This topic was a sticky on an old forum I used to be a member of, Queer Attitude. I thought it was a pretty uplifting idea, writing about whatever made your day amazing. Each day is open to a whole new opportunity for morale-boosting events, so why not share them with everyone on the forum?
My day was made when I got a call from Home Depot in the city I'm moving to in two days telling me they want me in for an interview next week.
I just finished my job here in the city I currently live in, and though I was spitting out resume after resume for months now, no one had been calling me. And I'm pretty friggin sweet in interviews, so I'm fairly confident I'll have a job to pay rent.
PLUS, I'm full-time, passing as male, so this job will be my first job where EVERYONE knows me as Ryan. :D:D:D Not to mention Home Depot is renowned for being Queer-Friendly. ^^
Needless to say I'm happy.
Now it's your turn. :)
Small big things: I've had several lovely "I'd like to get to know you" messages today, and a phonecall from a Susanite in England :) - I've made an appointment with Dr Perring (God of Trans, apparently 8)) in London - and I've got rid of that man-flag on the left there, and feel unburdened (and my hair is growing, and I have a date to change its colour over the weekend - watch this space!)
My kid refered to me as he today.
My dog who had to have an emergency run to the vet last night is doing great today.
I get to do a legal training for youth tonight on name changes, birth certificate changes etc
I got an email today from one of our friends here at Susans, she is doing fine! that's why I'm so happy!
Today my significant other used a pet name while talking to me that actually made me feel like we were really in a relationship, when most of the time he is in denial that we actually have a serious relationship. He insists to people that he has no desire to date, but when he opens up a little bit it makes me really feel like he really does feel that we are a real couple.
I gave him the rest of my chocolate covered raisins and he said, "Thank you, sweety."
And this didn't happen today, but it's too cute...
So a few days ago my SO requested a few hours alone so he could go job application hunting and work on filling out applications because he is more productive when he is by himself. When he eventually picked me up and brought me back to his house, the stuffed frog he won for me at an amusement park was sitting on the couch when usually it sits on the bed.
"Why is Clydefrog on the couch?"
"I don't know. I guess he somehow just made it out here."
"Did you bring him out here?"
"Maybe."
"While I was gone were you cuddling Clydefrog and playing video games?"
"... maybe."
So this guy, whom is 6'2" and 230 lbs of solid muscle, referred to as a "tank" by people who are scared of being heard saying anything bad about him out of fear of being totally annihilated cuddles with stuffed animals when I'm not around. It's also not uncommon for me to see the sock monkey I made for him curled up in his bed the day after a night I stayed at home.
I was told I`m loved and told chin up. and it is!!!! :)
my granddaughter come over today
The fact that I will be starting laser beard removal in about 3 weeks. The fact that I'll be getting a professional wig fitting and styling for a new wig in about 3 weeks. The fact that I'll finally be fulltime in about 3 weeks.
Lastly, I'm way grateful for life itself and for good health. I'm grateful ... way grateful.
Peace ;) Lacey
I've felt incredibly pleased with everything these past two days, bubbling over with joy. It's not about anything specific, just a heightened sense of well-being. My sister scored 3rd place in a statewide competition today, my tenant paid up his late debt today, I cleaned up my hose today, I got a fabulous black silk shirt from bebe today, and to top it off I got laid today! Oh, and a couple hours ago a frind brought over a bagful of sweet pastries for me which I've been munching on!!
Doesn't get much better than this :-)
There was a get-together near my hometown by some acquaintances that a friend went to yesterday. I wouldn't have been able to go since I'm away at school. My friend told me today that I was thought of and people would have liked me there.
I bought two new sets of ear rings. Oh my Goddess is that news >:-) >:-)
I have finally got the jungle that was my backyard under control, which means the snakes and rabbits will be visible. :o
My son, who's not too enthusiastic about my transition, is taking me out to dinner tonight in celebration of the HRT letter I got yesterday.
haha sounds great everyone, keep it up!!
I just moved into my new place with JayUnit, and after only like, three days of living here pretty much everything is put away, looks like we've been living here for a while. I also just bought a cheap clearance $400 couch that will arrive on Thursday morning :) The landlady is crazy awesome, the tenants are extremely friendly and the whole city is soo much nicer than where I used to live. :D
:D haha today I got my first stp packer :D
Several things actually.
Had a nice ride on the bike to Melbourne. Warm, sunny day, light traffic and bike is running like a sewing machine.
I found a plum coloured mascara, and had my eyebrows waxed. No-one stared or called me 'he' all day. I found a great pair of boots that are actually in my size.
Oh, and my Endocrinologist says I CAN GET ON THE DRUGS!!!
So all in all, not a bad sort of a day.
Karen.
I had my first job interview in a long time today. :)
Congratulations, the hardest part of looking for work is that there is no sign of progress until you get to an interview. Good Luck.
I am happy because I AM NOW ON THE DRUGS! Must say I don't feel any different yet. ;D
Karen.
Hmmm.... umm... playing with kitties & watching Stargate Atlantis.
A friend of my wife's told her that I'm more feminine than she is! We also had a fun weekend together and it wasn't raining.
Realising that I won't have to worry about coming out at work, because I resigned! Any future worries can wait for the future.
Karen.
three dates in three days!! Woohoo, it's awesome being a girl and loving guys :-) :-) :-)
Best weekend ever!!!!!!
Sorry for making it seem like I'm a slut, but that's simply not the case here. I've know these guys for atleast 3 years each. This was my second date with one of them simply because it went so horribly 3 years ago and we decided to try it again yesterday. I see one of the other guys once or twice a month, and the third one we hardly ever do anything sexual because he's prictically impotent, but he must've been comfy Friday night back at his place.
It was just a freak alignment when like all the planets come together and can be seen on a single night!
Something i'd definitely wish on anyone and everyone else :-)
This thread and the author ;D
What made me happy today?
This morning, in the course of running my errands I stopped by the First Baptist Church of Naples to talk with Jim Hill, one of the ministers there, about finding someone I can help and be of service to. I was told that they don't really have a way to connect up people who want to help with those who need help, and they just help those people they can help. They don't really have a way to refer people who need help to those wanting to help.
Well I see a need to fill here.
Jim did tell me that he has a woman who is now homeless, with a broken collar bone and dislocated shoulder, who need someone to help her get dressed, but there's not much I can do for her on the housing matter, it's a two bedroom here with both bedrooms occupied.
I got Jim to take down my contact address and he agreed to let me know if someone comes to his attention that I can be of service to, such as someone who is disabled and needs help at home. In the meantime I plan to look for people needing help on craigslist, and check them out.
I've been on the rock bottom of life and know it well. If I can help someone who's living there now it's something I want to do.
What makes me happy is that someone who really needs my help will get it. I'll go there and help her/him, and be of service to one of my brothers or sisters when they really need it.
Finding facial hairs under my nails when I scratch my face. Laser's working :D
Quote from: M2MtF2FtM on April 18, 2011, 01:23:08 PM
This thread and the author ;D
Concur!
Messages from people I thought had stopped talking to me :).
Awesome thread Ryan :)
Hmm getting a guest at work today to be thrilled and continue thank me over something small that only took me a few extra minutes to do :)
Two things made me VERY happy today:
One:
Somebody I know is a superb waitress at an awesome cafe I go to as a treat to myself sometimes. She's fortysomething and married with two teenagers, a 19-year-old son and an 18-year-old daughter. Well, the son has bone cancer. I was able to find and buy great, great information to help them out in beating the disease. Though the information was a little pricey, it's way worth it if it helps them. I want nothing in return.
Two:
A transman I know on another forum is about the same age as the lady I describe above. Well, he's had very tough times. He's had some economic setbacks but is determined to work his way out of it. He's very smart and very talented. Well, I was able to send him some good information to help him out. I want nothing in return.
For me, giving makes my day. :)
The Mahatma Gandhi said:
"Be the change you want to see in the world."
That's so what I try to do. Like, I respect and admire The Mahatma Ghandi so much and so wish I could have met him. Say "No!" to competiton and say "Yes!" to sharing.
Peace & Hugs
;) Lacey
Lacey Lynn: That's incredible! I sincerely hope this young man makes it through his treatments okay. It's a tough journey but support from friends and family goes a very long way.
I thought I'd add a little story that made my day yesterday regarding my new auto manufacturing job (factory monkey, you know):
I got hired through a temp agency. The lady who hired me called and started stammering, trying to make her way to the question she needed to ask me. Finally she just spat it out: "Which washroom would you like to use at [your workplace]?" And I just laughed and said the "mens". It made her feel a lot more comfortable talking about it too when I responded that way, so I guess I learned a pretty valuable lesson...
I also realized that I will be making more than my month's rent in one week at this job. So, I think it's a keeper. They will pay 100% of my tuition, school fees, and books if I choose to take any programs that will enhance my career... so I can easily go from entry level machine operator to an HR manager, Quality Assurance specialist, Floor supervisor, CNC operator... whatever I choose... I thought I was just getting a job to fund my future education, but I think I found my career :)
Being able to talk to the woman who manages one of the local motorcycle shops about bikes, as two girls who ride motorcycles.
Karen.
PS we posted at the same time so good on ya Ryan!!
I am happy that yesterday is over because i had to move #180 - 13ft 2x8 white oak boards (from an old amish barn i took down last fall + weigh about 65lbs each) about 30ft away so i can build my deck and back steps. Yes i am sore but my bones were creaking yesterday around board number 140 ouch and i didn't start until 3pm and finished around 5:30pm but now they are all stacked and stickered to dry up for use as the floor boards in the old log house i will soon rebuild yeaaa
Had dinner and spent some time with my parents. Weighed myself at 154.5 lb.
Yay!!
My father seems much more comfortable being around me when I'm not wearing a bra. I guess he likes seeing my nipples poke through my shirts ;-) don't know how much longer I'll be able to go without a bra though..... at the current rate i'd say 3 more months, max.
Went into town this afternoon to see if I could find a dress for the "Royal Wedding" themed party at the pub that holds monthly GLBT nights. I had trouble finding anything in my size and price range so was checking all the stores. The last one I tried had one that came close, but just a bit small.
As I was about to leave the salesgirl found something else, so I tried it on. Perfect, so I bought it. On special at $14 as an end of line item. The thing that made my day was when she asked whether it was for a special occaission.
I told her it was for a Royal Wedding themed party, and she asked whether it was at the 'Icon. ' When I said it was she said I would look gorgeous and she would look out for me there. I have no doubt she knew I was trans so I was thrilled when I realised she was accepting me as one of the girls she would expect to find there.
Did my ego a world of good. Probably a lot too young but being flirted with by an attractive woman felt fantastic!
Karen.
Getting permission to wear a suit instead of a dress at my school's leavers party :D :D :D , oh and the new Dr Who episode. (Even if I had no idea what was going on half the time)
Going out for an early Mother's Day lunch with my grandmother and family.
Going to the grocery store in daylight (which happens maybe twice a year), no shower, no makeup, and nobody gave me any weird stares. Not only do I have a phobia of the grocery store, but this is the first time I've gone out without doing my full two-hour shower/makeup routine in two years.
Finding out I finally got my phone upgrade today which meant being able to afford an Iphone 4! Finally my 6 hours on a bus every day for travel to and from work won't be so boring! ;D
Reading Ryan`s post where he calls himself a "factory monkey" , I work in a tire factory, maintaining machines, pay`s great, and the weather never changes, take all the courses you can , CNC would be awsome to play with, good luck Now this made me laugh my ass off today, I had a safety cource for work this morning, after that I decided to do some shopping. I picked up some shoes on bogo at payless , then decided to go to the clothing store,I saw some pants on their website that I wanted, So I showed the sales woman the pants on my phone, she went to the rack,right pants, right size , wrong color . So she suggests these other pants in the gray I wanted, then while holding up pants, asks, "Does she tuck her things in, or wear them out?" I almost peed, If she only knew the half of it.
Sitting here having a cup of hot chocolate, and watching a kangaroo grazing the neighbours backyard, while it is starting to rain.
You can tell the country people, they are happy to see it rain, unlike city folk.
Quote from: justmeinoz on May 01, 2011, 01:31:40 AM
Sitting here having a cup of hot chocolate, and watching a kangaroo grazing the neighbours backyard, while it is starting to rain.
You can tell the country people, they are happy to see it rain, unlike city folk.
Take pictures next time this happens. I can't imagine seeing a kangaroo hopping through my neighbours yard and not freaking out about it.
Remind me to go to Australia some day.
Highlight of my day #1: Finding out my thread is so well enjoyed :) I wasn't sure if it would fly or not, but it's great to see everyone using an outlet to keep track of daily highs. People seem to see the bad things more often than the good.
I had a rough day at work, I just started continental shifts (12-hour days for two weeks, then 12-hour nights for two weeks, alternating two days on, two days off, three on, three off.) I finished my first three-day streak today and my body was screaming by 9am. (i work 7am/pm-7pm/am) So yeah, my body was bitchy, my mood was unstable, my brain functions were questionable. I was dead tired and wanted to walk off the job. I've done it at another factory, I had an anxiety attack, sat in the bathroom crying and hyperventilating for an hour and then just left the plant without telling anyone. The thought kept running through my mind of quitting today, my anxiety was rising and rising and rising and I was hyperventilating for a while. I asked my supervisor if I could change to an easier line and he said no. So I went back and just stuck to it. I kept calming myself down by doing breathing exercises, and kept working. And, at the end of the day, I went home feeling great because for once I'd actually overcome my anxiety instead of letting it break me.
Sorry for not replying for so long, I work too much and visit my girlfriend back home when I have a couple days off. :) But it's great to read all the updates, keep it up everyone! :)
Sitting enjoying the pink blossoms of the flowering cherry tree I planted a decade ago. I can't wait for the petals to begin dropping, it's like pink snow.
I went out to Frank and Lucy's today, got to play the new Mortal Kombat, cuddled with their adorable dogs for like three hours and met their equally adorable crossdressing friend who, best of all, also plays MTG. So now we FINALLY have another person to play with.
Also, my morning/3-AM was really nice. Me and Ben got into this pointless conversation comparing how unusually feminine his body/mannerisms are to how dudely mine are. It was funny, and though I can't remember any of it, he said some really sweet things to me. Also, in typical Ben fashion, he said one of the cutest things ever that was equally hilarious. I (quoting a macro I got off 4chan) said to him "I'm going to piss on everything you love!" to which he responds "Why would you piss on yourself? Then we couldn't cuddle."
I epid d'awwwed/laughed. It was great.
Got a chance to go out to the lake today in one of my bikinis. I've been cured of my noassatall disease so I can fill out the bottom pretty well, and the top, while not even close to being full, still looks halfway decent! Yayyyyy :-)
Got a touch of sun while laying on the sand for 15 minutes.
Getting my power back on after 4 days without it ;D (thanks to a few Alabama tornados!) That turned to shock as I watched news casts showing all the devestation.
I was ma'amed on the phone for the first time ^^
I lost my job :)
I mean ...
>-bleeped-<. *cough*
Got to see one of my best friends I haven't seen in a while and got a big box of MTG cards from him for 20$. I love being around Josh because it's like things are exactly the same as they were back in high school, except there's not buttloads of drama floating around.
And I managed to come out to three more friends (Josh included) and they all took it great.
Having the vet tell me that the dog's skin cancer is no big deal and Dalmatians get them regularly because they are silly as a wheel and lie in the sun. She goes in next Tuesday, and should be home that afternoon. Until the next one comes up.
Having a large part of the lab staff turn up to the Thai restaurant for my farwell dinner tonight. Feel a bit teary actually. I will miss them, great bunch. Recieved a lovely print of an old Bendigo tram going past the Courthouse as a going away present.
(Ryan, kangaroos where I live are like deer in some parts of the US and Canada. A menace on the road, and a nuisance on the golf course! Millions of the bloody things around here! Taste good though.)
Karen.
Putting my dervish together and having a nice carvey skate session put a very very very big grin on my face.
That I'm still alive and mostly well. Had a falling accident yesterday, fell on my left side onto some cinder blocks, that was so bad that I felt I had to go to the emergency room to make sure that I didn't break or rupture anything. And here on the way there I was joking about, just too bad I didn't fall and bust my balls instead.
The kids were off, the teachers clubbing together to plan next year's curriculum and the teaching assistants (like me) cataloguing the books in the classroom - well, I am the only TA in my yeargroup and so I spent nearly all day with the ipod cranked up loud, singing away and playing with books. Nice 'un.
My feet shrank. My feet shrank. My feet shrank...
OMG, I'm now a size 11 and not stuck with online purchasing!!! :eusa_dance: Still doesn't mean a great selection in the stores, but at least something.
Oddly enough, I found this out on a little shopping trip with my ex-wife. It was loads of fun, actually, as we've both shed the baggage of the past and relearned what it was we liked about each other in the first place. We were two people who never should have married, never should have co-habitated, and let that get in the way of joy. Tonight we found the joy again and really had a good time. And she told me she was happy to finally have a female shopping buddy, since her boyfriend/fiance (kind of both at the moment) isn't much into shopping. :laugh:
Feet can shrink?!
Quote from: Pica Pica on May 06, 2011, 12:52:39 AM
Feet can shrink?!
I'd heard about it from other MTF's, but I didn't think it had happened to me. I was a 10.5 men's, which is 12 women's (and 9.5 in Converse, which run big). Sure as can be, I tried on six pairs of size 11 women's shoes tonight and all fit beautifully. For confirmation, I went to another store in the mall that sold Cons and found my feet fit into a 9. ;D I'd worn the size 9.5 continuously since 6th grade.
To top it off, I noticed that the crack in the toe of my three-year old Cons (size 9.5) caused by my big toe was no longer located over the end of that toe's toenail. It's nearly a quarter inch above my toenail now.
Fiiiiiiiinally found a pair of men's pants that fit good, and they were only 14$. Also figured out what I'm giving my mom on Sunday, and it's gonna be awesome.
Ogden Nash
Bought some old metalworking textbooks at a yardsale, really cool stuff, really cool.
Everything... I can't even put into words what a great day this has been. I'm glad it's only 5:40 because that means it's not over yet!
What kind of metalworking, Nicki?
I met up with a friend, and we enjoyed the sunshine.
Sunshine on my skin. Good riddance winter.
Love this thread :).
Nothing made me happy today until I decided to give my mom her mother's day card a few hours early. She opened it up, read the prewritten text, then turned it over, read the poem that I wrote for her (I've never written a poem in my life that I can recall, but gave it a shot since she writes a lot of poetry), she balled her eyes out, happy tears, then I started crying too and we hugged each other. This is the first time I'd given her a mother's day card since I can't really remember when, never had in recent memory because they could never express in words what I tell her every day, but I decided this time to try because even though I've never been a card kinda person, my mom is, and things had been so miserable lately that she needed this.
Seeing someone else was interested in my old books, okay Lee, they are old trade school texts from the fifties and sixties. There`s basic bending and welding, casting , and some really cool engraving , and sheetmetal forming stuff , one book is devoted to metallurgy alone , and one to welding , alltogether awesome stuff, knowing how is cool. I just have this inborn drive to invent ,improve, create, and do really long burnouts, ever cook a three minute tire?
:laugh: Can't even say I know what that means, but I love working with metal. I'm working on a repousse project at the moment.
Repousse, so what are you chasing at? I mess with hot rod cars ,and stuff, I haven`t done anything really arty in years , but i do try to keep to a certain artist vision . I ve been itching to cast some jewlery, I ve got about a pound of silver just lying here, wanting to be something nice.
Fun, I'd love to work with cars, but I know next to nothing about them. That's waiting on my to do list for when I actually own one. :laugh: I like the actual act of casting, but I've never been able to get into working with wax. I realize there's a whole world out there of non-wax things to cast, but I haven't played with it too much.
As with most of my recent weekends being out and skating has put a grin on my face.
Yes, metal IS fun, is there a place for a hobby /crafts thread here, we `re getting close to hijacking this one, but atleast we`re happy. There has to be some more tinkers ,tinbeaters , casters, forgers, smiths, welders ,an such here in susans little family , what do you think? :)
This happened yesterday, but two things made my day. One was looking around and finally seen bright green leaves popping out of their buds. I love how they just decide to burst out into the world seemingly overnight. It's my favourite sign of spring.
The second thing that's still making me smile is when my roommate and I were on the bus heading to the mall across town. He suddenly got out of his seat to let someone older than us sit down so I clamboured out of my seat as well. The lady he left his seat for said "Oh no, that's okay, I insist, you can sit back down." Her voice was feminine but I mean, we could tell right away she was a translady. I just grinned right away, I mean, she could tell I was trans too because I mean, even though most people I meet have no idea I'm biologically female, anyone who knows anything about the transcommunity can tell right away.
Anyway, so she started talking to us about like, Hanson and stuff and then she went and sat somewhere else. As we were getting off at the mall she was getting off too and my roommate stood letting her go first and then came the banter back and forth: "No, you go first", "Nah nah, it's okay," "I insist" "Well, okay."
I was just laughing my ass off the whole time. She looked good, I honestly had no idea until I heard her speak and even then, I'm sure her voice passes a lot of the time.
I've just never run smack into another transperson I didn't know before. I've started wondering if this town even has a trans community other than my roommate and I haha.
@ Nickikim: I have no idea how to work metal but I've always been interested. I'd probably pick up some old books on it if I found them at a yard sale or used book store :P
Oops :police:
I'll go start one up under the general discussion.
Ben made cookies XD
I was in another part of work in boy mode and woman I know said, I love your ear rings.
I just found out that I'm taller than Mark and Louis from Dancing with the Stars. :D
A day late, but yesterday I found me an endocrinologist in my area (well, actually about 30 miles away, but close enough) that takes TG patients, and set up an appointment for the middle of June, hopefully I'll be able to do this then and not have to cancel or postpone, will have to see what my therapist says once I get to talking to her again. Also come mid June will be 2 years without hormones (can't believe I lasted that long, it was rough), obviously I'm going to be a bit late on beating that 2 year mark, but hopefully I'll be back on them before my birthday at the end of July, that'd be a great thing to celebrate about. Here's to hoping. :)
I finally got rid of two cars that have been infesting my yard and garage for ages.
Thanks to a stuffed shoulder Project Honda Restoration was cancelled 18 months ago. Finally got rid of the evidence!
At 11:30 tonight, I get to pick up my friend from the airport!! Gods, how I wish she'd just move back out here...
Ok done right this time lol. There were these two young lovers alittle while ago and the woman says "Hi" to me. They had just hooked up I could see it, they were really in love, it was really sweet :)
CHICKEN MCNUGGETS 8D
Yes... it's that easy to please me :3
That, and shamefully, my manga collection has been making me quite happy ... I found it my dusty bookshelf and have been reading shoujo obsessively for three days :( I've been dreaming in black-and-white still frames surrounded by obscure Japanese furigana.
I thought I shoved my nerdy side deep down in the crypts of my soul... Apparently not :S But it's encouraged me to start drawing again and thankfully I've mostly been sketching my real-life surroundings to rekindle my skill. :D
I finished my finals today and am now baking a spelt and sugar free chocolate cherry cake for my dad's birthday.
I'm also headed to Utah for some hiking and biking this weekend then off to a hot springs.
Last official day at work today. Now looking forward to life as a Uni student interstate. I may celebrate by buying a new motorcycle. ;D ;D ;D
Karen.
I logged into my photobucket account for the first time in nearly 2 years... and saw all my old avatars and graphical stuff... talk about kid in a candy store ;D
Although I also saw the pics of my dogs and that... well... hmm, maybe more a bittersweet endeavour. :-\
What made me happy today....
I went fishing this morning in the Gulf, and while I hadn't expected to catch anything I did. I caught a ladyfish and 3 bonefish. These were the first salt water fish I've ever caught.
Fishing here is a new thing for me, and it would seem that others here, especially those who work in the bait and tackle shops can spot you as a beginner, and have little respect for you if you are one of those "googans."
A googan is someone who obviously has no idea what they are doing while they are fishing. It seems there's a fine line between fishing and standing on the beach looking like an idiot with a pole in your hand.... being a googan.
From what I've experienced here a woman with a midwest accent is automatically considered a googan, unless she's been around here a while, has a husband who fishes, or actually catches fish as I did today.
I got a dozen live shrimp at Master Bait and Tackle this morning, and they knew what I wanted when I walked in with my bait bucket, but the owner behind the counter had to rib me, and asked "did you get the good ones?" I asked what the good ones were, and he asked me, "did you get the red ones or the green ones?" Well of course there are no red or green shrimp.
I told him I just asked for shrimp and she told me my husband would be on my case for that. Yeah, okay... I guess there has to be a husband, I can't possibly be fishing without one all alone by myself. No woman can do that....
The owner there has issues with women, and sells T-shirts with mysogynistic and sexist slogans on them. He gives me an attitude every time I go in there. I'm certain he's single and always will be.
Anyway, I had a pretty good time at the beach surfcasting and watching the dolphins out there breaking the surface in graceful arcs as they swam past to the north. It was pretty neat to actually catch fish and have people acknowledge that I was actually catching them, and was not a googan. I actually got treated with respect.
Realizing that I have time this weekend to finally finish cleaning out my life!
Story goes, I undertook a project earlier this year to empty every box of belongings I've ever packed up. I'm not a hoarder, but I had stuff going back to when I was 17 (16 years ago) that hadn't been unpacked since, and sat at my mom's house all this time. As I started transition proper, I was overcome with the urge to simplify and clean out my entire life. So I took every box I've ever owned and I dumped them all out at once.
Then I got so busy I had to stop and I haven't been able to walk around my apartment since. :laugh: I'm normally a complete neat freak, so this mess stresses me out bad. To top it off, I didn't realize how difficult some of these boxes would be to go through, the memories that they'd unleash. So I kind of ignored them and the emotional baggage they brought.
I'm now at a point where I feel I'm strong enough to finish this project, so I'm working hard this weekend to do just that and put my home life back in order.
Cooked an awesome lunch earlier, Ben bought me chili wok oil and General Tso's sauce, aaaaand I got checked out on the way to the grocery store. I'm not into girls, but that made me happy as hell.
Just bought some new shorts and am going to rock my hair legs this weekend camping.
Congratulations Amy, from what I have read about American fishing Bonefish are a tough fighter.
Sounds like it might be worthwhile surfing the Net to pick up the lingo the fisho's use locally, so you can ask really difficult questions like an expert. Nothing like screwing with the heads of those who deserve it!
I had an appointment with my Gender Therapist today, and he thinks that in terms of face and hair I pass great. The fact that my voice is a bit husky and quiet due to a sinus bug is a terrific help too.
I was looking at used motorcycles this morning and the salesman was getting one out from between a couple of others for me to see if they were comfortable. An older bloke was walking past and said," Good to see chivalry is not dead!" I gave him a smile, and felt over the moon!
The sales guy laughed too, when I said, "I'll be known as the old lesbian bikie up the road with the Speed Triple, from now on I guess!"
Looks like I will be going Full Time, and getting a name change before I move Interstate to start Uni as a mature age student too!!!
Karen.
I went to brighton with a small group of friends and met up with a huge bunch of longboarders (seriously it was like a longboarding flash mob. I met a pre everything FtM who for some reason confided in me that "it may not be obvious but i want o be a guy" My reply was "That's cool...I went the other way". Being told by Jay that my voice is utterly utterly girly and that he would never have guessed. more skating. Being so so so close to being able to do tidy shut downslides and also getting an understanding of how to swing the board sudeways and then swing it back for maximum steeze. Fish and chips on the pier, even more skating, drinking on the train home and now just lying in bed.
one of the best days out I've had in ages
Did a bunch of new paintings, got to watch my House of Wax DVD that I thought got lost (It's the old one, with Vincent Price), and watched a massive block of Sons of Anarchy...which my be my new addiction.
I slept 8 hours last night, the first time I've had more than 4 hours in 3 weeks now! Wow, what a difference... ;D
Only 11 AM and already so much! The friend I've been trying to contact for 2 weeks said she really misses me and wants to go out today, so I'm getting ready while listening to '50s music to bring up my spirits on this cold, rainy morning. I'm so glad my friend of 18 years started dating her, because she's the first girlfriend he's ever had that I approve of. :laugh: All the rest loved his poetic heart, his photographic eye, his eternal thoughtfulness, but I never felt that any of them actually loved him. Or his kids, for that matter... this girl's the real deal and hanging out with her always makes me happy as pie.
Tomorrow is supposed to be gorgeous, so I'm charging up my laptop in preparation of heading to my mom's house to look for work while sitting out in the beautiful sunshine.
Why try to contain the good cheer in my heart right now...? I wish I could shine it on everyone!
"We're gonna rock around the clock tonight..." :eusa_dance:
Quote from: Ryan J on May 08, 2011, 12:07:35 PM
The second thing that's still making me smile is when my roommate and I were on the bus heading to the mall across town. He suddenly got out of his seat to let someone older than us sit down so I clamboured out of my seat as well. The lady he left his seat for said "Oh no, that's okay, I insist, you can sit back down." Her voice was feminine but I mean, we could tell right away she was a translady. I just grinned right away, I mean, she could tell I was trans too because I mean, even though most people I meet have no idea I'm biologically female, anyone who knows anything about the transcommunity can tell right away.
Anyway, so she started talking to us about like, Hanson and stuff and then she went and sat somewhere else. As we were getting off at the mall she was getting off too and my roommate stood letting her go first and then came the banter back and forth: "No, you go first", "Nah nah, it's okay," "I insist" "Well, okay."
I was just laughing my ass off the whole time. She looked good, I honestly had no idea until I heard her speak and even then, I'm sure her voice passes a lot of the time.
I've just never run smack into another transperson I didn't know before. I've started wondering if this town even has a trans community other than my roommate and I haha.
That made me wonder if she could tell I was trans or not. She passed so well expect for her voice but I think that's because we could pick up on that sort of stuff. Makes me wonder with my voice and facial hair if I still looked trans to her.
When we were getting off the bus and I was telling her to go first she insisted I go first and said that I had been so nice to her.
She is the second noticeable trans woman I have run into in this city to so far but the first one was one who was openly transitioning at my old job so I guess that doesn't count. I forget how it came up at my current job (since I am stealth) but I was talking to a girl there and she said there is only one trans woman in this city, and I said I worked with one but it turns out they weren't the same one we were talking about. She was like 'I guess there's two then'. There isn't any type of LGB or T community groups here since it's too small of a city but yeah I often feel like there aren't many of us at all here.
My wife and I are getting a shar pei puppy which in makes me happy. We are trying to figure out a name for him so we tossing names back and forth.Chakotay, Tuvok, Darren, Schultz, Jethro, Checkov, Phelps, etc. So I suggested Hobbes to no avail when she said why don't we call him (my male name). I couldn't stop laughing. Anyone that asks for me by that name gets directed to the dog. Especially great for telemarketers. I would totally do it but she was just kidding and I wouldn't want to hear it all the time. Made my day.
A cold rainy day needs two doses of happy...
I'm happy for friends who let me talk about anything and don't judge, and who share their lives openly with me under the same conditions. I'm happy for mojitos when other plans fall through. I'm happy for my good health. For Saint Etienne albums (especially Good Humor, my fav album of all time). For my stuffed animals who are always in the mood to cuddle. For the ability to simply be human...
My kitty, who makes me melt every time I see his adorable little face :).
Well, I don't know how to say it. However, I suppose I need to explain a little back ground. A little while ago I finally broke up with my boyfriend who I had been with for over two years. Which, left a hole in my life. My job has just been nothing but stress and the hours long, although I love it, and the crap that goes with it also, is not worth my health. This morning to top it off, I had to go to the hospital because of my asthma.
After coming back from the hospital. I finally made the decision to uproot where I am and I will be going back to my family, who so dearly want me to come home. What is in store for me I do not know. However, the peace that resulted from that decision was priceless. So yes I ended up having a wonderful day in the end.
Peace and happiness to one all
Sarah B
well I'm happy that you are okay Sarah! Sorry to hear about your troubles. Call me and let me know how you're going!
wow Jen, love the new avatar ;)
Cooked pasta fagiolli based off my grandma's recipe, something I haven't had since before she passed away almost ten years ago. I managed to get it nearly perfect, first one out of my family that could, and it was incredibly nostalgic. The stuff's like the ultimate comfort food to me. To make things even better, Ben made biscuits with my gram's recpie. It was amazing.
Two things actually.
First I traded my bike in for a new Vespa 300 GTS which is about 1000% better bike all round than my old Vulcan 800. Goes nearly as hard and handles and brakes heaps better, and is lots more comfortable to boot.
Second and more importantly was the reception I received at the bike shop. Everyone was unfussed and accepted me as Karen. The only time there was an issue was when I had to show my Driver's Licence which is in my male name, and even then the salesman didn't blink.
Turns out he has a mate who is FTM and, apart from the VicRoads forms, put Karen on everything! :) The woman in charge of the financial and insurance side was totally relaxed and we had a bit of 'Girl Chat' too, about riding gear etc. :) :) She promised to ring me in a day or two and see how I liked the bike too, so I have to conclude my voice must be ok too. :) :) :) Big plug for Peter Stevens Motorcycles in Elizabeth Street, Melbourne.
Only downer was finding out I didn't have quite enough documentation to apply for a change of name at Births, Deaths and Marriages. That will have to wait until I am in Melbourne on Friday, and should be finalised 3 weeks after that.
Next time I go there I will take all 3 Vols of Lord of the Rings. Going by today's effort, I should be able to get through them a few times while I wait! :laugh:
^^^^
Name change happiness abounds! ;D
I found out today that open hearings for name changes in my county are from 8 to 9 AM on Monday through Thursday. Tomorrow is Wednesday and not a holiday. Looks like I've got a date with a judge in the morning to file my petition!! It's only a few weeks after that (newspaper publication... grrr) until this legal part is done and I can start getting new documents. Time to get the gender-marker-change form from the nearby DMV, which takes forever and a day.
I think it's hysterical how they treat those forms like cold medications in a grocery store: kept behind the counter and carefully monitored. It's as if you could take a bunch of those forms, fire up an oven, extract their essential ingredient, throw in some caustic chemicals, and create a new transsexual.
Trans-amphetamine! No, no... Crystal Trans! Methamsexual?
OMG, I need sleep...
Quote from: FairyGirl on May 16, 2011, 04:16:15 AM
wow Jen, love the new avatar ;)
<3
I went shopping. Every rainy day needs shopping :).
PEANUT BUTTER COOKIES.
Ohmigod, they were amazing. I love that Ben can bake like nobody's business.
Also, I'm seeing one of my best friends that's like a brother tomorrow. Yay Joshy <3
The best thing about kitty belly rubs first thing in the morning is all the unicorns being born. :) :)
Judge approved my name change this morning, so I submitted the court order to a newspaper for publication! ;D Thankfully, the paper only had to be one that's sold in our county (not just the main newspaper in the state), so I picked a local paper that serves the town where our county court is, not where I live or anywhere that my dad's family will see. I know they're pretty much out of my life, but still... makes me feel better.
On June 10, my name will be legal. It's about time!
Today one of my male house mates said that my new yellow jacket was pretty!
Quote from: JungianZoe on May 18, 2011, 02:25:28 PM
On June 10, my name will be legal. It's about time!
Well may I just say in advance, it's nice to meet you, Legal ;D
And that's great news, hon. *hug*
Quote from: Sephirah on May 18, 2011, 04:12:41 PM
Well may I just say in advance, it's nice to meet you, Legal ;D
And that's great news, hon. *hug*
Just call me Legal Beagle, or L.B. for short! :laugh:
And I have another reason to be happy: SUNSHOWER!!!! ;D It was totally gorgeous. I also made an electrolysis appointment for this coming Monday, which pleases me to no end (my lip and chin are bugging the crap out of me to no end).
Seeing something that really, really got my heckles up, feeling a burning need to say something about it, but then taking a deep breath and realising that small things amuse small minds and there's more to life. That's actually a really big step for me. So yeah, that made me happy. :)
first mod finals are over. New mod starts Monday.
chocolate and coffee......... but I fear it may be fleeting. :/
*sips coffee*.
Quote from: Muffin on May 19, 2011, 10:29:56 PM
chocolate and coffee......... but I fear it may be fleeting. :/
*sips coffee*.
That's highbrow compared to what I've got going....
Today, I'm happy for Tipsy's Liquor World, a 24/7 Bacchanalian shrine that allowed my inner peace this evening to be fueled by Hornsby's Crisp Apple Hard Cider.
Bum's up, laddies, bum's up! :icon_drunk:
Just finished work for the week and I'm not on call this weekend
Cindy
Me and Ben's first season of Star Trek TNG is in the mail, Julie just bought me the newest Ours CD and I'm surprising her with a DVD she's wanted for years.
Feelsgoodman.
Just heard that I finished this module with a 93.11. Happy girl here. (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2F1.bp.blogspot.com%2F_uY6irMuXMdU%2FTOviPaTzIPI%2FAAAAAAAAABg%2FUh59v3jKHJI%2Fs1600%2Fsmiley.jpg&hash=f430279b134260d820528989d7b7c6f813cc20bb)
Got my first BINDER!!!!!!!!!!!
Quote from: Janet Lynn on May 20, 2011, 05:50:24 PM
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Awesome :-* Well done :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-*
C
Today was a beautiful sunny warm day and I was able to be outside. About time!
I was able to get to know better a very nice woman who I never had time to talk to before.
Had a chance to talk girl talk with a wonderful woman (who was sticking needles in my face at the time).
Even though we just found out that my wife mother had a heart attack it looks like she will be fine.
Ordered Chinese food with my best friends, had Fat Boy over for the first time in a while. It was nice to have a bunch of fat kids crammed into a tiny room, being loud and watching bad movies. Reminded me of highschool, I was happy as hell.
The night before was pretty great too.
I had a great night of contra dancing. A girl introduced herself and said that she had noticed me earlier that night and started flirting, which was a bit of an ego boost. I ran into an old friend there as well and ended up going with her and some other people to hang out and play games. Now I'm eating a banana and peanut butter.
Life's good
Bought yet another pair of ear rings. ::)
Cute though
Cindy
Only had to work half a day :P
Saturday night again, I went to the local hotel restaurant, again, three weeks or so on the run. Manager (Daniel) said Hi Cindy how are you. You can have table 2, I was in a queue of about 30 people. Who looked a bit annoyed, Elaine one of the waitresses came over and we talked about her kids. I had a nice night. I got some looks from elderly woman >60-80 range no one else seemed any concerned. I also had no time to do anything but basic make up. Thank you the Goddess of laser. I can put on mascara and lippy and pass. well sort . off. When I left I was told by Elaine and Daniel they would always find a table for me.
Feels nice
Cindy
It is official. I received an A in both of my classes.
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:) Congrats Janet
Yesterday at work i helped an ailing friend run his machine and we completed our shift. I'm a caregiver to a relative so today i took him to get his meds and got him squared away.Came home took a nap and i felt good.
Quote from: Janet Lynn on May 21, 2011, 10:55:43 AM
It is official. I received an A in both of my classes.
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Awesome.
And you are groovin' well
Cindy
That's great Janet ;D Congrats
What made me happy today? A card from a friend... It came a few weeks ago, I keep it where I can see it... It gives me a happy feeling every day when I wake and through out the day and at night when it's time to lay down awhile... It reminds me that there is a nice person and some joy in this world and that person took the time to bring some joy to me
I think your friend must be a very lucky person.
Cindy
Valerie, I'm glad to hear that you're loving dancing. Who's your wcs teacher? (If you don't mind me asking.)
I had really good Italian food with a friend of mine and dragged her salsa dancing. She said it was the best night she's ever had, and indeed it was great. People kept adding to my dance ego, which was reassuring after being a few months away from salsa.
Seeing a few sunshine icons on my weather app. So excited!
Two days ago I had a few moments of unhappy when a customer at my work asked for help with finding pantyhose, he gave me a piece of paper with the size and other descriptions of it, but I've never shopped for these before, I don't even understand the graphs on the back of the package, I felt very stupid and not only that but very unfemale. But thought about it later, realized that even my mom hasn't shopped for or worn pantyhose in many years, and its bad enough picking out a size for anything for yourself, never mind for someone else. It didn't bother me after that, the way I saw it, those are the kind of things for church-going ladies or business women, women that dress up to the tilt. I consider myself pretty just being plain. :)
Just last night, a coworker and I were talking, and I was telling her about the pink skirt and sandals that I bought there the day before, we were joking about when another coworker told me "no, no, not pink, put it back!", and I had said something like, "she doesn't like hats (because she made fun of a hat that the coworker that I was talking to had bought a couple weeks ago), and she don't like pink, what kind of a girl is she!?", just in jest, just us girls playing around. I don't remember all of the dialog, but I was recalling to her how when I first started working there over a year ago, how some of the others there thought of me as being some glamour girl, using names such as "Barbie" or "Covergirl", which while I took as a compliment, found kinda odd since I never ever really put much work into myself, I pluck facial hair, put on lipstick, that's it, and the clothes are the same crappy company shirt and pants that everyone wears, but for some reason they I guess thought me pretty, even cutting themselves down while complimenting me. And after I tell her about that, she tells me, "Well, you do look like you can be a model. And you got the height for it." Okay, I can admit, yes, some days I do see myself as being rather pretty, but I didn't think that much. what kills me is the one making those compliments is also very pretty, at least from my point of view, but I guess this is the case a lot with women, always finding your own flaws, whereas others see you as gorgeous. Made me feel good anyway. Oh, also, my hair was perfect too (got complimented on that a couple times), used baby shampoo, and for once I had a lot of body to my hair, looked so full, wasn't hanging limply, and not oily as when using any other kind of shampoo, so at least I can say in my own opinion, my hair looked damn good. Oh, and my new skirt and sandals are really cute. :)
Actually the last 5 days. Friday I put self and motor scooter on the ferry to Tasmania, and was full time from the moment I left home, until I got back this afternoon. Five days in motorcycle heaven, even when it rained!
Virtually totally accepted all the way, only had two instances where salesmen saw the motorcycle wet weather gear and called me mate. Up until I waved my nail polish around! I spent plenty of time in conversation with other riders, waitresses, barmen etc. and didn't get a second glance.
I felt totally relaxed and "normal" to the point where I am starting to forget who was living in here before Karen appeared. Speaking of which I applied for a name change on Friday, and will receive a new Birth Certificate in 4 weeks time! ;D
I have even found the area where I want to relocate to, the coast less than an hour South and West of Hobart, and looked at a few blocks of land. All I have to do is sell this place and I am away. Great riding, food, wine, and fishing. Location, location, location!!
That's great Karen :) sounds like you're living the grand adventure
The ants moved their colony out of my hot tub. No deadly intervention on my part was necessary.
You do know I'm moving in with you! I'll do the fishing while you study.
Hugs Karen
Cindy
I have just heard that our lovely new pool will be filled this weekend! Yay...
In round three with the Illinois Department of Human Rights and my attempt to get them to rule my demotion immediately after transitioning was discrimination...
I just received a letter from them today regarding my latest Request For Review. They have vacated the earlier "Lack of Substantial Evidence" finding and directed the investigation department to re-open the case and do a better job with their investigation. YAY! :icon_joy: (again)
In the same batch of mail was a settlement from a class action suit to which I was a party. The amount I got from the settlement was a whopping $21.84! It's time to buy that sailboat!
Being in a supermarket in male mode and a little boy was trying to put my stuff with his mum's and the mother going 'No they belong to this lady' ;D (She did then look a little closer and say 'Oh sorry man' and laugh, but hey I was dressed as a guy.) :laugh:
I also found out that being trans can sometimes be an advantage with the powers that be but I'll not go into that. ;)
I came out to my nice neighbor across the street, you know? The one with the good soul food? She commented on my growing hair and I told her why. She thought this was great and thanked me for the plants I gave her for her garden last week.
Joelene
moving home and having the internet work!!! (it wasn't working for the first 24hrs home). It's great to be in my own space again after two months! *high fives.. the mirror behind me*. Nice one me!
Quote from: Muffin on May 27, 2011, 10:56:24 AM
moving home and having the internet work!!! (it wasn't working for the first 24hrs home). It's great to be in my own space again after two months! *high fives.. the mirror behind me*. Nice one me!
Congrats Honey,
High Five over the net
Hugs
Cindy
Quote from: CindyJames on May 28, 2011, 02:56:57 AM
Congrats Honey,
High Five over the net
Hugs
Cindy
*hugs/high five*
each day is getting better!! More so now that I'm in my own space!
today - new
Death Cab For Cutie album ...return to form!!! : O
also this ...
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...click image for ponies short story ebook!
Hot PINK toenails! sandal season at last.
running a google image search for a normal looking vagina, after seeing this swollen mess for two months I've forgotten what they look like :/
I feel less weird now!
Last night, I went to the grocery store to buy some hard cider and, of course, had to show my ID. My name change becomes legal on the 10th and so I won't have a new ID until shortly after, but so far, my old ID hasn't caused me any problems. Interesting conversations and hilarious faces of bemused shopkeepers, but not really problems.
Now, I wouldn't say last night was really a problem, per se, but I almost didn't get my cider! :laugh: The clerk flat out couldn't believe I was the same person, even when I dropped into my old boy voice to prove it. She said the person on my license could definitely be my brother, but not me. So I told her I took hormones (thank the gods nobody else was nearby!), what hormones did, and she laughed sympathetically and asked if they could help her grow boobs as well because she always wanted some.
So in the end, I got my cider, and the knowledge that I apparently can't pass as the old me anymore. That felt good!
Finally talked face to face with my ol' therapist for the first time in nearly 6 years via Skype webcam chat. I was a bit nervous at first, but I was able to open up very easily. We talked for about 40 minutes, went by way too fast, actually felt I had too much to say yet didn't have time to say it all, but I was very happy with talking to her again. Got her caught up on what's been going on in my life as much as I could. She asked me about surgery, how I would be able to ever get that, so I showed her my cross-stitchings, told her that if I can happen to sell those, and continue to make more and being able to continue selling them, well, then there's my surgery money right there, plus I have me some other ideas, it'll take a while, maybe years still, but that's my plan, for now unless something better happens along for me. I showed her my dog, sat her on my lap and Martha (my therapist) talked to her, and Snickers (my dog) just tilted her head to the side trying to comprehend who this lady was and what she was saying, it was so cute. Martha had always gone out of her way to help me in the past, and even now, knowing that I have very little money, she was going to charge me practically nothing for the session, I know it was way too little for her, but I still have my morals (certainly don't want to feel I'm taking advantage of someone especially with that person helping me out) and also don't want anyone thinking I want charity (want to feel like I earned it, worked towards it), so I asked her again what would be a fair fee (something that would be not only workable for me but also not too low for her), she gave me an amount, I can do that, okay, so she asked we'll meet once a month, no problem, and I will send check as soon as I get paid end of this week. And I sent the endo's info to her as well as a reminder to please not to forget to send letter(s) to their fax so that I'll be fully prepared come June 14th. I am really happy right now, so excited, another step closer to being back on hormones. :)
Quote from: Megan Joanne on May 31, 2011, 05:36:50 PM
I am really happy right now, so excited, another step closer to being back on hormones. :)
Congratulations, that's great news!! ;D
So today I found out that the baby finches outside my mom's house flew away, and new finches look ready to take their place. Then I found a robin's nest while outside talking on the phone trying to avert financial doomsday.
I'm happy to report, doomsday averted! (All you Rasputina fans may now commence singing).
And while I was on the phone with the student loan company representative, I had to state my first and last name at the start of the call. My name change isn't legal yet (10 more days!!), so I grudgingly gave her the name on the account, my boy name, but didn't drop into my boy voice. I don't know what the girl on the other end of the line was thinking at that point, but she called me "Ms. (last name)" the entire conversation! It's not like my boy name was ambiguous, and I didn't disclose that I was transsexual. :laugh:
Just like two nights ago, that felt good!
Bet you'll do the Happy Dance when it arrives Zoe!
I did yesterday when I got home and found my new Birth Cert in the letterbox 3 weeks earlier than expected!
Today was spent running around getting details changed on Drivers Licence (should be a better looking photo this time), Medicare, Bank etc. No second glances or anything, lots of smiles and "Bye Karen"s when I left. I spent a while talking about the details of transition to the woman at the Health insurance office, so may have helped someone else in future too.
All in all a great day.
Karen.
Thought I'd have my first post in this thread be the best news ever.
I'm starting T for sure on the 16th!! About time!
(Also, I love reading this thread when I'm down.)
I went to work at a regular job for the first time since February 2009.
Quote from: Laura91 on June 01, 2011, 11:59:55 PM
I found out today that I have lost 15 pounds!! ;D
Congrats Laura :-* :-* :-*
That made me happy, I also got my 2009-2010 income tax forms in, 4 days before the cut off date :laugh:
Cindy
I cought my wife using my perfume today ;D I told her I dont mind now we will both smell good. After all she helped me pick it out at the store, I still have not gone out in girl mode and I can't go in the stores by myself and get the girly things I want so my loving and understanding wife goes with me ;D
Aloha
Jennie
Sat around outside after dark and... BATS!!! ;D Oh, how I love bats.
That's hard to top Val!
You'd love it here Zoe, there is one locally that has a sonar call you can actually hear. Fascinating hearing them hunt bugs.
For me, the reaction I have recieved when I sent 'coming out' letters to a lot of the people I worked with up until this week.
After slipping around the corner when I was in town yesterday, to avoid being seen by a former workmate who I was not out to, decided it was time to fess up. Especially as my new name is now official.
I sat down last night and composed a letter detailing what the effects of GID had been long term, some background basics on it, and were I am at now. I left some at the Lab this morning, after contacting those I could via FaceBook last night, and spoke to a couple of the girls as well.
The reaction has been overwhelmingly supportive. Makes me bit teary actually, which is something I am still getting used to.
Karen.
Four hours of consistently great salsa dancing and getting to lead a few rueda circles. I also ran into a few friends I haven't seen in months who ordered me to join them for more salsa on Sunday. I spent the rest of the day being a bum at my parents' place and being fed random tasty things by my mother.
Margaritas.
And playing MTG with two of my bestest friends.
And cooking an awesome dinner of stir fry.
Got some pictures in today (a small batch of select photos) that I ordered from Kodak Gallery, several nature ones that I missed when last I had pictures developed, a few more of my dog, as well as some recent ones of me since I don't really have many physical photos of myself of recent, also want to have some before and after pics to compare to when I get back on the hormones again. Pics came out real good like the last two batches I ordered so I'm happy. I do need to take some more pics of me though, also need some current pics of my mom too, as well as some with both of us, or all three counting my doggie. :)
Actually yesterday... (But I was too stressed out about other things to post about it last night)
I got the stitches out from last week's arthroscopic surgery on my shoulder and the the Dr. said I am healing well... This also means I'll be able to restart my HRT soon :)
I made me happy today.
I woke up, and the day could have been like any other day - another period of twenty-four hours (minus sleep) that I would have to ghost through.
But I chose for it not to be like that.
So, I went out, spent too much on unhealthy junk food, rented some movies, and got outside.
It would not have been terribly eventful, except for one thing. I put on these aweful pair of sunglasses for the first half of my walk. When the sun finally hid behind the clouds, I put them away, and was very surprised. The whole world around me was colourful, and bright, and full of life and hope. Every blade of grass, and tree on the mountains, just jumped out at me. I felt like I was alive again.
And all it took was to be in the dark for a little while. Only after that could I really, really, appreciate the world without sunglasses.
So maybe that's the upside to this transition. I have been living in the dark for a long time... perhaps the world will be brighter for me than for most anyone else, because I walked my early years with sunglasses on.
And now I can start to take them off.
(Metaphorically.)
(You know, I don't think I have written a short post yet. Does anyone have any suggestions? :P )
K'nuckles Reaction to The Colonels Flip (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1PHD4RB-IoA#)
either I lead a rather uneventful life or I'm really easily pleased. *shrugs*.
Not having my mother freak out or throw up when I told her I had changed my name. Admittedly I had to go over the details a couple of times as she is starting to get a bit forgetful, but still a great result.
Karen.
I had a horrible day. A day where everything that could go wrong DID go wrong...It was kind of not getting any better. When I took a five minute break, though, I had a Dr. Pepper, and, suddenly I just -simply- perked up. Oo; It was weird. After I had that drink, the rest of the day feels like a total 180 even though pretty much none of the bad stuff has been resolved.
Today was the third day in a row where I didn't cry. Considering I cried 4 to 8 hours a day for the past two months, this is a distinct improvement. :) At next week's doctor appointment, I'm going to ask about a different AA (depo might be worsening my depression) and/or antidepressants.
Also got laser today so this round of dark hairs should go away soon. Today was also the third and final newspaper notice of my name change, which means that tomorrow, my new name is legal. ;D
Congratulations on the zapping and the name change Zoe :)
Being extra depressed lately I've not had anything to post here until just a bit ago. I was sitting at the table with one of my mail roomates helping him with his computer and I bunched up one of my breasts (with a shirt on) for fun to see if I thought there was any development. I casually asked what he thought. I saw him glance over then back to his computer, but then he did a quick double take that made me start to laugh and then him. That is the first time that anyone has seen to take the least bit of notice in my chest, and it gave me a warm fuzzy!
Spending time with a green eyed dragon....
love you honey!
Starting a 3 day weekend.
And I'm getting waxed and pampered tomorrow, full works.
Wheee
Cindy
Have fun between the "OUCHes!" Cindy!
Received my new Drivers Licence and the photo definitely is of a woman. ;D I actually look a lot like one of the women I used to work with!
And also spent nearly 10 mins in pleasant and civil conversation with my ex and her girlfriend!
Karen.
Quote from: justmeinoz on June 10, 2011, 06:41:54 AM
Have fun between the "OUCHes!" Cindy!
Received my new Drivers Licence and the photo definitely is of a woman. ;D I actually look a lot like one of the women I used to work with!
And also spent nearly 10 mins in pleasant and civil conversation with my ex and her girlfriend!
Karen.
It wasn't too bad, I had my back done and then a facial which was really pleasant.
Had a guy come around talking about solar power electricity for my place and getting the government rebate. Can't decide if it is good value or not. I got him down to $7,200 for a 2Kw system.
Cindy
Quote from: Lee on June 10, 2011, 12:14:31 AM
Congratulations on the zapping and the name change Zoe :)
A big DITTO on that ZoeOh i got all my loghouse stones moved below my house to be used to build my new addition loghouse bathroom / laundryroom. I also got my privy tank hole dug all in one day for $400.00 which made me very very very happy and monday they drop in the privy tank and i'll be legal. Then its start to design the loghouse addition using the beams i salvaged and the stone from the basement of old loghouse. The privy tank will be used eventually by RV visitors or campers.
Any designers out there? PM me i could use designs. I am trying to keep things rustic to match my house. http://images.ic.org/directory/record_images/img/22661/exteriorfront.jpg (http://images.ic.org/directory/record_images/img/22661/exteriorfront.jpg)
http://images.ic.org/directory/record_images/img/22661/picture0195.jpg (http://images.ic.org/directory/record_images/img/22661/picture0195.jpg)
i have a better rear pic but its not in a URL online
Quote from: M2MtF2FtM on June 11, 2011, 06:59:51 AM
A big DITTO on that Zoe
Thank you!! ;D
I documented yesterday's happiness in this thread: https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,99945.0.html (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,99945.0.html). And I'm still as giddy this morning as I was yesterday!
But as for today, I'm glad that despite my going to bed at 1am, I still managed to wake up with the sunrise. Not much sleep, to be sure, but my brain finds an incredible peace at this time of day and I absolutely love waking up to the morning birds. I don't really consider myself a night owl OR a morning person, just somebody who likes every second of summery days. :) Being my first full day with a new legal name, I'm going to try making the best of it!
You gorgeous people
Cindy
Cindy's comment.
AND THE FREAKING WEATHER.
I woke up and was actually cold, it was so nice. Now it's still cold out, looks like it's gonna rain, and I'm happy as hell for it.
Not so much today, more last night.
I had a lucid dream.
I love those.
Got some much needed dental work done and feel more confident smiling again ;D
I went to the DMV yesterday to get my new license now that I had the signed form from my doctor to legally change my gender marker. Despite having to wait in line forever, it was a very pleasant visit thanks to the kind, smiling lady who helped me. Also saw the girl who gave me the form last Tuesday and she waved and told me how pretty I looked! ;D
Between this and my experience at Social Security, we have some seriously nice government employees in our area.
As part of the license process, I had to surrender my boy license (bye!!!) and got a ridiculously long sheet of paper that serves as a temporary license. So tonight, my friend and I went out for mojitos and I got carded, giving me my first opportunity to provide ID with my true name and gender marker. What a feeling that was... :)
That's great Zoe ;D Hugs
Today was the third and last visit to the dentist for this year :P
Finally getting a picture reduced enough to fit as an avatar photo. Not the best I've done, but finally success!
Karen.
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Cute pic as well doll
Cindy
Hi Karen :) Happy to see you Sis
Having a video chat with my sister VM
Hugs and sweet dreams
Cindy
Thanks all, will try and get a better soon. Why is it so hard to take a photo of yourself when you do great shots of everything else? ???
Kaz.
Vid chat with my dear sister Cindy
Night Nights
Hugs
- Virginia
The rain the last two nights which watered my 1/4 acre garden yeaaaaa i love the east coast.. i use to have to water gardens for hours out west
Waxing my legs and bikini line and rockin' my new bikini most of the day :eusa_dance:
Oh V M, I am so envious. I got a new bikini too but it has been overcast and rainy here for 3 days. However, the charger for my laptop shorted out and my battery died and the part that really made me happy today was that it took me 2 hours but I was able to repair the cord on the charger and get back to Susan's and all you wonderful people! And Zoe, congrats on getting carded!
Jennifer
My Mama Bear (Doshia) made me happy. She looks out for me at work and is old enough to be my Mom, But she's my best friend too. I was still upset that her husband felt like a 3rd wheel around us. But she and I talked about it today and things feel better.
And I was called into the HR office today. It seems I wont be alone in my transition at work anymore, so I'm happy about that too.
Getting all the cat hair out of the carpet before the house is open for inspection on Saturday. It's a wool/nylon blend and the fur just sticks and won't vacuum out, only way to get it out is to brush. On my knees, with a wire brush, for about 3 hours. Whew!
Thanks, Virginia and Jennifer! ;D Getting carded with a new ID was a blast, especially since I've known that waiter for five years. I go to that restaurant at least once a week, usually with my parents. When I was married, my ex and I went there. I've been there with almost every one of my friends too. But this last time, the waiter said "I don't think I've ever checked your ID before!" and I happily provided. lol
Today I helped my mom clean her ginormous house, so I dusted about every piece of furniture and shelving unit that fits into 6000 square feet. Now I'm home and inspired to clean my own place, but too stinking tired. Tired, and yet hopeful. Because something happened inside of me today that I can't put a finger on, but tonight I'm totally at peace, a welcome break from months of depression. Maybe tonight I'll sleep instead of waking up crying from bad dreams.
Great news Zoe. Glad you have kicked the Black Dog out in the yard where it belongs! May just be as simple as doing something domestic with your mother giving a feeling of acceptance, and normality. Whatever it is , good news.
I know how you feel about the cleaning, after I got back from Melbourne and had dinner, I looked at the study, closed the door and walked away. :P I will have four hours from breakfast, to having the place open for inspection!
I had my second Endo's appointment today, and he is happy with my progress after 3 months HRT. I will see him again sometime around March next year, and as I will have done 12 months RLE and HRT, if my progress continues he should be able to write letters for SRS, later in the year!!! Not counting my chickens before they hatch, but still excited. He also let me know that there are now two surgeons doing the work locally, as Dr Ceiber has not actually retired yet!
Karen.
Getting my water heater repaired :) Haven't been so dying for a shower in a long time :P
Having about twenty groups through the house during the "Open For Inspection" today, and three quick offers. Hopefully one that looks good will come through, and I will have sold this week!!!!
After the last 2 weeks reno's and cleaning I am exhausted, :Pand about to go and have a long hot bath with oils and the works!
Karen.
Getting an email from my Mum. She lives in Germany and I live in the US. I've seen her once in 11 years, and it's very hard not to be able to see her or any of my relatives for that matter when I want. My eyes watered up just just typing that little intro. Lol. Anyway she said:
Hi Keaira Thank you for the photos. You are starting to look like a girl , pretty. Just a shame about that big tattoo on your arm. I dont think you need to worry about your dad . i had a email of Darryl a few days ago & he never said anything . That Sugerglider does look cute but what is it , what does it do & where did you get it from ? What kind of housing have you moved to now ? Nice that Mikey has made friends allready, moving is allways hard for kids. Well , i cant think of anything else to write , i lead such a boring life , dont go anywhere or do anything. Huggs &Kisses Mum XXXXXX I am sending you a photo of Ann & Darryl. XXX
Anyway, Darryl is my younger brother and Anne is his long term girlfriend.
But yea, I've never deleted an email from my Mum, Dad or Brother. So that made me happy ^_^
Hey we don't have running water so we use small washtubs to use to wash our heads then face then neck etc etc going down to floor etc.. Then we use same water to wash clothes.. But hey they did it yrs ago so we can too.. however once i get my addition i will get running water and two compost toilets.. which will produce compost for fruit trees etc..
in the winter we do have hot water from the tub on top of stove but in summer we love cold water after a long day and sweating the cold feels great..
1) I got some buy one get one free icecream (I havent had icecream in ages)
2) I have a job interview for wednesday! (I really need a job)
Quote from: Elijah on June 26, 2011, 05:33:41 PM
1) I got some buy one get one free icecream (I havent had icecream in ages)
2) I have a job interview for wednesday! (I really need a job)
Good luck with the interview, hon. I hope you get it. :)
Restarting my exercise program :) I know I'm gonna wake up hurtin' tomorrow because it's been awhile :P But it felt good to bust a sweat again and hopefully I'll soon have a waistline worthy of my new bikini :icon_chick:
Best wishes on your interview Elijah :) Get em tiger
I went to my favorite coffee shop, Sportivo Coffee Bar (http://www.sportivocoffeebar.com/) in Redwood City, where I was greeted by name (Connie) and asked I wanted my usual (a large vanilla latte). The owner said she was surprised to see me, thinking I'd be in SF for Pride. I mentioned I was there on Friday for the Trans Pride event.
This place is just great. I'm out there to the staff as a transperson and no one bats an eye. They know I'm trans but treat me like I'm just a person.
Quote from: Lacey Lynne on April 03, 2011, 12:58:35 AM
The fact that I will be starting laser beard removal in about 3 weeks. The fact that I'll be getting a professional wig fitting and styling for a new wig in about 3 weeks. The fact that I'll finally be fulltime in about 3 weeks.
Lastly, I'm way grateful for life itself and for good health. I'm grateful ... way grateful.
Peace ;) Lacey
Reading this is what made me happy today! Also I got to lay out in the sun in my new bikini! ;D
Nice to hear from you Lacey! ;D
Jennifer
Just thinking of a couple of things that happened the past 2 weeks and it all came together today. I had taken my mom shopping for my niece's birthday and helped her pick out a couple of sundresses for her. (I was the one that picked out the outfits) One was a goldenrod with a floral print and the other was a lavender print. She loved them and when she found out who picked them out she ran up and gave me a big hug. :)
My sister and law had gone out to one of the malls. I was mamed twice (The clerk had only sen me from the back and i was in male mode) which was a bit odd as i am very thin on the top (OK so almost bald on top) but it was nice. :)
Same day picked up an apron and even got the senior discount (Ok so this may one of the few good things about getting older)
I had a chance to talk toher for a bit today and she is going to help me with my clothing and also make up so.......... :D
The Rocky Mountains made me happy today... as well as the towns of Keystone, Dillon, Frisco, and South Park.
Oh, and the officer who let my stepdad off with a warning for speeding was pretty cool too. ;D I liked his comment: "I don't have to be Rambo all the time."
"I don't have to be Rambo all the time."
LOLSTERS, Some folks get tired of having to be Rambo
thanks!
The fresh local salmon which I prepared for a dear friend and myself tonight, turned out wonderfully.
I went fishing for the first time with Mama Bear and sis. so it was a great girls day out ^_^
I felt better with the support from you people.
It has been a long road.
Sometimes lonely.
Always difficult.
I have made so many mistakes that I regret.
I have hurt so many people.
But I will keep going
Cindy
We love you Sis. :)
Well today is just starting and yesterday was sunday and there wasn't much to do but saturday i took an amish man to an auction and was able to get a wonderful mattress for 10.00 that has double plush sides and which originally sold for $1139.00 That fit up my stairs for my new roommate. It must be super comfortable because they are sleeping like 10 to 11 hours each night now. :)
Hearing from all the wonderful people here for a start. That includes you too Cindy darl!
If the people you think you have hurt love you, they will forgive you. If they ddin't love you, stuff em.
And a mistake is simply an attempt that didn't work out.
Less importantly I have noticed my taste buds are having a rebirth too. :o Rediscovered Rollmops. Why stop at three! Annette from Holland will know what I mean!
Karen
PS- That was a wonderful thing to do, M2.
Got a big bottle of soy sauce, one of my best friends is staying the night, and I'm cooking more stir fry. It's gonna be awesome.
Also, my dad getting taken to the hospital wasn't something huge and life threatening, it was just kidney stones. I've never been so relieved to hear my mom.
Quote from: justmeinoz on June 27, 2011, 04:27:50 AM
Hearing from all the wonderful people here for a start. That includes you too Cindy darl!
If the people you think you have hurt love you, they will forgive you. If they ddin't love you, stuff em.
And a mistake is simply an attempt that didn't work out.
Less importantly I have noticed my taste buds are having a rebirth too. :o Rediscovered Rollmops. Why stop at three! Annette from Holland will know what I mean!
Karen
PS- That was a wonderful thing to do, M2.
OMG! I love rollmops. I just don't know where I can get some. I used to eat them alot when I lived in Germany.
These were (past tense!) Estonian, Keaira, didn't expect that. Just from the local supermarket.
Following on from my previous posts I am doing the Happy Dance :icon_dance:because contracts on the house sale were signed today. 3 day cooling off period, then job will be done!!!
Karen.
Nice Karen
*Does happy dance also*
Congrats, Karen!! ;D A sale that fast is virtually unheard of stateside... these days, anyway.
So I got my new license with my new picture and corrected gender marker, and I'm a happy little lark! ;D Even better, the picture is actually cute and I could definitely live with it for the next five to ten years. While I'll miss the bewildered faces of anyone who asks for my ID, I'm SO glad I don't have to out myself anymore.
Congrats Zoe :) Very happy for you
Thank you!! :) Also pretty happy at all the baby birds in my life right now. Five or six in a nest outside my mom's house, and a poor baby robin stuck in a window well. Thankfully, the latter looks to be within a day of being able to fly (lots of feathers) and its mother is bringing it food and keeping it safe.
They're so cuuuuuuuute!!
Seeing a women in the mirror with out make-up on.
She wasn't young or very pretty but still a woman staring back at me.
:)
Last week it was the trips to Monterey and Yosemite and with my brother's wedding, all with my family. Yesterday, it was the South Rim of the Grand Canyon, today the North Rim. I enjoyed my lunch at the North Rim Lodge today with the canyon view from my seat next to the window. This is better than the quickies at the chain restaurants I usually do. I rarely did this kind of thing, I kinda like this now. The Southwest chicken sandwich is excellent there, although pricey. The next 4 days I will be at a convention at Bryce with camping and volunteer work.
Joelene
today i got a mohawk and i think my mom and i made some progress.
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need I say more? :D
Meeting people I did not know and finding they have hearts of gold.
There is hope for humanity because caring, loving people are here.
Not waking up screaming.
Cindy
Reading all the positives since I was here last!
Zoe, congrats on the licence , great to have a photo that looks right hey?
Jilleann, agree, I'd rather look like Cathy Bate on a bad day than Brad Pitt!
Joelene, sounds great! My mother visited the Grand Canyon years ago and would love to see it myself.
Aj, love the new do.
Keaira, go girl!
Cindy, just what you deserve, karma darl!
Having my back waxed and not screaming! Had a good chat with beautician, has another trans client so great experience.
Finally finding a leather or leather look skirt in my size. :)
Definite house sale, buyer looked in roof and didn't find any possums so balance of deposit paid this afternoon! ;D
Life is good. Karen
What made me happy today is what does every day: I'm alive.
I have a awesome friend who he and his wife let me practically live there so i am not home alone. Today we played the World of Warcraft card game and practiced Starcraft 2. I also chatted on the phone to the only person that will talk to me about TG stuff and treats me like a fellow girl. She is a lesbian and said she would even date me so i smiled. lol.
Off to do it again tomorrow...I hope they cook something good for dinner. ^_^
My wife finally got her avatar here on Susan's.
Quote from: JulyaOrina on June 29, 2011, 05:38:09 AM
My wife finally got her avatar here on Susan's.
And you are both gorgeous.
Love and happiness to both of you.
Cindy
My life is painfully uneventful so it's no surprise that a pic like this is a hot contender for my wednesday highlight...
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It was actually yesterday, but my daughter and I attended a presentation called "Raising Gender Inclusive Children" put on by Gender Spectrum (http://www.genderspectrum.org/) and Our Family Coalition (http://www.ourfamily.org/). While the presentation was aimed more at parents of school-aged children (my daughter is 19 and my son is 22) and school staff, it was just wonderful. I made me start to believe that even if some of the It Gets Better things won't necessarily apply in my life, those things might apply in the lives of others. It literally brought tears to my eyes watching the video clips of parents of kids as young as 5 being supportive in their gender explorations and even transitions.
My wife has finally moved forward in accepting my transition and we have picked a name -- Robert Scott
I have found a new friend-we can never have enough of these!!
Randi
I got called Ma'am throughout my drivethrough order at Taco bell 20 minutes ago.
Went out to the vacant lot near my house with my best friends and beat the crap out of each other for about three hours.
Got my knuckles bruised as hell during the stickfight, but it was so much fun, and I think we all needed it.
Now I've got a claw mark on my nose, and Turtle's got a big bruise on his side. I call it even.
While on vacation in Chicago today, I slept in long enough to wake up to the cleaning staff of the hotel I'm staying at coming in. I had a laugh about it later, since I was completely delirious and she must've thought I was crazy sleeping on the couch while one of the beds were empty (since I came with my friend and their dad, and their dad had left for breakfast).
That wasn't even the good part. Dad came to the room just as the cleaning lady left, and I overheard her calling me him, which was great since I wasn't binding. Must've been the deep morning voice. XD
Quote from: Robert Scott on June 29, 2011, 01:01:56 PM
My wife has finally moved forward in accepting my transition and we have picked a name -- Robert Scott
Love.
It must have been awesome
Hugs Bro
Cindy
Having lunch with my neice. Talked over how she is coping with a misscarriage several months ago and my transition. Good opportunity for venting and mutual support.
Karen.
I got to dilate again! yyeessssss so much fun! wwooooo!!!!
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Feeling good about myself this afternoon after the last few weeks of feeling a bit down.
the mail man called me sir :) i wasnt binding either
Over hearing someone say "That's a whole lotta girl there" Then turning to look and having two cowboys tip their hats and wink at me :laugh:
Hugs to Muffin.
Then again you have something to dilate :embarrassed:
I'm not full time at work but my female colleague knows all about me. She was having a joke with another male colleague and mentioned she was the only girl in the room.
She came up to me afterwards and said. As soon as I said that I knew it was wrong.
Made my day for sure
Cindy
Back on good terms with my son again. Then again I did have to go and look and see why his car wouldn't start.
Karen.
What made me happy yesterday was having slept in an honest-to-god bed.
Every time when I met girl tall like me (3'6")
And startlingly I met lot of them and lots of them have broader shoulders than me
So I'm happy with my body
It finally got sunny and warm here so I got to lay out in the sun in my new bikini! ;D
Jennifer
I ate a delicious chocholate cake :)
It's been raining steadily since the early hours of the morning. In the country rain is always welcome.
So I am sitting here in the lounge having a glass of red and watching a kangaroo (true!) mowing my lawn for me. Doesn't seem to mind it's wet at all. Fussy eaters though, I now know why my grass is clumpy.
Karen.
Bought a new necklace and signed up for the loyalty program.
Cindy
my mom left today to go away for a week :)
Went to the beach today and enjoyed it.
Here is the link about it https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,101343.0.html (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,101343.0.html)
completely told my mom off :) and told her her forcing me to stay a female is killing me inside and either she accepts it or lets me go and pretend she never had a child. i stood up for myself and who i am finally.
counting my daily pill take and noticing it's at 12... I think that's funny but not as funny as the idea I had about going out to catch up with old friends and going out dressed in the one and only guy suit I have (had to buy one for a wedding years and years ago and only wore it once) I could buy a nice hat, it would be a trip! I think if anyone from my past saw that they'd be like "ok you're not a dude". I really want this to happen... at least one day ..you know... for the lols.
I am going to make myself a Y chromosome tonight.
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Just got a couple of Within Temptation albums today and ripped them to my mp3 player. Have to say, really great music.
Kudos to April Dawne for introducing me to them. :)
Getting back into the world after two days of falling apart...
