Thinking about an experience I had a long time ago.
Someone came to me and I was a woman I believed it was Jesus and that it meant that I I wouldn't have to live and die without ever being a woman.
The thought that it happened for me so that I wouldn't have to live and die without being a woman...
This thing sustained me through years of desperation. I ask myself: Is taking the steps I'm transitioning now somehow turning back against His mercy?
Last summer I was shown both ends of two rainbows at once. Don't know true meaning. But I pledged my transition to those rainbows. This feels like a new covenant.
Mix in the doubts I've always had that it was Jesus who knew me as woman (girl actually). That name is what I called Him. This was overall a spiritual experience which did more to my mind than body.
I've been strongly told that it couldn't have been the LORD Jesus Christ. If I don't believe 100%, then maybe I should not tell anyone.
Well definitely not my psych or surgeon anyway.
I'm putting it out here because I don't want to be afraid anymore.
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You had an amazing experience unique to you. It sounds like a kind of visionary or spiritual experience and I think you were very lucky to have it and for it to give you direction or affirmation! But, other people may reject and deny it. Our culture overall does not do well accepting this kind of experience.
The good news, however, is you see people here in this thread accepting your experience!
Whether it was Jesus or not is up to
you. It happened to you, not anyone else. It was an experience, not something read in a book or watched on a screen. You also determine if it is important that it was Jesus or not. Try to listen just to
your voice on this and not what other folks might want you to think or feel. Don't worry about what you are "supposed" to think or feel.
That ^ is my personal take on it.
I've had two visionary, mystical experiences. It is only recently that I have realized how lucky I was to have them. I don't understand everything about them and I accept that. Even the words I just used: "visionary, mystical" may not describe them well but they are all I have been able to come up with so far.
"I'm putting it out here because I don't want to be afraid anymore." You've done it!