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How much time do you think I have?
« on: April 27, 2019, 06:44:08 am »
It's been a long time since I posted here. 7 years ago I wrote couple posts that may give some explanation. This is the only place where I can ask this questions. I do not have a support, and neither I can talk to anybody about this. I experienced things that as a healthy male I should not have, ever, under any circumstances. I had some physical changes that could be caused only by estrogen. My nipples have changed. They became softer. Areola increased in diameter. There were other crazy things too. I experienced very unsual orgasm and I felt two interconnected points in my lower abdomen, that I could only describe as ovaries. I know it's crazy talk. Believe me, I trust my senses, but I would not believe myself either. It was not easy to deal with this over the years. I tried to see doctors. I was pretty much laughed at. My family and friends do not believe me. So, I tried to live my life as it is. Until some more crazy stuff happened.
 
I also have to tell you that about 10 years ago I was diagnosed with Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS) with some hemorrhoids. So seeing some blood in my stool is not unusual. However, I did not see it in very long time.

I have something that can be described as gynecamastia. I do not remember when did this happened. I know I have them for a long time. This is not unusual either and they are not that big. Currently, I'm 52 years old and as most of the doctors agree, the older you get, the greater the chance of having some hormonal imbalance.

Something started happening couple weeks ago. I noticed that my nipples became more prominent under my tank top. They kind a change their shape. As I said before, my nipples are soft, areola is soft too. There is like hollow ring underneath and something else too. The last endocrinologist I saw said that there is a breast tissue present.

There are time when my breast is sensitive and times when I cannot feel anything, more like regular male chest. It comes and goes every couple weeks. However last week, sensitivity was more severe to the point that tank top felt like sand paper and overall it can be described as burning. Plus I was feeling tingling strong pain inside left breast. I noticed before that my my left side got bigger. It started filling in couple weeks ago. I felt this type of burning sensitivity before, but not to that extent.

Exactly week later, I noticed blood coming from my behind. I wanted to see if my hemorrhoids are active. I put my finger inside and entire palm of my hand was covered in blood. I was stunned. I never seen this type of blood color. It was vibrant red, very red, thinner in touch. I was shocked because this blood could not come from regular blood circulation. Next day, I checked for blood again. It was present, but very little. It was covering walls of rectum. Again color was vibrant red.

The only thing that actually makes sense in this situation is that I have a menstrual cycle. I did some reading about what happens during the cycle. I know, chances that human can have both fully functioning reproductive systems are astronomical. The last human that experience something like this is described in Greek mythology. But I have to deal with this somehow. For some reasons my body is slowly changing my chemistry. It may slow down or proceed as this is a beginning of female puberty. I do not know how estrogen can interact with testosterone in this situation. If it is a beginning of female puberty, how much time I have realistically before my appearance will be drastically changed?

Please do not send me to see  doctors. I do not want to deal with them right know.     

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Re: How much time do you think I have?
« Reply #1 on: April 27, 2019, 06:58:19 am »
You need to see a doctor urgently.

This is NOT a menstrual cycle and could be a very serious problem that requires urgent treatment.

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Re: How much time do you think I have?
« Reply #2 on: April 27, 2019, 08:51:57 am »
Blood in the stool/rectum is one very serious issue.  Go to the ER now or at the very least call your Dr immediately.  They will tell you the same probably.  If neither is an option, maybe an Urgent Care.

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Re: How much time do you think I have?
« Reply #3 on: April 27, 2019, 08:59:50 am »
It is possible that you have vestigial or partly developed ovaries in your body, but only medical imaging will show them.   I had a woman friend that all her life had to deal with anger and aggressiveness, also a "lesbian" sexual desire.   At 80 years of age she had medical imaging because of kidney stones.   When the results came back, they told her that she had vestigial or partly developed testes in her body!    Some people are intersex and find out only by chance, even though it has affected their lives.   You must seek medical help!   
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Re: How much time do you think I have?
« Reply #4 on: April 27, 2019, 10:43:42 am »
@xterra
Dear Xterra:
Below, members @Cindy and @Denise gave you the best possible advice...

