@davina61 Dear Davina:I am sorry to hear of your dismay and depression with your work and also with things going on in your personal life.
Please don't meltdown, and do not "walk out" of your present employment without having something else lined up.
One of the reasons that I left my old "male mode" accounting job was that I was sick and tired of the corporate politics... the standard operating procedure in many corporations is "cover your butt" with memos and other written and verbal communication. Even then the corporate politics can still go badly.
I know that you have a trade and skills that can be applied to other places of employment, or perhaps it might be time to start your own business....
.(custom clocks made with old auto parts?) 
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I quit the corporate environment... that is what I did when I was transitioning to full time ..... I would have to think long and hard about working for someone else again, i would make a very poor employee now that I have been on my own for over 3 years. The hours are long at times, the company paid free benefits and vacations are not there, but I have the freedom to handle my business and my schedule as long it is prudent to do so.
I am wishing you well with your decisions about what you may plan to do to handle your debilitating depression on both your job and your personal life.
Please keep writing... venting is good!!!!
HUGS and best wishes as always to you....
DanielleYes stress and depression not helped by dysphoria with the uniform and misgendering . most days after starting at 8 am with my first car inspection booked at 8.30 and then every 50 mins till 12 .40 lunch. then 1,3 till 5 50 and we finish at 6pm. I don't stop between tests as no time , get stressed about keeping on time and have to rush every thing just to keep up and now we have to work off tablets that take twice as long to use as pen and paper. Just so tired when I get home, comfort eating and getting depressed as not losing weight . Just had enough , tears as I do this and don't know what to do. Its a year till I can retire , a year to long. Trouble is every one (apart from BFF) say its ONLY a year when one more day is a struggle. Need to pay the rent and stuff but this is the only job I have done for the past 50 years. Doc was no help either (just a year) . Might just have a melt down and walk out--------