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Re: Laura's FFS Journal
« Reply #40 on: September 19, 2020, 10:59:36 pm »
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Dear Laura:
Thank you for posting your 4 week post-op FFS update.
As  you know healing takes it's own time... patience and rest is required...   
...healing takes place when we rest and when we sleep..

I am glad to read that you are doing OK.
Again, thank you for sharing your update.


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Re: Laura's FFS Journal
« Reply #41 on: September 22, 2020, 11:36:16 am »
Post-Op Day 35

First, thank you to @Danielle, @AllieSF, and @Davina61 for your encouragement.

Other than the pain caused by the staples in my head the first week, the sole source of pain the last four weeks has been from the stitches in my mouth as they constantly irritated my gums. Last week, the stitches finally began falling out and the last one disappeared yesterday. It’s quite amazing how quickly my gums recovered. Now, brushing my teeth is much more comfortable.

The bruising I’ve written about has gotten better as the small areas on each cheek have all but disappeared and the 1/2 moon bruise below my eye is fading fast. Thank goodness. I’m finding that now that I can wear my glasses normally, they don’t fit the same, since my nose is shaped differently. Fortunately, I have an eye doctor appointment tomorrow so I’ll have both pairs (one for tennis and one for everything else) adjusted to my new nose.

I’m certain there’s still some swelling, particularly on my jaw and chin, but time will take care of that. I’ve been pretty loyal about applying the ScarAway roll-on during the day and the strips at night so my incisions heal with minimal scaring. The only other concern is the numbness I feel in my jaw/chin line, my forehead and my head. This, I know, takes much longer to heal so I’m being patient. I do have a follow-up appointment with my surgeon this Friday so I’ll have an update with answers to some of my concerns next week.

Onward.

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Re: Laura's FFS Journal
« Reply #42 on: September 22, 2020, 07:42:20 pm »
That’s really positive Laura, glad to hear you’re doing well!  As the swelling has subsided, have you noticed more changes?

I got a call yesterday asking if I could have surgery in October!  I had to pass to work with my wife’s schedule, but it’s getting real!
“What you know, you can’t explain, but you feel it. You’ve felt it your entire life—that there is something wrong. You don’t know what it is, but it’s there like a splinter in your mind, driving you mad. It is this feeling that has brought you to me.”

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Re: Laura's FFS Journal
« Reply #43 on: September 22, 2020, 07:52:53 pm »
That’s really positive Laura, glad to hear you’re doing well!  As the swelling has subsided, have you noticed more changes?

I got a call yesterday asking if I could have surgery in October!  I had to pass to work with my wife’s schedule, but it’s getting real!

@Another Nikki
To be honest, the only change I can see is to my nose. Before it was slightly larger with a bump where I'd broken it many years ago. Now, it seems a bit thinner and the tip is slightly raised. The doc says it is still swollen which was news to me.

Several friends have mentioned that my face is a bit more feminine, but I'm not really looking that hard at my face right now. Knowing it's still swollen, I'm withholding putting on make-up for a new profile picture until I'm feeling more confident. Hopefully, I'll post a new pic during my one-year HRT update in a few weeks.

I'm glad you're getting calls for FFS dates. I only had one week's notice, so the whole week was a blur with activity. you have more time to get ready, although that also means the anticipation/nervousness has more time to work its magic too.

Hope you'll chronicle your progress for us.

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Re: Laura's FFS Journal
« Reply #44 on: September 22, 2020, 08:49:14 pm »
Laura, I said I wasn't going to post again at Susan's, but I think I can be of use. I had FFS with Dr. Suporn in Thailand. I didn't have as much surgery as you. Mine was mostly a flattened forehead. However, that's still major, gruesome surgery and when I reached up and touched the bone above my eye, which had once protruded, I was stunned and pleased to find my forehead was in the same plane as the rest of my face. So, there was massive change, but returning to work, which put me in front of thousands of kids and hundreds of adults every week, I was read two times as male and that hadn't happened for decades. So, the FFS had made me more masculine in the eyes of two children, even though my flat face was more feminine. However, that disturbing change didn't last. Over time, everything settled and even though I'm plain, in the right light, without any makeup or doodads, I can be a bit pretty. I expect the same for you. Decades prior, I had a rhinoplasty and I had to wait about nine months to see the nose I now have and enjoy. So, wait, wait, wait. In surgical recovery terms, your surgery was merely yesterday.

