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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #240 on: October 21, 2020, 09:55:43 am »
I usually do try to nap in the afternoon but lately I have only been getting in a 10 min nap or so. If things go normally I usually get quite a bit of sleep but I am working on maybe 4 hours today. The funny thing is that when I nap well I usually sleep well its when I don't get a nap in that I have the worst time sleeping.
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« Reply #241 on: October 22, 2020, 11:51:50 am »
Ok I started today off pretty wired but now the lady next door is back to get her stuff so the anxiety is back again.
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« Reply #242 on: October 22, 2020, 01:01:31 pm »
Sigh looks like this saga will continue on till monday or beyond. I am now babysitting one of her plants.
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« Reply #243 on: October 22, 2020, 01:51:39 pm »
The worst part is it isn't even the estrogen that is making me feel like this I was a flake even before starting hrt.
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #244 on: October 22, 2020, 02:06:07 pm »
Bleh I must resist the urge to drink. It isn't that I really have a problem with drinking it's just I want to drink for the wrong reason.
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #245 on: October 22, 2020, 02:32:23 pm »
@Julie H
Dear Julie:
Considering the meds that you are taking.... and your underlying health conditions, PLEASE do not put Alcohol into the mix.   

If your neighbor had left her indoor plant with me it would surely die.... I do well with outdoor flowers and vegetables but my record of taking care of indoor potted plants is less than stellar.

Stay healthy please!!!
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #246 on: October 22, 2020, 02:38:10 pm »
Yeah I warned her about my black thumb. The funny thing is with wanting to drink I don't think that I want a lot maybe a couple of beers (and I mean 2) not to get wasted.

This whole thing is reinforcing my desire to down size my stuff and I don't have a lot.
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #247 on: October 22, 2020, 05:31:13 pm »
Yeah I warned her about my black thumb. The funny thing is with wanting to drink I don't think that I want a lot maybe a couple of beers (and I mean 2) not to get wasted.

This whole thing is reinforcing my desire to down size my stuff and I don't have a lot.
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Dear Julie:
Hang in there girl, don't do anything that would compromise your healing and your health.
Always keep your doctor in the loop...and please don't drown your problems with Alcohol.
I am rooting for you!!!
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Danielle
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #248 on: October 22, 2020, 05:33:32 pm »
TY
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #249 on: October 26, 2020, 12:39:56 pm »
Kind of wish that I could have voice training, I had a guy call me ma'am today until I talked.
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #250 on: October 26, 2020, 12:49:09 pm »
Kind of wish that I could have voice training, I had a guy call me ma'am today until I talked.
@Julie H
Dear Julie:
Transition is a process of a lot of smaller steps....   
... think positive, you are passing with your physical appearance, that is a good thing.

If you can not have one-on-one voice therapy with a therapist, you can try some of the YouTube and other online MTF voice training sites.... it can't hurt, it can only help!!!

You are experiencing what other MTF transitioners including myself have experienced during our journeys.

HUGS,
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #251 on: October 26, 2020, 01:35:32 pm »
The worst thing is the only thing that has really changed in my appearance is the length of my hair and maybe a tiny bit of breast growth that can be confused for man boobs. Apparently I have always had some female features. :P
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #252 on: October 26, 2020, 01:38:37 pm »
I still feel sorry for that old guy in the washroom at the hospital months ago (pre covid) who was confused when this woman was using the mens room. I will not even attempt to use the women's washroom as I will be clocked every time imo.
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #253 on: October 28, 2020, 10:09:49 am »
Gah I wish this darn eviction saga would just end. The lady is supposed to have 1 more day of moving stuff out and I have an insurance cheque for her too.
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #254 on: October 28, 2020, 10:20:35 am »
Here's hoping that my next neighbour doesn't cause me stress.
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #255 on: October 28, 2020, 10:33:40 am »
Here's hoping that my next neighbour doesn't cause me stress.
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Dear Julie:
Perhaps chocolate will help you cope!!!   It works for me.

HUGS,
Danielle

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Things change re: ALASKAN DANIELLE
Positive Mindset... put away negativity

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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #256 on: October 28, 2020, 11:01:01 am »
The funny thing is I am not a big fan of chocolate. I used to be but not anymore. Also 20+ years of not having lunch breaks mixed with compulsive eating, any chocolate I do eat is usually gone quickly.
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