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Offline Observur

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Hello im new here !
« on: October 27, 2020, 05:41:46 pm »
Im writing using my phone i apologize for any bad writing

Hello im new here and i honestly feel slightly anxious to post here but i wanted to say hi to any potential friends
That i can be myself around them and not have to hide or feel ashamed of being myself
Im a 24 year old transgender girl i have been secretly transitioning in the closet for a month and a half now
I live with my conservative family most likelly they are transphobic so i dont know if i can gaurntee my safty being out so for now i just want to see how things go here, ive known i do not identify as my agab at 13 years old but due t life situation i really had to ush these emotions i felt where shamegull deep down and hopped to never have to deall with this side of me ever again( lol we all know how that went since im writing here) but dispite how hardi tried this part of me always managed to surface , at the time i didnt want to bring shame to  family ,my family is muslim btw for context  and i tried once bringing it to my father just to see how he responds and all i got was "these people are disgusting" and i never asked again my mother thinks eating pork makes you gay and after testing the water i crawled back into the closet and itsbeen aweful so i came up with an attempt to supress these emotions for good by joining the israeli military to clmbat oriented unites i thought to myself there is achance i might die then i wouldnt have to worry about these emotions anymore and thd family would not be ashamed if i died a "hero"  (that almost worked) but im here ! And these emotions are still here and looking forward i simply could not see myself going further living as my agab... now im trying to make peace with it and ever since i got on hrt ive never been happier ,  i am a woman and i want to be seen as such and idk how toeven hande the storm coming my way in regards to being outed to family   and possibly loosing everyone i loved and csred for along side loosing my job  so i have my hands kind of tied behind my back , so hi istill havent settled on a name but im a woman and its nice to meet all of you :)

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Re: Hello im new here !
« Reply #1 on: October 27, 2020, 07:09:33 pm »
@Observur

Hello and welcome to the community!

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Re: Hello im new here !
« Reply #2 on: October 27, 2020, 07:14:22 pm »
Welcome to Susan’s Place!  I’m Jessica.

I see you’re new here, so I’ll post some links that may help you get better acquainted with the site. Pay attention to the site rules they can be of great help and don’t forget the link highlighted red.  It has answers to questions that are commonly asked.  Then join in on a topic you find interesting and learn and share.




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Re: Hello im new here !
« Reply #3 on: October 27, 2020, 07:20:06 pm »
Welcome.  I know that many members here come from conservative families, so it shouldn't be hard to find a sympathetic viewpoint or two. 

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Re: Hello im new here !
« Reply #4 on: October 27, 2020, 07:33:19 pm »
i came up with an attempt to supress these emotions for good by joining the israeli military to clmbat oriented unites i thought to myself there is achance i might die then i wouldnt have to worry about these emotions anymore and thd family would not be ashamed if i died a "hero"  (that almost worked) but im here ! And these emotions are still here and looking forward i simply could not see myself going further living as my agab...

It is truly amazing how many of us feel the exact same way. When I was 17 years old, the war in Viet Nam was just starting up. So I volunteered to serve in the US Army. I was thinking the exact same as you do. If I die I won't have to deal with this terrible dysphoria any more.

By the Grace of God, I did come home only to find that no one cared if I lived or died. So, I was now officially on my own and at that time, I decided to man up. I tried everything I could think of to man up, fast cars, jobs that required a uniform, guns and adventurous sports. Nothing took that uncomfortable feeling away.

It wasn't until I in my mid 60's that I decided to transition. I made a plan and then worked the plan. No regrets. A little late, but happy I finally found myself.

Observur
You take care.  :-*

BTW, I see that Jessica has posted your welcome packet with links to important information about Susan's Place.

We are a moderated website specifically to keep Susan's Place Family Friendly. We have many members here who are under age, so we try hard to remove spam, bad language and pornography.

Please read the Terms of Service. This was written by Susan herself and it is only 20 simple rules that spell out what is acceptable behavior and what is not.

Again, welcome to Susan's Place and we will see you around.  ;)





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Re: Hello im new here !
« Reply #5 on: October 27, 2020, 08:24:45 pm »
Hi thank you  for replaying and for being positive :) reading the rules was the first thing i did befor deciding to sign up to susans place i understand we have foundlings here and that we must take care to keep it a safe place for them as well and not expose them to stuff they dont have to be expossed to, although tbh im not so proud of my military service it opened my eyes to how cruel himans can be i canteven imagine being in actual war though

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Re: Hello im new here !
« Reply #6 on: November 10, 2020, 02:12:07 am »
Hi

Welcome to the Forum.

Best wishes
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