Just set my apt. for hrt & top surgery consultation :)
Five year old playing in a shop doorway being told, "Zac, let the lady out", by his Mum. :)
Having lunch at Subway, sitting at the next table to a mother and daughter I used to see a lot at the ice rink pre-Transition, and not being recognised even though they were looking in my direction. :) :)
Celebrating by picking up a new guitar, Yamaha 12-string, at an absolute bargain price. :) :) :)
Karen.
Quote from: Robert Scott on July 05, 2011, 01:49:51 PM
Just set my apt. for hrt & top surgery consultation :)
:) Nice. Congratulations!
I didn't get caught in the rain storm.
Cindy
Had dinner at Arby's with Ben and Julie, managed to find a pair of shorts that actually fit AND aren't freakishly baggy, published a new level on LBP aaaand finally summed up the courage to use the guys' dressing room. And got nothing but a nod of acknowledgement. Overall, great day, in spite of the horrid weather.
Feeling how smooth my skin is after epilating.
Randi
Enjoyed a walk in the park.
Picked up my new glasses today :) T'is good to be able to see with a degree of sharpness again
Finding out I am being recommended for a promotion at a different location by every department head and regional manager that I interact with. There are actually two jobs I have put in for and I have been told that I should get an offer for atleast the lower of the two but may get the higher one after being in lower for a period of time!
buying a new top and awesome new shoes at payless and only feeling slightly wierd :) ;D oh and some undies at wally-world
Had coffee with my FtM son, as we are back on good terms again and discussed the merits of various packers and breast forms!! ::) Nice to have family harmony again. We may not be normal but we're happy!!
Karen.
Lee: Those chromies are adorable. :D
Karen: Awesome!! Definitely wish I could talk to my aunt about packers. ...Actually, I probably could :O
The highlight of my day was having a really good interview and passing 100% with everyone I met. I bought a couple shirts after and the girl who checked me out ... checked me out. ;D
Quote from: Lee on July 05, 2011, 09:02:12 AM
I am going to make myself a Y chromosome tonight.
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This is what made me happy today. Lee, I will gladly trade you a Y for an X. ;D Can I buy a vowel?
Jennifer
The News of the World has been closed. Good riddance to a foul tabloid. Even though I'm in Australia.
Cindy
Cindy- good thing, but there's plenty more perfectly good chip wrappers still left over there!
Finally got the new Di Marzio pickup for my bass guitar. Crisp instead of muddy, and Bloody Loud! >:-)
Karen.
Quote from: Sephirah on July 05, 2011, 10:00:33 AM
Just got a couple of Within Temptation albums today and ripped them to my mp3 player. Have to say, really great music.
Kudos to April Dawne for introducing me to them. :)
They've always made me happy too.
Taking a three hour nap with my puppy, and then nostalgia-ing with Julie over TLC.
Got home without truck overheating, working out me manly muscles, seeing you guys, finding this cool thread and Lee's chromosomes.
anything with chrome makes me smile.
Worked out for the first time in a week and went for a bike ride. I smoke and don't do cardio as much as my heart would like me to, so it was a good thing. :) And I cleaned my room! Apparently there's a floor in my room.
I make a shopping Saturday today, I take size M tshirt (normally wear bigger, but I'm size S) to my metal 3/4 pants and put eyeliner and mascara and go to find some female clothes, I didn't find anything, but I finally can go to shop and trying clothes without any fear
I have also some funny moments, one girl walk around me then she turn and look at me again little confused, next few steps and look again now totally confused ;D Then I walked by group of gypsies and one girl ask me if I'm girl or boy ;D I didn't say anything and they have finny discusion ;)
So even when I buy just shoes, and two tops, shopping was successful
Checked my E mail,..and my old thearapists replacment had finally gotten to my referral, called HER :) office, left a message,( The voice training Is working !!!) and now I m back in line. My allergies have had me a mess for the last week, so I,ve had tospeak above my normal (me normal wtf) voice constantly, which otherwise I`ve been to chicken to do.So maybe that helped. Hopefully I make more progress with this doctor, I never felt comfortable talking to the last one.
Tried on a dress that was the most exquisite garment I've ever worn in my life! Too bad it was $200 at Anthropologie. :laugh: Ah well, it's inspiration to find a job ASAP!
Went to this tiny town in the mountains for an awesome potluck/dance with my salsa group. It was a great evening.
Quote from: Ryan J on March 31, 2011, 02:43:14 PM
This topic was a sticky on an old forum I used to be a member of, Queer Attitude. I thought it was a pretty uplifting idea, writing about whatever made your day amazing. Each day is open to a whole new opportunity for morale-boosting events, so why not share them with everyone on the forum?
My day was made when I got a call from Home Depot in Guelph (the city I'm moving to in two days) telling me they want me in for an interview next week.
I just finished my job here in the city I currently live in, and though I was spitting out resume after resume for months now, no one had been calling me. And I'm pretty friggin sweet in interviews, so I'm fairly confident I'll have a job to pay rent.
PLUS, I'm full-time, passing as male, so this job will be my first job where EVERYONE knows me as Ryan. :D:D:D Not to mention Home Depot is renowned for being Queer-Friendly. ^^
Beedless to say I'm happy.
Now it's your turn. :)
Some boy at the mall asked me out OMG hes so cute!
Called in to see a couple of old friend for a few minutes, to tell them about moving.
Spent the next three hours catching up about transition, looking at their renovations, talking about houses,getting tips on socialising as a lesbian, playing with sundry cats and dogs, drinking coffee and generally having a great afternoon.
Karen.
My dad referred to me as Christopher and sort of implied I was his son. (Some guy asked if I was his, and he said he had me and a little girl, emphasis on girl. ;D)
I went swimming with my boyfriend and found out I can indeed swim (as apposed to wading) if I'm calm enough. X3
I slept AWESOMELY. ;D bwahahaa. And my cat did not leap upon my face in epic fury for once in her damn life 8D YAY!
Made an awesome stew.
Mmmmmmm
Cindy
I took my son to see Transformers 3 in 3D. we bought 2 of the transformers battle masks that were also Real3D glasses, and I probably looked silly wearing an Optimus Prime T-shirt and Battle Mask, but I didnt care. it made my son happy. It was a good movie. And the first time I had used the men's rest room in 5 weeks. And it felt really really awkward to me! Huh. I almost panicked actually. I knew I wasn't supposed to be in there but going to the women's would have drawn unwanted attention. And I really had to go.
Definitely a Stew evening Cindy. Freezing and raining here.
Most of the other adults were probably secretly wishing they had done that too Keaira, and got into the fun of it. Lets face it, it's not exactly an arty film festival type movie.
I am inside snug and warm, listening to the sound of the rain on the iron roof, a real country sound. That makes me happy too.
I'm with you Keaira, so few years, so much life so much fun,
I can understand the loo part. I'm caught out occasionally have to use the male facility. Hate it :laugh:
Hugs, love your hair BTW, cute fringe.
Cindy
Spoke to my mum on the phone (45mins, average!) and told her I had a ridiculously unrelenting craving for a buffet restaurant and said I couldn't be bothered tracking down anything decent and was settling for >-bleeped-<ty ol' bland sizzlers (if only I had weed right now..damn). I don't mind doing stuff like that alone but she said if I waited until later in the week then her and my dad will come! Which also means they'll no doubt pay and I can take my camera and take pics of my foods and of the artwork I shall make out of the leftovers! I plan on eating at least a plate of everything available as I'm sick of eating the same cheap >-bleeped-< food over and over at home.. I need variety!
noms! :O~
settling for >-bleeped-<ty ol' bland sizzlers (if only I had weed right now..damn)
I don't think that weed can help Sizzlers. Now it might improve a bit after you've pounded a bottle of Jack Daniels, but Sizzlers is just a waste of good smoke.
Quote from: tekla on July 10, 2011, 06:11:08 AM
settling for >-bleeped-<ty ol' bland sizzlers (if only I had weed right now..damn)
I don't think that weed can help Sizzlers. Now it might improve a bit after you've pounded a bottle of Jack Daniels, but Sizzlers is just a waste of good smoke.
Yeah I'm not overly proud of going to sizzlers, I just want cheap food with variety.. plus weed makes any food taste better for me. *shrugs*. Maybe I could order some synthetic tomrw :3
Quote from: Cindy James on July 10, 2011, 04:44:47 AM
I'm with you Keaira, so few years, so much life so much fun,
I can understand the loo part. I'm caught out occasionally have to use the male facility. Hate it :laugh:
Hugs, love your hair BTW, cute fringe.
Cindy
My Son is my world. His sisters are almost grown up, so they understand why I'm transitioning. My son doesn't though and he gets really uncomfortable when I try to explain it to him. So I guess I will wait for him to come to me when he is ready.
That photo was one of the very few I like of me. ^_^ my hair does it's own thing and I can't ever decide on a style to get, so it's just growing out. But Thank you Cindy, it was very nice of you. ^_^
I enjoyed the sun, surf and the novel on the beach today in my pink swimsuit.
Sharing strawberries from my garden with neighbor's and coloring my hair :) The grey hairs drive me bats :P They didn't have my color at the store so I went with a reddish blonde this time :laugh:
READING THIS BLOG OF HAPPY CAMPERS :angel:
I got my new driver's licence with my new name, and got my name changed for my bank account. And the woman was totally cool about the fact that I was going from a female name to a male name. But I bank with TD, open-mindedness is expected :)
I was talking to my therapist about wanting to start HRT as soon as I get the go-ahead. She asked me whether I thought I was influenced by other people's enthusiasm/impatience on Susan's (a fair question to be asked :)) - I thought about it for a little while, then smiled and said "I trust myself :D." Nice to know.
I found my ear ring that fell out last night
I was drying off after my morning bath and glanced in the mirror and thought I saw my neice there looking back. My legs have gotten bigger at the top and when I turned slightly my bottom looked good! Additionally, the other day my wife went off momentarily when I put on my size 6 black stretch pants saying they "scream" female-priceless. I wasn't aware that my body had changed to such a degree!!! Oh yes, and my breasts have been itching alot for the past week and I am completely off my meds for now. Needless to say they are still growing!!!
Randi
I think the antidepressants are finally starting to work... because last night I felt true happiness for the very first time in three months. It was nice to feel anything, actually!
Got an un-official job offer to be firmed up by Friday!
My partner and I went to an awesome couples counselor and it was a positive experience. I feel like the luckiest person in the world that she and I are trying to make it through my transition together.
The new Michelin tires I put on my bike exceeded my wildest expectations.
The bad: Raised panel door I made for a current project came apart at a joint (that's a first!) I had to try to separate another joint and it broke apart. Really bad!
The good: I was able to glue it all back together (after fixing the splitting problem) and you can't even tell it was ever broken.
Ninjaboi finding this place, which seems so much more accepting than other sites we've found. I feel part of the community as well - all too often they don't accept the partners unless you *fit* a certain criteria, which frankly always pisses me off no end. I love my partner, I share what they do - why can't that extend to their sexuality, especially as we've taken the journey together. So that you for being here.
The bedbug bite on my butt finally stopped itching! ;D I'm glad it didn't decide to be any more exploratory than that. Not sure I'll be spending much time at my friends' house until they get that little problem under control...
My darling Hubby gave me a gift token for a beauty salon, I'II use it next week for an afternoon's pampering, a facial, Manicure Pedicure, I'II look forward to a nice relaxing girly afternoon, nice to get something totally unexpected.
Tuesday actually
It was a hot day and I had to ride my bike to a Dr.s appointment :P As I was getting ready to go, storm clouds rolled in which cooled off the air... Then a refreshing light rain came down and it felt great as I rode about :)
I found I could take tomorrow off. Now what to do, shop or house work. Mmm toughie. Now what to shop for. :laugh: :laugh: :laugh:
Cindy
First therapy appointment in about 10 hours! I'm so excited :)
And - while this was technically last night - I was accepted by a very close friend of mine ;D
This was technically yesterday, but:
We got this month's food stamps! ;D Finally, there's stuff to eat. X3
And when we went to Picnsave to get groceries, they were having an anniversary thing, so I got (free) punch, cake, a cookie, overly chocolate ice cream, fritos, a hot dog, and a coke from various little booths! BEST DAY EVER! 8D
And some guy was super nice and gave my mom 32 cents to help pay for the rest of the groceries. (Apparently coupons work weird with food stamps.)
Sadly Nothing
Quote from: Cindy James on July 14, 2011, 07:24:35 AM
Sadly Nothing
{{hugs}} There's gotta be something to be happy about.
I think I'm starting to sound like one of those campy happy-go-lucky freaks. -.-
I broke it off with my girlfriend last night and it went extremely well. She's sad but not freaking out on me. :)
And my salmon finally thawed. I decided to try some store-bought sashimi, then found out on Google that I could die horribly from doing so. So, anyone wanna cross their fingers for me? :S
Had a job interview go super well today! Exciting! Its the first step towards starting hrt!
Was called ma'am and miss a the store today.
A woman I had been working around, most of the day, in male mode just walked right by and didn't even notice me.
It was a great evening.
Finding a dark beard hair right under my cheek bone. My hair tends to like being lower on my cheeks, so it's nice to see it creeping up.
My therapist is nice :)
Thursday night shopping trips with my ex are starting to be a real blast! ;D The old feelings will never get re-kindled, but why would either of us want that when we're so much happier as friends instead of spouses?
Also, the antidepressants are definitely starting to work. I've never felt so bold and peaceful in my whole life!
I had my last appointment for a few months with my Gender therapist, before moving interstate. I will be able to contact him via Skype thanks to a new MediCare system if I am outside a certain radius of Hobart.
Received a very favourable appraisal, my face is definitely now on the femine side of the line thanks to my hairpiece, HRT and laser. He also said I definitely look years younger than 57.
Not today, but still.
Went out with Ben to do some errands and hit up one of my favorite stores in town, and while we were on the bus he put his arm around me and laid his head on my shoulder. These middle school kids get on, and start staring at us like we're circus freaks. I'm starting to get pissed because I felt like my binder wasn't doing a damn, but as we're getting off the kid closest to the door mumbles "Effin' queers" So I turned around, grinned and said "No s***, sweetheart".
I always think it's hilarious when one person's insults are my little moments of happy, and I went through the rest of the day happy as hell.
EVEN BETTER. While we were at said store, I found this ring that I absolutely fell in love with, for only 13$. So my mom's giving me money for it as an early birthday gift and I'm going to pick it up todaaay.
Finally got rid of some emotional baggage I have been carrying for years upon years!!!! I am feeling pretty good today about it-and the swelling in my foot is going down!!!
Randi
Today I rode my motorcycle to work and usually after the end of my day will put my bra on underneath my riding jacket. Today I decided to not put the jacket on and nobody looked at me twice or acted like my presentation was any way out of the ordinary 8) I love it!!!
When I got home, I brushed out my hair, pulled it forward, and fixed my bangs. Although my facial features are not how I would like them to be, the overall look was not too bad!! Definately girly all over!! GRINS!!!!! Slowly but surely I Am Getting There!!
Happy Happy Joy Joy!! :icon_woowoo:
listening to Trance Around the World with my friends on DI.fm !!
I got my hair cut and styled. It was just...well, there before. now it's had about 2 inches cut off and it's more of a bob. Then my car got repossessed. *sigh* Well, I'm not going to dwell on it. After 3 rear end crashes, 1 sideswipe, hitting another car's rear fender, and a dent to the driver side front fender, it's hard to break down and yell "NOOO DONT TAKE MY CAR!!" The carfax on it should be about a mile long :P
I had a good conversation with my wife, addressed some repressed issues, gained a lot of mutual perspective, and was finally able to let myself cry!
I was called girl even when I was in male clothes and even dont try to present me as a girl
I just saw a baby flicker!! ;D Seen thousands of flickers in my life, but never a baby until today.
Also, I bought some super cute shorts yesterday and a few new shirts that fit like a dream. I haven't owned a pair of shorts in 10 years now, and I'm shocked I bought a pair so small. lol It's not like they expose anything, but they only have like 1" of leg. As soon as I put them on, I wanted to strut around all over creation.
At my mom's company picnic someone asked if I was my mom's other son. (which she shot down very quickly :()
Volunteering at Pride today. It was wonnnnnderful. Even though I came home to an empty house...but I've got my eye on a cat at the animal shelter.
Double dipping in happiness today! ;D Tonight, at my mom's house, my stepdad totally agreed that I should stay in my current apartment. Though I need to find a well-paying job in order to afford it (and I don't even have a job right now) he completely agreed that it's a really good price for this end of town and that cheaper apartments aren't in safe areas, nor are the complexes very sanitary. I loved the way he put it when I told him of the decision I had to make: "Do you want to live in faith or fear? Faith where you stay in your apartment and know you'll find a good job, or will you run somewhere else?"
I know he supports me fully and I love him so much for it. I'm lucky to have such beautiful and loving parents as my mom and stepdad. In fact, I should just stop calling him my stepdad because he's the only dad I left (and as of my legal name change, I share his last name).
Had my hair trimmed yesterday, 1 inch off the ends to get rid of the knotty split ends and the girl cutting it was saying how deadly my hair was and in real good condition :). When she finished she asked if I want to leave it out but I just tied it up. If I get her next time I might ask her if she wants to style it. There was an older guy sitting next to me and when my hair was pulled out at the start and the girl getting enthusiastic for it, I could tell from his B/L that he was probably thinking friggin queers lol ;D :laugh:
Quote from: Zoë Natasha on July 17, 2011, 12:29:38 AMIn fact, I should just stop calling him my stepdad because he's the only dad I left (and as of my legal name change, I share his last name).
Sweet. In more ways than one.
My wife introduced me to a friend of hers as her partner Hannah while I was in guy mode in public and I responded in fem-voice without realizing it. No wonder I got a funny look :) It made me so happy I cried :)
I have found comfort and direction in being myself for myself, and focusing on that. Oh, and coming out to everyone on Facebook; which was very well received.
Quote from: JulyaOrina on July 18, 2011, 07:34:54 PM
I have found comfort and direction in being myself for myself, and focusing on that. Oh, and coming out to everyone on Facebook; which was very well received.
That's awesome! Massive congrats on that.
I'm really excited to get a bunch of CDs I ordered from Amazon with a bit of birthday money I got from my aunt this past weekend.
And I finally had the money to put up some stuff of mine on Etsy.
Getting the expected okay Credit Reference so I can rent a house when I move. Apparently I have never been Bankrupt or defaulted on a loan! I could have told them that!
Haven't had to rent in nearly 30 years, what a load of ...... you have to go through these days! More mucking around than buying one!!
Went to the mall to pick up some lovely scented things before my drive to Illinois, and saw this seriously cute guy who was like 7' tall. And as my friend and I passed him, he totally checked me out. ;D Then he passed us a minute or so later (after we'd sat down on some chairs in a secluded spot) and did it again!
Oh, I think I melted...
Zoe, I think it is fair to say you might be passing ok!! ;)
I'd say... and it felt so good! The tall guy wasn't the only one today. My friend cracked up at one point and then said there was this guy checking out my butt. I didn't melt over him though, partly because he worked for the evil telephone company. :laugh: But the tall guy? Totally melt-worthy.
And then there was the restaurant today, where the waitress, a manager, my friend and I got into this discussion about guys. The whole time, I knew they didn't read me at all.
This was just an incredible day all around! ;D
Hugs Zoe,
You totally deserve it. I love it when another woman starts talking Guy talk and brings me in. I have to admit that in one of the first times I think I was blushing like crazy. Is that what girls say about guys >:-) OMG.
Take care on your trip as well.
Cindy
sleeping made me happy today. just got done working 5 12 hour noc shifts, so the sleep was great. Now I am preparing to can a massive amount of homemade chili... :)
to find out that I'll get my first bloodworks done on thursday. oooooon my waaaaaaay too HHHHH RRR TTTTTT *sing*
My neice is reading a book about a girl who is a dork. Without warning she looked up at me and said-"you can be the lead character in my book" making a reference to me being a dork. I don't know if it showed but I was so happy she said that and every time I think about it I have to smile.
Randi
I walked for about an hour around town, 'twas really fun. I got some books from the library, including Dicey's Story -- I didn't know Homecoming had a sequel, so I'm happy about that~
Aaaaand, I tried on this suit at the Christian store, and it looked snazzeh~ made me happy the whole walk home. Then my mom bought it for me on the return trip! 8D She says it looks cute, but kinda weird. Pshh, I love it. I'm wearing it all day today~ first suit, whoo! ;D
Two things.
First I was sitting in my car stopped at roadworks. I was next to a greyhound kennel, where a dog was in training chasing a lure around a training track. It caught it, and dragged the trolley back to the trainer with it's tail wagging in the air!! "I caught it! I caught it!!" Absolutely hilarious.
Secondly while washing my hands I looked in the bathroom mirror, and as I was wearing a V-neck T-shirt, I could see a hint of cleavage as I leaned over!! :D
Karen
Leaving work made me extremely happy. But I would have to say that I'm happy because today I have been on HRT for 5 months now. So, a good milestone there. ^_^
I was driving by my old uni and decided to take the long way to my favorite coffee place where I buy my beans. I was tuned into a classical station that was playing a piece that I like. I turned right and started winding down the hill. The music swelled just as the ocean came into view. It was a terrific panorama from the hill--golden beach, stunning blue water as far as the horizon, foamy white breakers. A beautiful moment. I felt genuine joy.
I never used to feel happy very much; I always muffled my feelings, even the good ones. So it's still hard for me to know what to do with those moments.
I found out that my family is feeding me fondue tomorrow and that my professor decided to drop our lowest test grade. I also realized that this time next week I'll be completely done with school (well, for a few years at least). :)
Went to a restaurant and then grocery shopping with no makeup, wearing shorts and a tee and was called miss and ma'am.
Made my day.
Work. Just got a new job I intended, and still sort of intend, to keep for a short time. Turns out my new co-warkers are awesome. I applied as male as I have all the appropriate documentation with my chosen name. And I pass, somehow, as a 21-year-old male. I work with a guy the same age as me, and he looks like he's about 28 to 30. Apparently I also look like a mini version of the store manager, they call me Mini Mark. Mark's my older brother's name. A friend of my brother's told me I look exactly like him.
All in all, it's pretty confidence-boosting. :D
Tomorrow, I go to a psychiatrist for the third time >:-)
Afternoon on thr beach with my litte pink bathing suit. It was so nice. :)
I got to go see harry potter and it was amazing
Spending another day with my best friend who is also my wife.
Okay, yeah that's corney but I sincerely mean it.
Got some writing done. That makes me feel Accomplished.
My brother made me an incredible carved wooden box. I also now have money for a new, smaller binder. :)
Quote from: Lee on July 24, 2011, 11:33:25 PM
My brother made me an incredible carved wooden box. I also now have money for a new, smaller binder. :)
You obviously come from a very talented creative family.
I loved your craft work
Cindy
Cadell Evans won the TDF
Aussie Aussie Aussie
Cindy
HOOOOOLY CRAP.
So, my best friend and I haven't seen each other in person in MONTHS, 'cause the last time he was over, he accidentally "butt-dialed" his mom and she heard a comment he made referencing my trans-ness. She demanded an explanation, saw my facebook, and told me she was very distressed with my "gender decision" and was fairly frightened of my "religion" being listed as new age. She wanted me to go to church with them, which would have made everything "all better" in her eyes, but that never happened. (My friend says it's 'cause I suggested a Methodist church, as every Methodist I've met was pretty cool with non-Christians coming to their church with no intention of converting.)
But my friend told me she wanted me to tutor him in algebra every few days. Meaning we work on math for about 30mins-1hr and then go bull>-bleeped-< around for 5hrs. XD And, he's coming back to public school, so I'll get to see him a lot.
YAY, I GOT MY BEST FRIEND BACK! :DDD
In my meeting with my therapist today, I learned I am one letter away from having all my ducks in a row.
Quote from: Lee on July 24, 2011, 11:33:25 PM
My brother made me an incredible carved wooden box.
He posted pics of it. Here's me showing off for him. :)
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That box is way cool Lee :)
After months of nothing I have itchy boobs again. Yay!
Hannah: your July 24th post is adorable. Corny indeed, but adorable :P
Silas: Way to go! Hope things stay good with you and your friend :)
Lee: That's some sick woodwork. Does your brother have an online store? :D
My day is awesome because I just ordered a new laptop, a Dell Inspiron Duo, and even though the reviews say it's laggy as all hell, I plan on using it as a tablet to start drawing comics. I'll never get rich, or probably make any money at all doing it, but I love writing/drawing graphic novels. It should arrive in a couple of weeks. I'm excited :D
The weather! Holy crap, the weather! It's cloudy, breezy, and absolutely wonderful here today. Me and Ben are going out to the cemetery later, I'm looking forward to it way too much.
Ohmygod, Lee, that's pretty as hell. It reminds me of Santa Claus. Awesome. ♥♥
Ryan: Same, dude. @_@ And, ohmygod, I've been wanting a tablet to draw comics with as well XD But I'm settling for a scanner, whenever it arrives. ;D Have fun with your comics.
N.Chaos: Cemeteries = love.
I just finished the first full draft of a novel I'd been writing since August 2008. Now, it's off to my proofreaders so the next draft can be done.
Everything else about my vacation is complete crap, but at least I can go outside and watch cardinals here. We don't have them back at home.
WHAT MADE ME HAPPY TODAY? Reading this thread and and seeing that all you wonderful people are embracing life and getting the most out of it by enjoying and appreciating all that life has to offer! Rock on all you happy people! ;D
Jennifer
Just realzed it but was bra shopping today and didn't even feel nervous.
It just seemed normal.
Wow!
This is making my day.
:)
Quote from: Jillieann on July 27, 2011, 07:35:58 PM
Just realzed it but was bra shopping today and didn't even feel nervous.
It just seemed normal.
Wow!
This is making my day.
:)
That is great. I was still nervous when I went bra shopping last weekend, but I figure it's just a matter of time.
I used to get so nervous when doing any shopping out in public-especially when I started looking for bras. Now not so much-it's just something else to do.
I wore my bra all day at work today and nobody said anything. I had to go into my manager's office to pick up some work she wanted me to finish and she never said a word. If she thought that I looked out of place or in the least unprofessional, believe me she would have closed the door and we would have had a meeting about it right then and there so yeah-progress. I seem to be making one small step after the other and I am very happy about that.
I have come to terms with being transgendered, polyamerous, and that my relationship will survive both. I'm going to go write a song! Probably to a country beat...
@Zoe: We do too have cardinals, you can go to the zoo and see some in the city, but to see them in nature; I've only ever seen them on the western slope, and up by Mount Evans.
Remembering my adventures in bra shopping :laugh:
The closest mall with a Victoria's Secret is about a 30-45 min. drive... My car is kinda old so I only drive it around town on occasion... So if someone is going to the city I'll catch a ride and split the gas with them
Well, it took a few times of going in, nervously looking around and walking out and I was just about to walk out again when a really nice voice said...
VS Gal - Can I help you honey?
Me *Tripping over my tongue and sputtering to speak* - Abda ba da brabdi uh
VS Gal - Oh, well what size bra do you wear?
Me - I'm not really quite sure
VS Gal - Oh, well we can get you sized up... Have a seat in there
She was totally sweet and genuine and put me right at ease :) And of coarse my credit card will never forgive me for going there :laugh:
Sarah,
Wow! Good for you girl you go.
Plucking the first ripe tomato from my plant a few min.s ago :)
I got to get out of the house and see other humans!
Yesterday I recieved from my childrens mother 11 video tapes from 1998 to 2001 (I think is the last one). She is going to see if she can find more.
She hasn't seen these tapes yet, they are on the old Hi-8 cartridges. The only player I ever heard of is the camera itself. But, it can be hooked up to tv with those RCA connectors or s-video. They haven't been looked at possibly from when they were made or shortly after. I think it was in 2002 that the camera stopped working. I got a working one at a garage sale a few months back. So I told the mom to find the tapes please. I want to digitize them in the worst way, I want them on Blueray, several copies (My computers DVD player apparantly can record in Blueray)
The earliest is of my girls being 1-3 years of age. They brought back such instant memories, my mind is now flooding with images of the past that I couldn't remember.
I just got a HP Pavilion Elite. the tapes are anolog. Is there a way of downloading them? The computer has the same RCA and s-video in right on the front. I plug them in, turned on the camera, hit play and the computer didn't do anything but stare back. HELP? Anyone? I can't seem to find anything. It's running windows 7 premium(?) 64-bit. It has 8 gigs of memory and I have hard drives that are over terabytes, so..... Any help would be so kind!
I Got To Watch Old Lost Videos of My Children!!!!! :) :) :)
Ativan
Quote from: Sarah7 on July 27, 2011, 09:53:23 PM
I went full-time today. Also, I have an awesome new haircut.
That is great news!
After a CPU crash on our big computer, I managed to get Quicken installed on the
paperweight laptop and restored all of our backed up data.
All of the things I've read so far the one that makes me insanely jealous is this;
Quote from: V M on July 27, 2011, 10:17:24 PM
Plucking the first ripe tomato from my plant a few min.s ago :)
I'm just starting to get blossoms! This spring has been less than ideal.
Okay, okay happy....
The mortgage assistance program my wife and I applied to has finally accepted us and our mortgage should be paid for the next year.
Beautiful drive out through western Sonoma County and a cookout at the beach.
Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery,
None but ourselves can free our minds
Before you diagnose yourself with depression or low self-esteem, be sure that you are NOT, in fact, surrounded by >-bleeped-<s. - William Gibson
I have learned and am very lucky to have the people I do, in my life and living conditions. Hell, I took the Harley Springer out to see my daughter yesterday. Two times I had to fill up at the pumps. Hell, if this isn't living some kind of fantasy life, I don't know.
Sonoma Beach with a fire going. Sounds like a slice of heaven for you!
Ativan
Quote from: Hannah_Irene on July 27, 2011, 11:13:17 PM
All of the things I've read so far the one that makes me insanely jealous is this;
Plucking the first ripe tomato from my plant a few min.s ago :)
I'm just starting to get blossoms! This spring has been less than ideal.
Okay, okay happy....
The mortgage assistance program my wife and I applied to has finally accepted us and our mortgage should be paid for the next year.
I cheated a bit >:-) Because we haven't had much of anything you could call spring where I'm at and I had to have surgery on my shoulder, rather than get my usual 2 or 3 small plants, I spent a bit more and got one fairly matured greenhouse plant that already had blooms on it... The thing I like most about it is there's allot less plant, but several more toms developing
Congrats on getting your mortgage handled :)
Quote from: Sarah7 on July 27, 2011, 09:53:23 PMI went full-time today. Also, I have an awesome new haircut.
:eusa_clap: :icon_dance: :icon_tenisclap:
Quote from: V M on July 27, 2011, 09:29:00 PMMe *Tripping over my tongue and sputtering to speak* - Abda ba da brabdi uh
Wah, a fellow speaker of Awkwardese! Ralyluv dyur stree! (Really loved your story!)
Topic:
I've decided to take a year out of my university course after coming out about being transgendered. It was a tough decision and one that I'm still a little upset over, but my next year is a year abroad in Japan, and I don't really feel ready for that in light of current events. Today I was chatting on Facebook with a wonderful friend I knew last year. He was a year above me, and because of the way our respective exchanges worked out, we were bound not to see each other again for three years. Said situation has now changed because of my decision. And while I was talking about how much I'll miss university over the coming year, he just came out with, "But you know, I'm so happy you'll be around when I get back. Maybe that's a bit selfish, but yeah!"
Sometimes people are just so lovely. :)
I'm jealous you get to go to Japan, I've always wanted to go but I haven't taken Japanese classes since high school.
Quote from: Sarah7 on July 27, 2011, 09:53:23 PM
I went full-time today. Also, I have an awesome new haircut.
Awesome!! ;D You must come back to this thread often and post your experiences!
Today is nothing but happy. I just finished applying for a federal job that I'm perfect for (talk about a long application process!) and now I'm off for a bit of shopping. Later, we're going to an Irish pub to celebrate my grandpa's 93rd birthday. Tomorrow is a cleaning/packing day and then we go back home on Saturday.
I just got out of my last class as an undergrad. ;D
I'm watching a ten yr old video of a house we finished while we lived in it, and the start of our new store.
But most importantly, my beautiful daughters. This video has been in storage for the last ten yrs, and it's finally found and being watched
Nothing in the world makes me as happy as my daughters!!!
The Rain coming down yeaaaa for our farmers no more drought
Wore my bra all day again and wore my hair down toward my face-I am very happy today.
Also this-my wife got a job offer again from an old employer who wants what she can do for the company-I had to tell her it's her way out of all this if she wants it. At least she has the option to do exactly what she wants to do-and make lots of money doing it!
Before you say it-I'm crazy to let this girl slip away without a fight-we've had so many of those lately that we both need the rest solitude would give us. It really would be good for us both. We both count our blessings-one by one.
I got my school schedule today. First semester: easy classes. Art, English... Spanish (XD okay, not easy, but fun!), and web design... I didn't want the web design, I wanted home ec... but having Spanish, Art, and English first semester is great! ^_^ And my best friend's homeschooling ends this year, hopefully he has second lunch with me.
And I got a completely adorable new shirt. (Have to exchange it tomorrow, but ohwell. X3) ♥ It's a v-neck, but awesomely, my binder doesn't show. ;D
Nine pieces of clothing for $40 = I love Plato's Closet! ;D
Oh yeah, then I found that Shoe Carnival carries almost everything in my size and there's one in Denver. I'm in trouble...
Oh yeah, and then celebrating grandpa's 93rd birthday by taking him to this Irish pub that he loves, where I had a fantastic meal washed down with a chocolate martini.
Oh yeah, it was a great day... ;)
My urologist called and set up a pre-surgery appointment for me.
I am back on a consistant hormone regimine and
for the first time, in a long time, I feel like I'm gonna make it.
"I can see clearly now, the rain is gone,
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It's gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day."
My cold is slowly going. I now only cough myself stupid once an hour. :laugh:
Cindy
Going home tomorrow!! I'll miss my grandpa, but I'm anxious to get back to my friends, my pretty little apartment, and the desert climate. Humidity is destroying me... :laugh:
Also can't wait to get back to a real internet connection that doesn't require my phone or a dank coffee house!
??Chocolate martinis at an Irish pub?? Whatever happened to a pint of ale? I guess either way would be great with someone that you love!!! Wish I could see my grandpa again.
Cleared the air-it was difficult but needed doing-I feel somewhat better. I still have a long way to go but she knows that I want to be female more than anything. 'the truth shall set you free'
Randi
Having a hard time wording this but here I goes.
Went out for the normal Saturday shopping trip with my wife, anti-trans wife that is. :(
But I am different than I was a couple of months ago.
Instead of wearing a sports bra that holds the girls, breast, in I now have on a everyday cotton bra and they show.
Instead of hunching forward I have my shoulders back and standing straight.
Instead of just walking like a native American (toes pointed straight ahead) I am walk with a little sway in my hips.
Instead of having shoulder length hairhanging down it is know in a cute little pony tail.
Instead of being treated like a man or whatever I am being treated like a women. The waitresses at the restaurants don't know who to give the bill too and never say sir.
My wife seem not to notice the change but has stopped trying to correct everyone when they say ladies or ma'am. (outing me).
This is wonderful.
:)
I spent most of the day with a friend from high school, a woman I've known since 1984. We had much to catch up on and she was amazingly helpful to me. We pretty much talked, laughed, and cried all day together.
I hadn't seen my cat in 2 days and when I finally saw him, first he meowed for food, but then after his food he kept meowing because he missed me :D :D
yep he has, why?
Today was filled with death, of memeories best forgotten, I cut myself on purpose and watched the blood flow with the knowledge it would clot before being fatal. I took tens times as many of one of my meds in the hope that I don't wake up tomorrow.
There wasn't a single thing to be happy for, as pathetic as that may seem to be. I'm happy that I don't want for anything, anymore.
Ativan,
Don't do anything silly. While there is life there is hope. You have friends, sisters and brothers here to talk to. You can always pm me if you need someone to talk to.
Hugs and Love
Cindy
I had my eyebrows shaped again. Walked into the salon and was immediately greeted with Hi Cindy, How are you.
Geez made me feel good.
Had a nice chat, brows are looking very feminine, might get them tinted next time as well.
Cindy
ohh no, he is an indoor cat, I hadnt seen him for two days because I had to go to my parents house so I could walk to work. it wast actually two days, more like 30 hours, but yeah lol. he was home waiting for me. hes quite clingy.
What made me happy today??
Well about a week and a half ago me and my SO went to the store and she and I went there to get some Bra's, I got the one I wanted and she got hers. It turnes out that after I tried on mine and found it so nice and cumfy I told my SO to try it on that I think she would like it, she did try it on and she did like it, so I gave it to her, i said you take it, i will get another one and the happy part is that it has become her favorite bra :)
Aloha.
Jennie
Summer Slaughter, 10 metal bands, doors and first band at 3, done by 11, started on time, by the time the headliner hit the stage we were 10 minutes ahead of schedule.
What made you happy today?
I don't understand this, and google translator don't want help me
(sarcasm)
Quote from: tekla on July 31, 2011, 06:46:35 AM
Summer Slaughter, 10 metal bands, doors and first band at 3, done by 11, started on time, by the time the headliner hit the stage we were 10 minutes ahead of schedule.
Considering how late everyone else is, being on time is so f'n metal!! ;D
It's only 8:45 AM, but I have so many reasons to be happy... I woke up in my own bed today, which means
I'm home!!!!! That vacation was wearing me down. Good to see my grandpa, but I could have done without almost everything else.
Got into early registration for Pottermore ;D
Then woke up at 9 AM on my own
and now we can move into the new house because the old tenants finally moved out!
Today is a good day :)
I find most are on time, but to actually gain time over the course of 9 bands in 7 hours - to gain time, that's just me.
My power went back on and then I got some messages from several friends, old and new. ;D
That made me very happy!
Jennifer
Everyone assumed I was going to lead in salsa today.
it was a couple days ago now, but going to see the Dropkick Murpheys and the Tossers and getting my oi on made me pretty freaking happy.
Singing in the shower :laugh:
I confirmed with my mother-in-law today I was on HRT. she wasnt surprised. And I didnt care about telling her. Just taking back control of my life a step at a time!
I got called "she" on the phone.
The caller was helping the end-user. As the caller quoted my instructions to the end-user, the caller kept saying "she says."
I'm not out at work and I answered the phone with my birth name, David. I have been practicing my femme voice to the point where it's reflexive to use it. So the caller either misheard my name or forgot that I said "David."
So, I can pass over the phone.
Gender clinic appointment in January. GENDER CLINIC APPOINTMENT IN JANUARY. GENDER. CLINIC. APPOINTMENT. IN. JANUARY. :D
I suppose I could be upset, as had my doctor referred me to the correct clinic to begin with I might well have been on HRT by now. But the poor lady offered me all the support in the world despite my being her first transgender patient ever, and I'd be heartless to hold one silly slip up against her. With any luck, the next stage of my journey shall begin in 2012. Hopefully my twenty-six year old body won't be too disagreeable. :D
...wait... "2012"... But that's when the world... OH NO! :( ;)
Quote from: Da Monkey on July 28, 2011, 01:06:53 PM
I'm jealous you get to go to Japan, I've always wanted to go but I haven't taken Japanese classes since high school.
If you're interested in going one day, you should keep studying the language on your own! :D It's not nearly as scary as some people say. I was already pretty competent at reading it before I started formally studying it, and I'm not especially gifted with languages. If I can teach myself, I'm sure you can too!
Quote from: valeriedances on August 01, 2011, 04:02:34 PM
My new love interest is returning from China today. We havent met in person yet but we will be meeting next weekend on a first date. I'm so excited... and nervous at the same time, eek!
I really enjoy a great love story, please keep us posted.
Jennifer
I had a good meeting with my nurse practitioner and she was very sympathetic to what I want to do.
I started HRT. It was at 2:30p.m MST, and now I'm in the best mood I've been in for a long time! I pranced!
QuoteI started HRT.
Wow JulyaOrina!
That is great.
Congratulations.
I just did my own T shot injection on myself on my own :D
which is amazing since i fear needles, i don't know how i managed to do it, but it's awesome i did!
oh, and i got sir'd at the store today :3
This will take a bit of explaining but going to get boxes made me happy.
My brother had been hunting around online for people giving away moving boxes for me. We had a family outing with my parents to go get them, and my mother was fussing over everything being right for me moving back in with them. It was an "I love my family" moment.
Finally got my book in the mail (Michio Kaku's "Hyperspace", awwyeah), got my contract figured out with my mom, and she said she likes my psuedonym. Wishes I'd keep our actual last name, but she said she likes it. And is getting so much better about calling me her kid, as opposed to her daughter. And calling me Nick.
I love it. I love my mom.
I also realized that I have a gift certificate for getting my hair cut. No more pseudo-mullet for this broke person. :)
Huge congratulations, Julya! ;D
Today, I'm extraordinarily happy to have found a 36A bra that, to my shock and amazement, I completely fill! :o I'm a 36 band size and somewhat less than an A cup. The Miraculous bra I got at Victoria's Secret fits me marginally well but with lots of room up top where breast tissue would be pushed up (I guess I don't have much to push). A cheap bra I bought at TJ Maxx doesn't fit me at all... I barely fill half of it with how it's shaped.
But then I went into Victoria's Secret today expecting to find nothing, and there was this cute black, pink, and white polka dotted bra that I tried on and filled top to bottom, left to right! I was so flush with excitement that I bought it instantly. ;D It not only feels good, but looks totally amazing.
Sat on the hour flight from Hobart to Melbourne next to a woman who filled me in on all the good restaurants and shops in the suburb I am moving to, and didn't get the slightest indication that I didn't pass less than 100%. :)
Karen.
That's awesome, Karen! ;D I hope you got some good tips on some truly good places...
I'm sitting here right now watching a massive rainstorm. Lots of lightning and rolling thunder all around, and the mountains have been swallowed up by clouds. I can post a picture later when I get home, but for now I'm just going to enjoy the view from my mom's living room. :)
EDIT: here's that picture. There should be mountains on the horizon like there are on the right side of the pic, but the storm was so massive it covered them up. ;)
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.theforestatnight.com%2Fsusans%2FStorms.jpg&hash=44a925bc49e9c50816a5e2c8c899e9c6fb261f1a)
My therapist told me she would write my hormones letter and will contact my nurse tomorrow so I will hear something about whether or not I will get my prescription from her soon.
Quote from: Randi on August 03, 2011, 07:24:51 PM
My therapist told me she would write my hormones letter and will contact my nurse tomorrow so I will hear something about whether or not I will get my prescription from her soon.
So cool. 8) YAY for Randi!
Jennifer
I finally broke my caffeine addiction! ;D For the first time in over a year, I had no caffeine today. No headaches either.
Had my hair cut and recoloured today. I spent a while at the salon and had long a conversation with a woman who knew me during the start of my transition. Again just totally normal conversation catching up on things that left me feeling fantastic.
I spent a while talking to the hairdresser about the details of transition as she was genuinely interested. Wished me well in my relocation and return to study which was nice. Nice to have a trans ally in a town that has a few homo/transphobes in it. Maybe it will help others in the future.
Also built a nest box for the parrots( Eastern Rosellas) that I had to prevent nesting in the roof, prior to putting my house on the market. I'll put it in a tree tomorrow and see if they are interested.
Karen.
PS, great photo Zoe, farm looks lush, hope they have a good season.
Quotecute black, pink, and white polka dotted bra that I tried on and filled top to bottom, left to right!
So, happy for you Zoe! there is nothing better than something that fits perfectly!
zoe thats funny that you mention this cause thats been my experience with bras as well. When I find a good one that fits right i buy a few of them.
What made me happy today was probably my antidepressant kicking in lol! No but seriously I think that life made me happy today. Things have been going so well lately and I am preparing to embark on a new chapter of my life. In two weeks I will be moving to a more liberal community for pharmacy school and I have an apt and job lined up already! I just hope that maybe, just maybe, I'll meet someone special to share life with.
I went to the County Fair last night. It was gang night. To be fair, every night at the Sonoma County Fair is gang night. We had a beer and a bowl before we left. It's a five minute ride over there on the back of my brothers GoldWing, so we had another beer and another bowl hanging out by the motorcycle before we went in, and once we got in we got a beer and sat down and had a bowl sitting in the grandstands (Sonoma Country has the best pot laws, none) My brother made me ride two rides. One was a pseudo-hang glider deal where you lay on your stomach and it goes around and around, up and down. The other was a 'mad mouse' style roller-coaster, set up by carnies for that extra thrill. I almost puked twice. My brother took a picture of me staggering off. Then I had funnel cakes with Bavarian cream filling (not really) and chocolate sauce (Hersey's Syrup) while we watched the gang-bangers roll in. Cause it was gang night at the fair. But every night is gang night at the fair.
The best part was the hall of flowers, which is a big deal in Sonoma. Huge. Like the Luther Burbank gardens are only a few blocks away. But they were real nice and pretty. No gangs in the hall of flowers either. Odd. And I like the livestock and the craft hall. And that was pretty gang-free too. But then we went back on the Midway and that had full gang going down. 'Cause it was gang night at the fair. Though, pretty much, every night is gang night at the fair.
I just came out to a coworker who is also a former high school classmate of mine. It went very well indeed.
I also just found out that there are more books by Alex Sanchez, Julie Anne Peters, and David Levithan that I want to read.
Quote from: Audrey on August 04, 2011, 08:39:33 AM
zoe thats funny that you mention this cause thats been my experience with bras as well. When I find a good one that fits right i buy a few of them.
Oh yeah!! I have now four or five of the same one too that I've bought over the period of a year because it just fits so well so I ended up buying another whenever I saw they had a discount on it. Different colours though! And glad that it's not one of those seasonal ones that they don't produce again after a while...
I'm happy today because I seem to be consistently exceeding my daily energy deficit targets on my diet :) I hope it continues and that I won't give up on it!
Small thing happened today to leave me feeling a little happier. I got to work and before I even clocked in the day just shot downhill. Just one of those days.
But about half way through my shift on the cash register I had who I'm almost positive were two transguys. And I'm pretty sure they figured me out. I briefly locked eyes with one of them with that quick acknowledgement of familiarity. Good to know the family ties are strong in the trans community. I feels great. Don't even have to say a word and we instantly understand each other.
I've been feeling pretty crappy about work because of it. Being stealth and pre-HRT isn't easy. I got "she'd" by a mother through her hole transaction as she talked to her kids, saying "Just wait, SHE has to ring it through, let HER finish, SHE'S almost done." Not to mention, I played up my voice a bit deeper so she'd realize I'm not a "she" and she suddenly gave me a really pissed off attitude. I know it happens, I know it's normal and I have to accept it but it just put me in a really bad spot until those two guys came in.
I just got my school supplies today, and I've been talking with a girl that's just starting at my school. She had to change schools because people were harassing her about having a kid. That kid's my cousin, and I have nothing but respect for this chick. We're both shy as hell, so that'll be fun -- but it's nice to have made a new friend. ;D
I came out to my brother, finally. He was....oddly happy. :laugh:
Quote from: Sage on August 05, 2011, 06:50:43 PM
I came out to my brother, finally. He was....oddly happy. :laugh:
Well that's a great reaction ^_^
Congratulations hun. I hope the next one is just as good.
Quote from: Sage on August 05, 2011, 06:50:43 PM
I came out to my brother, finally. He was....oddly happy. :laugh:
HUGE congratulations to you! :icon_hug: What an awesome step!
So today I got to see my in-town aunt and uncle for the first time since coming out and it was awkward. Not bad, just strange. My parents and I stopped by her house to pick up my aunt from Connecticut who's in town for the next few days, and she's such a peach. ;D This whole transition thing doesn't phase her one bit! And I'm happy as a lark because she's always been my favorite aunt.
What else? My nipples are exploding with pain and that gives me somersaults of joy. ;D Grow, darlings, grow!
Also, I got such a huge outpouring of love and support here on these forums in the last 24 hours. Words can't even express how much I love you all and how happy you've made me. :icon_love: I hope I can repay even half the joy that this community has given me today.
Quote from: Laura91 on August 06, 2011, 01:45:17 PM
Be sure to sprinkle some Miracle-Grow on them. :D
Hmmm... I wonder if that has a shelf life? I haven't bought a new bottle of that since my corkscrew crotons died. :laugh:
That's great Zoë and Sage.
My wife let me paint her toenails and suggested that I paint mine to match.
:)
I going to do them in her color as soon get off the computer.
Our 29th Wedding Anniversary today.
My wife is in a nursing home as she is disabled, but I took her out for a pizza.
Cindy
That was sweet Cindy, Happy Anniversary. Not to many marriages last that long without GID thrown into the mix. She is a truly special lady.
Drove down to the coast and spent a couple of hours talking to Mum. Apart from the usual memory lapses she seemed to be accepting my transition more. It's good that I have had a chance to relate to her as a daughter as well as a son.
Karen.
To the three ladies above me - that's wonderful! It's great to hear about such acceptance from loved ones.
The day's only half over, but today my dad called and we actually had a good conversation. No lecturing me on everything I need to do, about how I need to get my life together, and best of all, nothing about my gender. I told him there might be a letter arriving to his house under "the other name" (Ryan) because for some reason, my bank thought it would be a good idea to mail my new debit card there instead of the address I just gave them :/ And he gave no comment on it other than, "okay, I'll send it to you."
Last time my mail was mistakenly sent to him under Ryan he said he'd tear the next one up :/
Also, I called into work to see if they needed me to come in, and the cute girl I've been noticing answered the phone. It was just a ten-second conversation, but it definitely means I'll have a good day when I go in today. :D
I slept SIXTEEN hours last night... I don't remember ever having slept that much continuously before :)
Keep us posted on how you go Ryan. ;)
I got to have a lie in this morning, with a coffee, and watch the rain. Didn't have to be anywhere, early. Country people have a thing about rain I guess.
Pity I didn't get 16 hours, Applepie, but 8 was just fine.
Karen.
I bought my first dress today! It's just a simple white lounging dress with spaghetti straps and elastic around the bodice and it goes all the way to my toes- I LOVE IT and it actually looks good on me! 8)
Randi
A truck brought a rubbish skip this morning, so I can really get stuck into cleaning the place out and packing for my move. National De-Hoarding Day is declared!
Sounds lovely, Randi.
Karen.
That's great Randi.
One of my managers called me Potter. She thinks I look like Harry Potter, and everytime she sees me she mentions something about it, like a week ago when she said "see, hes cute, LIKE HARRY POTTER!"
also, I was doing my job in the shoes department, and found a fugly Ed Hardy bananna hammick mens thong, turned it to the service desk and my associate asked me
her-"you SURE this isnt yours (wink) you didnt take it off over there?"
me- "haha no, not mine"
her- "I'm sure you want it though, right?"
me- "oh totally, save it for me"
her- "oh ok, I will put it on hold (wink)"
My computer teacher called me "he" the entire block. No one corrected her. One person shot me a triumphant glance. IT FELT SO AWESOME.
And:
My baby cousin's mom just started at my school, and she's super-nice ;D
Her mom read my facebook, and calls me Christopher -- so does the girl, she's so awesome. And she suggested we have a date sometime, called me cute, and complimented my smile. (And, uh, my underwear, due to nobody telling me we had company... XD)
I'm so confused, a girl has never done that to me without freaking out once they figure out I'm trans. She knew to begin with! And still is super sweet. ♥ I'm so amazed. And I love having a friend like her.
Quote from: Lucas Bann on August 08, 2011, 10:14:48 PM
I did my barn chores tonight wearing one layer. It was too damn hot for a shirt so I just took it off and wore my binder. One. It was a beautiful thing. Never worn one layer before. I kept staring at my shadow; I looked like a guy with no shirt on. ;D
It's funny, the difference in perception. I look at my topless shadow on the bathroom wall and think "Oh, boobies!" :laugh:
Today's joy was brought to me by three simple words: MEXICAN JUMPING BEANS!! I never held them before today, and they really tickle. ;D
From Saturday: laying on a lounge soaking up the sun, watching my cat chase grasshoppers, thinking to myself, "can life get better than this?"
Quote from: Sarah7 on August 08, 2011, 11:00:37 PM
As of today my legal name is Sarah.
Congratulations!! ;D
A trip up Pike's Peak on the Cog Railway.....With family, plus a sister I haven't seen in 15 years! Elevation: 14,110 ft MSL.
Joelene
Joelene hat sounds like fun.
Congratulations Sarah.
Went out shopping and found the soft cotton everday bra I have been looking for.
And got two of them. Ya ;D
Also two different store clerks called my honey even after I used his (my male name) credit card.
And in this part of the country (USA) only women call other women honey in public. :)
Quote from: Jillieann on August 09, 2011, 08:06:08 PM
And in this part of the country (USA) only women call other women honey in public. :)
That's great!
I got a new bike, a Biria Citibike, and it's far more comfortable than my old Iron Horse mountain bike.
Also, my breast buds hurt. I first noticed yesterday. This makes me happy because it suggests to me that the physical changes of HRT are beginning.
QuoteAlso, my breast buds hurt.
That is great Shades O'Grey.
I have a love hate relationships with breast pain. :o ;D
I love it because that means they are developing.
And I hate it because often it hurts when anything touching including clothing.
Oh and they sometime itch too.
I went to a Hepatitis and Aids council office where I can go and talk to people for support. When I was talking to one of the guys who I hadn't met before, he said that when he walked into the waiting room to meet me that I looked like someone that was half way through transition. If it weren't for the manly work clothes I was wearing, he could have been more convinced if I was wearing more feminine clothes and with the benefits of what hormones could bring and that made me happy.
Also makes me happy to read this thread of other's happy feeling's :angel:
Well, it was actually late yesterday when I heard of this, but...
My son told me that an MtF came into the store where he works. From his description, I think she goes to the UU church I go to irregularly. He said that the other staff in the store seemed uncomfortable and didn't want to approach her. My son went straight to her and said, "Can I help you, ma'am?"
He said she seemed taken aback slightly at being addressed so formally and sincerely. But with an MtF for a dad, I guess it shouldn't surprise me that my son treats transpeople like people.
It made me happy nonetheless.
I came out to my immediate supervisor at work. He said, "Well, we have a job to do, as long as that is getting done, that's all that matters. But, if anyone purposefully and maliciously is derogatory towards you let me know immediately and we'll take care of them!"
Now I just need to get the details and information together to make focused presentations during sensitivity training for the entirety of the building, and create a detailed protocol for the rest of the company!
I started Spiro yesterday. That was enough to make me happy, but while doing the physical exam the doctor said I had really nice breasts already (I was on HRT a little over 10 years ago and DIY a couple times after that). It was actually like "Wow! You have really nice breasts!" or something like that.
Yeah it was yesterday, but I'm still happy about it today. :)
I had a great lunch with my dad and brother and then went for a hike. My knee and hands are now full of dirt/gravel/etc from where I wiped out, but overall it's been a good day.
Had my third electrolysis session today and the electrologist told me she'd only need another one or two hours to get my first full clear! ;D I wasn't very hairy in the first place. Even better, nothing she cleared from our first session has come back, and that was nearly five months ago.
I love my electrologist! ;D
EDIT: And she made me promise never to let a surgeon go near my face. I told her that at this point, that was kind of the plan.
Another meal out and the waitress addressed my wife and me as ladies.
Wearing gender netrual clothing. Yea ;D
Well...this song always cheers me up :)
Written In The Stars - Lyrics (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9GR9-2CNwH0#)
My daughter came home from Uni for the first time since I started transition, and seemed to accept that I am still the same parent, just look a bit different. Made me feel really good, all warm and fuzzy.
Karen.
The sun just came out on my day off......Bikini time!
Had a good workout, been doing it every few days at least lately, and biking to work. I feel great, and even though nothing's changed yet, every time I look in the mirror right after a workout I see myself leaner even though before my workout I look like a fat slob. ^.^ It feels great knowing my self-image rests solely in my own actions.
Tried out this new workout DVD today, me and Julie had fun flailing around and it did feel good to actually work out again.
Also shipped out my first order from Etsy XD
Quote from: Jennifer on August 13, 2011, 08:00:37 AM
The sun just came out on my day off......Bikini time!
Gonna hit the beach?
Went to have lunch today and didn't get a single weird stare.
I'm looking at the mirror and seeing a girl.
I think I have great things in the few next months waiting for me
Heating up nice here today - but not too hot. So pool and bikes today, beach tomorrow.
Realizing I actually have a tan for the first time in about eight years. It's cool I have a tan, but cooler still is all that having a tan represents, namely me being outside. I'm sooo glad to be out of the dark ages.
I had Dinner today with some PFLAG members, one of which is trans and works at the same place I do.
It's nice finally not being alone ^_^
Quote from: Jen on August 14, 2011, 10:02:56 PM
Realizing I actually have a tan for the first time in about eight years. It's cool I have a tan, but cooler still is all that having a tan represents, namely me being outside. I'm sooo glad to be out of the dark ages.
Yay sunshine!!! ;D I'm glad you're out in it while it's still here.
Today I found out about a job listing for a university financial aid advisor that I'm perfectly qualified for and would put me in the money. Tomorrow morning I'm working hard on revamping my resume to emphasize my financial-world credentials (I used to do payroll and royalty tax law), then I'm sending it to someone who's going to check the resume to see if it will look good to the recruiter (she knows the recruiter). My friend is also going to put in a good word for me with the recruiter.
Could I have a job soon?! ;) Keeping everything crossed!
Being able to do something without getting hit with a power outage :laugh: Hope the power co. has remedied the problem :P
Had a day off, didnt wake up to an alarm clock (my favorite part), and was told by my friend that everyone at work has only been reffering to me as michael and male pronouns, even when im not there, which really made my day :)
I cleaned the windows and fly screens. I can see stuff in the garden again :o
Cindy
This really cute guy moved right next door...mmmmm
Grabbed a woman's collar just before a car went through a red light which would have hit her full on.
Cindy
Made a new friend - we are crazily similar and make each other laugh a lot. But she's way hotter than me (for the moment... 8))
My Doctor called me today with the results of my blood test and he asked what Pharmacy I wanted him to call in my HRT perscription to. Looks like I start HRT on Thursday :)
Aloha.
Jennie
Quote from: Jennie on August 16, 2011, 04:38:18 AM
My Doctor called me today with the results of my blood test and he asked what Pharmacy I wanted him to call in my HRT perscription to. Looks like I start HRT on Thursday :)
Aloha.
Jennie
LUCKY!!!!!!
There were still cold beers left in the bottom of the cooler.
Scheduling three interviews for jobs in one day, after going all summer since the last one. Be even happier if one of these actually hires me!
I had a great night out celebrating a friend's birthday. She introduced me as Lee too.
This will make you all cringe.
I managed to get one of my staff promoted.
Made my day
Cindy
Quote from: Cindy James on August 17, 2011, 03:58:22 AM
This will make you all cringe.
I managed to get one of my staff promoted.
Made my day
Cindy
when cindy is happy i am happy :)
is everybody happy ????????
Hugs.
I understand.
How is Mom?
How are you?
I don't think as many people know you as well as they should?
I cannot skype for some reason but I can Yahoo or Gmail message.
Quote from: Cindy James on August 17, 2011, 03:58:22 AM
This will make you all cringe.
I managed to get one of my staff promoted.
Made my day
Cindy
*cringes*
Quote from: Cindy James on August 17, 2011, 06:22:32 AM
Hugs.
I understand.
How is Mom?
How are you?
I don't think as many people know you as well as they should?
I cannot skype for some reason but I can Yahoo or Gmail message.
Mom is well and well people might not like me that much considering i have to hand bathe with a small tub and wash clothes YIKES
My grand daughter is getting used to me. Gennee
One more hour of electrolysis done, less than an hour left until my first full face clear! ;D Current electrolysis time: 3 hours, 40 minutes.
A book I put on hold at the library came in and is ready for me to go get it. And, the new bike that I managed to mess up less than a week after buying it has been fixed. So, after work I'll take the bus downtown to the library, then walk to the bike shop, then ride home.
I told someone I met recently (who rocks) that I think she's gorgeous - she told me she thinks I am too. What happens next? Who cares, it's just nice to tell and be told :D.
I've been hunting for the book The Perks of Being a Wallflower for at least two years. I just found it in the high school library :D I love it!
Getting called 'Mam' repeatedly at Wal Mart. It always makes me smile.
Mmmm, double strength Pina Colada's at a manager's outing at work!
Spending a wonderful day with my hubby.
Finding my friends Cindi Jones and Steph back on at Susan's.
Oh my! you are married now Steph, that is great.
Quote from: Jillieann on August 17, 2011, 11:01:00 PM
Finding my friends Cindi Jones and Steph back on at Susan's.
Oh my! you are married now Steph, that is great.
Yep June 25th, 2011 :)
Congratulations Steph!
Couldn't have happened to a nicer girl. :)
Im totally in love with this hot guy in my neighborhood!
A pretty decent radio dramatisation of the first year of Pepys diary.
Quote from: xxJuliaxx on August 18, 2011, 12:10:16 AM
Im totally in love with this hot guy in my neighborhood!
Me too!!! :)
Jai guru deva om, nothing's gonna change my world...
Quote from: Laura91 on August 18, 2011, 12:11:38 AM
A GUY?? ewwww!!
Does he have a cute sister? :D ;)
Yea, but shes 9...
Umm...my veterinary medical terminology book is actually really fun to read outside of mandatory study time. :laugh:
I had a lovely shopping trip with my mum today. I think she's starting to come around to the idea of having a daughter. :) She's been supportive in a vague way since the very beginning, but the more time we spend together doing girly stuff, and the more she sees how comfortable and happy I am doing it, the more her conduct toward me has subtly begun to change. Of course it's only been something like seven months, and it will be a long time yet before she can look at me and not see some part of the son she raised, but... For the first time in my life, I feel as if my mother is looking at me and starting to see the real me. And it's wonderful.
Also, today she went out of her way to defend me from a stranger. I went into the dressing room to try on a pair of jeans, and the man in the store pointed out that they were women's jeans. My mum's response? "Yes, I know. Your point being?" The guy got embarrassed and excused himself. My mum didn't know that I overheard, and she never mentioned it to me, but I was happy I heard it. The guy wasn't particularly hostile, and was probably just trying to be helpful, but knowing that my mum doesn't just tolerate my gender issues but openly argues them as valid makes me so happy that I don't even know where to begin describing it. ^_^
Quote from: Eleanor on August 18, 2011, 08:00:47 PM
I had a lovely shopping trip with my mum today. Of course it's only been something like seven months, and it will be a long time yet before she can look at me and not see some part of the son she raised, but... For the first time in my life, I feel as if my mother is looking at me and starting to see the real me. And it's wonderful.
This makes me very happy for you. ;D I can't describe how awesome this is.
What made me happy today? No class today. It was a pleasant surprise.~~ :laugh:
My wife and I were visiting her mother (who doesn't know) and we went out to lunch.
I was in male mode no makeup, tight sport bra to help hide my girls and hair tied back.
The waitress "ladies" us twice and the hostess ma'am' me twice.
I think my body is starting to outing me. ;D
My friend who is caring for my dog while im gone posted a photo of him protecting the house...from his reflection :)
The stars. I love laying in the grass staring at them. Feeling small.
haha, playing Gears with my roommate into the wee hours ... until the xbox stopped working.
Not a big gamer but I think I'm getting hooked.
they finally got the hot tub up above 95 degrees.
Finishing cleaning out the house so I can move myself and dog to our new place. Apart from bogging the hired van in the back yard due to the torrential rain here last week, things have gone great.
And, for Friday, having a great time at a send-off dinner for a staff member where I used to work,who is joining the Police Force. Got to thank everyone for being so accepting and supportive during my transition to date.
Karen.
I'm happy that I made it home at 2:30 AM after a bleary one-hour drive. Maybe it's time for me to start carrying my bite guard in my purse just in case I need to spend the night somewhere else. :-\
Last night I had a bike ride through town with all the streets closed off followed by going out with two gorgeous and fun girls in tiny black dresses and a night in a really fancy hotel. This was made even better by the fact that everyone was calling me Lee all night. :)
I drove next to the, "Hefner1" limo, went to Ikea on a date with my wife, saw an old friend (who is accepting; when he found out he said: Lucy, you have some 'splainin' to do...) for the first time as myself, and started making a playlist!
Quote from: JulyaOrina on August 21, 2011, 12:11:30 PM
I drove next to the, "Hefner1" limo
A lot of people have been seeing that around here lately! I drove next to it a few weeks back around 16th and California, again out by Park Meadows the following week, and two people have texted me that they saw it in other parts of the city.
What's going on here? ;D
I think one of his kids goes to CU Boulder. I used to see it around campus a lot.
Took my wife to a special care dentist. He was totally awesome in how he treated her when she cannot move, even to lift her head off her chest.
Cindy
Well, it was yesterday but by the time I got home I just didn't feel like starting the computer.
I had an absolutely wonderful Sunday, including brunch with friends from church. After brunch, one of these friends invited me to her place with her daughter to watch movies and just hang out. This friend and her (genderqueer) husband are the folks for whom my daughter had worked as a part-time live-in babysitter for part of her senior year in high school. My friend's daughter knows that I am the father of her favorite babysitter, and this child completely welcomes me as Connie, as do her parents. I could not stop smiling on the bus on my way home.
Was yesterday too...
Went to a workshop titled 'Demystifying the Transgender Experience' hosted by Samuel Laurie.
Was very informative and was good to meet some other girls who I hadn't met before as well as some healthcare workers / psychologists who wanted to learn and get trained for dealing with transgender patients / clients.
When I was leaving with another girl at the end, everyone said 'Bye ladies', so that made my day :)
A Make over via my sister
I had my ears pierced today.
Quote from: Randi on August 23, 2011, 12:10:51 PM
I had my ears pierced today.
Yay for you! That is a great feeling isn't it?
Jennifer
Quote from: Cindy James on August 22, 2011, 01:44:15 AM
Took my wife to a special care dentist. He was totally awesome in how he treated her when she cannot move, even to lift her head off her chest.
Cindy
Its so wonderful how you care for your wife. that made my day today. ;)
Plus i did buy a antique oak dresser for $30.00 and all it needed were two rollers wheels and i had bought a whole box of them a while back for 9.00 to fix old furniture.
Quote from: Jennifer on August 23, 2011, 07:54:48 PM
Yay for you! That is a great feeling isn't it?
Jennifer
Nah, it kinda hurt when I peirced mine.
I was able to talk with my mom about my issues without feeling uncomfortable at all :). Love you, mom!
Oh, and I also went for a really long and adventurous walk. I'll lose that weight in no time!
Quote from: Randi on August 23, 2011, 12:10:51 PM
I had my ears pierced today.
Congrats Randi ;D
Hugs
- Virginia
I like the kids being back in school so the adults can have the pool all day to ourselves.
Seeing my friends, even if our time together started with one of them calling me up for a ride home from work because his car was dead in the parking lot.
Breakfast with my dad and grandmother
New trail running shoes
Seeing a rattle snake when trying out the shoes
A great concert (The Weepies :) ) with some friends and watching the stars come out as the night went on
Plans changing so that I didn't end up cutting bricks all day
Weepies played the Fillmore the other night, heard it was very good, I did Ben Harper, who was also very good.
Got to see my boyfriend today ♥
I only get to see the guy once a month, what with school and us living so far apart. (Plus, his dad says he can't go anywhere alone for dates until he's 16, even if his date is driving. So it'll be the summer after I graduate, when I'm 18, before we can have "actual grown-up dates" where no parents are involved in pick-ups and tab-paying.)
Only sucky part was my dad ended up visiting and was sitting on the stairs with my sister as soon as his dad dropped us off. He kept texting me that my dad was a major cockblock. XD
For the most part, it was fantastic, though.
Today as well as last night.
Met a whole bunch of friendly people, and had a great day at the local Jazz festival.
Settling into my new town nicely. Might have even met a lady who is interested in me, but then my Gaydar is pretty undeveloped. Either way am on the way to making a new group of friends.
Karen.
My wife.
She seems to be accepting me (Jillieann) more and more.
Tonight I am wearing a tight tee over my bra and my hair down and over my ears.
Otherwise looking like the women I am.
She is treating me as well if not better than normal. (This is the women who said she would not support me and never wanted to see that women.)
I'm dreaming. But please don't pinch me. I don't want to wake up.
;D
I had some friends over a few days ago, and they were saying how weird it is to hear my parents call me Kimberly. I mentioned that to my parents, and my mother said that I'll always be Kimberly to her, which made me sad until she added "Unless you hate it, then we'll talk." So maybe the name change thing won't go as badly as I've been expecting.
Also I forgot to add that the woman in the shoe store only pulled out men's shoes for me because she thought they'd fit better. :)
Looking at the calender revealed that between Labor Day and vacation time, I won't be working a full week in September, and I've got a 1/3 of the month off!
Finally getting a proper (if cheap) computer desk rather than having the monitor and keyboard on a ricketty, about-to-collapse-at-any-second card table.
A storm off New Zealand has created epic waves on the Cali coast, it's going to be clear and in the 70s there today, and I've got ribs for the BBQ.
A MAKE OVER FROM MY SISTER!!!!
I just discovered the biggest buttload of cool music I've found in ages. My brain needed this newness!
Got a fresh haircut, my new binder came in the mail, and my sister referred to me as her "big brother". ;D
Bought a gorgeous skirt
Listened to the Y2K Gas Turbine motorcycle at the Hobart Bike Expo. :o Sounded fabulous, but didn't make the hairs on the back of my neck stand up like being next to a Rolls Royce Merlin. :o x2
Karen.
Helped a few folks sort out some difficult problems in their lives :) One of the issues was very sad and there really was no happy to be had by anyone :'( But I was glad to be able to provide some comfort to a friend
I froze some corn from the garden and canned some more salsa.
Painful day today but one thing did make me happy, 1500 less whiskers on my face.
One of my neighbors was about to toss some nice house plant trimmings in the bin, so I asked if I could have them... She gave me an odd look and said sure :laugh: Well, it's a type of plant I like and is fairly easy to root and the trimmings were just right for starts
So I trimmed up the starts and put them in a planter ;D Oh, and my iguana loves to eat the leaves I trimmed off :laugh:
I canned 11 pints of sweet pepper pickles, the most in one run in a long time. My next door neighbor had a Mexican birthday party and they gave me a plate with a corn and Mexican chicken bouillon rice mixture, a corn-jalapeño-ham-macaroni salad, and a warm shrimp-avocado-tomato-cilantro main dish. A piece of cake and a small bag of piñata goodies. That was nice.
Joelene
After trying on two bras at Charlotte Russe and three at Victoria's Secret, I can officially declare that my size has changed. From a 38A in mid-April to a comfortable 34B now. :icon_yikes:
I bought a new letter box, a big sandstone thing, the guys who got it into my van asked if my boyfriend was at home to unload it.
Cindy :o
I'm off in a few hours to bike up to a back country hut for the night. It'll be nice to get somewhere cooler.
Well, The parking lot of my apt.s was resurfaced earlier this week so the sprinkler system was shut off, but they forgot to turn the sprinkler system back on
The lady whom I help about the place and I became concerned, she has a key to the closet, but didn't understand the system so I took a look at it (having experience with such systems) It was fairly easy so I turned the system on :laugh: Hopefully it starts at the proper time indicated
Guess who everyone goes to when there's a problem? No wonder I don't get much sleep :laugh:
I was able to help somebody which is always a good feeling for me.
I presented myself en femme to my parents for the first time today. While they both said it'll take some getting used to, they both hugged me goodbye.
Finally got bed frames ans a mattress delivered, so I don't have to sleep on a mattress on the floor, and guests won't have to sleep on the floor itself. :)
Also appear to have recovered from a nasty GID attack that floored me for most of yesterday. ;D
Karen
I was called "young man" by three of the most manly military men I've ever seen, also got a volunteer job at the animal shelter.
All weekend 2 of my young grandchildren played games and went to the park together, hugged me and set in on my lap.
Also my wife told me that I looked like my younger sister. :)
(Not today, but within the last 24 hours)
I work at a place where we have to clean the washrooms every half an hour, and usually everyone comes to me to clean the women's. I'm not out at work yet.
Last night I asked two of my managers and a few other staff to stop asking me to check the women's washroom because it makes me very uncomfortable (I've had elderly women ask me if they're in the right washroom while I was in there cleaning).
Everyone just said okay and left it at that. No questions asked. =]
EDIT: my phone autocorrected "check" to something else...
Managing to score a free consult with a counsellor experienced in gender issues at the local GLBTI support group regarding my fears of being unable to find a female partner comfortable with a transwoman.
As I believed all self generated catastrophising from my own mind.
Karen.
My soon-to-be-ex-wife kissed my cheek and said, "Happy birthday." It was the first time she kissed me in months.
Just had my first "full clear in one hour" electrolysis session! There is light at the end of the tunnel. ;D My electrologist wants to cut back to 45 minutes next week because of how good it's looking.
That's awesome, Miss Zoë. ;D
Out of the worst thing that could've happen to me, the best thing may be blossoming. I think I'm in love, and with a really awesome girl.~ :D
My friend gave me his old copy of borderlands and Halo 3 ODST
Getting a birthday card in the mail from my daughter who's away at college, and seeing the name Connie on the envelope.
Also, a great astrophysics discussion with my son about the class 1A supernova from a white dwarf star. I'd thought that white dwarfs weren't massive enough to go supernova, but I knew the conversation would be fascinating and exciting as my son is an astronomy major.
passing to a bio guy that is my age. :) he completely believed without a doubt, that i was 100% male. and that completely made my day.