... I am aware that your last sentence stated that you do not want to deal with a doctor right now but your symptoms are not something to be ignored, even for a short time, 
please follow thier counsel and do not delay any longer getting to a doctor or the ER. 

Wishing you well and good health,

Danielle

You need to see a doctor urgently.

This is NOT a menstrual cycle and could be a very serious problem that requires urgent treatment.

Blood in the stool/rectum is one very serious issue.  Go to the ER now or at the very least call your Dr immediately.  They will tell you the same probably.  If neither is an option, maybe an Urgent Care.

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Re: How much time do you think I have?
« Reply #5 on: April 27, 2019, 12:54:22 pm »
I appreciate your concerns, but I do not want to deal with doctors right now. They have explanation for every possible <not allowed>. I tried that 7 years ago. People tend to take one piece of information and use it the way it fits their assumptions. It took me years to recover from that last experience. They are just plain horrible.

That bleeding is not unusual for me. In fact I had more of these exactly 7 years ago. Then there was a long break. I do not have brain tumor, vision problems, testicular issues or pain in my behind, no sudden weight loss or gain, no thyroid issues. I had this 20 years ago and I can recognize imbalance. Cancer does not develop for 7 years.

I'm not here to convince you or myself about being intersex. Sometimes I feel like I'm hitting a wall.

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Re: How much time do you think I have?
« Reply #6 on: April 28, 2019, 07:43:09 am »
Xterra,
   You posted so I think you want feedback. I don't know what your situation is medically. I do know that even if you had some estrogen induced symptoms, it will not cause blood in the rectum. Your medical situation can definitely change in 7 years. I am of the age where I need to get colonoscopies. They found 1polyp. Because they found that one, I go every 5 years instead of 10. I tell you that because that is the time frame for that particular problem to develop. You may have something different going on. It sounds like you have two separate issues going on in my non-doctor opinion. If it were me, yeah, I'd be mad at the doctors 7 years ago who treated me badly, but I wouldn't let that stop me looking into a serious medical issue now.
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Re: How much time do you think I have?
« Reply #7 on: April 29, 2019, 02:13:41 pm »
This is not easy for me to explain. I did not realize how fragile is my mind set.

Over the years I had a set of health issues, burst ulcer, hyperactive thyroid, diagnosed IBS and constant digestive problems. I can recognize when something is off. I had colonoscopy done two years ago. Nothing abnormal.

There is no blood present anymore. Except for those two days I mentioned. The blood was not mixed with a stool, hence it could not come through digestive tract. It could come from hemorrhoids, but it was not swollen at all. I have seen it in the past, that’s why I do not consider this to be alarming. However, there is a question of a color.

Believe me, if I feel that something is wrong I would go straight to ER. But for now, visit to a doctor will play out in usual way. Checking prostate, doing blood test and possible colonoscopy. Maybe they would check my testosterone and at the end they would find nothing. The endocrinologist will insists that there should be brown liquid coming out from my nipples. That I have enough testosterone in my body. If I ‘m lucky they will do USG and some lab technician inexperience in intersex condition will say that there is absolutely nothing alarming. At the end doctor will say that I’m crazy and imagining things. Case closed. No karyotype test or MRI based on somebody’s imaginary hallucinations. This is a reality. I’ve seen how people react when you try to tell them everything what happened. So I tried to limit the information to only some things and omit other details. Not helpful, because they look in the areas that are irrelevant. If you tell them more they react with fear.

Try to put yourself in my shoes. How would you react. Where would you look for help or some information to at least to rationalize some of it.

Now forget everything you ever learned in school. Forget what you think is possible and what is impossible. Forget that who you are is set in stone. That there is fluid line between male and female. There is no psychiatrist that can help you. There is no point of reference to other people experiences. This cannot be duplicated or confirmed. There is only my word against what you think it is.

