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Great so I am Transitioning, Now What?
« on: April 29, 2020, 03:58:41 pm »
To all:

I am transitioning.  God help you all because I plan to keep posting on this new thread, now third in my series.  I can summarize each one as: "Do I Have Gender Dysphoria?, Am I Transgender? and Will I Transition?".

This next year should be interesting as I make plans to physically change my sex to match my gender. 

I have no idea if it will happen or how it will happen.  There are so many roadblocks, like I am 64 years old, the virus, etc. but at least I have made my decision.  I will just have to see how this all goes.

I will absolutely need you all of this ride.

Hugs,

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Re: Great so I am Transitioning, Now What?
« Reply #1 on: April 29, 2020, 04:12:27 pm »
To all:

I am transitioning.  God help you all because I plan to keep posting on this new thread, now third in my series.  I can summarize each one as: "Do I Have Gender Dysphoria?, Am I Transgender? and Will I Transition?".

This next year should be interesting as I make plans to physically change my sex to match my gender. 

I have no idea if it will happen or how it will happen.  There are so many roadblocks, like I am 64 years old, the virus, etc. but at least I have made my decision.  I will just have to see how this all goes.

I will absolutely need you all of this ride.

Hugs,

Emma


Emma,

I wish you the best of everything as you proceed on your journey.
Plus, all in your life to be at peace with your transition.

Hugs,

Chrissy
Be tender to others.  You are as beautiful as the thoughts you think and the words that your speak.   Always stay cheerful, be polite, kind, and understanding.  Knowledge and action shown without love is not impressive.  If you look for the good in people you will find it. Healthy relationships are so important to good living.

Good living, joy, unity, love, and happiness can come from following these practices: Never let selfishness or conceit motivate you.  Regard others as more important than yourself.  Do not limit attention to only your interests, but include the interests of others

It is not usually about how fast you transition, it is about how well you transition.  

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Re: Great so I am Transitioning, Now What?
« Reply #2 on: April 29, 2020, 04:37:29 pm »
@Emma1017
Dear Emma:
Absolutely YES, myself and the rest of your followers are on your Transitioning Journey with you. 
Hang on tight, it is not only and exciting ride but the road can have a few potholes in it.

When you report good news we will all rejoice with you and when you report not-so-good news we will lend you our ears to listen and our shoulders for you to lean on.

We are you biggest fans and are always rooting for your happiness and success.

I will be eagerly following your postings and updates on this new thread of yours.

HUGS and more HUGS,
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Re: Great so I am Transitioning, Now What?
« Reply #3 on: April 29, 2020, 06:07:16 pm »
Congratulations, I wish you good luck on your journey.

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Re: Great so I am Transitioning, Now What?
« Reply #4 on: April 29, 2020, 06:32:07 pm »
Yay!

Make sure you're strapped in...it's a wild ride, to say the least.

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Re: Great so I am Transitioning, Now What?
« Reply #5 on: April 30, 2020, 07:52:19 am »
Thank you all for your thoughts and support.  It means a lot.

So here I am in day one after, for me, my grandiose announcement that I am transitioning.  I woke up, not to the sounds of an angelic choir singing songs of happiness and joy...nope, no even a trumpet. 

I woke up with a voice screaming in my head "<not allowed> am I doing!".  Cold sweats, deep pitted fear and absolute doubt surging through my brain.

Yep, no difference after making my commitment to transition yesterday.  I should have just stayed on the other thread.  I feel a wimp out coming.  My angelic refrain is <not allowed>, <not allowed>, <not allowed>

No surprise huh?
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Re: Great so I am Transitioning, Now What?
« Reply #6 on: April 30, 2020, 08:37:05 am »
Sorry dear.  I have a copyright on <not allowed> when it comes to transitioning.  :D

Seriously though, I hope it meets all your expectations. You have had enough agony with this.  You deserve some joy to balance that out.

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Re: Great so I am Transitioning, Now What?
« Reply #7 on: April 30, 2020, 08:47:39 am »
Hi Emma, I'm glad you have made a decision. As your post above shows, once we make a decision then a cascade of additional thoughts, doubts and emotions may spill out. It still sounds to me like it is the right decision for you. Good luck and we are here for you!

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Re: Great so I am Transitioning, Now What?
« Reply #8 on: April 30, 2020, 09:56:18 am »
Randy and randim thanks for the pep talk.  I will be the <not allowed> stage for a while.  My decision needs to take root and that is my next challenge.

Best regards,

Emma
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Re: Great so I am Transitioning, Now What?
« Reply #9 on: April 30, 2020, 10:27:00 am »
I will certainly try and help if I can, as before! I hope you manage to achieve wellbeing for yourself.
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Re: Great so I am Transitioning, Now What?
« Reply #10 on: April 30, 2020, 02:12:28 pm »
This seems completely normal to me  :).

In all seriousness, I definitely thought this many times in the first few months. I just kept in mind that I didn’t want to go back so the only option is to keep moving forward.

Sarah

Thank you all for your thoughts and support.  It means a lot.

So here I am in day one after, for me, my grandiose announcement that I am transitioning.  I woke up, not to the sounds of an angelic choir singing songs of happiness and joy...nope, no even a trumpet. 