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Re: Laura's FFS Journal
« Reply #45 on: September 23, 2020, 04:11:47 am »
I had a rhinoplasty and I had to wait about nine months to see the nose I now have and enjoy. So, wait, wait, wait. In surgical recovery terms, your surgery was merely yesterday.

I could not agree more.  It took six months to notice the change after my FFS which included a rhinoplasty.   
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Re: Laura's FFS Journal
« Reply #46 on: September 23, 2020, 05:23:06 pm »
Laura, I said I wasn't going to post again at Susan's, but I think I can be of use.

Over time, everything settled and even though I'm plain, in the right light, without any makeup or doodads, I can be a bit pretty. I expect the same for you. Decades prior, I had a rhinoplasty and I had to wait about nine months to see the nose I now have and enjoy. So, wait, wait, wait. In surgical recovery terms, your surgery was merely yesterday.

I'm glad you chimed in @OldAndCreaky. I've learned so much from those who have come before me, so thank you for giving back. I hope you keep coming back. I agree with you and @Dorit that time will reveal the new me and not one minute sooner. LOL.

Thank you both.

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Re: Laura's FFS Journal
« Reply #47 on: September 23, 2020, 05:40:11 pm »
Post-Op Day 35

I’m finding that now that I can wear my glasses normally, they don’t fit the same, since my nose is shaped differently. Fortunately, I have an eye doctor appointment tomorrow so I’ll have both pairs (one for tennis and one for everything else) adjusted to my new nose.


Had to laugh at this...this has happened to my reading glasses as well! Keeps slipping down my nose - annoying!

Fortunately, it has always been part of my post-surgery plan to spend some money and get a couple pairs of nice looking reading glasses with the anti-glare coating from an optician. I hope to do that in the next couple of weeks.

Everything else you mention is similar to where I was two weeks ago. It’s pretty slow going from here to month 6, I think.

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Re: Laura's FFS Journal
« Reply #48 on: September 23, 2020, 06:06:11 pm »
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I'm glad you chimed in @OldAndCreaky. I've learned so much from those who have come before me, so thank you for giving back. I hope you keep coming back.

Thank you. When I transitioned, there was no Internet, so I transitioned alone. I think it helps to have scouts, albeit cyber.

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Re: Laura's FFS Journal
« Reply #49 on: September 23, 2020, 06:42:46 pm »
Thank you. When I transitioned, there was no Internet, so I transitioned alone. I think it helps to have scouts, albeit cyber.

I could not agree more, @OldAndCreaky. I know I'm standing on the shoulder of giants who forged the path before me. Knowing I'm not alone and hearing how many of our stories share common highs and lows makes the journey easier.

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Re: Laura's FFS Journal
« Reply #50 on: September 23, 2020, 06:44:37 pm »
Had to laugh at this...this has happened to my reading glasses as well! Keeps slipping down my nose - annoying!

Fortunately, it has always been part of my post-surgery plan to spend some money and get a couple pairs of nice looking reading glasses with the anti-glare coating from an optician. I hope to do that in the next couple of weeks.

Everything else you mention is similar to where I was two weeks ago. It’s pretty slow going from here to month 6, I think.

Sarah
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Fixing our glasses is one of the little known effects from FFS. Had a great appointment with my eye doctor and both pairs now sit comfortably on my face. chose new frames too.

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Re: Laura's FFS Journal
« Reply #51 on: September 23, 2020, 08:43:30 pm »
Laura, here's what I remember about my rhinoplasty. When the surgeon removed the bandages, I was stunned by how slender and feminine my nose was. That lasted minutes, as it started to swell. It looked like an A-frame house, thin on the ridge, but flaring to my face. I figured that was simply my new nose. However, after months and months, one day, the flaring deflated and that thin nose I first saw when the bandages were removed was back. It was as if someone had jabbed an ice pick into a tire and deflated it. That deflating was elating!

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Re: Laura's FFS Journal
« Reply #52 on: September 29, 2020, 08:20:00 am »
Post-Op Day 42 (Six Weeks)

At six-weeks post-op, bruising has finally disappeared, although swelling continues and will take another 5-6 months to return to the new normal. Although I had started to wear my glasses normally, I’m finding some pinching on my nose, so I’m continuing to tape my glasses to my forehead (quite attractive) about 50% of the time.

