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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #500 on: November 12, 2021, 04:49:34 pm »
To be honest I think there are 2 chances for me to get approved for grs and those are nil and none. I think that my hopes have just been raised for naught.
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #501 on: November 28, 2021, 08:45:30 am »
I am really beginning to worry about my Mom. She is in her 70's and lives alone. She hasn't been online that I have seen in the last 4 or 5 days and when I called her yesterday and today it went straight to voicemail. Yesterday was her birthday and I always call her on her birthday.
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #502 on: November 28, 2021, 10:01:48 am »
I am really beginning to worry about my Mom. She is in her 70's and lives alone. She hasn't been online that I have seen in the last 4 or 5 days and when I called her yesterday and today it went straight to voicemail. Yesterday was her birthday and I always call her on her birthday.
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #503 on: November 28, 2021, 12:38:06 pm »
That was the best message I have ever sent. My Aunt found her after she had fallen in the shower. She will be ok but I don't know if she has any broken bones or not.
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #504 on: November 28, 2021, 01:54:41 pm »
Oh MY!!  I pray she wasn't stuck there for a very long time!  The fact that you were unable to get her yesterday makes me think she may have been stuck there for more than a day!  I hope she is OK...

I'm glad you got someone to check on her, otherwise this may have been much worse.

My mom is also starting to get to the age where she really shouldn't live alone.  Truthfully, it isn't her age as much as it is her ailments and the fact that she is in the early stages of Alzheimer's.  I worry a lot about what will happen someday when my stepfather is no longer around.  Tough conversations and decisions await me and my sister.

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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #505 on: November 28, 2021, 02:50:34 pm »
Apparently she doesn't have any broken bones but they are taking her to a bigger hospital where they have better scanners. She is going to need to get a panic button imo.

Thanks for all well wishes :)
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« Reply #506 on: November 28, 2021, 06:35:13 pm »
It turns out that my mother has a bad brain bleed and if and it's a big if she survives without surgery she will need nursing care for the rest of her life. I had to make the decision to not do the surgery to save her life. I basically sentenced my mother to death.
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #507 on: November 28, 2021, 07:21:02 pm »
It turns out that my mother has a bad brain bleed and if and it's a big if she survives without surgery she will need nursing care for the rest of her life. I had to make the decision to not do the surgery to save her life. I basically sentenced my mother to death.

Julie,

My heart goes out to you and your family. It is a very hard decision to make.

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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #508 on: November 28, 2021, 10:39:33 pm »
I am so sorry. 

I can’t imagine how hard that was for you, but I certainly understand your decision, and for what it is worth I believe you made the correct one.  I hope my wife (who is my healthcare proxy) would make the same decision if it were me. 

My heart goes out to you. 

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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #509 on: November 29, 2021, 03:21:42 am »
HUGS dear
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #510 on: November 29, 2021, 11:41:00 am »
It sounds like it is just a matter of hours now not days. I don't know if I'll even be there in time to say goodbye.
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #511 on: November 29, 2021, 11:49:54 am »
It sounds like it is just a matter of hours now not days. I don't know if I'll even be there in time to say goodbye.

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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #512 on: November 29, 2021, 06:14:37 pm »
I am really sorry, Julie.

My sisters and I had to make this type of decision for my Dad last spring.  It was really difficult.  We kept looking for ANY SIGN that he might be able to make it, and that sign never came.  In the end, it was a unanimous decision (thank goodness), and we were all able to be there with him when they took him off the ventilator.  Those minutes still haunt me even though I would never have done it any differently.

I really hope you are able to make it to her side in time -- if you don't, just know that you did everything you could.  If you had not alerted your aunt, she may have already passed without you having any opportunity to be with her at all.

With all the love I can send,

Sara



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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #513 on: November 29, 2021, 07:30:01 pm »
Thanks all
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #514 on: November 30, 2021, 05:32:02 am »
My mother passed about an hour ago
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #515 on: November 30, 2021, 08:19:17 am »
Condolences,
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #516 on: November 30, 2021, 08:30:07 am »
My mother passed about an hour ago

I am very sorry for your loss. I hope as time goes by you will remember her well and with only warm, glowing memories.
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #517 on: November 30, 2021, 08:53:22 am »
My mother passed about an hour ago

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Dear Julie:
My thoughts and prayers are with you!!!
HUGS 
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Positive Mindset... put away negativity

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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #518 on: November 30, 2021, 09:21:59 am »
My mother passed about an hour ago

My thoughts and prayers for you and your family.

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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #519 on: December 02, 2021, 10:24:31 am »
Thanks all
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