Go Todd!
Waking up and realising that my ex now has no psychological hold over me. We are divorced and as I am now living in Tasmania, I have effectively "gone overseas" (okay, it's still a state ) in a replay of her meeting her partner OS.
I wrote a letter, which I had no intention of sending, but when I read it to my therapist she said it was beautiful, and I really should post it. I explained all I had been through over the years and how I am now a different and much happier person.
It gave me a sense of closure.
Karen.
You people.
I was flat and so lonely.
I'll try to pay your kindness back.
Cindy
I have no doubt you will return the favour somewhere down the track Cindy. Main thing is you are smiling again.
Karen.
Catching up with a friend for a chat and a hot chocolate..
My brother stopped by to drop off the rest of the books in this series I've been reading and to put a wireless card in my comp. I now have internet in my own room. :) We then found a gigantic tub of legos and played with them while watching the movie Up. Yeah, we're both like 7 at heart.
It also sounds like I may have a job interview next week. Keep your fingers crossed for me.
Edit: Ends up he set http://zombo.com/ (http://zombo.com/) as my homepage. ::)
Been working on upgrading my current computer rather than buying a new one and I got some music software ;D
It was really frustrating on Thursday though, I was really tired but had to get up for an appointment, then the computer place I bought a memory stick(RAM) gave me one that didn't work with my computer and registering the software for the music stuff was a real bitch >:( You have to go to one site and do stuff, then another site to do more stuff, then enter a code on another :P Plus the instructions were kinda vague
It took forever and a day and I still have to register the hardware to validate the warranty... Never dealt with such a goofy product registration process :P
I went back to the computer store Friday and exchanged for the right memory stick no problem :) But then when I fired up the machine, Microsoft comes on and tells me that my copy of Windows could not be validated... What?!?!?! I didn't know what to do, they were threatening to shut me down :o Then I remembered that I still have the original Microsoft Windows disk... So I put the disk in my DVD ROM drive and restarted my computer... No more issue :)
Anyway, I'm happy now
After cortisone injections my wife can move her fingers of her right arm. She managed to hold a fork, and we managed to eat a sausage roll as a combo.
Small victories.
Cindy
At least you didn't force her to eat a "pie floater"! >:-) does anyone except tourists actually try one? ( For those foreigners who are wondering what the hell I am on, it's an Adelaide invention. A meat pie floating in a bowl of a watery pea soup. Bit like Andoulettes in France, sounds interesting but you really don't want to go there!
Great news Sis, glad she had a bit of relief, and a partial return to normalcy. happy :'(
Karen.
There was a write up in the food pages in the Advertiser of the best Pie Floaters. Seemingly several place now serve them as gourmet food.
Originally (?) there was a cart outside Adelaide Railway station that sold them. Food for the p'd before they got on the train. It became an institution. One o'clock in the morning full of booze and eat one , a meat pie up side down in mushy peas with tomato sauce (ketchup) on top. Food of the Goddess. Guaranteed to stop the hangover.
I'll let your minds run riot :laugh: :laugh: :laugh:
Cindy
"I'll let your minds run riot :laugh: :laugh: :laugh:" :icon_yikes:
I got distracted by your bright shiny post Cindy. :laugh:
Sitting here chilling with a glass of White Shiraz, and thinking that I might just be able to catch up with a gorgeous woman who has caught my eye; and imagination; at a local blues venue tomorrow night. I get the impression I might have made a bit of an impression too.
Friends have suggested going, it's a set-up, but I would have anyway. Keeping my fingers crossed, but not getting my hopes up unrealistically that she will be there.
Karen.
Oh good fishing Sis, :-*
I'm make up away from going out for dinner.
Cindy
Well, it was actually last night, but I was at my favorite cafe in Redwood City when I heard someone call out, "Connie!" It was a woman I'd met there at "gay night" a few weeks back. She gave me a tight warm embrace and we bonded for a short time over our newfound outness: she as a lesbian me as a transwoman about to go full time. Yeah, the details are different, but much of what we're feeling and experiencing seems quite similar.
Second day in a row while in male mode out to lunch from work.
I was called a lady yesterday and ma'am today.
I'm loving it. ;D
When Dad told me that he would try to help me find a therapist, even though he meant that I had to move home if I wanted his help/funding. But it was a nice thing for him to say. =]
Tonight... I simply feel exquisite. :)
That's great Zoe :icon_bunch: :icon_joy:
I went out for dinner last night, and two woman asked me to join them for after dinner drinks and a chat.
It was very nice and friendly.
I feel great as well
Cindy
I guess this goes along with the maturity level of my last post on here, but anyways...
I'm getting together with a friend later today to go get some coloring books and test out her new crayons.
Catching up with new friends at the "New Sydney" Hotel and listening to the awesome Billy Whitten and the Hepcats. Brilliant Blues and Jazz trio. 8)
Also managing to give my phone number to a gorgeous woman who seems interested in me. Hoping to catch up for drinks, chat and whatever during the week. :)
Karen.
The sermon at church was preached by both the senior pastor and a visiting Rabbi. The themes were about the spark of light and goodness and worth in all of us and thee courage we show in our daily lives. It spoke so much to me, that I had to thank both pastor and Rabbi.
Then, outside the church not longer afterward, I heard my name, "Connie!" shouted in a voice of excitement and happiness. A high school senior whose family welcomed me so completely at Easter came right up to me, gave me a great big hug and said, "It's so good to see you. It's been so long." It made me so happy to be so welcomed by her and her brother as they told me about the start of senior year and their college hopes.
I just feel so loved.
I have hot legs! Well, that was the assessment of the guys screaming at me from their car in any case. They certainly weren't talking about my mom. Or my stepdad. Or my oldest cousin, Mike, who I just saw this evening for the first time since transition.
Um, yeah... :icon_redface:
I dressed up as my true self at home today. Other than my PJs I havent done that in a week or more.
Felecia
Quote from: Zoë Natasha on September 11, 2011, 11:29:19 PM
I have hot legs! Well, that was the assessment of the guys screaming at me from their car in any case. They certainly weren't talking about my mom. Or my stepdad. Or my oldest cousin, Mike, who I just saw this evening for the first time since transition.
Um, yeah... :icon_redface:
Dah de Dah - when do we see these cute pins that have driven testosterone driven sex crazed guys to drool and fantasize over the gorgeous Zoe?
Hugs nice one
Cindy
Quote from: Felecia on September 12, 2011, 03:19:31 AM
I dressed up as my true self at home today. Other than my PJs I havent done that in a week or more.
Felecia
Bet that was a nice feeling, have you managed to go out as yet? It is a big step but it feels really good.
Take your time though.
Cindy
My son wrecked my pickup truck but is ok. The truck however is another story.
i planted 100 strawberry plants today. yeaa They are under black plastic with a soaker hose running down the center of each row. I can't wait till next spring now yummy tons of my own strawberries. They get expensive around here. The amish grow them and this brand is very sweet and rich not like the giant plump ones in stores.
Today after I posted a cute antic made by our youngest on facebook, my father-in-law (a tough as nails, truck-diving, Marine, red-neck, that has been having a hard time in how to approach this situation) replied with, "He must take after his mother(s)".
If anyone needs me, I'll be floating for awhile..!
The last couple of weeks have been...not so good. But I think maybe I'm starting to get unstuck. Starting is better than nothing.
As so you may know, I came out to my parents last week. Today my dad Facebooked my new account (I made it when I chose my name) and he asked me why I didn't choose the name that him and my mom were going to call me had I been born physically male. I told him I didn't want to be named after a city (that's a running joke in our family).
His response was this: "What would you like me to call you?"
Dad accepts me! (or is making a HUGE effort to!)
Yay! ;D
I got a call to set up a job interview for tomorrow. Keep your fingers crossed for me. :)
We had a family party last night, and I joked with a little girl to not tell on me when I hit a ball onto the roof. She immediately ran off to tell my mother, and her dad laughed and told me that she loves to tattle on the boys. I've known him since I was fairly young and am not out to him, so it made me pretty happy.
The sun is out and it is a lovely day.
Having a guy with a truck give me a ride half the way home from the store when my bicycle got a flat tire :) I must have looked pathetic walking my bicycle in the rain with heavy stuff from the grocery store :laugh:
Went to my endo today to get my prescription refilled. I was wearing a tight shirt, and she looked at me and said "you're growing breasts!"
Totally guilty, and it feels great when someone notices. :D :D :D
Dad accepts me! (or is making a HUGE effort to!)
Best Dad EVER !!!
I got a call to set up a job interview for tomorrow. Keep your fingers crossed for me.
Good luck man, hope it goes okay
woke up: God loves me: found a box of Goldfish in the cupboard I didn't know was there (love when that happens )
I dressed up like a girl for a job interview, and my friend was joking about me trying to feel pretty. We both agreed that my attempt ends up at about this level, which made me feel a lot better about the whole thing. Thank goodness for friends.
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Also, I found out that the guy I'd be working for is hot as hell and about 4 inches shorter than me. Now I really hope I get the job. :)
Edit: Something else to add. I went to an open house for an LGBT square dance group and really enjoyed it. The people seem amazing, and there was no issue with names/bathrooms/etc. I think there are a few other trans guys around my age in the group, which is nice. I also won three free months of beginner lessons. ^-^
Seeing Jack for the second time and giving him a kiss on the cheek when he dropped me off after dinner.
Having my first facial. Very relaxing experience, almost fell asleep while my face was being massaged. :)
Karen.
Got called Ma'am at work by some truck driver who was looking for our shipping office. Now I feel like I'm getting somewhere again. It's one thing to hear it from people you work with because they know all about you. It's so much sweeter when a total stranger does it. :D
I just got my blood test results and my T level is 37, PSA 0.6, Blood count, kidney, liver function all ok! The four year old prostate cancer scare is over! He said to come back in 6 months.
Joelene
Laundry, sunny day, temp in the pool is perfect, sitting in the sun during the spin cycle.
Quote from: Joelene9 on September 14, 2011, 04:49:10 PM
I just got my blood test results and my T level is 37, PSA 0.6, Blood count, kidney, liver function all ok! The four year old prostate cancer scare is over! He said to come back in 6 months.
Joelene
Congratulations ;)
Oh yeahh, I totally have a girlfriend and we're hanging out this weekend!~ ;D *happy dance*
This song :3
Nowhere Road - Copperline Hills (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7iu80J8PMQo#)
Great concert at a local Arts Centre. Six bass players , both guitar and double bass. Started off with a solo from each, modern jazz/fusion, then ended with a sextet. Two Double bass and four guitar. Some of the top players in town. Brilliant show.
Karen.
I was rubbing my kitty's nose and she reached up with her cute little paw and rubbed mine. It was such a sweet moment. ^-^ She's my little baby. <3
After panicking about something being wrong with my Siberian Husky's eye, I took him to the vet. Not only was his eye better by the time we got there, but my gf helped me find a few ways to keep him occupied in my tiny car (I drive a VW Beetle) AND his whole appointment plus getting his shots updated cost me less than $90.
Excellent. =]
The fact that it's Friday and that I'm going to spend the whole weekend with my loved ones!
Looking at plaster casts of 400 vaginas on The Great Wall of Vagina (http://www.greatwallofvagina.co.uk/home) - one day, I'll be up there :).
My daughter is home from college for the weekend. She mentioned to her roommate that I'm on HRT and my RLE has started and the roommate said, "Wow, she's gotta have balls to do that." :D
Lost 4 pounds.
A great therapy session, lifted a huge weight off.
Delicious dinner with awesome company.
A gift of matching panties for Hallowen.
A fun ride home.
Smiling until my face hurts and smiling some more. ;D
First time I went to the gym in full girl mode. No one missed a beat, well I don't think they did but I hope I got checked out by a few of the cute guys.
It's raining and I'm the only one up so far so technically, I have the house to myself. :P
Met my best friend today. :)
Quote from: Logan Bann on September 17, 2011, 04:00:10 PM
I'm pet-sitting for a friend; she has dogs, cats, birds, chickens, and a couple of sheep. Two of the sheep are absolutely ancient, as in older than I am, and I had to give them some grain by hand. And I got them to come up to me! They're starting to trust me. ;D
It's the best feeling in the world when you get animals trust, its like they can sense your a good person.
I'm getting drunk as we speak. Or rather, as I type.
Since you don't know, I can't drink very often. I always have to work the next day. Even though I have to work tomorrow, it's not until eleven. Sweet. Also, it's like once every 1-4 months that I get to drink. I'm kinda turning into a lightweight though.
I think I'm pretty good at typing when I'm drinking. =\ opinions? :P
Also I'm making KD for my girlfriend's nephew. =| scary!
Got my eyebrows shaped and tinted. They are high and arched look really cute.
I got asked by a really cute guy and checked out by the guys sitting in the HOOTERS patio. But otherwise, saving my money and not spending it.
Finding out that my two best female friends are going to marry. :D
Karen.
Getting to work and having the sick realization that I left half of my uniform at home...
And then finding it in my locker! :)
My sisters home from collage, and she brought girls!!!!
Found out when I went to the store to get new shoes today that me feet have shrink almost a full size.
I was a size 11 woman's and now I'm a 10. ;D
This is also my fourthy wedding anniversary and we I am still in love with her.
Oh yes it is my birthday too, but we won't get into that. And don't ask. ;)
Quote from: Jillieann on September 18, 2011, 09:31:06 PM
Found out when I went to the store to get new shoes today that me feet have shrink almost a full size.
I was a size 11 woman's and now I'm a 10. ;D
This is also my fourthy wedding anniversary and we I am still in love with her.
Oh yes it is my brithday too, but we won't get into that. And don't ask. ;)
Happy birthday!!!
MY eye strain is a lot better and I was able to read for hours.
I saw Jack again today.
I told him that I don't like secrets and/or game playing.
I told him what to expect, if we continued dating and he told me,
"You are a beautiful and intelligent woman. I don't care what you have for riggin'."
My dear brother the Southern Baptist returned my email of the results of my Dr's visit and CC'ed everyone on the list and said that "You're on the right path, brother"! I made it clear on the onset to my family and friends that the pronouns and the gender tenses were not important to me. To me this is my brother's way of saying I love you and it is a warming of our relationship. One of my sisters on the coming out letter said that she didn't care if I did turn into a woman, as long that I was healthy and happy. And I assured her and the other family members that I would still be their brother, nephew and uncle no matter what!
Joelene
Having fish and chips for lunch down at the wharf with my best friend, watching the boats.
He bought lunch and before he showed up, this other guy asked me out.
To my son and his wife out for there anniversary right after work in guy mode.
Was called miss.
But that's not the best went home and looked in the mirror and all I could see was a women.
I had dinner with an old friend from high school and her boyfriend to celebrate starting my RLE.
Homemade chili.
A three-mile lakeside walk on a beautiful afternoon during sunset.
Errr this picture
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Not being upset that the woman I dated last week doesn't want to be any more than friends. I really need to be with someone who has sorted their issues and is out as a Lesbian or at least Bi.
Karen.
Today it was simply being me.. :)
Waking up after a horrible trans-related nightmare to remember that I ordered my first packer last night. =]
I woke up, not feeling that I hate myself as much this morning.
Put my pants on.
Went into the closet, grabbed a white shirt that I've been hesitant to wear because it's slightly more form fitting and, well, white and I fear I'm more likely to show though but I need to laundry and am out of shirts.
Put the shirt on, walked over to the floor length mirror, looked down, buttoned the bottom two buttons and....
I looked up AND SAW ME!
As is Jess.
There was still a male there, but I actually saw myself showing though!
I didn't think that would have ever have happened!
I froze, I couldn't believe it, my mind was racing, completely disbelieving.
I actually raised my hand and had to touch my face, then I turned my head and kept looking.
I started to cry.
I was CLEARLY there! I mean, there was still a TON of male, but something about something. I don't know, but I actually saw me in my face!
;D
jabberwocky.
And Mahsha the Shark's answer, this big shark intoning 'homemade chilli'.
I got to visit my favorite cafe today and wish the owner a happy birthday.
An old farmer didn't spray his apples trees this yr so he said i could have as much as a wanted. I am glad they are not sprayed. They are safer now. I cleaned and cooked and canned 14 quarts today. Yeaa
Boyfriend and I made love for 3+ hours, then he washed my hair. Now I am off to zee bank and I wish we had some decent beaches around here cuz today is most definitely a beach day.
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Sub going to the beach for watching eps of Beverly Hills 90210
SEASON 3 PREMIER OF GLEE!!!
Being referred to as an Amazon :laugh: Not sure if it was a compliment or not, but I'll take it
VM
Being called an Amazon is usually a compliment. Amazons are she-warriors - females who command. In modern parlance the term has come to mean: poised, bodacious, somewhat intimidating and sexually captivating.
So enjoy the complement.
Today?
I guess the fact that, so far, every exhale has been followed by an inhale.
Thank Goddess for Prozac.
Quote from: Pica Pica on September 20, 2011, 03:31:28 PM
And Mahsha the Shark's answer, this big shark intoning 'homemade chilli'.
I prefer lil' shark. It's more ironic. :)
I'm off to the beach today, will be a rare one with temps in the 80s. Then I have Zappa Plays Zappa opening for Return to Forever, then Dream Theater, and then the Folsom Street Fair assuming I'm not whipped by then.
I got to spend the day with my mother. I don't get to see her much since she lives three states away.
AND
Reading the latest posts here about all the happy and positive thoughts people are having today. I like this thread!
Cindi
I had a great conversation with the seminary interns at my church regarding salvation as a goal versus salvation as a process. We agreed it was more of a process.
Quote from: Cindi Jones on September 21, 2011, 03:49:39 PM
Reading the latest posts here about all the happy and positive thoughts people are having today. I like this thread!
I second this. It's good to see happy people.
I just finished making 8 quarts of apple butter.. very very smooth unlike applesauce..
oh 7 quarts are canned and 1 just filled which will go into frig and be used asap since my canner only fits 7 quarts :)
The book I ordered a week ago ("I Am J", which is about an FTM in New York) came in really early today. It wasn't supposed to be here for another 2-3 weeks.
Also I found out that my packer was shipped today and so was the copy of Glee (the complete second season) that I ordered for my gf. I wonder which one will get here first!!
Quote from: Jasper on September 21, 2011, 11:28:50 PM
I wonder which one will get here first!!
Sounds like you'll be getting glee with either one. :)
It's getting cool enough to live in hoodies 24/7. :)
Stopping in at the Tasmanian Devil Park at Taranna, where they are trying to maintain a population free of the contagious cancer that is threatening their existence elsewhere. Thay are actually quite cute!
Karen.
Quote from: Lee on September 22, 2011, 01:42:04 AM
It's getting cool enough to live in hoodies 24/7. :)
It's getting warm enough to not need my jacket :laugh:
Having a nice man from Centrelink call me Ms and Ma'am, even though the name on my records is far from female..
Quote from: kelly_aus on September 22, 2011, 04:02:34 AM
Having a nice man from Centrelink call me Ms and Ma'am, even though the name on my records is far from female..
Finding a nice person in Centrelink is enough to make most peoples day :laugh:
Cindy
Finding a NORMAL person in CentreLink is a bloody miracle!
Quote from: justmeinoz on September 22, 2011, 05:47:41 AM
Finding a NORMAL person in CentreLink is a bloody miracle!
Imagine my delight and joy when I came across one that was both normal and nice?
I woke up and saw fog. It's not going to be so hot today.
I woke up to find my cat sleeping on me. I think she just likes the blanket I was using, though...
A university teacher, who knows I am trans, keeps opening doors for me :)
My housemates' company, my housemate's cooking, Arthur Guinness, Ian Dury, the postal service, Tom Brown,
I picked free pears and made 7 quarts of pear butter.. yummy.. Then i washed myself as i do once a week with bowls and clothes and washed my mom.. we don't have plumbing here so we use water i haul in from the well.. Its great to get clean.. :)
Pear butter? That sounds awesome.
Julie bought me a massive box full of oil paints, linseed oil and the like at the Salval today.
Cost her 99 cents. 99 freaking cents for at least 200$ worth of oil paints, brushes and other stuff. I was friggin ecstatic.
And I might be getting an easel soon through a trade with a friend. She wants one of the purses I made, doesn't have the money, and has a brand new easel.
I just found out that the announcement of my transition was made at work and 3 coworkers have been in contact with me. It's all been very positive.
I was at a one day conference dressed as a guy and a woman I hadn't seen for ages didn't recognise me, and then when I reintroduced myself. She got embarrassed and said so sorry I though you were a woman. :laugh: I wasn't in the least embarrassed :laugh:
Cindy
Nice one Cindy!
Seeing my best friend off at the airport as she is going to the US to study her artform for a month. She has been looking forward to it. See also "What made you unhappy today?"
Having my work interupted by my customers.
My cat kept interrupting me while I was doing pushups by running under me. It was cute. :)
Picturing a cat thinkinking Lee doing push ups triggering a door closing ideal and having to run through
I just got home from my favorite cafe where I heard two great local bands (Saint Valentinez, the Electables) playing.
Found a recipe for a coconut and raspberry cake that I'm going to ice and put a friends name on for her birthday. It will knock her sox off if it works :laugh:
Nothing specific at the moment, I just am.
I had a wonderful night out, in an intimate gathering with Donna Rose! She is such a wonderful person, and very inspirational! Completely worth the four hours of sleep!
When my dad drove almost four hours to bring me a part for my car. He brought me the part I needed and a spare, then showed me how to fix it. I took him for a test drive after where he asked me if he should start calling me Jasper.
Also he bought my guitar from me and I no longer owe him money for previous car fixings.
Freaking sweet!! ~ ;D
Reading about Coconut-Raspberry birthday cake and Jasper's day with his Dad, among others.
First of all, it was my birthday. :)
Second of all...
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Nicely deflecting a m, "I don't mean to be rude.." type question from a slightly tipsy woman in the pub tonight.
"Yeah, I know I look and sound a bit masculine. It's a hormonal problem. I don't really care, I'm a lesbian anyway. You aren't are you, cos you're hot?"
>:-)
Yankees tickets, right behind home plate, they destroyed the rays(happened on wednesday but im still happy)
Being with my mum.
That I came out to my two best friends and, after being taken off-gaurd, were perfectly accepting! Yeay! :D
Shes even will to help me look better and give pointers! :)
While having a crappy day at work, I happened to glance out at the lobby while cleaning up someone else's mistake (and being super cranky about it :P ). Walking toward me was my beautiful and amazing girlfriend. :) she brought me my wallet that I had forgotten at home. I even got to talk to her for about five minutes without getting in trouble! ;D
Quote from: _Jess_ on September 25, 2011, 04:51:54 PM
That I came out to my two best friends and, after being taken off-gaurd, were perfectly accepting! Yeay! :D
Shes even will to help me look better and give pointers! :)
A great success story always makes me happy. But how could you possibly look even better? :)
Jennifer
Quote from: Jennifer on September 25, 2011, 07:10:59 PM
A great success story always makes me happy. But how could you possibly look even better? :)
Jennifer
:P Easily, hun. :)
Wear eyeliner tonight at home.
A customer at work. She was thin, about my height, wore some eye make up and men's clothes, and her head was shaved neatly to about 3mm. She was absolutely beautiful and she had a great sense of humour. She made my day.
Had a great time at the Folsom Street Fair, it's nice to be normal.
Story, and slide show (and yes, these are public streets)
http://www.sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi?f=/c/a/2011/09/25/BACG1L9B6Q.DTL (http://www.sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi?f=/c/a/2011/09/25/BACG1L9B6Q.DTL)
It really is hard to know what to say, or type, after that...... :-\
For the first time actually feeling comfortable with being a quite masculine woman;including having, temporarily, male genitalia; and truely not really being bothered by it , or caring how others see me . I feel like I have passed another milestone on the way to true self-acceptance.
Karen.
Quote from: tekla on September 26, 2011, 02:35:50 AM
Had a great time at the Folsom Street Fair, it's nice to be normal.
Story, and slide show (and yes, these are public streets)
http://www.sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi?f=/c/a/2011/09/25/BACG1L9B6Q.DTL (http://www.sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi?f=/c/a/2011/09/25/BACG1L9B6Q.DTL)
We should have that in Brighton.
Today I was happy because of the Ink Spots, I read some of my book to myself and it was good and because a lady flirted with me at the supermarket.
She was Dorothy and the Wicked Witch all at once
Which makes sense, because it's a lot like being lost in Oz here.
I set up a new bank account today, and the account rep asked if a note should be put on the account stating that my preferred name is "Connie" even though my legal name is still "David."
Waking up and not feeling like warmed over death :) I think/hope I'm getting over this nasty cold
Getting flowers and a big hug from the other Connie at work today, my first day at work after starting my RLE.
I canned some more pears and apples i picked for free from a local farmers trees who was letting them waste away..
i remember as a kid picking fruit from neighbors trees then all of a sudden people started growing ornimental trees and bushes and kids and people lost connection to picking fruit for free..
oh well i am glad i do not live in the city or suburbs anymore..
Had some nice girl talk with one of my best friends. :)
Having an old friend who had previously disowned me, call me up and apologise for the horrid things he said..
Quote from: kelly_aus on September 27, 2011, 08:25:04 PM
Having an old friend who had previously disowned me, call me up and apologise for the horrid things he said..
That is absolutely wonderful!
So I went to meet my new doctor. I wrote on my registration form that Ièm female but prefer male pronouns. I went in today and she treated me like any guy which was cool. Then she asked about any family medical issues like cancer, including prostate cancer. This I brushed off, aid I wasn;t sure. Then when she said she wanted bloodwork done I asked if thy could check my hormone levels. She gave me a quizzical look and I said I'm thinking of going on hormones. An even more confused look followed. I clarified "testsoterone" and realized she legit thought I was a guy. Like, genetic male. Then she told me she needed to do some research about transgender patients and that we could talk about it on my next appointment after I have my bloodwork done...
All in all, it made me happy. I'll finally know my T level compared to my E level, my new doctor is as nice as my old one, and she's willing to learn about new issues she isn't experienced with.
>-bleeped-<ty news is I have to have that dreaded PAP.
I sat down on the bus while doing homework, completely oblivious to my surroundings... When I put my homework away, and took a look around; I realized that I had naturally positioned myself in the exact same manner as the GG sitting next to me. Confirmation: +1
Quote from: kelly_aus on September 27, 2011, 08:25:04 PMHaving an old friend who had previously disowned me, call me up and apologise for the horrid things he said..
Quote from: Shades O'Grey on September 27, 2011, 08:26:18 PMThat is absolutely wonderful!
I often yearn for the comradery I had with more than a couple people who I
at one time, considered good friends/family.
That would be pretty close to Nirvana, for this old broad.
What made me happy today?
:eusa_think:
Making my land-lady/friend and myself laugh to tears.
And Jack called me today.
The fact that my T level is about as low as it can go, and I am on a fairly low dose of E only. :)
And myv first night school French class was fun.
Karen.
I was at work and it was extremely busy (Tuesday is our busiest night). A while ago I asked everyone to stop getting me to check/clean the women's washrooms. The reason I gave the managers was that because I kinda look like a guy it can confuse the customers. >:-) But the other supervisors all know I'm trans and are really supportive of me.
At work, one of the guys was working who I'm not entirely sure is all that supportive of me. He came over to me at work when it was busy. I was helping his girlfriend (all of us are supervisors) who is extremely supportive of me through all of this (she hugged me when I told her) and I thought he was going to ask me to do it, but he actually asked me to get one of the girls to do it instead.
That was a huge step, I think. ;D YAY!
EDIT: I ended up having to do it anyway, but it was the thought that counts, right?
Warmth, food, beer, good day at work, dry laundry and general great stuff.
Having my packer and season 2 of Glee come in at the same time. ;D
Today the employee directory was updated with my real name as opposed to my legal name, and the picture was updated, too!
That's really cool, Shades. ;D
I think I passed my Veterinary Terminology Quiz today. :P I studied my butt off for it.
Righteous, Shades o' Grey, Sage, Jasper and all :icon_rockon:
Jack invited me over for a Night Cap :icon_walk:
But, I was already in my jammies. :icon_blink:
I told him I would come over tomorrow.
Waking up this morning and feeling like I love my body, imperfect though it is.
Buying condoms for the fun of it. Neither my girlfriend or I need them for anything.
It was fun. ^-^
Quote from: Jasper on September 30, 2011, 09:22:13 PM
Buying condoms for the fun of it. Neither my girlfriend or I need them for anything.
It was fun. ^-^
They make great water balloons >:-)
Making plans to go see the trees tomorrow with some friends and possibly camping/hiking with them next weekend, my internet fixed itself, and my brother stopped by bringing me a chocolate muffin.
Edit: I also realized I'm down about 10lbs from two months ago. Makes me almost wish I hadn't eaten the muffin. :P
My Carhart catalog came in the mail today.
I was introduced as "My granddaughter" by my grandpa.
Went out shopping! :)
Got ma'med!
Never got the feeling anyone saw me as other than genetic!
Had chit-chat at the checkout!
Was commented on how cute my outfit is AND and necklace!
Guys smiled at me!
:D
YEAY! YEAY! YEAY!
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Thought I'd post how I looked and what I wore. :)
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Oh Jess,
I'm not in the least bit surprised. You are a gorgeous woman. Love the outfit. Cute top, very cute shoes, and a smile to die for.
Well done and big hugs
Cindy
Quote from: Cindy James on October 02, 2011, 01:41:25 AM
Oh Jess,
I'm not in the least bit surprised. You are a gorgeous woman. Love the outfit. Cute top, very cute shoes, and a smile to die for.
Well done and big hugs
Cindy
Thanks so much! It did end up being quite a cute outfit wasnt it. Oh, and I love those heels, incredibly comfy too! :D
Dont know about my smile though... It is a lot easier to smile now and comes much more naturally now that I know who I am.
ugh... and not gorgeous... :/
But still, THANK YOU so much! :D
Oh, see? Proof I was shopping. hehe I was kinda giddy after the complements and the chat at the store. :)
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Sweetie,
You are a very good looking woman. You had better get used to it :laugh: :laugh: :laugh: 'cos next time the guys won't be chatting they will be asking begging for a date.
And that smile is in the car as well. Cute as cute.
I'm so happy for you.
:icon_flower: :icon_hug: :icon_hug:
Cindy
After being depressed for most of the day, actually weekend, it's good to read the posts on here and lift my spirits a bit
Hugs Beni
You Ok Hon
Thinking about you. You are in my web, the cindy james web, so sleep and be at peace.
Hugs
Cindy
Finally having all the family that matters in the know and supportive.. :)
1. reading all the posts above. And Jess, you look fantastic. Want to go out? :laugh:
2. Getting some great shots of Hobart, and the snow at the summit, from the top of Mt Wellington.
Quote from: Cindy James on October 02, 2011, 02:24:23 AM
Sweetie,
You are a very good looking woman. You had better get used to it :laugh: :laugh: :laugh: 'cos next time the guys won't be chatting they will be asking begging for a date.
And that smile is in the car as well. Cute as cute.
Hehehe.
I would mind being hit on at all! Talk about acceptance and passing! :D --one problem... nuky males. :P
As for the car shot... yea. Had to document. I was so giddy and glowing from some 20 year old girl telling me how cute my outfit was! I couldnt contain myself. :D
Quote from: justmeinoz on October 02, 2011, 06:51:47 AM
1. reading all the posts above. And Jess, you look fantastic. Want to go out? :laugh:
2. Getting some great shots of Hobart, and the snow at the summit, from the top of Mt Wellington.
Thanks hun. Its funny, I crave going out, seeing friends, and chatting now. He always used to hate people and going places. Im dying to go out on a nice shopping trip. Get some more cute heels, nice dress.... Ooooo the options! :D
True. If in doubt, shop!
Found a before hrt photo and I was shocked and surprised at how much I have changed.
I posted the before photo I found and a couple of month ago photos here. https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,93898.new.html (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,93898.new.html)
Hee Hee.
Just love the changes. And possibly an explanation for you wife's change of opinion?
:-* :-* :-* :-*
Cindy
Quote from: Jillieann Rose on October 02, 2011, 09:02:29 PM
Found a before hrt photo and I was shocked and surprised at how much I have changed.
I posted the before photo I found and a couple of month ago photos here. https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,93898.new.html (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,93898.new.html)
Wow you passed with short hair .. lucky you :)
There's a girl at work who told me about this ... thing ... at the university, a long acronym standing for words I could never remember. I didn't want to ask her too much about it, in case she got suspicious, because I remember it had the words "gender diversity" in it. Bit by bit I asked her little minor details and finally, FINALLY put enough pieces together to find the damn website and the location of the place. Then I found out the only people not allowed to become cimmitted members or volunteers are men-born-male who were raised male and are content living life as male ... or cismale in other words.
That kind of made me think this girl might know about me, considering she was sort of encouraging me to check it out. But you know what? If she's actively involved in something like that, I'm pretty sure she'd be respectful enough to keep that information to herself.
Anyway, it's basically a resource centre for anyone non-cismale, and deals not just with gender and sexuality but race, culture and [dis]ability as well. All in all I think it's the best discovery I've made in this little city of mine.
Wow.
What made me happy today is that I came out to another friend today! :D
This time I asked her is she wanted to know something interesting, she said yes, so I showed her a picture of me from my last outing. hehehe
So, she's looking at it. And looking. And looking. Mind you, I've known this woman for a good 5 years now...
She finally starts talking... Who is she? Is she your sister? That's not your wife. Your cousin?
I them put the phone next to my face...
Hu... She has your nose... She's not your sister? Who is she?
So I then tell her "That's me."
Wow, I couldn't tell at all, she kinda looks like you, but I had no idea. Why? Some sort of... something?
Then I told her I'm trans. hahaha
Oh, that was great. With my picture right next to me in male mode in a well lit room, couldn't tell! OOOooooo.... :D That's nice.
Then, there's a bit of history/back story/etc, then fun girl talk about makeup, clothes, heels, nails... Hows she's envious of how well I do my nails :) hehehe
[Edit]
Forgot to say she commented that my voice isn't that deep, so that's good.
I've actually picked my voice up from my base a while ago, my male voice is now somewhere in the middle of what it used to be, and where my femme voice is.
After she said that, I dropped back down to my old scratchy rough male voice and said "It's actually not that high, I just moved it up there so that I feel better about it, this is where my voice actually is."
She sat back stunned since I hadn't used that voice in a while and she had assumed my normal voice is the once I use daily.
hahaha :D
When I went to the IT lab to help set up my new computer at work, the radio was playing "Dude Looks Like a Lady" by Aerosmith. It was all I could do not to start laughing.
My brother fixed my netbook for me, and it gets way better connectivity in my room than my desktop. :)
Hell, what didn't make me happy today.
-Went out to eat at my favorite diner in the whole world and saw my grandpa briefly for the first time after their house got hit by the flood, he's doing surprisingly good with it.
-Surprised Julie with a ranch wrap from said diner, and she was ecstatic.
-Went to the mall with Bennifer and played Hide-From-The-Guy-That-Only-Knew-Me-As-A-Girl for about 20 minutes.
-Found pants that, somehow, amazingly, fit. And epic new sunglasses.
-Bought pretzels that were delicious
-Got home and watched Ben be a dick on Omegle
-Many lulz were had.
And now I'm chilling by myself, listening to A Perfect Circle, and debating on whether I should make lemon ginger tea, or black chai spice.
Best day I've had in months.
Getting an email from my new sister-in-law that she supports me. She says that she does volunteer work at the her local LGBT chapter! (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.freesmileys.org%2Fsmileys%2Fsmiley-dance007.gif&hash=0b4877b1cc2fa75a3cb8782acf065ab855c3e94d) (http://www.freesmileys.org/smileys.php)
Joelene
A random woman walking by my gave me a big genuine smile. I smiled back and we went our seperate ways. I have no idea why she smiled but it made my day.
Was carrying a pile of three huge books to the university library. They were heavy and I was basically strumbling.
A friend asked me if I wanted help with them! That was so nice of him :)
I have an awesome weekend to look forward to. :) :) :) :) :)
Even when I'm having a crappy day and have nothing to contribute
it's cheering and encouraging to read...
I couldn't agree more. It is partly through these simple little threads,
that I have been able to snap out of this depressive morass.
I worked for 13 hours today, I are wore slam the flip out but I happy cuz I workin'
I just enjoyed one of the most spiritually uplifting showers that I have ever had.
I was looking in the mirror and saw Heather smiling back at me.
A lot of changes have taken place in the last six years.
Some of them pretty freakin' rough but it has not all been bad.
Even at rock bottom, there have been bright spots that have opened themselves up to me.
There have been quite a few wonderful (looking back now) lessons that I had to learn
and things inside my spirit that I have discovered and am starting to develop.
For the first time it is good to be ME.
I thanked and worshipped my creator as the pulsing hot water massaged my scalp...
I think I may be where I am supposed to be.
I have been appected into and I accept the community where I have found myself.
Today, being Heather made me happy
Oh what a delightfully strange trip it has been.
Going out for for dinner with some great friends and having a great time..
Totally agree. Kelly, Karen, Sarah and I went for dinner together.
What a great night. What great friends.
For people who worry about going out. We went to a popular restaurant in a popular tourist area in Adelaide. I had picked up Karen from her hotel she flew in from Tassie for a shopping weekend. We drove to the restaurant, greeted by a waitress who said welcome ladies a table for two? I said no, I'm Cindy James I have a booking for four. We had a nice table at the front. We had not all met before and we chatted about all sorts of stuff. Nice meals; mine would have been better if they had cooked it :laugh:. Great wine.
Great night, as we were leaving Karen tried to take a photo, and the waitress came running. 'Let me take a photo of the four of you'. Nice, and it is a tourist area so people are use to that.
Did we have any hassles? No. Did we look like four woman having a night out together. Yes. Did we got odd looks? No idea, I didn't see any. Did any of us care? No. Did we have a great night for four people who haven't been out together before. It was great.
For people who still worry about rejection, insults, laughter and humiliation take strength. It was a totally utterly natural, night out for four girl friends. Were we tolerated as four freaks? No way, we were treated as four woman and no one gave an extra glance except for guys looking at Sarah's boobs (sorry doll :laugh:).
I was reminiscing with Sarah, we have got to this place in our lives less than 12 months since we started the journey.
There were four totally relaxed happy woman being treated and accepted as woman in a very public arena.
So the next time you cannot believe you can leave the room, leave the house, believe that you will be shouted at as a freak. Or insulted by louts. Come for dinner with us. You are welcome. You just need to do it; with your friends.
And as I said on another thread, what do restaurants want? Customers. Your wallet speaks. Do not be afraid do it.
Hugs
Cindy who cannot sleep at the moment
Hugs
Cindy
Thank you to Kelly. Sarah and Karen. My friends.
I met these three people through Susan's, we are at different stages and different whatever's but we are four females who w
realizing my ear holes r closing up/almost closed up, YAY!
4 shows down, today and tomorrow off, then 4 more - including 2 Stevie Nicks in a very small club. Can't stand her music, but she's bringing 2 semis of kack, so that's awesome money for me.
New heels came in today! Yeay! :D
Nice shoes.
I have too many :)
My weakness. hehe
Quote from: _Jess_ on October 06, 2011, 04:35:10 PM
I have too many :)
My weakness. hehe
You can never have too many! :)
Jennifer
That, is of course is absolutely true! Especially when I still have another pair in transit :) hehe
It was actually last night, but I had a great dokusan (practice discussion) with a Zen priest about Zen practice and transition, and later just a great wondering conversation with my daughter who's home from college for the weekend.
I got all dolled up and went to an oriental restaurant for dinner.
I got to spend some time with my girl before she went to work, which may seem trivial to someone on the outside looking in, but I swear I've been on cloud nine since the day she asked me to date her. ::)
I canned a case and a half of jalepino peppers and tomato's to be used later to make chili this winter. I also cleaned a 5 gallon bucket of black walnuts which grow wild here. The nuts are now laid out to dry in the hard shells so this winter i can open them to enjoy. I also am on my 3rd day of my fast to cleanse my colon. i usually do this in the dead of winter but after my sons mother getting diagnosed with stage 3 colon cancer which means she has like 4 to 5 yrs maybe left unless she has a miracle, i decided to start my yearly fast now. Imagine that she got colon cancer and is a vegetarian and runs and has no family history of the disease. I suppose she ate lots of pasta and whie bread products which caused her bowles to get clogged and produced blockages and she didn't think a thing when she had rabbit terd bowel movements instead of long flowing bowel movements which are the sign of good health.
I got some really good-smelling pomegranate mango body wash. I can't wait to take a bath and try it out tonight. ::) Ah, the simple pleasures of life.
Spent most of the day as myself.
Did my normal Saturday shopping and then had time to get a new pair of boots and sandals.
I passed at the grocery store where I've been shopping for years as a woman. I didn't expect it, was tired and definitely not trying, so it was a nice surprise. I'd been having a stressful day, and it really turned everything around. Made all my interactions afterward full of smiles and nonchalance.
that my cooking was actually edible last night and my egg & cheese sandwich i had for dinner was VERY tasty
Chocolate cake. Enough said.
I had a super awesome Saturday, and that feeling has carried over into today. :)
After an intense plucking session my eyebrows are looking a little more feminine,just a bit i think.Which i like.
Walking my dog tonight and stopped at Dunkin Donuts, the pooch gets a plain donut when we go there. This girl asks for a couple dollars for coffee, so I say "I'll pay you to watch my dog, OK?" When I came out, I thanked her and paid her five dollars. I felt better about me, and I hope it made her feel better, too. Earning money rather than begging for it.
I started watching Supernatural and found out that it's the perfect combo of cheesy horror, attractive main characters, and dry humor.
I had a really good cry over a person/situation I was dealt with.
Felt good after
Feeling very full of life and love.
Cindy
Quote from: Logan Bann on October 10, 2011, 07:48:17 AM
I loooooooove Supernatural :laugh: What made me happy is finally getting to watch the new episodes aaand they blew my mind.
I just started the first season. Glad to hear it stays good. :)
I canned 7 quarts of green tomato salsa with my homegrown hot peppers. habenaro cayene chilie, serano
i also been collecting black walnuts which we have growing wild all over here. If a person likes squirrel meat we have the best fed squirrels unlike other regions where they have to eat bitter acorns.
Oh i am on my 5th day of fasting too since i usually do it each winter for 10 to 18 days, but i started earlier because i found out my eldest sons mom who has been a vegetarian for 30 yrs has stage 3 colon cancer at 47 yrs old..
Had my first appointment the endo and got a real script and bloodwork scheduled.
I do worry that my new E dosage is low though.
Quote from: _Jess_ on October 10, 2011, 09:49:26 PM
Had my first appointment the endo and got a real script and bloodwork scheduled.
I do worry that my new E dosage is low though.
Don't worry Jess, it is typical :) The endo wants to review your blood work up and will probably make adjustments to your dosage accordingly over the next few months or so
Yea, thats what Im expecting as well, but I just know how bad I felt when I was on a lower dose and I want that feeling for as short of a time that I can.
Boxing my boyfriend after he was holding me down in my room.
Finding a new place to live.. :)
I went to a sexual minorities roundtable meeting at the police department, and I used my preferred name, and everyone had things to say and nobody was mean. Lol then I walked outside, into the occupy camp, and picked up a flyer titled "WHY IT'S NOT A GOOD IDEA TO TALK TO THE POLICE."
And I went to PFLAG, which was helpful and friendly, and made me feel less alone in my differences.
I don't normally just do queer stuff all day, btw. Today was special. :)
I had a woman, a little more senior in experience than myself, tell me, at work,
"It is so nice to have a friendly and helpful woman, work in in a lumber yard
and it doesn't hurt that she's cute"
Meeting a transwoman in person at work who I've been talking to online for a few weeks. She's a friend of one of my friends too, so she came to visit us both. >:-)
Oh and the new hard drive I ordered for my xbox came in today. ;D
My wife gave me a booklet that she made and on each page is something that she loves about me. It's 50 pages long! It was the nicest thing anyone has ever done for me. I can't stop smiling.
Quote from: Logan Bann on October 12, 2011, 12:19:53 PM
Wow, that's a really great gift.
Holy crap, that's so cool. :o I might steal this idea...
I got to wake up next to my girl today. It was awesome. Yep. ;D
found a wig that i look good in,(think its `cos it covers most of my face tho!)
Receiving a really cute card from a dear friend in the mail today :)
Going to the dentist! Am not into men but have had a crush on him for years for some reason. One time when I had to have gum surgery I took 4 lorazepam and went in and was so out of it I must have said something really crazy as he's been lovely to me ever since ;D
It's 53 degrees and rainy here. That's enough to make my week better.
Quote from: N.Chaos on October 12, 2011, 06:32:04 PM
It's 53 degrees and rainy here. That's enough to make my week better.
;D I love that weather as well.
I washed and straightened my hair, it is feeling so nice :)
Quote from: N.Chaos on October 12, 2011, 06:32:04 PM
It's 53 degrees and rainy here.
49'f and partly clear here.
Quote from: Bird on October 12, 2011, 10:13:24 PM
I washed and straightened my hair, it is feeling so nice :)
Oh! Lets see, hun.
I had to call a company in Alabama today, and the lady that I spoke to had a heavy accent and called me "sweetie." I don't know if she was reading me as male or female, and I don't care. I apparently miss Alabama. She made me feel silly and happy.
Reading all the posts above really was nice.
Actually navigating my way through Services Tasmania's systems and coming out the other end with a new Driver's Licence, and my car registered locally. Took a while to get their systems to find my car and licence details from interstate, but I got there in the end.
Karen.
PS Kael- Tasmanians are the butt of jokes about marrying cousins too, so Alabamans (?) aren't alone. :laugh:
I had a pleasant afternoon trying just about every fragrance I could at David Jones - an upmarket department store..
Quote from: justmeinoz on October 13, 2011, 06:32:46 AM
Reading all the posts above really was nice.
Actually navigating my way through Services Tasmania's systems and coming out the other end with a new Driver's Licence, and my car registered locally. Took a while to get their systems to find my car and licence details from interstate, but I got there in the end.
Karen.
PS Kael- Tasmanians are the butt of jokes about marrying cousins too, so Alabamans (?) aren't alone. :laugh:
Have they marched you off to have a scar created on your shoulder yet? Like all the native Taswegians have?
Happy but also kind of sad.
My wife and I went to a restaurant and my wife got mad at the waitress for calling us ladies.
My wife mutter "HE's my husband."
And the watress said "What?" and than when she understood. "Where?" :o
So my wife pointed at me.
My wife outed me but the watress didn't get it and I don't know if the waitress even believed her.
Hope she learned better than to try and out me now.
It makes me happy at some point everyday knowing there's people in my life that love and care about me.
Every day I also try to stop at least once and really enjoy a "moment". It could be anything, but I just really try to be 100% aware of everything - use all my senses - and appreciate that I'm alive.
After being in my new house for only six weeks I managed to completely tidy the spare second bedroom!!~! :o
Realizing, as my boss was thanking me for a job well done,
he is comfortable with my level of incompetence.
I may have found a home for a while.
My wife thats still trying to deal with me being trans.... Said that I should get my ears pierced! AND I DID! Eeeeee!!!!!! :D Only 6 weeks until I can wear cute dangly earings! :D Yeay!
And holy crap! She is the one that said I should! I NEVER expected that EVER, AT ALL!!! Its been hours and Im still totally floored by her bring it up!
this is something that makes me happy everyday.
I woke up and saw my wife next to me and we kissed :D
My dog. And not one other goddamn thing.
Reading what Jess wrote.
Wish my wife would sa "I should get my ears pierced!"
I'd do it right away too.
Way to go girl.
You made my day Jess. :)
:D I think she likes me!
This realization has made my day.
Went out for dinner alone last night. I was having an after dinner drink, and I guy came up to me asked me to join him and his female friend. And :laugh: :laugh: :laugh: :laugh: she got jealous.
Cindy
Nice one Cindy!
Casey Stoner won the World MotoGP title and Australia defeated New Zealand 42-6 in the Rugby League. Roll on the Rugby World Cup qualifier tonight.
I am at day 11 of my fasting. I have only had a pint of green tomato salsa i made and coffee (black no sweetner) and maybe a quart of juice and a stalk of local amish grown raw broccoli and last nite i had 6 barbecued chips. They made me feel full too. I have lost half the weight i can afford to lose and my colon is getting cleaner. :)
Quote from: Jillieann Rose on October 15, 2011, 11:44:07 PM
Reading what Jess wrote.
Wish my wife would sa "I should get my ears pierced!"
I'd do it right away too.
Way to go girl.
You made my day Jess. :)
Im STILL all confused by that one.
We were just out shopping for a cute non black or grey skirt and we went by a piercing pagota and she said it! For the next hour I was trying to see if she was joking didnt really want it or what... Then we went into the place, and she picked out the studs!
Ah, the mysteries of life!
Having a storm roll in off the coast and be able to smell the ocean in the rain
I started eating again, after nine days of being unable to stomach more than a couple of bites of food a day. Today I had a bagel with hummus and bell pepper, and a can of apricots, and half a ramen. I didn't get sick. The spell is broken. :D
Good fr you, Felix. ;D Bagels are the best, and it's good that you are able to eat again. So you don't die, or something. :P
Gettin' my haircut tomorrow.~~ I'm so nervous; I've never had short hair before. :D
Had a sauna,i love it when the sweat on your body glitters in the dim light.Its like being covered in sequins!
At a company-wide meeting today, while discussing and thanking folks who worked on the marketing part of a project, I saw my picture (my current avatar, no less) and the name Constance in the PowerPoint slide. It made me both happy and embarrassed at the same time.
Haircut was the first major step I took after coming out. Such a small thing, but it was exhilarating.
My happy thing today was that when I grumpily outed myself to somebody on public transit, the person outed themself right back at me. Lol. ;D
I was watching Dancing with the Stars with my parents, and the judges said something about the soccer player needing to be more feminine. My (fairly feminist) mother started grumbling about how if she's not a feminine person, she shouldn't have to be feminine to be a good dancer. I love my parents. :)
Getting a hair re-colour and cut has made me feel all new again.
I will post a new photo soon, when I can be gauranteed I won't have to spend 3 days trying to get it to load.
Finally updating to ios 5!
Developing a comfortable rapport with my frequent customers.
A nice gentleman, who has been in several times, and I
stood around the tailgate and shot the air for about a half hour.
Seeing the sun for the first time in two days. First night i've had my house open in almost 6 months.
I found out that I didn't get a call about my job interview three weeks ago because they still haven't made a decision. (Someone important is off on maternity leave.) There's still a chance I might get the job.
Also, it looks like I'll be canoeing/camping with my dad and brother this weekend.
Oh, this is from last night, but I guess it counts. I spent several hours getting to randomly announce that I'm a boy. (For square dancing, they use "boys" when talking about leads and "girls" when addressing the follows. I dance with an LGBT group, and people dance whatever role they want. Last night we were instructed to yell out "boy" or "girl" during certain moves to help clarify which role you're dancing so that everyone matches up correctly in the end.) I then went to salsa for a bit, and one girl told me I was the best lead she'd had all night. I also learned some cool new bachata moves. :)
Going bushwalking along the Coningham Beach walking track with the local GLBT bushwalking group, and being totally accepted as on of the girls. Followed by a great BBQ at one of the member's homes. Even the rain that started ddin't dampen the mood. Radox bath when I got home was great too! :)
Quote from: justmeinoz on October 20, 2011, 04:04:45 AM
Going bushwalking along the Coningham Beach walking track with the local GLBT bushwalking group, and being totally accepted as on of the girls. Followed by a great BBQ at one of the member's homes. Even the rain that started ddin't dampen the mood. Radox bath when I got home was great too! :)
If you aren't careful you will give Tass a good name :laugh:
Can you post the girls pic from Adelaide?
Hugs, sounds as if you had a nice time at the hair dresser
Hug Doll
Cindy
Being able to use my biggest (#6 21/16") dilator at least once today.
We can get happy about some small things... eh bigones, these days. Let me tell you :-)
Axelle
I bought two men's button ups today. A year ago when I was still pretending to be a guy going shopping was torture, now that I'm presenting as me, it was kind of fun appropriating stuff from the men's section. It's funny the confidence that actually being yourself can bring.
Oh, and I realized today that I now have my gender marker corrected on every single thing except my birth certificate. Progress!
@ Axelle - I have no idea what that means, but congrats :)
And @ Sarah - that's true. I still feel weird when I'm with a girl in a women's boutique, especially lingerie, but I'm sure I'll get past it. :P Once i'm on hormones I'll probably be one of those dorky guys who puts on dresses for Halloween or jokes about wearing bras.
Me, well, I woke up to a message from a friend who broke off communication with me since I came out as trans, which was almost a year ago. This is a friend I used to play House and Transformers with in grade 1. A friend I used to bring to my family cottage. A friend who was at almost all of my birthday parties even after she moved a couple of hours away.
And in her message she told me that yes, she found it hard; yes, she was not okay with it; yes, she was confused and angry and thought I was gone, no longer me. But she also told me she missed me greatly, and that she's been talking to friends about it and has started to understand that not only am I still me, but I'm also a happier me.
And I told her that I never held it against her that she wasn't okay with it. I told her I understood that it wasn't easy for her.
And ultimately, I'm glad she took the time she needed to understand it, rather than reluctantly accepting it and causing our friendship a lot of uncomfortable friction.
That's what made my day.
Oh, and that I don't work today. (Cheer)
Quote from: Tamaki on April 18, 2011, 01:21:28 AM
A friend of my wife's told her that I'm more feminine than she is! We also had a fun weekend together and it wasn't raining.
I saw my friends female dog humping another dog my friend said, "Look, Flash is transgendered too!" ;D ;D ;D
Quote from: xxScarlettxx on October 21, 2011, 03:56:36 PM
I saw my friends female dog humping another dog my friend said, "Look, Flash is transgendered too!" ;D ;D ;D
That is too funny!
What made me happy is that today is just a beautiful Autumn day over here.
Getting a cute pair of pink glass and silver ear rings off of the free table :) I'm only guessing that they're glass, but they're rectangular and have like a diamond cut... I can tell that the silver is real silver though :)
Signed the lease and picked up the keys to my new place.. :)
Every single man looking at me in target.
What Made You Happy Today?
Yesterday, a friend who I have been on a date with and am now friends with,
due to his inability to deal with my original equipment..., got out of the hospital after a helicopter ride to Seattle.
He dropped by my work to let me know he was doing well and introduced me to his brother.
Today he dropped by again. After a bit of chit-chat, he said, "I just started cooking some bar-b-q chicken."
"When do you get off work?" I said "6:00." He said, "Stop by for some chicken."
I said, "OK, thank-you." I got off from work, went home, cleaned up some, changed clothes,
put on some make-up and pedaled my pretty [little] butt over to his place, the whole time wondering what I should be expecting.
I knocked on his door. I heard some scurrying around and he said something about falling asleep.
The door opened and he says, "Here you go." as he hands me a stainless steel bowl, covered with aluminium foil, saying,
"Here take the towel, its probably hot." Slightly stunned, I took the bowl and said, "Oh, Ok thank-you."
I peeled the foil back and said, "Looks good, Thank-you, I appreciate it." We exchanged parting salutations.
I pedaled my stainless steel bowl back to the house where my older sister/friend/landlady, who I had told I was going on a date,
was playing on her 'puter. She said, "That was quick." I said, "Speed Dating."
I grabbed a fork, sat down and ate the half a potato, half an onion and two chicken thighs. He is a Very good cook.
It was delicious. I had to laugh because the sound of the fork tines, scraping against the stainless steel bowl,
reminded me of the chain ends of my Rottie's collar dangling inside her food dish, as she scorphed down her kibble.
When I finished, and exchanged humourous comments with my older sister/friend/landlady, I said something that I haven't felt for a long time,
"It's Friday, Let's party" My late 60's older sister/friend/landlady said, "You go right ahead." I said, "Well, I'm going out to see what kind of trouble I can get into."
She said, "Don't bring none of it back here." As I headed out the door I said. "I wouldn't you'd probably try to steal him from me."
I told her for real I am going to go visit with [friend's name]. At her house, we [somethinged] a little [something].
we then treked out across town to the Shell station, for beer... It was a very good night we laughed, we [somethinged]
we [me mostly] danced while listening to pure Country Classics and some new stuff destined to be.
But she made me cry when she suddenly jumped up and pulled out a box of [stuff] and said,
"Here, hold this... and this...." As I am holding a couple pieces of [stuff], she comes up with
this simple little dried miniture rose and and says, "I picked and preserved this for you because I love you."
Even though the kids are here, not being awoken by a seven year old that happens to be my niece. I have to work this morning an I need all the sleep I almost got last night >:-)
Today's my first day of being in primarily girl's underwear :). Sure I have a few boxers left over just in case...but I don't think I'll be wearing another pair of those any time soon!
Woke up this morning and looked in the mirrors.
And I saw a women looking back at me.
Quote from: Jillieann Rose on October 22, 2011, 08:35:41 AM
Woke up this morning and looked in the mirrors.
And I saw a women looking back at me.
Great ain't it, I love it.
No matter how much of a tomboy I am
when I look into the mirror
I see Heather smiling back at me.
The availability of Ibuprophen and coffee
made me happy this morning/afternoon.
Along with the memory of a wonderful evening, last night.
I had my usual Saturday night steak, and after dinner a woman who I had never met came along and asked if she join me as she was by herself, as was I. We just chatted girl stuff all night. I don't know (or care) if she 'clocked' me or not.
Found my crepe pan buried in the depths of a cupboard while packing the kitchen stuff..
As a side note, plastic containers seem to be self replicating....
Placed an order for my name change via deed poll. And I watched the little mermaid twice in a row. Still my favorite Disney movie.
A patient told me I'm a really pretty doctor :D
That's great Bird.
Oh and from the photos I have seen of you I agree with your patient.
Quote from: Jillieann Rose on October 23, 2011, 09:06:55 PM
That's great Bird.
Oh and from the photos I have seen of you I agree with your patient.
I compleately agree.
Yesterday actually... LOL... Playing Angry Birds for the first time on a friend's smart phone :laugh: Rather addictive silly game
First blood work back!
Estrogen - 117.3 (40-115)
Testosterone - <20 (241 - 827)
Cholesterol 192/60
YEAY!
I got called "bro" when I thought I wasn't passing. I'd given up trying to be macho (check the pimp jacket in my profile pic) and I've been dressing and walking how I want, and I wasn't consciously lowering my voice, but lolyay I passed anyway. I was walking on air the rest of the way home. Hooray for being oneself.
I am building a front door for a friend of mine who was/is going through some pretty rough stuff.
She came by and worked on it with me today. I am glad she is my friend and I can help her.
Also, tonight I was sworn in as a full fledge member of the Elks at the local lodge.
Do you have a calling sign?
Elks Elks Elks
Ooi Ooi Ooi
Aussie Elks :laugh:
Hugs Sis
Cindy
Reading actually some good positive responses (posts) that was so far the best for today.
Off to dilating now....
Hugs,
Axelle
Quote from: Cindy James on October 27, 2011, 02:11:58 AMDo you have a calling sign?
Elks Elks Elks
Ooi Ooi Ooi
Yes, as a matter of fact we do.
1st) Raise your right hand in front of your face, with the broad side of the
palm vertical and the thumb extended toward your face.
2nd) Touch the tip of your thumb to the tip of your nose,
while waving each finger independently.
3rd) Through your pursed lips, stick out your tongue and blow.
:icon_chuckel:
Well, I'd been having trouble with my mouse for quite sometime... It wouldn't track quite right, the clicker was having issues, the cord kept getting hung up on stuff :( Well, today my mouse died
Guess what? I now have a new wireless mouse in a pretty pinkish purple color!!! :eusa_dance: Wow!!! This lil' thing has some zip to it
Having my new fridge arrive and getting the kitchen mostly unpacked and sorted..
My wife, that's still really struggling with my lie and the HRT saw that I was really down yesterday and was asking me why I was down, if anything was wrong.... I told her that I felt like a dude in a dress :/ She asked if my dose changed and _why_ I felt that way. I told her, no dose change, no specific reason... She said that I said "You'd be surprised how well I pass", why do you feel like a dude in a dress. I told her that I think that the dose is low since the doc did change it.
So it was nice that even though she has a huge problem with it all... That she felt sorry that I was down and was concerned.
Its a gorgeous autumn day without a cloud in the sky here.Just got back from a run down the old canal and through the woods.Everything was so peaceful and serene,and the woods were full of colours,greens,browns and gold, with sunbeams slanting down through the branches.It just felt good to be alive.
That we FINALLY got rain, our rainy (summer) season now stared 'officially' for me :-)
That I only got 2 smites for speaking my truth today, some got whacked a lot harder for doing the same - shame!
Axelle
Getting on line, its almost impossible anymore.
I went to breakfast with my family then on a hike through the foothills this morning. I spent the afternoon salsa dancing and carving pumpkins with my brother and some friends of ours. Also, a longtime friend of his whom I haven't seen in years joined us. His hair is really long now, and he was wearing very feminine clothes and jewelery. Seeing him wearing (and looking damn good in) a more feminine style made me happy.
Took my wife to the eye surgeon. He is going for bilateral cataract removal and replacements. He hasn't done many as they usually go for singles but he agreed there was so little quality of life that it is worth the risk. He is also advancing her up the list as the wait is five months, he hopes to do the surgery before Christmas. That would be a nice Christmas present.
Fingers crossed.
As always, my thoughts and prayers are with you and Rebecca.
My happy, happy, joy, joy for today was
finishing a sewing project that came out awesome.
Happy Happy Joy Joy Song (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cXSOD1N5lR4&feature=related#)
Thanks Honey
I do love you and appreciate your thoughts
Cindy
The sentiment is mutual, Sis.
:icon_hug:
That made me feel even happier Cindy.
Riding up to the Salmon Ponds historic Trout Hatchery and being able to sit in the 150 year old gardens and feed the enormous fish. Huge breeding stock of Rainbow,Brown, Brook and Tiger Trout and Atlantic Salmon.
Very relaxing and therapeutic.
Still looking out for today's happy event.
So far it was dealing with paying bills, having VERY painful electrolysis --- no idea why it hurts me so much post-op. I actually started to cry from the pain.
Then it be back to laser in the face --- more dark hair ALL OF THE SUDDEN. Hormones?
Going food shopping, paying more bills, now having my lunch stuck in my stomach...
Just now, - will dilating give me a high --- going for that big #6 and having a fantasy?
Fat chance I say.
Well, I can sneeze now without my fanny wanting to fall out of me.
Gotta stay positive, um.
Happy days are here to stay... :-)
Axelle
Half the phone calls I got today were for Felix. I'm not asking people who knew me before to switch yet, but with new people I always introduce myself as male.
And I got carded by a transit cop, who looked at my ID and said "thank you sir." Lolyay. :)
The sewing project that I was working on was a work apron with all kinds of pockets for my tools.
I made it out of one of the three pairs of shorts/bib overalls that I scored at the local thrift store.
A customer asked me where I got it. I told her that I had made it myself.
She was impressed and asked me if I could make one for her. I said that I would love to.
She said she knew several woman in her garden club that would like them also.
I may have found a lucrative niche as a seamstress.
To quote Arfur' Daly, "sounds like a nice little earner", Heather!
Starting to get into the groove with my French class.
Having my gg housemate compliment me on my dress sense..
Quote from: justmeinoz on November 02, 2011, 04:45:56 AM
To quote Arfur' Daly, "sounds like a nice little earner", Heather!
Starting to get into the groove with my French class.
Bonjour, mamselle, ca va?
I got a very supportive email from a guy in my square dance group who heard that I prefer male pronouns. :)
I went shopping with my mom and got 2 hoodies (a white and an orange one :D) and a colorful scarf. We also had a lovely lunch.
Then I went to get a haircut, and had them do the whole works on my hair. Extensive washing and general care, and they also straightened my hair.
Small thing, but it made me feel absolutely fabulous for a while. :)
I got called sir by everybody all day. Whenever that happens I always get superstitious and want to wear exactly the same clothes the next day, so I'll keep passing. ;D
One guy did ask who my daughter was and then how old I was and then started loudly making fun of me (in a long line at Rite Aid), but I just ignored him. I was in too good a mood to bother with him. Great day.
I presented my idea, at my Elks meeting tonight, for a Christmas and Independence Day parade float.
I am now the official Local Elks Chapter Christmas and Independence Day Float Committee chairperson, designer and builder.
Quote from: heatherrose on November 03, 2011, 12:42:13 AM
I presented my idea, at my Elks meeting tonight, for a Christmas and Independence Day parade float.
I am now the official Local Elks Chapter Christmas and Independence Day Float Committee chairperson, designer and builder.
Isn't there a saying of never volunteer :laugh:
When I went to get the intake paperwork for a new dentist today (OMG I have dental coverage now!), I asked the receptionist if she thought the dentist might have any problems with me if I started showing up with facial hair etc, and the lady smiled and asked why I didn't mention on the phone that I'm trans. She said there's no problem with keeping my records in one name and billing in another, and that the dentist will be respectful. She said if you can't be who you are in this part of the country then where else can you possibly go?
Acceptance is really, really amazing. Cool water in the desert. I live with so much fear, and getting grins instead of aggression makes me feel like I'm bouncing on the moon.
Quote from: Cindy James on November 03, 2011, 01:56:10 AMIsn't there a saying of never volunteer :laugh:
That was with ol' Whatsisname.
Heather gets to experience community building
creative expression and love of life.
Spending quality time with my girlfriend :)
Went to the library, now reading "Hells Heroes" By darren shan
A few days shy of having existed in this manifestion for 46 years.
I almost caused a young cutie to wreck his pick-up by running into
the back of the stopped car in front of him because he was
craning his neck to get a better look, as I walked by.
My mum offering to come into my next counselling appointment.
Just reassures me how supportive she is of my transition.
Quote from: Cindy James on October 31, 2011, 01:58:39 AM
Took my wife to the eye surgeon. He is going for bilateral cataract removal and replacements. He hasn't done many as they usually go for singles but he agreed there was so little quality of life that it is worth the risk. He is also advancing her up the list as the wait is five months, he hopes to do the surgery before Christmas. That would be a nice Christmas present.
Fingers crossed.
Really with you on that one, sweetie. You deserve a mountain of joy. And it's coming your way.
Love ya
Catherine
http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/ (http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/)
That site makes me happy.
My mom gave me some old jewelry she doesn't wear anymore. That also came with it's share of unhappiness though, but I got some jewelry which is awesome :)
Today my mom said to me, "You walk like a guy."
She didn't mean it as a compliment but it made me very happy inside.
What Made You Happy Today?
My life
my past with it's many "wonderful" lessons
my present, which even an ignorant person would consider me blessed to have
and my future, which I dearly look forward to with great anticipation.
My boyfriend got his first shot of T!:)
Quote from: Katie138 on November 07, 2011, 01:09:42 AM
My boyfriend got his first shot of T!:)
^ that's me :D
I had my very first shot today.
Congrats to both of you. That certainly deserves a celebration :icon_birthday: :icon_birthday: :icon_birthday: :icon_birthday: :icon_birthday:
Cindy
Getting hold of a charity shop gift to take to Girl's Fun Night Dinner tomorrow. Apart from the organiser's partner I will be the only transwoman there. Should be a good night.
one of my friends who never ever ever compliments me on anything told me I looked really good when he saw me dressed as female for the first time.
Of course! Told you that you look like my neice! ;)
The wonderful people on this board who respect my right of being a non-op transsexual.
Quote from: Mahsa the disco shark on November 07, 2011, 04:19:08 AM
The wonderful people on this board who respect my right of being a non-op transsexual.
I've skimmed through a couple of topics when I browse most recent posts from the bottom of the homepage, and kudos to you for keeping your opinion strong in those situations. People can be so obnoxious.
Getting his (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php?action=profile;u=13387) jacket in the mail today :3 <3
Quote from: JoeyD on November 07, 2011, 03:13:16 PM
Getting his (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php?action=profile;u=13387) jacket in the mail today :3 <3
Her! <3
Walking in the rain, (imagine that. it's raining in Forks, Wa.)
successfully seeking sponsors for my Elks Parade Float project.
Can't tell ya! Just yay!
I don't know anything about sheep (other than I laugh like a five year old when they baahh and I think they're adorable) but congrats on your soon-to-be-babies! Wooly little babies. D'awww...take pictures.
Lol Tracey. I love not knowing things.
Here Logan. I thought of the recent underwear one, but there are others - =content&searchtype[]=link&searchsite[]=ND]http://www.sharingmachine.com/ubersearch/ubersearch.php?search=sheep&searchtype[]=content&searchtype[]=link&searchsite[]=ND (http://www.sharingmachine.com/ubersearch/ubersearch.php?search=sheep&searchtype[).
I'm happy right now because I am manhandling horrible stupid traumatic and impractical square pegs into healthy happy fulfilling and noble round holes.
Not seeing anyone flaming today.
The pain of having my tummy hair zapped. Yes it's back to seeing a lady with a laser. :icon_flamed:
I got a big check that has finally processed, and I got paid a day early! I can finally get a new lens prescription and stop squinting. And get contacts so I can wear sunglasses again. 8)
All online ordered cloths dit fit ,so i am very happy :)
I found out my 2 favourite bands (who i'm friends with) are playing a show together a couple of days before xmas in manchester (my fave city in the world) so i'm very very happy because of this! ;D
At the park I was helping little kids get berries and spiders from a tree, and overheard a child tell my daughter "Your dad sure can jump high!"
Busted ankle and all, I felt like a superhero.
I woke up in the arms of the most beautiful woman in the world !!! :) :) :)
Roxy Rose
I got misgendered. But in a good way.
A woman walking behind me into the ladies room (so all she can see is my short hair, men's shirt, jeans, boots, and six feet of height) called to me in French: "you know this is the ladies? The gents is over there." And I had the great satisfaction of watching her go red with embarrassment when I turned around and said, "yeah."
Shame I was so flat on my feet. In retrospect I totally should have gone with, "Excuse me? Want to see my tits?" Lost opportunities...
But anyway... Woo! First time being misgendered as an andro lesbian. I feel like I've been through a right of passage or something. ;D
Sarah that's great. Daring and triumphant and warm and fuzzy. Grats.
At a company dinner, I found out just how much support I have from my coworkers. And, I spontaneously found myself in a girl-talk circle with people I'd rarely talked with before I started my RLE. The acceptance feels amazing.
BAYWATCH
ROADHOUSE!
No. Wait.
My roflcopter goes soi soi soi soi soi soi soi soi soi.
There we go.
It was an absolutely glorious day here in the land of
sparkly vampires and indigenous American werewolves.
Just now being asked to bring over a snack-lunch to my new-again gg girl-friend (platonic - REALLY!)
But it's nice if people acknowledge one, isn't it?
Axelle
PS: At service to people I care for :-)
Boss said I could have a raise, Yay!!!
but not til next year, BOOOO!
Sleeping in after horribly wiping out last night in an attempt to show a friend how I had done exactly that while playing a Kinect game. I woke up sore but it was an excellent sleep!
QuoteIcing on the cake: I hand over my card, the guy looks at it and doesn't notice the little F, doesn't question the not-overly-masculine picture, hands it back and says 'here you go bud.' Then calls us 'boys.'
Logan I had that happen the other day with a transit cop. The guy looked at my driver's license, apparently didn't see the F or the girly name, and handed it back with a "thank you sir." :D
Last night:
A young female friend of mine, who dresses BUTCH topped with a high and tight haircut,
was my guest for an Elks potluck. I was asked if I was his mother?
Today:
An older gentleman and his son came into the lumber yard, being Veterans Day, during the coarse of commerce,
in polite conversation, I asked the gentleman if he had served in the military, looking to thank him he had. He said he had not
and asked if I had. I said yes I had. He asked me what branch. I told him, "I was an engineman (diesel mechanic), in the Navy."
He asked how I had gotten into a field like that. I told him that my father was an owner-operator truck driver
for 30 years and we did all of our own mechanic work, as I was growing up and that my Mama had a picture of me
where you couldn't tell I was a white child. With a big smile, the gentleman nods and says, "Ah, he had a daughter and
a son all rolled into one." On the outside, I said, "That's right." On the inside, I said, "To bad he didn't get to know her."
:eusa_dance: Waking up to find that my internet connection had been restored :eusa_dance:
I walk throught city and I feel like average height (I'm 6'2") there was so many girls tall 6' to 6'4" almost like small people disappear or most likely they sit at work at this time
I started my wellhouse by moving giant stones over in place ready to be mortared in place tomorrow. In a week i will have my 3ft stone walls done on top of my concrete walls which are buried 4ft underground. I will then put on a roof and a door and have access to my well in winter time.. An old fashioned well house .. wo wo wo
I forgot my laundry in the dryer this morning, and nobody stole any of it. And my daughter got no incident reports at school. :angel:
A nice hike through the foothills and the fact that the new trans group starts up tonight. I hope it goes well.
Edit: The group was really interesting. There was a wide variety of genders, ages, and perspectives (The oldest woman was in her mid 80's!) Very different from my last group of all college-aged transguys.
