Topic: Today's Thoughts by Nora Kay

[Maid Marion]

Hi Nora Kay

Three inches is a lot of height to lose!  Wow!

Marion

[TXSara]

I have been on full dose but not for my metabolism. She has upped the amount each time I’ve gone in. Supposed to get to 4 months and just barely making 2 months. Maybe I’ll get 3 this time. Good thing I don’t have to wait until my labs come in before I get reupped. We go by feel base on my history. And this time she is prescribing me pills or injections to keep me good. Once my levels start to drop. So I won’t go through feeling terrible again. It sucks.

Always feel better when I leave. She gives me an injection to get me back quicker to feeling better.   

And I made sure today they accurately measured my height. Started this at 6-2 and now I am officially 5-10. Even the doctor said wow.

OK, I’m confused.  The doctor doesn’t modulate your dosing based on blood levels?  I’m surprised.  I guess as long as she is paying close attention to all of your other panels, it would be OK.  No way that would fly with my doctor.

Is it common for us to get shorter after starting HRT?  I haven’t checked in a while, but I’m pretty sure I’m still 5’7”.

~Sara

[Nora Kay]

OK, I’m confused.  The doctor doesn’t modulate your dosing based on blood levels?  I’m surprised.  I guess as long as she is paying close attention to all of your other panels, it would be OK.  No way that would fly with my doctor.

Is it common for us to get shorter after starting HRT?  I haven’t checked in a while, but I’m pretty sure I’m still 5’7”.

~Sara

Remember I’ve done this with her before. And instead of jumping to my previous levels. We are getting back there gradually. So if my levels are not in when I go into the office. She bases it off how I feel and when I start feeling bad. Then she double checks when the levels come in. She is pretty much Transgender only. So the fact we are still getting my levels back to where they were and her expertise I trust her more than any regular endo. No offense to regular endos. But E and P work a little different in us than cis women.

And the height thing in my opinion would be more age and injuries than hrt. But I’ll take it. And I am sure HRT helps. I have read some younger ones losing a couple inches. Now if I could get the feet to shrink. Lol.

And last thing goes out to people worrying about boobs showing. I quit caring as much. I spent the day with my dog sitter yesterday working on her car. And now I also meet the mail man daily to mail my packages and either they don’t notice or don’t say anything. I see them. But don’t think others do or really care. Lol

[Nora Kay]

Ah, been away for a while. Starting to feel better as my hormones are getting to their proper level.  It’s weird I don’t feel any different. But definitely different. I definitely do not fit in, in this community. But that’s fine. I’ll be judged for believing what I actually believe, not what others think I should believe because I am trans. Don’t want to hurt anybody’s feelings so I won’t go into it. I did take a few things going on in real life out on here and for that I am sorry. But that’s life and if friendships can’t last thru someone finding themselves then I guess that’s what’s supposed to be. I know who I am. I am who I feel I am at the moment. Maybe I am Nora right now and in 10 minutes I will be Norm. I have been limiting myself to being someone who fits in some mold the majority has made for me. I don’t fit in it and I will never fit in it. I won’t be having bottom surgery. And definitely won’t be needing top surgery. I’m a large C-Cup and growing according to my doctor. NA NA NA NA. Lol. It’s amazing what Biodentical Pellets can do. 😜 There are a few surgeries I will have but they will be minor. Or at least I consider them minor. Just a few rearrangements. Today I just gave up to of my last 2 vices. I gave up meat and energy drinks. Don’t drink don’t smoke, what do you do? Nothing. Lol. I also think part of my attitude in the past has been the amount of pain I was in. Now that I don’t have as much I am way more clear. It’s funny, about 2 weeks ago, I was the closest I had ever been to killing myself than I had ever been before. I held and air gun to my head to see what it felt like. The good thing is I realized I did not want to do it. But I also realized I could have. But I also realized why I was feeling the way I was. Nothing is that bad. Nothing is worth doing that. I won that fight. The things that cause my pain no longer has a hold on me. Nothing has that power anymore. Words, looks, what someone “might” think, even the physical pain does not control me anymore. When it affects you it gives the power.

Much love as always
Nora ✌️

[davina61]

Nobody "fits in" ,we are all different . I know that my life is not the normal , I am just me so take me or leave me . Just live your happy life what ever that is and be comfortable .

[Rachel Montgomery]

I feel it too.  I am so weird!  But, I am getting to know myself, slowly but surely. 

There was a time when I was extremely depressed.  I don’t think I will ever go back there.  I hope I won’t.  And, I am confident that I won’t, barring a painful terminal condition with not cure.  But, regardless guns are NOT the way to go.  Sudden, but messy.  And, then the guns get in trouble over it.

[Courtney G]

It sounds like you've really been working through some stuff, Nora. It's ugly sometimes and it's painful, but I think sometimes it has to happen that way. It's the only way we can get to where we need to, as the shortcuts never work.

I haven't been on here that much, but I do check in. Please stay in touch!