It took me months to work out some things. If I were a Creator and I wanted to convince individual of something. I would start with Big event that would be so powerful that would instill unwavering understanding of an act that no so called real evidence can disprove. I would also leave some breadcrumbs here and there to be followed. I would also pick someone who can describe things well and have some analytical skills to follow the breadcrumbs.

The Big event happened 7 years ago. After imagining things, arousal shifted to inside my body and for couple minutes I lost total control of my body. I could only wait until everything plays out. All nerve endings on my breast fired up, entire belly was burning. Out of nowhere feeling of vagina appeared and it merged with a feeling of my penis. The penis was inside me. During climax, when I had multiple contractions in my crotch and following waves of energy travelled in through my thighs and up to my energy made up boobs, I was terrified, scared as hell because I realized at this moment that everything that I know about my own body is incorrect, that I’m inhabiting body of a complete stranger. When everything was over I did not even remembered my fears. Entire experience felt to me normal.

Than things started happening. My nipples looked different. Entire breast was bouncing. There were changes on my face that people who know me noticed immediately. I had strangers on the street walking up to my face only inches away, just to take a good look.

And there is another event. I felt pain in my stomach. It was vertical going straight through the middle of my abdomen. It went away, but couple hours later, it woke me up through the middle of the night. I was curling in my bed. It left like someone thrusted two ice picks in my stomach. In my mind I had a mental image of an organ. Two points bursting with energy, positioned on left and right side, with equal distance from each other connected by two very thin tubes. I could not take the pain. I got up and took some tylenol. The pain was gone.

Out of curiosity I compared dates of these two events. It was exactly 28 in between them. I had no idea whether it had any meaning, but quick google search pointed me to menstrual cycle.

About three weeks ago when I started to see growth of my left breast, I researched gynecamastia. The only problem was unexplained breast hyper sensitivity and that tingling pain inside. It had to be related to hormonal activity. Another search revealed that this kind of pain is related to surge of progesterone that expands some glands and ducts. So I after that I was thinking, what if the blood I saw in the past is somehow related to all of these. According to some sources, surge of progesterone takes place exactly one week before period bleeding starts. So day before I was thinking, there is no way it will happen. But 24 hours later I was staring at this vibrant blood on my hand. And there is a color that expert websites describe as perfectly normal for woman.

Now after all of this that I told you. Do you really think that opinion of some doctor or USG, even MRI will matter and convince me that I can forget all of these, that I was mistaken. That I never experienced anything of it?
Do you think that human brain can create phantom feelings of organs that never existed at the first place? Do you think that imaginary things can cause physical changes?
How do you think the doctors will react if I told them that while they at they should also check my ovaries because I think something going on down there.

Seven years ago I felt disconnected from everybody. Hence, my nick name, being from Earth. I was scared of the future. I do not know what will happen. Sometimes I think everything will remain the same. And then some other breadcrumb shows up. I think that right now I will be Ok with the change. I don’t mind it. I don’t know how I would I live my life though.

Look, I know that after reading this you might feel like a rug was pulled from underneath your feet. It takes time to process this information. But this is not imaginary, it’s just different from what you know.

Please more doctors suggestions or seeing psychiatrist. It’s pointless




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Re: How much time do you think I have?
« Reply #8 on: April 29, 2019, 06:00:09 pm »
With what your suggesting, I would suggest you consider testing your total estrogen, estradiol and progesterone levels. If you have to pay out of pocket it shouldn't set you back more than a couple of hundred dollars and at least in the U.S., you may be able to get the test without a doctors prescription. If the tests show something, that might be the starting point for the doctors to look farther.
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Re: How much time do you think I have?
« Reply #9 on: April 30, 2019, 03:37:30 am »
xterra,

With what your suggesting, I would suggest you consider testing your total estrogen, estradiol and progesterone levels.

I completely agree with Dena. Hard evidence should help eliminate misunderstandings and ease communication between your doctor and yourself.