I like my new haircut so much it's actually helping with my dysphoria. ;D
Quote from: Sarah7 on November 16, 2011, 10:06:44 PM
I like my new haircut so much it's actually helping with my dysphoria. ;D
same here. :) just got a boyish one today and I love it so much!
Got to go for laser tomorrow, first time since July - and just the upper lip- Mmm that is the scream bit :laugh: :laugh:
Scored a trial shift at a restaurant for tomorrow night..
Do we get freebies?
Today has went well. Went shopping at Kroger's and Walmart no makeup, wearing jeans and a sweatshirt, soft everyday bra with no padding and hair pulled back in a ponytail.
Had to use the washer room at Walmart, so I put my glasses up in my hair and used the women's.
When I came out of the stall a young Walmart employee wash washing her hands. I washed mine and went to dry them she was getting towels from it. We both looked at each other. I smiled and she smile. There was no alarm in her eyes or expression. She headed back to work and me to my wife.
Wow closeup and still passing. That has made my day.
Hugs,
Jillieann
Getting things done. Finally facing and processing boxes of bad memories. Getting rid of lots.
Ordering a new Mtn. bike :) I needed something reliable with brakes and gears that work proper :laugh:
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I actually like beach cruisers, but I needed a bike that can hold up to harsh winter conditions...
I'll be navigating through allot of ice and snow over the next few months playing ice and snow BMX and avoid the dumb ass crappy drivers (a fun game every 50 year old should participate in)
Hell, what could wake you up and be more fun than freezing your ass off and hoping you don't get killed going to the store :laugh:
Made it to the liquor store five minutes before it closed after being off work late. :P that's skill!
This.
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Day and night, completely made xDD
He just loves messing with his cat, and I love watching it! :D
Disclaimer: No kitties were harmed in the making of this picture ;D
Joey's picture just made me happy too :D
Hearing Julie say she will never again be late out the door (it happens every day) to make it to the train on time. Today I pulled up to the train station just as the car doors were closing and the train was pulling away. I had to drive her downtown to her job. A 90+ minute round trip.
I'll be REALLY happy if she keeps her word. But I'm not holding my breath.
My daughter called me "dad" and "daddy" almost every time she addressed me today. And her teacher and treatment team officially switched to my chosen name and male pronouns. They seem totally comfortable with it too.
And she just announced her musings on life: "I mostly like kittens and you." Lol she's up about an hour past bedtime (no school this week), and getting into rambly dream-talk.
Taking my new bicycle out on her maiden voyage to the store and back and having her perform rather well :)
I got home from dancing to find that my dad had left dinner out for me and my mom had cleaned my bedroom. I'm so spoiled. :laugh:
Working on building my miniture log truck, which I am going to use to pull floats
in the local Christmas and Independence day parades, to benifit the food bank.
I have stripped a garden tractor to the chassis and am building a cab and flat bed for it.
Kinda the way OCC builds their scooters but without the emaculate shop.
I have to be done with it by 12/2 because the Christmas Parade is on 12/3.
Quote from: Lee on November 23, 2011, 01:52:29 AM
I got home from dancing to find that my dad had left dinner out for me and my mom had cleaned my bedroom. I'm so spoiled. :laugh:
Yes you are spoilt. I have to go and forage for some nuts and berries. :laugh:
Quote from: heatherrose on November 23, 2011, 02:09:13 AM
Working on building my miniture log truck, which I am going to use to pull floats
in the local Christmas and Independence day parades, to benifit the local food bank.
I have stripped a garden tractor to the chassis and am building a cab and flat bed for it.
Kinda the way OCC builds their scooters but without the emaculate shop.
I have to be done with it by 12/2 because the Christmas Parade is on 12/3.
You got some work to do. Are you going to dress up as well? Mrs Clause?
You got some work to do. Are you going to dress up as well? Mrs Clause?
I hadn't thought about that, really. Thanx, that would be a great idea but I dont see myself as a Mrs. Clause.
More like one of Santa's industrial artisans in green tighs, short skirt, funny hat and shoes.
What Made You Happy Today?
Coming here and sharing what made me happy today
And reading all y'all's?
i found this website today :D
Quote from: Miss.Tiffany on November 23, 2011, 02:34:06 AMi found this website today :D
Well, May I be the first to welcome you to our little slice of the universe.
Welcome to our little slice of the universe
Quote from: heatherrose on November 23, 2011, 02:38:16 AM
Well, May I be the first to welcome you to our little slice of the universe.
Welcome to our little slice of the universe
thank you!!:)
im so happy that i have finally found a place where i can meet people who are going trough the same thing as me:)
Having my GP confirm that the various freckles and spots on my back are nothing to worry about. :)
My drain worked great at the base of my door to my wellhouse i am building. I presently have no roof over it so with all the heavy rains my wellhouse dirt floor isn't filled like a swimming pool :) yeaaa ..
In a few days i should have the rest of my stone walls built and then i can put the roof on and eventually lay down a stone floor in my new well house. Then i can access water in wintertime..
pics at my site
The snow falling from the sky ~
Knowing my daughter is coming home from college today for the long weekend.
Got a surgeon willing to operate on my wife's cataracts
Today I tried to treat like a real holiday. I got to sleep in, gave my daughter a haircut, baked pies, trekked to a local social service agency to donate an armload of books, played in the rain, and listened to music. All happy things.
I found a really good arm workout and am now happily sore. :)
That I got over my morning depression...
Axélle
Being approached by a parking policeman in Pitt St loading zone and told;" Would you drive on Ma'am?" I said it's a commercial vehicle. To wit he said;"Yes but you've been parked here for over half an hour".. True. But I was doing my nails at the time. And you can't rush that.
Also; after discussing my childhood background and parenting style to my therapist today, he came out with the remakable statement; "Gee you really are a girly girl." Nice to know my childhood has been affirmed!!!
Be safe, well and happy
Lotsa luv
Catherine
P.S. Great news Cindy!!! Hope it goes really well for her. Should be a great boost to her self confidence and moral, once she can see properly again.
Love
Catherine
My girlfriend actually believing that I had put her Christmas presents on layaway! >:-)
Little does she know, I wrapped them this morning when she went to town.
Mwahahahahaha!
-Get best friend to buy me booster pack
-Open booster pack
-a bunch of decent cards, and then underneath
-Olivia-goddamn-Voldaren.
-Almost have heart attack.
red/black vampire deck is so, so going to happen now. Awwwwwwwwyeaahhhhh.
Also, Italian ice. Omnomnom.
Hanging out with my daughter. Meds are stabilizing her, and she's intelligent and sweet and creative. She hasn't cussed or screamed or hit or kicked at all today. We're trying to breed fruit flies for a dime-sized house spider we've been keeping, and debating how to house a green caterpillar we found hanging from the kitchen ceiling. We've been watching documentaries and lying around reading. It's been really nice to to have to be anywhere in particular for most of this week.
And I just realized I didn't smoke yesterday and didn't miss it either. :angel:
I had forgotten how much I love my old roommate. My jaw is actually sore from laughing so much. Also, cupcakes were involved, and that makes everything extra awesome.
Being told by my landlady/friend/sister/Mom that I eat like a pregnant woman and tellling her, "I haven't gained an oz."
Being told that I looked very nice, by my friends at anothers friends moving away, get together.
Being able to come before y'all, to solicate your prayers for my landlady/friend/sister/Mom.
Saying, "I forgive you." to the reflexion in my mirrror.
Having a great weekend at a second Sexuality and Gender Diversity retreat in a beautiful part of the State with wonderful friends, old and new.
Did not enjoy the leaky tent however! >:(
I just shaved my face, even though I'm pre-T.
Makes me feel good about myself :D
I made good friends with someone at Susan's :D
I finally got them to turn the hot tub up a few degrees, still not hot enough 102-104 but up from 95 to 99 is much better. That and having time off from doing show production has allowed me to work my third cash stream, trimming the fall harvest - great year for plants, good money for me ($25 an hour, deal on product for cost, all of my personal conditions met) so I can pocket $150 (tax-free of course) for a 6 hour session, and that's nice this time of year. I think this year I'm going to use it to buy a Cannon digital SRL Camera and send my GF back to see her family for a few weeks.
Today was the first time my mother called me her daughter.
Spent my weekend volunteering in the kitchen at my aunts church - and all the Christian women I was working with treated me like just another one of the girls.. :)
cheesy brat and popcorn for dinner
I had a productive session with my therapist this afternoon. Not exactly uplifting, but productive.
Just came back from driving from Texas to see some of my relatives over Thanksgiving. My sister, her 2 daughters and I had a good conversation last night about why I am taking the hormones. It went very well. Thank God!
Joelene.
I'm getting my letter today. :icon_dance:
Quote from: Felix on November 28, 2011, 10:45:05 AM
I'm getting my letter today. :icon_dance:
Great news Felix.. :icon_hug: :icon_joy:
I'm really just soooooooo happy for you Felix.
That is fabulous news.
I couldn't think of anyone more deserving.
Be safe, well and happy
Lotsa huggs
Catherine
Congratulations Felix! ;D
My brother stopped by today to bring me a wooden box that he made and filled with cash for a graduation present. It was pretty awesome.
My parents.
You know how that saying goes: "you can't choose your family, but you can choose your friends"? I'd choose my family.
Quote from: Felix on November 28, 2011, 10:45:05 AM
I'm getting my letter today. :icon_dance:
Awesome, Felix, congrats!
Reading all the Happys over the past few days :)
A message through FB from an old friend from high school, someone whom I probably haven't seen since 1990.
Quote from: Felix on November 28, 2011, 10:45:05 AM
I'm getting my letter today. :icon_dance:
Well, I'm a little late, but congratulations. I remember getting mine. It was a wonderful feeling.
Yay Felix!!
Realising I can really have fun with telemarketers tonight as i have been to the dentist and can't talk properly!! >:-)
Thank you everybody. :)
I got the letter, and I also got a note in the mail from the doctor saying my labs are fine and I'll get my first shot on my next appointment (dec 14th) as long as I "remember to get the letter." Lol like I'd just let that slip my mind or something. :laugh:
I'd been so resigned to just playing Sisyphus all the time, but now things are getting easier. The unburdening is exhilarating.
And I love reading everyone's recent happy things. :angel:
Just getting an email from my sister I had just visited on the conversation we had. The response:
"I heard what you said during our conversations and I understand about being alone. I know how frustrating it can be. I will pray God will put someone in your path that shares some common interests with you and isn't too old to function (LOL). But,you are right. As we get older, it is harder to find someone compatible".
This to the part of my experience on HRT that covers the awakening of the natural things of romance that supposed to go with the libedo and during puberty. Not the aimless stuff that I had before! It is hard to find romance at my age in my "Free Love" generation. The single women (yes, I am still attracted to them) of my generation has had enough of sex and of men, even the feminized ones! It was told to me by some of them point blank.
Joelene
P.S. Good luck on your treatment, Felix. Let us know how it goes!
I was introduced to the new Molding tech for the South area of the plant today, known as Ryan 2.0. And it went a little like this:
".. And this is Keaira. She' pretty cool. I call her Kiki."
And no one made a deal out of it. I was pretty happy. :)
Quote from: Felix on November 29, 2011, 12:51:40 AM
Thank you everybody. :)
I got the letter, and I also got a note in the mail from the doctor saying my labs are fine and I'll get my first shot on my next appointment (dec 14th) as long as I "remember to get the letter." Lol like I'd just let that slip my mind or something. :laugh:
I'd been so resigned to just playing Sisyphus all the time, but now things are getting easier. The unburdening is exhilarating.
And I love reading everyone's recent happy things. :angel:
Awesome! congratulations and I hope all goes well Felix. BTW, did you know that 'Felix' is the code name for the Bomb Disposal Unit in the British Army? So I guess that makes you Da Bomb. :D
Cooking with my anytime grill (stove top BBQ thing) without setting off the fire alarm :laugh: and learning the secret to no fail creamy mashed potatoes
Boyfran! :]
1 year T anniversary today.
Congrats, Felix.
Quote from: V M on November 29, 2011, 02:31:32 AM
Cooking with my anytime grill
I read that as "anytime girl." I need to get me one of those. :P
I bought some Harold Lloyd films on dvd a while ago and never got round to watching any. When I opened one of the cases up, it also contained some pictures of Marilyn Monroe. Not a massive Marilyn fan, but little surprises like that keep me going.
In the midst of a bad day at work, I was able to hold my sleeping puppy dog during lunch time.
Reading this thread made me happy today! Plus, I got a cute new shirt.
I signed the paperwork for the new apartment.
won $120 on a couple of scratch offs today.
Quote from: Pica Pica on December 01, 2011, 04:57:23 PM
I bought some Harold Lloyd films on dvd a while ago and never got round to watching any. When I opened one of the cases up, it also contained some pictures of Marilyn Monroe. Not a massive Marilyn fan, but little surprises like that keep me going.
I read the biography of the guy who did Marilyn Monroe's autopsy. It was very cool.
Brought a new sweater at the thrift store.
And my girlfriend makes my day, everyday.
:D
Still happy about this one, from Wednesday. I go into one of my classes, in a white sweater top, leather sleeves, and some basic jeans, no makeup, or anything special. So, after I take my seat, this guy says to me, "I thought you were a girl or something there!" I am not sure what made him think that (maybe my hair?), but wow! Shame on him for thinking otherwise, though. ;)
I haven't started at all on HRT, or much of anything besides really growing my hair out, as much as I'd like to; including clothes; don't feel confident enough overall yet with my looks/waiting for HRT effects.
Cindy James and her Lonely over the Holidays? thread made me happy today! :)
Jennifer
My friend sent me a "You're awesome" present. It was, well, pretty damn awesome. :)
Quote from: Lee on December 03, 2011, 02:56:20 AM
My friend sent me a "You're awesome" present. It was, well, pretty damn awesome. :)
Well??? What was it.
Rufus Wainwright.
Quote from: Cindy James on December 03, 2011, 04:26:54 AM
Well??? What was it.
It was a bunch of fruit all cut and arranged like flowers. (I have a small fruit addiction.)
Quote from: Jaime on December 01, 2011, 11:59:41 PM
won $120 on a couple of scratch offs today.
Finally !! I can now say I know someone who won more the $2 on those things.
A harbour cruise on Sydney harbour tonight. Balmy night, half moon reflecting on the water, that typical harbour bridge view some may have seen from our New Years fireworks, and some fabulous transitioning friends. Regrettably though ...... there was no man to embrace or cuddle up to. :'(
Misty
Catherine
The awesome architecture and interior design of the main branch of the Burlingame Public Library.
Quote from: Shades O'Grey on December 03, 2011, 12:29:58 PM
The awesome architecture and interior design of the main branch of the Burlingame Public Library.
I love love love public libraries.
Quote from: Logan Erik on December 03, 2011, 04:33:00 PM
Also my sheep's eye infections are healing rapidly. I'm can't wait for April lambs.
You seemed pretty down about this, so I'm glad that it's getting better. Also, horses are pretty sweet. Grats. :)
Looking around at bikes comparable to mine and noticing that they all cost at least twice as much :)
Quote from: Felix on December 04, 2011, 02:31:26 AM
I love love love public libraries.
This made me happy today. :)
I met my SO at a public library when I was 12 years old.
Between the beautiful architecture, the reservoir of knowledge and the fond memories of meeting her, what's not to love?
We make it a point to visit every public library we can.
Jennifer
My boss lady telling me I impressed a friend of hers, with my expertise.
He asked her, "Where did you find her?"
She said she told him. "She found us."
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my ear holes r near fully closed up!
My sweetheart told me that he is falling in love with me all over again.
I held on another day, and things are getting better and better. I'm coming up from the deeps.
Quote from: Felix on December 05, 2011, 08:47:38 PM
I held on another day, and things are getting better and better. I'm coming up from the deeps.
I am happy to see Felix happy
Committing a random act of decoration on the office/cabin where I work, in the middle of the night.
I strung it with 600 Christmas lights.
Quote from: heatherrose on December 07, 2011, 01:58:18 AM
Committing a random act of decoration on the office/cabin where I work, in the middle of the night.
I strung it with 600 Christmas lights.
That is awesome. ;D
Well done Heatherrose.
How did the floats/parade go?
Hugs
Cindy
Going food shopping in one of my wide brimmed hats, with a slinky dress (pussy pelmet hemline), 3" mules, lace g-string and my favoured handbag... and now who needs a bra with 38A I ask?!
It's so hot and muggy at present even old girls may step out in a bit of afternoon glam :-)
Axélle
I made an entire bag of flour's worth of gingerbread men. I hope people eat a lot of them :x
Finding out that I have graduated from a B cup to a C cup :)
Quote from: V M on December 07, 2011, 04:27:15 PM
Finding out that I have graduated from a B cup to a C cup :)
No way, that is so awesome! ;D I'm jealous.
Jennifer
Got the call from the eye surgeon he is going to operate on my wife's cataracts next Tuesday. She will be able to see for Christmas.
Cindy
Quote from: Cindy James on December 08, 2011, 12:51:21 AM
Got the call from the eye surgeon he is going to operate on my wife's cataracts next Tuesday. She will be able to see for Christmas.
Cindy
Oh my god, that's like something out of a movie. Very cool Christmas gift.
Quote from: Felix on December 07, 2011, 02:10:40 AMThat is awesome. ;D
Quote from: Cindy James on December 07, 2011, 02:15:22 AMWell done Heatherrose.
How did the floats/parade go?
Thanx y'all, I take my accolades whereever I can get them. :icon_chuckel:
The parade turned out to be a comedy of errors,
Seeing I am Irish, Mr. Murphy was my right hand man.
It seemed whatever could, DID go wrong.
Seems instead of two weeks, I needed two weeks and one day to finish.
We were finally up and running at 7:15pm, to bad the parade started at 6:30.
But we had a parade of our very own following behind the street sweeper.
Turned out to be a decent dry run for the 4th of July Parade.
A good time was had by all. :icon_chuckel:
Quote from: Cindy James on December 08, 2011, 12:51:21 AM
Got the call from the eye surgeon he is going to operate on my wife's cataracts next Tuesday. She will be able to see for Christmas.
Cindy
That's great news Cindy! Hope it all goes well..
I go see my endo in just a few hours. I haven't slept yet. I had to rent a car from Enterprise. What really made me smile was when the driver from Enterprise got out of his car said: "I'm from Enterprise, I'm here to pick John F***** up."
I said "That's me!"
The driver frowned and said. "You don't look like a John."
I smiled and asked, "Well what do I look like?"
He thought about it for a moment. "Well.... It must be the long hair."
I just smiled. I know he didn't want to say I look like a woman. It was kind of entertaining. :D
I would have been tempted to say," If I'm a John, then you must be a prostitute!" But then I do tend to want to be evil!! >:-)
Realising that today's second laser session on my stomach and chest will be all that is required.
I went to see my Endo today. She increased my dosage and she is going to write me a letter to get my gender marker changed on all my documents. :D
So, when all the paperwork is done, I will be officially female. :D
Congratulations Keaira!
And this just made me very happy:http://thebloggess.com/2011/07/would-you-like-to-buy-a-monkey/ (http://thebloggess.com/2011/07/would-you-like-to-buy-a-monkey/)
I am totally willing to brag about what me happy today! I finished my thesis (part one, anyway) and all of my term papers! Even though school is still in session, I am done a week early! :D
Proposition 8 (banning same-sex marriages in California) was overturned :)
This is going to be a long one, so sorry!!
Last Tuesday (our busiest day of work) I was scheduled for an easy shift where I basically got to sit behind a counter all night. One of my friends hadn't been feeling too well that day and asked me to switch with her because she was supposed to work behind the concessions counter (supervising). I know how hard it is to get someone to cover a supervisor shift, so I agreed. I worked my ass off on my one slow night, and was out way over an hour after my original scheduled end time. She was off at my scheduled off time instead.
That day she offered to make me brownies for trading shifts with her. Who doesn't like brownies?
This morning my iPhone alerted me that I was tagged in a post by her. This is what it said:
"Maybe I should go to bed. Tomorrow I'm making brownies for Jasper Sebastian (my last name) for switching shifts! I love my friends!"
This post literally made my day. I don't really have many friends, at least outside of work. I didn't think anyone other than one person there actually called me a friend. Guess I was wrong! ;D
New phone , new. Flickr, and finally a profile picture of my ugggly ass, dig them bears.
Telling somebody how much his advice helped me, and seeing him smile. Also walking around happy and realizing how much stronger it made me. And Christmas lights. And my daughter's pimp outfit that she doesn't know is a pimp outfit. Purple velvet, fake fur, leopard print, huge hat, sparkly shoes. XD
Walked into a shop.
www.touchedeparis.com.au (http://www.touchedeparis.com.au)
It has been months since I'd been there. I had bought a nice necklace. The staff were great.
The owner saw me and said; Cindy, where have you been I've got new stock from Paris, you said you would come in wearing the necklace. You didn't. Why not ? Gabble and talk, all of this was nice BTW.
Shop went quiet as people looked around as Helen is large and loud Cindy isn't. Listen I'm having a special night for members on Monday, do please come, And please wear the necklace.
Yes I'll be there.
Lovely, lovely woman.
And an astute business woman.
Guess who will do her Christmas shopping on Monday eve with a glass of French Champers in tow.
Look forward. I'll try and get some pics.
Cindy
I got a PM from my favorite Susans person ;)
Quote from: Cindy James on December 10, 2011, 03:47:47 AMGuess who will do her Christmas shopping on Monday eve with a glass of French Champers in tow.
Look forward. I'll try and get some pics.
You go girl :icon_rockon:
What Made You Happy Today?Coming in at 10:00 this morning after dancing the night away at the Elks' Christmas party.
And going to a side job, doing some landscaping, at 11:30.
Working until 2:30 then going home and getting ready for the company Christmas party, at the boss' house.
From which I returned about an hour ago.
Now it is time to carry my crab, shrimp ,hot wings and sundry adult beverages filled tummy to bed.
Nitey-nite.
Quote from: Lee on December 09, 2011, 11:39:05 AM
Proposition 8 (banning same-sex marriages in California) was overturned :)
I guess this ended up not being true. Sorry about that. :-X
Have one for me Cindy. ;)
I have found a kayak I can actually paddle for more than 5 minutes without back or sciatic pain!!!! :) :) :) :) :) :) :)
Time to get back into regular exercise again, now I have no excuse.
Baked a full turkey for the first time ever today and it came out amazing. I was so nervous, and it came out tasty as all hell. Also had my first little mini-dinner party with some friends and it was a blast.
My wife had cataract surgery in the day surgery clinic, and everyone was so nice and caring. I was still on a high from last night as well. :laugh:
That's great Cindy. I'm glad it went well. :)
Quote from: Cindy James on December 13, 2011, 01:00:55 AM
My wife had cataract surgery in the day surgery clinic, and everyone was so nice and caring. I was still on a high from last night as well. :laugh:
It's about time you had some coming your way Hun. I'm just so absolutely thrilled for you both. You'll have to send her a lovely Christmas card, as now she can see it. :icon_yes: :icon_mrhappy: :icon_joy:
Be safe, well and happy
Lotsa huggs
Catherine
:icon_smile: :icon_surprised: I got my letter from the 'Psych' to the Endo, so he can issue HRT :icon_woowoo: :icon_dance:
He He He Christmas is early this year
I received a beautiful bunch of flowers and a Birthday card today from a girl friend who had forgotten about my Birthday last week, totally unexpected.
I found out our local trans group is branching off new meetings for younger people.
Also, eggnog. :)
Yesterday, it was one of my nieces that is away at college posted on my wall that she loved me. Also, a customer/friend's little girl gave a big hug last night at work, just out of the blue.
And today, I didn't have to wait at the nail salon for my acrylic fills.
Quote from: Logan Erik on December 14, 2011, 01:08:59 PM
Yesterday, cows and rottweilers
Today, alpacas, llamas, goats, golden retrievers, and beagles
Every day, my own sheep, dogs, cats, etc
Also the promise of more cows and rottweilers soon, meeting some horses, and the possibility of raising up a calf to eat. :eusa_drool:
The mental image this gave me made my day. My Aunt had a cow she was raising for food and she made the mistake of calling it 'Hamburger' to prevent her getting too fond of it. I swear that cow knew it was food. It was mean. :D
Nicely done, Logan. Lolz.
Today I started at a new job. It's probably one of the hardest jobs I've ever tried, and I feel like I'm doing horribly at it. Making coffee for people is much harder than it looks!
My new general manager, who had been training me all day (I've had 3 days of training before today but this was my first real day) told me I was doing excellently as he was leaving today.
The day he interviewed me, he told me that if I do well in my first two months I'll be getting a promotion to supervisor because I have experience as a supervisor already.
And he hinted at that again today ^_^
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The picture says enough.
HA HA
I GOT MY PATCH TODAY
And I'm not talking about Capt. Hook's eye patch for the upcoming school play either
ESTRADOT 100 PATCH 1.56MG
:icon_dance: :icon_dance: :icon_dance: :icon_dance: :icon_dance: :icon_dance: :icon_dance:
I've started wearing dress shoes more often and it makes me feel totally badass. Also, I plan to get myself some nice clothes with my Christmas money. I always figured I'd wait until I lost weight to get "nice" clothes (a.k.a. invest the cash), but hey, doesn't fat me deserve to feel badass too?
I just got my "first" Christmas present, a brooch (at least I think it's a brooch) from the other Connie here in the office.
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And, it's pinned to a coat that was given to me by a former coworker!
My wife looked at me today and said. You have two ear rings in each ear!
She can see again after her cataract surgery :angel: :angel: :angel: :angel: :angel: :angel: :angel:
Quote from: Cindy James on December 17, 2011, 12:17:30 AM
My wife looked at me today and said. You have two ear rings in each ear!
She can see again after her cataract surgery :angel: :angel: :angel: :angel: :angel: :angel: :angel:
This made me happy. This was why I used to go to work every day. It's okay. Something is okay for somebody. Somebody made it okay in some way for somebody. The world is not all suffering, the world is not all futility. Humans can rise above.
Thank you Felix.
Several people put themselves out for this. The surgeon, the nurses, the secretarial staff, the Ambulance people and of course, always hidden, the Lab staff.
It ended up being 5 weeks for a 5 month queue.
There are lots of good people. The bad ones get the publicity, the good ones don't want any.
Cindy
Quote from: Cindy James on December 17, 2011, 12:17:30 AMMy wife... can see again after her cataract surgery
Blessed Be
What Made You Happy Today?
Standing, watching the clouds, while on break, I saw a bird at a distance, flying about 40 feet above the ground, towards me.
At first I thought it was a sea gull but as it got closer, it became obvious it was much to large to be a sea gull.
As it flew directly overhead, I recognised that it was a Bald Eagle.
Luckily, it being Friday and all, it did not defecate, at least not on me.
Not being defecated on today made me happy. :icon_chuckel:
Quote from: Cindy James on December 17, 2011, 12:17:30 AM
My wife looked at me today and said. You have two ear rings in each ear!
She can see again after her cataract surgery :angel: :angel: :angel: :angel: :angel: :angel: :angel:
That's really great news Cindy.. :) :icon_hug:
Quote from: Cindy James on December 17, 2011, 12:17:30 AM
My wife looked at me today and said. You have two ear rings in each ear!
She can see again after her cataract surgery :angel: :angel: :angel: :angel: :angel: :angel: :angel:
:icon_bunch: :icon_dance: Awesome, Sis. I couldn't be happier :icon_dance: :icon_bunch:
Quote from: Cindy James on December 17, 2011, 12:17:30 AM
My wife looked at me today and said. You have two ear rings in each ear!
She can see again after her cataract surgery :angel: :angel: :angel: :angel: :angel: :angel: :angel:
This made me happy! And my day just started. Congratulations to Cindy and her wife! :eusa_dance: :icon_dance: :eusa_clap: :icon_joy: :icon_yes:
Jennifer
I'm joining the league of smiles! That must have been such a wonderful and emotional experience for everyone involved, Cindy. :)
My friend called at 3am to chat and say she misses me. :D At first I was pissed, but now it's making me smile.
I have double happiness today. :)
People in my life have been exceptionally generous, and thanks to them I think I can start seeing a gender therapist.
Survived, almost thrived at the mall today, got home and hot tub was the perfect temp, the stars were out and I just lay there watching Venus. Tomorrow night I'll be in Vegas.
(see, I do practice what I preach about doing my best to skip the whole Xmas deal. I'll get back home on the 23rd, not enough time to get hyped and no time to care, or get bummed either. Then it's over and I've got shows leading up to NYE.)
Wearing my santa hat, napping on a city bus, visiting a pizzeria with my daughter, futzing around on the internet, and practicing my medicine spoon stp even though I pissed all over myself. ;D
Is ewe is or is ewe ain't happy? :icon_chuckel:
What Made You Happy Today?
I got my hair done and my brows waxed.
I installed a bathroom fan on my 110 volt hobby welder, in an attempt to extend it's duty cycle.
It appears to have been a successful endeavor.
I committed another random act of decoration.
I strung 1200 Christmas lights on my landlady/mom/sister/friend's house while she was at work.
Logan I love your sheep-related postings.
What made me happy today was filing for my name change. I get my court date (and make it official) on February 3rd. All is well.
You'll do well here or in New Zealand Logan! Nothing wrong with sheep. Unless you consider what New Zealanders are reputed to do with them! :laugh: >:-)
Three things. I seem to have recovered from the sinus infection that has been following me for a week, and that flattened me yesterday.
I spent an hour in conversation with a counsellor at the local LGBTI support group, while we waited for someone who never turned up, and discussed fluidity of identity. Fun.
I had my hair done and got a colour a shade darker, and really like it. New photo on my profile soon, sort of a Cilla Black short bob.
Logan: Your sheep make me happy. :D Every time I read your posts about them, I have a squee moment.
I was able to wrestle into my binder in less than five minutes. I felt accomplished. Other than that, I realized that I am giving the most random assortment of presents to family friends and this year. Looking in my suitcase gave me a good laugh.
A friend of mine who doesn't know I'm trans counseled me to be patient with a friend of mine who IS trans but isn't being very assertive when people misgender him. Because, after all (according to the non-trans friend), it must be difficult for someone who was raised as a girl to be assertive, and I don't know what it's like to change my gender identity. ::)
P.S. I know he kind of got his terminology wrong. But apparently, I'm sufficiently masculine--and assertive--that he doesn't think twice about what sex I am or what kind of upbringing I've had. Wow.
Having written 7,000 words in seven hours (beating my usual speed of 500 words an hour) I have now done it. I have finally, and completely finished the first draft of my second novel, Death of a Dreamonger'. Time to dance around in my knickers,.
My daughter said she had a present for me, and handed me a priority mail box with green and purple tape all over the top of it. She said it's to hold my pain. She's a sweet kid. She said the box also accepts wishes. There's a little hole in the top for it to hear the whispers.
Quote from: Felix on December 20, 2011, 10:45:49 PM
My daughter said she had a present for me, and handed me a priority mail box with green and purple tape all over the top of it. She said it's to hold my pain. She's a sweet kid. She said the box also accepts wishes. There's a little hole in the top for it to hear the whispers.
This is truly awesome.
I spent some time watching
Dragonball Z Abridged episodes on YouTube with my kids. I understand next to nothing about DBZ and I still found the parodies hysterical.
One of my female staff gave me a cheek kiss before she went on Xmas leave and said, "Cindy, your skin is so smooth".
I didn't know she knew :laugh: :laugh: :laugh: :laugh: :laugh:
Ooops
Cindy
I've been ignoring this thread ever since it started because I've been struggling and didn't want to see too much good news and positivity all at once. (My therapist has to gauge exactly how positive he can be without triggering me into a negative reaction...yes, it's that bad.)
I'm really enjoying the sheep stories and Felix's box and the nice coworkers and everything.
I might come around more often.
Felix: Your box story is really sweet. :D Your daughter sounds like a very sweet kid.
Logan: I love the sheep icon! Now I can just scroll through and look for it if I need a sheep fix. ;) I'm glad the parasite screening was negative.
As for me, I woke up with the most awesome faux-hawk ever. I didn't even have to style it. I am totally rocking some hilarious anime character hair and every time I look in the mirror I laugh.
I had a coworker tell me that I was an inspiration.
Quote from: Ayden on December 21, 2011, 01:28:56 PM
As for me, I woke up with the most awesome faux-hawk ever. I didn't even have to style it. I am totally rocking some hilarious anime character hair and every time I look in the mirror I laugh.
:D
Tried to post a picture, but it won't take. Either way, it has made my morning enjoyable. :P
Shades O'Grey: It's nice to hear kind words, isn't it? :)
My hairdresser's hilariously inappropriate questions about my bottom surgery.
He's the only who knows I'm trans who I'm totally comfortable around, other than my immediate family and best friend. He doesn't ignore it like the elephant in the room or make assumptions or ask super carefully worded but very stupid questions or anything. He never makes me feel like a freak. I'm just a girl who happens to be trans. No big deal. Wish more people were like that.
Oh, and my hair looks pretty awesome too. ;D
I got a new black dress shirt for a Christmas present :) I thought it was a rather nice gesture coming from someone I don't really know very well
But what really made me happy was when I took it out of the packaging and went to try it on, realizing that it's a woman's shirt :icon_joy:
(I originally thought it was a men's dress shirt) :P
I received a Christmas card and a candy cane from a coworker as a thank you for making her feel welcome. The funny thing is, I gave her a card for the same reason.
I feel young. Vim and vigour, and all that. Yay. Oh gosh, I am such a badass. God bless hormones.
A tech. came out and fixed the internet connection this afternoon :eusa_pray: Hoping it'll hold
I do enjoy reading Logan's posts about his animals.
Quote from: Felix on December 22, 2011, 10:44:53 PM
I do enjoy reading Logan's posts about his animals.
Ditto. Somehow sheep seem fascinating and exotic. :laugh:
Quote from: V M on December 22, 2011, 09:57:13 PM
A tech. came out and fixed the internet connection this afternoon :eusa_pray: Hoping it'll hold
Happy to see you having a tech in and not feeling unhappy if there was ONLY his work he could leave behind.
And have a merry Xmas too :-)
Axélle
Sheep are generally about as inoffensive as you can get. Eat grass and grow wool.
Went for a canoe on a small estuary near here. Relaxing paddle with no-one else on the river.
Added Dusky Moorhen, Green Rosella, Pied Oystercatcher, Tasmanian Native Hen, and Giant Cormorant to my Tasmanian bird list.
Also found where there are a lot of good size Bream in the river.
Sleepily lying on the couch in a quiet house filled with the smells of dinner slowly cooking on the stove.
I was doing a worldwide secret santa, and my present arrived today. Oddly enough, it was from someone else in Colorado. Anyways, he sent me a bunch of cool things. Also my giftee sent me a note saying how much she likes the necklace I made her.
Finally getting hold of a contact list of phone numbers and e-mail address for some friends at the other end of the state, so I can say Merry Christmas.
Had my wife and her family around for Christmas lunch
A checkout guy at the local grocery store told me to hang on and keep my head up, that it'll be okay. I don't know what he's noticed if anything, and that might've offended me at one point in my life, but today those were good words to hear.
I've been dead today, trying to be jovial and celebratory, but mostly staring into space and fighting inertia.
Quote from: Felix on December 25, 2011, 12:26:17 AM
A checkout guy at the local grocery store told me to hang on and keep my head up, that it'll be okay. I don't know what he's noticed if anything, and that might've offended me at one point in my life, but today those were good words to hear.
I've been dead today, trying to be jovial and celebratory, but mostly staring into space and fighting inertia.
He probably saw you in pain. Your avatar actually speaks volumes to me. So it's not hard to imagine you with a look of distress on you. But still. I'm sorry that you are feeling down. Just forget about everything negative for today. Kick back and watch some Christmas specials with your Daughter on tv or make some memories. Your troubles will still be there when you get back. *hugs*
Reading about Logan Erik's gift of service to his mom :)
I got a men's shirt from my mother. In fact, I got nothing specifically girly from any of my close family this year, and it was great to not feel like a jerk for not wanting my gifts. :)
Edit: I forgot to add that it looks like my parents are getting me a car for a graduation present, which is awesome in itself. However, the part that makes me the happiest is that when I joked that I wanted a Lamborghini my dad said "You don't need a chrome plated penis extension" and went on to say that I'll have to have a sports car at some point in my life but that now isn't that time. Sometimes he does things that make it seem like he sees me as more of a guy, and it always makes me smile.
Christmas was perfect, in our off-kilter, refuse-to-believe-in-perfection way. Presents and stockings and roast and soda and candy. My daughter was irritated because she wanted me to stop Santa and ask him what exactly his full name is, and I, uh, forgot to do that. :laugh:
A few days ago I told my daughter she could have a dollar for every five (good condition) things she donates. We also have a standing rule that for anything she acquires she has to get rid of something roughly the same size, and that doesn't count for money. So in the aftermath of gift-opening, we went through our things and took a lot of clothes to the ARC bin and books to the givingtree bin, and we made a slightly problematic mountain in the kitchen with the stuff that needs to go further than nearby bins.
She's really starting to mature. At some point she told me she didn't want to get paid more yet for giving things away because she already had money. Then she delved into her feelings on the grey areas and ethics of charity and incentives for charitable behavior. But she said all that with sticky candy crap all over her face and in her hair. She's at a weird age. :laugh:
Bought a George Gross designer skirt at a second hand clothes shop with the original price label on it, brand new. The original price was $250 I got it for $20 :laugh: :laugh: :laugh:
Here Logan, this is a funny sheep picture.
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Wondering if there was ever actually someone named Jack >-bleeped-< :laugh:
But seriously, I'm very impressed with all the stuff that Logan Erik is doing to fix his mom's place up :)
Quote from: V M on December 26, 2011, 11:15:38 PM
Wondering if there was ever actually someone named Jack >-bleeped-< :laugh:
But seriously, I'm very impressed with all the stuff that Logan Erik is doing to fix his mom's place up :)
http://www.whoisjack
>-bleeped-<.com/ (http://www.whoisjack
>-bleeped-<
Cindy
My daughter made me happy today. She's so sweet, and she doesn't care if I pass, and her reactions to my transition help me understand why I'm doing this.
I think one of the main things is that mommy didn't know how to play anymore, and daddy does. As her mom I was tireder, scareder, and more distant than I am now, more defeated by life. As her dad I may not accomplish much more, but what I do gets done more happily and playfully. Kids pick up powerfully on that kind of thing. Our household is so much more functional than it used to be.
Transition has really helped be be more loving and patient. She still can't put on her own clothes properly a lot of the time, and she still screams a lot and has bizarre habits and lives half in a fantasy world, but I'm coming to terms better with this being what life is. Every family is different. It's okay.
Today wasn't particularly remarkable, but we're picking up the pieces and that's a great start. :)
Quote from: Felix on December 27, 2011, 12:46:45 AM
My daughter made me happy today. She's so sweet, and she doesn't care if I pass, and her reactions to my transition help me understand why I'm doing this.
I think one of the main things is that mommy didn't know how to play anymore, and daddy does. As her mom I was tireder, scareder, and more distant than I am now, more defeated by life. As her dad I may not accomplish much more, but what I do gets done more happily and playfully. Kids pick up powerfully on that kind of thing. Our household is so much more functional than it used to be.
Transition has really helped be be more loving and patient. She still can't put on her own clothes properly a lot of the time, and she still screams a lot and has bizarre habits and lives half in a fantasy world, but I'm coming to terms better with this being what life is. Every family is different. It's okay.
Today wasn't particularly remarkable, but we're picking up the pieces and that's a great start. :)
You are one Hell of a man, and a fantastic parent.
Hugs to you both
Cindy
This isn't necessarily this day's thing but I got a coffee mug with my "new" name on it for Christmas present from my aunt and her husband. <3 It's probably the best present I got this year although it's just a fricking mug.
As for today, my fiancé's coming home today after being at her parents for the Christmas. It's fun to be alone once in a while but this is starting to be too much. :D
For Christmas I got one of my favorite perfumes, 2 v-neck racerback tank tops with the built in bra, Beef Jerky which lasted all of 10 minutes, A book [Clockwork Angel] and a men's blue dress shirt, [This I sighed about in my mind] but most importantly, I got to spend time with my family.
Earlier that week, my Sister, Azmaria, sent me her old camera. I used it to take photos of the children opening their gifts on Christmas day.
A customer told me, "I hear you're gay".
I said, " :icon_blink: Well actually, I am bi-sexual."
To which his eyes lit up.
I asked, "Where did that come from?"
He said, "Someone was talking about you and someone else said, "Oh, she's a lesbian"."
If they're talkin' about me,
they're leavin' someone else alone.
:icon_chuckel:
Watched I, My, Me Strawberry Eggs. Still another of my favorite animes. I so wish there was more episodes. *sigh*
Still working on that one...
Axelle
I got couple trophies in Yakuza 4 I've been lacking. One of them was a pain to get so I was quite happy to finally see it pop in the upper corner. :D
Feeling a lot less sick, ordered a badass pair of new boots and finally ordered a new copy of Franz Wright's "The Beforelife".
Quote from: Logan Erik on December 28, 2011, 10:29:29 PM
I'm watching a show that's my major guilty pleasure. :icon_redface: :eusa_shifty: I will NEVER admit what it is, but I smile the whole way through.
I can't believe I'm watching this but then again I wouldn't have believed I could have sustained a smile for so long, either...
ah lord
Logan this made me smile. ;D
When I started middle school, on the first day of 6th grade, we had to go around the class and announce our favorite tv show (I want to say among other things, but it was just that). Everybody seemed to be trying to out-cool one another (and god I wish I could remember what we thought was cool back then xD) until this one girl said she liked The Price Is Right. Which was the uncoolest thing ever. And everybody loved her saying that, because it just seemed so badass.
Weighed my self and have put on 5kg in 10 days ;D.
My therapist changed my anti depressants which increase my appetite. It is good considering I was down to 57kg / my height 180 cm = not ideal
I found a new belt today. ;D Which is good since the last one was basically starting to fall apart. And I was worried this would be too small but it's in the second last hole. :'D I always overestimate myself.
;D My mom told my aunt about me (the last to know) and when she saw me she gave me a big smile, hug, said lots of nice things. Happy that everyone knows and happy at such a great response.
The CT scan of my brain came back normal. They told me it probably would but it was still a relief. The cool part was when the doctor was showing me the images on his computer moving through the different structures of my head pointing out different things and commented on what a healthy brain I have. I don't hear that comment very often (ever). Anyway, it was a lot more fun than I usually have at the doctor's office. Just for fun I want to get a t-shirt made up with a picture of my brain and the caption "Yes, I have had my head examined."
Quote from: Logan Erik on December 30, 2011, 12:08:30 AM
I am lying on the couch surrounded by sleeping animals. There is a cat above my head, a cat on my feet, a dog behind the couch, and two dogs in front of the couch, and every last one of them is snoring. :icon_bored:
I want this.
What I have is alright though. I'm sitting in the chair (lol we have
a chair) with my daughter half-awake on the top bunk of the bed, and we're listening to a tape of birds and animals of Kenya. It's from god knows when, and narrated by a very british guy. Interesting and soothing.
I made a pile of money today working overtime. $$$ :D $$$
I'm one day closer to freedom - my Orchi. Only six more days :)
I finally have year round water from my well.. yeaaaa ..
oh i have 2 puppycats that love to sleep and snore and twitch as they dream
PS: A puppycat is just a big pussy ;D
Did a "real age" health test. Apparently, even though I've been treating my body like crap over the past year, I'm only 25.5 years old health-wise...real age is 22.5, so I'm doing all right I guess. I do need to be healthier again though, the test (or rather, my answers) horrified me.
Nothing, I've been depressed all day.
What made me happy today...well, I'm young and healthy, right? Right?
Lol well maybe not as much as I could be, but I still have cause for joy. I love music, I love my flesh, I have a neat casio wristwatch, my teeth aren't hurting, my ankle is feeling free, and I'm not scared.
Great way to head into the new year, as far as I'm concerned. My daughter seems pretty content too. She's eating wolfberries and reading Get Fuzzy. Staying up late tonight.
Starting off the year with a face full of stubble that (in my not so humble opinion) looks really damn good. I thought that it would be a lot patchier, but ends up there are only a few areas that look thinner because they have lighter hair.
I also have a new binder and have hit my first weight goal, and I'm seeing a guy in the mirror more than ever.
It feels like it'll be a good year. :)
Isn't life weird.
I got kissed by a friend who said how smooth my face was :laugh:
Lee have a great year.
Hugs
Cindy
Thanks Cindy :)
I found out that GQ named my city one of the worst dressed in America. I'm going to celebrate by wearing Crocs (which, unsurprisingly, were started here.) Their blurb also mentions that we'd be one of the best looking cities naked, so there's that too.
Lee,
Have a happy 2012! I'll give Boulder that, I've been there, seen it. My neighborhood on the east side of the same metroplex near the airport is racially diverse and we have everything to the various dress suits, work dungarees, to pants down below their cracks! I'm not an REI person, but a Cabela's one.
Joelene
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The weather is absolutely beautiful for January. My city looks amazing. I'm at university and just relaxed, enjoying things, in touch with everything. I'm slammed with work, but when it's all put into perspective it's not bad at all. I'd prefer to work here, but above that I prefer not taking city transit at night-time, so I'm going to head home, work a little, sleep and get the first morning bus here so I can get my time in.
Joelene, I used to work with a woman with your name from that same area.
A lot made me happy today. I talked with a few friends with whom I have been out of contact. I also went to physical therapy. My knee feels a lot better tonight, and my PT is pretty hot which makes it all that much better. Also, my dad asked if I wanted to go on a ski trip this weekend, and it looks like we'll be staying in my favorite hut.
New tyres on my motorcycle. It's fun to go round corners again!
Quote from: justmeinoz on January 04, 2012, 04:05:30 AM
New tyres on my motorcycle. It's fun to go round corners again!
Karen, you should just post a lot and say "tyres" as much as possible so I can feel worldly and sophisticated. Try to say "pop" for soda and also mention football or rugby now and again. Pretty please?
Incidentally, this got me thinking, and so I started websearching Australian speech peculiarities. The ones people like to focus on are not the ones that strike me most often. I had more luck searching for ways that British english differs from American english, as Australia seems to be pretty British in its most common linguistic quirks.
This was neat, I thought: http://www.effingpot.com/slang.shtml (http://www.effingpot.com/slang.shtml)
To stay on topic, language always makes me happy. :)
I was almost ecstatic when my Franz Wright book finally showed up in the mail today, I've been waiting to get it again for years and just recently remembered/had the spare cash.
I moved a bunch of heavy stuff today and I feel like such a badass. I can't believe how much stronger I am after only 6 weeks on T.
(Just had to brag somewhere so I wouldn't scream out to my neighbors "Rawr! Testosterone!" like I've been wanting to all day. ;D)
Quote from: driven on January 05, 2012, 02:23:22 AM
I moved a bunch of heavy stuff today and I feel like such a badass. I can't believe how much stronger I am after only 6 weeks on T.
(Just had to brag somewhere so I wouldn't scream out to my neighbors "Rawr! Testosterone!" like I've been wanting to all day. ;D)
YES! MANLY MAN! GRRR, YOU CAN DO ANYTHING!
Lolya hey driven I just started a month ago and I'm trying not to say anything irl too. :laugh:
Spent the day with an old friend, and some how things ended up in bed.. ;) Not quite sure how that happened, but kinda happy it did..
Go boys, be manly and build things.
Naughty girl Kel!
I'm totally happy because I have got the rental house I wanted. $55 a week cheaper, on top of Mt Nelson 2 minutes from the Uni, river views, and a real live kitchen! ;D
Karen.
Quote from: kelly_aus on January 05, 2012, 03:02:44 AM
Spent the day with an old friend, and some how things ended up in bed.. ;) Not quite sure how that happened, but kinda happy it did..
Kelly,
You GO girl!!! Does he have a twin brother at home? Send him up please!!! I'm at the airport waiting, NOW!! LOL
Be safe, well and happy
Lotsa huggs
Catherine
My copy of America's Test Kitchen Slow Cooker Revolution arrived in the mail today.
Now, I just need to get a new slow cooker!
Quote from: justmeinoz on January 05, 2012, 05:42:41 AM
Naughty girl Kel!
Karen.
Quote from: Catherine Sarah on January 05, 2012, 11:34:51 AM
Kelly,
You GO girl!!! Does he have a twin brother at home? Send him up please!!! I'm at the airport waiting, NOW!! LOL
Be safe, well and happy
Lotsa huggs
Catherine
Hi Ladies,
Actually it was another woman, which is why I was a little puzzled..
Hugs,
Kelly
A friend of mine (PSR worker) took me to the store to get some things I can't readily haul on my bicycle :) Then while discussing how well I'd done with discounts and coupons, the checker (a young man) commented that another lady had also done pretty well with her discounts and coupons ;D Oh, and the butcher ma'amed me as well :) He looked a bit unsure about it at first, but then relaxed when I smiled and said thank you :laugh:
I've noticed that guys tend to use a different (more caring?) tone when they perceive you as a lady :)
I think its more flirty then caring. Different levels and depths to the flirty thing for sure but I find women more receptive and appreciative of kind gestures or words (if its coming from a male that is, when I present female I get the general huh hmmm just put it over there and no tip but as a male I get the Oh thank you so much, how kind of you, here... let me pay you for doing your job )
My PT kept commenting on how tall and strong I am. I walked out feeling like the Hulk.
QuoteI've noticed that guys tend to use a different (more caring?) tone when they perceive you as a lady :)
This was the first thing I noticed when I began transition. It's so weird. Grats V. :)
What made me happy today was noticing that I'm not unhappy. That sounds weird, but I'm proud of how well I've clawed my way up out of hopelessness. I've gotten a lot done.
This evening, I got some side work that will last me till the end of winter and maybe beyond that.
The guy just bought an old mill and wants me to rehab it and all it's out buildings.
I told a guy to stop calling me by my old name. it pissed him off, I can tell. But I am tired of playing the "ignore it" game.
Catching my first fish in Tasmania. An undersize Australian Salmon, but still a fish. :)
Also ssigning the lease on my new place.
I realized that everyone in my family has had hair everywhere from an inch or two long to down to our waists. No wonder I didn't get any crap about my short hair.
Also, my mother has been trying to talk me into getting a fauxhawk (or as she puts it "that cute short, spiky thing that's popular lately"), and for some reason I think that's funny.
My friends here at Susans! Hugs, Devlyn
I just dropped off a 186 page brief at the Human Rights Commission for a hearing before one of their Administrative Law Judges. This marks the end of any further appeals, motions, providing documentation and compiling evidence in my employment discrimination case. Three years, countless restless nights, a lot of anxiety and tons of frustration are left behind.
When the guy date stamped the two 186 page briefs and said, "You're all set!", a ton of weight was lifted from my shoulders. At the very least I hope my ex-employer learned it's not nice to treat transgender people that way. But I doubt it. So maybe the judge will give me a huge monetary award. I doubt that too.
Quote from: Julie Marie on January 06, 2012, 03:00:45 PM
I just dropped off a 186 page brief at the Human Rights Commission for a hearing before one of their Administrative Law Judges. This marks the end of any further appeals, motions, providing documentation and compiling evidence in my employment discrimination case. Three years, countless restless nights, a lot of anxiety and tons of frustration are left behind.
When the guy date stamped the two 186 page briefs and said, "You're all set!", a ton of weight was lifted from my shoulders. At the very least I hope my ex-employer learned it's not nice to treat transgender people that way. But I doubt it. So maybe the judge will give me a huge monetary award. I doubt that too.
You did the right thing. You should breathe a sigh of relief and be proud.
My daughter did something that made me happy today. I had a meeting at her school, during the day while class was in session. At some point I was talking to a staff member in the hall while she was having a loud meltdown in the classroom. This particular staff member is not very respectful of my transition, and really just doesn't take me seriously. When Leah heard this lady misgender me, lol she completely stopped screaming and wheeled around and calmly but loudly corrected her. Despite the context (or maybe because of it?), that made me proud. And it was funny. :laugh:
My son came over to get 60bux off me for a used zong... and happy I could give it to him - we fist bumped when he left and that hasn't happened in forever. I scored two pairs of boots at Wallyworld for a combined total of under fifty bux, and in the mall as well - a Kobo Touch for $119 (20 bux off). I find the Kobo to be excellent for what it is - I have no interest in a multipurpose tablet of any kind - I just wanted a decent ereader which this is. I also began reformatting some epub books I have that were formatted with 0 margin width. It's pretty easy, and I'm sure I'll be offering to compile ebooks for writers soon. (besides making my own). I also took delivery on a new scanner yesterday - an Epson V600 which scans negatives as well. I researched a lot over the last few years waiting for just the right thing. So, I'm a pretty happy gal.
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Zong may refer to:
* an alternate spelling of dzong (Tibetan རྫོང་; Wylie rdzong), a distinctive style of fortress in Tibet and nearby regions.
* the Tibetan word for county, referring both to the traditional government units and modern counties established by the People's Republic of China.
* Zong mobile payments, a mobile payments provider
* ZONG, a telecommunication service provider in Pakistan
* Zong Massacre, 1781, on board ship Zong
* Emperor of China, an old term for the Emperor of China.
* Zongzi, a traditional Chinese food eaten during the Dragon Boat Festival
* Zong, a type of bong characterized by an often Z-shaped series of bends in the tube, aiding the cooling of smoke before it reaches the lungs.
* Zong: a group mental and physical state of effortless, relaxed rowing generally lasting half the time stipulated by the coach.
Quote from: Felix on January 07, 2012, 01:48:15 AM
Zong may refer to:
* an alternate spelling of dzong (Tibetan རྫོང་; Wylie rdzong), a distinctive style of fortress in Tibet and nearby regions.
* the Tibetan word for county, referring both to the traditional government units and modern counties established by the People's Republic of China.
* Zong mobile payments, a mobile payments provider
* ZONG, a telecommunication service provider in Pakistan
* Zong Massacre, 1781, on board ship Zong
* Emperor of China, an old term for the Emperor of China.
* Zongzi, a traditional Chinese food eaten during the Dragon Boat Festival
* Zong, a type of bong characterized by an often Z-shaped series of bends in the tube, aiding the cooling of smoke before it reaches the lungs.
* Zong: a group mental and physical state of effortless, relaxed rowing generally lasting half the time stipulated by the coach.
I'll bet $60 on the bong! ;D
Jennifer
QuoteAlso as we were rushing out the door the following exchange occurred very quickly between my mom and brother - 'do you have the stock pot' - 'no, Logan has it' which, while seeming an unsubstantial victory, means that my brother used my right name automatically. Yay!
This is huge.
The first time I understood that my daughter accepted me as male was actually a time I should've been unhappy. We were hiking in the woods, and she got really crazy whiny about something or other (I think I remember it was that she was hungry, but she didn't want to eat the granola bars and goldfish crackers we'd brought in our bags). At some point she just dug her heels in and stopped walking. I said FINE and kept going. I got around the next ridge (in the hilly areas of Forest Park close to the St Johns bridge, if anyone's curious) and just stood listening. I would never actually leave her. But she couldn't see me, and she started screaming. I mean, she just really fell apart and lost her mind. Even in such a raw and reactive state, she yelled out for "daddy" and didn't hesitate. I hadn't been out to her for very long, but once she had asked enough questions and agreed I was male, she never had any problems seeing me as such.
There's a woman at her school who always gets my name right and never gets my pronouns right. :-\
What I meant to say - Grats Logan! Also I'm glad you don't have to put your sheep down.
Quote from: Logan Erik on January 07, 2012, 08:54:26 PM
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My boy's leg isn't broken! :icon_dance: :icon_geekdance: :eusa_dance: :icon_walk:
This actually made me really happy. I love reading your farm stories and those sheep icons are just adorable. Glad your boy's ok, Logan.
I'm feeling all manly and strong again today. Moved another big set of shelves, which also required me to push a Chevy Silverado with partly-flat tires a few inches out of the way and back. After all that I was craving protein, so I got a big pile of cooked tri-tip from the meat market. Spent the afternoon watching football playoffs and eating meat straight off the plate with my hands. Can't wait to see how much muscle I wake up with tomorrow. :icon_workout:
I just found out that what was probably my favourite game as a kid is in the Wii Store!! ;D I have no money, but I have now aspirations to earn some, ha. Toejam and Earl. 8)
Edit: I found that there were 5000 points left on the account that I had forgotten about. Got my TJ&E, Earthworm Jim, and Aero the Acro-Bat. Couldn't find some of the other games I knew and loved.
ToeJam and Earl 2 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uemKZexjQSc#)
I go out for dinner most Saturday nights to my local hotel restaurant. They have been really nice and friendly. Just before Christmas I heard they were going to have staff drinks. I left a card and $50 with the manager. In the card I thanked everyone for being so kind and understanding and that I appreciated that they may have never met a TG person before and I was so pleased with how they had helped my confidence.
I went back last night for the first time since then.
Every single staff member, even people I had never met had signed a Christmas card thanking me for the money for drinks and that I was welcome at any time and that they appreciated my 'problem' and were totally delighted to have me as both a customer and as a friend.
During the evening staff kept coming to my table and having a chat. The customers were going nuts because all of these people were coming over to me, and saying "Cindy it is so great to see you again etc "
I felt so good.
I felt so proud that there are plenty of normal healthy people who are willing to accept us.
Cindy
Quote from: Cindy James on January 07, 2012, 11:45:44 PM
I go out for dinner most Saturday nights to my local hotel restaurant. They have been really nice and friendly. Just before Christmas I heard they were going to have staff drinks. I left a card and $50 with the manager. In the card I thanked everyone for being so kind and understanding and that I appreciated that they may have never met a TG person before and I was so pleased with how they had helped my confidence.
I went back last night for the first time since then.
Every single staff member, even people I had never met had signed a Christmas card thanking me for the money for drinks and that I was welcome at any time and that they appreciated my 'problem' and were totally delighted to have me as both a customer and as a friend.
During the evening staff kept coming to my table and having a chat. The customers were going nuts because all of these people were coming over to me, and saying "Cindy it is so great to see you again etc "
I felt so good.
I felt so proud that there are plenty of normal healthy people who are willing to accept us.
Cindy
This made me get something in my eye. Don't mind me, my allergies have been acting up lately.
Quote from: Cindy James on January 07, 2012, 11:45:44 PM
I felt so good.
And of all people, YOU deserve to feel good.
Quote from: Cindy James on January 07, 2012, 11:45:44 PM
I felt so proud that there are plenty of normal healthy people who are willing to accept us.
And why shouldn't they. After all Cindy, you are more normal, than normal. And if anyone expressed something about a "problem", I'm inclined to think they are the one with the "problem." If someone has a problem accepting me as I am, I'm certainly not the one with the problem. I've already spent enough time sorting that one out. I'm OK, You're OK.
Keep on keeping on girl. You are doing wonders in the west. Although you come from the south. (Oz) LOL
Don't worry about me. I'll reset my GPS.
Be safe, well and happy
Lotsa huggs
Catherine
Quote from: Felix on January 07, 2012, 11:50:56 PM
This made me get something in my eye. Don't mind me, my allergies have been acting up lately.
Ohhh Felix. You are an absolutely gorgeous guy. Bar none. I've admired your tenacity for some time now.
And that's OK to get "something" in your eye occasionally. And as for those "allergies", any Doctor can fix those. After all, you are the Flagship for the new male fraternity on Mother Earth. Teach your new companions that it's OK to "get things in your eye" or have "allergies." It's the stuff that stops wars.
Go forward in faith and conviction, man!!!
Be safe, well and happy
Lotsa huggs
Catherine
I was at a trail head with my dad, and we went to use the bathrooms there. (Two one seaters, one men's and one women's.) I thought I'd be stuck with the women's as I'm not out to my dad. Ends up the women's didn't have any toilet paper, so I used the men's instead before heading off.
Anyways, that's a long set up to explain why when we came back my dad told me to take the men's and walked into the women's. It's a small thing, but I was smiling the whole way home.
Cute sheep. ;D Just curious, what is this sheep thing you've been posting about? I missed the post where you explained it, I guess. I'm intrigued.
Having a good sleep made me happy. I'm so old.
Quote from: Caseyyy on January 10, 2012, 12:06:52 AM
Cute sheep. ;D Just curious, what is this sheep thing you've been posting about? I missed the post where you explained it, I guess. I'm intrigued.
Having a good sleep made me happy. I'm so old.
Logan is a caregiver for a bunch of animals, and most of the important ones are sheep. I don't think you missed anything.
And I tend to be pretty proud of myself when I nab a good sleep. I've been curmudgeonly and tired for awhile now, so don't feel bad. XD Anybody who doesn't like sleeping needs to get off my lawn. :D
Quote from: Caseyyy on January 10, 2012, 12:06:52 AM
Having a good sleep made me happy. I'm so old.
Nah, sleep is always awesome, no matter what your age. You're old when having a good dump makes you happy. ;D
ETA: Yay, real sheep pics!
Ahh, OK. I think the animated sheep threw me off, I wondered if it was an IRL thing or an online thing.
Animated sheep tend to throw me for a whirl as well, especially when I'm trying to count them and/or go to sleep :laugh:
Sorry, I'm terrible
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This is a really cute pic. though :)
Nailing down a $1400 side job for next weekend.
Quote from: heatherrose on January 10, 2012, 01:03:42 AM
Nailing down a $1400 side job for next weekend.
So good. Well done. That should pay a few bills :-*
I fixed my cd player, and so I'm better able to control my environment. It's easier to get through life when you can temper it with music. And something is changing for me. I can't well describe it, but I'm letting go of old horrors and reframing how I see current ones. That sounds rough, but it's what made me happy today. :)
Being told I pass very well
Having the home phone technicians fix my phone line pretty much straight away, after the internet clowns not being able to achieve anything after months of complaints.
I was given a decent pair of straighteners last week & have now realised that my hair is long enough to cover my ears, yay!!
I've been shaving my head for the best part of 20 years & it feels great to have hair covering my ears.
I also noticed that a center parting makes my hair look gert girly (gert is Bristolian for "very", "great" or just chucked into the start of a sentence to make an added impact).
I was waiting in my bank last friday & heard a woman telling her friend not to push infront of the lady (that was me she was talking about!!), after studying me for a few seconds she ammended it to man but I was making no attempt to look feminine & was well chuffed to be momentarily mistaken for female just because of my hair change.
While walking home from school I saw a cute black and white cat walk across the road. Strange but the cat was so pretty and it made me happy.
A friend showed me the pics she took at the Elks Christmas party.
Damn, I looked "absolutely marvelous" shakin' it on the dance floor.
You Look Maaahvelous! - Billy Crystal Novelty Record (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JeIUstv95-Y&feature=related#)
As the boss was helping a customer, he asked him if he had the correct change.
The customer said he had 27 cents. I said, "He's got more sense than I do."
He says, "But I'm not as pretty as you are."
I said, "Thank-you, I appreciate that."
They finished their transaction and as the guy walks by me, on his way out
he leans in close, winks and says, "You are gorgeous."
My boss says, "What about me?"
I said, "You're Tom*."
*
The name has been changed to protect the humorous.
Eating Pizza Crust
It's snowing!
Jennifer
Had an amusing "passing" experience last night at my mom's retirement home. Before dinner, two people had already asked if I was her son. I'm still presenting as female, so I was trying hard not to laugh and say "you're more right than you realize". Then my mom even said "no, that's his dessert" to the waiter at the end of the meal and we both busted up laughing. She knows I'm trans, but I hadn't told her I was on T yet (ended up telling her after dinner).
I gave myself my own T shot today. ;D
I knew I wanted to start doing it myself after the first few times, but I still almost chickened out when the nurse handed me the needle and told me what to do. But I didn't screw anything up, and it didn't hurt. It was more comfortable than when they do it for me. And gosh that stuff is really thick and hard to push in.
I feel like such a little kid about this. I deserve a sticker and some ice cream. :D
Quote from: Felix on January 12, 2012, 08:20:17 PM...that stuff is really thick and hard to push in.
The "T" is suspended in veggie oil. It is as difficult for it to leak back out, through the tiny hole, as it is to push it in
I used to do my own "E" shots. What I found interesting was how tough the epidermis actually is.
QuoteWhat I found interesting was how tough the epidermis actually is.
Yeah I thought I'd be going in kinda slow, but you have to, like, pop it right through like it's a juice box straw.
Quote from: Felix on January 12, 2012, 11:56:12 PM
Yeah I thought I'd be going in kinda slow, but you have to, like, pop it right through like it's a juice box straw.
This image. I really hope my parents don't come in wondering why I'm laughing. :D
Also, a friend of mine (straight, cis guy whom I didn't know cares about trans issues) posted Buck Angel's video supporting Girl Scouts on Facebook. All the comments (all by guys, by the way) were about how good he looks and being glad that he put up the video. I think I like my friend's friends.
I was able to pick up the keys to my new place today, a day earlier than expected, so have started to shift stuff already. I now have a kitchen big enough for all my pots and pans etc. :)
Quote from: Lee on January 13, 2012, 12:18:13 AM
This image. I really hope my parents don't come in wondering why I'm laughing. :D
Also, a friend of mine (straight, cis guy whom I didn't know cares about trans issues) posted Buck Angel's video supporting Girl Scouts on Facebook. All the comments (all by guys, by the way) were about how good he looks and being glad that he put up the video. I think I like my friend's friends.
I love when stuff like this happens. ;D
It happened yesterday, but I got home late and was too tired to post just then.
I went to my office's winter holiday dinner party last night. There, I got to re-meet some coworkers with whom I really hadn't interacted since beginning transition. And unlike the last company dinner party, I wasn't nervous this time.
No make up, in my grotty cycling gear, I got called' Darling' and not in a sarcastic way. I must be doing something right ;D
A job may have just fallen into my lap. A professional one at that. A colleague recommended me for a program at our local "QUILTBAG" (haha) centre. I'd have to go to the interview and pass of course, but if someone's put a good word in for me, it'd take a fair amount to screw it up.
A job I like and am passionate about, work as a TA, and scholarships...I'm going to be rolling in the dough.
I think this made me happy.
I went into a dress shop, Noni B. Nice people asked if I was looking for something special, I said just looking at the sales stuff. Look away dear and let me know if I can help, she said.
Found a cute dress, can I try this on? Sure changing cubicles are behind the curtain. After about 10 mins there was a knock on the door, you OK Hon? Yes, I opened the door, and she had a good look, turn around. Looks really nice on you, the colour and shape is great, and of course with heels your legs will be longer. But if you don't mind me saying, wait until your boobs grow before wearing that style. She then came back with another dress. Try that one.
Guess who ended up buying a dress, and signing up for yet another loyalty card.
Cindy
I get clocked (or at least argued with) pretty often when I say my age, and one of the first irrational reactions I often have is to think "I should grow a beard. That'll show them." So it made me happy to remember this:
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I love Calvin and Hobbes
I love Calvin and Hobbs too, also Noni B, except they hardly make anything in my size.
I have moved about half of my stuff into the new place, except for the furniture, which will require hiring a trailer. Also happy because I now have a vehicle that can tow.
The lock on the back gate was frozen this morning. So I left it locked until the sun hit it and thawed it out.
About an hour later, (Oh yea, I discovered how to bring the customers or in this case the delivery truck, in.
Drink about four cups of coffee and guaranteed, every time I go to the rest room someone shows up.)
the delivery tractor trailer shows up. As the driver and his helper unloaded, I started a conversation with the driver
and found out that we probably crossed paths at a Bentonite plant in Wyoming, where he worked and
I hauled loads out of. In the course of the conversation, I told him about some of my experiences (23 years as a truck-driver,
driving long-haul, logging over 3.5 million miles in the U.S., Canada and Mexico.) The driver has me sign his paperwork
and asks. "Can you open the back gate so I can pull straight out?" I told him about the lock being frozen. He says,
"I guess I can get it turned around in here." With a grin I said, "If you can't, I can." He opens the door and motions for me
to climb on up into the driver's seat. (I haven't driven since June of '09) I climb up, close the door, lower the air seat
and slide it forward, push the clutch, start the engine, roll down the window, put it in reverse, release the parking brake
and slowly let out the clutch. With the helper sitting in the passenger seat, I back the truck up to the driveway so I can
get a enough room to swing wide. Then I put it in 1st gear on the 10 speed transmission, I couldn't resist, within 200ft.
I up shifted through to 5th and then downshifted back down to 1st. The helper, wide-eyed and smiling, says,
"You're smoother than he is." I smiled and said, "Thank-you for saying so." I got the truck turned around,
put it in neutral, popped the air brakes and relinquished the com back to the driver. He climbs up into the truck,
I told him thanks and waved goodbye to him and his helper. They both smile and return the salutation. As I watched
them pull out of the drive-way, My stomach knotted up and all I could think was, "God, I miss it." It was like snorting
a little Coke, It only left me wanting more. I had to reason with myself, "Yes, I miss
it but what is
it that I miss?
Trucker hating four-wheelers? The more and more frequent "routine" interfaces with ignorant and arrogant "law enforcement"?
The hours and hours and hours of monotonous monotiny followed by seconds of heart pounding, white knuckle TERROR?
No, I miss playing with the big toys.
I enjoy my job, actually I love the job I now have and the way I am working out a new life.
The last thing I need to do is think about effing it all up by going back out on the road!"
My stomach unknotted and I went happily back to work.
Quote from: Cindy James on January 14, 2012, 12:26:09 AMGuess who ended up buying a dress, and signing up for yet another loyalty card.
:icon_blink: :eusa_think: :icon_confused2:
Nicole Kidman?
:icon_chuckel:
I think this made me happy?
A guy came up to me last night in the lounge bar of a hotel and said ' If I buy you a drink can we end up having sex?' I was stunned for a moment and then managed to reply 'With a chat line like that I bet you're still a virgin'.
Gender stereotypes aren't important with my family, but we still use them to tease each other. My brother came over showing off his new disc golf bag, which looks like a purse. We were joking about it, and his response was "(not allowed) you and your gender norms" (in a friendly/joking way). I told him that when we play I'll wear a purse in solidarity with him.
Quote from: Cindy James on January 15, 2012, 12:06:39 AM'With a chat line like that I bet you're still a virgin'.
Successfully rendering a clean, sharp shut down is it's own reward.
Quote from: Lee on January 15, 2012, 12:40:40 AMMy brother came over showing off his new disc golf bag, which looks like a purse.
Did it match his shoes and belt?
What Made You Happy Today?Tonight it is, watching from the warm side of the window pane as the first snow of the season falls through
the light cast by the street lamp. Sipping Cinnamon whiskey, while quiet, rich jazz softly sets a mellow mood.
Had a great time at the local GLBTI support group BBQ. My partner and I managed to win the croquet. Amazing how well you play when you are sober:)
Lol, Cindy, nice shut down. ;D
my grandma was very open with me, saying that it was not OK for one particular family member to be abusive about my transition. It's
nice to have support. It's helping me get the courage together to discuss it with her.
I played my PSP.
My dom asked me to come over this weekend, and he even promised to do something I brought up awhile back that I thought would be fun. I had forgotten about him. With my regular partner I call all the shots, so this should be interesting. ;D
edit - I do have this weekend off, and I hadn't thought about what I might do with it.
My mother said she loves me.
Quote from: Bird on January 15, 2012, 05:14:26 AMMy mother said she loves me.
Aaaaaw, that is sweeet :icon_yes:
Just woke up, almost 5 am and there is between
6 and 8 inches of snow on the ground, very pretty.
I now have a new eyebrow lady who does my eyebrows perfect.
I love them.
Went to MAC and spent 120$ on makeup lawl. I hope Jay is ready to be spending money on me like this xD
And I went to look for new shoes, didn't find anything I like, but the guy at the cashier called me ma'am. c:
And it wasn't on accident either, I could tell he knew, but still said it out of respect.
Which made my whole day, it didn't even bother me when everyone else said "he" or "sir".
Heh. :]
It snowed this morning and again this afternoon. :) The second time it started with crazy thick hail bouncing all over the place before it switched to snowflakes. It was so beautiful.
And of course my daughter squealed and ran outside whooping both times.
I was trying to find my rubber stopper to my laptop cooling fan and my 4 year old nephew was going through my things and found a plastic orange whale toy I had for a while and he asked with the cutest voice could he have it because he didn't have any bath toys. I called my sister and she told me that she had to throw his old ones away because they sat in the water too long. He told me to "concentrate" while I was debating because he does like to be rough with his things and I am a hoarder. Then I finally just said ok if he promise to take very good care of it and he had the biggest smile and said he promise. I'm pretty sure that it will be destroyed within a week but it felt good to see him happy and it felt good for me to try and let go of some of my things.
I was Aunt Connie instead of Uncle David at my nephew's wedding today.
That is great Connie :-*
Quote from: Shades O'Grey on January 15, 2012, 11:46:03 PM
I was Aunt Connie instead of Uncle David at my nephew's wedding today.
Right on ;D That's great
Congratulations Connie. :)
And Malachite this made me lol -
QuoteThen I finally just said ok if he promise to take very good care of it and he had the biggest smile and said he promise. I'm pretty sure that it will be destroyed within a week
:laugh:
Congratulations Connie. :)
Power is on at my new unit!
Quote from: justmeinoz on January 16, 2012, 02:10:25 AM
Congratulations Connie. :)
Power is on at my new unit!
They started a new dam for you?
