Well, I've talked about it before but never did anything and now the bill has come due. I have been needing to lose weight, exercise more and quit smoking but never did much about it. So now I have to have a bypass done to my left anterior descending coronary artery due to it being 100% blocked and with a calcium cap. Monday I complete the preliminary testing to see if I will survive surgery so that should be exciting and then Wednesday I'll see the surgeon and maybe set a date. We'll set a date for after Jan 1, but I really don't want to. Don't worry, I'll set a date, I just don't want too. This sounds scary and not fun. I'll have the same surgeon who did my mom's quadruple bypass last year and she's doing fine. Overall, I feel fine. I'm not having any major issues so I'm hoping that means this should go smoothly as it can. I hope.
My family thinks I'm surprisingly at ease, but I am scared. I just won't admit it. Guess that manly man attitude of keeping it bottled up is still a problem. But, then again, maybe I'm not panicked because it will be done, I'm not stressing over it (avoiding making it worse), and surgery is much better than the alternative.
I just needed a minute to admit I'm scared. Now I can get on with everything. Thanks for listening.