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Re: How much time do you think I have?
« Reply #10 on: April 30, 2019, 04:18:04 am »
Hi Xterra

I know how confusing it can be when things start to go haywire with your body. I have experienced this in a very different way to you and understand how scary it can be especially when the Dr's you are seeing don't seem to have a clue but insist on running all the same kind of tests. Unfortunately I don't have any solution. I think the testing Dena has suggested is a good starting point.

I hope you can find a solution

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« Reply #11 on: April 30, 2019, 03:24:44 pm »
I’m very reluctant about it but I will see a doctor tomorrow. Something is off on hormonal level. I don’t know how to proceed with information that might be helpful for a doctor. Sometimes I think that nothing what I described ever happened, then my rational part kicks in. Im seriously tired  of all of this.


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« Reply #12 on: May 01, 2019, 03:14:03 pm »
This was pointless, another know everything doctor that cannot manage too many issues. No evidence of blood plus hemorroides explain everything and of course blood has to be red. Frustrating.

Since last Thursday I was feeling hot most of time, I had loss of appetite, ringing in my ears type of headache and sleeping problem. Yesterday it was actually the first evening when I felt OK. Today I'm perfectly fine.

Thanks for the suggestions about the blood test that can be done without doctor referral. I have to see if there is a pattern in all of this. Some days of the month I feel very tired and sleepy and the breast sensitivity comes and goes on its own too. Right now there is no sensitivity at all. I'm afraid the blood test will not be that straight forward. In fact all of this may subside for a while. It happened before.

Sometimes I think that without some irrefutable evidence of intersex condition nothing can be done.











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Re: How much time do you think I have?
« Reply #13 on: May 01, 2019, 06:10:17 pm »
Sometimes I think that without some irrefutable evidence of intersex condition nothing can be done.
The problem is intersex could be over 30 possible conditions. Even for a doctor there is a bit of guess work determining the cause if they suspect the condition. All you can do at this point is chip way at the problem until you hit pay dirt. You're not the first one on the site to run into this problem and unfortunately you're not going to be the last.
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« Reply #14 on: May 02, 2019, 02:00:45 pm »
I just realized something today. I misread my emotions at the time when I saw blood. It wasn’t the color. It was the presence of blood that made me stunned.

I’m analyst/programmer by profession. I read about different possibilities why would I feel this kind of sensations in my breast and one of the explanation was that it is caused by a surge of progesterone that happens exactly one week before the bleeding. The day before the due date I was thinking that there is no way there will be any blood. But following day I literally froze while I was looking at the blood. The odds of this happening are insanely low. Someone described odds of winning lottery this way. You leave your umbrella on the train, next day some stranger calls you on the phone and tells you that he has your umbrella. With odds so low the opposite must be true. The two events, breast sensations and blood are interconnected. Following hormonal activity is connected to bleeding. This is just logic. That blood should never ever been there under any circumstances. Imagine that a day before a lottery drawing you pick your numbers with certainty that they will win, you make another bet that the numbers will win and next day you are actually a lottery winner. Impossible!

The hemorrhoids provide the blood outflow. They formed more than 15 yet ago. Out of blue I started having gastric problems IBS and hemorrhoids were formed.

For years I had sweating issues while I was sleeping. This is when my hormones started doing something. I had no idea that this could be some hormonal symptoms.

So everything was slowly preparing itself for events that happened 7 years ago. After that I have seen a blood for one or two days. And as I recall once or twice blood color was very bright red. I did not know what to make of it.

Right now, this is a first time that there is a chain of events. <not allowed>.


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« Reply #15 on: September 10, 2019, 09:13:11 am »
I made multiple attempts to write update and failed to post it. I feel like have an obligation to write about my experiences and yet something stops me from doing it. There is a slight chance that someone could be in similar situation and would be completely lost.

I have missed some things The problem with this is that things / symptoms are disconnected and spread apart. It is very difficult to connect dots without understanding bigger picture.