Almost not, managed to scrape the meter box backing my 4wd out of the carport, trying to miss a brick pillar. Just a flesh wound!
Woops!
You OK?
didn't make a mess of my nail polish for the first time ever. passed as female on a forum thread by accident and managed, with help, to find a way to wear a dress that I've been dying to buy since I saw it.^_^
When you can get your nails done professionally; orgasmic. :embarrassed:
I stumbled upon a silly person's YouTube channel. Their sense of humor, sass, and outlook on life made my night.
I can't sleep, but instead of the nightmares or bad recollections or meaningless panic that often gets me out of bed, tonight there's nothing more unpleasant than the simple detail of having trouble falling and staying asleep. Everything is nice. It's dark, the crickets are chirping (I'm very tempted to encourage the breeding, or buy more when they die), the house is not too cold, and the computer is all glowy and safe. I haven't had a cigarette in a couple days. I've been eating and I'm not a waif anymore. I'm starting to feel okay more and more often. :)
I'm ok Cindy,it was walking pace, but will have to do a minor touch up job on the car.
I had shellac nails done yesterday with glitter pressed in. Looks great and lasts heaps longer than normal polish. Doesn't make the nail go yellow either.
Kaz.
Thanks, all.
I think I'm late to the party, but congrats Connie. ;D
I bought medium clothes! For the past year I kept buying large, because I was insecure, but it made me look like i was wearing my dad's clothes because the shoulders of the shirts were too broad. And the neck was too big, so you could see shoulders/bra/binder strap. So very pleased with how this looks on me.
What made me happy today.... Ummmmm.... lets see. only two thing made me very happy today.
1. I was snowing in my part of the world. I love the snow(accept driving in it)
2. and this video a friend sent me on facebook.
A Message from Engineer (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QaLm4jZ5xzs&feature=youtu.be#)
I got a $.65 an hour raise.
:icon_rockon:
I spent the afternoon in San Francisco, walking from Embarcadero Center to Pier 39 for lunch, and walking back again.
A co-worker got me a Birthday gift: 3 pairs of earrings, 6 headbands, and some moisturizer, all in a pink bag. My hands are drying up pretty badly, so the moisturizer is great, the headbands I will definitely use, I wear them at work a lot and the earrings have a set that matches one of the headbands, they are both teal, which is a favorite color of mine. And I got asked to be a Bridesmaid by a friend for her wedding in June. :D
I helped teach a dance class for the first time. It went really well.
I found 2 more pennies today. They were outside my house. Now I am 2 cents closer to top surgery woop woop....Don't give me that look lol.
Quote from: Malachite on January 18, 2012, 11:46:35 PM
I found 2 more pennies today.
A journey of a thousand miles.....
I went to Strohecker's and got my own needles and T! I've been hearing about that place for a couple years and only just lately realized where it is. ;D It was a short bus trip up into crazy hills full of big houses and interesting trees. Today there was a bunch of unmelted snow up there, and you could see the city, and it was so cool.
Then lol Strohecker's is a grocery store. I had no idea. The pharmacy is just a tiny cubby in one side of it. The pharmacist and the tech were very nice. The whole place is really comfortable and old-timey.
I'm still going to keep doing the shots at the clinic for a few weeks, so the nurse can watch me until I get used to it.
It'll be old hat to you before you know it.
What Made You Happy Today?
Writing a long PM to a friend with a lot of my wonderful life's details, my hopes and some of my fears....
What @#$%^&* P!$$&@ You Off Today?
...pushing the wrong friggin' botton and wiping it off the screen.
It's to late (1:09 am) to start over tonight, I'll try again tommorrow.
Sorry Cindy :icon_wave:
Quote from: heatherrose on January 19, 2012, 03:12:56 AM
It'll be old hat to you before you know it.
What Made You Happy Today?
Writing a long PM to a friend with a lot of my wonderful life's details, my hopes and some of my fears....
What @#$%^&* P!$$&@ You Off Today?
...pushing the wrong friggin' botton and wiping it off the screen.
It's to late (1:09 am) to start over tonight, I'll try again tommorrow.
Sorry Cindy :icon_wave:
My Darling I know that one so well.
My best conversations are in the same place.
Hugs
Cindy
Quote from: heatherrose on January 19, 2012, 03:12:56 AM
It'll be old hat to you before you know it.
What Made You Happy Today?
Writing a long PM to a friend with a lot of my wonderful life's details, my hopes and some of my fears....
What @#$%^&* P!$$&@ You Off Today?
...pushing the wrong friggin' botton and wiping it off the screen.
It's to late (1:09 am) to start over tonight, I'll try again tommorrow.
Sorry Cindy :icon_wave:
Those ones are really meant for the writer so don't stress it.. Been there done that a hundred times.. computers grrr
That I'm healthy, had my blood taken for the first blood works this year, that a tg has a crush on me, that my libido returns, that people love me (with some most unimportant exception), that I prevented a suicide - day before yesterday, and that my legs still carry me pretty fast for 1 hour on my heath walks.
If that's nothing to be happy about, then I don't know what would do? :-)
Axélle
I met a guy off Craigslist today to do a trade and he was really nice and didn't seem like a lunatic for me to have to beat him down or cut him in self defense. Now I'm enjoying the CoD: Black Ops game I got from him and he's probably enjoying his 3 sets of binoculars he got from me. Odd trade but hey I didn't pay anything for the binoculars and I needed another video game.
I have the house to myself for five days. It's nice to be able to hang out in just my boxers again.
watching Dragonball Z Abridge with good friends
Quote from: amrisa loftus on January 19, 2012, 09:18:47 PM
watching Dragonball Z Abridge with good friends
My daughter showed me a bunch of those and I LOLed my a$$ off.
Quote from: Shades O'Grey on January 19, 2012, 09:25:28 PM
My daughter showed me a bunch of those and I LOLed my a$$ off.
the people are great. What makes it even more funny, it still follows the story line.
I'm happy I made it through the day. :) I made the mistake of taking on way too many tasks, and I'm glad to be home. My daughter is calm.
I had my last appointment with my therapist today, and he told me that it was absolutely amazing how much I'd changed in six months. Not just transition, but my general emotional stability and ability to function in life. My nightmares are going away, I can socialize, I'm in good physical shape, I got my smoking down to a pack a month, I'm coming to terms with my daughter's disabilities, etc etc etc. It was nice to put it in that perspective.
Also, I'm happy today because I GOT MY GLASSES! YAY! First new glasses in years, and first new prescription since 2005. I'm not totally happy with the way they look (turned out there wasn't a lot to choose from) but it is so so good to be able to see properly. Putting them on almost made me dizzy at first. Not used to seeing so many details. XD
Quote from: Felix on January 19, 2012, 10:07:30 PM
I'm happy I made it through the day. :) I made the mistake of taking on way too many tasks, and I'm glad to be home. My daughter is calm.
I had my last appointment with my therapist today, and he told me that it was absolutely amazing how much I'd changed in six months. Not just transition, but my general emotional stability and ability to function in life. My nightmares are going away, I can socialize, I'm in good physical shape, I got my smoking down to a pack a month, I'm coming to terms with my daughter's disabilities, etc etc etc. It was nice to put it in that perspective.
Also, I'm happy today because I GOT MY GLASSES! YAY! First new glasses in years, and first new prescription since 2005. I'm not totally happy with the way they look (turned out there wasn't a lot to choose from) but it is so so good to be able to see properly. Putting them on almost made me dizzy at first. Not used to seeing so many details. XD
That is Awesome. I'm happy for you.
I'm happy I got a pedicure and my toenails panted like white to offset the discoloring over the years. It really makes me feel good. I also got my eyebrows waxed. It's something I love to get done, although not often enough. Also the girls that were surprised about my presense is a fun thing to experience. As you all know girls are very accepting.
Samantha
My dad gave me 20 bucks so I'm 20 bucks closer to these jigglypuffs off my chest whenever the heck that will be in the future.
Quote from: Malachite on January 19, 2012, 11:56:19 PM
jigglypuffs
Lol, I think I just fell in love with you. ;D
Lolya Malachite that's hilarious. :laugh:
Also I totally want to start sending you the pennies I find on the ground.
That it still happens...
older woman about 50+ stops me just now in the shopping mall to tell me what beautiful legs I have.
Wearing 2.5" sling backs with peep-toes, pink toe nails, and grey 3/4 leggings with turquise top (fuffy pelmet length :-)
Gosh, it made my day - now were are these men that feel the same about this?!
I guess they're shy, lest they be an imposition. That's quite sad then, isn't it?
Axélle
@Casey awwww thanks lol you're going to make me blush, I actually fell in love with your avatar about a week or so ago. ::)
@Felix bring it on haha! When you find them throw them as hard as you can in the East direction and I'll find them. I'm going to predict that the next 2 pennies you find will be from the years 1956 and 1977. ;D
Seeing the term 'jigglypuffs' used to refer to the chest lumps. I have found a new name to call mine. Oh, and I swear my snake just told to F*** off when I picked him up. It was adorable. He sniffed once and put his face under his butt. It was great.
I was happy today for no discernible reason at all. :D And I'm not complaining about it.~
Quote from: Malachite on January 20, 2012, 10:00:08 AM
@Casey awwww thanks lol you're going to make me blush, I actually fell in love with your avatar about a week or so ago. ::)
You mean Haruka? ;D
I got $5 today AND pizza although I don't need the pizza.
and Casey I've always been in love with Distant Sky King (don't tell Molly that) lol so both her and the manly man avatar :D
Got my T refill from Strohecker's today. I screwed up the timing with my first follow-up dr. appointment, so I had run out of T cream for a few days. Definitely not letting that happen again.
Felix - I had no idea Strohecker's was a full-on store. Somehow your story makes me even happier to get my refill from them. Like it's a real place now instead of just some box that appears in my mail.
Malachite - I wish I could send you all this crap I'm schlepping to Goodwill (or even worse, the dumpster). I'll be stuck here 'til I'm 50 if I try to piecemeal it all out like that, but I'm seriously impressed with your Craigslist sales/trades.
Quote from: driven on January 20, 2012, 05:34:09 PM
Got my T refill from Strohecker's today. I screwed up the timing with my first follow-up dr. appointment, so I had run out of T cream for a few days. Definitely not letting that happen again.
Felix - I had no idea Strohecker's was a full-on store. Somehow your story makes me even happier to get my refill from them. Like it's a real place now instead of just some box that appears in my mail.
Malachite - I wish I could send you all this crap I'm schlepping to Goodwill (or even worse, the dumpster). I'll be stuck here 'til I'm 50 if I try to piecemeal it all out like that, but I'm seriously impressed with your Craigslist sales/trades.
I appreciate that mate. I wish I could be impressed with it too. It always seems like it's never enough.
I'm doing a similar thing. Selling stuff. To make money, but also to rid myself of unneeded possessions. I find I'm happier without a lot of clutter/stuff, I would rather spend my money on experiences and needs. :)
One of my tutorials that I'm teaching has a total hottie. It would be unethical to pursue anything with her, so I won't even cross that line or professional and personal communication, but damn. She's fine.
I scheduled an appointment with my therapist, had a friend over and......it rained! ( I like rain )
At first I thought today was going to suck because I only got four hours sleep thanks to a neighbour deciding to blast music from his car directly under my window, but I actually had a pretty great day. I found a shirt I'd been looking for for ages, which makes me look really masculine.
But the kicker was the fact that I finally worked up the courage to call a G.P so I can start my medical transition. Granted, I clearly had a brainfart because today's Saturday so they were closed, but it was a huuuuuuuge step for me none the less because talking on the phone makes me anxious, plus I'm deathly afraid of doctors due to some pretty bad experiences when I was younger.
TL;DR
I'm proud cause I had the guts to ring a doctor, even though the office was closed.
I did all I could to patch things up between myself and Doshia, the woman I call Momma-Bear. Things wont be as they were. but at least we are talking. I couldn't bear the silence.
That I got 3+Karama points today, and my name being used in a positive sense by a moderator.
And that the gm-word should NOT count as a rule 2. violation - this time, yes?
Axélle
Quote from: themanicbard on January 21, 2012, 03:16:59 AMI'm proud cause I had the guts to ring a doctor, even though the office was closed.
A very good start.
What Made You Happy Today?Having slept nine hours, without night sweats, the entire night.
What Made You Happy Yesterday?For the first time in a long time I am able to look hopefully to a future and make plans for it.
I found a place, two miles north of town, where I can have a studio/living quarters and a workshop for $400 a month.
Eventhough for decades (aside from a two year implosion) I have been a self starter and have worked
independent of supervision, I'm still a little scared. This is the first time I am truly taking a leap of faith,
faith in my creators subtle guidance and the talents I have been given.
Making a 90 on my online test/quiz-whatever it was on chapter 1 and 2 for my Criminal Investigation class for me only to skim through the pages.
I'll get my first binder (model M1700 from T-Kingdom) in about two weeks! ;D
The Transgender Parents Support Group meeting today in San Francisco. I hadn't been in a couple of months and it was good to catch up with the others.
Last night I came out to a few friends of mine, one of them was familiar with the LGBT community (as a lesbian herself) and we talked for hours, just driving around. I felt good to begin with talking to someone who has more experience than most of my other friends. However, the thing that topped it all off was as I was about to get out of the cars she said "Trust me, you would definitely pass." We hadn't even talked about passing or not, so that REALLY made my night ;D ;D ;D
Also, my other friend is already trying to use a feminine version of my name and female pronouns, and she says that seeing me as a female makes me more attractive ;) So far so good! :D
I ate grapes.
It snowed its butt off here this last week. As a result the yard where I work was closed for four days.
The second day the boss asked if I wanted to work in the main store until we could open the yard again
and of course I said yes. I enjoyed myself learning new things, staying busy and helping the customers.
Yesterday, a customer came in looking for a special tool. We did not have the specific tool but
found one that if it were modified (a little grinding here and a little filing there) would suit his needs.
I told him if he bought the tool I would work on it and have it for him tomorrow (today). He asked,
"You can do that?" I told him I could and he said, "Wow, a lady metal worker, Cool."
I worked on it last night and brought it in today and gave it to my boss to give to the guy when he came in.
While I was there a coworker came up to me and said the boss had not stopped commenting all morning
about how well I had done and he (my coworker) asked me, "Why don't you come to work up here at
the store and the new guy can work down at the yard?" I said I might be interested in switching back
and forth but I wanted to keep working down at the yard because I enjoy doing my projects.
Now as I sit here writing this I am wondering if the boss hadn't put him up to talking to me to feel me out.
What Made You Happy Today?
My boss seems really comfortable with my level of incompetence.
:icon_chuckel:
Nice one Sis.
Know if anyone could find a use for me it would be a happy day :laugh: :laugh: :laugh: :laugh:
How 'bout this?
You hold down that side of the planet.
I'll hold down this side and together
we can keep the whole world in balance.
Helping some of the handicapped and elderly folks at my apt.s 8) per usual
Getting out of work an hour early after having one bad day yesterday.
A good morning at church connecting with a wonderful friend there and re-meeting another, and a productive session with my therapist in the afternoon.
My sister believes that I can be independant one day if I put my mind to it.
My Butt of a manager is leaving to take a job in Idaho someplace. ;D
My mom said on the phone "I was looking at that Susan's page, and have you ever seen the doctor listings they have?" and we had a talk about trans surgeons nearby ;D
Quote from: Malachite on January 22, 2012, 10:44:04 PM
My sister believes that I can be independent one day if I put my mind to it.
All of your sisters and brothers
know you can be independent.
Not only that but thrive in your self sufficiency.
:icon_yes:
Quote from: Malachite on January 22, 2012, 10:44:04 PM
My sister believes that I can be independant one day if I put my mind to it.
Absolutely! Sometimes I get worried myself that I'll never be able to find/keep full time work and move out, or that I'll never be able to get a job that pays more than minimum wage (it's what I did to put myself through school, and it hasn't registered yet that I have a degree and can use it). Fear of the unknown more than anything.
Taking a leap of faith by signing the rental agreement for a studio/workshop/living quarters today.
I stood outside the office with a friend for 20 minutes after looking at the space, debating with myself over it.
My friend listened to my concerns (mostly baggage from the past) and encouraged me with facts in the here and now.
Then we went in and I signed on the dotted line.
I went into the hardware store which I work for (I was off today) and the manager asked if I had spoken with the boss.
I said that I had not and asked what about. She said they want me to work Sundays so the boss can have a day off.
That makes four extra days a month, WHICH AMOUNTS TO ABOUT $20 SHY OF PAYING MY RENT.
:icon_rockon: BLESSED BE :icon_yes:
@heatherrose Thank you. I really appreciate that. I do hope to not only survive but thrive and I'll get to that point one day.
@Caseyyy Thanks! I feel the same way about being able to find a full time good paying career. You are right about the fear of the unknown. The world is so big and there's much territory to explore!
Quote from: Malachite on January 20, 2012, 10:00:08 AM
@Casey awwww thanks lol you're going to make me blush, I actually fell in love with your avatar about a week or so ago. ::)
@Felix bring it on haha! When you find them throw them as hard as you can in the East direction and I'll find them. I'm going to predict that the next 2 pennies you find will be from the years 1956 and 1977. ;D
1982 and 2004. They're actually in the sink because they're very sticky. Found them in a flowerpot in the trash. ;D
And what made me happy today was other people. People are sometimes nice and interesting. People make me like life.
Quote from: Felix on January 24, 2012, 03:40:25 AM
1982 and 2004. They're actually in the sink because they're very sticky. Found them in a flowerpot in the trash. ;D
And what made me happy today was other people. People are sometimes nice and interesting. People make me like life.
I'm calling it Felix. I shall report on the next 2 pennies I find.
My day hasn't started yet but I'm happy at least that my mother is sleep at the moment.
While it's not my first day with my new breastforms (so-called chicken fillets), it's my first day with my new pocket bra and it hold said (better) breastform in place without the adhesive required for my old forms. The adhesive had been giving me a rash.
Actually. If I could high jack the thread and rename it to:
"What Made You Ecstatic Today?".
You'll find the answer following.
Seeing what 15 months of hard yakka and a phenomenal attitude can do
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,114460.0.html (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,114460.0.html)
If that's not the epitome of inspiration, I don't know what is !!
Be safe, well and happy
Lotsa huggs
Catherine
Getting my nails done, they were getting pretty icky looking. Just having a good day overall really even though I'm old, ugly and mostly broke, lol.
My mom being able to pick me up from college because I missed the bus.
I found out that my daughter got a part in The Vagina Monologues, and she's begun work on an historical LGBT novel.
I'm getting better at the Call of Duty Black Ops Multiplayer and I successfully swapped the correct amount of coins from my regular stack of coins to my top surgery coin fund to wrap up to eventually get bills for.
Quote from: Logan Erik on January 24, 2012, 08:37:08 PM
I don't believe it, not if that's you in your avatar.
Why couldn't you have questioned the "old" part of my comment too? :'(
Quote from: Jaime on January 24, 2012, 10:21:17 PM
Why couldn't you have questioned the "old" part of my comment too? :'(
Sweetie, you are neither old or ugly :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-*
My doggie slept on my bed and kept me warm during my nap. At first I saw all the little white hairs on my blanket and thought it was gross, but then I realized that those little moments help make life wonderful. When she dies I'm not going to remember her nasty little white hairs, I'm going to remember her for how affectionate and friendly she was. :) It specifically makes me happy because I love my dog, but it also makes me happy because everything is in perspective and I am just very content as a whole lately.
Last night I send off the paperwork for my visa and actually had a decent night's rest. I feel awesome today.
today the college I go to held a club fair and being one of the more active members the Gay Straight Alliance there, I just had to be there. From 8am to a little after 12pm we must have had three to four stop by and actually started a conversation with us. The college I go to is fairly open but the community which surrounds it is very conservative. So long story short those three to four people got me very happy. :D
Having my co-workers ask me to help them with heavy lifting and telling me how nice it is to have a guy working with them. ;D
Quote from: Stefan on January 25, 2012, 03:32:10 PM
Having my co-workers ask me to help them with heavy lifting and telling me how nice it is to have a guy working with them. ;D
that is always nice to hear.
Someone gave me some coin wrappers today. :)
I came up with a plan to surprise my crush who-isn't-really-my-crush-because-he-knows-and-likes-me-back(or at least I've been informed crush is not the appropriate word here) on Valentine's Day. I'm so excited.
I had a great meeting this evening with my pastor about the talk I'll be giving to the congregation this coming Sunday about my transition.
Quote from: Logan Erik on January 25, 2012, 03:05:38 PM
I may just be inclined to post some baby pictures. ;D
Definitely do, I'm curious about them.
I want to comment on the last few days of this thread. Def one of my favorites on this site. Makes me happier than whatever I think I'm about to post on it, usually.
Logan, Maggie the sheep reminds me of an old mama cat I had growing up. She would fight off possums and anything else, but she was a good animal.
Connie sticking to the convention of "an historic" kinda makes me grin.
I'm happy because the radio is playing Buzzcocks. I'm happy because even though I'm incredibly underslept, I'm alone, and it's so nice. My phone is not ringing. My kid is safe and asleep. I can pretend to be young, and I can have my own thoughts, and I can either get things done or I can play and daydream. I need the peace.
I came home from work today and as I picked up the local paper my landlady/friend/big sister said,
"Check out the back page". There amongst three pictures connected with the snow storm of last week,
was one of me holding a sculpting tool (snow shovel) working on my snow castle.
The caption read as follows:
"A young lady sculpted the front of a castle of snow in front of a residence
at the corner of --- and --- streets following a day of heavy snowfall last week.
"Young Lady" :icon_rockon:
That I finally got the flight refund from Thai Airways for the flight to have SRS on June 15. in Phuket, last year. It was cancelled due to emergency brain ops. on June 10.
How lucky can one get --- all the money now will pay the plumber for that broken geyser...
Not sure to laugh or to cry really.
This is so much a man's business... eish!
Axélle
reading heatherrose posts, something very real about them that makes me happy for her
I'm playing The Darkness 2 demo and it's pretty cool. OH and I got the victory kill shot in my team death match earlier!
Getting back on the internet, after moving. So I can come back here. :)
Well, if nobody minds. I'd like to highjack this thread again and rename it
" What Sent Me Over The Moon Today??"
Subtitled WSMOTMT.
Just back from the Endo with the new numbers.
After 1 month, 1 week, 1 day of an incredible start to HRT late last year.
'T' is down from 16 to 10.8, and fallling with some way to go yet
'E' is up to 258, and climbing. It too has a long way to go.
Sugar is 3.8
BP 140
The supposed down side is PSA is up, so is the Prostate, by roughly 30%.
So, in order to fight the good fight on the PSA front (Catherines' nose just grew 35 feet) The Endo has scripted Spiro and Provera.
And to top it off; having crunched some numbers last week, I'm about 95 weeks out of total bliss.
OMG .... that makes this week 94. ........ And next week (2 days away) 93.
Thank you for the use of this thread, I'll now return it to the rightful owner. In the meantime this thread can resume its normal program.
Be safe, well and happy, all
Lotsa huggs to you all
Catherine
Catherine,
Be happy! My high prostate levels did give me a 4-year scare. Spiro did lower my PSA level to 0.6 from a high of 5.8.
Joelene
I went down to the courthouse and applied for a concealed pistol license. There were a lot of people there, but I passed with no problems.
I went to the bank today and got some of my coins converted into paper cash.
Quote from: justmeinoz on January 27, 2012, 03:52:24 AM
Getting back on the internet, after moving. So I can come back here. :)
Cool !! Welcome back, hope your new place feels like home.
Quote from: heatherrose on January 26, 2012, 02:46:18 AM
I came home from work today and as I picked up the local paper my landlady/friend/big sister said,
"Check out the back page". There amongst three pictures connected with the snow storm of last week,
was one of me holding a sculpting tool (snow shovel) working on my snow castle.
The caption read as follows:
"A young lady sculpted the front of a castle of snow in front of a residence
at the corner of --- and --- streets following a day of heavy snowfall last week.
"Young Lady" :icon_rockon:
Haha, that is so cool! :D
I'm happy because I had a stack of cellphones from the last 6 or 7 years (I get them used and they burn out fast, or my kid breaks them), and I got one of them to work. I'm getting phone numbers and reading texts from 2007. I'm really heartened by the reminder that I used to be pretty normal. I had a few really good friends, a lot of regular friends, and lots of business contacts. Most of the texts are happy or at least inconsequential.
Nobody can take who I am from me. Whatever strength or silliness or calm I had then has got to still be in me somewhere. Yep. That's what I'm telling myself. :D
I put my christmas gag gift to work tonight. As a tooling engineer was doing an insert change in a press. I gave a couple of squirts from the gift, just outside the press while I hid around the corner. The gag gift was something called Liquid @$$, and it lives up to it's name and then some. The tooling guy smelled it and took off for the restroom because he didnt want to be blamed for it! he was inside a press and had no where to go but out! Later on I came back to the press and saw him walking back to it. I said, "Did you get lost?" he said, "Nah, had to go to the bathroom." I smiled sweetly and said, "So that was you huh?!"
"You smelled that too? It wasn't me, I'd have claimed that one!"
After a bit of banter about what it smelled like, I couldn't keep a straight face.
In the end, I gave him the bottle of Liquid @$$ because I could not stop laughing and my sides were hurting. He was such a good sport about it.
Riding down to Southport (southernmost bitumen road in the country) to catch up with friends camping, and meeting some of their old friends for the first time. Nice BBQ at the Hastings thermal springs and roast dinner at friends place in the bush outside Southport. Only saw one wallaby on the ride back in the dark! Whew!
I was riding with a friend around Cleveland and saw a license plate that said "GID KIDZ" and I was freaking out I was so excited! Wishing I would've been able to take a picture of it or say something to the driver out the window, but just seeing that around made me feel less alone knowing there's someone that supportive in the area ;D
Quote from: Logan Erik on January 28, 2012, 11:03:51 PM:icon_clap: :eusa_dance: :icon_geekdance: :icon_walk: Why, certainly I would love to. ;D ;D ;D Why do they call this 'work??' ???
Sweety you need a poker face.
The way to walk away a doubler winner is to convince them
"above and beyond" is an imposition upon you but you agree to do it anyway
because you are willing to put your personal life aside for their needs
Your worth goes up, and so does their appreciation.
You could walk away with a little more in your pocket
after you have enjoyed the hell out of your "work".
I went over to a friend's tonight to blow off a little steam.
A guy came to visit, who is a customer at the yard where I work.
I didn't recognise him right off and when he took my hand as I introdused myself,
He said, with a smile, "I know who you are."
I was a little taken aback but then realized who he was.
After we exchanged pleasant salutations,
he raised our clasped hands out of the way
so he could look me up and down, then he said, "Your lookin' hot."
After that, up to now, everything else is a bit of a blur.
:icon_chuckel:
Everybody's happy makes me pretty happy today.
What else is I worked at the food bank, at the perishables place where I've never been. My daughter turned 12 this week, so we're allowed to work different sections. The place we went was way out in the suburbs. I'll be sorting frozen wax beans in my sleep. ;D
Some friends ended up in town unexpectedly, so we hung out and grabbed dinner. Also, my grandmother fell, and we thought she might have broken her hip. Ends up it's just bruised. Oh, I also got caught up with Dexter, and now I'm excited for next season.
Finding a cheap pedestal fan as it is hot and humid here today and I was starting to melt.
And successfully modifying my kayak trolley so I can actually us it to drag the boat more than a couple of metres before it falls off.
I didn't die driving home.
I had some good dreams, even though they were intense. One was a little sad when I realized it wasn't real though.
I was dancing with a friend of mine, and he out of nowhere asked what gender I identify as and what pronouns I prefer. He just said "okay" and kept dancing when I responded. It really surprised me, but I'm happy he asked as I am really awkward about bringing it up myself.
being able to be myself around my female friends.
What Made You Happy Today?
Not hurtling off the edge of the world nor
having it crash down around me.
I spoke during worship this morning at my church about my transition and how helpful that church has been to me thus far.
And they gave me a standing ovation.
Quote from: Shades O'Grey on January 29, 2012, 11:31:43 PMAnd they gave me a standing ovation.
:icon_cry: :icon_clap:
Quote from: Shades O'Grey on January 29, 2012, 11:31:43 PM
I spoke during worship this morning at my church about my transition and how helpful that church has been to me thus far.
And they gave me a standing ovation.
Congrats Shades O' Grey!
Quote from: Shades O'Grey on January 29, 2012, 11:31:43 PM
I spoke during worship this morning at my church about my transition and how helpful that church has been to me thus far.
And they gave me a standing ovation.
Wow!! That's awesome Connie. I am so happy for you. ;D
Thanks, folks. It was just an amazing thing.
And, I didn't cry until I was back in my seat.
Here's a transcript of what I said: Beyond Boundaries (http://doubleinvert.wordpress.com/2012/01/29/beyond-boundaries/)
Thank-you for sharing that.
I feel enspired.
Quote from: heatherrose on January 30, 2012, 12:14:52 AM
Thank-you for sharing that.
I feel enspired.
And I feel humbled. Thank you, HeatherRose.
Thank you Connie, you a truly a marvellous woman and we are all better people to know you.
Thank You
Cindy
Landed myself a job interview for tomorrow..
Hope it goes well Kelly :)
Reading Connie's transcript made me happy today ^-^ Thanks for sharing!
Good luck on your interview, Kelly!
Quote from: kelly_aus on January 30, 2012, 02:04:47 AM
Landed myself a job interview for tomorrow..
Good on you Kelly. Hope it goes well
That was sweet Connie, brought a tear to my eyes.
Congrats on the interview Kel, and good luck.
Reading everyone's post is what made me happy. And bizarre as it sounds, looking out at the rain lashing down. Feels right now I am living on top of a (small) mountain.
Karen.
Just now, going to close the bedroom blinds, and watching a wallaby grazing in the backyard about 3 metres away. :)
I hope your interview goes well, Kelly.
And thanks, all. Though that talk was tailored for that church, I also could not be doing this transition thing without the support and inspiring stories of folks here as Susan's. You've been a part of this, too.
My cat was laying beside me so I dediced to watch a video of cats meowing on Youtube to draw her attention and it worked for a little bit. It was funny.
We finally got internet access at our new place today(we moved in together with my girlfriend two weeks ago) but the the best thing that happened today is that my girlfriend got her new birth certificate and new ID with correct gender marker and name. I'm soo happy for her, I can't stop smiling. She is on her way home, we will celebrate tonight.
Quote from: kelly_aus on January 30, 2012, 02:04:47 AM
Landed myself a job interview for tomorrow..
Best of luck Hun. Hope you land it.
Be safe, well and happy
Lotsa huggs
Catherine
I have new boots (http://img01.allegroimg.pl/photos/oryginal/20/60/54/69/2060546990_1), nice and warm
That the check-out girl in the Pharmacy asked me what mascara I use.
Seems she loved it - but... quite expensive, it was Lancôme today.
I also use Revlon and Maybelline.
It's when we really feel we pass - rightly or wrongly :-)
Axélle
A friend and I are headed to our first rehearsal with a community orchestra tonight. It'll be great to have a group to play with again.
Being 'clocked' by a 5 year old school girl in tow with Mum after school in the male bastion kingdom of a Bunnings hardware store this afternoon; and not feeling the slightest dent in confidence.
"Mummy! What's that man doing over there? I don't think 'Mummy' tweaked to the whole scenario. as she was in flight mode as all Mothers are after school. Attempting to return home at warp speed, in tack, ready to take on the pethora of tasks feeding and bedding the family.
Realizing that wearing 'girl clothes' isn't nearly as ucky-feelings inducing if I do it while wearing my binder. They look a bit awkward, because the shoulders are open/wide and the binder is completely visible, but the effect it has on how my chest/torso looks in the shirts I bought is something I'm much more comfortable with than otherwise.
My headache medicine actually decided to work today and I had a wonderful dinner at a friend's house. And it was the first time I've actually had dessert with a meal. It was really nice.
I made a dollar today. :)
I'm finally strong enough to move my main bookcase without either getting hurt or having to take all the books off. My cd player sits on top of it, and I recovered so many discs tonight. ;D
Also, coming across the phrase "priapic gyrations" made me really happy. I found a shakeweight at the thrift store for 2 dollars, and figured I'd give it a shot. I googled to see if anyone else found using it to be a bit vulgar and suggestive. Turns out people do. :laugh:
Today my daughter went to the Portland Youth Philharmonic with her class, and had no trouble. This is only the second field trip she's managed in years. They held her hand the whole time, but I'm still very proud of her.
I got basically no sleep last night, and I was going to get up this morning to take my grandmother to several appointments and errands. Instead I woke up to a note from my mother saying she went instead and telling me to feel better. It ended up taking her about 6 hours to get everything done, and I'm so glad I didn't need to go. My mom is awesome sometimes. :)
Got a phone call at 9am this morning about getting help for Mikey at school. First I got asked if I was my wife. I said no. Later on at the end of the conversation I got asked if I was grandma, step-mom, etc. I said no, I'm his Dad. Silence follows for a moment. Then I get asked to take down a phone number and called Ma'am.
That made my day and I'm not even out of bed yet! I guess my voice is now leaning towards the feminine side of neutrality. I don't even know how this happened. Lol
Quote from: Keaira on February 02, 2012, 09:10:36 AM
Got a phone call at 9am this morning about getting help for Mikey at school. First I got asked if I was my wife. I said no. Later on at the end of the conversation I got asked if I was grandma, step-mom, etc. I said no, I'm his Dad. Silence follows for a moment. Then I get asked to take down a phone number and called Ma'am.
That made my day and I'm not even out of bed yet! I guess my voice is now leaning towards the feminine side of neutrality. I don't even know how this happened. Lol
;D Very nice. Means you totally pass for female when they call you ma'am despite you saying you're dad.
Thank you Caseyyy. ^_^ I get called Ma'am on the phone all the time but this is the first time I have ever been asked my relationship with my child and still called ma'am after explaining. Now if only I could get friends, family and co-workers to stop with the male pronouns and salutations. Lol. Oh well, can't win them all.
Maybe I need to come over there and knock a few heads together? Straighten the rest out. :police: (lol, as if I could).
Don't worry dear. In the end they will bite them in the butt. ^_^
But I appreciate the thought. *hugs*
I found 3 cents today! 1 cent near a supplies vending machine, 1 cent on on some leaves and one cent nearly buried in the dirt. Talk about luck! ;D
Getting ma'amed and asked if the man of the house was at home when I answered the phone today :)
Quote from: Keaira on February 02, 2012, 09:10:36 AM
Got a phone call at 9am this morning about getting help for Mikey at school. First I got asked if I was my wife. I said no. Later on at the end of the conversation I got asked if I was grandma, step-mom, etc. I said no, I'm his Dad. Silence follows for a moment. Then I get asked to take down a phone number and called Ma'am.
That made my day and I'm not even out of bed yet! I guess my voice is now leaning towards the feminine side of neutrality. I don't even know how this happened. Lol
This is very good. I'm so happy for you. :)
The people on this site made me happy today. I've been really low, feeling both overburdened and a failure for not contributing more to the world I was borne to. Grasping at scraps, fatalistic, exhausted.
It's nice to come here.
Quote from: Logan Erik on February 02, 2012, 11:24:31 PM
I be having me a little manic episode wherein I declare, 'know what, F*CK YOU dysphoria and this effing state of pre-opera-tude that's made me wear five effing shirts at a time.' So I have done all of today's barn chores in nothing but shorts, boxers, and binder, wading through the snow, climbing around on the hay mounds and pitching hay and sorting out the moldy bits (got rather a lot of chaff in my binder, which is, erm, undesirable) and throwing feed and all the rest -- and God damn it was cold. And yet I am inclined to mark this down as a victory. :icon_evil_laugh:
This is a great story. ;D
Watching my little dog do laps around the living room and up and down the stairs at full speed. His little legs just pumping coming down the steps, making sure to hit every one too, lol.
Quote from: Logan Erik on February 02, 2012, 11:24:31 PM
I be having me a little manic episode wherein I declare, 'know what, F*CK YOU dysphoria and this effing state of pre-opera-tude that's made me wear five effing shirts at a time.' So I have done all of today's barn chores in nothing but shorts, boxers, and binder, wading through the snow, climbing around on the hay mounds and pitching hay and sorting out the moldy bits (got rather a lot of chaff in my binder, which is, erm, undesirable) and throwing feed and all the rest -- and God damn it was cold. And yet I am inclined to mark this down as a victory. :icon_evil_laugh:
Feminism comes down to women not being told how to look and act. Can't see why the same can't apply to men too. If a guy has gynecomastia and wants to let his moobs breath, so what. Especially doing something as physical as sorting stock feed.
Karen.
I got some pretty good ego strokings today. I got told that I was looking pretty and starting to get more and more like a woman. A friend said he could see how the woman who called this morning could think I was female because over the factory paging system I really do sound like a woman these days and even in day to day conversations I talk like a woman.
So yay, Go me! ^_^
Seeing my Letter to the Editor in today's Hobart Mercury. Full credit to Tekla for the wording I used, in response to former tennis legend Margaret Court's disparaging comments about lesbian tennis players..
"In response to Les Batchelor I would like to say that I know God is totally cool with homosexuality.
What's that you say? How dare I speak for the Almighty?
My point exactly, and I pray both you and Margaret Court will ponder it.
Having perused the Synoptic Gospels, I can find no quotes by Jesus on sexuality. If Jesus is the Lord incarnate, then I'd rather listen to the CEO than someone on the factory floor about company policy."
It will be interesting to see the replies it generates.
Karen.
Meeting a transwoman in my class last night who passes perfectly. I've had classes with her for two years and I never would have clocked her in a million years. It was nice to know that there is someone my age and on campus. It makes me feel less alone.
I like your story Karen. ;D
I'm not sure if 'happy' is the right word but I was asked to go to a strip club with friends. Apparently they have VIP passes. Lol. Keeping in mind that today, YET AGAIN, I walked away from the woman I had a crush on (she didn't see me this time, I ran away before she turned)...how in the world would I handle strippers? :P
I then saw the woman, from here on known as D, again, when she came to remind us about the seminar (they're every two weeks).
Me: I thought they were only on Fridays?
D: ...it is Friday.
Me: OH MY GOD
When someone saw how openly embarrassed I was after D left they said "She does have a certain elfen charm about her, doesn't she?"
Quote from: Caseyyy on February 03, 2012, 01:40:19 PM
I like your story Karen. ;D
I'm not sure if 'happy' is the right word but I was asked to go to a strip club with friends. Apparently they have VIP passes. Lol. Keeping in mind that today, YET AGAIN, I walked away from the woman I had a crush on (she didn't see me this time, I ran away before she turned)...how in the world would I handle strippers? :P
I then saw the woman, from here on known as D, again, when she came to remind us about the seminar (they're every two weeks).
Me: I thought they were only on Fridays?
D: ...it is Friday.
Me: OH MY GOD
When someone saw how openly embarrassed I was after D left they said "She does have a certain elfen charm about her, doesn't she?"
You are too funny Caseyyy. :D I think you could handle those strippers like the back of your hand.
This was yesterday, but oh well. I went to get an MRI taken, and the woman at the front desk kept calling me by my last name (which is a common male first name.) I was really happy until I sat down in the waiting room, and after a bit she called out my birth name and apologized for using my last name. Everyone else was giving me funny looks. Oh well, at this point I'll take passing however it comes.
Also, I received a CD of my MRI results. It's cool to be able to scan through and see the different layers of my knee.
Lol well you never know Malachite...a couple times I've surprised myself by how untimid I can be in certain situations. Dealing with D is clearly not one of them.
One of my friends texted me in somewhat of an angry tone saying "You know she's married! I spoke with Y. yesterday and she said she lives with her husband!" Soo. That does kind of turn off the appeal, somewhat.
:icon_cry:
What Made You Happy Today?
My Mama is no longer suffering.
:icon_cry:
Quote from: heatherrose on February 03, 2012, 04:17:15 PM
:icon_cry:
What Made You Happy Today?
My Mama is no longer suffering.
:icon_cry:
-hugs-
Hugs Heather :icon_bunch:
Heather I hope it's okay. :-\
What made me happy today was going to court for my official name change. There were 30 of us and I was the last one called up. It was mostly immigrants taking more american names and people changing things for themselves or their kids after marriages/divorce. The clerk did give me a funny look when she called me up, but then she sighed and smiled and told me to have fun with my new name.
Now it's legal. They said I'd get my copy of the court order next week. :)
Quote from: Felix on February 03, 2012, 04:45:34 PMHeather I hope it's okay. :-\
Right now it is, because I am very drunk and high. Tomorrow, on the other hand....
:eusa_wall:
Hugs Heather.
Congratulations Felix.
Quote from: heatherrose on February 03, 2012, 04:17:15 PM
:icon_cry:
What Made You Happy Today?
My Mama is no longer suffering.
:icon_cry:
{{{{{HUGS}}}}}
Heatherrose,
My profound condolences to you, your family, and friends whom your Mother touched.
They are all better people, for that experience.
Be safe, well and happy
Huggs
Catherine
*hugs* I'm sorry, Heather.
I shaved my face for the first time today. Not on T = not much to shave, but it felt glorious 8)
I'm so sorry Heather :( Hugs.
Quote from: Everyone on February 04, 2012, 05:29:54 PMI'm so sorry Heather
Thank-you my friends, it hurts beyond anything I have ever experienced.
The support I have received these last 24 hours has meant so much to me.
Thank-you and love to you all.
Quote from: Æsher on February 04, 2012, 05:29:54 PMI shaved my face for the first time today. Not on T = not much to shave, but it felt glorious
Your enthusiasm may wain a little in 20 or so years.
Kinda like shaving my legs.
:icon_chuckel:
I had a great night of salsa dancing. People kept telling me how good of a dancer I am, and one girl said I was the best lead all night. The best ego boost was when my partner and I completed a complicated move that ended up being perfect and stylish, and the girls behind us jumped up and started clapping and cheering. I felt like "Oh yeah, who da man. 8)"
Quote from: Lee on February 05, 2012, 12:51:47 AM"Oh yeah, who da man. 8)"
Boy oh boy, you da man, that's who!
:icon_rockon:
Well, it was yesterday, but I spent a friendly afternoon and evening with my soon-to-be-ex-wife. Our divorce becomes official on this coming Wednesday. And while we're both grieving (she mentioned that though Connie is easier to get along with, she still misses David), I think we're both in better places now.
We'll have a small ceremony with our pastor on the 8th, when we mourn what we've lost, celebrate what we had, release each other from our vows, and look forward to our continued friendship.
It was a good day.
Connie, I'm sure it's hard on both of you, but I'm glad you two have found a good way to get through it all.
Quote from: Lee on February 05, 2012, 12:03:26 PM
Connie, I'm sure it's hard on both of you, but I'm glad you two have found a good way to get through it all.
Thanks, Lee.
I've had a long few days and I'm still processing what was happy and what wasn't. But there was one unquestionably happy thing. I had a friend over, and in the hall we ran into a girl who used to live in the building but who moved out a year or two ago. The girl lit up and smiled and said hi to my friend and didn't say a word to me even though I was standing right there.
When I said lol what the hell I'm here too, she looked close at me, looked again, said oh >-bleeped-< <girl name> I didn't recognize you. I told her my current name and that I'd been transitioning. I think she was relieved not to have to apologize for thinking I was just some guy. XD Then even though this girl knew me years ago, she switched to male pronouns without being asked and with no stumbling or awkwardness. It was good. :icon_boogy:
I enjoyed my day off. It was a furry fun day. I spent the day being bombarded by good comments about my furry character, Miri, watching a furry artist sketch and color multiple pictures and got to chat a little with a writer about a furry story he wrote and published 5 yrs ago. And I made 3 new friends.
The artist, Knutlight, let slip that he was a student and things were extremely tight money wise, and in the end I ended up ordering him a Pizza. I just felt bad for him. he was doing the pictures for emergency money.
I know, kind of an unusual day, and interest, but what can I say? They are my kind of peeps too! And I've had my Fursona for years now.
Realising I may have been stung by a bee yesterday, and that my anti-allergy treatment has worked brilliantly.
Yesterday I was riding my motorcycle in the country and thought something had flown down the back of my neck into my jacket. Stopped but couldn't see anything when I took both it and my shirt off. A couple of hours ago I found a small lump like a mosquito bite, nothing more. :)
Realizing I could manage with a bus in twenty minutes instead of ten. Little things make the mighty world. ;D
The edge is not as raw as it first was.
I can do some normal necessary life things
without collapsing into a puddle of tears.
Thanx again, all.
I have been feeling very discouraged lately since I've run out of money for electrolysis due to being laid off right before new years. Today I was able to get laser treatment from a package I had paid for but was only able to use part of it until now. It went really well, didn't hurt nearly as bad as before and the tech was so nice. She commented on how cute my purse was. She's actually the first person to even acknowledge that I carry a purse. Too bad laser goes so fast she would have been fun to talk to more. The day after tomorrow my doctor will be switching my hormones to injections so I'm really excited about that. For the first time in three months it feels like my transition is moving forward again.
"They could combine Julie Marie's topic "Why do you come to Susan's?" with this one and call it,
"I came to Susan's today because this made me happy."
Wish I was there to give you a hug in person Heather.
I got the vegetable garden dug and even managed to find a few rocks for the rockery at the same time. Stopping for a hailstorm was a bit of a shock though. ???
I don't have class today :D might go in and get some studio work done, though, which would certainly be fun.
I noticed in the middle of watching a movie at the cinema tonight when I ran the back of my hand up my face that I am getting quite a bit of facial hair :D
Finally getting some much needed sleep last night :) I was exhausted after the latest bout of wrestling the insomnia monster over the past few days :P
My next class was cancelled for today so I'm home early. :)
Ordered a few new pairs of glasses and am currently making progress on my thesis research.
Prop 8 was ruled unconstitutional.
Quote from: Connie Anne on February 07, 2012, 01:17:30 PM
Prop 8 was ruled unconstitutional.
Thank God the US is getting a bit more sense, but gee, that took a long time, didn't it? Wasn't it put in years ago? Happy to live in Canada.
I'm happy that instead of going to school and suffering with period cramps, I emailed the necessary people, took a Motrin, and slept for 6 more hours.
Quote from: Logan Erik on February 07, 2012, 01:50:34 PM
I finally managed to talk to my mother about going on T. She is amazing and she is going to help me. I am feeling an immense relief that I don't have to go it alone. Her position is that I need to be happy, period. I'm very grateful. I usually think of myself as undeserving of love, happiness, friendship, space in the world.
Congrats Logan Erik!
What made me happy today was I was finally at the top of the score board for team death match.
Shin splints! No, wait. That's lame. Getting screamed at and hit and called names all day! Lol that wasn't fun either. I saw a giant raccoon with a bloody face in an urban area in broad daylight yesterday. Remembering that today made me giggle a bit. If life is going to hurt this much then the least it can do is be amazing once in awhile. :)
I got to talk to someone who cares about me today. She gets paid to care about me, but that's fine. So few adults irl know enough about me for me to let my guard down that it's a relief to just chill out for a bit.
Today I also had the pleasure of eavesdropping on a long conversation between two high school teachers on the bus. I could never be a teacher but I think what they do is pretty cool.
Quote from: Logan Erik on February 06, 2012, 08:35:59 PM
My mom called me a 'he' for the first time and I went AAAAAAAHHHHH THANK YOU and hugged her.
This makes me really happy.
I was able to help out a friend whose washing machine gave up the ghost. As the place I am in now came with a washer and fridge, so I will be letting her have my old ones cheap, rather than having to advertise them.
rock·er·y
noun /ˈräkərē/
rockeries, plural
1. A heaped arrangement of rough stones with soil between them, planted with rock plants, esp. alpines
We got things all set up for my grandmother to move into assisted living, and we took her to tour the place. It is actually really nice, and the other residents kept telling us how much they love it there. She'll be safer and closer to us, which will be a relief.
My girlfriend bought me an Evil Dead t-shirt for Valentines Day. :)
Remembering how out-of-proportion bad things can sometimes seem.
Leah made me happy today.
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1207.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fbb464%2Fkaelsleeps%2F31tempestsandwhale.jpg&hash=63c30972fdcfce622a269896449f73d5dc6c0fa6)
She looks like her daddy.
Seriously, you guys are so effing cute.
Lordy she is cute.
OMG Felix,
I hope you are REALLY proud of yourself.
You really do make an awesome father figure
for your daughter.
Hugs :icon_hug:
Catherine
Felix, your daughter looks so much like her Dad! She is adorable and you're looking pretty good, if I do say so myself.
Oh, and I was able to pop my neck for the first time in weeks. Maybe it will stop bugging me now. And I found a reprint of a primary source from 1943 I have been trying to track down so I can actually get going on my work.
My, what an adorable little Felixette ^_^
Finished my Howl cosplay (from Howl's Moving Castle) today after an intense battle with my sewing machine, from which I emerged victorious \o/
this thread made me happy. :)
also I got a bunch of free produce (zucchini, eggplant, broccoli, heirloom tomatoes, lots of etc) today and that was awesome.
Cooked an amazing dinner tonight, got to see one of my best friends this past weekend (and played a 5 hour MTG game with him an my boyfriend) and had one hell of an awesome pass yesterday. Me and Ben went into this Chinese restaraunt for lunch, one that I spent a >-bleeped-<load of time in while I was in high school, so I figured the girl would recognize me and prepared myself for the dreaded "miss" or something similar.
But, when we went up to order, she sir'd me so naturally that I almost didn't catch it. T'was pretty awesome.
Realized the person I work with, who I thought would drive me a bit crazy...I've come to really care for. Not in that way, she's a grandma, I just think she's such a good-hearted person and I am glad to know her.
At the meeting tonight, I was appointed Chaplain of my Elks Lodge, by the incoming "Grand Poobah".
Quote from: heatherrose on February 09, 2012, 01:28:19 AM
At the meeting tonight, I was appointed Chaplain of my Elks Lodge, by the incoming "Grand Poobah".
Sounds good. What does it mean? What do you have to do?
Got promoted to Level 33 on Call of Duty: Black Ops and I now have the option to use the crossbow so I have equipped that and changed up the face paint to celebrate! Prestige here I come!
Planted up the seedlings in my vegie garden, and took my old freezer and washing machine to a friends place after her washer died.
Quote from: Cindy James on February 09, 2012, 01:29:52 AMWhat does it mean? What do you have to do?
I could tell you but then I would have to kill everyone :icon_chuckel:
Actually, it would encompass reading prayers at the opening and closing of
weekly meetings, memorials, initiations and ritual blood sacrifices.
Outside of official meetings, simply it would mean lending moral support to those in need.
Quote from: heatherrose on February 09, 2012, 02:27:32 AM
I could tell you but then I would have to kill everyone :icon_chuckel:
Actually, it would encompass reading prayers at the opening and closing of
weekly meetings, memorials, initiations and ritual blood sacrifices.
Outside of official meetings, simply it would mean lending moral support to those in need.
o.0
Do you get a cute costume?
Like an Elk Cheer Leader? Or more formal Elk Robes, which of course would need heels.
I'm sorry i hope I'm not being disrespectful BTW
Cindy
They hang out playing pool with silly hats on >:-)
Oh so very disrespectful :eusa_naughty:
Aside from special events such as initiations and memorials,
"street clothes" are appropriate for average weekly meetings, otherwise,
a gray suit-jacket, blue blouse, yellow Elk print sash, long black skirt
(my choice, I love long skirts) and of course heels, would be the uniform for special events.
Of course the raiment for ritual blood sacrifice is a woolen hooded robe
tied with a three fold hemp cord and leather sandals.
:icon_chuckel:
LOL... You know I was being silly... Although I do have a black sweater dress that has a hood, would that be acceptable?
The Elks do allot of charity and community stuff :)
Definite family resemblance Felix, right down to the glasses. :laugh:
Having a friend who might end up more than just a friend, asking me to dinner tomorrow night. ;)
I have today off and its not raining!
Roger from American dad.
Also the morbidly obese mama squirrel.
I'm not happy, but it's the blinding and numbing sort of unhappiness, and I bet if I think back on my day there were some wonderful things in it.
Okay I just thought hard and I'm sure of a few things. Awhile back I wrote a letter to a guy through a queer prisoner outreach project, and I got a response today. I thought it might be stilted or a chore to converse with him, but he's interesting and friendly, and I look forward to getting to know him. I was clear up front that I'll only be writing once a month or so. So that way it's not stressful to me.
Also I had fun planning dinner before everything went to hell again. I got out cookbooks and thought about different ways to use the ingredients we have, and lol then just decided we'd make some less-ghetto-than-usual spaghetti. :laugh:
I made an 84 on my online test which is pretty good for me considering I only had an hour to do it and I was so tired after playing video games and surfing the web all night and it was on chapters 3-5. I deserve some cheesecake and a peach soda. :)
My own company.
I did really, really well on my bio exam. My parents keep stressing that I need to make A's, and now I have one to take home to them.
A girl (student) called me 'she' and I said, after the conversation ended, 'you know I'm male by the way?' and she looked really surprised and said 'yeah, I know. Why are you asking me that?' I don't know if she just went with how the professor refers to me or if she knows I'm trans, but whatever. I often wonder how people interpret me being referred to as 'he.' If they figure I'm trans or some weird-looking cisguy. =/
Quote from: Caseyyy on February 10, 2012, 04:43:28 PM
A girl (student) called me 'she' and I said, after the conversation ended, 'you know I'm male by the way?' and she looked really surprised and said 'yeah, I know. Why are you asking me that?' I don't know if she just went with how the professor refers to me or if she knows I'm trans, but whatever. I often wonder how people interpret me being referred to as 'he.' If they figure I'm trans or some weird-looking cisguy. =/
I wish I could have some input here, but I don't think I've ever seen what you look like, Caseyyy. >_<
You probably don't like as "weird" as you think you do though.
I don't pass, so I'd look pretty weird for a cisguy at the moment. My features are pretty soft, but my voice completely seals the deal, cause it's so damn high. and this girl has heard me talk a lot. As has everyone in the class obviously, as I teach them for an hour a week.
I'm hoping that my voice will be a case of extremes. :P Start off real high and drop down nice and low.
Finally got some more time to myself.
I figured out what was wrong with me this week. I thought I was dropping the ball, just falling apart under the burden of chronic problems. I was talking to someone today and realized I'd done intake for four different agencies this week, in addition to my daughter's behavior being worse than usual. At intake meetings I have to answer a lot of personal questions and talk about things that I find horrific to even think about. I think I did okay, really. I'm proud that I got dressed every day and kept going. I didn't cancel any appointments and I only slacked off on a few other obligations.
I did disconnect a bit, though. Nightmares every night and getting hollow-eyed and robotic in the day. I see it seeping in, though, so I can do something about it. I'm delighted to realize that I didn't get weaker. The world just got a little heavier, and it's temporary. :)
Quote from: Felix on February 10, 2012, 09:48:31 PM
I'm delighted to realize that I didn't get weaker. The world just got a little heavier, and it's temporary. :)
Whoa that's deep man.
One assignment down and now 999999 more to go.
Quote from: Logan Erik on February 10, 2012, 10:07:27 PM
The creatures, yeah, as usual. I'm doing worse recently so I'm making myself post something.
It makes me happy to see that everybody's doing okay, the dogs and cats and even a couple of sheep love me, and the llama doesn't hate me with more than the usual intensity. That always makes life easier.
Well, one of my more elderly ewes is having a tough time with her feet, which I'm sure is not helped by her being in the latter half of her pregnancy. I need an instant cure-all super-powered extra-special panacea so I can give her a friggin bath in it. Six months to retirement, baby, just hold on. :rolleyes:
Logan, if I didn't know you I would never have found myself googling "sheep gestation." Stand tall on that fact alone for a minute. So I was going to say something like well at least she can get off her feet while she's nursing the babies, but apparently they don't do that lying down.
Quote from: Felix on February 10, 2012, 09:48:31 PM
I figured out what was wrong with me this week. I thought I was dropping the ball, just falling apart under the burden of chronic problems. I was talking to someone today and realized I'd done intake for four different agencies this week, in addition to my daughter's behavior being worse than usual. At intake meetings I have to answer a lot of personal questions and talk about things that I find horrific to even think about. I think I did okay, really. I'm proud that I got dressed every day and kept going. I didn't cancel any appointments and I only slacked off on a few other obligations.
I did disconnect a bit, though. Nightmares every night and getting hollow-eyed and robotic in the day. I see it seeping in, though, so I can do something about it. I'm delighted to realize that I didn't get weaker. The world just got a little heavier, and it's temporary. :)
Felix, I just want to you know that I find you to be an inspiration. With all that you face and you can still seem to have a positive outlook, it's just truly inspiring to me.
Quote from: Connie Anne on February 10, 2012, 11:32:34 PM
Felix, I just want to you know that I find you to be an inspiration. With all that you face and you can still seem to have a positive outlook, it's just truly inspiring to me.
Thank you Connie. The explanation I gave here is why I didn't respond to you in the other thread. I'm okay and I just thought I wasn't because I was not seeing the forest for the trees.
I got two books in the mail today. Introduction to Objectivist Epistemology and Ayn Rand's Normative Ethics - The Virtuous Egoist.
i got a vehicle today! it's a 95 Ford Windstar LX with only 91'000 miles for $2000!! And it's a really pretty blue.
And I got called Ma'am at the Wendy's drive thru. :D
Congratulations Keaira!
What made me happy today was and is warmth and food and relative quiet. Zero expectations, only plans for the weekend are to do as little as possible and avoid conflict, rush, strenuous physical activity, and unnecessary stimuli. It's working so far, for the most part. I think the most complicated things I've done today have been showering and reading last Sunday's newspaper.
After she goes to bed I'll spend more time checking apartment listings and stuff I can't really put off. But I'm not going to try to concentrate on anything serious while she's up.
Lame joke on the radio - Why does a chicken coop have two doors? Because if it had four it would be a chicken sedan. Hahaha. Coupe. I really, really like how boring today has been. ;D
My "Woman Drought" has broken!!! ;D
Started seeing someone I have known for a while. Not rushing things, and will wait to see how things turn out.
Have worked out I am definitely a Lesbian though!! :)
Karen.
Quote from: justmeinoz on February 12, 2012, 04:23:12 AM
My "Woman Drought" has broken!!! ;D
Started seeing someone I have known for a while. Not rushing things, and will wait to see how things turn out.
Have worked out I am definitely a Lesbian though!! :)
Karen.
Congratulations Karen! I hope things go well in your new endeavor with this person. :)
I have just counted my money in my jar that is labelled "Chest surgery" that I promised myself to put spare change in. I started it last December to motivate myself
to be more money wise and work towards getting closer to how I'd like to be. As of today, I have saved $49.95. :)
Quote from: Morgan. on February 12, 2012, 06:20:41 AM
Congratulations Karen! I hope things go well in your new endeavor with this person. :)
I have just counted my money in my jar that is labelled "Chest surgery" that I promised myself to put spare change in. I started it last December to motivate myself
to be more money wise and work towards getting closer to how I'd like to be. As of today, I have saved $49.95. :)
Woop Woop Congrats Mate!
I made 50 cents which will be going into my change for top surgery.
Quote from: Felix on February 10, 2012, 09:48:31 PMI'm delighted to realize that I didn't get weaker. The world just got a little heavier, and it's temporary. :)
I'm proud to know of you and your determination.
What Made You Happy Today?I finished building the frames of the two 16 ft. x 13 ft. sliding doors that I am hanging
on an old warehouse for a client, with the promise of much more work to come.
Blessed Be
Catching up with old Night School classmates at a picnic hosted by my old teacher. Shared lunch and drinks followed by a few games of Boules.
My sister took me out to eat for Chinese and I got a penny today.
I'm off to buy my girlfriend a Valentine's Day card.
I know I'm super last minute, but better late than never.
And anyway she didn't buy me one yet either so yeah.
Omg. We're so lame. I love her xD
I don't know what my daughter is doing, but it's adorable. Two plastic dinosaurs, a plastic palm tree, and a lot of frantic whispering. She has some kind of scenario going on and she looks happy.
Quote from: Felix on February 13, 2012, 05:23:34 PM
I don't know what my daughter is doing, but it's adorable. Two plastic dinosaurs, a plastic palm tree, and a lot of frantic whispering. She has some kind of scenario going on and she looks happy.
Reading this made me happy.
My knee is fine! The doctor thought I had a torn meniscus, but after looking at the MRI he said that it is just bursitis and that my knee is structurally perfect (which is a huge relief because most of my family has weird knees that cause problems). It went from "You'll probably need surgery" to "Everything's textbook." :)
Quote from: Lee on February 13, 2012, 09:42:23 PM
My knee is fine! The doctor thought I had a torn meniscus, but after looking at the MRI he said that it is just bursitis and that my knee is structurally perfect (which is a huge relief because most of my family has weird knees that cause problems). It went from "You'll probably need surgery" to "Everything's textbook." :)
That's a huge difference in diagnoses. :) I have a garbagey knee but still can't think of anything but Brandon Roy when these kinds of injuries are discussed.
Trail Blazers Down To One Working Kneehttp://www.theonion.com/articles/trail-blazers-down-to-one-working-knee,19246/ (http://www.theonion.com/articles/trail-blazers-down-to-one-working-knee,19246/)
"My love for you is like a truck."
Big and can take a lot of abuse?
In it for the long haul?
Here today, gone tomorrow?
Bound to break down at the most inopertune times?
:icon_chuckel:
At the PFLAG (http://www.pflagsanjose.org/) meeting tonight I was asked if I'd had voice training. When I said that I hadn't, I was told that my voice is not a give away.
Quote from: Connie Anne on February 14, 2012, 12:36:30 AM
At the PFLAG (http://www.pflagsanjose.org/) meeting tonight I was asked if I'd had voice training. When I said that I hadn't, I was told that my voice is not a give away.
Sweet. I was told that once, but it's almost irrelevant to me because I know T will do the work for me at some point. Congratulations.
Quote from: heatherrose on February 14, 2012, 12:34:14 AM
"My love for you is like a truck."
Big and can take a lot of abuse?
In it for the long haul?
Here today, gone tomorrow?
Bound to break down at the most inopertune times?
:icon_chuckel:
Heather when I was really broken, when my life was really bad and I couldn't walk and every day was pain and even trying to get to the bathroom was hell, I played world of warcraft. I had a friend in the game who used to say this all the time. Being culturally illiterate I had no idea what he was referencing. I didn't look it up until a long time later because I like having disjointed absurdities echoing in my life. It makes me happy. :laugh:
Clerks - Berserker (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5D-9X3ooFvo#)
Quote from: Felix on February 14, 2012, 01:35:15 AM...I like having disjointed absurdities echoing in my life.
It makes me happy. :laugh:
Sometimes it seems my whole life has been
one long string of "disjointed absurdities".
Might we be kinfolk? :eusa_think:
Not much of anything, waking up to another day was pretty much just one more pain in the ass to be dealt with
Quote from: V M on February 14, 2012, 01:55:49 AM
Not much of anything, waking up to another day was pretty much just one more pain in the ass to be dealt with
Good morning, Sunshine. :D
Quote from: V M on February 14, 2012, 01:55:49 AM...waking up to another day was pretty much just one more pain in the ass to be dealt with.
:eusa_think: I think I would change up my morning exercise routine if I were you.
:icon_chuckel:
Well.. I got to talk to a friend online that I haven't spoken to for a while.
He's my buddy. :'D
You could talk to someone you don'y know and wish them well.
Smiling fools everyone
CJ
Finally getting out of that meeting and letting a big fart rip. Seriously.
But now, sadly, I must head to a class and hold one for another half hour. What the heck did I eat?
I went to Target and bought myself a Valentine treat: pink boxers with lipstick kisses printed all over them. They make me happy.
Found out today that I passed the highest level of the Japanese Language Proficiency test. :D
Found bulk gummies at the store shaped like Mario characters. ;D
Quote from: Caseyyy on February 14, 2012, 08:38:02 PM
Found bulk gummies at the store shaped like Mario characters. ;D
That's so cool!! ;D
I started a Community Services Work class at college which is a starting qualification which will take me into Youth Work/Mental Health Work. I've already made a nice group of friends and today was only my third day. And they all know I'm trans, and they were all actually surprised I wasn't a cisguy. They all use my preferred pronouns, too! :)
My depression lifted, just like a wave of fresh air, one minute I was struggling to keep my act together as I have been for the last five days. Then I was OK again.
Joy to the World. And Hugs to everyone
Cindy
I got the final kill on team death match and we won! Almost everytime our team wins I give a hand salute.
Reading all of the above :) , and setting up a 'True Blood' marathon with a couple of friends for tomorrow.
Quote from: justmeinoz on February 15, 2012, 02:42:46 AM
Reading all of the above :) , and setting up a 'True Blood' marathon with a couple of friends for tomorrow.
Is that the teen vampire or the Rambo series. Shows my age again :embarrassed:
Just been told the DVD is cactus.:( So no hot girls and vampires.
Good to hear you are your old self again sis.
:) :) :)
Quote from: justmeinoz on February 15, 2012, 02:49:11 AM
Just been told the DVD is cactus.:( So no hot girls and vampires.
Good to hear you are your old self again sis.
:) :) :)
Thanks Sis. You know what it's like. Too much pressure sometimes. Too much sorrow and too little sleep due to both of them.
I'm OK.
Happy times again
Hugs
Today was really really hard and might be easy for me to push over into the category of what made me unhappy, but it was good.
I'm really keyed up and overstimulated and triggered, and it's been that way for a week and a half, and I haven't been able to get anyone to take me seriously. When there's screaming and violence and stuff on a daily basis it's hard to explain the difference between that and real crisis. Today I did something embarrassing that had the unintended benefit of getting my point across. After talking to the family therapist my daughter and one of her specialists joined us in the little room where we sometimes meet. We talked about serious things and happy things and everything was going fine until my daughter started flicking the light switch on and off. I freaked out, started roaring for her to stop it or some such thing. I'm not sure what I said. I simply reacted. My reaction surprised me as much as it did everybody else.
Which is the kind of thing that's been happening for a week or so, along with a lot of staring into space and not being fully present. I've had to talk about a lot of triggery stuff and I've also witnessed two car accidents this week. I get screamed at and/or hit every day and I have nightmares every night. It's just a bit much, really. I need a day off. I'm starting to get the right people to understand. I'm a little ashamed that my kid ever sees me get scared and ready to fight at such minor cues, but it is what it is. I wasn't like this two weeks ago, and I'm positive that if I can stop being forced to hash out horrible memories on a daily basis on top of getting hit and screamed at, I'll be okay.
Bureaucracy is like a meat grinder. There is no gentleness, no diplomacy, no asking it to just chill out while you catch your breath.
Quote from: Cindy James on February 15, 2012, 02:53:06 AM
Thanks Sis. You know what it's like. Too much pressure sometimes. Too much sorrow and too little sleep due to both of them.
I'm OK.
Happy times again
Hugs
Of course you realise a simple little SMS would send an immediate cheerie note of positive reinforcement that will substantially reduce your 'down' time; don't you?
You know we are here for you,
Robinson Crusoe, Cindy.
Otherwise, good to hear you are on the up side.
Keep well
Huggs
Catherine
Last night, My wife gave me a single red rose. It's the first time anyone has given me flowers. ^_^
Thinking about me and my SO making sweet love tonight. Okay, I know...TMI, lol.
I brought a PS Move today and due to the gift cards I got saved a lot of money.
Well, what initially made me unhappy was not justified. I was worried that I wasn't meshing well with this one class, so I just spoke to the professor and she said I'm doing fine and meeting her expectations.
Knowing that I can hang on, that feeling bad is at least still feeling. My biggest fear is of going cold. I still care. I can sublimate the sadness or anger and use it to fuel the fight, to keep going. My life has meaning. I've never experienced ennui. My drama and suffering is a luxury some people aspire to. Or think they do.
Eff it. Dolphins made me happy today. I like dolphins.
I went out to dinner with my son. We had burgers and a fun conversation about the Star Wars Expanded Universe stories and characters.
Relaxing with a friend who is unwell watching a DVD marathon of UK copy of 'The L Word', "Lip Service." Better than the original.
I like something Cindy said yesterday or the day before about smiling fools. Don't remember why she said it or context. I've been incredibly unhappy, and little bits of here and there make me smile. Maybe my weight will lift soon too.
Also I fed one of my neighbors. He came over and fake-casually asked me if I had any extra food I didn't want. I made him up a box of our dinner leftovers and I think I managed it so the casual was maintained and it was no big deal.
I was the top shooter in this team death match on Black Ops. My Kill/death ratio was 15/11
We were sight reading a piece in orchestra that is a little beyond us. I ended up playing it almost perfectly and managed cues for my section. It ended in a "Damn I'm good" kind of feeling.
And what happened, then? Well, in Whoville they say - that Lee's ego grew three sizes that day.
Watched Sherlock last night, slept in because I stayed up late, so I missed an important audit meeting. Auditor was not happy. Told him to get a life. Passed audit.
Auditor apologised.
Auditors don't have a life, so you have probably opened a whole new world for him Cindy. :laugh:
I was going to watch it too, but was pretty tired and crashed early.
Glad to hear you had a good day.
Introduce him to Sherlock and he'll thank you for missing that meeting. ;)
I stayed up late last night in bed with my girlfriend talking about my transition (just starting), our relationship and watching MTF youtube videos. Almost missed my morning class today cause I was so tired, but I've had a big grin on my face and feel genuinely happy today about it all. It felt so good and natural for us to be talking about it and I am so grateful that I have found her ;D :icon_love:
Woke up from a dream where I got a kiss from a really pretty girl.
Except she said to me "I make lots of money" which made me feel bad for some reason.
Just ordered my first packer!
:D
Quote from: Keaira on February 15, 2012, 12:29:37 PM
Last night, My wife gave me a single red rose. It's the first time anyone has given me flowers. ^_^
Aww! ^_^ It's nice, isn't it? A friend bought me a bunch of white roses for my little coming out party last year. I had always told myself I didn't really care for flowers, but when I suddenly had a bunch in my hands from somebody else, I realised how nice they can be. :'D
got woken up by a phone call from the local Ford dealership. Set up an appointment tomorrow at 9am to have my newly aquired Minivan to have an oil change and to be inspected. The guy on the other end of the line asked me if I was my wife, as they all seem to do at the start of the call. I told him "no, I was her husband."
I Still got called Ma'am! So at this point I utterly fail at being a guy even when I try not to. It's the best time I've ever failed LMAO!
And my wife waxed my eyebrows just 5 mins ago. it made my eyes water this time. lol
I found a penny on the road today. It was wet because of the rain and it looked more like Egyption carvings because of the abuse it took. I couldn't make out anything on the front of the penny. Nevertheless it's still a penny and I'm thankful to even found that. One more cent to add to my top surgery fund! ;D
Also there was this jeopardy game played on our college campus and then the announcer randomly threw out small stress balls and I caught the soccer ball verison of one. I wanted the basketball version but I'm glad I got something at least.
Getting a killer deal on some charcoal grey tights I've been looking for :) Normally $48- each, I got them 2 for $23- including shipping... I'd gotten a heather grey sweater dress a few years ago but could never find affordable tights that went well with it, these are perfect :)
This thread is so good for my happy. :)
Logan did you decide what to do about your name on the ground?
My new avatar.
Last time I took some photos they turned out awful.
Tonight I took some new ones in celebration of over 2 years of HRT and I think they turned out great.
Quote from: Logan Erik on February 16, 2012, 08:38:49 PM
I'm going to see if I can track down some concrete and fill it in. I don't think I have any but I'm sure I can finagle something.
I've been torn about how to deal with things like this that make me uncomfortable but have other positive significance. I'm personally usually pretty relieved when I just give in and change or get rid of whatever it is, even if it's a little sad.
What made me happy today is that my daughter had no major problems, and it took until the 11th hour but we got her meds problem worked out, so she won't be going without tomorrow.
And realizing the period I'm on might be the last one I ever have. :)
And sleep. I asked a friend to come over because I keep having nightmares. It didn't help last night - we talked too much and stayed up too late - but after getting my daughter on the bus (I snuck him out before waking her) he came back and we went back to sleep. I didn't wake up yelling. I had to rush through my obligations after wasting the morning sleeping, but I don't care. I feel a hundred percent less insane. :laugh:
Quote from: Logan Erik on February 16, 2012, 01:27:48 PM
Amateur blacksmithing. ;D Worked up a bunch of hooks and towel holders and the like.
Out of curiosity, what do you use for a forge? I end up Mavericking something together with a torch whenever I hot forge, and it's time for something that works better. :-\
You should post pictures of your stuff too!
Quote from: Lee on February 17, 2012, 12:48:52 AM
Out of curiosity, what do you use for a forge? I end up Mavericking something together with a torch whenever I hot forge, and it's time for something that works better. :-\
You should post pictures of your stuff too!
OOOH! I LOVE Blacksmithing!! I havent done it but once since I left college.
I had my eyebrows waxed today. so everyone can stand down and relax. ^_~
My mom gave me $2 for making a 99 on my test and I went change hunting in my dad's house and got alot of coins. More money towards my top surgery yay!
