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Re: Today's Thoughts by Nora Kay
« Reply #320 on: May 11, 2022, 02:05:26 pm »
So when I contacted my insurance. I asked for a Nurse /case manager that specializes in transgender services etc….
So today I get this from my Nurse. And I am confused because I thought she was it, but told her that would be awesome.




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For some reason that makes me think of the 80s movie Flight of the Navigator.

As someone from the UK, the whole insurance thing confuses me to no end. It seems like a minefield. But I guess that's how privatised medicine works. No one likes paying for anything lol. So the hoops people have to jump through seem almost endless just to get the most basic of assistance for things wrong with them.
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« Reply #321 on: May 11, 2022, 05:02:07 pm »
For some reason that makes me think of the 80s movie Flight of the Navigator.

As someone from the UK, the whole insurance thing confuses me to no end. It seems like a minefield. But I guess that's how privatised medicine works. No one likes paying for anything lol. So the hoops people have to jump through seem almost endless just to get the most basic of assistance for things wrong with them.
Sometimes jumping through hoops is an understatement. I am lucky mine covers what it does. But it has been months since first contact and nothing is clear as to what’s covered. Lol

But on a different note, I decide to start to break in my Doc Martens today. So far a lot better than I thought. You would think the ankle I had major surgery on would be the bad one. But it’s my right, the so called good ankle giving me problems. But I was able to go to 2 different grocery stores and the liquor store today while wearing them. The first store I put on a flannel to cover my breasts. But by the time I got home it was too hot. Had to take off the boob cover before I went to the other 2 stores. It’s getting better. I am becoming more comfortable pointing my cannons at people. Lol.



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Today's Thoughts by Nora Kay


You can roll the boulder up the hill only so many times before you realize that, no matter how hard you push and how hard you pray, that the boulder’s going to roll back down the hill again.

I am too old to worry about who likes me and who dislikes me. I have more important things to do. If you love me, 💕 I love you. 😘  If you support me, I support you. If you hate me, I don’t care. Life goes on with or without you. 😎

Give us courage to change what we can, serenity to accept what cannot be changed, and the wisdom to know the one from the other. 🙏

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« Reply #322 on: May 11, 2022, 05:40:10 pm »
Those are some COOL shoes, Nora!  I ain't gonna lie... I want some.

I don't know HOW I'm going to store all my shoes once I release the Kraken and start buying up clothes for changing my wardrobe over.  Right now, I limit things to only taking up a couple feet of space in the closet.  Once the boy clothes get sent to Goodwill, it'll be GAME ON.

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« Reply #323 on: May 11, 2022, 09:15:09 pm »
Those are some COOL shoes, Nora!  I ain't gonna lie... I want some.

I don't know HOW I'm going to store all my shoes once I release the Kraken and start buying up clothes for changing my wardrobe over.  Right now, I limit things to only taking up a couple feet of space in the closet.  Once the boy clothes get sent to Goodwill, it'll be GAME ON.

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You and your smaller feet should be able to find some as cool as those. Lol. Maybe not ones exactly like them. I’ve only seen these exact ones once and they are mine. Hehe. But I am sure they are out there. If I remember right. The lady who sold them said they were her daughters and she only worn them once. When I got them they looked brand new. Could not tell they have ever been worn. And the price for these were maybe 1/3 of what they were new. Design like this are at least about 250 new. I know your size. I will keep an eye out. I know someone who paints Docs or other boots custom as well. But a little expensive. I will be getting a pair. Just not now. She is super talented. Cheaper if you supply the boot yourself I am sure. Tall women with big feet like me have to be resourceful.

I am far from full time. But I have quite a few clothing items. More women’s than men’s. I don’t send good items to good will. I sell on poshmark or eBay. Makes the stuff I buy more affordable. Thats where I got those boots. But if it gets to where I need room I have the spare bedroom. 3 pairs of shoes made there way in there now. I already have to many shoes. But I think you can never really have too many. I like shoes. I have shipping supplies in the spare rooms closet now. Been working on cleaning out that closet so I can use all of it for my new wardrobe.


