Topic: Crying

[Aiden]

Thanks.  don't think even saw the I's lol

[Lisbeth]

Sadly, for some of us in life situations that we cannot change, this sounds like a very peaceful option.

*nods* Yes, it does.  But try to think who in your life would be hurt by you being gone.  And then concentrate on what you can change instead of what you can't.

What do you do if your relationship falls apart on the one thing you can't change: the past?  *cries*

[JennyTG]

Since crossing over, not so much crying but tearing up a lot, once a month at least I'd say.

~Jenny~

[Vicente]

Every few months or so. I was always taught that expressing negative emotions was bad and ended up not expressing anything whatsoever.

Needless to say, it results in occasional crying outbursts at night. They last several minutes then stop, but are quite rare. I can take up a beating before needing to vent through crying (which does more harm than good imo as my face is literally blank and unfazed 98% of the time due emotional stress and it seems to be intimidating and making people avoid me though I'm friendly as heck lol).

[Oldandcreaky]

I cry more than anyone I've ever known. I can cry several times during a tv show. I can cry watching a stranger cry. When I was a teacher and I was proud of a student, I'd cry.

[madeleine]

I don't remember the last time I cried (outside of reaction to death).  I have come out to myself but have not started HRT.  Since coming out, I try to cry and can't.  For the first time in my life, I actually want to cry!

[Angela H]

I cry a lot. I cry at the drop of a hat. Movies make me cry, books make me cry, music makes me cry.
Lately I've been crying at least once a day and in the past week I've probably not gone more than a couple hours between sobbing fits.

[madeleine]

I don't remember the last time I cried (outside of reaction to death).  I have come out to myself but have not started HRT.  Since coming out, I try to cry and can't.  For the first time in my life, I actually want to cry!

I'm happy to say this has changed.  I cry everytime I see my therapist.  But I'm usually crying because I'm feeling an intense emotion, not sadness.  Yesterday, I did cry over something sad, but it still felt good to let it out. 

[madeleine]

I cry a lot. I cry at the drop of a hat. Movies make me cry, books make me cry, music makes me cry.
Lately I've been crying at least once a day and in the past week I've probably not gone more than a couple hours between sobbing fits.

How do you feel afterward, sad or happy?  Did this build up for you over time?  Or was it always like this Angela?

[Paul Muad-Dib]

Crying is impossible. Even if I wanted to over something in my life, I couldn't. I can't say it's a nice feeling. Crying in general never felt nice to me either. However if alone and on board with "letting it out" tears aren't forthcoming.

100% down to the T. Ironically, it makes my eyes wetter, there is more fluid in them, but crying spontaneously isn't possible any more.

[madeleine]

Crying is impossible. Even if I wanted to over something in my life, I couldn't. I can't say it's a nice feeling. Crying in general never felt nice to me either. However if alone and on board with "letting it out" tears aren't forthcoming.

100% down to the T. Ironically, it makes my eyes wetter, there is more fluid in them, but crying spontaneously isn't possible any more.

Totally my experience as a man.  It took a LOT to make me cry and when it did happen it was hard as hell.  Physically, emotionally exhausting.  And no one could see me do it.

[Amy Chislett]

I rarely cry heretofore.  I have been more emotionally aware tho since coming here.  Actually my eyes are tearing as I write.  I feel much anger directed at me. Feel depressed like I might not see anyone ever again.
Crying because of American Films (and Canadien) is the reason i do a doubletake before getting involved.  I don't think it counts, girls.

[Kay Kozee]

As a child, I was always told "don't cry or I'll give you something to cry about." Always holding back those tear added to me feeling like I was broken. Now I cry at a happy or sad moment. About once a month, I need to be alone and have a good cry just move out all the emotions and allow for new.

[LaRae]

All the time. Last year has been rough.

[Ellie_Jean]

Just curious, my friend and I were talking about this a few days ago.
How often do you cry?
How do you feel when you cry?
Is it the same amount as before hormones? I'm curious about everyone regardless of gender identity.



Meghan

I cry AT LEAST once a week, usually more lol. Especially when on my period, which I only recently learned was like...even POSSIBLE lol. My mother and therapist originally pointed it out to me; about once a month I start feeling a little under the weather and irritable and hyper-sensitive and weepy and get kinda..."passive/aggressive" for lack of a more appropriate substitute for the word I was thinking of which isn't allowed to be spoken here because there are children present...who probably use and hear said word ALL THE TIME anyway. 🙄

^^^...Prime example of me being "passive/aggressive" LOL. 😅

How do I feel when I cry? Depends on where I happen to be when I burst into tears, and who I happen to be with. Usually embarrassed. And then angry if I feel like I'm being judged. Then I just look downright terrifying. ...Like my big sister does when she's an angry, crying wreck lol. ...Must be in the genes. ...I have mixed feelings on the fact I'm slowly starting to physically look and act more like my sister lol. Haven't told her I'm her sister now...she lives thousands of miles away in Alaska. Planning on just visiting one day a few years from now and springing it on the rest of the family members mom and I left in the arctic lol. The looks on their faces are gonna be priceless lol. It's gonna be like...the ULTIMATE practical joke and the ultimate rebellion against my father LOL. 🤣

...I'm kinda sick lol. 😅

Oh! And BEFORE transitioning, I almost NEVER cried. I was the strong, assertive, man-with-a-plan type, running into fires and saving damsels in distress lol. It's getting harder and harder to even recognize the person I used to be. It's not so much that my personality has changed so much as...revealed itself. ...I never really had much of a personality before; I was stoic and detached and kinda jaded lol. My actual personality was just kinda repressed and buried under mountains of shields and barriers between me and the rest of the world...I could never really express myself the way I can now, because society is basically just kinda sexist by default, and males are only allowed to "feel" one of three things at any given time: "Fine." "Angry." or "Horny." Dollars to donuts, ask ANY DUDE "How are you?" and they will almost DEFINITELY reply with one of those three things. ...Because feeling anything ELSE is for sissies. 🙄

[Rakel]

I just don't have anything to cry about. I am at peace with the whole world. I like being here as I am.

[Battle Goddess]

I cry whenever, and it's a great index of where my mental health is headed atm. Yay Bipolar 2.