I woke up with a voice screaming in my head "<not allowed> am I doing!".  Cold sweats, deep pitted fear and absolute doubt surging through my brain.

Yep, no difference after making my commitment to transition yesterday.  I should have just stayed on the other thread.  I feel a wimp out coming.  My angelic refrain is <not allowed>, <not allowed>, <not allowed>

No surprise huh?
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Re: Great so I am Transitioning, Now What?
« Reply #11 on: May 01, 2020, 07:54:04 am »
Sarah I think you are right, there is no going back and, clearly I am not staying static.  That slow moving train called gender dysphoria that I continue to push against keeps moving down the track in spite of how hard I push back.

I like this old comic cover.  It's how I feel locked in this iron guy mask.

                                     
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Re: Great so I am Transitioning, Now What?
« Reply #12 on: May 01, 2020, 08:42:13 am »
Gender dysphoria can be such a strong force.
The definitive way to banish it is to complete transitioning.

It would be great if everyone was accepting, but that will not be the case.
Of course, there are less impactful things that are not accepted by all too.

If we could all come across as a woman in all ways, to the extent that no one
would think that we were born male, that would be ideal.

Regardless of their perceptions, we are women.

Chrissy
Be tender to others.  You are as beautiful as the thoughts you think and the words that your speak.   Always stay cheerful, be polite, kind, and understanding.  Knowledge and action shown without love is not impressive.  If you look for the good in people you will find it. Healthy relationships are so important to good living.

Good living, joy, unity, love, and happiness can come from following these practices: Never let selfishness or conceit motivate you.  Regard others as more important than yourself.  Do not limit attention to only your interests, but include the interests of others

It is not usually about how fast you transition, it is about how well you transition.  

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Re: Great so I am Transitioning, Now What?
« Reply #13 on: May 01, 2020, 08:47:03 am »
Gender dysphoria can be such a strong force.
The definitive way to banish it is to complete transitioning.

Chrissy is such a wise girl, she get's it  :)
kindness is love nurturing your soul....

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Re: Great so I am Transitioning, Now What?
« Reply #14 on: May 01, 2020, 09:05:39 am »
Quote from: ChrissyRyan on Today at 08:42:13 am:  "Gender dysphoria can be such a strong force.
The definitive way to banish it is to complete transitioning."


"Chrissy is such a wise girl, she get's it."....Cynthia Ann I absolutely agree with you!!!
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Re: Great so I am Transitioning, Now What?
« Reply #15 on: May 01, 2020, 09:06:41 am »
Gender dysphoria can be such a strong force.
The definitive way to banish it is to complete transitioning.

It would be great if everyone was accepting, but that will not be the case.
Of course, there are less impactful things that are not accepted by all too.

If we could all come across as a woman in all ways, to the extent that no one
would think that we were born male, that would be ideal.

Regardless of their perceptions, we are women.

Chrissy

I think of you as kind-as-always Chrissy

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« Reply #16 on: May 01, 2020, 09:08:39 am »
Chrissy is such a wise girl, she get's it  :)

Awwww.  :)

TY

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Be tender to others.  You are as beautiful as the thoughts you think and the words that your speak.   Always stay cheerful, be polite, kind, and understanding.  Knowledge and action shown without love is not impressive.  If you look for the good in people you will find it. Healthy relationships are so important to good living.

Good living, joy, unity, love, and happiness can come from following these practices: Never let selfishness or conceit motivate you.  Regard others as more important than yourself.  Do not limit attention to only your interests, but include the interests of others

It is not usually about how fast you transition, it is about how well you transition.  

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« Reply #17 on: May 01, 2020, 09:09:21 am »
Quote from: ChrissyRyan on Today at 08:42:13 am:  "Gender dysphoria can be such a strong force.
The definitive way to banish it is to complete transitioning."


"Chrissy is such a wise girl, she get's it."....Cynthia Ann I absolutely agree with you!!!

Emma,

Do have a wonderful day!


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Be tender to others.  You are as beautiful as the thoughts you think and the words that your speak.   Always stay cheerful, be polite, kind, and understanding.  Knowledge and action shown without love is not impressive.  If you look for the good in people you will find it. Healthy relationships are so important to good living.

Good living, joy, unity, love, and happiness can come from following these practices: Never let selfishness or conceit motivate you.  Regard others as more important than yourself.  Do not limit attention to only your interests, but include the interests of others

It is not usually about how fast you transition, it is about how well you transition.  

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« Reply #18 on: May 01, 2020, 09:09:52 am »
I think of you as kind-as-always Chrissy

That is nice of you to say.   :)

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Be tender to others.  You are as beautiful as the thoughts you think and the words that your speak.   Always stay cheerful, be polite, kind, and understanding.  Knowledge and action shown without love is not impressive.  If you look for the good in people you will find it. Healthy relationships are so important to good living.

Good living, joy, unity, love, and happiness can come from following these practices: Never let selfishness or conceit motivate you.  Regard others as more important than yourself.  Do not limit attention to only your interests, but include the interests of others

It is not usually about how fast you transition, it is about how well you transition.  

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Re: Great so I am Transitioning, Now What?
« Reply #19 on: May 01, 2020, 09:18:41 am »
Chrissy thank you for your warm thought.  I would like to share it with everyone:

                                  Do have a wonderful day! :icon_flower:

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