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Today's Thoughts by Nora Kay


You can roll the boulder up the hill only so many times before you realize that, no matter how hard you push and how hard you pray, that the boulder’s going to roll back down the hill again.

I am too old to worry about who likes me and who dislikes me. I have more important things to do. If you love me, 💕 I love you. 😘  If you support me, I support you. If you hate me, I don’t care. Life goes on with or without you. 😎

Give us courage to change what we can, serenity to accept what cannot be changed, and the wisdom to know the one from the other. 🙏

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« Reply #324 on: May 11, 2022, 09:32:45 pm »
Don’t judge me. I like stars. So I got this belt. And this bag. The bag is huge. Did not know it was going to be as big as it is. Should have know since it’s a laptop bag. But I love the bag!!






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Today's Thoughts by Nora Kay


You can roll the boulder up the hill only so many times before you realize that, no matter how hard you push and how hard you pray, that the boulder’s going to roll back down the hill again.

I am too old to worry about who likes me and who dislikes me. I have more important things to do. If you love me, 💕 I love you. 😘  If you support me, I support you. If you hate me, I don’t care. Life goes on with or without you. 😎

Give us courage to change what we can, serenity to accept what cannot be changed, and the wisdom to know the one from the other. 🙏

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« Reply #325 on: May 12, 2022, 03:04:36 am »
You will need a big bag , before you just stuck a wallet and maybe a comb in your jeans but now its purse, hairbrush, lipstick, mirror , wipes, makeup, small umbrella , phone, and a million other bits just in case !!!
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« Reply #326 on: May 12, 2022, 11:12:53 am »
You will need a big bag , before you just stuck a wallet and maybe a comb in your jeans but now its purse, hairbrush, lipstick, mirror , wipes, makeup, small umbrella , phone, and a million other bits just in case !!!

Oh god I know! It’s already starting with glasses, sunglasses, wallet, keys and perfume. Then add lip balm. Need a nail file. I do wear cargo shorts a lot. But uncomfortable putting all that in pockets. Plus when you start wearing women’s jeans because they are starting to fit better. The pockets are too shallow to hold anything and some of the back pockets are fake. Or there are no pockets at all. Oh and you already said, but I forgot the phone. Business phone too.

And that’s just to start. Then gradually add everything you said. Funny never needed all that before. Lol.


Today's Thoughts by Nora Kay


You can roll the boulder up the hill only so many times before you realize that, no matter how hard you push and how hard you pray, that the boulder’s going to roll back down the hill again.

I am too old to worry about who likes me and who dislikes me. I have more important things to do. If you love me, 💕 I love you. 😘  If you support me, I support you. If you hate me, I don’t care. Life goes on with or without you. 😎

Give us courage to change what we can, serenity to accept what cannot be changed, and the wisdom to know the one from the other. 🙏

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« Reply #327 on: May 12, 2022, 11:30:43 am »
So today I woke up not feeling all that great mentally. So let’s talk about that. I think it may be a normal thing for some of us to go thru. I know that I am a woman. But sometimes I feel it would be easier if I could have not been transgender. Honestly I don’t want to be transgender. Today my wife asked what wrong. I told her bluntly I am depressed and suicidal. She comforted me. I told her it will pass. It does pass. It’s just something I go thru sometimes. I started crying in the other room away from my wife. Talked to my dog. My dog looks at me with his worried face and comforts me. That dog saves my life every day. Now you know, I like myself as I am. It’s not going to change. For me I can fight it all I want and in the end I am a transgender woman. Working towards complete transition is what I need. I love the changes so far and looking for more. But facts are I don’t want this. But it’s the hand I was dealt. I love myself, so I can truly love others. I transition for myself. And only myself. I love you all. And will try to help in anyway I can. I hope seeing what I feel will help someone. What I need is to get off my lazy butt and do things. That’s part of my problem. I get down and then lazy. Then I dwell on things. I am getting better in that sense too. Just takes time. I’ll get there thanks to you and you and my wife and my dogs. Lol.

