trans.

I'm a very data-oriented person. Trusting my feelings isn't comfortable. I want empirical evidence. Why was I recognizing this possibility now, I perplexedly wondered? Wth happened? All these new feelings like popcorn kernels bursting one after the other in a mushrooming cascade... it's not that I denied the possibility, but I had to figure out how to dull the clamor and get space to think.

I wish I could have just accepted the possibility right then and there. Meemaw didn't teach me to stand in front of freight trains. The feelings were the empirical data. I was just too scared to admit it. Spent so much time instead with therapists and trying to placate DW and navel-gazing and promising myself that I wouldn't do anything stupid or rash, and it was all time I could have been spending not fighting it. Phooey.

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Re: Darn Endocrinologist
« Reply #238 on: June 10, 2020, 01:53:03 pm »
Pretty fair day at the ol' grocery store today. Two male falls in one trip!

Best of all, one of them wasn't based on how i looked. It was based on my voice! I've been working so hard on pitch and on moving my resonances from my diaphragm into my upper air column, and its so tiring on my throat muscles, and one gets so frustrated with what feel to me are meager results.

However, once when I asked a clerk for some help, he was looking down at his work but still acknowledged me with a, "Yes, ma'am?"



Must be doing something right!
   


Ooooooh - forgot to mention - managed to get Blue Cross to update their systems, and now my first name is my chosen name as far as they're concerned. They're mailing the new insurance cards.

I guess they don't care what they call me as long as the surname on my policy matches the surname on my bank account.

Dude who took my call was really great about it. I think he was refused at first, so he escalated the request and got approval as long as we only changed my first name.
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Re: Darn Endocrinologist
« Reply #239 on: July 01, 2020, 09:30:09 pm »
Well, it's finally come to this.

I drank pickle juice today.




I'd always thought the stories were stupid. Who'd actually drink the stuff? Honestly, how ridiculous. Even if spironolactone made you want a little extra salt every now and again, c'mon. Pickle juice? And anyway, I'd never really felt that side effect.

Yet today, I could feel I wanted salt really badly. Beats me why. I just did. There were dill pickles in the fridge. They tasted good. Then I remembered those ridiculous stories of people drinking the pickle juice.

What could it hurt? Just my self-imposed sense of dignity, I guess, so I tried some. Holy Socks, it was good!

Let's face it - that "dignity" is really just an internalized sense of shame hiding behind a snooty mask, and I have nothing to be ashamed of. I'm not ashamed to be trans, I'm not ashamed to be transitioning, I'm delighted that I have meds to take, and what's actually wrong with taking a few sips of pickle juice, anyway? I need to lighten up.

Transitioning is hardly a dignified process. Opportunities for gaffes, discomfort, and faux pas abound. I don't know what I don't know, and if I insist on slathering an extra layer of shame onto everything I might do wrong, I'll never get to be myself.
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