Last Friday, I drove into the Bay Area for an appointment with Dr. Shih. I had debated going as Laura, but was cautious because my nose was still sensitive, but in the end, Laura won out. After I dressed and did my make-up, I took a few pictures so I could compare Laura Now to Laura in July. (I've placed the Laura Now picture as my new profile pic.) When I placed the pictures side by side, I really couldn’t see any difference. Now, I know FFS results in subtle changes, but as hard as I’ve been looking, I’ve not seen any difference. Most likely, this is due to the swelling,

The doctor was really nice and heard my concerns. He pulled up the pictures they had taken during my consult last year and showed me the work they had done. Given that my nose, chin and jaw are still swollen, it will take awhile for the final results. He said it could take a year for my nose swelling to go away and up to six months for my facial swelling.

So, of course, I’ll wait.

Waiting is what we MTF’s do.

Next appointment in six months.

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Re: Laura's FFS Journal
« Reply #53 on: September 29, 2020, 09:17:17 am »
@Laura1951
Dear Laura:
Your "Day #42" update is wonderful to read....
.... and your NEW Avatar/Profile picture is terrific and shows a beautiful woman.

Yes indeed, the swelling will eventually go away with time and if your latest picture is any indication, I think that you will be very, very pleased with the results.

Again, thank you for keeping all of us updated....


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Re: Laura's FFS Journal
« Reply #54 on: September 29, 2020, 07:50:02 pm »
Post-Op Day 42 (Six Weeks)

When I placed the pictures side by side, I really couldn’t see any difference. Now, I know FFS results in subtle changes, but as hard as I’ve been looking, I’ve not seen any difference. Most likely, this is due to the swelling,


Did you look at before-and-after profile pics? My doctor showed my before and 10-day post-op after pics from the profile view and the effect of the type 3 forehead procedure was abundantly clear. Huuuuuge difference, even only after 10 days.

I think it is harder to see front facing changes...especially because the swelling takes so long to subside and because it is hard to perceive the boniness of the face looking head on.

I agree that it really does take months for swelling to subside...everything you talk about has been consistent with my experience.

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Re: Laura's FFS Journal
« Reply #55 on: September 30, 2020, 12:59:55 am »
Post-Op Day 42 (Six Weeks)

 Last Friday, I drove into the Bay Area for an appointment with Dr. Shih. I had debated going as Laura, but was cautious because my nose was still sensitive, but in the end, Laura won out. After I dressed and did my make-up, I took a few pictures so I could compare Laura Now to Laura in July. (I've placed the Laura Now picture as my new profile pic.) When I placed the pictures side by side, I really couldn’t see any difference. Now, I know FFS results in subtle changes, but as hard as I’ve been looking, I’ve not seen any difference. Most likely, this is due to the swelling,

Onward.

Laura, the two avatar pictures before and after are light years apart in appearance! You are well on the way to being a beautiful woman.  I believe what happens is that our brains are so imprinted to our old face that we are the last ones to see the difference.  Be happy, you did it,  Laura is coming out!
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Re: Laura's FFS Journal
« Reply #56 on: September 30, 2020, 01:14:12 am »

Laura,

I definitely agree with Dorit. Your chin/jaw line, mouth and maybe your cheeks scream woman.  Let it all settle down.  Your nose will be the last to do that and from what I have heard from others, it will shrink down quite a bit.  Congratulations on your new look and what may come in the future.

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Re: Laura's FFS Journal
« Reply #57 on: October 04, 2020, 06:31:16 am »
You pass, Laura. Congrats!

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Re: Laura's FFS Journal
« Reply #58 on: October 05, 2020, 10:51:36 am »
Laura,

You’re Looking more beautiful each day as your healing progresses. For me It’s been a year since my FFS and as more of your swelling reduces, you be even more amazed at your face. BTW I asked my surgeon to reduce my “Mr. Spok” like ears and large ear lobes. Very pleased with the results😊
Thank you @Katie76. It's only been two months now, but knowing I need to wait about six months for my face and one year for my nose gives me hope. Glad yours turned out well. I'm looking foward.

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Re: Laura's FFS Journal
« Reply #59 on: October 05, 2020, 10:52:47 am »
You pass, Laura. Congrats!
Thank you @OldAndCreaky. I'm getting "clocked" when I go out, but hopefully time will change that.

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