Much Love 💕
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Today's Thoughts by Nora Kay


You can roll the boulder up the hill only so many times before you realize that, no matter how hard you push and how hard you pray, that the boulder’s going to roll back down the hill again.

I am too old to worry about who likes me and who dislikes me. I have more important things to do. If you love me, 💕 I love you. 😘  If you support me, I support you. If you hate me, I don’t care. Life goes on with or without you. 😎

Give us courage to change what we can, serenity to accept what cannot be changed, and the wisdom to know the one from the other. 🙏

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« Reply #328 on: May 12, 2022, 11:38:25 am »
This is what I hope.

My wife and I are not legally married. Just common law. I’m on her insurance and etc….. Everything is like we are married.

We still plan on getting legally married. So when I go to her to say let’s do it. I am going to ask her if I can take her last name. It will rhyme with my new middle name. Lol Hopefully the timing will be when I am changing my names already. Then I can leave the old me completely behind. I don’t have any family left. Just hers. So it really won’t matter to mine. Lol.


Today's Thoughts by Nora Kay


You can roll the boulder up the hill only so many times before you realize that, no matter how hard you push and how hard you pray, that the boulder’s going to roll back down the hill again.

I am too old to worry about who likes me and who dislikes me. I have more important things to do. If you love me, 💕 I love you. 😘  If you support me, I support you. If you hate me, I don’t care. Life goes on with or without you. 😎

Give us courage to change what we can, serenity to accept what cannot be changed, and the wisdom to know the one from the other. 🙏

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« Reply #329 on: May 12, 2022, 04:24:31 pm »
Not sure I am going to make it thru this. I don’t want to be me anymore. I am suicidal right now. My case manage referred me to the transgender specialist. And she contacted me at my wife’s phone number. Yes my wife accepts me up to this point. but I don’t think she can handle surgeries. I emailed my case manager. Had a melt down. Still having a melt down. I know I will probably get thru this but I am in so much pain right now. I want it to end. And I don’t care how I end it. Just don’t care anymore. Can’t handle the ups and downs. Feeling like a freak. It’s going to end up 1 of 2 ways. And either way I will be hurting my wife. Killing myself never really felt like a possibility until now. It just hurts. Never hurt this bad before. I want it to stop. And stop it will. One way or the other. Bye for now. Maybe


Today's Thoughts by Nora Kay


You can roll the boulder up the hill only so many times before you realize that, no matter how hard you push and how hard you pray, that the boulder’s going to roll back down the hill again.

I am too old to worry about who likes me and who dislikes me. I have more important things to do. If you love me, 💕 I love you. 😘  If you support me, I support you. If you hate me, I don’t care. Life goes on with or without you. 😎

Give us courage to change what we can, serenity to accept what cannot be changed, and the wisdom to know the one from the other. 🙏

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Re: Today's Thoughts by Nora Kay
« Reply #330 on: May 12, 2022, 05:07:58 pm »
@Nora Kay
Dear Nora:

Based on your posting, I am very concerned for your well-being.
Ending your own life does not solve anything, in fact it will cause tremendous hurt and turmoil with your loved ones, friends and acquaintances.

I would suggest that you go to the following information and get some immediate help:
 
     United States
     National Suicide Prevention Hotline
     English: 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255)
     Spanish: 1-888-628-9454
     For anyone who is suicidal.
     Toll-free and available 24/7.
     TTY: 1-800-799-4TTY (1-800-799-4889)
     Chat is also available.
     Website: http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

I am expecting other members to come along and they may offer their advice.

