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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #200 on: September 23, 2020, 10:46:56 pm »
I have an appointment next thursday.
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #201 on: September 24, 2020, 08:46:16 am »
TY :)
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #202 on: September 25, 2020, 06:21:54 pm »
Well yesterday I started to spiral downwards thinking what's the point of being alive as I don't add to anyone's life. Then all of a sudden part of my brain started going what about this or this or that, pulling me out of my depression. For the first time in a long time I went out twice today and even chatted with a stranger.
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #203 on: September 25, 2020, 06:33:02 pm »
Well yesterday I started to spiral downwards thinking what's the point of being alive as I don't add to anyone's life. Then all of a sudden part of my brain started going what about this or this or that, pulling me out of my depression. For the first time in a long time I went out twice today and even chatted with a stranger.
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Dear Julie:
Thank you for reporting your good news.
Small positive steps and actions are GOOD!!!

Keep up the good work and now you can "spiral upwards"
HUGS and best wishes,
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #204 on: October 03, 2020, 12:23:16 pm »
I talked with my doctor and we decided to stay on the wellbutrin and revisit things in a month.
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #205 on: October 03, 2020, 06:23:29 pm »
I talked with my doctor and we decided to stay on the wellbutrin and revisit things in a month.
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I am so very glad that you are keeping your doctor aware
of how you feel and reporting unwelcome side-effects.

Stay safe, stay healthy,

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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #206 on: October 03, 2020, 08:32:21 pm »
Oh oh I think my rage is back and harder to control. I nearly threw stuff across the room tonight .
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #207 on: October 09, 2020, 06:05:57 pm »
I used to have rage issues but once I started taking estrogen it seemed to go away. After starting wellbutrin it seems to have come back. I am very afraid of my rage I am afraid that I might try to really hurt someone. Apparently anger is a known side affect so I will be talking with my doctor 2 weeks early on wed to discus my anger issues. On the matter of my depression it seems to have calmed down.
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #208 on: October 09, 2020, 06:22:06 pm »
I used to have rage issues but once I started taking estrogen it seemed to go away. After starting wellbutrin it seems to have come back. I am very afraid of my rage I am afraid that I might try to really hurt someone. Apparently anger is a known side affect so I will be talking with my doctor 2 weeks early on wed to discus my anger issues. On the matter of my depression it seems to have calmed down.

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Dear Julie:
I feel so badly for you that you are going through these difficult times with side-effects...
I am so very glad that that you will be talking with your doctor 2 weeks early.
Be sure that you discuss all the issues, you need to get a handle on all of this, especially the rage issue.

I am thinking and praying for you.
Please keep me and the rest of your followers updated but only as you feel comfortable sharing.

HUGS and HUGS and more HUGS, 
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #209 on: October 10, 2020, 11:54:24 am »
Thanks Danielle

I am not sure but it feels like not taking the possible side effects in to account the wellbutrin may actually be helping a tiny bit. I have also had rage issues in the past but it seemed to be better with hrt. The event that I had last week though was a flash from annoyed to enraged, also over something that was nonsense that should not have affected me like that.My previous rage events had built up for a while. The last time when I attacked someone (I choked him until he gave my property back) he had been bothering me all day and I had honestly intended to grab his wrist to take my item back. This is what scares me, I had no control over my actions.
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #210 on: October 13, 2020, 03:23:40 pm »
Yum spicy California rolls for dinner tonight.
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #211 on: October 13, 2020, 05:58:19 pm »
Yum spicy California rolls for dinner tonight.
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Dear Julie:
I had to do a Google Search to find out what exactly is a "California Roll"
Did you make them yourself?
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A California roll or California maki is a makizushi sushi roll that is usually rolled inside-out, and containing cucumber, crab or imitation crab, and avocado
     
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #212 on: October 13, 2020, 06:25:55 pm »
@Julie H
Dear Julie:
I had to do a Google Search to find out what exactly is a "California Roll"
Did you make them yourself?
Hugs,
Danielle


A California roll or California maki is a makizushi sushi roll that is usually rolled inside-out, and containing cucumber, crab or imitation crab, and avocado
     

No I got it from walmart, I might get more tomorrow from metro (Canadian grocery store)
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #213 on: October 14, 2020, 12:06:15 pm »
Ouch, I got introduced to inertia today. I was riding the bus when the driver had to stop suddenly and I got launched 4 or 5 feet landing on my knees then doing a face plant into the wheelchair backrest.

On the plus side I did get my california rolls today and they didn't get smashed.

I talked to my doctor as I was writing this and she said for me to get a covid test and if that comes up negative then to try to stop the wellbutrin and see if my nasty cough goes away.
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #214 on: October 14, 2020, 02:14:36 pm »
Ouch, I got introduced to inertia today. I was riding the bus when the driver had to stop suddenly and I got launched 4 or 5 feet landing on my knees then doing a face plant into the wheelchair backrest.

On the plus side I did get my california rolls today and they didn't get smashed.

I talked to my doctor as I was writing this and she said for me to get a covid test and if that comes up negative then to try to stop the wellbutrin and see if my nasty cough goes away.

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Dear Julie:
OH NO!!!  I hope that you did not get hurt....   any face, knee or other injury.... physically?
Oh, and as you stated: 
"On the plus side I did get my california rolls today and they didn't get smashed."
So  that is good news.

I have not been so fortunate recently and tripped on a curb near my office and badly sprained my ankle, I ended up on crutches for several weeks and I am just getting back to "normal."

Yes, you doctor is correct....  make sure that your bad cough is not the flu or even covid.
I think that when you take a Covid test that the test also covers some of the other flu viruses ... all of which could cause your bad cough.   

I am wishing you well.... and enjoy your California Rolls.
HUGS and best  wishes,
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #215 on: October 14, 2020, 02:43:16 pm »
Thanks Danielle sorry to hear about your ankle. I mostly just got bruises, I'll have to see tomorrow how I feel. The backrest I face planted was fairly well padded so my face is fine, my neck is a little bit sore I'll have to see if that gets any worse.
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #216 on: October 15, 2020, 03:35:16 pm »
Another thing my doctor said was that I was doing well in dealing with my rage issues seeing as I have pretty much for the last 30 years been able to talk myself down. Maybe I have been a bit harsh on myself but my anger does still scare me.
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #217 on: October 16, 2020, 10:28:04 am »
I have to go for a covid test today bleh. It seems like wellbutrin can if you are unlucky give you a major cough. Seeing as my cough started when I started wellbutrin I really think it is that especially because I rarely go out to get infected. My doctor wants me to go get tested just to be sure. At least it is a reason to go out to lunch with my friend who is driving me, I have only seen him twice in the last 6 months.
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #218 on: October 16, 2020, 12:34:20 pm »
Well that sucked, I think I can taste colour now.
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Re: White Rabbit's ramblings
« Reply #219 on: October 16, 2020, 01:14:45 pm »
Well that sucked, I think I can taste colour now.
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Dear Julie:

Hopefully your Covid test (brain tickler) results are OK so you can see your doctor.

What did you have for lunch with your friend... I trust that you had an enjoyably time.

HUGS, and as always, best wishes,
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??? What color did you taste? ???
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