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Re: Pammie’s all new blog
« Reply #360 on: June 18, 2020, 10:35:37 am »
I can water divine and sex unborn children and have some sixth sense , Davina the witch!!
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Re: Pammie’s all new blog
« Reply #361 on: June 19, 2020, 02:16:14 pm »
Some days I suspect I start overthinking things . Usually when I spend too much time on here and read too many posts. I start worrying about my height, can I be 6’2” and yet pass? Then I worry about the fact that I didn’t consciously know my true self until I was 55 - can I still be genuine? These are 2 of the things that resurface easily!
What I know is that I feel genuine and complete. I have had no doubts since I discovered my true self. I also no longer have that inner voice trying to put up red flags.

So, I need to go with my inner harmony and believe!
We all have our challenges that is quite clear! Xx
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Yeah, this is part of the reason I don't spend much time here anymore. Everyone else's experiences can freak you out and make you second guess yourself. You do overthink things. You think what other people go through means you will automatically go through it too. Even though you're in an entirely different part of the world.

Pammie, you're gorgeous. Forget age. Forget all that baggage. Just be you. You know when you know. You know how you know. Everyone is an individual and trying to herd cats is a foolish endeavour. Just be.

You're awesome. :)

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Re: Pammie’s all new blog
« Reply #362 on: June 19, 2020, 03:03:46 pm »
Pammie I agree with Sephirah, you are gorgeous both in and out.  For God's sake stay away from my thread!!!

I am poisonously overthinking everything.  ;D ::)
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Re: Pammie’s all new blog
« Reply #363 on: June 19, 2020, 03:06:33 pm »
I am poisonously overthinking everything.  ;D ::)

Have you tried hypnotherapy or meditation, @Emma1017?

It might help with the overthinking. - E
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Re: Pammie’s all new blog
« Reply #364 on: June 19, 2020, 03:10:25 pm »
Yeah, this is part of the reason I don't spend much time here anymore. Everyone else's experiences can freak you out and make you second guess yourself. You do overthink things. You think what other people go through means you will automatically go through it too. Even though you're in an entirely different part of the world.

Pammie, you're gorgeous. Forget age. Forget all that baggage. Just be you. You know when you know. You know how you know. Everyone is an individual and trying to herd cats is a foolish endeavour. Just be.

You're awesome. :)
Thank you so much, i’m lucky in that my boyfriend tells me i’m beautiful so often that I actually believe it some times - some things just don’t get old!
I do just need to chill. xxx


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Re: Pammie’s all new blog
« Reply #365 on: June 19, 2020, 03:12:18 pm »
Pammie I agree with Sephirah, you are gorgeous both in and out.  For God's sake stay away from my thread!!!

I am poisonously overthinking everything.  ;D ::)
Emma, you are amazing and have such challenges that you really cannot be accused of overthinking  xxx
I am in awe of your strength and determination


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Re: Pammie’s all new blog
« Reply #366 on: June 19, 2020, 03:15:08 pm »
Have you tried hypnotherapy or meditation, @Emma1017?

It might help with the overthinking. - E
I must admit meditation is something I have thought about - I guess i’m a bit strange in that I only have on and off bouts of overthinking - sometimes it’s all background and i’m internally content


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Re: Pammie’s all new blog
« Reply #367 on: June 19, 2020, 03:17:12 pm »
I must admit meditation is something I have thought about - I guess i’m a bit strange in that I only have on and off bouts of overthinking - sometimes it’s all background and i’m internally content

Similar here. Sometimes my mine tends to race. I don't know if everybody has that happen to them. It helps to do some mindfulness activities. Doesn't even have to be meditation or hypnotherapy; anything that you have to focus on that "brings you into the zone" will do.

Anything that makes time fly is ideal. - E
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Re: Pammie’s all new blog
« Reply #368 on: June 19, 2020, 03:18:17 pm »
Actually I do meditate otherwise I would explode....and I add the occasional glass of red wine ;D.
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Pammie’s all new blog
« Reply #369 on: June 19, 2020, 03:29:41 pm »
Actually I do meditate otherwise I would explode....and I add the occasional glass of red wine ;D.
I’n my case it’s white wine and far too many glasses!


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Re: Pammie’s all new blog
« Reply #370 on: June 19, 2020, 04:23:05 pm »
I'm not very girly when it comes to drinks - I still have 500ml bottles of real ale every now and again!

Maybe someday I'll get a cocktail with an umbrella in it or something. Not sure what the umbrella is for in those things. - E
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Pammie’s all new blog
« Reply #371 on: June 20, 2020, 02:19:37 pm »
I'm not very girly when it comes to drinks - I still have 500ml bottles of real ale every now and again!

Maybe someday I'll get a cocktail with an umbrella in it or something. Not sure what the umbrella is for in those things. - E
I think not drinking pints any more was on my list if changes to make when I first found myself but I found i didn’t need to be artificial about it because I found my tastes in drinks changed


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Pammie’s all new blog
« Reply #372 on: June 20, 2020, 02:25:19 pm »
So tonight i’m planning for my Andy’s birthday tomorrow. I’ve baked a cake and bought the presents and written the birthday card complete with a love poem I wrote. Got his favourite dress ready complete with lacy panties and as it’s his birthday I’ll not need a bra
Preparing to seduce my boyfriend makes me feel oh so feminine!


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Re: Pammie’s all new blog
« Reply #373 on: June 20, 2020, 05:39:49 pm »
I think not drinking pints any more was on my list if changes to make when I first found myself but I found i didn’t need to be artificial about it because I found my tastes in drinks changed

Serious question... was that an effect of hormones?
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Re: Pammie’s all new blog
« Reply #374 on: June 20, 2020, 06:09:10 pm »
Serious question... was that an effect of hormones?
Maybe it was though it may have been part of my internal self-discovery - it took me a year or so to uncover my real identity completely


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Re: Pammie’s all new blog
« Reply #375 on: June 21, 2020, 01:26:12 pm »
Only got a couple of hours with my Andy on his birthday but we made the most of it and had a lovely lunchtime together - i’m such a lucky girl



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Re: Pammie’s all new blog
« Reply #376 on: June 21, 2020, 02:29:32 pm »
Only got a couple of hours with my Andy on his birthday but we made the most of it and had a lovely lunchtime together - i’m such a lucky girl

Great to see you smiling again! And that you had a good time!
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Re: Pammie’s all new blog
« Reply #377 on: June 21, 2020, 03:01:05 pm »
Your Andy is a lucky fella , glad you had a nice time.
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Re: Pammie’s all new blog
« Reply #378 on: June 21, 2020, 03:01:40 pm »
Great to see you smiling again! And that you had a good time!
Thanks Hun xxx


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Re: Pammie’s all new blog
« Reply #379 on: June 21, 2020, 03:02:21 pm »
Your Andy is a lucky fella , glad you had a nice time.
Awwww thanks! He thinks so! 


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