Love,
Courtney

[Nora Kay]

Wow, way on the second page. Lol. No real updates. Slowly and surely I guess. It is super thin but I actually have a defined hairline again. Been lazy on that front. I should have ordered some rosemary oil that my aesthetician recommended. And then follow up with the hair doctor. A newer epilator means less pain. Hair is not coming back in most places. Gained a little weight back. But losing again. There is no doubt any more. Nobody cares that I have breasts. I don’t even watch what I wear anymore. They show no matter how much I try to hide them. Even in a tight sports bra. Just tired of hiding them. So I don’t care much anymore. Every once and a while I might try to hide them. It’s one thing to wear my skirts in the back yard when all my rear neighbors are 2 story and can see down. But now I go on the front walkway to get my mail. Who’s gonna say what? And why would I care.  Lol

[davina61]

Most folk don't care or notice , next thing is going to the store!!

[Nora Kay]

Most folk don't care or notice , next thing is going to the store!!

Going to the store wearing what? Lol. Breast wise I am so used to it I barely notice what top I am wearing. But in a skirt that may take a while. But I love love love skirts/skorts. So much, I would almost always wear them if I could. But I do like a good pair of bell bottom jeans. When summer is over I will start wearing those.

I don’t know what I am doing transition wise. I am lazy. If I put half of what someone like maybe TXSara does I would be so much farther. I admire her a lot. Just calling her out for this example. If I listed everybody I admired and the reasons why we would be here all day.

I don’t try like others do. The breasts grew. The hair seems to stay off when I epilate. I don’t need to tuck. It just falls in place. I guess that just me. Part of it is I am tired when I get to myself. My wife works. And she works hard. Pays everything. But that’s it. I do everything else. She thinks it’s fair. I agree to a point. But it’s the small things. Like leaving trash on the counter when the can is in the cupboard right below the counter. But she is good to me. Wants me happy. So I can’t really complain. I usually get what I want. To a point. Lol

[TXSara]

I don’t know what I am doing transition wise. I am lazy. If I put half of what someone like maybe TXSara does I would be so much farther. I admire her a lot. Just calling her out for this example. If I listed everybody I admired and the reasons why we would be here all day.

Awwww, Thanks Nora!!  I really appreciate the shout-out.  You're right that am a total "try hard" girl.  It drives my wife crazy LOL.  Hopefully it'll all work out -- I like to tell my girls to shoot for the stars, and then when you just get to the moon, it's still pretty dang good.

~Sara

[Nora Kay]

My wife brought this home for me. And the signatures are 100% Authentic. It’s not like I am a hard core fan. But always watch it when my wife has it on. But anyway, I love it. Even though I am more of a punk or goth type. I still love girly girl things too!


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[Northern Star Girl]

@Nora Kay
Dear Nora Kay:
Wow, very nice that your wife got that picture for you.... 
...enjoy the acceptance from her whenever it comes your way.

Thank you for sharing and posting.
HUGS,
Danielle

My wife brought this home for me. And the signatures are 100% Authentic. It’s not like I am a hard core fan. But always watch it when my wife has it on. But anyway, I love it. Even though I am more of a punk or goth type. I still love girly girl things too!


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[Sephirah]

I want to say that's the cast of Sex and the City?

I don't watch much TV but I kind of vaguely know who those people are. Particularly Sarah. And Kim to a lesser extent. I never watched that show, but that's kind of cool.

[Nora Kay]

I want to say that's the cast of Sex and the City?

I don't watch much TV but I kind of vaguely know who those people are. Particularly Sarah. And Kim to a lesser extent. I never watched that show, but that's kind of cool.

Yuppers. You are right. I’ve only watched it because if my wife. And I watch way to much TV. But I am working on it.

[Nora Kay]

I have a problem. Lol. I keep buying Doc Martens. And other shoes. And I can get away with it because if my wife says anything I just show her her in game purchases for the bingo game she plays. Which is way more than my shoes. Lol. Here are my newest. Docs. I have a pair of sandals. Low top all white pair and a pair of Sex Pistols boots I got for over half price.


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[Northern Star Girl]

@Nora Kay
Dear Nora:
Nice picture .....  enjoy your purchases.... 

Thank you for sharing and keep posting your updates.

Hugs,
Danielle

[TXSara]

Dang Nora, those are some pretty sweet looking Docs!  I’m resting my feet right now because I’m a doofus who wears heels to go dancing.  This is the band’s third set, and I’m not sure I’m gonna make it.  Those Docs look really good right now LOL.  OK, enough rest.  😉

~Sara

[Nora Kay]

Just an observation. Wearing a tank top over the bra under the oversized tshirt makes them less noticeable. No tank top with the same tshirt gets noticed. Nobody says anything but you just know when someone is looking at your chest. Lol. I think in November we may be going on a family cruise. All my in laws and a few friends may be going. That should be interesting. Strangers are one thing. But family will be stressful. Out to nobody but my wife. 😜

[Northern Star Girl]

Just an observation. Wearing a tank top over the bra under the oversized tshirt makes them less noticeable. No tank top with the same tshirt gets noticed. Nobody says anything but you just know when someone is looking at your chest. Lol. I think in November we may be going on a family cruise. All my in laws and a few friends may be going. That should be interesting. Strangers are one thing. But family will be stressful. Out to nobody but my wife. 😜

@Nora Kay
Dear Nora:
Yes indeed, a "size too small" tank top and oversized T-shirt should work well ... it helps to not only hide your growing "girls" but does a good job of "dimming" the High Beams.

Wishing your well as you have more encounters with those family members and friends that you have not yet come out to.
HUGS,
Danielle