Went and saw an International Students dance show thing at uni! True, I was stuck manning the stall for the Japanese Society (I'm not Japanese myself, I'm just on the committee) but it meant I got a really good view of the whole thing. There were even a couple of songs I recognised and I had a bit of a dance myself behind the stall 8)
I got my name changed with the Social Security Administration. The lady was kind of mindlessly reciting the spiel and had obviously done it a bunch of times, but when she looked at my court order she stopped mid-sentence. Her gears turned for a few seconds before she returned to the spiel, but she remained as friendly as she was before. I was asked to show my driver's license, confirm my phone number, and affirm that all my information is correct and true to the best of my knowledge. They said I'll get the card in 7-10 days. Maybe it's mostly symbolic, but it makes me happy.
And I finally got a therapist. I like her, and she has experience with both transpeople and PTSD, and she takes my insurance.
And I have respite care for my daughter. I've been so overwhelmed lately that I've started making sure to schedule it at least every other week. I refuse to socialize or do anything interesting this weekend. ;D
Quote from: Logan Erik on February 17, 2012, 10:00:25 PM
Horses! horses horses horses
Can you ride them? They're pretty cool even when they just wander around eating grass.
When the occupy stuff was going on here, the cops' horses had special riot helmets. Very smart but it made me laugh.
Quote from: Logan Erik on February 17, 2012, 08:02:24 AM
It's fun, innit? My grandpa rigged it up - it's a big bowl on legs that is somehow hooked up to an air compressor that acts as bellows. It sits right inside the big sliding doors in the back of his shop, and so there's also a fan suspended from the ceiling to encourage the smoke to go out. Here's some of the hooks
Pretty cool. The cat is doing a great job of making sure they don't run away.
I passed the pharmacy technician certification exam, so now I'm official and hopefully employable.
I got two really great compliments today. One student said that the (short) feedback I gave on her proposal was the best feedback she's ever gotten, and another girl actually confirmed that when I met with her separately ("I was talking to P and she said you gave her the most helpful feedback she's ever gotten").
And another girl said that I was her and her friend's favourite. :)
I had a good lunch and wonderful conversation with a long-time friend who had not yet met me in person as Connie.
The appointment at the dealership went well. my new Minivan had an oil change and an inpection revealed it needed a tune-up, spark plugs, 2 new tires on the rear and a transmission flush. So I'm happy that the $2300 we spent to buy it may have been a bargain.
Oh ya, I ordered that dress I've been drooling over for some time now
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And found a coat I want too
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fimg.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fv231%2Fmandirvana%2FSinderellas%2520Shrine%2FHell%2520Bunny%2FCoats%2520and%2520Jacket%2FImma%2520Coat%2FImmacoatm.jpg&hash=9c45cf45f4daeb0310f7d70597e9784b70d63d08)
Those are pretty. The coat looks hard, but have you thought about trying to make a dress like that? If you don't want to freehand you can get patterns and use a sewing machine.
Quote from: Felix on February 18, 2012, 03:35:39 AM
Those are pretty. The coat looks hard, but have you thought about trying to make a dress like that? If you don't want to freehand you can get patterns and use a sewing machine.
I've thought about it and it may be a future project. But I seem to have a love of things vintage-styled and classy. The coat is corseted at the back. I love the look that double-breasted coats have, which is why I own this one:
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He's a multi-talented pet. :laugh:
I realized after I entered the men's room and was almost to the stalls that I wasn't binding and was wearing a t-shirt, but nobody seemed to notice.
I didn't shower until I got really funky because I was so happy that my funk is finally smelling like it should. :laugh:
Quote from: Felix on February 18, 2012, 11:53:44 PM
I didn't shower until I got really funky because I was so happy that my funk is finally smelling like it should. :laugh:
Haha Good one! I was sweating last week and my sister told me that I smelled like a grown man. That was such a compliment.
Went to get my eyebrows shaped and tinted, again. The people remembered me from last time and were really friendly, they have made them very arched and cute. The tech said she though she was getting my brows to a point that they were looking very feminine and suiting my look.
My daughter came down from college a day early. We had dinner together and jammed for a while (her on guitar, me on bass).
Quote from: Connie Anne on February 19, 2012, 09:23:07 PM
My daughter came down from college a day early. We had dinner together and jammed for a while (her on guitar, me on bass).
Nice :) Right on!!!
Quote from: Connie Anne on February 19, 2012, 09:23:07 PM
My daughter came down from college a day early. We had dinner together and jammed for a while (her on guitar, me on bass).
Cool! My son refuses to play the stuff Ilike. >:(
Finally getting Uni enrolment sorted, receiving and accepting my BA Offer! Roll on next Monday. I am now officially a layabout wasting my life as an Arts Student! :)
Karen.
I thought I was going to die or throw up or pass out earlier, and then I realized I was having a hot flash. I like not being dead. ;D
Quote from: Felix on February 20, 2012, 01:13:00 AM
I thought I was going to die or throw up or pass out earlier, and then I realized I was having a hot flash. I like not being dead. ;D
Aren't they are barrel of fun.. :icon_evil_laugh:
Today is bolludagur.
I'm making Vatnsdeigsbollur.
Puffy pastry balls filled with whipped cream, jam and dipped in chocolate.
A bit like big round eclairs.
They are so good!
I finished my proposal, and now I get a week off! :D I will have plenty of stuff to do when I get back, but pfft. That's a whole seven days in the future.
I spent most of the day hanging out with my daughter. And the four of us (me, her, my son, and my ex-wife) are going to have dinner together for the first time in a while.
I stopped at a gas station for a nice big soda. Only set me back 74 cents, and the ice is in the form of delicious little crunchy pellets. The cup is also styrofoam, so I may be killing the planet, but it stays chilly and icy foreverrr.
I'm way too excited about this soda.
Quote from: Julian on February 20, 2012, 11:24:45 PM
I stopped at a gas station for a nice big soda. Only set me back 74 cents, and the ice is in the form of delicious little crunchy pellets. The cup is also styrofoam, so I may be killing the planet, but it stays chilly and icy foreverrr.
I'm way too excited about this soda.
You can never be way too excited about a soda. :)
Quote from: Miniar on February 20, 2012, 06:58:45 AM
Today is bolludagur.
I'm making Vatnsdeigsbollur.
Puffy pastry balls filled with whipped cream, jam and dipped in chocolate.
A bit like big round eclairs.
They are so good!
you're in iceland? i love it there. i really want to go back.
i completed some great writing today. onto the next....
Mio makes me happy. It's like Crystal Light mix, only liquid in a little bottle that you squirt into your water and makes it delicious for zero calories. I'm drinking the cherry "energy" caffeinated version, and it tastes like Kool-Aid.
I've been getting way too excited over beverages lately.
Feeling the effects in my legs from working out.
Lol, very nice Logan! ;D
Quote from: Malachite on February 21, 2012, 05:42:15 PM
Feeling the effects in my legs from working out.
Nice ;D
I reached up to scratch my shoulder and noticed that I am starting to get some really nice muscle going. I've spent the past 20min feeling up my arms and back. :laugh: Now if only the layer of fat on top would shrink so I could show it off...
Quote from: Lee on February 22, 2012, 01:18:48 AM
Nice ;D
I reached up to scratch my shoulder and noticed that I am starting to get some really nice muscle going. I've spent the past 20min feeling up my arms and back. :laugh: Now if only the layer of fat on top would shrink so I could show it off...
Next thing I hear will be: Lee rips phone books in half for a hobby >:-) >:-)
Girlfriend's Mum is out of surgery to remove cancer from her eyelid, and her eye has survived ok. :)
Just waiting for the Oncologist to confirm they have removed it all, seems confident. :)
And reading all the good stuff above from my friends here. :)
Karen.
Woke up a bit ago from this extremely realistic sex dream. Everything was perfect. My body was configured exactly the way I wanted, but beyond that, it was pretty much perfectly choreographed. It was awesome, and it made me feel pretty badass, ha.
Can't get back to sleep, so wasting time on the internet it is.
Quote from: Caseyyy on February 22, 2012, 02:50:46 AM
Woke up a bit ago from this extremely realistic sex dream. Everything was perfect. My body was configured exactly the way I wanted, but beyond that, it was pretty much perfectly choreographed. It was awesome, and it made me feel pretty badass, ha.
Can't get back to sleep, so wasting time on the internet it is.
Man that is awesome! Tell me your secret because I've been trying to dream like that for over 10 years. :P
I don't know, actually. It's a rather recent occurrence. In the past, if the dream did get to a sexual point, I'd end up waking up, and have no idea why.
Quote from: Lee on February 22, 2012, 01:18:48 AM
Nice ;D
I reached up to scratch my shoulder and noticed that I am starting to get some really nice muscle going. I've spent the past 20min feeling up my arms and back. :laugh: Now if only the layer of fat on top would shrink so I could show it off...
Can I feel up your arms and back too? Seriously though I do this all the time, with my upper arms and my calves. It's all I can do not to grab the hands of random acquaintances and make them feel my new muscles. :laugh:
Quote from: Logan Erik on February 21, 2012, 08:30:11 PM
Big brother who absorbed name/pronoun changes in about two seconds flat eight months ago is home from college for the night, and when my mom and little brother were talking about me with female pronouns, he turns around and says 'HE! HE! FOR F*CK'S SAKE!'
:icon_mrhappy:
Hearing this made me happy. I went to a meeting today with four other adults, one of whom consistently misgenders me. Nobody else got it wrong, but nobody corrected her either. Your brother is cool. :)
Looks like I am over the stinking cold that I have had all week. Breathing is really nice. :)
To finally be home.
I got my new estradiol prescription and was quite anxious to give myself another shot. The first time it did it two weeks before I had a panic attack. Since then I've been lurking in the FTM section reading all the tips and tricks on giving yourself injections and this time went really well. Even though I was shaking I have had no pain or soreness. I had a goofy smile on my face the rest of the day. Success!
Finding some good beginner's vid.s to finally start learning to crochet :)
Just made an 85 in my online test even though I'm still a bit sick but now I can sleep and notohave to worry about that test.
I am officially DEBT FREE. ;D
Quote from: Caseyyy on February 24, 2012, 07:18:43 PM
I am officially DEBT FREE. ;D
Good going, in these times we can all only wish! I'm working on whittling my pile down, it's happening with some sacrifice but there is light at the end of the tunnel!
My son and I both have the flu; we're both stuffy. So for lunch today, he went out and got us each some spicy Chinese take-out to help clear out the stuffiness.
Quote from: Caseyyy on February 24, 2012, 07:18:43 PM
I am officially DEBT FREE. ;D
That must be a great feeling. I'm working towards that myself.
I hope you guys feel better soon Connie.
This is kind of a weird one, but I found out I have more chest hair than my brother. It boosted my machometer for quite a while.
Should we ask how you found this out?
Mine is bigger than yours talk :laugh: :laugh: :laugh: :laugh: :laugh: :laugh:
Cindy
I finally made it to Prestige in Call of Duty: Black Ops!
Getting 2 songs, The Angels "Am I ever Going to See Your Face Again", and Cold Chisel's "Breakfast at Sweethearts" translated into French, and getting them to flow properly too. ;D Sound great on the 12-String.
Karen.
While I'm still sick, I'm feeling better this morning. This thing might be breaking up.
Woke up next to boyfriend. ;D not much else has happened yet today, but I'm content.
Also, yesterday I finally got the book I'd been anxiously waiting for. And I need to read it soon, because the TV series starts in a month.
I just bought a pistol safe and an epilator. Also, I am enjoying a nice cup of coffee.
I took my son to the park right after the fight with my wife and he seemed to have fun. Went to my PFLAG meeting afterward where I was once again reminded that I carry a huge burden on my shoulders so that other trans people can follow. My friend made it sound like an epic battle I was waging. lol.
Later on, after the meeting, my wife bought me a new pendant.. since I had ripped off and destroyed the chain that my old one was on during our tiff.
I made a mistake in counting my money for top surgery so I actually have about 5 bucks more than I thought.
i just officially got a better job. as a city bus driver. and im only 21. :) things are looking up for me. and i get full medical/dental/vision benefits and free counseling. transitioning, here i come! now just to get my wife to understand... :) and everything will be perfect.
I'm having Bright and Early juice mixed with sparkling lemonade soda. It doesn't help my terrible headache but at least it tastes good.
Quote from: Caseyyy on February 24, 2012, 07:18:43 PM
I am officially DEBT FREE. ;D
Casey that's huge. Congratulations.
Quote from: Semiopathy on February 25, 2012, 02:11:08 PM
I just bought a pistol safe and an epilator. Also, I am enjoying a nice cup of coffee.
Lol this is pure poetry.
Keaira I'm really glad you're finding kindness in the wake of that bit of strife. After yelling or arguments I'm always startled when people are nice, even if it's just a smile from the postman or something. I hope things stay peaceful for you.
First day of Uni lectures was great. Biology is looking really good, I have already got my lab coat and dissecting kit :) European History will be dealing with an interesting period, and Gender studies is going to be an absolute hoot. ;D
I outed my self to the lecturer as both Transsexual and a lesbian, seemed like a good move as I will probably disagree with the texts a lot. I think she is looking forward to a different point of view to all the kids in the class too.
Also think she is a dyke, and quite cute. Friend who is an academic suggests I should bonk her! >:-)
Karen.
The word "bonk" as a euphemism. ;D
Also, my daughter had a good day at school. Her first good day in a really long time.
Also getting back to eating and back to this site. This thread in particular always makes me smile.
Quote from: Felix on February 28, 2012, 12:25:54 AM
Keaira I'm really glad you're finding kindness in the wake of that bit of strife. After yelling or arguments I'm always startled when people are nice, even if it's just a smile from the postman or something. I hope things stay peaceful for you.
Thanks Felix. ^_^
I think that fight is still affecting me because I was kind of short tempered at work today. But I did smile when I got called Ma'am at the Arby's drive thru twice over their intercom and in person at the window with 0 effort. I honestly dont know what's going on with my voice. I haven't changed or trained it but I get gendered correctly all the time these days.I shouldn't look a gift horse in the mouth I know, but something has to have changed. I always thought I sounded like a guy. But Azzie still insists that I do sound naturally female.
Felix, I'm glad your daughter had a good day. it's always encouraging to see with any child.
Justmeinoz,
I hope you're classes go well for you. ^_^
This
http://youtu.be/b2BgmeQRds0 (http://youtu.be/b2BgmeQRds0)
went to starbucks and had a really great morning writing. a little girl in there burped and made everyone laugh. everyone i spoke to in town was cheerful and helpful and my confidence feels like it's exploding.
got home, got online finally, discovered some folks i met at the new lgbt coffee afternoon on friday had added me on facebook and left some really nice messages. made an appointment to discuss a college course.
things are pretty awesome.
A plastic alligator in my house laid a single special golden egg, and out of it hatched the most rare and magnificent animal in the whole world: the octi-toed (sic) crocagator. At least that's what I was told.
I found a penny today leaving the bus. :)
The crows everywhere and the funny little black birds that hang out at one of the transit centers.
Quote from: Todd Landon on February 28, 2012, 05:46:10 PM
this. :D
and to think I almost didn't see it. :laugh: That's why I always look down at the ground walking. People probably think I'm the saddest person on the planet.
and Felix one time I was waiting for the bus next to this old lady and a bunch of crows came and she kept saying "they crows are laughing at my misery hahahaha the crows are coming to get me the crows are coming for me. They are going to take me away You want me crows."
Creepy moment
I managed to raise the word "Intersex" in Gender Studies,https://www.susans.org/forums/Themes/default/images/post/smiley.gif but we ran out of time to talk about it.https://www.susans.org/forums/Themes/default/images/post/sad.gif (https://www.susans.org/forums/Themes/default/images/post/sad.gif) The poor kids don't have a clue what is going to hit them with a bit of luck. I am so evil!!
Karen.
Go for it, you Go Girl,
I can see milage in this one. What's the average age of the students?
I think you are just in this for the fun. You are positively >:-)
Huggs
Catherine
Quote from: Malachite on February 29, 2012, 01:38:36 AM
That's why I always look down at the ground walking.
i always look at the ground when walking too. lol. people say it because im insecure. its probably true.
Quote from: Todd Landon on February 29, 2012, 05:52:40 PM
i always look at the ground when walking too. lol. people say it because im insecure. its probably true.
Lol that too because I'm afraid I'm going to trip. Why not make a small profit being safe?
I found 6 cents in my back yard today! Can we say a good day? ;D
Quote from: Todd Landon on February 29, 2012, 05:52:40 PM
i always look at the ground when walking too. lol. people say it because im insecure. its probably true.
A lot of times I would prefer to look at the ground, but I don't because I pass better when I walk as tall and looking at people who approach me as possible. I also have a bad habit of zoning out and having trouble dodging people who jog or bike on sidewalks. So I try to keep my head up.
Quote from: Malachite on February 29, 2012, 05:58:29 PM
Lol that too because I'm afraid I'm going to trip. Why not make a small profit being safe?
I found 6 cents in my back yard today! Can we say a good day? ;D
Yep. ;D I am a scavenger at heart, and I also trip like all the time, over shadows even, so I dig. Grats on your 6 cents.
(1) My nasty cold/flu? seems to be letting up some :) Breathing is a good thing to be able to do
(2) The performance of my current mt. bike :) There was a snow storm with high winds today so the roads and walkways were icy and peppered with snow drifts... My old bike would have gotten squirrely on the ice and bogged down too easily in the drifts, but my current bike with it's larger 29" wheels and BMX style frame held it's own nicely :)
Some folks have told me that a 50 yr old with my injuries and such should never be riding a bike in the conditions I go out in and that I'm crazy :laugh:
No doubt about the crazy part, but never say never :laugh:
I am happy because:
Tonight I put one of my soft cotton everyday bras that has no wires or even pushup pads, that I have worn many times. I looked down an noted with joy that for the first time I have real cleavage.
on looking at the ground... i used to do that all the time. now i project some kind of rockstar ego and strut around like a complete dick. i probably look like a moron but i feel like i own the world. confidence forecasts itself, though. people respond positively to it. they move out of your way, too, lol.
Quote from: V M on February 29, 2012, 09:11:58 PM
my current bike with it's larger 29" wheels and BMX style frame held it's own nicely :)
29" wheels? Haven't seen them before.
Quote from: Jillieann Rose on February 29, 2012, 09:55:22 PM
I am happy because:
Tonight I put one of my soft cotton everyday bras that has no wires or even pushup pads, that I have worn many times. I looked down an noted with joy that for the first time I have real cleavage.
:), still waiting for mine to reach that stage.
Hey schism, been approached for any autographs yet? My son has given up denying he is James Matheson, one of the people from Aust. Idol, and just signs anyway!! ;D
All the above, and finally getting all my Tutorial times sorted. -
Karen.
Quote from: justmeinoz on March 01, 2012, 02:07:58 AM
29" wheels? Haven't seen them before.
Karen.
I didn't know they made bicycles with 29" wheels either until recently :)
@ Caseyyy and Schism I can relate to both of those. I hate looking at people so I try to avoid it when I can before they can look at me look at them but on those rare days I will walk all buff and tough like I just came from them gym and look like a total jerk lol but it makes me feel good. I can just imagine myself doing that to a more extreme level on a sunny day on a strip once I get all my surgeries taken care of.
Somebody I pretend to be cool and aloof with but actually care about very much emailed me, and he was clever and kind. It always startles me.
Quote from: Malachite on March 01, 2012, 03:11:53 AM
@ Caseyyy and Schism I can relate to both of those. I hate looking at people so I try to avoid it when I can before they can look at me look at them but on those rare days I will walk all buff and tough like I just came from them gym and look like a total jerk lol but it makes me feel good. I can just imagine myself doing that to a more extreme level on a sunny day on a strip once I get all my surgeries taken care of.
hell yeah. when the moobs have gone and i'm all hairy and manly nothing will stand in my path. my ego will be so large i'll need the breadth of entire streets. the nation will cower before me.
Quote from: justmeinoz on March 01, 2012, 02:07:58 AM
Hey schism, been approached for any autographs yet? My son has given up denying he is James Matheson, one of the people from Aust. Idol, and just signs anyway!! ;D
Karen.
hah, not yet, but when i do i'll let you know. i'll totally sign.
I think Schism's avatar is Hhhot!.
Anyway, What made me happy was getting a center console I can put between the driver and passenger seats in my minivan. Cupholders! FTW!
But What I thought was awesome was I just now noticed I have lost weight. On my nose. how I missed that I dont know. oh well.
Quote from: schism on March 01, 2012, 01:59:41 AM
on looking at the ground... i used to do that all the time. now i project some kind of rockstar ego and strut around like a complete dick. i probably look like a moron but i feel like i own the world. confidence forecasts itself, though. people respond positively to it. they move out of your way, too, lol.
Walk like John Travolta used to do in his disco movies, talk about projecting a self confident guy attitude! He was a smokin hot dude!
what made me happy today is the continuous stream of compliments from folks here. seriously, you people know how to flatter a guy.
also, had a two hour session with my tattoo artist. technically three, but an hour was spent drawing freehand on me. and holy crap, do neck tats hurt.
I got a new picture for my ID card and it looks very feminine :D
I found another penny today Woop Woop! It was on a table.
Quote from: schism on March 01, 2012, 11:52:29 AM
what made me happy today is the continuous stream of compliments from folks here. seriously, you people know how to flatter a guy.
Oh yeah that reminds me a few weeks ago when I was showing my friend the thread about me coming out to my sister she saw you and said you are really hot lol.
I love seeing Malachite's savings numbers change.
I'm the happiest man alive today. Or at least well I'm pretty happy. All smiles all over town. It's infectious. I'm giddy. I started the day with a big batch of misery, a 3 hour psych evaluation that touched on a lot of things I don't ever want to talk about to anybody. But I got through it. Then I went to my bank and got my balance out of the red. They were holding my name change hostage until I did that. They finally authorized the new card and checks today.
I passed with flying colors everywhere. Usually as a teenager, but whatever. I got so much done and it was all tedious and it was all good. A guy who works at our pharmacy called me sir. He accepts me. He knows full well Leah used to call me mommy, and I never approached him to explain the change. He just picked up on it. The guy at Payless did the same thing. We go in there a lot just to look at stuff, so he's seen me plenty. Sometimes people are really good.
And the very best thing, the happiest thing ever. I got home to meet the schoolbus, and I didn't know what to do but I was feeling bad still from the psych eval. So I decided to go to the DMV and see if I could make some headway with that. We got there at 4 and I walked out at 4:15 or so with a new driver's license. It has my new name, it says male, and the last photo was only a year ago but I think I look a lot older now. I didn't expect to get anything done today. Also I was told I would be billed as if I were applying for a new license, but they only charged me for a replacement copy. So I saved $34 dollars. I'm so relieved, so happy.
I immediately went and bought a beer at a cafe where a friend was hanging out. The server looked very close at my new ID, but I was grinning like an idiot and talkative so he warmed up to me pretty quick. I got a Lucky Lab Superdog IPA. My friend got a HUB Secession Dark Ale. It was happy hour. I got my daughter a plate of fish and chips. Fried ling cod and french fries for $4. We were like kings.
That life can get like this for anyone ever is why I hold on through everything else.
The day before yesterday:
Noticing in the mirror, as I washed my hands,
that my unpadded breasts are prominent.
Yesterday:
Being hit on by a tipsy friend.
Flattered but really not interested,
for now anyways.
Finally caught up with a good friend I haven't seen in a while for a pizza and a glass of wine. Lots of goss about ex's, lovers, sex, zoology, travels, transition and lots of other stuff. Fun night.
Karen.
BUGGER !!!
You had a clandestine meeting with Devlyn and won the 'bloody' pizza did you?
What was the answer? I was sooooo close I could taste the mozzeralla cheese.
Huggs
Catherine
I got paid yesterday & within minutes my money was all gone (rent, bills & food) then when I got home I found a letter waiting for my from revenue & customs telling me that i've been paying the wrong amount of tax for the last year.
As a result of this they've sent me a cheque for over £900!! I went straight to asda & blew £70 on clothes, i'm now a very happy girl.
As soon as the cheque clears I can catch up on rent & bills, I will be able to replace my dying Xbox just in time for Mass Effect 3 being released & I have the following week booked off work to play it!! I'll have plenty left over for clothes & shoes, it's taken months to cobble together a handfull of female clothes & now i'll be able to fill my wardrobe with pretty tops, dresses etc.
Right now i'm over the moon.
Quote from: Felix on March 01, 2012, 11:17:45 PM
That life can get like this for anyone ever is why I hold on through everything else.
How cool is that? We all need a few victorious days to make the battles worth fighting the war!
Called the auction place where I bought my Minivan. Still no title for me yet. I was asking what happens if I don't have it when my plates are close to expiring, they told me they would make out a new temporary plate, but it would have to be put in the name of a family member, like my husband.
I'm screwed, I don't have a husband! :P
Again, no effort to change my voice and I get gendered female. :D
I'm still happy from yesterday.
I had to order new Safety Glasses though my workplace. Their new policy, not mine. Anyway, They had Monroe Optical out there with the company approved frame selection and an assortment of frames that to company would cover plus a small charge to the employee. I picked 2 frames, one set was oval and this black/ speckled dark grey color. The shape I thought looked great. The other was a metallic burgundy and pink on the inside and more angular and square. I thought it looked great on me too.
In the end, the burgundy/pink set won out. I'm tired of boring old brown or black frames, I want something to reflect my personality and they actually made me look more mature, not old, but also more professional.
Plus, since I will wear them at work, If I dont like them in the end, it doesn't matter I can switch back to the ones in my avatar photo at the end of the day. ^_^
Dag Nabit Felix, I wish you would just cheer the firetruck up.
:eusa_dance:
@Keaira: Sounds like you work for a pretty decent company.
Bet the new frames will look great.
Thanks Heatherrose,
Actually the Company is somewhat of a pain to work for. BUT, The do have some perks. If you smoke, then they have a quit smoking program. Which is great. Because you have to pay an extra $600 a year on your company health insurance premiums. Also, they've never dealt with a transsexual employee before, but they've been pretty supportive. For that alone , I have a hard time wanting to leave, despite the problems and stress I have had there.
Another thing that made me happy: I caved. I played the demo for Mass Effect 3. And I can't wait to play the full game, which comes out on the same day I have my doctors appointment. Which I am taking a vacation day for. :D
Escaping the books for a couple of hours to have dinner with my girl. :) Even if she was so fatigued that she fell asleep in the middle of a horror movie. ::) Still got to be together for a few hours. :) :)
Karen.
my mother picked up a couple cook books and so i asked so, does this mean your going to let me learn how to cook now? and so her answer was yeah, mom (my GM), you should show your granddaughter how to cook that ham tonight...
i know, a bit sexist, but its suggesting i express my femininity more :)
Mel,
That is just soooo sweet. The acceptance by you Mum to refer to you as a granddaughter to your grandmother, just speaks absolute heaps. You're there girl !!
Be safe, well and happy
Lotsa huggs
Catherine
Quote from: Malachite on March 01, 2012, 02:46:59 PM
Oh yeah that reminds me a few weeks ago when I was showing my friend the thread about me coming out to my sister she saw you and said you are really hot lol.
This reminds me of something funny and creepy. My daughter usually ignores what I'm doing online, but the other day I was looking at the Men With Cats thread and she started watching. Her comment - "Daddy those teenagers sure are handsome."
What made me happy today is having friends, even if half of them are not much more than acquaintances and the other half don't even live in the same city as me. Even strangers being friendly has been pretty gratifying. I'm elated and vulnerable, and I feel very lucky for the kindnesses I encounter.
Quote from: Caseyyy on March 03, 2012, 08:32:41 PM
Haha. :| She's growing up, I guess.
Yeah. She's just now starting the fairy-tale phase of forming ideas about romance and attraction. It's still pretty G rated.
After some extensive cleaning I found some of my old N64 and Gamecube games.
I was particularly happy to find Majora's Mask and Mario Sunshine, among others.
I got stuff to play. I was just thinkin' the other day about how I never finished Mario Sunshine.
Awwwhh yeah, found my Twilight Princess game, I thought my friend had lost that.
Good day indeed.
I told my lover(male) that I'm only a girl on the outside... and that I've always been a boy in my mind. But that I still loved him and was attracted to him.
I was terrified.
Being a man of little words he just mulled for a bit then nodded and said, "Then you're a boy."
And kissed my head.
I thought my heart would burst. Being accepted is the most amazing feeling ever.
Lucky you.
I'm happy for ya', the last time I tried to pull that on a boyfriend it ended horribly and caused lots of drama not only between us but between our friends too, haven't talked to a lot of them in years, but I'm pretty sure the last impression they got of me was a bat>-bleeped-< insane psycho.
Glad it turned out well for you.
He did mention that if I wanted to change my appearance and become a boy on the outside as well - then we'd have a problem because he's not attracted to men.
But considering science hasn't worked out a way for me to have completely, working and usable male genitalia - i think we're safe
I'm sorry that it ended badly for you. This is the first time I've ever trusted a partner enough...
You're NOT crazy! Anyone that tells you that should be ignored. <3
Quote from: Caseyyy on March 03, 2012, 11:48:00 PM
Awww! :) That's really sweet. The appearance part you mentioned in the later post kind of sucks, but it sounds like you have a great guy on your hands.
^_^ It was really a relief.
And im ok with the appearance thing. It was really more about him not being attracted to men then him not accepting me - so i can understand that just fine.
Luckily I'm a boy that loves girly things so it works out :)
The numerous HUGS posts I've received from folks here on Susan's.
Quote from: Kyyn on March 03, 2012, 10:20:11 PM
I told my lover(male) that I'm only a girl on the outside... and that I've always been a boy in my mind. But that I still loved him and was attracted to him.
I was terrified.
Being a man of little words he just mulled for a bit then nodded and said, "Then you're a boy."
And kissed my head.
I thought my heart would burst. Being accepted is the most amazing feeling ever.
This. My boyfriend reacted almost exactly the same way. Except that he was the one to kinda draw it out of me. We were talking about sexual fantasies, and he pointed out that I never seem to be a girl in any of them. He laughed and asked me if I wanted to do something about that. We playfully discussed my being a boy, and he teased me for never admitting it before.
We did break up, and it was really already time to do so, but my transition sped it along. He likes assertive, intelligent, masculine girls. Not boys. The way he explains it now (we like to play with fire apparently, so we still sleep together), he'll do a guy or let a guy do him if it's somebody he cares about, but he still likes soft skin and hips and stuff primarily.
But anyway his acceptance changed my life. I only came out to him by accident, but he was okay with me, not confused or disgusted in the slightest, and that made it so much easier to go forward with what I needed to do.
Quote from: Connie Anne on March 03, 2012, 11:55:03 PM
The numerous HUGS posts I've received from folks here on Susan's.
I love you Connie. I tend not to answer when you proffer them, because I'm an awkward idiot and I fear that all kindness is fragile and I'll break it by messing with it, but your hugs are pretty awesome too.
Quote from: Felix on March 04, 2012, 12:31:31 AM
But anyway his acceptance changed my life. I only came out to him by accident, but he was okay with me, not confused or disgusted in the slightest, and that made it so much easier to go forward with what I needed to do.
This is an amazing story!! :D
I can understand totally. My partner wants a "girl"friend. So if I was to transition, then our relationship would end. But he said he'd still always love me and be here for me.
I'm glad your ex was able to help you with your identity. It's these people in our lives that make you really see that you are fine and loved just as you are. :D
I was walking through a Mall and saw a DVD of the first series of Sherlock. Totally awesome.
I bought it of course.
Guess what I'm watching tonight. ::)
Quote from: Cindy James on March 04, 2012, 01:26:34 AM
I was walking through a Mall and saw a DVD of the first series of Sherlock. Totally awesome.
I bought it of course.
Guess what I'm watching tonight. ::)
M*A*S*H ?? ....... or the Torrens River rise, with all the water we are sending you ?? :laugh:
Huggs
Catherine
Quote from: Felix on March 04, 2012, 12:31:31 AM
But anyway his acceptance changed my life. I only came out to him by accident, but he was okay with me, not confused or disgusted in the slightest, and that made it so much easier to go forward with what I needed to do.
How cool is that? He's given you a good living example of what unconditional love is really like! Not many people ever experience it in this life because there are usually some sort of strings attached as to what conditions will have to be met to be loved. It starts with parents, they love us when we behave the way they expect us to, get good grades in school blah, blah. Then there is the S.O. who has their expectations of us which is always tied to their acceptance and approval. That guy just loved you for being you, how very cool indeed!
Quote from: Felix on March 04, 2012, 12:33:12 AM
I love you Connie. I tend not to answer when you proffer them, because I'm an awkward idiot and I fear that all kindness is fragile and I'll break it by messing with it, but your hugs are pretty awesome too.
And I love you, Felix. The stories you post of your life are truly inspiring to me. I need to read stories like yours and others here on Susan's as they are reminders of just how easy I've a time I'm having and I should remember that there are those who are struggling and working through circumstances much more difficult than mine.
Thank you, sir. You are loved.
Good day, I went out to the flea market and got a preserved baby shark in a jar for 7 bucks, that certainly made me happy.
I got new pants too. ;D I like pants. And thrift stores.
This weekend, not just today.
Put together three boxes of books to sell. Went through my closets and have a pile of clothes to get rid of. Did some rearranging and spring cleaning. Got my cable fixed. And it has been sunny the last couple of days.
My daughter came home for spring break earlier than I expected and I got to have lunch and a great conversation with her. She'll be here later tonight, too.
Hung out with some local transguy parents. That was really cool.
My brother - "You have awesome muscles yet?"
Me - "Getting there"
My brother - "Woohoo!"
He seems more excited about it than I am. :laugh:
I then ate pizza and watched tv with my friends instead of going to the gym. Oh well, there's always tomorrow.
It snowed today and I took both my children(5yr and 1yr) out to play in the snow today. The lil guy(1) learned to make and throw snowballs..it was cute and enjoyable! Seeing my children having fun and happy couldn't make me happier!
Quote from: Claire25 on March 05, 2012, 12:26:43 PM
It snowed today and I took both my children(5yr and 1yr) out to play in the snow today. The lil guy(1) learned to make and throw snowballs..it was cute and enjoyable! Seeing my children having fun and happy couldn't make me happier!
Enjoy them and love then Claire, we don't get to keep them very long!
Quote from: Shantel on March 05, 2012, 12:31:23 PM
Enjoy them and love then Claire, we don't get to keep them very long!
Agreed. I really can't believe how fast they growup. I always heard that when I was younger but it is true. I miss them being so little =(
No sign of purple vampires anywhere so that's good.
Quote from: Claire25 on March 05, 2012, 12:37:11 PM
Agreed. I really can't believe how fast they growup. I always heard that when I was younger but it is true. I miss them being so little =(
My kids are adults now. I look at the photo montage on the wall with their childhood pictures and get really emotional over it. It seems that they grew up too fast and now I'm facing my own mortality as I look back. :icon_cry2:
Quote from: Caseyyy on March 05, 2012, 01:50:14 PM
Aww! *hug*
I'm happy that today is finally the day that I will break through the March work hump. I refuse to procrastinate.
Hugs are always welcome! BTW - What is the March work hump?
Quote from: Shantel on March 05, 2012, 12:59:41 PM
My kids are adults now. I look at the photo montage on the wall with their childhood pictures and get really emotional over it. It seems that they grew up too fast and now I'm facing my own mortality as I look back. :icon_cry2:
My kids are 20 and (almost) 23. I think I know how you feel.
{{{{{HUGS}}}}}
Quote from: Connie Anne on March 05, 2012, 04:25:29 PM
My kids are 20 and (almost) 23. I think I know how you feel.
{{{{{HUGS}}}}}
Thanks Connie and hugs back to you dear!
One Man Phantom of the Opera (Medley Cover) Andrew Lloyd Webber Nick Pitera (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3vRHgxviZJk&context=C302c77fADOEgsToPDskL6BdCVx3IolHM3HUjiIqcc#)
Damn I want his vocal range!
Quote from: Lee on March 05, 2012, 10:27:28 PM
One Man Phantom of the Opera (Medley Cover) Andrew Lloyd Webber Nick Pitera (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3vRHgxviZJk&context=C302c77fADOEgsToPDskL6BdCVx3IolHM3HUjiIqcc#)
Damn I want his vocal range!
Isn't that the kid who usually does all of those Disney songs too?
Yeah, the Disney medley is great too.
Quote from: Malachite on March 05, 2012, 12:56:37 PM
No sign of purple vampires anywhere so that's good.
This makes me happy. I have no idea what it means. I love being confused.
I'm happy for really cromagnon reasons. A friend needed me on the phone for a long time, until like 15 minutes ago. I'm happy to be off the phone, and happy that I just got tested for all the common STI's plus HIV and I don't have anything. I'm happy that I feel like any other mammal, and that my only safeguards (other than actual physical safety) are not being mean and not making anyone feel bad. I'm happy for all my wonderful fantasies. I'm happy to be so easily pleased.
Quote from: Felix on March 06, 2012, 04:07:26 AM
This makes me happy. I have no idea what it means. I love being confused.
I'm happy that I feel like any other mammal, and that my only safeguards (other than actual physical safety) are not being mean and not making anyone feel bad. I'm happy for all my wonderful fantasies. I'm happy to be so easily pleased.
You are just an amazingly wonderful and beautiful man Felix. Did you know ??
Huggs
Catherine
visited college today to have a maths assessment.... another group were due to use the room, so the teachers had come in to set up. we were kinda chatty as my score was being marked and one of the teachers called me a young man. i was all cool and laid back but inside i was like HELL YEAH!!!!
I had heartburn, then I ate some Tums and it went away. I'm easy to please.
Quote from: Julian on March 06, 2012, 11:42:22 AM
I had heartburn, then I ate some Tums and it went away. I'm easy to please.
I get heartburn quite easily, but Tums make me queasy.
Good to hear that they work well for you.
Tums are delicious. ;D Also I went from lying down to sitting up, which probably helped at least as much as the Tums.
My doctor seems pleased with how my boobs are growing. It did irritate me somewhat that she blew me off about my monthly issues. She wants me to look into dieting a little too. No surprise there. I've gained 12 pounds since I started. After we were done and I went to the rest room I passed another trans woman who was much older than myself and I noticed that she did pretty much the same thing I do. Didn't make eye contact just passed by with no acknowledgement of existence. I guess some male habits die hard. But it was comforting to know I wasn't the only one there.
After leaving the hospital I went back to the auction place where we bought our minivan from. When we first bought it we were waiting for the title to it. I went there to check on it and low and behold, it was in. So the Minivan is ours totally 110%
This afternoon when we got back home and I had taken a nap, I went to pick up my son and the Principal came out to chat with me about my Son's performance in class. She asked if I was Angela, the name of my Wife, But before I could tell her no, She started telling me about my Son not doing his work. So I just shut up and let her finish. So, there's absolutely no doubt to me that I pass just fine.
After getting home and chewing my Son out, I took him and his friend next door to the park. I people watched and took pictures of them with my Camera.
Azmaria sent me a text that she was off to the Doctor for her first HRT appointment. I hope it went well.
So, All in all, it's been a wonderful day. ^_^
Quote from: Lee on March 05, 2012, 10:27:28 PM
One Man Phantom of the Opera (Medley Cover) Andrew Lloyd Webber Nick Pitera (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3vRHgxviZJk&context=C302c77fADOEgsToPDskL6BdCVx3IolHM3HUjiIqcc#)
Damn I want his vocal range!
Yea, I am so jealous of his singing ability and range. *sigh*
finally saw a doctor today about hormones and guess what? she gave me prescriptions for everything i've been taking for exactly the same doses. apparently the specialist i got help from to calculate everything in the first place is pretty good. ^_^
also... i just ate some fish from Long John Silver's... i'm allergic to fish with the exception of tuna due to the vast amount of processing it goes through... i'm not getting sick... my mom says it tastes like it has a lot of shark in it as well, so if i don't get sick or break out or anything int he next 24 hours, i know where i can get some more fish! ^_^
:) Yay for Keaira's good day!
Gamestop lowered the used price for Killzone 3 to $12.49. Uhoh if I like the multiplayer I may buy me a copy and light that multiplayer on fire! I'm downloading the demo now.
Im studying in a different hospital this month, away from university.
Good news is: I am passing to everyone! :) None of the people I'm working with feel odd about refering to me by my chosen name or female pronouns and it has been so cool.
That's great Bird :) Glad it's going well, sometimes all it takes is a change of scenery
Sitting with my trusty companion, Fiyero.
:]
My sister paid me my $2 she owned me from Sunday.
I've FINALLY met someone else from Susan's in person!
Thanks Melody Maia! :D
Quote from: Bird on March 06, 2012, 08:48:15 PM
Im studying in a different hospital this month, away from university.
Good news is: I am passing to everyone! :) None of the people I'm working with feel odd about refering to me by my chosen name or female pronouns and it has been so cool.
Congratulations!
Quote from: veritatemfurto on March 06, 2012, 09:51:36 PM
I've FINALLY met someone else from Susan's in person!
Thanks Melody Maia! :D
That's really awesome! I hope I can meet some great people from here one day. :)
After a second cataract surgery, my wife can see out of both eyes.
That made us both happy :laugh:
Quote from: Cindy James on March 07, 2012, 01:26:40 AM
After a second cataract surgery, my wife can see out of both eyes.
That made us both happy :laugh:
That's great news, Cindy..
Hugs to you both!
Zoran Lazarevic's voice in Uncharted 2
That is absolutely wonderful news Cindy. Give my love to 'Bec. :) :-*
Watching the gears in their brains strip, when I outed myself as Trans, and a dyke to Uni classmates in a Gender Studies tutorial. Think I struck a blow for the cause!
Karen.
Quote from: Bird on March 06, 2012, 08:48:15 PM
Im studying in a different hospital this month, away from university.
Good news is: I am passing to everyone! :) None of the people I'm working with feel odd about refering to me by my chosen name or female pronouns and it has been so cool.
I'm just soooooo excited for you Bird. This is what it should have been like for you. And think of it, this is only the beginning. You are going to shine dear girl.
Go forward with you head held high and enjoy your new life. It's going to be positively awesome.
Be safe, well and happy
Lotsa Huggs
Catherine
Thanks friends,
And Bird go for it.
There is nothing to stop you except you.
Cindy
Quote from: veritatemfurto on March 06, 2012, 09:51:36 PM
I've FINALLY met someone else from Susan's in person!
Thanks Melody Maia! :D
This is cool. I've met a few, and that's part of why I'm cool with being so invested in an internet site. We are all real people.
Quote from: Cindy James on March 07, 2012, 01:26:40 AM
After a second cataract surgery, my wife can see out of both eyes.
That made us both happy :laugh:
Epic.
And Bird hey that's lovely. It can be suffocating to be always around people who see you as the wrong gender, or used to.
Quote from: Cindy James on March 07, 2012, 01:26:40 AM
After a second cataract surgery, my wife can see out of both eyes.
That made us both happy :laugh:
Sooooo excited for both of you Hun. You must be looking twice as good then :) That must make a profound difference for her. I'm amazed at how we take such things as sight for granted, until it's impaired. Think of it, you'll be able to out to the "Troc" this Saturday and dance the whole night through - without her treading on your feet. Love you girls.
Huggs
Catherine
Quote from: JasonRX on March 06, 2012, 08:56:12 PM
Sitting with my trusty companion, Fiyero.
:]
Your cat being named Fiyero always makes me smile. :)
Quote from: Cindy James on March 07, 2012, 01:26:40 AM
After a second cataract surgery, my wife can see out of both eyes.
That made us both happy :laugh:
So wonderful to have clear vision, hug her for me too Cindy!
Peaceful and warm talks with ex-girlfriend, both hopeful about being good friends.
Quote from: Padma on March 07, 2012, 08:49:49 AM
Peaceful and warm talks with ex-girlfriend, both hopeful about being good friends.
I can relate to this.
Quote from: Cindy James on March 07, 2012, 01:26:40 AM
After a second cataract surgery, my wife can see out of both eyes.
That made us both happy :laugh:
This is great news!
Quote from: Padma on March 07, 2012, 08:49:49 AM
Peaceful and warm talks with ex-girlfriend, both hopeful about being good friends.
Being good friends is the best way of all to begin or to re-ignite a long term relationship. So many times people put the cart before the horse and when that part gets old as it often times does, there is no basis to sustain the relationship. Good job Padma!
I think that may have been someone else, unless I've completely lost my mind, haha.
Hearing my professor tell us about her sending off a sample of her poo in the mail.
Quote from: Logan Erik on March 07, 2012, 09:07:57 PM
That Phantom of the Opera video Caseyyy posted not long ago. I keep listening to it over and over and over again. There's not a thing about it I don't like.
The only thing I don't like about that vid. is how extremely jealous I am of that guy's female voice :-\ It should be illegal to sound so darn good
My girlfriend calling me by my chosen name during... ahem... intimate close encounters last night ;D
Quote from: pidgeontoed on March 08, 2012, 05:26:10 AM
My girlfriend calling me by my chosen name during... ahem... intimate close encounters last night ;D
When we begin to find acceptance from those we love it's very encouraging, isn't it?
Quote from: pidgeontoed on March 08, 2012, 05:26:10 AM
My girlfriend calling me by my chosen name during... ahem... intimate close encounters last night ;D
The first time my partner called me by my chosen name during sex, I actually started crying. I was too happy to be embarrassed. :D
It was a wonderful feeling. She amazes me every day and, not to be too sappy but I am unable to express in words how happy she makes me :D I just need to shout it out!
I got a penny today.
My dog gave me the best greeting today! She was so excited when I came home!
I have been going to the gym and pushing myself to my limit for the last two weeks. I hurt in places that I didn't even know existed. I can see some muscle forming and I have lost five pounds in the last few days. It is an awesome feeling!
I was Playing Black Ops on my PS3 and when I do I normally play music in the background to annoy people but I was playing R&B this time up loud and some guy messaged me saying the R&B helped me and Thanks
Oh yeah yesterday I sat near an odler man on the bus and he asked what I was majoring in and I said Criminal Justice and he told me to not lt anyone hold me back and that I had good manners. He said he had faith in me to succeed when I didn't have faith in myself (heck I still don't). It kind of felt good a stranger had that much confidence in me.
Quote from: Ayden on March 09, 2012, 12:29:32 AM.....and I have lost five pounds in the last few days.
I may have found them.
You can have them back.
Went to take my dog to a self-service dog wash today, and someone brought a bunch of puppies to get washed there as well.
HHNNG, they were so cute.
There was also a chihuahua in a dress that was adorable.
Top score and final kill on Black Ops
Daughter is down for spring break this week, and my ex-wife came over for dinner. It was the four of us together again for another of our insanely awesomely funny and crass family dinners and evenings.
It was almost like old times.
I have awesome friends, an awesome family, and the start of what I can only assume will become awesome pecs.
I worked out for over an hour and a half and my right thigh is sore.....too bad I ruined it by having a cheeseburger afterwards.
I got back into the forum. ;D. it was blocking me for a day :'(
Finally back on Spironolactone, my dosages were doubled too :)
Quote from: Malachite on March 10, 2012, 05:31:37 AM
I worked out for over an hour and a half and my right thigh is sore.....too bad I ruined it by having a cheeseburger afterwards.
That's why I didn't make fudge for Christmas this year, when I eat one piece I'm a goner and I always sabotage myself!
Quote from: Shantel on March 10, 2012, 10:05:04 AM
That's why I didn't make fudge for Christmas this year, when I eat one piece I'm a goner and I always sabotage myself!
I am bad like that with cheesecake. My friend's mother made me a whole cheesecake over Christmas and I had to move my weight loss goal to next month.
What made me happy today? I got $5.
Quote from: Renee D on March 10, 2012, 12:33:27 PM
I've gained about 5 pounds or so the last few weeks. I'm hoping to gain about 8 to 10 more too.
I will gladly give you 10 pounds of me. :)
Quote from: Malachite on March 10, 2012, 12:35:39 PM
I will gladly give you 10 pounds of me. :)
Ditto that!
I found a really good deal on a Henry Fielding biography in town today and when I opened it up it had a bookplate saying it used to belong to David Nokes, who wrote some fantastic biographies on Sammy Johnson, John Gay and Swift. So it was like a little bonus.
got to work almost an hour early, so i just went to the workout room and had myself an awesome workout. :3 hopefully ill keep at my new years resolution. i want to have a six pack and nice beefy man arms by summer. :D
I went out for dinner last and an elderly couple came close to my table and asked if she could put s bunch of flowers on the window sill next to my handbag. I said of course, she looked at me a bit oddly but then said thank you dear. I asked if it was her birthday and she said yes and her and her husband were out to dinner to celebrate.
As I left they were still eating and I called the manager over, I told him I would pay their bill and to refund it too them. He said fine. Did I went to leave a message, I said no, just that Cindy wishes you a happy birthday.
I left walking on sunshine
Cindy
Quote from: Cindy James on March 11, 2012, 12:17:34 AM
I went out for dinner last and an elderly couple came close to my table and asked if she could put s bunch of flowers on the window sill next to my handbag. I said of course, she looked at me a bit oddly but then said thank you dear. I asked if it was her birthday and she said yes and her and her husband were out to dinner to celebrate.
As I left they were still eating and I called the manager over, I told him I would pay their bill and to refund it too them. He said fine. Did I went to leave a message, I said no, just that Cindy wishes you a happy birthday.
I left walking on sunshine
Cindy
That made my day Cindy and todays is my birthday :) three cheers to you sis HUGS Danielle
Quote from: Cindy James on March 11, 2012, 12:17:34 AM
I went out for dinner last and an elderly couple came close to my table and asked if she could put s bunch of flowers on the window sill next to my handbag. I said of course, she looked at me a bit oddly but then said thank you dear. I asked if it was her birthday and she said yes and her and her husband were out to dinner to celebrate.
As I left they were still eating and I called the manager over, I told him I would pay their bill and to refund it too them. He said fine. Did I went to leave a message, I said no, just that Cindy wishes you a happy birthday.
I left walking on sunshine
Cindy
What a gal you are Cindy, good for you girl!
You are AWESOME Ma'am
A radio station in Sydney called Hope 103.2, has for some time now been running a programme called the "Drive thru Difference", whereby when you go through a fast food outlets drive through you pay for the order following you and leave a card explaining you actions.
To date, it's had a pretty positive response.
You, Ma'am; are intergalatically bound.
Huggs
Catherine
Passing more consistently. The name change helps a lot, and I feel like I'm starting to get more used to how guys talk to each other.
Helping some of the elderly and handicapped folks at my apt.s as I often do :) I usually just go in, take care of whatever problem and leave with little adieu, but for some reason this gal reached out to hold my arm a moment, smiled and said thank you dear
The thanks in her eyes really struck me and my heart melted, I smiled and said your welcome then went home and cried my eyes out
Some really inane, childish, and thoroughly pointless little thing utterly cracked me up. I have no idea why, and actually forget what it was, but I found it so hysterically funny and laughed so hard.
I had almost forgotten what laughing felt like. It felt good. That made me happy.
My mother mentioned that after I find a job she is planning on me staying here while I save up some money. Maybe with that I'll be able to save up for top surgery way sooner than I thought.
Well it was supose to rain but it was only cloudy and yesterday i piled a large pile of brush along the creek bank and today i lit it on fire and i didn't burn down my woods or start my mulch hay covering my entire garden just 15 ft away but wow it got so hot and burnt like 15 ft high but thankfully no sparks hit anything else. It took like 3 hours for it to burn down and then i poured water from the creek over the balance. whew that was wild.. thank you God .. I did have a few rocks explode and send hot rocks and embers flying a few times but i caught them before they could spread.. next time i will do it in the rain :police:
The very talkative bus driver who has known me for years as my kid's "mom" switched to "dad" today. And my voice is dropping. Lol it's not stable though. I croak like a frog half the time, and sometimes my voice cracks like that kid on the Brady Bunch.
It's great when that stuff happens, Felix :). Yesterday the nurse at the surgery called me in as Mrs <surname>, and then didn't bat an eyelid when I smiled and stood up.
Having 2 chin hairs.
Unintentional innuendo
Some guy almost rear ended me, and I told my friend "That guy's trying to run into my ass. I don't want him in my ass!" Didn't realize it until she started cracking up.
Quote from: Malachite on March 14, 2012, 03:52:45 AM
Having 2 chin hairs.
YAY! Lol I have like 7 and I've been strutting around like a big manly man since they came in. If I don't shave they look silly though. :laugh:
Quote from: Felix on March 13, 2012, 11:40:27 PM
The very talkative bus driver who has known me for years as my kid's "mom" switched to "dad" today. And my voice is dropping. Lol it's not stable though. I croak like a frog half the time, and sometimes my voice cracks like that kid on the Brady Bunch.
lol, you're going through teen boy puberty kid!
I found 2 pennies today! It's been a while since I found any change. It's strange because they were near the computer in the computer lab of our college so someone must of left it there intentionally not caring to get it since it was just 2 cents. My original computer I wanted was taken so I left the lab for a bit and came back to get on the computer in front of my regular one and that's where I found the coins. Talk about lucky....and to think I could have almost missed them! Victory Screeeeeech!
Oh and we had a sub party today and my sub and soda was good. :)
Kudo's Malachite scores again!
Though I pledged to give up self-loathing for Lent, I had a major attack of it last night. I just about cried myself to sleep.
But as I hoped, I was able to sleep it off. I'm not doing great, but I'm doing better.
Quote from: Connie Anne on March 15, 2012, 04:40:40 PM
Though I pledged to give up self-loathing for Lent, I had a major attack of it last night. I just about cried myself to sleep.
But as I hoped, I was able to sleep it off. I'm not doing great, but I'm doing better.
Did I miss Lent and Pi Day? Hrm.
Don't let self-loathing suck you in. It's not real, it's not true, I think it's just a weird malfunctioning instinct that all of us have somewhere in us.
Thanks, Felix.
And since Sundays are not part of Lent, I'm free to hate myself all I want then and not be breaking my Lenten fast!
Had my first shot of T today. It is even better since I was able to get my first shot before my partner left, so he was able to share in the moment with me.
Did sight-singing with my friend who's a singing teacher (and a hot dyke). We slaughtered Crucifixus, but had a good laugh - and singing is good for my Inner Meerkat :).
Online shops that offer free shipping and throw in a good freebie when I order something I would buy anyway :) Oh, my free beach tote that had been on back order arrived today... Now all I need is a beach 8)
(Technically yesterday), my friend thought it would be amusing to get me high for the first time on some pills. It was a nice, loose, heavy feeling. My (extremely attractive) friend then proceeded to tell me I was the only guy he'd ever go gay for, which was pretty funny until he kissed me. Then it became awesome. ;D After that, well... I think I am the luckiest damn person in my town right now! <3
I made super-awesome grades on my report card! Then I threw up XD First at home, then in my health class (grossing everyone out), but I insisted I'd make it... until I panicked, ran into the hallway, ran, and did not make it to the trashcan in time. Had to go home, so I've missed two days of class... sucks like hell! Then my friend came over after school and we watched Abbott and Costello while joking about the high -- I am never, ever doing pills again if I have vomiting to look forward to! And he said he hardly remembered last night. (Cue me wondering if he'd forgotten his promise not to punch me if he turned out to regret losing his Big Fat Gay Virginity.)
He remembered the mutually beneficial parts. :icon_redface: :icon_mrhappy:
I missed a super awesome Pi day party along with an outting to Sonic, then one of my favorite musicals... but, my sexy friend is attracted to me, so I think I win in the long run. o_o
I bought a new capo for my guitar.
Made an 80 on my test just now :)
Quote from: V M on March 15, 2012, 07:05:56 PM
Online shops that offer free shipping and throw in a good freebie when I order something I would buy anyway :) Oh, my free beach tote that had been on back order arrived today... Now all I need is a beach 8)
I buy orange peel from a place online because it's far far cheaper than anywhere else I've seen, and this one company has good quality stuff, and last time I got some they threw in a bag of honey crystals. That made me smile.
Oranges are so cheap I should probably figure a way to grate and dry the stuff myself.
And what made me happy today was that a few hours ago I was wrangling with deep hopelessness and now I'm not. It took staying up half the night and talking on the phone and the internet, and I didn't solve the problems that made me feel so hopeless, but I came out of it. I feel okay.
I got out of bed. Feeling really messed up this morning, but I got out of bed and I'm going to see someone who's helping me. One thing at a time.
Listening to Sailor Moon music
Thumbs up for Padma. :-*
I got 10/10 on a Biology quiz on Cnidaria and Porifera (Jellyfish and co. and Sponges) :)
Karen.
Quote from: Malachite on March 16, 2012, 04:31:42 AM
Listening to Sailor Moon music
Anime or live drama? That brings back memories. ^^
For me - saw the endo and him not wanting me to go and see the psych. *happy dance*
A coworker told me today that she's proud of me transitioning here on the job.
Much happier than I was this morning - which is a cause for happiness :).
Also, I just got my latest blood tests back, and changing from Estradiol tablets to gel has raised my E from 192 (which was barely higher than men's range) to 421 (which is where it should be).
Quote from: luna nyan on March 16, 2012, 07:00:32 AM
Anime or live drama? That brings back memories. ^^
For me - saw the endo and him not wanting me to go and see the psych. *happy dance*
The anime version. It brings back memories for me too. :) Even brings back some memories that never existed. >.> lol
What made me happy today? I don't know I'm just waking up but when something happens I'll let yall know :)
OK so this isn't from today, but last Tuesday... moving that post here since there was too much cam-hogging on the other thread to get noticed from my point of view.
I have In Real Life friends now, so, PFFFFFFFFT! :D Life is getting BETTER! :)
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at least 5 of them are or were from Susans... now I see why they've moved on...
Facebook, anyone?
Got to talk to a good therapist. Educated, trans friendly and experienced, sex positive, familiar with a range of mental health issues, and she takes my insurance. Yay.
Also the headless cheetah robot and also all my new hairs. ;D
@ Felix: I am so lost, hahaha.
Today I got to sunbathe! It was so relaxing even with all of the people at the pool. Then when I came into the apartment, my dog was so excited to see me and has been snuggling me all day. Then I looked in the mirror and was like, "I look good", even though I was wearing a bikini. o.o It was a positive thought related to how I look and that never happens so it made me happy to have a positive thought even with the icky stretch marks of girlishness.
Dancing to Sailor Moon Musicing while doing the Ric Flair taunt
I got a job interview set up for Tuesday. Keep your fingers crossed for me!
The dentist ended up being much less unpleasant than I was expecting, and I now have something to keep me from grinding my teeth at night.
I was procrastinating from going to the gym, and my mother walked in and yelled "GO GET BUFF!"
My cat is extra cuddly.
It was a record breakingly warm, sunny day.
I got things set up to take the PCAT this summer.
Aaand I think that's just about all. It's been a really good day. :)
My daughter had ZERO incident reports! It just occurred to me how rare that is lately. And she didn't hit or scream at all today. She did some cussing and stomping, but honestly I probably did too. We're under a lot of stress and both in the early stages of puberty.
Househunting wasn't as soul-crushing today as it was yesterday.
And in the last couple hours I've been happily studying human biology and the fun things we can do with it.
Had some retail therapy (shopping!) today, which always makes me feel better when i'm down.
I bought a pair of mint colored skinny jeans from UO & found some really cute jewelery pieces at F21 that were 50% off!!
I found a wheat penny in the dressing room, a sign of good things to come? :D
Quote from: Danielle×o on March 17, 2012, 03:05:20 AM
I bought a pair of mint colored skinny jeans from UO & found some really cute jewelery pieces at F21 that were 50% off!!
I found a wheat penny in the dressing room, a sign of good things to come? :D
I just lately am getting it through my thick skull that UO logos do not mean Urge Overkill (which is a band I don't even know the sound of, just got used to their logos long ago), and now you apparently know of another widely-used UO referent? Where I am it's University of Oregon, but that's provincial and obviously not where you got jewelry.
Quote from: Felix on March 17, 2012, 04:01:49 AM
I just lately am getting it through my thick skull that UO logos do not mean Urge Overkill (which is a band I don't even know the sound of, just got used to their logos long ago), and now you apparently know of another widely-used UO referent? Where I am it's University of Oregon, but that's provincial and obviously not where you got jewelry.
Lol Felix. :D
UO=Urban Outfitters
F21=Forever21
I had a fun afternoon at an "Undercover Wear" party at a friends place. Lingerie and clothes, that actually look good in larger sizes. Spent more than I intended, but they are good quality and stylish. :)
Karen.
The high today is 80F (in the middle of March in Chicago :o ) and boyfriend and I are going on a long bike ride by the lakefront.
My Dad emailed me and he opened his email with "Hi honey.."
2 years ago it used to be "Hi son," then last year it was "Hi Keaira", So I guess he's getting more comfortable with having me as his Daughter and he's gotten over 'the loss' of his son. ^_^
Quote from: Renee D on March 17, 2012, 04:30:21 PM
I got the doggy to start humping a stuffed bunny rather than my foot or leg. Now he's sleeping with it, lol.
LOL... :laugh: :laugh: :laugh: :laugh: :laugh:
I found out my daughter will be coming down from college later today for St. Paddy's dinner!
Getting more ideas for the poems that I will be writing.
I won a free vet visit and nail trimming for my dog. :)
I love my eyebrows right now.
I had a good time even if it was at a woman's meeting for our church. >.>
Went out to my usual restaurant last night and a couple asked if they could join me as they had seen me before and was so popular with the staff. We had a great night of conversation and laughs.
I think I'm being accepted ::)
Cindy
Great news all over by the loo of all the above. :)
Finished my Euro History essay, and had no problems with Microsoft Word!
Karen.
This thread always makes me pretty happy. And Cindy you have to stop making me feel all heartwarmed and stuff. That's not manly.
Going to church today made me happy. Teenagers and old men and women all on stage playing keys and guitars and harmonica and drums and singing and more, and they were so exuberant and they were so beautiful. I'm not xian but I love episcopalians. Beautiful rhetoric and stained glass, and joyful noises.
I was talking to a woman about her life, and it started sounding really familiar. I realized that she is the wife of the first trans guy I met. He is the one who made me realize that passing is an option because he looked so much like any other normal guy.
I then looked around and saw him, and this time I noticed every little detail that could suggest that he is trans. I noticed a number of the same things that bother me about myself, but as a whole I still saw the Regular Joe whom I met several years ago. I have more hope that at some point I will be able to see myself in the same way.
Quote from: Lee on March 18, 2012, 02:33:56 AM
I was talking to a woman about her life, and it started sounding really familiar. I realized that she is the wife of the first trans guy I met. He is the one who made me realize that passing is an option because he looked so much like any other normal guy.
I then looked around and saw him, and this time I noticed every little detail that could suggest that he is trans. I noticed a number of the same things that bother me about myself, but as a whole I still saw the Regular Joe whom I met several years ago. I have more hope that at some point I will be able to see myself in the same way.
This is cool. You should post about this encounter wherever else you hang out, too.
Looking at Felix's introduction post. It put a smile on my face.
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DAY = MADE
(if you're wondering, im dressed up for Zombie Walk. (an annual event to raise money for brain cancer)
I found a 1973 picture of me on an unofficial Navy site with my unit onboard ship. I was sure skinny then! I remember everybody in that photo!
Joelene
Singing. I've been singing all the time since a few days ago when my voice suddenly started dropping. It's so fun. :)
As my little nephew was leaving to go home I quoted from Shakespeare, " Good night, good night! Parting is such sweet sorrow, That I shall say good night till it be morrow." He told me goodbye sorrow and I said goodbye morrow. I found it cute.
Getting a new bra top dress off of the 'Free table' at my apt.s :) It has a very similar fairy cut like the one on my avatar but it is black with a black and white animal print on the top part
Finally booked my appointment for my next T shot. Three months overdue. Getting it next Wednesday.
EEEEEEEEEEEEEE
I got to see the 2013 Ford Fusion prototype today at work. It was in that god-awful matt white with black triangle camoflage paint scheme all over it with velcro to cover it's body panels (Which were stuffed in the back seats). I never thought I would say this, but...
I would buy this Ford.
Thats what I like most about my job, we get to see some of the newest vehicles up close and personal before the general public.
And, my new glasses came in. ^_^ will post a pic later.
Today I learned that the man who sired me has died.
He was not a father, he was a sub-human pile of rancid gerbil excrement. And I am happy he is no longer around.
My only sadness is that the news came too late for me to be able to dance on his grave. Instead I will have to be content with the hope that Hell has opened a new circle especially for him; one filled with rabid, disease-ridden wombats, whipped into a frothing frenzy of bloodlust by an endless loop of Chris de Burgh albums, played through a 1980's cassette recorder and interspersed with slightly off-key elevator music.
Forget Rest In Peace. I hope he Writhes In Agony. For every horrible thing he ever did, I hope he suffers wherever he is now.
The grey clouds with a little bit of sun
The green pollen caked on cars, picnic tables, and roofs
Worm-like creatures hanging from the trees
I got to test out the prototype Ford Fusion today. Best thing about it was I knew more about that car and it's options and features than the technician working on it and the driver. Sadly, it had to go back to the Dearborn plant in Michigan. :D
My job sucks, but the good stuff that happens is sometimes pretty great!
Handed in two assignments, and then went fishing with friends for a few hours after I got home. One unfamiliar undersized , possibly Banded Morwong, and lots of bites. The enjoyed the the Pilchards I was using apparently!
Karen.
I just had the privilege of having the delusion that I have some hope in my life and that everything will be ok. It felt good so I danced my joy to a song a few times. While I am in this delusion I feel that I must say one day I shall be so happy that I will "blaze across the sky like a meteorite".
A cute girl complimented my shirt today. :D
Realizing that I'm damn sexy in my binder.
@ Jasper: Wish I looked sexy in a binder, hahhaa, but my body is rather curvy so I can't bind effectively.
I finished my mid-term essay. :D :D :D Yay! xD I hate this history so much, but I hope I do well on this mid-term.
"Can I help you ladies find something?" said the walmart attendant to my wife and I. It's so normal to me now that this time, my wife pointed out that she called us "Ladies".
And it always feels right.
The hole for my nose ring didn't close up during surgery! I got my lil sparkly bit back in. I probably would have cried if it had closed up. I feel like I'm being vain and superficial, but without my nose ring it feels like part of my face is missing.
I was walking along a river bank holding a cupcake when I slipped and ended up rolling a few times down the slope. I yelled out "Gotta save the cupcake" as I rolled and then ended up on my back holding the cupcake (in perfect condition) in the air and shouting "I did it!" My friends cracked up and helped me brush off all the dirt. It was my unintentionally smooth moment of the day.
I worked out today and it wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be.
I had to go slower than the video, but at least I'm startin' somewhere.
Feels nice.
Spending time with my dad going change hunting and not getting cut in the process
Discovering the Cruise control does actually work on my Minivan, thus making an otherwise tiresome drive so much easier on the legs.
Spending time with my family. That was the best part! Especially seeing my son's eyes light up when he saw his birthday gifts.
My wife's parents didnt give me a problem over my transition. I'm pretty happy about that actually.
Watching the two local teams win their bouts in the Roller Derby tonight. :)
Finally finding way to log in here after not being able to for a week..
1. I finally reached the over $500 mark in my top surgery fund! Now I can officially say I have over half a grand saved for top surgery XD.
2. I package is finally here!
Had a great day at the TasPride Picnic today. Lots of food on the BBQ, fun things like the dog show, (friend's son and dog won a dog toy, and bag of dog food), Drag Race, and handbag toss (beaten into 2nd place by a MAN!)
Warm and sunny all day, but not too hot.
Karen.
Quote from: Malachite on March 24, 2012, 06:13:30 PM
1. I finally reached the over $500 mark in my top surgery fund! Now I can officially say I have over half a grand saved for top surgery XD.
Wahoo! Weldone Malachite keep going buddy.
I snuck downstairs, made a cup of tea and dashed back up so i didn't have to make more then one.
Operation tea-storm was a complete succes, with the added bonus that my stepdad things he's going nuts
Because he's adamant he filled up the kettle and my mums like 'well you obviously didn't because there's nothing in it' hahahahaah
Quote from: Tom on March 25, 2012, 05:43:31 AM
Wahoo! Weldone Malachite keep going buddy.
I snuck downstairs, made a cup of tea and dashed back up so i didn't have to make more then one.
Operation tea-storm was a complete succes, with the added bonus that my stepdad things he's going nuts
Because he's adamant he filled up the kettle and my mums like 'well you obviously didn't because there's nothing in it' hahahahaah
Thanks mate and I got 4 cents today too that I added. :D
Talked to my mom today on the phone an she's completely cool with me an wanting to transition, no problems what-so-ever.
BOOSH! :icon_geekdance:
Quote from: Andarta on March 25, 2012, 01:25:00 PM
Talked to my mom today on the phone an she's completely cool with me an wanting to transition, no problems what-so-ever.
BOOSH! :icon_geekdance:
That's so great Andarta! Congrats! :)
Quote from: Malachite on March 25, 2012, 01:30:48 PM
That's so great Andarta! Congrats! :)
Thank You It Was Awesome!!!
My low-carb almond cookie experiment was successful beyond my expectations! These are great for paleo folks, Atkins, or whatever LCHF sort of diet you may be on. This made me very happy.
2 1/4 cups almond flour
1/2 cup xylitol
1/4 cup splenda
1/8 tsp stevia
2 sticks melted butter, salted (or add 1.5 tsp salt if unsalted)
1 tsp almond extract
1/4 tsp baking soda
1/4 tsp baking powder
1/4 cup crushed almonds (optional)
I used a Kitchen Aid mixer but you can probably hand mix.
Mix almond flour, splenda, stevia, soda, and powder. Melt xylitol into melted butter (it doesn't dissolve easily and will be grainy if you don't). Add extract to butter. Add half of melted butter to flour and try to work out any lumps before adding the rest of butter and finish mixing. Fold in crushed almonds if desired. Batter will be a bit crumbly and you will have to shape it a bit with your hands. The cookies should not spread much, if at all. They mostly retain their initial shape from before baking.
300F 12 - 15 mins
These are very substantial and really hit the spot. So however many cookies you would normally eat, maybe cut that in half or a third or you will feel pretty over-full.
That I was able to follow a P90X video all the way through to the end without completely dying.
Love my contour today.
The nice weather
I got more than I expected for my trade ins at Gamestop and I also found a dime there.
My mother got me me some fast food.
I ate pasta in the garden in my shorts because it's such a nice day and read spiderman
Watching Adam Hills' TV show on ABC1, with a same-sex mass TV wedding. I especially liked the voe to "not eat the last piece of chocolate without telling you first!"
And the supportive letter from the 88 year old woman who has been married for 60+years. Sweet. :)
Karen.
Changing over banks has gone rather smoothly and I'm loving direct deposit.
geting more change
Quote from: Malachite on March 30, 2012, 07:21:08 PM
geting more change
The last several days when I find change on the floor, I have thought about you. I put the change in my till or the penny cup for people to use.
Quote from: Jaime Renee on March 30, 2012, 08:55:00 PM
The last several days when I find change on the floor, I have thought about you. I put the change in my till or the penny cup for people to use.
::)
Going on a hike with my dad and having my brother complain that he got a "weird, pointy nose" when I got a "cool nose." It's nice to know that the envy goes both ways sometimes. He also made me happy a couple of days ago when he realized that I don't have an adam's apple and was genuinely surprised.
It was yesterday and I got home late, but I got to see my daughter in The Vagina Monologues at her uni.
Quote from: Liam Erik on March 30, 2012, 09:48:14 PM
A horse escaped from me today and ran around loose, and as a result of this, another horse had a screaming panic attack.
The reason this made me happy is that it was a spontaneous trial for my animal handling skills, and I passed with flying colors. I am also finding that I am growing very fond of these horses, and that they like me, too, and respond well to me.
Good for you! :) My experience with horses has been abysmal to say the least! It may go back to when I was a kid and was bitten by a pony. Holy crap #@&* that hurts! Years later I was rounding up a stallion that was loose on a rural highway, they can be dangerous, but I was lucky and got him roped to my vehicle bumper, it happened again I got bitten on my back! Later I was leading one to a corral and it stepped on my foot, fortunately there was soft mud under me. I think that they all knew that I was afraid of them from childhood and they took advantage of it.
My spaghetti sauce is looking and tasting pretty good, gonna add some stuff to it tonight and cook it some more.
And I can see the bottom of the kitchen sink again, lol.
What time is dinner dear?
About midnight probably. I eat dinner kind of late due to work.
They are quite smart alright, probably more then we give them credit for! I've been told that a soft voice works well, but that you do have to be assertive to maintain the proper relationship!
Quote from: Jaime Renee on March 31, 2012, 12:04:46 PM
About midnight probably. I eat dinner kind of late due to work.
Any Italian in your pedigree? Nice photo BTW!
Getting back onto Susan's again after almost 2 weeks of not being able to log in. It's been weird seeing 'topic reply' emails but not being able to get onto the site. I'm very glad it's sorted, whatever was causing it.
Also, being on the Exeter Pride march in England today - with more than twice as many people as last year, and a really broad spread of age range, which was great to see.
Google Chrome notified me that something was wrong with the site. :D
I also got to clock an extra 2 hours today.
Quote from: Shantel on March 31, 2012, 01:38:19 PM
Any Italian in your pedigree? Nice photo BTW!
Nope, but eat a lot of stuff made by someone who is italian/lebanese. I'm of english/irish descent.
