Thanks for the clarification.
...Sorry if I sounded a little snippy before...I've been kinda moody and under the weather lately; nauseous, hot-flashes, irritability...if it gets any worse I might have to go get myself tested for covid, ugh...
hate shots and medical settings. 😖
But yeah...anyhoo; I can be somewhat passive-aggressively bitchy at times and try to keep any sass out of my voice...sometimes with greater or lesser success lol. ...Hope I didn't come off as rude before; sorry if I did. 😣
I think I understand a bit more of where you are at. The line about wanting to "be" transitioned I think tells the most. Many of us want that.
Right?! I have to really struggle to not get ticked off when one of my friends or family says, "Well, you
wanted to transition!" Ugh...I'm pretty sure nobody WANTS to transition lol; they want to BE transitioned, and they
need to begin transitioning in order to make that happen someday lol...or maybe my brain just processes information differently and I'm just bein' CRAZY! 😜
Transition is messy sometimes. I know I would rather be at the end of my transition than somewhere in the middle. However, transition is not an event, it is not a one time thing, it is more like puberty, it takes time, and generally it can be a very uncomfortable time.
F'real. I've never cried and screamed into my pillows so much before in my life! 😅
But the longer I go through this process the happier I am.
Same...I think I'm just going through an unhappy period in my life right now. 😕
Oh, and spending about 2 years in voice therapy seriously helped me. That alone resolved SO many issues for me.
I had an opportunity to work with a professional speech therapist twenty years ago on modulating my voice. It helped tremendously.
That's encouraging to hear! 😊
There was supposed to be a clinic just a hundred or so miles south in Missoula that specialized in voice therapy for trans clients specifically, but when I contacted them, they said they didn't offer those services anymore, and redirected me to both a generic hospital, and a children's speech therapist who worked with trans kids, but after contacting the speech therapist's practice, they never got back to me, and I've been too socially anxious to look for options at the generic looking hospital place, fearing that it's just going to be another dead end. I'm unaware of any professional vocal coaches online offering what I need; I've seen plenty of videos and blogs from random people, but I'd really rather have professional quality voice lessons, because I'm scared to death of taking the wrong advice somewhere, and training the wrong way, and end up ruining my voice somehow. ...I really need to be confident that the person instructing me actually KNOWS what they're doing and that it won't end up hurting me in the future lol. ...Sigh...I feel kinda
doomed some days. 😣
Good luck. You can do this, even if it is earlier than you were hoping for.
Thanks for the advice and support! *Hugz* 🥰
