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I'm feeling lost

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noitsbecky:
Thank you for all the replies.  I would love to join the 100 pound loss club it would be a dream.  I love the way the 1/3 of your transition was the voice I will be adopting that strategy thank you all

Lil

Sephirah:

--- Quote from: noitsbecky on June 17, 2021, 11:24:49 pm ---I'm 35 I started transition at 23 ish.  I pass for the most part my voice is holding me back.  I developed a feminine  voice but still can't bring myself to use it.  I wish I was more feminine.   My job in Healthcare this last 2 years has been rough I got fired from one for absenteeism cause panic attacks and migraines.  Its the first time I ever got let go.  I found another job 2 days later but I have put undo stress on my wife.  Now I have lost all confidence in myself so much so that I just want to sleep all the time.  GCS is so far out of my reach with money and weightloss I'm just losing all hope and I quit wanting;but I still need it. Idk I'm crying all the time I am seeing a shrink who helps a bit.  My wife is stressed and I worry that all this will be to much and she will leave me after 11 years of marriage (she married me post starting transition) and I still think I'm not worth it.  I'm not suicidal  so no worries I just feel hopeless I don't have anyone else to talk to.  I just idk

Thank you for reading
Lilly

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Sorry for the late reply to this.

Lilly, I don't think the underlying issue is your transition. From what you've said above, I think you're dealing with very low self esteem, maybe with depression, too, and it's making your transition harder. Everything is compounding each other.

Devlyn is right, you need to go to your GP and talk to them about this. These are things you can get past, sweetie. Low self esteem is very common, especially among trans folks. But it's also something you can work on. Feeling you're not worth it, and like nothing you do will ever be good enough... they're two sure fire signs of it, okay?

There is always hope, sweetie. It's just hard to know where to look sometimes. Go to your doctor and talk to them about CBT. Cognitive Behavioural Therapy. I think it might help you.

*hugs* Hang in there, okay? You can do this.

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