And thanks, although I had just changed it again before this post, lol. The other one was a few years old.
oh and what made me happy today was that my doggy was clean when my neighbor put him back in the house while I was at work and the pastor actually maamed me tonight. He wasn't so cool with me about that a few years ago when my dad passed.
Quote from: Jaime Renee on March 31, 2012, 10:33:15 PM
oh and what made me happy today was that my doggy was clean when my neighbor put him back in the house while I was at work and the pastor actually maamed me tonight. He wasn't so cool with me about that a few years ago when my dad passed.
Being a student of personalities, comments and body language I get the feeling that perhaps your own inherently sweet personality and disposition as you have appeared here at Susan's and I have been able to discern thus far has brought you these well deserved blessings.
I've got money for binder :D So in about two weeks i'll have it, sounds awesome i can't wait.
Just back from my Endo.
That guy really rocks. Pity he's spoken for :(
Results T = 0.3 nmol/L :eusa_clap: :eusa_dance:
E = 197 :icon_anger: Come on guys you can do better
Prolactin = 198 :( Come ON
PSA = 0.36 ug/L :icon_drunk: :icon_joy: Was 6.76 on the last visit. Alarm bell territory
But all in all. He doubled everything except the Spiro.
There's going to be a PARTY tonight and eveyones invited. Hehehe.
Be safe, well and happy ('cause I am :laugh: :-* :angel:)
Lotsa huggs
Catherine
Catherine also gets the naughty girl branding iron on her bum for posting dosages. Devlyn, hold her down.
Cindy
Quote from: Catherine Sarah on April 01, 2012, 11:17:25 AM
Just back from my Endo.
There's going to be a PARTY tonight and eveyones invited. Hehehe.
Be safe, well and happy ('cause I am :laugh: :-* :angel:)
Lotsa huggs
Catherine
Whoa, Catherine you are and will be the Pent-Ultimate Aussie Hottie! ;D
Wowaaaaa!!!
<*In squeeky Miss Piggy voice*>
And whooooooo is just Miss Ultimate ...... Hummmmm???
<* SMACK*>
Oh soooooory Shantel !! Was that you???
I never even pictured ....... YOU ..... as Miss Ultimate Aussie Hottie.
:laugh: :angel: :-* :P ::) :o
Quote from: Catherine Sarah on April 01, 2012, 12:08:28 PM
Wowaaaaa!!!
<*In squeeky Miss Piggy voice*>
And whooooooo is just Miss Ultimate ...... Hummmmm???
<* SMACK*>
Oh soooooory Shantel !! Was that you???
I never even pictured ....... YOU ..... as Miss Ultimate Aussie Hottie.
:laugh: :angel: :-* :P ::) :o
Not about me sweetie!
Hmmmmm what a female you really are!!! :laugh: I was under the impression that Pent-Ultimate was actually better than just plain ultimate. Like sub, meaning less than, meant that substantial is less than stantial! :D The English language in all of it's nuances is a riot! ;)
I've just bought my first binder! I'm so excited about it. Now i have to tell my mum that money that she gave me wasn't for a t-shirt and it is kinda scary cuz she doesn't know i'm ftm yet.
But i'm happy right now and that's all that counts! :)
Quote from: max96 on April 01, 2012, 02:59:25 PM
I've just bought my first binder! I'm so excited about it. Now i have to tell my mum that money that she gave me wasn't for a t-shirt and it is kinda scary cuz she doesn't know i'm ftm yet.
But i'm happy right now and that's all that counts! :)
Congrats Max! :) Hope your mom takes it well.
What made me happy today? Seeing my cousin.
Listening to a mushy mix tape from my honey :D. (I can't help calling it that, even though it's a CD...)
My partner sent me a message half way through his day to tell me that his day is going good and he got the keys to his office. :) His having a good day makes me happy.
Ah, who am I kidding? He makes me happy.
Hiking in the sunshine (84 degrees today) and knowing that it's going to snow tomorrow. I love bipolar weather.
LOL... We haven't gotten up to 84 degrees where I'm at, but we def have bipolar weather here :laugh:
Hiking in the sunshine sounds wonderful :)
I liked my appearance today. I had a really bad bout of dysphoria yesterday. Especially with my wife calling me by my old male name AND pronouns. that cut's deep. Anyway,I tried hard though out the day to see a guy and I just cant anymore. It's great to say that. A little make-up goes a long way. Speaking of which, a girl came over to me at lunch time with a Mary Kay catalog and asked if I'd like to have a look. That was a first for me. Not sure if she was hinting that I needed help or not. :P
The rest of my day wasn't so pleasing.
Quote from: Jaime Renee on March 31, 2012, 10:33:15 PM
and the pastor actually maamed me tonight. He wasn't so cool with me about that a few years ago when my dad passed.
I'm glad he's coming around.
What made me happy today was hanging out with a bunch of transguys irl. It's nice to be neither stealth nor exotic.
I also got a really nice pair of shoes (my sneakers were disintegrating), a pair of boxers, a pair of boxer briefs, and a psychedelic furs cd all for $12 at the thrift store.
Also I got to pet a cat. It was a friendly and talkative cat, white with grey markings and largish.
Quote from: Felix on April 02, 2012, 02:51:05 AM
I'm glad he's coming around.
What made me happy today was hanging out with a bunch of transguys irl. It's nice to be neither stealth nor exotic.
I also got a really nice pair of shoes (my sneakers were disintegrating), a pair of boxers, a pair of boxer briefs, and a psychedelic furs cd all for $12 at the thrift store.
Also I got to pet a cat. It was a friendly and talkative cat, white with grey markings and largish.
Sounds like my cat. His name is Obi. Short for Obi-have because he's an onri thing.
Quote from: Keaira on April 02, 2012, 02:04:54 AM
I liked my appearance today. I had a really bad bout of dysphoria yesterday. Especially with my wife calling me by my old male name AND pronouns. that cut's deep. Anyway,I tried hard though out the day to see a guy and I just cant anymore. It's great to say that. A little make-up goes a long way. Speaking of which, a girl came over to me at lunch time with a Mary Kay catalog and asked if I'd like to have a look. That was a first for me. Not sure if she was hinting that I needed help or not. :P
The rest of my day wasn't so pleasing.
If a Mary Kay girl came up to you I'd assume you were being seen as female and she wasn't hinting anything. I'm really sorry that anyone is calling you by the wrong name on purpose. That hurts.
You should listen to the audio on this page. It's funny Moth stuff involving Mary Kay - http://www.mbird.com/2012/01/would-jesus-drive-a-pink-cadillac-mary-kays-warm-chatter-and-confessions-of-contact-evangelism/
Idk anything about that blogger btw it was just the first audio excerpt I could find.
Finally coordinating waxing my vital unwanted hair parts and coloring the grey shwag on my head to match the rest of the curly blond shwag on my head... Getting old sucks :P Maybe I should eat something
Oh yeah, I'm pretending I'm a dog so I'm being happy for no apparent reason
My partner had a great first day of work. Even though I cannot share in it until I leave the country, hearing him talk about it makes me so happy. :)
Quote from: Felix on April 02, 2012, 03:05:10 AM
If a Mary Kay girl came up to you I'd assume you were being seen as female and she wasn't hinting anything. I'm really sorry that anyone is calling you by the wrong name on purpose. That hurts.
You should listen to the audio on this page. It's funny Moth stuff involving Mary Kay - http://www.mbird.com/2012/01/would-jesus-drive-a-pink-cadillac-mary-kays-warm-chatter-and-confessions-of-contact-evangelism/
Idk anything about that blogger btw it was just the first audio excerpt I could find.
I will check it out when I can stay awake. Thank you Felix. ^_^
I think working 7 days and sometimes staying over or coming in early for 4 hours extra is just burning me up. Tigger says I look really tired. and I feel it too.
Thumbs up for Keaira!!
Caught up with friends from down south, on way back from Obstetricians appointment. All going well. :)
Yes Cindy, there is actually a bit more land south of Hobart! :laugh:
Karen.
NO WORK! YES! ;D
oh also, Game of Thrones season 2 on tonight wahoo
I have enjoyed the Masterpiece Theater presentation of the British series "Downton Abby", it's off for the season but Charles Dickens's "Great Expectations" will be showing in two parts next. I love those period pieces!
I'm happy that I've been having these top surgery dreams lately. The dreams may not be perfect but it's pretty cool to see myself talking to the surgeon at least considering I won't be seeing him for a LONG time.
Quote from: Malachite on April 02, 2012, 11:46:47 AM
I'm happy that I've been having these top surgery dreams lately. The dreams may not be perfect but it's pretty cool to see myself talking to the surgeon at least considering I won't be seeing him for a LONG time.
I dreamed the other day that I was in a militia (in a postapocalyptic dystopia setting as so many dreams are) and a friend of mine and I decided to desert and strike out on our own. We ditched as much of our uniforms as we could and tried to lose ourselves in an abandoned hotel. The hotel was huge and dark and falling apart, and had a subway train station in the basement. Shortly after breaking off from our unit there was a firefight in the hallways of this enormous building, and it was bloody and loud and over fast. Afterwards I pulled a small shirt off a corpse and used that as a binder, and then I smiled for the first time in that dream.
The rest was dull, me aimlessly wandering around digging through artifacts and stuff. The last part I remember was finding a room where sunlight filtered through the dust, and putting a towel under my head and lying down with my friend.
Quote from: Liam Erik on April 02, 2012, 07:04:02 PM
First visit to the men's room.
It was very empty, thankfully, especially since the stall doors didn't really latch.
This is a really really big deal. Congratulations. :)
I got a Kindle and am catching up some reading that I've been meaning to get to for a long time like Mark Twain, Nietzsche, and Lovecraft. Felix, your dream reminded me of a Lovecraft story where some dreams are actually a phase of our other lives in other times and places, sometimes even as creatures other than human. He's a kooky guy.
Great stuph! So catching up on my reading is making me happy.
Quote from: dalebert on April 03, 2012, 08:00:52 AM
I got a Kindle and am catching up some reading that I've been meaning to get to for a long time like Mark Twain, Nietzsche, and Lovecraft. Felix, your dream reminded me of a Lovecraft story where some dreams are actually a phase of our other lives in other times and places, sometimes even as creatures other than human. He's a kooky guy.
Great stuph! So catching up on my reading is making me happy.
If that's true my other lives have been really strange. As a child I had a nightmare, it was dark and I heard something down at the bottom of the stairs. So I went out of my bedroom to the top of the stairs and looked down and there was a bat. It was exactly like the batman logo except it was alive and massive and it was staring up at me and then it start floating up the steps towards me.
I slept with my torch for a week after that.
Today I got a new game =] Final Fantasy IV: the complete collection. I also nearly got Akira for my PSP but I decided not too.
There is not a single dirty dish in my kitchen now and I have enough spaghetti sauce frozen to last me a little while, lol.
My sister is allowed to attend the financial seminar with me. :)
The barrista at Peet's got a kick out of my Free Hugs mug.
I just found out that my genderqueer daughter just got her first binder and is loving the results!
I'm eating a giant bowl of strawberries and raspberries. ;D
Waking up to find the weather has gone from being summer-like annoyance to howling winds, driving snow, and a layer at least a couple of inches thick on the ground in a scene reminiscent of the quaintest European Christmas cards.
Sephie is a very happy bunny indeed.
;D ;D
*puts ritual implements and ancient grimoire away carefully*
My work is done, lol. ;D
Quote from: Liam Erik on April 02, 2012, 07:04:02 PM
First visit to the men's room.
It was very empty, thankfully, especially since the stall doors didn't really latch.
Congratulations! A big step to take. ^_^
Quote from: Jaime on April 03, 2012, 10:20:11 AM
There is not a single dirty dish in my kitchen now and I have enough spaghetti sauce frozen to last me a little while, lol.
You really like spaghetti. Spaghetti is good stuff. :)
I'm happy because tomorrow I'm dressing up like a bunny rabbit! I'm going to be the easter bunny to help Easter Seals sell tulips downtown. Yay.
I have a whole week to catch up on reading Lecture notes, as well as have a life!! :D
I went to my Pharmacy, and two of my most visited food stores (Woollies, and Pick'nPay) and it is incredible how friendly and nice all the shop girls/women are. It is heart warming, and please don't say that's just because I leave my money there.
I watch how other folks are treated with lots more indifference and so I take note, it must be something about my person then...
I always care to dress well (a bit sexy...) and have my 'face' put on, ever so lightly.
So... that made me happy today ;-)
Axélle
Quote from: Axélle-Michélle on April 04, 2012, 10:02:13 AM
I went to my Pharmacy, and two of my most visited food stores (Woollies, and Pick'nPay) and it is incredible how friendly and nice all the shop girls/women are. It is heart warming, and please don't say that's just because I leave my money there.
I watch how other folks are treated with lots more indifference and so I take note, it must be something about my person then...
I always care to dress well (a bit sexy...) and have my 'face' put on, ever so lightly.
So... that made me happy today ;-)
Axélle
Is Woollies Woolworths? I never knew they were still around.
I'm happy because my daughter gave me a coloring book picture of a pink pegasus in the clouds and she colored it nighttime and told me a great story about the night rainbow and the way it works. :)
And of course, bunny suit. I'm so easily pleased. Last time I got to wear a suit and wave and have my picture taken was when I worked at Popeyes. I made a pretty small popeye. :)
Quote from: Felix on April 04, 2012, 10:35:55 AM
Is Woollies Woolworth? I never knew they were still around.
Yes, that's them. they are still big over here and essentially the M&S brand (Marks & Spencer, no not what you are thinking again... that's S&M :-)
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I'm happy because my daughter gave me a coloring book picture of a pink pegasus in the clouds and she colored it nighttime and told me a great story about the night rainbow and the way it works. :)
Gosh that's so sweet! Makes me think of Woollies earlier on, when a woman with her new-born had just come into the store. Can you believe it - I still have my knee buckle, only just looking at one such new-born... another thing yet that made me happy to the point of jelly knees.
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And of course, bunny suit. I'm so easily pleased. Last time I got to wear a suit and wave and have my picture taken was when I worked at Popeyes. I made a pretty small popeye. :)
Ag nee, you are the best Popeye pop in the world dear. Nice to hear your relating it :-)
Axélle
Quote from: Axélle-Michélle on April 04, 2012, 10:02:13 AM
I watch how other folks are treated with lots more indifference and so I take note, it must be something about my person then...
Axélle
"it must be something about my person then... "I would bet you are right! A nice, warm personality coupled with a nice appearance is always a winning combination. It radiates a statement that says "I'm happy and confident in my own skin!"
My incisions aren't infected! At least, not to the extent that I need to do more than put a little ointment on the icky parts. Also, I'm done with the 24/7 Ace bandage! ;D It feels so nice just sitting here in a t-shirt. Odd, but nice.
Quote from: Julian on April 04, 2012, 12:55:12 PM
My incisions aren't infected! At least, not to the extent that I need to do more than put a little ointment on the icky parts. Also, I'm done with the 24/7 Ace bandage! ;D It feels so nice just sitting here in a t-shirt. Odd, but nice.
Good news! That means we can breathe again? ;D
Quote from: Julian on April 04, 2012, 12:55:12 PM
My incisions aren't infected! At least, not to the extent that I need to do more than put a little ointment on the icky parts. Also, I'm done with the 24/7 Ace bandage! ;D It feels so nice just sitting here in a t-shirt. Odd, but nice.
Huzzah!
another biker gave me a upside down peace sign while I was riding my motorcycle today. It was really cool.
Looking at my retirement plan stuff online made me very happy I signed up for it. The little that goes into isn't really missed much since its pretax and the matching funds are helping a lot and its all fully vested from the getgo.
My credit union allowed me to get checks printed that have both my legal name (David) and my real name (Connie).
Auntie Shan roasted two chickens a few days ago, today I boned one carcass and the other whole chicken and made a huge pot of delicious chunky chicken noodle soup, good for several days!
While I was dressed as the easter bunny I got lots and lots of hugs. A lot of pictures were taken. I even got to hold a baby. Lol some kids were scared though. One boy took one look at me and started crying. Poor thing. :laugh:
found out that I am off Friday for the whole weekend. :D
My wife got me a make-up case and a blue and white stuffed bunny for Easter. But I don't know about these items.. Shhh...
Quote from: Keaira on April 05, 2012, 12:54:11 AM
found out that I am off Friday for the whole weekend. :D
My wife got me a make-up case and a blue and white stuffed bunny for Easter. But I don't know about these items.. Shhh...
sneak! :laugh:
I'm trying to convince my daughter that being at respite for Easter might be okay. We're not religious, and after spring break I really really need a break from her.
I'm glad that your wife is giving you makeup and a plushie. :)
Got to hang out with two good friends and talk to my partner. :)
Quote from: max96 on April 05, 2012, 05:14:43 AM
My binder is in my country and it'll arive tommorow :D
I've got some problems with shipping and i paid 29$ for binder but 38$ for shipping haha but now i don't care :D
haha when i got my binder I tracked it everyday lol
Speaking of which I need a new one, it sticks out. Makes me look like im stealing an old style computer monitor.
My mum and me went for a drink and the amazingly cute waitress girl was there. She didnt smile at me today though...to be fair I didnt even look at her bar once and she was looking elsewhere at the time. I played it too cool i think.
My daughter had a good day at school, I got to see my therapist, and I have clean laundry.
We had a roadblock to check driver's licenses and while visually I passed fine and my name is Jeneva on my license, it still has an M for gender (TN law say I can't change it yet). After he checked out the car and my license, he handed it back to me and said "Have a good day, ma'am."
What made me happy is the way that coworkers who didn't really talk to me as David seem to go out of their way to talk to me as Connie. I just feel so welcomed.
My dad gave me a dollar.
It's 3:20pm and Im not at work or even dressed yet! Tomorrow I meet a girl just starting her transition, Somehow I've become my local PFLAG Chapter's transgender contact. lol
Sunday, at some point, I will have a webchat with my Dad. :D
All in all, it looks to be a wonderful weekend. :D
Ok, I have yet another thing I have to share because I am too excited and happy with it. Today has been an awesome day.
A while back I was asking Shannon if she cared if I wore an engagement style solitaire ring with my band. She thought it was a good idea so we looked around. Unfortunately real diamonds were not in the budget, but I found moissanite (almost as hard as diamonds [harder than sapphire] and even more sparkle/fire). We took it outside earlier today and it about blinded us with flash and fire.
Originally I wanted to start wearing it on our 15th anniversary on 6, but it came today and we've got a family dinner with her parents this weekend so I got too impatient.
I know this sets my GCS back at least a month but it was so sparkly and I really wanted to wear something else with my band so it didn't look so masculine/butch. That band is only about 5 years old. I drug her around jewelry stores all weekend to find it because my old ring was ultra cheap and wasn't rounded and was marking my fingers. Since I drug her around all that time to find it, I'll be hanging onto it.
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I got an appointment at the dental school. The soonest I could get was May 11th, but I haven't had a checkup in years, and last one I had they said I needed multiple root canals. There are sharp-edged holes on my molars. I'm so overdue for this. :)
I'm finally second prestige in Black Ops!
I'm sitting down to a quite solo dinner of meatballs, salad, and Gatorade while listening to some music by J. S. Bach, and I'm just in a really good mood.
A few more people people seem to be finally coming around to accepting me better now. I also have the whole weekend off and the weather is supposed to be decent.
I had a dream that my brother called me Lee, and I was really nervous/confused because I am not out to him. However, he did it again, and the conversation continued with me being really happy. I wish something like that would really happen.
I also got a lot of study prep and cleaning done today, and I got to the gym for the first time in a few weeks. (They were doing construction/cleaning.) The day ended up with a long, fun conversation with a cute girl from my salsa group. We ended up setting up a date for Sunday, so I'm pretty excited for that.
My wife came across an old photo album while going through some boxes. I found an old photo from 1999 that made me laugh.
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Quote from: Keaira on April 07, 2012, 01:27:15 AM
My wife came across an old photo album while going through some boxes. I found an old photo from 1999 that made me laugh.
That's really you? You were adorable. :D
I'm happy to be home alone. Having the lights on this late at night makes me feel like such a party animal. :laugh:
Quote from: Felix on April 07, 2012, 01:51:13 AM
That's really you? You were adorable. :D
I'm happy to be home alone. Having the lights on this late at night makes me feel like such a party animal. :laugh:
Yep. That was me at 20 yrs old....
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See?
You look like a girl in the first two and like young Bob Geldof in the third one. Happy in all three. :)
Yea... Like I said, people thought I was pretty feminine and/or gay.
Quote from: Keaira on April 07, 2012, 03:34:12 AM
Yea... Like I said, people thought I was pretty feminine and/or gay.
People thought I was gay too. Technically they weren't wrong.
I was a lesbian and didn't really know it. Lol. But I certainly didn't like the insults or the butt kickings that seemed to come with the 'gay' designation.
Quote from: Keaira on April 07, 2012, 04:29:59 AM
I was a lesbian and didn't really know it. Lol. But I certainly didn't like the insults or the butt kickings that seemed to come with the 'gay' designation.
Agreed.
Quote from: Keaira on April 07, 2012, 04:29:59 AM
I was a lesbian and didn't really know it. Lol. But I certainly didn't like the insults or the butt kickings that seemed to come with the 'gay' designation.
I hear that.
Quote from: Jaime on April 06, 2012, 10:31:56 PM
A few more people people seem to be finally coming around to accepting me better now. I also have the whole weekend off and the weather is supposed to be decent.
Why wouldn't they, what's not to accept? :)
My son left the apartment early (for him) this morning to hang out with friends, then he'll be at work from the afternoon till late this evening. I've got the place to myself!
Coming out period is hard. So well done and good luck.
I had a good time talking with Charity. She is just starting HRT and perhaps, soon a new member here. We have quite a lot in common and I hope I can be helpful to her. :)
There was a freak snow storm Thursday night and all day Friday but the mgr. had already had the maintenance man put away all the snow shovels and ice melt so there was no way to clear some of the walkways, particularly the back walkway that many elderly and handicapped people use
Luckily it was much warmer here today and that softened up the snow so I was able to clear the back walkway using a broom
It was allot of work but as I was clearing the walk one of the elderly folks came along and thanked me
It made me feel good and that my efforts were appreciated :)
Having feelings. I'm cold and distant and mean far more than I like to admit, but I'm facing so much uncertainty right now that I would have been a little freaked out if I didn't have some sort of emotional response.
The warm embrace of someone who cares for me..
I feel that most holidays are for children but it is kinda fun to help out with the festivities involved sometimes
Earlier today (Saturday) I helped a special needs person dye and decorate Easter eggs because that's what they wanted to do... It felt good to see them be happy and so it made me happy
Thinking about the freedom I have to chose almost any doctor I want and not having to have one chosen for me. I'm also watching the Girls Gone Wild Previews from years ago lol. That's always fun. :) If only it were Sailor Moon characters.
Got to video chat with my Dad and step-mom who live back home in Scotland.
And my wife gave me these today
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I gave her a few new clothes and some more WoW time.
And I got to spend time playing Soul Calibur 5 with my children.
I got to talk on the phone with someone from susans :)
Mowed the lawn, washed the car and got some "spring cleaning" done around my art studio...very good day when the warm sun is out and the birds are all happy and singing ;D
I'm not numb and I'm not alone and I don't know what I'm doing but it's going to be okay.
My two year old son found some perfume that someone gave me for Christmas and poured it all over the floor. I came in and told him he smelled nice. He replied, "I know." My apartment now smells overwhelmingly like perfume, but that was cute and funny.
Quote from: Edge on April 09, 2012, 10:14:11 AM
My two year old son found some perfume that someone gave me for Christmas and poured it all over the floor. I came in and told him he smelled nice. He replied, "I know." My apartment now smells overwhelmingly like perfume, but that was cute and funny.
This made me laugh.
My daughter made me happy today. It was a bit of a rough morning because we were both up late, but she's sweet and her stuffed animals were behaving in interesting ways today.
Also I thought everybody in my building was aware of my transition, but a guy called me by my female name this morning. My daughter corrected him and I briefly explained. He said oh okay and right away switched name and pronouns. I like when it's that simple.
It was yesterday, actually, but my ex-wife came over for Easter dinner and she brought me chocoate: Lindt Mini Chicks.
She said, "Chicks, of course!"
It was a silly little gesture of kindness and the evening was great.
Quote from: Connie Anne on April 09, 2012, 11:12:51 AM
It was yesterday, actually, but my ex-wife came over for Easter dinner and she brought me chocoate: Lindt Mini Chicks.
She said, "Chicks, of course!"
It was a silly little gesture of kindness and the evening was great.
Chocolate is always welcome, very nice! You must have had an amicable parting at some time past!
Quote from: Shantel on April 09, 2012, 07:13:13 PM
Chocolate is always welcome, very nice! You must have had an amicable parting at some time past!
The parting itself was both amicable and unbelievably difficult at the same time. I think we're still learning to be friends again, but we can joke with each other.
Today, I received an email from one of the clergy-in-training at my church telling me I looked "radiant" at Easter service yesterday.
Quotereceived an email from one of the clergy-in-training at my church telling me I looked "radiant" at Easter service yesterday.
That's great Connie.
I got 2 pair of new 1.25" hoop earrings and some denim capri pants through the mail.
And they all fit. Ya!
Quote from: Connie Anne on April 09, 2012, 07:40:47 PM
The parting itself was both amicable and unbelievably difficult at the same time. I think we're still learning to be friends again, but we can joke with each other.
That's always the best way to behave toward one another given that you have shared history. I always feel so bad for those who dissolve their relationship with all that vitriol and anger, it's needn't finish that way.
Quote from: Connie Anne on April 09, 2012, 07:40:47 PM
Today, I received an email from one of the clergy-in-training at my church telling me I looked "radiant" at Easter service yesterday.
Kudos, it's always reassuring to be seen in such a positive light!
Quote from: Liam Erik on April 08, 2012, 09:31:05 PM
A chicken escaped from me today, and ran into the back of the barn, under the trailer, in a really tight space where I couldn't reach her. My dog, who is a lab/pointer, went in and picked her up and brought her out and gave her to me. Without hurting her at all. :eusa_dance: Must be that retriever blood coming out. I was surprised and happy.
This is so cool.
David Yow made me happy today.
It was yesterday, but at the PFLAG (http://"http://www.pflagsanjose.org/") meeting last night I met a woman who's 16-year-old son had been her daughter until about 3 year years. This boy is transitioning in high school and his parents are completely supportive.
That gave me joy.
Happy today that the "show replies to your posts" is working again :)
I finally found a penny on the ground again! :D
Watched 'Golden Girls' almost all day since we got season one on DVD, and finally beat a round of L4D2 on advanced mode. It was a pain in the ass, and there was a lot of swearing and dying involved but damnit, we made it.
Being on here and not seeing the cloudfire errors. Ayden's complements and just posting here. I like me peeps here ^_^
A purse that is basically exactly what I've looking for but couldn't afford was on the
'Free Table' table at my apt.s today :) It will need a bit of cleaning on the outside but is like new on the inside :)
I'm very happy Susan's is back online!!!!! :)
A house plant that my pet iguana had jumped on and broke and I thought was dead has started putting up new growth :)
The new version of the software was released today and I was able to publish and update all those FAQs in my queue.
Going to a financial seminar today.
Quote from: N.Chaos on April 11, 2012, 01:11:00 AM
Watched 'Golden Girls' almost all day since we got season one on DVD
Lol I love Golden Girls.
Quote from: V M on April 11, 2012, 10:50:11 PM
A purse that is basically exactly what I've looking for but couldn't afford was on the
'Free Table' table at my apt.s today :) It will need a bit of cleaning on the outside but is like new on the inside :)
I also love free tables. They keep trying to get rid of the one in my building but we still give and take in certain spots.
What made me happy today was having an adult physically touch me. She was just being friendly and it wasn't meaning-laden or anything, but I was hurting bad and feeling unreachable and it helped.
I was also happy to make what I feel is real progress in improving my understanding of the world and my place in it/relation to it. I'm trying to get a grip on a lot of heavy ideas. Even everyday functioning is kinda burdensome lately, so not letting big thoughts knock me down is pretty alright. :)
Making a 95 on my test.
Quote from: Malachite on April 12, 2012, 11:45:12 PM
Making a 95 on my test.
But how did you do on the paper you were to write, the one I found intriguing and said nothing further about? The three strikes thing.
Quote from: Felix on April 13, 2012, 12:31:00 AM
But how did you do on the paper you were to write, the one I found intriguing and said nothing further about? The three strikes thing.
She hasn't graded that one yet but I don't see myself getting a good grade on that one.
Here's a morbid coincidence for you guys: I went to middle school with the girl whose murder started the whole Three Strikes movement in California. Didn't know her well or anything, though.
Quote from: driven on April 13, 2012, 12:42:30 AM
Here's a morbid coincidence for you guys: I went to middle school with the girl whose murder started the whole Three Strikes movement in California. Didn't know her well or anything, though.
You could have wrote my 10 page paper then. :D
1994 right?
Quote from: Malachite on April 13, 2012, 12:34:22 AM
She hasn't graded that one yet but I don't see myself getting a good grade on that one.
Urg I feel like a dick for not pursuing that line of focus then.
Quote from: Felix on April 13, 2012, 03:31:36 AM
Urg I feel like a dick for not pursuing that line of focus then.
If only you would have shown the kitten picture earlier! :o
A guy asked me out on a date!
Quote from: Malachite on April 13, 2012, 03:37:28 AM
If only you would have shown the kitten picture earlier! :o
I hang my head and hope you forgive me for disgracing those among us who prefer kittens to spiders. :icon_sadblinky:
And lol kelly that's quick turnaround. I hope he's nice. :)
Quote from: Felix on April 13, 2012, 03:58:01 AM
And lol kelly that's quick turnaround. I hope he's nice. :)
You can't keep a good woman down.. :)
My singing voice can hit really low notes.
I covered this song and afterwards, out of curiosity, raised the pitch about 20% to see if it would make me sound any less male.
It didn't and that makes me happy.
I'm glad to finally be at this point.
Quote from: Malachite on April 12, 2012, 11:45:12 PM
Making a 95 on my test.
Kudos for a winner! :eusa_clap:
Quote from: kelly_aus on April 13, 2012, 03:45:03 AM
A guy asked me out on a date!
Not too surprising, blimey but you are a rather cute bird Kelly! :icon_chick:
(my best attempt at Aussie slang) ;D
this.
Kitty - 'Mister you dont know how lucky you are that we need to be somewhere, if he did play your little game-'
Deadpool - 'you smug little...speaking of little games, you ever play Street Fighter?'
Kitty - 'As if-'
Deadpool - 'SHORYUKEN' (FWAKK)
I had a dream last night that my Sister-in-law from out in CA came to visit. Her hubby showed up and started treating her like crap. So I had enough. he wouldn't leave so I kicked his butt. It was funny too because I was a lot weaker than I've ever seen myself in a dream. but he finally left after I threw him over my shoulder and put an armlock on him. (I miss training in Aikido).
My Brother-in-law is in the Navy and I wish I could be proud of him, but he is such a selfish arrogant little A$$*&^! who puts himself before his wife and children. I can't stand him!
Side note: It's scientifically proven that listing 3 things you're grateful for every day makes you happier =) journaling for 30 minutes everyday without censoring yourself, exercising, and having a social life also make you happier
I'm happy because my gf still loves me. We are going through a tough time right now and don't know if we can stay together, but hey we're both trying to make it work.
Quote from: Felix on April 13, 2012, 03:58:01 AM
I hang my head and hope you forgive me for disgracing those among us who prefer kittens to spiders. :icon_sadblinky:
Since its my 100 post and all, I feel obliged to post a random kitten
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A county commissioner told me tonight that he wished there were more people like me around. I told him that a lot of people would disagree with him on that, lol.
I like the guy, though, he's funny and very down to earth.
I was out dancing, and a cute girl walked up to me and said "You went to ____ Middle School!" I didn't recognize her until she said her name. Ends up she's a girl I was fairly good friends with, but she was shy and chubby back then. Now she's really hot and seems fairly social. We got caught up, and it sounds like life's treating her well. I'm glad to see her happy.
Quote from: Tom on April 13, 2012, 09:14:46 AM
this.
Kitty - 'Mister you dont know how lucky you are that we need to be somewhere, if he did play your little game-'
Deadpool - 'you smug little...speaking of little games, you ever play Street Fighter?'
Kitty - 'As if-'
Deadpool - 'SHORYUKEN' (FWAKK)
When I was a kid and my half-brother was a teenager, I remember my dad trying to make peace and visiting the comic shop where my brother worked. They told him they were having a Street Fighter competition that weekend (no console, just arcade) and my dad admirably stayed calm and asked "Isn't that a little violent?" He thought they were going to actually brawl, didn't know it was a video game. :laugh:
Bought a mustard coloured skirt and the shop assistant said it really suited me. ;D
I found old things that prove I used to be young and interesting and alive. I used to have rhythm and real joy. I'm still that person, but people have to take my word for it.
I found out today that my son seems to be somewhat gifted according to an evaluation he took today in school. He's in the 3rd grade but passed as a 4th grader, 2nd semester student. He just gets really bored really easily and so he just isn't motivated to do his work.... Sounds just like me when I was his age. Though I'm sure it was more than just boredom that i was struggling with. :P
Felix, what did you find? Dance shoes? an instrument? Your groove?
Quote from: Keaira on April 14, 2012, 03:55:25 AM
Felix, what did you find? Dance shoes? an instrument? Your groove?
I'm not stella. I can't tap or ballet. I don't carry instruments in duffel bags on interstate refugee flights.
I found emails from after I broke but before I knew I was broken. From when I still had hope for myself and I still trusted people. I was a professional then, definitely odd and from a rough background but not...not what I am now. It's strange to read that old stuff. I was a better human then.
It'll be easier to climb back up knowing I was that okay back when. I was confident, quick on the uptake, had a sense of humor, wasn't bitter or scared, liked life.
Quote from: Felix on April 14, 2012, 04:14:27 AM
I'm not stella. I can't tap or ballet. I don't carry instruments in duffel bags on interstate refugee flights.
I found emails from after I broke but before I knew I was broken. From when I still had hope for myself and I still trusted people. I was a professional then, definitely odd and from a rough background but not...not what I am now. It's strange to read that old stuff. I was a better human then.
It'll be easier to climb back up knowing I was that okay back when. I was confident, quick on the uptake, had a sense of humor, wasn't bitter or scared, liked life.
*hugs* You'll find your groove again. we'll be here to pick you back up when you are down.
Quote from: Keaira on April 14, 2012, 04:18:08 AM
*hugs* You'll find your groove again. we'll be here to pick you back up when you are down.
Ya sorry I've been heavy lately. I have my groove. I was joking about stella.
I'm too serious. Doing a lot of important work and reflection but it's not really happy stuff to talk about.
I went out for breakfast and conversation with my daughter who's down this weekend from college.
I feel like crap, but my cat has been glued to my side all day. She does this whenever someone's sick. It's like having a purring heating pad.
It's also funny because she is scared of the sound of pulling a tissue out of the box. She runs away whenever I blow my nose and then comes back in with a "Why do you doooo that?" look on her face.
ibuprofen
Having a lazy, silly evening with my kids.
two kids ran to a bike rack outside and yelled "HEY LOOK A CHOO-CHOO TRAIN"
Another day full of great stuff for me today.
Our pureblood Ameraucana and Welsummer chicks started hatching today. We incubated 23 Welsummer eggs and 23(+2 questionable) Ameraucana eggs. So far we've got 18 Ameraucana and 15 Wellies. We are going to keep the best two hens of each for the layer house and all the rest we don't sell or give away are meat birds for fall.
We had to run to town to get more chick starter and stopped by the grocery store because we needed more drinks. I'm almost six foot, but the drinks I wanted were on the top shelf and weren't sliding forward as they should. I managed to get 4, but after shaking the rack and starting to look around for something to knock them loose, this REALLY tall guy comes over and offers to help me. Because of my height I've never had someone offer to help and it was flattering. Of course when he turned around and saw my tee said FCK H8 and my wife walking toward me, he kind took off.
And then I got to play with the geese and snuggle with them.
I thought we had a pretty good show and our first advertiser.
The cover fell from my window so my mom put it back up there so less light can come through.
For the 1st time ever today, I glanced in the mirror and looked feminine :)
Happy? No. Ecstatic? You betcha!
Hormones, you subtle sly b*******!
I had a great morning and lunch with my daughter before she returned to college today.
Then this evening, I had a great phone conversation with my ex-wife. She had to help preside over a memorial service for a friend and colleague and I wanted to be sure she was okay. Also, she asked to have the one remaining wedding goblet of ours. I had been keeping it because she wasn't sure if she wanted it yet. We used to have two, but the one with her name broke during a move some years ago.
She asked to have the one that says "David." I was hoping she'd ask for it. She has, and I'm happy to be giving it to her.
A lot of things, but mostly hearing my brother call me "bro.":eusa_shifty:
Having an early morning giggle posting to "Auntie Cindy" for some girlie help on how to wear my panty-hose.
It is getting cold now over here, see.
Axélle
Nothing
Quote from: Malachite on April 15, 2012, 10:36:32 PM
Nothing
Hey. Stop it. Look, happy smilies - :icon_tetter:
Look at this police officer apparently trying to apprehend a camel:
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lolwut
Camels, man. They're got some attitude.
Chase coming down and bringing more venison and taco supplies made my day awesome.
And my mom stopping herself mid-sentence several times to call me her kid instead of her daughter. That was kind of a huge deal to me.
That looks more like a Moose! Look at the toes;)
Happy day today, was warm and sunny and I had a chance to work on a tan to get rid of the "winter white" look I have now, lol
Quote from: Michelle G on April 16, 2012, 01:48:21 AM
That looks more like a Moose! Look at the toes;)
Happy day today, was warm and sunny and I had a chance to work on a tan to get rid of the "winter white" look I have now, lol
I think you're right. :D
Lol Felix...my other clue was the road was wet...as in Canada where moose are, camels in the rain?? ;D
Yes, it is a moose, and it is actually the result of a lovers quarrel between the copper and the moose... Ohhhh Canada...
Sorry, I'm terrible
Quote from: Michelle G on April 16, 2012, 02:11:34 AM
Lol Felix...my other clue was the road was wet...as in Canada where moose are, camels in the rain?? ;D
Yeah I'm kind of a moron most of the time. I don't get out much. ;D
What made me happy today was that when I was really bummed about not being able to go to a group at the local glbt center, I talked to a friend who pointed out that as much as I don't like my daughter's behavioral issues, it's not like it's a barrel of monkeys for her either. That could have been a depressing fact, but the way he said it and some of the examples he gave made me laugh and cheered me up.
Yes Felix. Then they turn into teenagers and you realise why some animals eat their own young! :laugh:
I looked in the shaving mirror this morning and a very attractive woman looked back. She is not always there, but I think she might have finally come to stay.
Karen.
Quote from: justmeinoz on April 16, 2012, 03:31:33 AM
Yes Felix. Then they turn into teenagers and you realise why some animals eat their own young! :laugh:
I looked in the shaving mirror this morning and a very attractive woman looked back. She is not always there, but I think she might have finally come to stay.
Karen.
Hugs Honey:icon_bunch:
Quote from: justmeinoz on April 16, 2012, 03:31:33 AM
Yes Felix. Then they turn into teenagers and you realise why some animals eat their own young! :laugh:
I looked in the shaving mirror this morning and a very attractive woman looked back. She is not always there, but I think she might have finally come to stay.
Karen.
I see an attractive woman about 1/2 the time.. It's a great feeling, isn't it? I just wish it happened every day..
That girl in the mirror certainly is attractive but she's kinda nosy, always watching what I'm doing, especially when I pluck my facial hair or do anything else that requires close attention
We always do our stretches together and she is also quite the dancer :laugh:
I went to get my eyebrows shaped on Saturday at my usual place, and the girl was really chatty and commented on how the shape of my brows are complimenting my face.
Felt good
Cindy
Quote from: V M on April 16, 2012, 02:19:44 AM
Yes, it is a moose, and it is actually the result of a lovers quarrel between the copper and the moose... Ohhhh Canada...
Sorry, I'm terrible
Mr. Lahey called in the heavies. ;)
Today I told my friends that I want to legally change my name in the future into Gabriël (because I love angels, I love that name and even though angels look masculine, they are asexual and have no gender - which is exactly how I feel!) and they were very positive about it! ^_^
Quote from: Felix on April 13, 2012, 12:31:00 AM
But how did you do on the paper you were to write, the one I found intriguing and said nothing further about? The three strikes thing.
I made a 52 and here's what she said about it:
"No cover page; reference page incorrect; no in-text citations (considered plagiarized)"
I actually had a cover page but it was seperate but I could only put only one file in and actually told her that but that woman is just a lunatic.....self-rightous jigglypuff head
Oh well it's said and done and I don't have to worry about that particular paper again hopefully.
Quote from: Malachite on April 16, 2012, 05:12:22 PM
I made a 52 and here's what she said about it:
"No cover page; reference page incorrect; no in-text citations (considered plagiarized)"
I actually had a cover page but it was seperate but I could only put only one file in and actually told her that but that woman is just a lunatic.....self-rightous jigglypuff head
Oh well it's said and done and I don't have to worry about that particular paper again hopefully.
I'm so sorry Malachite. I had an english prof once who took off a letter grade for every incorrect citation. My gosh I'm still pissed about that. I got a C on a near-perfect paper because of some misplaced punctuation, and I'm somebody who didn't even do high school. I know they shouldn't grade for effort, but ignoring effort altogether kills the spirit.
That's not happy though. What made me happy today was also pretty confusing. I was in a long line at the post office when my daughter loudly asked me whether Monty Python was a rapper. At this point she had already driven me half bonkers picking at the paint on the rail and making high pitched noises. I said no Monty Python is not an actual person. So she then asked me if Queen was a rapper (she'd been singing Bicycle Race all damned day). That clued me in to the fact that she just doesn't know what rap is.
She was told a few weeks ago by other kids at her school that there's no way she could be allowed to listen to rap or hip hop. She came home talking about the genre in hushed tones and I laughed and listed off like ten things we listen to regularly that fall into the category. I don't know what she did with that info.
So today a kid told my daughter that the only white rapper is Eminem (who we do not listen to). My daughter apparently argued that that's not true. She was right, but the examples she gave were Monty Python and Queen. I'm sure that's not good for her popularity, but it's really hard for me not to grin thinking about it.
Middle school kids are stupid. :laugh:
Quote from: Axélle-Michélle on April 15, 2012, 10:30:54 PM
Having an early morning giggle posting to "Auntie Cindy" for some girlie help on how to wear my panty-hose.
It is getting cold now over here, see.
Axélle
I have found they generally work best over the legs and buttocks.
Over the head make me look a little like a bank robber.
Quote from: Felix on April 17, 2012, 01:41:18 AM
That's not happy though. What made me happy today was also pretty confusing. I was in a long line at the post office when my daughter loudly asked me whether Monty Python was a rapper. At this point she had already driven me half bonkers picking at the paint on the rail and making high pitched noises. I said no Monty Python is not an actual person. So she then asked me if Queen was a rapper (she'd been singing Bicycle Race all damned day). That clued me in to the fact that she just doesn't know what rap is.
She was told a few weeks ago by other kids at her school that there's no way she could be allowed to listen to rap or hip hop. She came home talking about the genre in hushed tones and I laughed and listed off like ten things we listen to regularly that fall into the category. I don't know what she did with that info.
So today a kid told my daughter that the only white rapper is Eminem (who we do not listen to). My daughter apparently argued that that's not true. She was right, but the examples she gave were Monty Python and Queen. I'm sure that's not good for her popularity, but it's really hard for me not to grin thinking about it.
Middle school kids are stupid. :laugh:
Ice Ice Baby
Quote from: Jamie D on April 17, 2012, 02:24:59 AM
Ice Ice Baby
Lol right, that'll keep her from getting beat up. ::)
Once you get into the cross-genre rap like rap rock, rap metal, and rapcore, almost everyone seems to be white.
I'm happy because I found new music, finally joined Pottermore (Slytherin- no surprise there ;D), and I remembered that I really like me. I'm awesome.
I've graduated from my allergy shots!
I'm a bit stunned (but the good kind of stunned). This was unexpected. Had my annual check-up with my allergist and he decided to re-test me after five years of shots, the last couple years being an extra-high dosage. Minimal reaction to a few things and no reaction to most. I feel like I should have some kind of celebration for my graduation. Doctor says the vast majority of people never need shots again after five years.
Maybe I'll celebrate by running naked through a field of fresh Spring poppies!
I finally ordered acoustic panels for my recording/broadcasting studio. It feels good to finally be moving forward with that.
However, I kind of feel like I should be posting this in the "What made you unhappy" thread too because they were EXPENSIVE. Ouch. But then, that was the reason for all the procrastination in the first place.
super smooth legs make me very happy today :)
that and I got a chance to sit in the warm sun and work on a tan...felt so good :)
Quote from: dalebert on April 17, 2012, 10:15:39 AM
I've graduated from my allergy shots!
I'm a bit stunned (but the good kind of stunned). This was unexpected. Had my annual check-up with my allergist and he decided to re-test me after five years of shots, the last couple years being an extra-high dosage. Minimal reaction to a few things and no reaction to most. I feel like I should have some kind of celebration for my graduation. Doctor says the vast majority of people never need shots again after five years.
Maybe I'll celebrate by running naked through a field of fresh Spring poppies!
Dorothy, Toto, and the Cowardly Lion tried that, and just look what happened!
Quote from: Felix on April 17, 2012, 02:28:30 AM
Lol right, that'll keep her from getting beat up. ::)
Hey Felix, do you know which artist had the first "hit" song to incorporate elements of a "rap" theme?
(Hint: January 1981, peak position, Billboard #1)
Play if you are stumped (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pHCdS7O248g)
I'll admit Jamie that I didn't try too hard to guess. I do love Blondie though. She was all sorts of cool.
What made me happy today was that I think I found a place to live. And my computer isn't flickering. I'm so incredibly phobic about being homeless again that tonight is probably going to be the first good night's sleep I've had in awhile.
Quote from: Felix on April 18, 2012, 01:29:35 AM
I'll admit Jamie that I didn't try too hard to guess. I do love Blondie though. She was all sorts of cool.
What made me happy today was that I think I found a place to live. And my computer isn't flickering. I'm so incredibly phobic about being homeless again that tonight is probably going to be the first good night's sleep I've had in awhile.
I am so glad to hear that! I credit your hard work and resilience; but, I'd like to think the power pf prayer, or the good karma that was wished for in your behalf helped.
;D
Nice you are off the shots Dalebert. :) I had them for Bee Sting, and it works brilliantly. Now totally immune, and also to European Wasp.
Got my History and Gender Studies essay marks back, 70% and 57%. Not bad for the first time attempting Arts rather than Technical writing. They are totally different.
Also realised how and why I made mistakes which is the most important thing.
Karen.
Happy for Felix!
Zythyra! :icon_flower:
good luck Felix...You deserve it :)
How exciting, good news! :)
Thank you so much everybody. :)
Quote from: Liam Erik on April 18, 2012, 07:44:01 PM
Got lambs!! ;D ;D
Twin girls, one white, one solid black, both of them huge and strong and beautiful, and their mom is doing very well taking care of them. They look just like their daddy, got his face, his long Leicester ears and curly wool.
Grats Liam, I know you've been waiting for this.
What made me happy today was coming home and sitting down. :)
I played Magic for 2 and a half hours today. That's about 2 hours longer than my attention span usually lets me.
Ummmmm....egg rolls? Ranking up in Call of Duty: Black Ops
Quote from: Shantel on April 18, 2012, 07:47:43 AM
Happy for Felix!
Another big +1 to that. Glad to see you got things worked out. You definitely deserve to catch a break for once.
Quote from: Liam Erik on April 18, 2012, 07:44:01 PM
Got lambs!! ;D ;D
Twin girls, one white, one solid black, both of them huge and strong and beautiful, and their mom is doing very well taking care of them. They look just like their daddy, got his face, his long Leicester ears and curly wool.
Yay! This also makes me happy because it means we'll probably be getting cute baby sheep pics soon. :)
Heard from my step dad, my mom is doing well and will hopefully be out of the hospital by this weekend
logging on to susan's
Quote from: Shantel on April 18, 2012, 07:47:43 AM
Happy for Felix!
Yay that made me smile too =) I went back to figure out why people were so happy for you xD I remember being so sad reading your rant and thinking that I can't do anything to help you.
My mom was asking questions, and I ended up coming out to her. She was incredibly supportive and understanding, something I hadn't expected due to her being relatively conservative religiously and culturally. Makes me want to just yell out to the world how much I love my mom! :)
Quote from: V M on April 19, 2012, 12:19:12 AM
Heard from my step dad, my mom is doing well and will hopefully be out of the hospital by this weekend
Good news is always a relief!
Quote from: yuan0621 on April 19, 2012, 02:21:57 AM
My mom was asking questions, and I ended up coming out to her. She was incredibly supportive and understanding, something I hadn't expected due to her being relatively conservative religiously and culturally. Makes me want to just yell out to the world how much I love my mom! :)
She sounds like a wonderful lady, I'm happy for you Yuan!
Quote from: yuan0621 on April 19, 2012, 02:21:57 AM
My mom was asking questions, and I ended up coming out to her. She was incredibly supportive and understanding, something I hadn't expected due to her being relatively conservative religiously and culturally. Makes me want to just yell out to the world how much I love my mom! :)
That is wonderful! I hope my mom is able to do that with me one day! :)
I forgot to post this the other day, but...
I went to Best Buy on Tuesday to buy a PC power supply with my wife. Gendered correctly without trying the whole time. I'm posting that because I'm not nearly so lucky at work. So it kind of surprised me.
A maintenance guy at work finally started calling me Keaira. Yesterday was the 2nd time he got it right. Before he would still call me by my old name.
And I just weighed myself. 178lb. When I got weighed at the doctors I was 183lb.
short class today
Quote from: yuan0621 on April 19, 2012, 02:21:57 AM
My mom was asking questions, and I ended up coming out to her. She was incredibly supportive and understanding, something I hadn't expected due to her being relatively conservative religiously and culturally. Makes me want to just yell out to the world how much I love my mom! :)
happy for you too! and very jealous. I'm piggybacking off my mom until I'm financially stable enough to tell her and most likely get kicked out. Sounds cruel but I have to be realistic =/
Quote from: bballshorty on April 19, 2012, 03:19:10 PM
happy for you too! and very jealous. I'm piggybacking off my mom until I'm financially stable enough to tell her and most likely get kicked out. Sounds cruel but I have to be realistic =/
Not always fun but one does what they have to do to survive!
Quote from: bballshorty on April 19, 2012, 03:19:10 PM
happy for you too! and very jealous. I'm piggybacking off my mom until I'm financially stable enough to tell her and most likely get kicked out. Sounds cruel but I have to be realistic =/
This ^ Hey there's no shame in that, I'm doing the same thing. :) High five for strategic planning!
Quote from: Malachite on April 19, 2012, 03:53:09 PM
This ^ Hey there's no shame in that, I'm doing the same thing. :) High five for strategic planning!
Heck, I moved in with my dad when I was thirty two, but then he wanted me to. I offered to leave when I told him I was transitioning, but he didn't want me to go, so he adapted to it. We ended up sharing a house for 13 years until he passed away.
Quote from: Jaime on April 19, 2012, 03:59:01 PM
Heck, I moved in with my dad when I was thirty two, but then he wanted me to. I offered to leave when I told him I was transitioning, but he didn't want me to go, so he adapted to it. We ended up sharing a house for 13 years until he passed away.
That was very sweet of him. Wow maybe this work for me since I am my mother's youngest child. She has told me in the past before she doesn't want me to leave..... *light bulb* Maybe it will work in the future.
Quote from: Jaime on April 19, 2012, 03:59:01 PM
Heck, I moved in with my dad when I was thirty two, but then he wanted me to. I offered to leave when I told him I was transitioning, but he didn't want me to go, so he adapted to it. We ended up sharing a house for 13 years until he passed away.
Wow, what a great loving dad he must have been, you must miss him terribly! :)
Quote from: Malachite on April 19, 2012, 04:02:52 PM
That was very sweet of him. Wow maybe this work for me since I am my mother's youngest child. She has told me in the past before she doesn't want me to leave..... *light bulb* Maybe it will work in the future.
It just might work. That's kind of the situation I'm in with my mom. She's disabled and dependent on me now, so she really couldn't argue too much when I told her I was transitioning.
Cousin bought me a pair of suede wedges in a 12 (what all my shoes are in)
But they didn't fit.
bummed, i measured my foot and it said I was a size 11.
My mood was lifted when i found out my feet somehow shrunk :D
Ok, I was done for the night, but I had to check on the eggs in the incubator. While I was down there I found that two of our duck eggs had hatched. It was a few days early but we are happy to have them. Sunday or Monday is the due date for the rest of them and the geese eggs. Everyone had to swarm around the incubator and see the new ducklings.
I recently suspended a huge net on tie wire about a foot over my Koi pond to save my fish from a big Blue Herron that recently dropped in and ate "Freddie" one of my eleven Koi. I was concerned about a couple of Mallard ducks that love to drop in for a swim because it's daffy duck mating season and I was afraid they'd get hurt or stuck in the net. Imagine a couple of ducks on a trampoline, they bounced up and down on their wide duck feet and hopped off on the patio and came to the door for some bread. ;D
I was able to talk to my mom today and she sounded okay and says that she may be able to go home tomorrow and said that she'll call me when she gets home
Quote from: driven on April 19, 2012, 06:21:36 PM
It just might work. That's kind of the situation I'm in with my mom. She's disabled and dependent on me now, so she really couldn't argue too much when I told her I was transitioning.
That's where I believe it may head in the future. Shes worried about becoming old and keeps telling me that she's going to need help. I don't want to see her go into a retirement home too early as she's only in her late 50's but I can tell she is starting to get older and weaker. She told me that now that her other children have pretty much moved out it gets super lonely with no one to talk to. It's kind of putting me in a situation where if I DID move out of state then my sisters would look down on me wondering how could I just leave my mom like that. They just want me to stay with her and one sister went out of her way to tell me that I need to stay with her forever because I'm the youngest even though they both have lives. On one hand I get what they are saying because my mom isn't going to force me to pay rent and she would still "take care" of me (which is why I'm so sheltered now) so I'm saving money but on another hand my sanity would be seriously compromised if I stayed there TOO long and not transition. It would be my wildest dream to just take her with me to where ever I transition but she doesn't like change too much. She just wants to stay at her job until she retires. I have no idea where I'm going with this.
I thought my mom would kick me out initially. I had a bag ready to go and everything. But she ended up being super supportive. Hopefully things will workout as well for all of you. Best of luck! :)
Quote from: yuan0621 on April 20, 2012, 01:33:58 AM
I thought my mom would kick me out initially. I had a bag ready to go and everything. But she ended up being super supportive. Hopefully things will workout as well for all of you. Best of luck! :)
I hope so too! -hugs- Thanks :)
Having the opportunity to email back and forth with a younger nonbinary person considering top surgery. Which reminds me I need to take progress pictures for my blog today.
Also, I don't feel like crap anymore! Sleep does wonders.
eating an egg roll made me happy today
Quote from: Liam Erik on April 20, 2012, 11:50:27 AM
Baby's not as hungry as yesterday. Yesterday I supplemented her with some milk replacer because her momma was being a bitch. She's actually worse now, but I think the baby's already getting stronger, can hold her own a bit more. The perils of being the second twin to a momma who barely knows what to do with the first one. I'm still holding out hope that she'll be okay; that's the happy part. I'm stayin' on the bright side.
It's a nerve wracking time when they're newborns! A friend's huge sow hog had a litter of cute little wiener piggies and rolled over on them and smooshed half the litter. :( Guess this response should be in the unhappy thread!
Quote from: Shantel on April 19, 2012, 07:44:21 PM
I recently suspended a huge net on tie wire about a foot over my Koi pond to save my fish from a big Blue Herron that recently dropped in and ate "Freddie" one of my eleven Koi. I was concerned about a couple of Mallard ducks that love to drop in for a swim because it's daffy duck mating season and I was afraid they'd get hurt or stuck in the net. Imagine a couple of ducks on a trampoline, they bounced up and down on their wide duck feet and hopped off on the patio and came to the door for some bread. ;D
Poor Freddie :(
Circle of life, you know.
Quote from: Jamie D on April 20, 2012, 03:09:29 PM
Poor Freddie :(
Circle of life, you know.
He's in the big pond in the sky! ;)
The others were really agitated when it happened, they are still in a semi-suspended animation mode from winter and don't start eating again until Mother's Day. The big bird is like a pterodactyl when he flies over, he casts a huge and ominous shadow. I could almost hear the fish screaming, "There's the monster that ate Freddie!
Quote from: Shantel on April 20, 2012, 03:18:16 PM
He's in the big pond in the sky! ;)
The others were really agitated when it happened, they are still in a semi-suspended animation mode from winter and don't start eating again until Mother's Day. The big bird is like a pterodactyl when he flies over, he casts a huge and ominous shadow. I could almost hear the fish screaming, "There's the monster that ate Freddie!
My neighbor has a well-stocked koi pond. He also occasionally traps a raccoon!
I like myself today.
Got my eyes checked. The name in the file is my male one. I needed new glasses the assistant took me straight to the woman's selection. Awesome, but expensive :laugh:
Cindy - the spectacular ( :laugh:)
Feeling somewhat relaxed on this Saturday Morning. I'm playing some rock and roll and blasting it in the mic on my PS3 while playing Call of Duty Black Ops. I'm feeling like an actual soldier. Listening to Ted Nugent fragging n00bs and drinking a jug of water-epic night
Got new tires on my truck today.....highlite of my day, lol
I live on a very twisty canyon road so good tires are actually nice ;)
That there are so many beautiful songs in the world. And music can really do much to ease a wounded soul.
To be able to close your eyes, listen to a hauntingly mesmeric song, or track, and be transported to a peaceful place.
To all those who use this medium to express their creativity, I salute you.
Quote from: Cindy James on April 21, 2012, 01:43:07 AM
Got my eyes checked. The name in the file is my male one. I needed new glasses the assistant took me straight to the woman's selection. Awesome, but expensive :laugh:
Cindy - the spectacular ( :laugh:)
You're making a spectacle of yourself
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Quote from: Sephirah on April 21, 2012, 02:59:33 AM
That there are so many beautiful songs in the world. And music can really do much to ease a wounded soul.
To be able to close your eyes, listen to a hauntingly mesmeric song, or track, and be transported to a peaceful place.
To all those who use this medium to express their creativity, I salute you.
THIS (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iw7qS9OCAPc) immediately comes to mind.
Music for the soul. ;)
My cat.
He comes to greet me every morning.
Listening to the vocal trance channel on Digitally Imported (http://www.di.fm) whilst enjoying a good cup of coffee.
What can I say, I'm easily pleased. The simple things in life are often the most pleasurable. :)
Quote from: Jamie D on April 21, 2012, 12:51:05 AM
My neighbor has a well-stocked koi pond. He also occasionally traps a raccoon!
The raccoons don't come over the fence because of an oversized, lightening fast, Border Collie. He's a territorial alpha dawg with big white teeth! ;D
Today I decided everyone else can shove it and I'm going to be the full blown real me (punk-goth and all)
PS. I still love you mom, but I have got to be me ^.^
Cindy's new avatar.
Quote from: casey on April 21, 2012, 12:06:21 PM
I was thinking that yesterday. She looks so pretty. But I didn't want to say anything lest it be misread as creepy.
But being creepy is fun! ;D
I got my trusty old weedeater going again. I thought it was a goner after hurricane Irene drowned it and with a locked up piston and clutch bearings, but a little hammering, some oil and some good luck and its running like it's 1990 again.
And my brother is mowing my yard, so I don't have to worry about that this week too:)
I BEAT MY EX AT MAGIC! Haha. I'm so bad at it, I never win.
Quote from: Shantel on April 21, 2012, 09:50:48 AM
The raccoons don't come over the fence because of an oversized, lightening fast, Border Collie. He's a territorial alpha dawg with big white teeth! ;D
Our coon hound/basset hound mix keeps the varmint population down as well.
Quote from: Jaime on April 21, 2012, 12:32:20 PM
I got my trusty old weedeater going again. I thought it was a goner after hurricane Irene drowned it and with a locked up piston and clutch bearings, but a little hammering, some oil and some good luck and its running like it's 1990 again.
3-in-One oil works on everything. :)
I went for a walk after supper tonight, and a drunk teenage girl stopped me and asked me if I was a man or a woman. She may have thought she was insulting me (or she may have been genuinely puzzled, it was hard to tell through all that ethanol) but it really cheered me up :). So I told her "I'm on my way from one to 'tother..." and it left her speechless.
I have liked myself for about four days in a row and been ok with being genderfluid. Woohoo! Let's hope it sticks.
All it took, apparently, was to try to explain to my therapist that I am non-binary and for him to reply with "let's keep it simple." It reminded me of who I am (not that I forgot) and I think that was the kick I needed.
Sour candy
Having enough courage to buy clothes from the men's section when I was with my mom. :D
Playing Halo Reach
My Top surgery fund increased. :) Not by much but something is better than nothing. I will try my best not to touch it until it's surgery time. Knowing my luck I'll have to but it doesn't hurt to try.
You people,
Thank You
Quote from: Cindy James on April 21, 2012, 08:04:34 PM
You people,
Thank You
Cindy you look great in your new avatar! Yay. :)
Everybody is being so nice. :)
This thread always makes me happier than whatever I think I'm here to comment on.
Finding a song that you really,
really identify with. Listening to this made me really happy. :) I wish I could've played it to a few people who were in my life but are no longer.
Oceanlab - I Am What I Am (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6-O_h-BKY2k&feature=related)
I know you've read
So many books
You keep abreast of all the things you think you should
You've got your own home grown philosophy
And it works for you
But please don't try to make it work for me
You have nothing to prove
But you're trying much too hard
Stop trying to change me (Stop trying to change me...)
I am what I am (I am what I am...)
No I don't need you to save me (I don't need you to save me...)
I am what I am (I am what I am...)
I don't want you to show me (I don't need you to show me...)
Because I stand where I stand (I stand where I stand...)
I just need you to know me (just need you to know me)
Just know who I am (Just know who I am...)
Just know who I am...
Just know who I am...
I know you feel
You need to prove
That you are good at simply
Everything you try to do
And people hang on your every word
That you deliver
With conviction
Though they may just be absurd
Leave your armor behind
Free your vulnerable mind
Stop trying to change me (Stop trying to change me...)
I am what I am (I am what I am...)
No I don't need you to save me (I don't need you to save me...)
I am what I am (I am what I am...)
I don't want you to show me (I don't need you to show me...)
Because I stand where I stand (I stand where I stand...)
I just need you to know me (just need you to know me)
Just know who I am (Just know who I am...)
Just know who I am...
Just know who I am...
Catherine phoned and left a message on my answering machine. She is fine just been out of contact since Easter she will be back soon.
The song Sephirah linked. Thank you very much.
Quote from: Cindy James on April 22, 2012, 02:24:03 AM
Catherine phoned and left a message on my answering machine. She is fine just been out of contact since Easter she will be back soon.
So cool, been missing her!
Seeing those two ugly lumps of flesh on the Dr.'s tray!
Quote from: Jeneva on April 22, 2012, 10:14:51 AM
Seeing those two ugly lumps of flesh on the Dr.'s tray!
Welcome to my world! Half a dozen bags of frozen peas will get you through the recovery phase! ;)
Quote from: Jeneva on April 22, 2012, 10:14:51 AM
Seeing those two ugly lumps of flesh on the Dr.'s tray!
Congrats!!
That would sure make me happy too! :)
Having a girl I like tell me she loved me ^//^
I'm at my favorite cafe in Redwood City, Back Yard Coffee Company (http://www.backyardcoffeecompany.com/) and there's an adorable baby with huge dark eyes looking so cute. SQUEEE.
juice
I did a little bit of trans anatomy q and a/show and tell with a friend. My dysphoria is almost nil today and I wonder if that has something to do with it.
Also I'm starting to go from panic about homelessness to being excited about the future. I think my ankle has healed up enough for me to ride a bike again soon. There's a thrift store way out east that sells really cheap shoes and clothes, and I want to go there sometime. I always have transit passes, so I want to take a trip on the black line down to Wilsonville one day. My voice has dropped and I've bulked up a lot, so I'm looking less and less like a teenager.
The tension today is better-flavored than it's been. :)
Quote from: JayKyle on April 22, 2012, 12:01:51 PM
Having a girl I like tell me she loved me ^//^
Oh wow, that's really great news.
Good luck, man.
cold left over Chinese food from my cousin.
Quote from: Felix on April 22, 2012, 06:37:58 PM
I did a little bit of trans anatomy q and a/show and tell with a friend. My dysphoria is almost nil today and I wonder if that has something to do with it.
Also I'm starting to go from panic about homelessness to being excited about the future. I think my ankle has healed up enough for me to ride a bike again soon. There's a thrift store way out east that sells really cheap shoes and clothes, and I want to go there sometime. I always have transit passes, so I want to take a trip on the black line down to Wilsonville one day. My voice has dropped and I've bulked up a lot, so I'm looking less and less like a teenager.
The tension today is better-flavored than it's been. :)
So happy to see you had a good day Felix!!! :)
At a flea market with my mom when I met an acquaintance of hers. When my mom explained to her that I'm her daughter, she gasped and said she thought I was my brother's girlfriend.
Awkwarrrrd.
But cool. xD
Knowing that tomorrow, I start my job, in which I'll finally be able to get my own place with some friends, and start my HRT. :)
Soooooo happy right now!
the teriyaki sticks after the chicken has been eaten. I will save them.
My garden is officially planted!
Quote from: Cindy James on April 22, 2012, 02:24:03 AM
Catherine phoned and left a message on my answering machine. She is fine just been out of contact since Easter she will be back soon.
Good to hear!
Quote from: Cindy James on April 22, 2012, 02:24:03 AM
Catherine phoned and left a message on my answering machine. She is fine just been out of contact since Easter she will be back soon.
Yes!!! :) Many of us miss her
Finding out that I have two more cousins on my dad's side last night. I have 2 dozen first cousins still living.
Joelene
Quote from: JasonRX on April 22, 2012, 06:50:38 PM
Oh wow, that's really great news.
Good luck, man.
yeah, it really really made my day...made my life actually ^.^
I noticed my facial hair is finally starting to come it like it should.
Quote from: JasonRX on April 22, 2012, 10:10:52 PM
I noticed my facial hair is finally starting to come it like it should.
Thats awsome!!! I'm happy for you!
juice
Quote from: Malachite on April 22, 2012, 10:54:57 PM
juice
i love how simple things make you happy :D it really does bring a smile to my face
Quote from: JayKyle on April 22, 2012, 10:56:07 PM
i love how simple things make you happy :D it really does bring a smile to my face
Lol well thank you. ::) The juice I'm having is very tasty and it's in a can. The fact that it was in a can made me extra happy.
Quote from: Malachite on April 22, 2012, 11:08:33 PM
Lol well thank you. ::) The juice I'm having is very tasty and it's in a can. The fact that it was in a can made me extra happy.
When I was a child my mother would take me and my sister along with her to Jazzercise. It was dull as all get out, but if we had extra money and behaved well we got Bluebird grapefruit juice. That stuff is still really magical to me.
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Forgot to take my bright pink nail polish when going to work. No one said anything. Just the usual electrician fool who gives me odd looks all the time anyway. I just blow him a kiss and it really pisses him off.
Quote from: Felix on April 23, 2012, 02:42:54 AM
When I was a child my mother would take me and my sister along with her to Jazzercise. It was dull as all get out, but if we had extra money and behaved well we got Bluebird grapefruit juice. That stuff is still really magical to me.
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I've never even heard of this stuff. Do they still make it?
Happy cuz I just did my toenails and its time to sit in the sun for awhile before heading off to work (150ft commute) ;)
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Quote from: JayKyle on April 23, 2012, 10:28:56 AM
I've never even heard of this stuff. Do they still make it?
I think they do. The juice in a can I was drinking came from blue bird and my mom has similar cans like those so it's very possible. You may have to go to a baragins store for it where it would be like 6 for a dollar.
My dad gave me some encouraging words just now instead of bringing me down. I told him I was working on a plan to move out (minus the transition aspect) and he told me to take my time and plan and that what kills a lot of people is that they are lazy and just don't want to do it but I should think with my mind and then execute with my body and that it will happen one day. He said I need a license which I agree but I'm concerned that car money can be surgery money and he told me don't worry just focus on your license first and the car will come even if he have to break down and buy one or let me use his.
I met a nice girl online and we've been emailing back and forth. She's remarkably understanding, and asked me about my preferred pronouns with no provocation!
I see my surgeon for my one-month check-up today. No more tape over the incisions, and I can finally take a bubble bath!
I was feeling down and triggered and lonely last night, but my wonderful friend stayed up late texting me. She lives a time zone over where it's an hour later, so I appreciate it a lot.
Learning that I don't have a potentially life-threatening medical condition.
Okay, happy is a bit of an understatement, but still.
Awwwwwe, they are very cute :)
Quote from: Liam Erik on April 23, 2012, 04:28:43 PM
All righty...
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These are a day old, five days old, three days old, twelve hours old, and a ewe carrying twins or triplets. She's standing like that because it's the only way she can breathe.
Oh Liam, they are such beautiful babies, you are so blessed! I would trade places with you in a minute!
Too many cute lambs.. Cuteness overload!
Quote from: Felix on April 23, 2012, 02:42:54 AM
When I was a child my mother would take me and my sister along with her to Jazzercise. It was dull as all get out, but if we had extra money and behaved well we got Bluebird grapefruit juice. That stuff is still really magical to me.
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Those type of cans are so cute!
@casey thanks it's a first time for my dad :)
I just ordered a new binder from Underworks. I'll be waiting anxiously all week. :D
I made butter pecan cup cakes...not that i'll eat them but hey, I like to bake ^^
no more cheesecake
I tried Greek yogurt for the first time and liked it.
Quote from: Sasamu on April 23, 2012, 06:46:36 PM
I just ordered a new binder from Underworks. I'll be waiting anxiously all week. :D
I did this the other day. Shouldn't have spent the money on it, endangered the move and all that, but it arrived at the post office today and I feel like I'm finally able to hold my head up and be as good as anybody. :)
I went into a hall of the local college to do the new-binder dance in one of the bathrooms. ;D
Quote from: Felix on April 24, 2012, 01:10:06 AM
I did this the other day. Shouldn't have spent the money on it, endangered the move and all that, but it arrived at the post office today and I feel like I'm finally able to hold my head up and be as good as anybody. :)
I went into a hall of the local college to do the new-binder dance in one of the bathrooms. ;D
Well congrats! I'll probably feel the same when I get it. No more hiding in sweater for me! Haha, I don't know about a dance but I sure as hell will be squealing my head off. ::)
Quote from: Sasamu on April 24, 2012, 01:46:32 AM
Well congrats! I'll probably feel the same when I get it. No more hiding in sweater for me! Haha, I don't know about a dance but I sure as hell will be squealing my head off. ::)
Well, sometimes you have to like, squirm a bit to get into a new one. I felt silly doing it in the men's room. I walk in there all confident like I'm just a normal dude, nothing to see here. Then I do some writhing and grunting and my feet are neither facing toward the toilet nor away from it.
But it was at PSU. My daughter asked if it was okay that I walked in with the binder in my hand, and I told her that anybody who recognized it was probably trans too, and wouldn't mind. :D
hope
Quote from: Felix on April 24, 2012, 02:03:32 AM
Well, sometimes you have to like, squirm a bit to get into a new one. I felt silly doing it in the men's room. I walk in there all confident like I'm just a normal dude, nothing to see here. Then I do some writhing and grunting and my feet are neither facing toward the toilet nor away from it.
But it was at PSU. My daughter asked if it was okay that I walked in with the binder in my hand, and I told her that anybody who recognized it was probably trans too, and wouldn't mind. :D
They are that tight to get on? I've never ordered on from Underworks before so I hope I didnt get the wrong size. That would be dissapointing. Ah, jeez but that's a funny story. I bet someone must of thought 'What the hell is this guy doing?'. :D
Ah and something that made me happy was being told I pass.
Are binders really that tight? that cant be very comfortable. :(
Okay, so my little bit of happiness was that despite getting soaked from head to toe from a bad mold change at work, by some miracle, my eyeliner, mascara and eyeshadow stayed on like paint. that it survived a direct hit to the face twice is a miracle!
Quote from: JayKyle on April 23, 2012, 10:28:56 AM
I've never even heard of this stuff. Do they still make it?
Yes, Bluebird brand juices are one of the marks owned by Citrus World, Inc., a Florida-based combine.
They are perhaps best known today for their premium
Florida's Natural juice products.
As the offspring of a
Sunkist citrus growing family in California, it is only fair to tell you that the canned Florida orange juice products are made from the rotting fruit, and are heavily filtered and cooked to kill the moldy taste.
Quote from: Sephirah on April 23, 2012, 02:24:23 PM
Learning that I don't have a potentially life-threatening medical condition.
Okay, happy is a bit of an understatement, but still.
Happy Dance!!
