@happymoni .....Love the idea!!....Lunch, Italian, If I can only remember to take a picture while we’re there. Lol..
Glad to see you Moni....
It’s been a little bit after hell of a crazy year we have finally made it to 2021. 🥳 I have a huge year ahead. Need to go fight the courts to get my gender marker changed with my name and will also be finding my insurance within my company to try to get them to change their policy on bottom surgery. Seems like a lot of fighting. Oh well... sometimes it’s needed. And it’s definitely worth it.
This is a good lesson for anybody who struggling through this as I have.
I’m coming off one of the worst years of my entire life and still when I went to lunch today completely living as my true self. I felt more freedom, I was more relaxed no anxiety, I was just me. I enjoy living more now, than I have in years, all as I sat there and ate lunch alone.
Being alone at lunch doesn’t bother me, being alone in my private life......obviously the pain of losing my wife this year still hurts, but it did let me see life is fragile. I only have one life to live, we can either enjoy it, be ourselves or live in turmoil, have pain and anxiety every day. Our choice.
This is what I’ve learned ....What you fear now will not be the same in six months. The way you feel about yourself won’t be the same in six months. Your acceptance of yourself, won’t be the same as six months. If you allow yourself to move forward, walk through your fears...... there is a light at the end of the tunnel. It just may not be the perfect life that you want. Family members and friends will either except you or they won’t, the same goes for your partner, there’s nothing we can do about that, that’s their decision. I do think living in the middle ground is extremely destructive and in the end will actually hurt you more than going through with it.
To anybody who’s holding back, trying to stop the inevitable, its simply like trying to hold back a wave that’s crashing over you. I think you can either stand there and continue to drown or try to learn to swim. Remember this is not your fault, there’s nothing wrong with you. This is not some sort of a psychological condition, this is a real medical condition where your mind, body and soul is not balanced. Your soul is continuously trying to convince your mind, that your body is wrong, once you get the three of them in balance, then you are in balance.
Hey, basically we got a raw deal, its a birth defect, we can either do something about it or do nothing. This is the choice we have ..........but you have to live with the consequences of doing nothing. Which I thinks for many people is much worse and the consequences I’m going through it.
I hope wherever you’re at, you can find that balance and simply live your truth. Everyone deserves to be happy.
Hugs
Nicole
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