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Not sure I am going to make it thru this. I don’t want to be me anymore. I am suicidal right now. My case manage referred me to the transgender specialist. And she contacted me at my wife’s phone number. Yes my wife accepts me up to this point. but I don’t think she can handle surgeries. I emailed my case manager. Had a melt down. Still having a melt down. I know I will probably get thru this but I am in so much pain right now. I want it to end. And I don’t care how I end it. Just don’t care anymore. Can’t handle the ups and downs. Feeling like a freak. It’s going to end up 1 of 2 ways. And either way I will be hurting my wife. Killing myself never really felt like a possibility until now. It just hurts. Never hurt this bad before. I want it to stop. And stop it will. One way or the other. Bye for now. Maybe
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Re: Today's Thoughts by Nora Kay
« Reply #331 on: May 12, 2022, 05:22:46 pm »
You are stronger than this Nora Kay. In addition to hurting those you love, and who love you, you would be depriving yourself of the joy you will find when you finally become the person you were meant to be. I always told myself that if this were easy, everyone would do it! Don't throw away a potentially beautiful future just because someone else make a mistake. You can do this, and your friends here will always be around to help. Please send me a PM if you want to talk, and I'll give you my number.

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« Reply #332 on: May 12, 2022, 07:40:12 pm »
I'm sorry you're struggling right now, Nora. Just know that you are not alone - you have friends here who care about you. This will pass - better times are ahead.

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« Reply #333 on: May 13, 2022, 09:28:56 pm »
Still alive. But no promises. Nothings gonna happen soon. If it does. Gonna see how it goes for now. Suicide hotlines won’t work for me. They just make it worse. At least for me. Funny thing is I had a hard time finding a pair male boxers. Do not feel like dressing en femme right now. But then I had to go to the store. And having boobs and needing a bra was annoying. Had an interesting conversation with my wife. About my boobs and how having to put a bra on to go out sucks. Means nothing. She still said she is leaving if I transition. Even though I am right in the middle if transitioning. But I can wear or do anything I want at home. Oh lucky me. Just don’t embarrass her. Or if it’s the same as last time she would have no problem with me dressing and being me to go out with other girls like me. So yeah, I have it great don’t I? You think things are good. But you realize she has no clue. Give her a book. She won’t read it. Too funny, as I’m writing this she says she was reading it but I moved it and she could not find it. But she did not ask me and it still has not moved. Says she does not understand something. But I can’t explain it so she does. You give her a link that might. But she won’t click it. She says she loves me. But she can’t be with a girl. I ask her if she still wants sex. She says yes. But never ever asks or hints or anything. I’ll tell you this. If I can transition all the way but leave my little friend there and working. But keep my wife. I will do it in a heartbeat.

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Thing is my libido is un breakable. Talked to my doctor and she said most likely even with an orchiectomy I would still have function. I have full function now on full E dose and have doubled the T blocker. I laugh at viagra commercials. I do have dysphoria with my little friend but I can deal with the amount I have from it for my wife.

But I don’t know. Why am I still here. I was in a coma that the doctors said I might not wake up from. God could have taken me then. But I am still here. Had plenty of surgeries could have taken me during any one of them but I am still here. In 2008 I flipped my truck in the rain. Could have taken me then. But I walked away. Broke out the side and back windows. Soaked everything in my truck. It was pouring. When I was taking all my water logged things out of my truck I found my bible Dry as it would have been on a sunny day hiding was under a floor mat. And it flew all around my truck. And that mat was fastened down.