Some time before the last bleeding something else came out from my behind. It was white milky sticky mucus. Plus. Couple years ago I woke up in the middle of the night with terrible pain. It felt like I was impaled. I thought it was my hemorrhoid. The only thing did not make any sense to me was that it swelling  had feeling of funnel that was going deep inside my body and ended somewhere around navel point. As I said, I explained it to myself that my hemorrhoid got swollen for some reason.

I also realized that I saw some watery mucus coming from my behind. I think I saw it at least 3-4 times. Then it hit me that this watery mucus and milky one are the same thing. They just have different consistency for some reason.

I had to do my own research to understand the science behind hormones and menstrual cycle. That clarified things. I will write about it later.


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« Reply #16 on: September 13, 2019, 11:31:50 am »
This piece is crucial for understanding what is going on.

I’m not a scientist or doctor however there is plenty of information on internet that would explain hormones and menstrual cycle. This is just an overview.

Female menstrual cycle is regulated by two hormones FSH and LH. Both a secreted by pituitary gland. FSH is dominant in the first part of the cycle which usually takes up to 14 days. However this part of the cycle varies. It could be shorter or longer.  Around 14th day, there is an ovulation that lasts about 2 days. After egg is released it takes additional 14 days for period to start. LH is dominant from time of ovulation. Both hormone levels grow steadily and on graph they look like curves.

When FSH is secreted, it stimulates the growth of follicles.  To be precise it stimulates internal part of follicle. LH is also released but it acts on external layer of follicle. As a result, released enzyme converts cholesterol to testosterone. FSH acts in similar way. Enzyme aromatase converts testosterone to estradiol. Next, estradiol gets into blood stream and travels to its receptors. One of the things that happen is that it increases production of cervical mucus. The consistency of cervical mucus changes during entire menstrual cycle. It could be watery, lumpy, or egg white like. Once the level of estradiol is high enough in blood stream, pituitary gland drops the level of FSH and starts pumping more LH. Once again LH acts on follicle. Another enzyme pops egg out of follicle. What is left is called corpus luteum. The lifetime of corpus luteum is fixed in number of days. If there is no pregnancy, corpus luteum breaks down. Before that it starts to produce progesterone. Two things happen. Progesterone is responsible for building cervical lining that is made of new cells and vessels. As the level of progesterone rises, the cervical mucus changes too. It becomes white, milky white and sticky. This prevents any movements of sperm. Just like with estradiol there is a negative feedback loop. When it reaches sufficient level, pituitary gland drops secretion of LH. If there is no pregnancy, production of progesterone drops too. Without it, cervical lining cannot be supported and it is removed. Hence period bleeding. One of the symptoms of dropped estradiol levels are headaches. Nausea is caused by different hormone called Prostaglandins. The same hormone Is also responsible for period cramps. There is also increase in level of testosterone around time of ovulation. This should increase the sex drive. However, there’s a side effect too. Increased testosterone causes skin to become more oily that manifest itself in acne breakouts. These acne breakouts usually show in the area around mouth. There could be also acne breakouts on sides, jaws. They are mostly related to problems with progesterone.

Both males and females secrete FSH and LH. The difference is quantity and that in males both hormones are released simultaneously. In females they are secreted cyclical.

In males FSH is responsible for production of sperm. LH just like in females produces testosterone. There is a negative feedback loop for LH, but there is no negative feedback loop for FSH. Hence, the level of this hormone remains steady and low. Over secretion of FSH in males causes low sperm count.

Note that both testosterone and progesterone inhibit secretion of LH. Without LH you cannot have ovulation and build up of cervical lining. Basically increased level of testosterone stops ovulation. For females with higher testosterone levels like with PCOS,  menstrual cycle gets disrupted. Similarly any FTM that takes testosterone will have period disrupted too. Bear in mind that testosterone only affects LH. Some FTMs on YT report that they still experience cervical discharge and cramps even after couple years of taking testosterone. Some FTMs that stop taking testosterone report that the first thing they experience is vaginal lubrication. Actual bleeding returns months later.

