Hey, brother! Nice to hear from you.
So sorry you're hitting a rough patch. They can be such a drag, and short or long calendar-wise, they do always feel like they drag on forever, don't they?
Schizothis, schizothat, or schizotheother, one thing I've figured out from my encounters with psychiatry is that the label itself of the Dx isn't all that important. Psychiatry is a most inexact science.
Rather, I tend to look at diagnoses as general guidelines in a cookbook. Such-and-such an issue? Try this first because it most always works. If that doesn't help, try these, and so on and so forth. If nothing is helping, you're probably using the wrong recipe.
To use an extended metaphor, when you're cooking Hoppin' John for a dinner party, you always start with black-eyed peas. But if the party needs it New Orleans style, give it a base of onion, celery, and bell pepper for Hoppin' Jean. You can also make Hoppin' Jack, Hoppin' Jacques, or Hoppin' Juan, depending on what flavors the party needs. I even tried Hoppin' Ivan once. That didn't come out so great. Can't win 'em all.
So... suffering sucks, and you don't deserve it, and it sounds like help is on the way. Now it's just a matter of finding the tastiest ingredients. Keep the faith. You'll get there.
Good luck.