Wife don’t want me if I transition completely. God don’t want me. And nobody else really knows me enough to say they want me. And I have no trust with anybody but one person. What’s a girl to do. You say I should stick it out. If I leave it will hurt the ones who care about me. But the ones who say they care about me say it will hurt them if I transition. If I transition I’ll hurt my wife. If I kill myself I’ll hurt my wife but my pain will be gone. I have no friends to hurt but one. You say you care but you don’t know me enough for it to be anything other than it’s a shame. She was in so much pain. Physical and mental pain a lot if it. We saw it coming. But did not know what to do. You see if I come in here and say I’m ok I would be lying. I am not ok. I am in a lot of pain. Some of it can’t pass. It’s always going to be there. Some of the physical will get worse. Some of the mental could go both ways. Just remember the ones who say they are fine then kill themselves lie. I am not lying to you. I’m not ok. I am trying to deal with it. I am not planning on it. But I can’t guarantee a thing. Anybody who thinks about it usually always thinks about it to some degree. It does not go away just like that all of a sudden. Some never go thru with it. Some do. I am still here talking so that’s a good sign. The ones who say they are fine and they are not thinking about it at all are usually lying. If they said what I said before. I’m here talking. I am trying to deal with it. If I go dark for more than 2 days then worry. Most likely I’m not going to tell anybody if I decide to. But for now I am ok. Not going anywhere. But know I am in pain. Working thru it the best I can. Take all my rambling how ever you want. But if I am rambling I’m still here. Lol. We will see how things go. My wife wants to know everything. If I am experiencing it she get to now. If I am self conscious about my boobs showing thru my shirt she will know it now. If I get a new piece of clothing or shoes and I’m excited I am bringing her into the loop to experience my excitement. I’ve tried it the other way around. If it really does not affect her I did not loop her in. Am I making any sense. What I feel she knows now. Ok I’m done now. Talked way too much. Bye. Lol


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Today's Thoughts by Nora Kay


You can roll the boulder up the hill only so many times before you realize that, no matter how hard you push and how hard you pray, that the boulder’s going to roll back down the hill again.

I am too old to worry about who likes me and who dislikes me. I have more important things to do. If you love me, 💕 I love you. 😘  If you support me, I support you. If you hate me, I don’t care. Life goes on with or without you. 😎

Give us courage to change what we can, serenity to accept what cannot be changed, and the wisdom to know the one from the other. 🙏

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Re: Today's Thoughts by Nora Kay
« Reply #334 on: May 14, 2022, 03:03:17 am »
Keep rambling away dear, even if it makes no senses your letting it out. In a bit of a catch22 , "God" (or the universe) has a strange sense of humour but we need to please ourselves eventually . If others care about us they will give there support , if you need to transition to save your "soul" then that is what your should do. Sounds to me your wife needs to make a choice , does she know how you really feel . I know she has her fingers stuck in her ears going la la la but she needs to face reality.
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« Reply #335 on: May 14, 2022, 10:42:51 am »
Wow, Nora --

I had no idea you were struggling like this.  I'm so sorry.  I'm also sorry that I have been so slow to respond.  When someone is standing on the ledge, it is a really scary place to be (both for the person standing there and for any of us who want to help, but don't want to say that one wrong thing that might tip the scales in the wrong way).  I'm just going to have to take my chances, sis.  I care about you too much.

Let me start out by saying that I have absolutely no idea what you're going through.  Part of this is because I don't have all of the information, and part of it is that we don't have the exact same personal situation.  That means that I can't fully empathize with you, but I CAN be a loving friend who is here to listen.  Feel free to open up, either here, through PM, or even through email / phone.  I'll PM you my contact info.

Here's where I'm going to be taking a real chance...

I wouldn't say that I'm an expert on depression, and I wouldn't even say that have personal experience that gives me any credibility in this area.  I am not depressed, and I never really have been.  My mom is very depressed, and my wife sometimes is.  My grandfather on my mother's side suffered from severe depression as well. 

The correlation that I have found with all of these people that is: 
   (a) Their reality is not what they would like it to be
   (b) They are self-aware enough to realize it
   (c) They believe that there is very little they can do address it

That's a horrible place to be.

The equation "happiness = reality - expectation" is an overly simplistic view, but it is also very powerful.  I am a huge believer in it, and I try every day to address both sides:  I work my butt off to make my reality the best it possibly can be, and I also work very hard every day NOT to expect too much.  I am very happy and appreciative when someone does something nice for me, and I try to NEVER expect things from others.