We have three hormones that work with each other, estradiol, progesterone and testosterone.  Two of them inhibit LH. Since there is sufficient level of testosterone, LH is not secreted. Hence, there is no conversion of. cholesterol to androgen. However, FSH binds to follicle and converts androgen to estradiol. Higher level of estradiol increases cervical mucus. Once, FSH converts existing testosterone, the level of LH will start to increase too causing ovulation.

This a basic idea how hormones interact with each other. I think one of the mistakes that you may read or see in some articles or even documentaries is the testosterone interacts with FSH. This hormone is involved in development of sexual organs and in males affects production of sperm. Of course sperm cannot go back to blood stream and inform hypothalamus about sufficient levels. Only estradiol can inhibit FSH. So only if you introduce estradiol the pattern of FSH secretion is changed. Additional FSH will cause infertility eventually and it will bind to its receptors in follicle.

This process will take time.

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Re: How much time do you think I have?
« Reply #17 on: September 14, 2019, 10:29:47 am »
Xterra,

You are describing a medical condition.  I am not a doctor.  I am an engineer.  That may not be as helpful as someone who slept at Holiday Inn Express last night, but I have to work with what I have.  You have been given some good advice here.  The point that may be falling through the cracks is that you seem to be dealing with two different issues.

All the gastro issues you describe can be related to some sort of Inflammatory Bowel Disease.  The IBS is one of the more mild forms.  My late wife had Ulcerative Colitis and at one time or another had all the gastro symptoms you describe.  This included severe bleeding at one point.  That scared her so badly she got a colonoscopy ASAP.  The doctor found some internal hemmorhoids that had blown out.  This is one medical issue.  The doctor you see for this is the same one that you saw for the colonoscopy.  All of the discharges you describe and internal pain can be explained (and maybe treated) on this basis.

My engineer brain thinks the intersex symptoms are an altogether different issue.  If the rectal bleeding were associated with menstruation that would say that things that are not supposed to connected internally have developed a connection.  The term for that is fistula.  That is a VERY painful condition and is associated with severe (life threatening) infections.  You do not list that sort of symptoms.  The tests Dena suggested are a place to start investigating this.  As noted, the medical community does not seem to be helpful in dealing with intersex conditions.  For this you have to be your own healthcare advocate.

So, the only help I can offer is to look at this as two different problems - and possibly deal with two different medical teams to get treatment.  I have several chronic medical issues and have to balance treatment for each.  I am blessed to be working with a couple of doctors who are candid in dealing with multiple issues and they help me with this.  It is an uphill fight.

Remember: Correlation is not equal to causation.  Two things can be going on unrelated to each other.

Hang in there!


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« Reply #18 on: September 16, 2019, 11:04:24 am »
Let me ask you some questions. You do not need to be a doctor to answer them. Some basic understanding of biology can be helpful.

Do you trust your senses and your own judgment?

Do you trust your senses and your own judgment more than opinions of other people?

I didn’t tell this to anyone yet. No one ever asked and no one ever cared to ask me what really happened. These are things that occurred after the orgasm couple years ago.

Orgasm took place at night from Thursday to Friday. On Saturday I started feeling that my chest area became sensitive. My chest had this bouncing feeling. In the evening when I was taking shower I noticed that my facial skin smoothed out. My hair had different smoother texture. On Sunday, some people started noticing that my face looks different. Some people reacted to it. My facial hair growth slowed down. Nail growth rapidly increased. For the first time in my life I was able to have clean close shave. On Monday I noticed that my nipples look different. The areolas increased in diameter. Following day or next one, both of my nipples and areolas were covered with thin layer of white liquid. Two weeks later I experienced two days of being lightheaded. Exactly 28 days later after the orgasm I felt abdominal pain. The pain was central and upward like a single line. During the night I felt more pain in both left and right side below navel. Following that for the next couple days I felt sick. Changes on my face were even more visible. More fat deposited on my cheeks.