I know that there are many things in your life that you cannot control.  That's the same for all of us.  I can't control whether my wife decides to leave me.  I can only control things like (a) being completely open and honest, (b) making sure she knows that I love her, (c) doing little things around the house that let her know that I value her.  In the end, she may still leave.  I'll be disappointed, but I won't be depressed because I'll know in my heart that I did everything I possibly could.

So, here's my hope for you, Nora --

You don't have control over everything in your life.  We've talked before about your home situation, and I get it.  Try to think of things that you DO have control over.  You DO have control over finding friends in your community.  You DO have control over your openness and honesty with your wife.  If you are concerned about physical things, you DO have control over "some" but not "all" of that as well. 

On the expectation side, you may need to be honest with yourself about what the worst case situations might be as you transition, then try to figure out in your head how you'll pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and move forward.  When I was stressing about outing myself at work, my therapist asked a simple question, "What is the worst thing that could happen here?"  When I really thought about it, I realized that it wouldn't have been the complete end of the world, no matter what people thought.  Luckily, I was was surprised to know that even in one of the most conservative states and in one of the most conservative industries, people are very polite and nice about it.  Maybe you'll be happily surprised as well.

Love ya, sis...

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Re: Today's Thoughts by Nora Kay
« Reply #336 on: May 14, 2022, 10:59:26 am »
Nora,

I cannot add any more to what others have already said, other than I am here if you want to PM me and remember that I am less than an hour away if you need to talk to someone in person.

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Re: Today's Thoughts by Nora Kay
« Reply #337 on: May 14, 2022, 12:47:27 pm »
I love you guys. Thank you. As I feel better I will talk more. But for now I am still a little down. My wife is going on a trip and will be gone on my birthday. It’s something that has been planned for a long time. I was scheduled to go. But I can’t go. Things just are not working out to make it so I can go. And we will just leave it at that. She came to me just now and said she will cancel. She is worried about me. I promised her I will be fine and that she has to go. I don’t break promises. So there is that. I am sure I will be fine as time moves on. It’s just so hard for me to believe she will actually leave if I transition. I know her. Path of least resistance. Easier to stay than break up. I am going to continue to pursue what I have to for my sanity and see what happens.


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Today's Thoughts by Nora Kay


You can roll the boulder up the hill only so many times before you realize that, no matter how hard you push and how hard you pray, that the boulder’s going to roll back down the hill again.

I am too old to worry about who likes me and who dislikes me. I have more important things to do. If you love me, 💕 I love you. 😘  If you support me, I support you. If you hate me, I don’t care. Life goes on with or without you. 😎

Give us courage to change what we can, serenity to accept what cannot be changed, and the wisdom to know the one from the other. 🙏

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Re: Today's Thoughts by Nora Kay
« Reply #338 on: May 14, 2022, 01:27:41 pm »
@Nora Kay
Dear Nora:
You have supportive and accepting friends here on the Forums!!!
                   

Please keep on sharing, posting and updating your Blog thread and
elsewhere on the Forums threads.
HUGS,
Danielle



I love you guys. Thank you. As I feel better I will talk more. But for now I am still a little down. My wife is going on a trip and will be gone on my birthday. It’s something that has been planned for a long time. I was scheduled to go. But I can’t go. Things just are not working out to make it so I can go. And we will just leave it at that. She came to me just now and said she will cancel. She is worried about me. I promised her I will be fine and that she has to go. I don’t break promises. So there is that. I am sure I will be fine as time moves on. It’s just so hard for me to believe she will actually leave if I transition. I know her. Path of least resistance. Easier to stay than break up. I am going to continue to pursue what I have to for my sanity and see what happens.


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Re: Today's Thoughts by Nora Kay
« Reply #339 on: May 14, 2022, 03:38:15 pm »
Check your email. I don't think I can write that giant wall of text twice lol. ;)

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