What hormone is capable of making these changes?
Do males produce estrogen ?
If yes, what quantities?
How much of estrogen would you need to cause these changes?
What is a reason for such a rapid response?
What is a link between orgasm and physical changes?

Bear in mind that it took only days to observe visible changes. Not weeks, not months, but days.

What would it take for you to believe me?



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« Reply #19 on: September 18, 2019, 09:14:34 am »
Let me ask you some questions. You do not need to be a doctor to answer them. Some basic understanding of biology can be helpful.

Do you trust your senses and your own judgment?

As I get older I find I can't trust myself as much as I used to think I could.

Do you trust your senses and your own judgment more than opinions of other people?

I am seeing two therapists -- one gender -- so it would depend on who the others were.  This becomes a judgement call.

I didn’t tell this to anyone yet. No one ever asked and no one ever cared to ask me what really happened. These are things that occurred after the orgasm couple years ago.

Orgasm took place at night from Thursday to Friday. On Saturday I started feeling that my chest area became sensitive. My chest had this bouncing feeling. In the evening when I was taking shower I noticed that my facial skin smoothed out. My hair had different smoother texture. On Sunday, some people started noticing that my face looks different. Some people reacted to it. My facial hair growth slowed down. Nail growth rapidly increased. For the first time in my life I was able to have clean close shave. On Monday I noticed that my nipples look different. The areolas increased in diameter. Following day or next one, both of my nipples and areolas were covered with thin layer of white liquid. Two weeks later I experienced two days of being lightheaded. Exactly 28 days later after the orgasm I felt abdominal pain. The pain was central and upward like a single line. During the night I felt more pain in both left and right side below navel. Following that for the next couple days I felt sick. Changes on my face were even more visible. More fat deposited on my cheeks.

These sorts of things can happen.  You have to be careful discussing this -- particularly with a doctor.  Some topics run quickly into too much information.  The first doctor I tried to consult when I realized I was trans had a bad reaction and started to treat me as if I was a good bit more than slightly radioactive.  That was seven years ago, I tried my limited best to be smooth and now that doctor is an ally.  There used to be a member here that had an experience similar to yours.  She had a rapid transition.  She has not posted in a good while and my leaky old brain does not know how to find her.

What hormone is capable of making these changes?   Estradiol
Do males produce estrogen ?  Yes -- both Estrone (E1) and Estradiol (E2)
If yes, what quantities?  It varies, but is typically less than female levels (less, not orders of magnitude less)
How much of estrogen would you need to cause these changes?  To cause the changes over time would require about 100 pg/ml or a bit more of E2 -- normal transition level.
What is a reason for such a rapid response?  VERY high E2 levels.
What is a link between orgasm and physical changes?  Yes -- normally later in transition

Bear in mind that it took only days to observe visible changes. Not weeks, not months, but days.

Again, this is possible.  It does not happen often, but the only slogan that can apply to transition (even unwanted) is "Your Mileage May Vary."

What would it take for you to believe me?

I DO believe you

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You have mentioned some medical issues that concern me -- and it would rather seem concern others.  The rectal bleeding and severe internal pain are NOT normal and scream for medical attention.  They may not mean much or they could be the prelude to something fatal.  My late wife had Inflammatory Bowel Disease Issues for years.  The severe internal pain set in after a long time.  The local doctor (whose toes I still relish the thought of cuddling with red hot pliers) concluded the two were related -- he told her she needed to learn to live with "some" pain as she had IBD.  We found real medical help at a critical care hospital where she had worked before we were married.  This was also a teaching hospital for a recognized medical school.  They found the problem.  It was cancer and too advanced to treat.  I am NOT saying I think you have cancer, but I think you owe it to yourself and find the cause of these symptoms.  These are NOT part of your body starting to produce too much Estradiol.

This is why I suggested a two track approach to getting to the bottom of your issues.  Sadly, in this brave new world, you have to be your own health care advocate.

Again, I am not a doctor.  I am just an old transgender woman who has been around the block too many times and is cursed with the mind of an engineer.  I hope well for you.

Take care of you!

Erin

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