Quote from: Keaira on April 24, 2012, 02:18:52 AM
Are binders really that tight? that cant be very comfortable. :(
Okay, so my little bit of happiness was that despite getting soaked from head to toe from a bad mold change at work, by some miracle, my eyeliner, mascara and eyeshadow stayed on like paint. that it survived a direct hit to the face twice is a miracle!
That's lovely Keaira. I'm so glad.
And yeah binders are pretty uncomfortable. It balances out though - I feel better half-choked while out and about than I do unbound, and weirdly, I even breathe better because my unbound slouching constricts my lungs more than does my upright and walking tall binding. Plus it's like a hug. Kinda.
Quote from: Felix on April 24, 2012, 02:27:53 AM
That's lovely Keaira. I'm so glad.
And yeah binders are pretty uncomfortable. It balances out though - I feel better half-choked while out and about than I do unbound, and weirdly, I even breathe better because my unbound slouching constricts my lungs more than does my upright and walking tall binding. Plus it's like a hug. Kinda.
Oh okay. I didn't know. I can understand that. ^_^
That would drive me absolutely crazy. I dont like wearing really tight clothes. I even got to where I would feel like I was choking if I was wearing a tie.
Quote from: Keaira on April 24, 2012, 02:38:33 AM
Oh okay. I didn't know. I can understand that. ^_^
That would drive me absolutely crazy. I dont like wearing really tight clothes. I even got to where I would feel like I was choking if I was wearing a tie.
I should point out that I bind more loosely than most guys do. I apparently have a crystalline ribcage and tissue-paper lungs, so I'm pretty careful. :D
I've never worn a tie. I want to. Gotta get up the nerve to learn how to attach it to my neck. ::)
If you were here, I would teach you how to put on a tie. Not one of those silly clip-on ones either. A real tie.
Quote from: Keaira on April 24, 2012, 02:56:38 AM
If you were here, I would teach you how to put on a tie. Not one of those silly clip-on ones either. A real tie.
And if you were here, I would give you a real hug instead of pretending to get one from plasticky fabric.:icon_giggle:
Quote from: Felix on April 24, 2012, 03:02:56 AM
And if you were here, I would give you a real hug instead of pretending to get one from plasticky fabric.:icon_giggle:
LOL. That would be nice ^_^
I think this lovefest is going to make me puke.
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Quote from: Jamie D on April 24, 2012, 03:58:45 AM
I think this lovefest is going to make me puke.
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I've noticed that Jamie is developing (?) a toilet fetish. Now darling lie down and explain it too us
Quote from: Jamie D on April 24, 2012, 03:58:45 AM
I think this lovefest is going to make me puke.
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OMNOMNOMNOM
(btw, sorry, sleepy and clicked "modify" before "quote." for the record, nothing of Jamie D's post was modified)
Quote from: Felix on April 24, 2012, 04:49:19 AM
OMNOMNOMNOM
(btw, sorry, sleepy and clicked "modify" before "quote." for the record, nothing of Jamie D's post was modified)
I am glad you appreciate the humor, as intended!
Awww. I'm sorry Jamie *Hugs and musses hir's hair * we like you too!
Make love not barf! :P
Don't worry, I'm not Felix's type. He's finally stopped asking me why I wont have sex with him and moved on. lol
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jf_l3EGQvL8&feature=relmfu (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jf_l3EGQvL8&feature=relmfu)
I made a friend ^.^
A Market Basket, my favorite grocery store, just opened REALLY close to home. I went to the grand opening and bought 6 lbs of bacon at $1.99/lb and 3 dozen eggs for 99 cents each. They also have my favorite cheese, Irish Dubliner, for the same price as Costco.
I know it's a silly thing to get excited about but most grocery stores in New England is really pricey and have these stupid gimmicks that make you carry a card and are annoying as Hell. MB is the exception.
Quote from: Felix on April 24, 2012, 11:05:40 AM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jf_l3EGQvL8&feature=relmfu (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jf_l3EGQvL8&feature=relmfu)
So stick him in a dress and
He's the only boy I'd shag
The only boy I'd anything is
Andrew in drag :o
Quote from: Keaira on April 24, 2012, 07:49:16 AM
Awww. I'm sorry Jamie *Hugs and musses hir's hair * we like you too!
Make love not barf! :P
Don't worry, I'm not Felix's type. He's finally stopped asking me why I wont have sex with him and moved on. lol
Will you still love me when I'm in my carbohydrate, sequined-jumpsuit, young-girls-in-white-cotton-panties, waking-up-in-a-pool-of-your-own-vomit, bloated-purple-dead-on-a-toilet phase? - Wayne Campbell
Quote from: JayKyle on April 24, 2012, 02:54:27 PM
Yay! Every little bit helps!
You go that right! *adding to my top surgery fund now*
Quote from: casey on April 24, 2012, 04:57:24 PM
My dad said that if moving out didn't work out, I could come back home even if I was on hormones. I knew they'd never truly leave me homeless, but it was nice to hear anyway. Not so much for the having a home part, as I'll work my butt off to keep out on my own, it's mostly because I can still visit my dogs as I change.
Its nice to have a plan B to fall back on though. Good luck!
The weather.
I know it's threatening rain and there are some dark clouds on the horizon, but it's just a beautiful day. It's too warm to be considered cool, and too cool to be considered warm. It is, to me, a perfect spring day.
How easily I am amused
My mom told me that if I were to get my license she would split half the price that my dad would pay for a car and just take it out of her savings.
Quote from: casey on April 24, 2012, 07:09:51 PM
Congrats malachite ;D
Thanks! I'm just glad I don't have to worry about THAT part which was starting to get to me.
Quote from: Malachite on April 24, 2012, 06:42:29 PM
My mom told me that if I were to get my license she would split half the price that my dad would pay for a car and just take it out of her savings.
What nice parents you have Malachite! :)
Quote from: Shantel on April 24, 2012, 07:59:45 PM
What nice parents you have Malachite! :)
Lets hope they keep to their word! In the meantime I really need to learn how to paralell park.
Quote from: Malachite on April 24, 2012, 08:01:28 PM
Lets hope they keep to their word! In the meantime I really need to learn how to paralell park.
Woot for good news...and um avoid paralell parking at all costs....its like the devil in disguise
Quote from: JayKyle on April 24, 2012, 08:29:18 PM
Woot for good news...and um avoid paralell parking at all costs....its like the devil in disguise
I dont think you'd like to live on my street lol.
nothing really made me happy ive just been very content for much of the day :)
Quote from: Tom on April 24, 2012, 08:36:48 PM
I dont think you'd like to live on my street lol.
nothing really made me happy ive just been very content for much of the day :)
no i would get one of those smart little compact cars and still pull in park like you do in a parking lot :D
Quote from: casey on April 24, 2012, 04:57:24 PM
My dad said that if moving out didn't work out, I could come back home even if I was on hormones. I knew they'd never truly leave me homeless, but it was nice to hear anyway. Not so much for the having a home part, as I'll work my butt off to keep out on my own, it's mostly because I can still visit my dogs as I change.
Your dad is awesome!
I just got my binder and holy crap! It's amazing. I'm completly flat! I love Underworks now~
destroying an entire Covenant armada...twice
They're beautiful little critters! Good job Liam!
Today I posted a picture on a different transfriendly forum asking people to tell me if they thought I was male or female, I got around 50/50. Which is better than what I normally would.
Plus heaps of people made reference to the character I was dressed as, so that was kind of awesome.
happy today,
The Wisteria is in full bloom, the Iris lining my driveway are coming up and I just put some fresh Lilac in a vase in the kitchen window.....I'm such a girl :)
Quote from: themanicbard on April 26, 2012, 06:53:20 PM
Today I posted a picture on a different transfriendly forum asking people to tell me if they thought I was male or female, I got around 50/50. Which is better than what I normally would.
Plus heaps of people made reference to the character I was dressed as, so that was kind of awesome.
You look like a very nice young man to me...quite handsome
My friend coming around and accepting the fact that its still me and that I'll just look a tad different in the end ^^
I'd love to be able to enjoy a more rural life once again! I had a vegetable garden, we used to can everything for the off season. I had a dozen Rhode Island Red chickens that laid brown shelled eggs. Dogs and cats. I wanted more, but my life took me away from all that. Kids around here think that eggs and milk comes from cartons. :(
Quote from: Liam Erik on April 26, 2012, 06:28:28 PM
This happened.
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These triplet lambs, all thirty-five pounds of them, were born this morning. As you can see, they are huge and healthy and their momma is in good weight. She is also taking care of them all. This is a miracle in my estimation... her breed is supposed to have twins or singles, period, and every time I have had triplets in the past it has been disastrous.
On a related note, I was told I am doing an extremely good job based on all the ewes' conditions and health, having pulled them through a winter with a serious hay shortage, and ended up with everyone strong and healthy with big strong healthy lambs. ;D :icon_redface: ;D
They are so cute! I really love the little black one! You should keep him/her and add him to your population. :P But all three are so cute!
Lovely little lambs, Liam:)
sleep
Quote from: Liam Erik on April 26, 2012, 08:19:07 PM
Thanks folks and everyone who's remarked on all the baby pictures :D I'm so happy this lambing season is going well ;D
The black one is a girl... only boy in the eight lambs is the big white fellow in the middle. I have to see what I get first, but I want to keep three or four, so we'll see.
I just want to snuggle your lamb pictures. Well, all of your sheep pictures, actually.
What made me happy today: I had four girls from class ask me what was up with my voice, because it was deeper. A friend of mine that I haven't seen in a few weeks told me she could hear the difference right before my class. I grew two inches at least.
Sitting in the early morning warm sun makes me happy :)
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On my way to the bus stop this morning, a guy asked me, "Excuse me, miss, what time is it?"
"9:15," I replied.
"Great, thank you, dear," he answered.
So, either I pass by sight and voice, or he was humoring my presentation. Either way, it's great to be addressed properly by strangers.
susans (aw look at me being all corny ^^)
Quote from: JayKyle on April 27, 2012, 02:23:48 PM
susans (aw look at me being all corny ^^)
Susans makes me happy too. ::)
My dad just randomly gave me $100. I'm pretty sure there will be strings attached in the future so I'm not too excited but hey it's extra jigglypuff removal money.
Quote from: Malachite on April 27, 2012, 02:28:09 PM
Susans makes me happy too. ::)
My dad just randomly gave me $100. I'm pretty sure there will be strings attached in the future so I'm not too excited but hey it's extra jigglypuff removal money.
O.O no bueno!!!! My dad did too! And yay for Jigglypuff removal!!! *happy dance*
Quote from: JayKyle on April 27, 2012, 02:33:41 PM
O.O no bueno!!!! My dad did too! And yay for Jigglypuff removal!!! *happy dance*
A few hundred bucks down only several thousand more to go!
lol except mine is going to pay for food and gas T^T
I got new clothes, soy milk is on sale, and my son is adorable.
Quote from: Malachite on April 27, 2012, 02:38:45 PM
A few hundred bucks down only several thousand more to go!
Wow, you're just smokin kid, good job!
Quote from: Shantel on April 27, 2012, 03:25:10 PM
Wow, you're just smokin kid, good job!
Thanks Shantel :)
Quote from: casey on April 24, 2012, 02:35:06 PM
Nice! All the stores near my new home have memberships, which pisses me off. I just want to buy my stuff without people a) tracking my purchases so they can advertise and b) making it look like there is a sale when there really isn't. I'll probably take the long train ride to the natural foods store that I used to work at.
My best friend is registered at Safeway as Ryan Osserous, and he rarely uses his card anyway. :)
I got a call this afternoon from the landlord, and I'm for sure approved for the place I already thought I was approved for and then found out I wasn't. Getting the keys on Sunday. I'm so relieved. I'd dance but my feet are a bloody mess. :P
I also bullied the orthopedic doctor's office into giving me an appointment even though I owe money. My foot and ankle are screwed up, my gait is funny, my knees are swollen, and my god there has to be a better way. I have insurance now anyway, I just didn't for an emergency surgery once and they every once in awhile decide I'm not paying it back fast enough. So, victory today. :)
Quote from: Felix on April 27, 2012, 10:37:44 PM
My best friend is registered at Safeway as Ryan Osserous, and he rarely uses his card anyway. :)
Lol, that's clever. ;D
I've often thought of doing something like that. I'd call myself Ann O'Mally. ;)
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I got a call this afternoon from the landlord, and I'm for sure approved for the place I already thought I was approved for and then found out I wasn't. Getting the keys on Sunday. I'm so relieved. I'd dance but my feet are a bloody mess. :P
Awww, that's awesome news hon. Really awesome. I'm so happy for you. Not knowing whether you'll have a roof over your head can be one of the scariest feelings imaginable. *gives you a massive hug*
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I also bullied the orthopedic doctor's office into giving me an appointment even though I owe money. My foot and ankle are screwed up, my gait is funny, my knees are swollen, and my god there has to be a better way. I have insurance now anyway, I just didn't for an emergency surgery once and they every once in awhile decide I'm not paying it back fast enough. So, victory today. :)
I hope you get better soon, Felix. :) *extra hug*
The proof of concept for my friend's cannabutter suppositories appears to have been a failure. Now maybe he'll finally shut up about this ridiculous venture!
Quote from: Felix on April 27, 2012, 10:37:44 PM
I got a call this afternoon from the landlord, and I'm for sure approved for the place I already thought I was approved for and then found out I wasn't. Getting the keys on Sunday. I'm so relieved. I'd dance but my feet are a bloody mess. :P
I also bullied the orthopedic doctor's office into giving me an appointment even though I owe money. My foot and ankle are screwed up, my gait is funny, my knees are swollen, and my god there has to be a better way. I have insurance now anyway, I just didn't for an emergency surgery once and they every once in awhile decide I'm not paying it back fast enough. So, victory today. :)
Good to hear about your housing situation. Hope things improve for your foot soon. You could use some good luck.
Felix getting approved for his new place :) I've been rather concerned about that
*Sends out positive vibes for Felix's foot to improve*
Super big orange...
{{{HUGS}}}
Great News Felix.
I went to the horse races all dolled up with 30,000 others and watched Black Caviar become the first filly to win 20/20 starts.
Felt great
Quote from: casey on April 28, 2012, 02:52:29 AM
Also really happy to see guys on Androgel who have progressed nicely. It seems that it isn't always slower.
I'm happy to see someone else on here who's on a non-injectible form of T. Sometimes I feel like I have to jump into every thread about gel/cream to debunk the idea that it doesn't work.
Quote from: Felix on April 27, 2012, 10:37:44 PM
My best friend is registered at Safeway as Ryan Osserous, and he rarely uses his card anyway. :)
I got a call this afternoon from the landlord, and I'm for sure approved for the place I already thought I was approved for and then found out I wasn't. Getting the keys on Sunday. I'm so relieved. I'd dance but my feet are a bloody mess. :P
I also bullied the orthopedic doctor's office into giving me an appointment even though I owe money. My foot and ankle are screwed up, my gait is funny, my knees are swollen, and my god there has to be a better way. I have insurance now anyway, I just didn't for an emergency surgery once and they every once in awhile decide I'm not paying it back fast enough. So, victory today. :)
That's wonderful! so does that mean you will be moving to something better and safer?
Quote from: casey on April 28, 2012, 03:16:56 AM
I do wonder where the myth came from. You have any ideas?
No clue, but it seems to be a trans thing. I did a lot of reading on men's health forums for cisguys on T as hormone replacement and I saw plenty of guys who preferred the gel/cream over shots. There does seem to be a small percentage of guys who just don't absorb the T through their skin for some reason, so maybe that's where the myth comes from.
Being a bridesmaid.. :)
Quote from: Keaira on April 28, 2012, 03:21:12 AM
That's wonderful! so does that mean you will be moving to something better and safer?
Yes. :)
Quote from: Felix on April 27, 2012, 10:37:44 PM
My best friend is registered at Safeway as Ryan Osserous, and he rarely uses his card anyway. :)
Any relation to
Ella Funt (http://i508.photobucket.com/albums/s321/beverduster/meet-the-woman-elephant-e57.jpg%5C)?
Zombies
Quote from: Liam Erik on April 28, 2012, 05:36:48 PM
Lambs and lambs and lambs. Leading a swarm of fuzzy, bouncing babies between fields. Carrying the stragglers. Watching them play. Watching the ewes who will be next up to bat, hoping they will let me get a few days of good sleep in before their turn.
Someday, I want to take a vacation and learn how to be a shepard
Quote from: Liam Erik on April 28, 2012, 05:48:41 PM
It's not complicated, you just have to get the hang of it. Learn the sheep, as it were. :eusa_think:
It sounds relaxing somehow
Beastie Boys :D
having the internet-I'm just thankful for it in general
Quote from: Malachite on April 28, 2012, 08:56:30 PM
having the internet-I'm just thankful for it in general
Me too.
Quote from: Felix on April 28, 2012, 09:00:39 PM
Me too.
Right on! Without the internet I wonder what kind of troubles or sorrows I would have gotten into
Quote from: Malachite on April 28, 2012, 09:01:37 PM
Right on! Without the internet I wonder what kind of troubles or sorrows I would have gotten into
I know right?
Quote from: Felix on April 28, 2012, 08:03:29 PM
Beastie Boys :D
You can take the boy out of the country but not the country out of the boy...sadly :D
Somebody rated my picture on Pride Dating as "Sexy."
Yeah, it's cool feeling.
Unfortunately, this person is not remotely nearby.
I was offered a free dining room table today. Yay.
I made my first, non-lightsaber demo appearance on video. I recorded it on my iPod. I hate video cameras. And I hate this video, but you know, I had to take that first step. And honestly, I can't say I like being on video. I feel like I look like some Emo/goth drag queen or something. But, here you go...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vW4qzocPHHg&feature=youtube_gdata_player
This is my new "Pick me up video"
WARNING: contains flashing lights, transformers, some cursing, and simon curtis
and no i did not make it
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D855RWx7Rps&list=FL0WlL_MuXXAC5IJaP-fJxJQ&index=1&feature=plpp_video
Quote from: JayKyle on April 29, 2012, 12:12:00 AM
This is my new "Pick me up video"
WARNING: contains flashing lights, transformers, some cursing, and simon curtis
and no i did not make it
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D855RWx7Rps&list=FL0WlL_MuXXAC5IJaP-fJxJQ&index=1&feature=plpp_video
I enjoyed that. ^_^
??? I can't! I really can't. I'm so surprised that people don't gawk at me when I open my mouth. I mean it's my natural voice. no training or practice, just... puberty..
I mean would you think I was female if you met me?
Quote from: Keaira on April 29, 2012, 12:17:54 AM
I enjoyed that. ^_^
I don't what it is but there's something about it that just puts a smile on my face ^ ^....oh yeah my two favorite things, Simon Curtis and Transformers ^o^
Quote from: JayKyle on April 29, 2012, 12:12:00 AM
This is my new "Pick me up video"
WARNING: contains flashing lights, transformers, some cursing, and simon curtis
and no i did not make it
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D855RWx7Rps&list=FL0WlL_MuXXAC5IJaP-fJxJQ&index=1&feature=plpp_video
Lol that sounded like clubby backstreet boys.* Get the hell off my lawn. :laugh:
*disclaimer - I can't really see the video except as a flickery mess.
Quote from: Keaira on April 28, 2012, 11:34:35 PM
I made my first, non-lightsaber demo appearance on video. I recorded it on my iPod. I hate video cameras. And I hate this video, but you know, I had to take that first step. And honestly, I can't say I like being on video. I feel like I look like some Emo/goth drag queen or something. But, here you go...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vW4qzocPHHg&feature=youtube_gdata_player
Keaira I'm not sure if I'd be able to gender you, but I'd ask where you were from. Your accent is cool. Rain is always pretty sweet too, but that's beside the point.
Quote from: Felix on April 29, 2012, 12:38:19 AM
Lol that sounded like clubby backstreet boys.* Get the hell off my lawn. :laugh:
:D haha I never thought of it like that but thats great
Quote from: Felix on April 29, 2012, 12:38:19 AM
Lol that sounded like clubby backstreet boys.* Get the hell off my lawn. :laugh:
*disclaimer - I can't really see the video except as a flickery mess.
Keaira I'm not sure if I'd be able to gender you, but I'd ask where you were from. Your accent is cool. Rain is always pretty sweet too, but that's beside the point.
I was born in Scotland, but my first language I ever learned was German. I lived in Germany for 12 years, then England and now Indiana. Raine is my middle name btw. ^_^
Quote from: Keaira on April 29, 2012, 12:48:28 AM
I was born in Scotland, but my first language I ever learned was German. I lived in Germany for 12 years, then England and now Indiana. Raine is my middle name btw. ^_^
Hmm. My dad was partly raised in Germany, and he used to sing to me in German when I was little. My favorite psych professor (John Beaton if anyone went to UAB) was Scottish, and my favorite troll-who-lived-in-a-cave (who also taught psychology but that wasn't how I knew him) was Irish. Well. You didn't mention Irish. But idk any Brits these days. ;D
I'm rambly. I don't want to pack or sleep. I just kinda want to be sad and confused, I guess.
That's kind of helpful to me. I knew my pitch was kind of low, but I've never paid attention to my actual speech pattern. I've been fighting a cough for about 3 months now because they were digging up concrete and pouring a new floor in my area of the factory, so my vocal range has been limited ever since. Thank you Casey. *hugs*
Felix, The only Irish I knew of were terrorists and they made my childhood seem somewhat risky. The IRA was active back then.
Quote from: Keaira on April 29, 2012, 01:36:53 AM
That's kind of helpful to me. I knew my pitch was kind of low, but I've never paid attention to my actual speech pattern. I've been fighting a cough for about 3 months now because they were digging up concrete and pouring a new floor in my area of the factory, so my vocal range has been limited ever since. Thank you Casey. *hugs*
Felix, The only Irish I knew of were terrorists and they made my childhood seem somewhat risky. The IRA was active back then.
When I was a kid I went to the UK and Ireland with a student ambassador program, and a good chunk of our itinerary got derailed because of IRA violence. :-\
One of my more memorable days was visiting a hospital in Birmingham. I was early so went to a pub for lunch, ordered some food and a beer and went to the loo leaving my bag by my table. I came back to the staff calling the police and evacuating the pub. It had only just reopened from being suitcase bombed by the IRA. Goddess was I popular :embarrassed: :embarrassed: :embarrassed: :embarrassed: :embarrassed:
my last place in England was an hour away by train from Birmingham. ^_^
I used to live in Birmingham. The awesome Birmingham. Lol that was before personalized google search. I learned more about England than I ever wanted to know. :laugh:
I was going to link a map photo or a Vulcan pic or something, but this is cooler even if less relevant:
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Quote from: Felix on April 29, 2012, 02:01:49 AM
I used to live in Birmingham. The awesome Birmingham. Lol that was before personalized google search. I learned more about England than I ever wanted to know. :laugh:
"Bumminham"
It looks like the new water tanks aren't going to leak any and I even got the choke assembly back on the carb on the rv, which was sorta annoying lining up the little rod connector down inside the carb. But that makes most of the hard stuff done, the rest should be easy peasy.
My favorite gay robot is back ^^ (and yes I have a one track processor)
Quote from: Jaime on April 29, 2012, 04:44:03 PM
It looks like the new water tanks aren't going to leak any and I even got the choke assembly back on the carb on the rv, which was sorta annoying lining up the little rod connector down inside the carb. But that makes most of the hard stuff done, the rest should be easy peasy.
I used to be able to do all that mechanical stuff before they put electronic brains and all the clean air stuff in the engine compartment. Now you open the hood and all you can see is a lot of snakes. What happened to the engine?
Quote from: Shantel on April 29, 2012, 04:49:40 PM
I used to be able to do all that mechanical stuff before they put electronic brains and all the clean air stuff in the engine compartment. Now you open the hood and all you can see is a lot of snakes. What happened to the engine?
The rv's I mess with are all older, from either the 70's or 80's, they are more suited for converting to offroad sand and beach use. As for new stuff, yes, they've made it to where you have to have a computer hooked up to it and even then, finding the exact problem can be iffy. Luckily, I rarely have a breakdown that I can't fix myself.
Fixing things is something I still do despite the masculine undertones of it. Its just too expensive to deal with mechanics that are more concerned with the condition of your finances than the condition of the vehicle.
Quote from: Jaime on April 29, 2012, 05:11:07 PM
Fixing things is something I still do despite the masculine undertones of it. Its just too expensive to deal with mechanics that are more concerned with the condition of your finances than the condition of the vehicle.
I'll add my amen to that! Also when it's a woman then they assume that she's ignorant and her pocketbook is a potential for a mining operation!
We had a nice dinner of chicken and rice with some home fermented Cabernet sitting out on our porch. The animals (ducks, geese, roosters, and a peahen) all provided some entertainment. It was a nice way to end the day. And we wanted to celebrate before we lose the kitchen this week so I cooked while Shannon packed all the important stuff away in another room so we can get to it if we need it before they are finished.
I am not dead, from, my rash. Yea, I am a real big baby. Plus, I get to see, my "regular" M.D. tomorrow. Yay!
I had a really good and productive session with my therapist today.
I got the key to my new apartment today. My daughter did her damnedest to demonstrate that we would be hell on the other tenants, but the landlord was admirably patient and so was my friend. I fell on the front steps so my knee was bleeding, and that distracted me enough that I kinda forgot to be anxious. Yay.
Quote from: kelly_aus on April 29, 2012, 06:33:45 AM
That almost sounds obscene.. :laugh:
That's the (American) Southern pronunciation.
Two other large southern US cities are
"Etlanna"
and
"Miyammah"
Quote from: Felix on April 29, 2012, 09:36:43 PM
I got the key to my new apartment today. My daughter did her damnedest to demonstrate that we would be hell on the other tenants, but the landlord was admirably patient and so was my friend. I fell on the front steps so my knee was bleeding, and that distracted me enough that I kinda forgot to be anxious. Yay.
New day
New start
Best wishes
Thank you Jamie D. I've felt lately like I'm on a ship in a storm or something. I can't wait for things to calm down.
Something that just made me happy - the free table had piles of girly things that will fit my daughter. And a couple things that will fit me. That came out of nowhere. There were even a couple of clean-smelling pillows.
The recycling bin had at least $5 worth of returnables already separated, and I started to bring them upstairs and then realized lol in the middle of a move it's probably worth $5 to me not to have to take them to Fred Meyer. ::)
Yay the reputation system is back along with to stalk see what others are doing on the site. Thanks Susans!
Realising that I've been on hormones for a year!
Quote from: kelly_aus on April 30, 2012, 05:05:14 AM
Realising that I've been on hormones for a year!
Woohoo! :icon_birthday:
I can't stop giggling over my daughter's totally innocent statement that "It's hard work to love a duck." :D
Congratulations, Felix on your apartment!
And congrats, Kelly, on your hormone anniversary!
I just went for a two hour long walk. My arms feel like noodles for some reason, but man, I feel good!
Quote from: Malachite on April 30, 2012, 05:00:23 AM
Yay the reputation system is back along with to stalk see what others are doing on the site. Thanks Susans!
Aw, I was kinda hoping it wouldn't. My reputation count makes me feel inferior. :P I do rather like the stalking capabilities, though.
Quote from: Liam Erik on April 30, 2012, 11:16:03 AM
New lamb this morning, a great big boy, to a first time mom. She's doing great. She wouldn't leave him for grain, and she did a lot of hunkering and stamping her feet when I came too close (warning of imminent aggression).
She's acting like a real momma, so cool to observe though huh?
Later today I get to meet my friend's kitty who I'm cat-sitting for later this week. And then tonight I have a date!
My mother is going to pay for my new gym pass, and my cat keeps "helping" me study.
Quote from: Liam Erik on April 30, 2012, 11:16:03 AM
New lamb this morning, a great big boy, to a first time mom. She's doing great. She wouldn't leave him for grain, and she did a lot of hunkering and stamping her feet when I came too close (warning of imminent aggression).
Awesome. :)
Listening to UB40 puts me in such a good mood.
Being alive
I don't have to live at the Fairmount after tomorrow. :)
I didn't see ugly in the mirror.
Also lol my half-awake daughter told me she was going to name her next bug either Stevie Wonder or Hubert. :laugh:
Dr. didn't cuss at me for not crossdressing today. He gave me a script for a hypothyroid med. Age is catching up on me, my younger sisters have the same thing. Maybe I'll be less sluggish than the past 3 months and not be as irritable and not flame anyone on the forums. ;)
Joelene
Quote from: Joelene9 on May 01, 2012, 01:41:59 AM
Dr. didn't cuss at me for not crossdressing today. He gave me a script for a hypothyroid med. Age is catching up on me, my younger sisters have the same thing. Maybe I'll be less sluggish than the past 3 months and not be as irritable and not flame anyone on the forums. ;)
Joelene
Hit me with your best shot. Fire away
Quote from: Jamie D on May 01, 2012, 02:11:22 AM
Hit me with your best shot. Fire away
Not me. Nobody be mean to me, ever.
Quote from: Felix on May 01, 2012, 02:23:04 AM
Not me. Nobody be mean to me, ever.
You come on with a come on, you don't fight fair
But that's okay, see if I care
Knock me down, it's all in vain
I'll get right back up on my feet again
Hit me with your best shot
Why don't you hit me with your best shot?
Hit me with your best shot
Fire away
Quote from: Jamie D on May 01, 2012, 02:30:01 AM
You come on with a come on, you don't fight fair
But that's okay, see if I care
Knock me down, it's all in vain
I'll get right back up on my feet again
Hit me with your best shot
Why don't you hit me with your best shot?
Hit me with your best shot
Fire away
Lol I was gonna quote something back at you, but I thought about it, and I got nothin. :laugh:
I love that song!
Quote from: Jamie D on May 01, 2012, 02:55:18 AM
I love that song!
My first two reactions were a Cure song and the dentist bit by Eddie Izzard. I'm not all here at the moment. ;D
Hiding sex toys and belts and bottles and lubes is making me pretty happy tonight. My gosh I didn't realize what a perv I was. ;D
You moving house or moving sex shops? :laugh:
First time around, I figured out how to get my hair to look like the way my stylist cut it. Oh Yea!
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Quote from: Keaira on May 01, 2012, 03:55:26 AM
First time around, I figured out how to get my hair to look like the way my stylist cut it. Oh Yea!
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Very pretty. :)
Quote from: Felix on May 01, 2012, 03:59:05 AM
Very pretty. :)
I sure don't think I am. lol. But thank you. ^_^
You are really looking better and better.
Hugs Sis
Very cute hair style
Cindy
Lol I'm completely out of my mind but I'm moving today. :)
Quote from: Keaira on May 01, 2012, 03:55:26 AM
First time around, I figured out how to get my hair to look like the way my stylist cut it. Oh Yea!
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Looks lovely, m'lady. :)
Quote from: Felix on May 01, 2012, 09:52:20 AM
Lol I'm completely out of my mind but I'm moving today. :)
Good luck with the move. Flex your manly awesomeness. I get to move in a few weeks, and I can't wait to lift the heavy boxes. Weird, but yeah.
I bought my ticket. I leave in 16 days to start the next leg of my adventure. :laugh:
I got a spot for my internship at the detention center
Born Villain is *finally* out, and will be showing up in my mailbox soon. There are no words for how ecstatic I am over this.
And I finally ordered new tea (at long, long last). Oh, honeybush vanilla, you're alllll mine.
Quote from: Ayden on May 01, 2012, 03:13:32 PM
Looks lovely, m'lady. :)
Good luck with the move. Flex your manly awesomeness. I get to move in a few weeks, and I can't wait to lift the heavy boxes. Weird, but yeah.
I bought my ticket. I leave in 16 days to start the next leg of my adventure. :laugh:
Quote from: Cindy James on May 01, 2012, 04:51:27 AM
You are really looking better and better.
Hugs Sis
Very cute hair style
Cindy
Thank you. I know I'm very hard on myself. You just don't know how hard. lol
Anyway, today, a friend told me when I walked though the door and clocked in today, was telling a new press operator, "If you start getting defects in the parts, call Keaira"
The new guy frowned. "Who's that?"
"Red glasses, black hair, wear's a radio..."
"Oh Her! okay."
How I am passing I don't know.
I like myself. I really do. I think I'm awesome.
What's Born Villain?
Got some darker sunglasses today. They seem to have done the trick. Don't have headache anymore. It's awesome. The end. :D
Oh, and Greggs coffee. It's yummy.
I had an awesome dream about passing as neither male nor female. :D The person had to ask. I said I was female just because I wasn't done with transitioning yet and I didn't think my voice passed for male.
And it's storming! This means work might be slow. :D
Had to run a few errands in town and everywhere I went, everyone was just so darned nice. Saw a few people I knew and it just feels damned good to live life as me:)
My injection went amazingly well today.
I didn't even bleed at all.
:)
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This.
Quote from: Jaime on May 02, 2012, 11:08:32 AM
Had to run a few errands in town and everywhere I went, everyone was just so darned nice. Saw a few people I knew and it just feels damned good to live life as me:)
That's what it's all about, hon. What everything is for.
Great stuff. *hug*
Hearing about Call of Duty: Black Ops 2 and Free Comic Book Day
Quote from: Tom on May 02, 2012, 02:17:17 PM
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This.
That would make me happy as well, but I also would feel guilty for eating it too.
xD
Quote from: casey on May 02, 2012, 04:05:08 PM
After five years of wearing the same underwear,
For a scary moment then....I did think you'd literally worn the
same underwear for five years.
Quote from: JasonRX on May 02, 2012, 04:20:55 PM
That would make me happy as well, but I also would feel guilty for eating it too.
xD
Thats my....second or third one this week, not a guilty drop in me ;D
I played Magic. Haha, I think I post in this thread every time I play Magic.
I was sired on the phone. It's been a while since that has happened.
Also I found out that a church near me has a pastor who is ftm.
I took a long hot bubble bath. Then I did my eyebrows. I might go thinner tomorrow with them. but for now, until all the redness goes away I'm happy with them.
Realising That I am not the only one in my French class who feels like I have been run over by a truck due to the speed we are moving through the course. :laugh:
I was thinking back over the last few months of work and I realized that two people have thought I was male.
One asked was a little boy (about 7) who asked his brother, "Is that a guy?", while looking directly at me. The brother shushed him and said, "She's a girl."
The other instance was with a full grown woman. I smiled at her as I walked past and she turned to the man that was with her and said, "Was that a man?" --> this was just yesterday!
I have no clue what they're picking up on. o.o But it was neat to hear it.
Quote from: Lynn Gabriel on May 03, 2012, 10:19:08 AM
I have no clue what they're picking up on. o.o But it was neat to hear it.
Not to get all new-agey here, and there are probably far better words to describe it... but to save time, let's call it your aura. An X-factor *swats Simon Cowell away* but not that one. :P
It's what I pick up from you, and the tone of your posts. People give off a vibe that others can pick up. I've noticed it with a lot of people here. Not necessarily what you say, or how you say it, or even how you look. Just... I don't know, something metasensory.
Yeah, the hippie chick speaketh. >.<
Quote from: Sephirah on May 03, 2012, 10:23:53 AM
Not to get all new-agey here, and there are probably far better words to describe it... but to save time, let's call it your aura. An X-factor *swats Simon Cowell away* but not that one. :P
It's what I pick up from you, and the tone of your posts. People give off a vibe that others can pick up. I've noticed it with a lot of people here. Not necessarily what you say, or how you say it, or even how you look. Just... I don't know, something metasensory.
Yeah, the hippie chick speaketh. >.<
Huh...I never thought of that. Hahaha, nothing wrong with being New Age-y. I'm a Celtic Wiccan who happens to do energy work and believes in auras and such. :p
Quote from: Julian on May 02, 2012, 09:56:29 PM
I played Magic. Haha, I think I post in this thread every time I play Magic.
I APPROVE OF THIS.
My honeybush vanilla from Teavana showed up today so I'm stoked to try that later on tonight with dinner, and I downloaded the opera bit from the movie Hannibal earlier (its been stuck in my head since last night).
I read a poem today from a series called "In Praise of Aging" that was uplifting and seemed like it could be applied to transition, too.
Watching the Talking Animals videos on youtube. I'm so in fits of giggles over them. They're so adorable yet the situations are very human. I love the way they've been anthropomorphised and haven't laughed this much in ages. It's good for the soul.
Quote from: Sephirah on May 03, 2012, 01:52:34 PM
Watching the Talking Animals videos on youtube. I'm so in fits of giggles over them. They're so adorable yet the situations are very human. I love the way they've been anthropomorphised and haven't laughed this much in ages. It's good for the soul.
Those videos are great! xD
I'm officially signed up for student-teaching (see the "What Are You Thinking Thread?" for how excited I am and also for a picture of me). I'm super excited. x3
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YEY!
and ..
http://youtu.be/YFJdUJg4wOk (http://youtu.be/YFJdUJg4wOk)
Just because that sort of music always cheers me up
My bf and I have been asked to stay in a lovely flat for a week while the owners go off and get married! They also requested we eat all the food before it can spoil...yes! :D
Quote from: Tom on May 02, 2012, 05:16:08 PM
For a scary moment then....I did think you'd literally worn the same underwear for five years.
I was thinking the same thing for a moment--"That is some RIPE underwear!" :o ;D
Quote from: MiaOhMya! on May 03, 2012, 05:53:50 PM
My bf and I have been asked to stay in a lovely flat for a week while the owners go off and get married! They also requested we eat all the food before it can spoil...yes! :D
I would be over the moon if someone proposed something like this to me.
xD
I just found out that I'm going to be attending a crisis line counselor training for the GLBT National Hotline (http://www.glnh.org/hotline/index.html) later this month!
Jason, I am over the moon, yes! I have had a hard time getting a seperate place with my bf as money has proven tight due to transition costs. This will be a very welcomed taste of privacy!!
Oh and congrats Connie on the training!
Quote from: N.Chaos on December 31, 1969, 06:02:13 PMI downloaded the opera bit from the movie Hannibal earlier (its been stuck in my head since last night).
What a wonderful film. Hannibal Lecter is one of the greats of all time. I love the films because you find yourself cheering on this man because he is the sort of evil that keeps true evil in line. He is a romantic, a father figure. He would never hurt an innocent. The opera scene, watching Hannibal enjoy the performance, and the subtlety of the hidden message where Hannibal hints at his true love for Clarisse..it really showed a sort of bedeviled beauty that is unmatched in most film characters. Ah I must try and see it again soon!
Sucessfully defended my thesis!!!
Really dramatic opera music + incredibly epic storm = a (strangely) simultaneously moved and amused Chaos.
Watching Hannibal twice in two days has got me on a hell of an opera/classical kick.
I am thinking that it has been a long day and I have a lot of writing to do this weekend, so will be going to bed very soon. Alone true, but at least I have a nice doona to keep me warm.
Finding a piece of really top-notch (and free) PC tune-up and repair software, giving my beloved laptop a mega-clean and scour, and it feeling like a new machine again. I'm amazed at the difference it's made. Worth every penny of the price to upgrade it to the Pro version (which was on sale for like half price - YAY). 2000 registry errors, gawd. No wonder it felt like using carrier pidgeons to do anything.
Quote from: Ayden on May 04, 2012, 12:14:15 AM
Sucessfully defended my thesis!!!
Yes, congrats!!
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I found "Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood' on Netflix for streaming. :D xD I'm so easily pleased.
My rash is improving ;D!
I feel like I'm getting the hang of my genders and I feel so much better.
I watched Let the Right One In and really like it.
I've also been watching and reading Death Note again which I really like, but not only that, I also found some songs about it.
I found some other songs I really like too.
Quote from: Edge on May 04, 2012, 11:10:11 PM
I watched Let the Right One In and really like it.
Was it the original? It sounds like it...I love the original (and the book) quite a bit. The American version made me grimace. I hated it because it was nothing like the original or the book.
It makes me happy when I look a guest turns into a member.
1500 word Gender Studies essay finished. Now for the 2000 word History one! Onward and upward.
Quote from: justmeinoz on May 05, 2012, 05:17:18 AM
1500 word Gender Studies essay finished. Now for the 2000 word History one! Onward and upward.
Sounds like you are kicking a little intellectual tootie!
I had to do a semiotic analysis of a fashion poster based on Da Vinci's Last Supper, and what looked like a fashion industry/ advertising analysis turned into a study in church attitudes to women.
Interesting. I will get it checked over, but I think I have done pretty well.
Karen.
Quote from: justmeinoz on May 05, 2012, 05:34:49 AM
I had to do a semiotic analysis of a fashion poster based on Da Vinci's Last Supper, and what looked like a fashion industry/ advertising analysis turned into a study in church attitudes to women.
Interesting. I will get it checked over, but I think I have done pretty well.
Karen.
Have to see this Sis
Quote from: Lynn Gabriel on May 04, 2012, 11:34:03 PM
Was it the original? It sounds like it...I love the original (and the book) quite a bit. The American version made me grimace. I hated it because it was nothing like the original or the book.
Yeah, it's the original. I have seen Let Me In as well, but it doesn't hold a candle to the original.
Oskar and Eli are adorable!
Cleaning up some Scareware.
Quote from: Liam Erik on May 03, 2012, 10:04:44 PM
I'm allowed to bring my dog to my therapy sessions. It's a huge improvement. I don't feel like busting out the window and hand-over-hand-ing it away down the power line anymore.
Holy Sh*t!
And people think I get vitriolic at therapy! :icon_boxing:
My rash has improved, yay ;D!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Quote from: paula otto on May 05, 2012, 09:06:30 PM
My rash has improved, yay ;D!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yay!
I'm feeling delightfully wicked right now. It's a happy thought when it shouldn't be.
This is an odd one... :laugh:
I'm happy today because I'm a little hungover and sore..
Why does this make me happy? Because it means that I went out last night and had a blast.. A few drinks, flirting with some boys and some girls, and I danced the night away.. Not the night I had planned at all...
I'm learning to accept myself AS i progress...who knew it felt so good not to hate ^ ^
semi-frozen freezy pops
I have discovered "Bobs Pickle Pops" ...pickle juice popsicles!! No longer must I purchase pickles just to get to the juice!! ;D ;D
Somehow I think I'd miss sucking on a whole dill, unless of coarse if they were made in Popsicle mold like this...
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fellow Decepticons in hiding ^o^
drinking juice
A friend told me to report the PM of the user who was a douche. I didn't know I could do that. o.o The PM has now been reported and life is good.
Oh, I also bought a new pair of tennis shoes! Yay! I probably should have used the money for food, but I seriously needed tennis shoes and now my feet aren't going to feel like dying while I work.
I was able to get onto my old Youtube account! Yay!
This song makes me happy:
http://youtu.be/386jiBy1gy4 (http://youtu.be/386jiBy1gy4)
Quote from: Lynn Gabriel on May 06, 2012, 09:13:24 PM
I was able to get onto my old Youtube account! Yay!
This song makes me happy:
http://youtu.be/386jiBy1gy4 (http://youtu.be/386jiBy1gy4)
^^ FTW!
Quote from: JayKyle on May 06, 2012, 09:31:10 PM
^^ FTW!
:D XD I love that song! I love the singer's hair, too....I'm still looking for haircuts and anything "pop"-ish is being considered.
Quote from: JayKyle on May 06, 2012, 07:45:49 PM
F*** yes! the juice is back! ^o^ :D
You know it! I finished the can about an hour or so ago though :(
I have tomorrow off:)
And a lady told me that every time she comes into the store, I am just always so sweet, that was quite nice of her to say.
Revisions on my novel are progressing well.
My job today took me to every single press in my area. Looking at my pedometer, I racked up an impressive 10 miles of walking just doing my job. Add to that all the sweating from the heat and humidity, I had a good workout today.
It was a nice day out today :) I did some more prep work in my lil' garden spot
One seriously great weekend of dancing.
I'm stiff, sore, and starving, but man life's good.
Quote from: Jaime on May 06, 2012, 10:46:37 PM
And a lady told me that every time she comes into the store, I am just always so sweet, that was quite nice of her to say.
Uh-huh! What did I tell you?
Protest rally tonight WOHOO!!!
Finally got my new binder a few days ago, wore it for the first time yesterday and it works amazing. Seriously, yesterday was the first time in almost three years that I've gone out without a bunch of layers and it was incredible. I was seriously thinking I'd never be able to do that again.
Quote from: N.Chaos on May 07, 2012, 01:49:16 PM
Finally got my new binder a few days ago, wore it for the first time yesterday and it works amazing. Seriously, yesterday was the first time in almost three years that I've gone out without a bunch of layers and it was incredible. I was seriously thinking I'd never be able to do that again.
What was the binder?
I'm looking for a binder, but I doubt anything will get me below a C cup in size/presence. =(
I am so happy, that, my rash has almost gone away ;D!
Quote from: casey on May 07, 2012, 05:01:05 PM
I got the supervisor that I wanted!! I was worried, as she's been ill, but she said she can supervise nevertheless. I like her, because she's smart, well-read, super familiar with my topics of interest, and knows a lot of things that are going on. She said that there are some trips that are relevant to my thesis, so I may go to Spain in September, or Cairo/Tunisia in February. And we spoke about possibly diving straight into a PhD once the thesis is done.
After feeling like I hit rock bottom last night...this is great. First of all, I haven't lost everything. My material situation is totally >-bleeped-<ty, and I'm going to have to work really hard to fix this, but there are other things. I'm going to be OK.
OMG! Cairo was amazing! Especially the museum there. I got to go when I was 15 We even got to see the pyramids at Giza, go into the Great Pyramid and see the Sphinx! . Then we went to Jerusalem. I saw the Church of the nativity and the wailing wall. And I spent a few weeks in Cyprus. I so enjoyed that tiny little island. It was an amazing summer.
So if you get the chance, Cairo is a once in a lifetime experience. The Pyramids... TV just doesn't do it justice. You don't truly feel just how immense. those things are It's just amazing!
My license now has my correct name and gender marker on it.
:)
Quote from: JasonRX on May 08, 2012, 03:40:29 PM
My license now has my correct name and gender marker on it.
:)
That is awesome! Congratulations!
Quote from: JasonRX on May 08, 2012, 03:40:29 PM
My license now has my correct name and gender marker on it.
:)
I think that is great :icon_pelvic_thrust2:.
Quote from: paula otto on May 08, 2012, 08:54:22 PM
I think that is great :icon_pelvic_thrust2:.
That smiley is also pretty great.
xD
sore muscles :D
New Doc Martens boots and the fact that I walk so much, I managed to wear my last pair out. It took about four years and I walk a lot. Man, those are some good boots.
Walked into a shop in guy mode and the attendant said "yes young lady, how can I help you"
Curvy Straw
Finally started my European History assignment. 2000 words by Monday. Hmmmm.
This quote
Quote from: US President Barak Obama
I have to tell you that over the course of several years as I have talked to friends and family and neighbors when I think about members of my own staff who are in incredibly committed monogamous relationships, same-sex relationships, who are raising kids together, when I think about those soldiers or airmen or marines or sailors who are out there fighting on my behalf and yet feel constrained, even now that Don't Ask Don't Tell is gone, because they are not able to commit themselves in a marriage, at a certain point I've just concluded that for me personally it is important for me to go ahead and affirm that I think same sex couples should be able to get married.
Quote from: Jeneva on May 09, 2012, 02:24:41 PM
This quote
How recently did he say this?
Either way, seeing this has made me happy too.
:]
Quote from: JasonRX on May 09, 2012, 02:48:15 PM
How recently did he say this?
Either way, seeing this has made me happy too.
:]
Today in his 1:30 interview.
I'm happy too. Of course he's pandering, but I'm not going to act surprised or upset about it. He was pro-gay-marriage when it was helpful to his senate campaign and then against it when it hurt him as a presidential candidate. It's still progress and it's good to know that the environment has changed enough that his former position is unhelpful politically. My Democrat friends are singing his praises and my Republican friends (all of which are very pro-gay or they wouldn't be my friends anymore) are finding ways to dwell on the negative and play this down like how he's still abandoning Bradley Manning or that it was too late to help with the NC amendment.
Log Cabin Republicans said this:
QuoteThat the president has chosen today, when LGBT Americans are mourning the passage of Amendment One, to finally speak up for marriage equality is offensive and callous," said R. Clarke Cooper, Log Cabin Republicans Executive Director. "Log Cabin Republicans appreciate that President Obama has finally come in line with leaders like Vice President Dick Cheney on this issue, but LGBT Americans are right to be angry that this calculated announcement comes too late to be of any use to the people of North Carolina , or any of the other states that have addressed this issue on his watch. This administration has manipulated LGBT families for political gain as much as anybody, and after his campaign's ridiculous contortions to deny support for marriage equality this week he does not deserve praise for an announcement that comes a day late and a dollar short.
Both responses strike me as disingenuous. Politics is still working great to continue to divide people.
I got the first two volumes of the Durarara!! manga and it is awesome!
finally got my neighbor's rv ready for the beach. New, bigger water tanks, bigger tv, converted the choke to manual, tuned up the generator, fixed a few problems and the underside is sprayed to protect it from the salt. Now I'm gonna have to help my brother get his running better next since he's not doing so well with replacing the carb on it.
Quote from: Jaime on May 09, 2012, 06:34:07 PM
finally got my neighbor's rv ready for the beach. New, bigger water tanks, bigger tv, converted the choke to manual, tuned up the generator, fixed a few problems and the underside is sprayed to protect it from the salt. Now I'm gonna have to help my brother get his running better next since he's not doing so well with replacing the carb on it.
Wow kind of impressive!
Beach Party!!! ;D Nice new avatar BTW :)
I miss the beach and camping out there in RVs :D
I was feeling sad because the guy at my apt.s who said he'd help with the garden this year copped out :P
But now I'm being happy because a neighbor who lives in a house nearby brought over his rototiller and tilled the remaining garden area and now the whole garden area is mine to have my way with!!! 8) Saves me time and money and I don't have to rely on the flaky guy for help
That's great, V M. It does help to have good neighbors.
Got asked at work why I was wearing nail polish.
So I came out to them all and told them I was transitioning from MtF was on hormones, intend to have surgery and will be presenting as female as I develop. Showed them a pic of me (my avatar).
I got a hug from every single person and was told that I had been so much happier that it was total important for me to be true to myself, that they were all with me every step of the journey.
Felling pretty damn good to be honest
Quote from: Cindy James on May 10, 2012, 12:48:19 AM
Got asked at work why I was wearing nail polish.
So I came out to them all and told them I was transitioning from MtF was on hormones, intend to have surgery and will be presenting as female as I develop. Showed them a pic of me (my avatar).
I got a hug from every single person and was told that I had been so much happier that it was total important for me to be true to myself, that they were all with me every step of the journey.
Felling pretty damn good to be honest
That's awesome Sis. :) Love you, you are awesome
Hugs
I had a great time at Rainbow Skate (http://www.rainbowskate.net/) with my daughter tonight.
Quote from: Cindy James on May 10, 2012, 12:48:19 AM
Got asked at work why I was wearing nail polish.
So I came out to them all and told them I was transitioning from MtF was on hormones, intend to have surgery and will be presenting as female as I develop. Showed them a pic of me (my avatar).
I got a hug from every single person and was told that I had been so much happier that it was total important for me to be true to myself, that they were all with me every step of the journey.
Felling pretty damn good to be honest
Hip hipHooray!!
Quote from: Connie Anne on May 10, 2012, 01:14:05 AM
I had a great time at Rainbow Skate (http://www.rainbowskate.net/) with my daughter tonight.
I remember Redwood City. Can't recall a skating rink though. I worked on Page Mill Road, south of Stanford U.
Quote from: Cindy James on May 10, 2012, 12:48:19 AM
Got asked at work why I was wearing nail polish.
So I came out to them all and told them I was transitioning from MtF was on hormones, intend to have surgery and will be presenting as female as I develop. Showed them a pic of me (my avatar).
I got a hug from every single person and was told that I had been so much happier that it was total important for me to be true to myself, that they were all with me every step of the journey.
Felling pretty damn good to be honest
Great news Cindy! :icon_hug:
Quote from: Jamie D on May 10, 2012, 01:31:01 AM
I remember Redwood City. Can't recall a skating rink though. I worked on Page Mill Road, south of Stanford U.
The rink is on Main Street at Beech, a couple off blocks of El Camino (just north of Woodside Road).
Went to a used book sale and got a book from the early 1800s. I expect to get small pox any day now lol ^o^
Happy cuz the Orange tree in my yard is blooming! I had no idea that Orange blossoms were so fragrant...it smells a bit like lilacs if I had to compare it to something.
Of course we didnt have Orange trees up in the Northwest so this is a "welcome to California" treat for us :) along with our palms I planted the yard looks great!
Quote from: Cindy James on May 10, 2012, 12:48:19 AM
Got asked at work why I was wearing nail polish.
So I came out to them all and told them I was transitioning from MtF was on hormones, intend to have surgery and will be presenting as female as I develop. Showed them a pic of me (my avatar).
I got a hug from every single person and was told that I had been so much happier that it was total important for me to be true to myself, that they were all with me every step of the journey.
Felling pretty damn good to be honest
Im glad it went so well for you! hooray!
I've finally found somewhere I can go to learn Japanese. I've always felt bad for only knowing english and I'd love to go to Japan.
Now all I need to do is build up the confidence to go haha
Quote from: Jaime on May 09, 2012, 09:58:25 PM
That's great, V M. It does help to have good neighbors.
Nice photo there Jaime, pretty face!
Quote from: Cindy James on May 10, 2012, 12:48:19 AM
Got asked at work why I was wearing nail polish.
So I came out to them all and told them I was transitioning from MtF was on hormones, intend to have surgery and will be presenting as female as I develop. Showed them a pic of me (my avatar).
I got a hug from every single person and was told that I had been so much happier that it was total important for me to be true to myself, that they were all with me every step of the journey.
Felling pretty damn good to be honest
How great is that? You deserve that kind of reception sweetie!
@ Cindy - first time I looked at this thread. You have a right to feel damn proud, a Beautiful happening, congratulations! This makes me Happy today!
Hugs
Jamie
eggroll
http://angryjoeshow.com/2012/05/fa-dragons-dogma/ (http://angryjoeshow.com/2012/05/fa-dragons-dogma/)
This.
I am literally counting down the fourteen days until release. It looks amazing.
*taps foot impatiently*
Quote from: Sephirah on May 11, 2012, 01:07:00 AM
http://angryjoeshow.com/2012/05/fa-dragons-dogma/ (http://angryjoeshow.com/2012/05/fa-dragons-dogma/)
This.
I am literally counting down the fourteen days until release. It looks amazing.
*taps foot impatiently*
Speaking of Angry Joe I'm listening to one of his rap songs now lol
Quote from: Malachite on May 11, 2012, 01:07:51 AM
Speaking of Angry Joe I'm listening to one of his rap songs now lol
The dookie one from the Saint's Row 3 review?
Quote from: Sephirah on May 11, 2012, 01:09:01 AM
The dookie one from the Saint's Row 3 review?
Indeed! :)
I particularly liked his review on that game.
I have that one. I agree with most of his comments. It's nowhere near as good as the second. It's basically shock factor tinged with a bit of the ridiculous.
Although you should watch him and Amanda playing it, she sounds like she's about to die of laughter. ;D
Angry Joe Plays Saints Row 3 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qxn3T-xyUG8#)
http://youtu.be/-AnF4KkrhxE (http://youtu.be/-AnF4KkrhxE)
this made me happy
I gots me a webcam last night. :D
Yes I do!!
:P
Emilie Autumn - What If Lyrics (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c_S-EinRIMM#)
Also, my son fell asleep in my arms while I was singing to him. Awwww
I am a smart shopper. I got my mom's Mother's Day present, a $72 baking dish, for $46. ;D
Quote from: Julian on May 11, 2012, 11:13:48 PM
I am a smart shopper. I got my mom's Mother's Day present, a $72 baking dish, for $46. ;D
Mothers day.....is that this month?? :o
Quote from: Tom on May 12, 2012, 06:35:48 AM
Mothers day.....is that this month?? :o
UK and US are different dates.
The UK one was back on March 18th.
Going to see the Avengers today! Yay!
And my son is being very cuddly.
My mom just told me not to worry about getting her a Mother's day gift (even though I'm sure my sisters will still make me out to be the bad guy for not doing so)
Thinking about Sailor Moon Yuri Pairings and The Moon Kingdom
Breaking past the $700 mark
My kitten is trying to sleep
The song Rainey Day Man
Quote from: Sephirah on May 11, 2012, 01:12:54 AM
I have that one. I agree with most of his comments. It's nowhere near as good as the second. It's basically shock factor tinged with a bit of the ridiculous.
Although you should watch him and Amanda playing it, she sounds like she's about to die of laughter. ;D
Angry Joe Plays Saints Row 3 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qxn3T-xyUG8#)
Best adult film I've seen lol.
8:22 - 8:34 was the best
This. I've had it on repeat for like half an hour now:
This Mortal Coil - Song to the Siren (1983) (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p1LeXdP9lcM&feature=related#)
One of the most beautiful, haunting songs ever written. Gives me goosebumps listening to it.
Quote from: Sephirah on May 12, 2012, 07:21:47 AM
UK and US are different dates.
The UK one was back on March 18th.
Few! you'd think i'd remember that I got her something in March but no.
I cant WAIT till this course is over, the next two weeks are gunna be hell trying to do all those assignment questions but its going to be OVER!! and that makes me happy haha.
Quote from: Sephirah on May 12, 2012, 08:34:17 AM
This. I've had it on repeat for like half an hour now:
This Mortal Coil - Song to the Siren (1983) (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p1LeXdP9lcM&feature=related#)
One of the most beautiful, haunting songs ever written. Gives me goosebumps listening to it.
OMG, hauntingly beautiful is right!
Went to the farmers market with my mother and got some fabulous food but i wasn't really in the mood to pack/semi-bind. However, i still had someone reffer to me as the "son" of my mother, which really brightened my mood! I think this shirt i'm wearing is magical!!! :D
Even though the blood bank turned me down today due to low iron, I had a good moment there. They verify donor identity by driver's license (or state ID), so I of course had to use my legal name.
The phlebotomist was looking around confused when she called "David" even though I was the only person seated in the waiting area.
She looked doubly confused when I answered to that name. I take this to mean that I must pass better than I realize.
Quote from: Connie Anne on May 12, 2012, 02:33:52 PM
Even though the blood bank turned me down today due to low iron, I had a good moment there. They verify donor identity by driver's license (or state ID), so I of course had to use my legal name.
The phlebotomist was looking around confused when she called "David" even though I was the only person seated in the waiting area.
She looked doubly confused when I answered to that name. I take this to mean that I must pass better than I realize.
Ummm, I thought transpeople couldn't donate because we were on HRT.
No, they've let me donate before.
And, I was up-front about being on HRT. Apparently, it's the iron count and the blood type that really matter.
Two great things happened today.
1: I finally got my surgery letter from Dr. Arnkoff. It is worded sufficiently vaguely I think I can use it to change all my govt markers. Hopefully on Monday I'll be posting here about my new DL and not on the UNhappy thread.
2: Neither my wife or I are extremely social so we only have a small circle of friends. Today we decided to push our comfort zone and go to the PFLAG picnic across the river. At first it was a bit intimidating because so many people weren't there because of work (only 15 maybe total). But then 't was great. Everyone was totally accepting. I was actually passing very well because when one of the mothers sitting with us was talking about her oldest son's transition and then he came over and started talking about it, both they and his younger brother's girlfriend were surprised when I mentioned I was trans as well and recommended some local endos and therapists (although I had to caveat that i didn't know if my endo worked with FTM). We really hit it off with several of the people there and certainly added quite a few at least casual friends.
Finally being able to plant some things in the garden rather than just doing more prep work :)
LOL... One of my neighbors had a couple of her grandchildren for the weekend :laugh: The little girl is at that rather inquisitive age so we played an entertaining round of 21 questions as she played with her grandmother's puppy and I worked in the garden
Finally I began to run out of daylight and the sprinkler system came on so I gathered up my tools and such and started to go in when I hear...
"What are you going to do with those?"
"I'm going to put them away"
"Why?"
"Welluhmmmmmm" :eusa_think: "These are my toys, I have to put them away"
"Why?"
"Don't you have toys?"
"Yes"
"Don't you think it's important to put your toys away when you're through playing with them?"
"Yes"
"Well okay then"
LOL... So feeling satisfied that her questions had been answered she went in to tell her grandmother all about what goes on in the garden :laugh:
I went to a friend's party. :D It was so much fun! I drank and sang and ate cake. XD
Oh, the guy (Alan) from Into the Light Walk is going to be in town all next week! Imma make soap with him and my friend. XD And we're all going to go to dinner and it'll be fun.
juice
Everyday when I take my little blue pills...one in the morning, one in the afternoon. And, when I look in the mirror while wearing a T-shirt...l'il tiny boobers!! About 1 1/2" off the ribs...WOOT!
:)
Having people wishing me a happy mother's day today, apparently less people know I'm trans than I thought.
eggroll
weight lifting
This:
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Quote from: Jeneva on May 14, 2012, 02:25:24 PM
This:
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Congrats! :D
And you look great! :) And your necklace is so cool.
Thanks Liam Erik and Lynn Gabriel! Luckily my vaguely worded orchi letter was good enough.
Jeneva,
Beautiful you, butterfly free to fly, freedom, congratulations :)!
Hugs
Jamie
My friends invited me over for a bbq. :3
pink lemonade
Quote from: Jeneva on May 14, 2012, 02:25:24 PM
This:
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That's awesome, Jeneva. I love the swirlyness of your signature. :D Major congrats, hon. *hug*
Way to go Jeneva!!!
A very big congrats!!!!
A customer gave me a fancy chocolate bar today in appreciation. I'm still not done eating the brownies that another customer brought me the other night though. I'll just have to force myself to eat all that chocolate, I guess.
What made me happy today is thinking about finally graduating & getting my college degree. I gave up & left college back in 2005. I fought my depression & went back to school last year & finally graduated with a criminal justice degree. I'm soo happy! Yay! :)
Well, it was last night, but I had dinner with my ex-wife and kids for mother's day. It was friendly and fun, and a bit bittersweet at the same time.
I'm alive
Nothing
I was asked to be a designer assistant for the production manager for an upcoming feature film- all due to a friend talking up my designs to someone that knew the production manager. Yay!
@danni8891 woot!
@casey woot woot!
transformers
Quote from: casey on May 15, 2012, 01:01:24 PM
*hugs Connie* I'm sorry. I can imagine that it must have been very emotional for you (the bittersweet parts). But I am really glad that it was a friendly atmosphere.
Yeah, especially when I had a quasi-erotic dream about her a few nights before.
I'm still adjusting, and I have to remember that I still have her friendship. That's more than a lot of other people have after a divorce.
Thanks, Casey.
This:
2NE1- Take The World On (NEW SONG 2012) (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=advWN4KjHqY#)
Bring it on Valeo!
My apartment is clean. :D xD And my friend is making dinner tonight.
Did a mini photoshoot of myself lol I'm still a bit fluffy but hey, 40 down 40 more to go :D
Quote from: casey on May 16, 2012, 07:44:24 PM
Congrats! I have about 50 I'd like to lose, so someone losing 40 is a pretty big thing!
It's been a real pain to loose since I gained it all from Depo but I'm determined to get fit again :D
My mother is starting to figure out my mentality...
My kitten finally used the litter box even though I had to throw him in there.
Spent time in the garage at work whenever I got the chance. They had the Lincoln MKZ prototype in there doing headlight adjustments. Looks like a nice car too. well, this one wasn't per se.
The car in the garage:(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Frumors.automobilemag.com%2Ffiles%2F2011%2F11%2F2013-Lincoln-MKZ-profile-spy-shot.jpg&hash=9eb1ee8d993540c37615cf75a631a4673feaacef)
The car when released:
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Also, there's someone working in that department that has me wondering if they are just a Tomboy, Lesbian or FtM. She has a boy's haircut and dresses very much like a male. She doesn't look to be that old but she seems to like cars as much as I do.
I've not asked their name or anything, we've just talked about the car. If she's trans or whatever I'll let her bring it up. *shrugs* no sense poking at something that isn't there or want's to talk about.
Great turn out on a cool evening for the GLBTI vigil outside the homophobes' anti marriage equality forum at the Uni Theatre. I think we had them outnumbered. Even managed to have a conversation with a couple of the fundi's that seemed to make them stop and think for a second.
Karen.
This
http://youtu.be/Q-MTHMTtY38 (http://youtu.be/Q-MTHMTtY38)
Quote from: Malachite on May 17, 2012, 09:49:37 AM
This
http://youtu.be/Q-MTHMTtY38 (http://youtu.be/Q-MTHMTtY38)
That was awesome!
Quote from: Connie Anne on May 17, 2012, 10:02:11 AM
That was awesome!
Seconded. Sometimes kids can really restore your faith in the human spirit. Great video, Malachite, thank you for sharing it.
Paula Deen just said "Onion Goggles". Which reminds me of the time I wore my gasmask to cut onions. And now I'm just laughing at just about every damn thing.
And Radiolab comes on in half an hour *joy*
Quote from: N.Chaos on May 17, 2012, 11:28:39 AM
Paula Deen just said "Onion Goggles". Which reminds me of the time I wore my gasmask to cut onions. And now I'm just laughing at just about every damn thing.
Now I want a gasmask to hang in my kitchen with my apron!
Found a lovely short-ish winter coat with big button and flared out (winter on it's way my side of the world) for an affordable price and the last one in "L" and it fits. Single Breasted Wool Coat With Raglan Shoulder in a nice bright orange colour. To go with it skin tight black corduroy jeans. This out fit looks ever sooo late 60s but with an updated twist. I love it and so it made me happy.
I also got some hiking boots I was wearing today with "stovies" Levis 508, and a lime coloured top. Thank God I was wearing a bra – I might have caused some issues otherwise. I only noticed under down-lighting in the change cubicle! I almost was feeling to create a trend with those Hi-Tech hiking boots :)
All in all, a sort of mid 70s look, when hiking boots and hot-pants, chopped off Levis, were in, and in fact I saw some young girlies wearing just that, with black pantyhose under the hot-pants (it's getting cold as I said) - just the hiking boots were missing, to be ever so totally with it. I could wear it with my figure – alas NOT at my age, quite a pity, eh.
Axélle
I passed for the first time. :)
Quote from: Edge on May 17, 2012, 03:23:02 PM
I passed for the first time. :)
Awesome. :3
I got my placement for student-teaching!
thanks. ;D Congrats on your student teacher position.
Also, my friend went into labour this morning.
The unhappy thread went 24 hours without a post yesterday. That's pretty happy.
I've spent so much time with my friends this week, and I get to go spend more time with more friends this weekend, and next week another friend comes home for the summer, and I love my friends so much.
I didn't wake up alone today.. ;D
Quote from: Sephirah on May 17, 2012, 10:13:17 AM
Seconded. Sometimes kids can really restore your faith in the human spirit. Great video, Malachite, thank you for sharing it.
You are welcome! :) Now imagine if all parents could just teach their kids to love and accept everyone.
What made me happy? Today I got slightly aroused and my bottom half showed for it just a tiny little bit. That's better than nothing. Success....somewhat!
I wiped the floor with my opponent's Bible in a discussion about Marriage and the Bible! Though I am happy to have won with the truth, I feel bad for my opponent even pulling the 'Man and woman only' card. It's kind of a "My Dad can beat up your dad type issue in my eyes.
I finally worked out my sexual preference.. :D
Technically yesterday I guess, I went with one of my elderly lady friends (72) to pick out potted flowers :)
Though she is very nice she is one of the folks who makes a point of using male pronouns for me
While I was re-potting the plants for her I overheard her gasp (as she often does) then say to herself "that is a girl" like it was some great discovery
Haven't heard a pronoun out of her since
Brains and genetics.
Quote from: Malachite on May 19, 2012, 12:58:04 AM
What made me happy? Today I got slightly aroused and my bottom half showed for it just a tiny little bit. That's better than nothing. Success....somewhat!
I think I may be a prude you know because everytime someone says something like that I squirm. But at the same its kinda funny hahah.
This:
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made me happy...again. Im addicted to those ice creams.
This one is banana and nutella with dime bar bits in an oreo cookie cone.
I want another one....
Taking a shower made me pretty happy.
Finding a black skirted one piece swimsuit in my size and in new condition on the 'Free Table' 8) I'm extra happy because I'd been shopping around for one but gave up because they were all to expensive
Quote from: Felix on May 19, 2012, 04:41:14 PM
Taking a shower made me pretty happy.
...
and everyone around you ;)
What me happy was snuggling in my blanket after a long day on my computer. :)
Potting my Pansies, Petunias, Impatiens, Forget Me Nots and a few other flowers :)
My friend drew my fursona for me and I love it so much!
Here is Jinx (http://i21.photobucket.com/albums/b284/Kasei248/Arawn3.jpg)! His fur is actually jet black and his eyes are red. :3
The new saute/frying pans I got on sale yesterday are awesome :) The handle kept falling off of my old faithful pan that was difficult to clean and had started showing signs of rust :P
These new pans are non-stick, cook evenly and clean up easily and I got both the 8" and 10 1/4" for just over the regular price of the larger pan :)
Walked into a hairdressing salon, a very swanky place, went to the counter and asked to talk to a stylist. A guy came over we say down I said I was TG in transition and was sick of wearing wigs could anything be done to my own hair. He said it was a little to short at the moment and we looked at some styles in a 'pixie' look. I'm going back when I have some volume to play with and he gave me a discount to 'encourage' me to come back.
He had no qualms or even a hint of a qualm, he wasn't surprised by anything I said, and was really lovely.
Another step, actually I think I'm jogging by now :laugh:
That would make me happy too.
Way to go!
Quote from: V M on May 21, 2012, 12:26:50 AM
The new saute/frying pans I got on sale yesterday are awesome :) The handle kept falling off of my old faithful pan that was difficult to clean and had started showing signs of rust :P
These new pans are non-stick, cook evenly and clean up easily and I got both the 8" and 10 1/4" for just over the regular price of the larger pan :)
I use cast iron.
No handle problems, unless it's too hot! :o
Quote from: Liam Erik on May 19, 2012, 09:13:05 PM
I refuse to visit the unhappy thread so many times in a row. So here I am. Today, I did not hurt myself. I did not hurt anyone else. All the animals are in good shape except for Rye, whose leg is not broken. There. Positivity.
>:(
Dammit, Liam. You have sheep, man. How can you be unhappy around those things? They're fluffy for chrissake. Fluffy sheep, baby sheep, smelly sheep, good earthy real living mammals. Don't hurt yourself.
Quote from: Jamie D on May 21, 2012, 02:19:07 AM
I use cast iron.
No handle problems, unless it's too hot! :o
That's nice, hurrah for the 1800's
Finding out that a dear friend is in a relationship. If she is not going to be with me, I want her to be with someone who will treat her right.
Karen.
Might sound odd.
I was with my financial advisor, who has known me for years. I'm dressed totally fem, except for the wig. he is a nice guy and a big burly male guy. He never missed a beat. I think I'm getting a hang of this presenting as female stuff. The whole day I was out as me in business situations, wearing feminine clothes and wearing make up and no wig. I saw a few smirks, but no comments. I'm feeling pretty good to be honest.
I had an appointment with Centrelink about my unemployment benefit this morning. I gave the customer service woman my reference number and she looked up my records.. And then asked me why I was trying to pass myself of as someone else.. After getting that sorted out, she looked me in the eye and said, 'I still don't quite believe you..' ;D
Quote from: Cindy James on May 21, 2012, 05:44:28 AM
Might sound odd.
I was with my financial advisor, who has known me for years. I'm dressed totally fem, except for the wig. he is a nice guy and a big burly male guy. He never missed a beat. I think I'm getting a hang of this presenting as female stuff. The whole day I was out as me in business situations, wearing feminine clothes and wearing make up and no wig. I saw a few smirks, but no comments. I'm feeling pretty good to be honest.
It's a good feeling isn't it?
Just ask for the Manager, Kelly. Sometimes they need their backsides kicked until their noses bleed. Unfortunately though the Commonwealth's anti-discrimination legislation doesn't cover us. However, being unjustly accused of attempting to defraud the Commonwealth is a different matter. >:(
Karen.
Quote from: justmeinoz on May 21, 2012, 07:06:06 AM
Just ask for the Manager, Kelly. Sometimes they need their backsides kicked until their noses bleed. Unfortunately though the Commonwealth's anti-discrimination legislation doesn't cover us. However, being unjustly accused of attempting to defraud the Commonwealth is a different matter. >:(
Karen.
The 'I still don't quite believe you..' comment was said in a somewhat amazed voice.. I took it as a compliment..
I heard my mum quacking in the bath the other day and I would have been a bit concerned but I'm used to my mum. So I went in today to discover we have a rubber duck! Plus he lights up in the bath. I was almost tempted to quack myself :D
Really funny and awesome fanfiction. Yes, I'm a fanperson.
Quote from: kelly_aus on May 21, 2012, 05:50:14 AM
I had an appointment with Centrelink about my unemployment benefit this morning. I gave the customer service woman my reference number and she looked up my records.. And then asked me why I was trying to pass myself of as someone else.. After getting that sorted out, she looked me in the eye and said, 'I still don't quite believe you..' ;D
It's a good feeling isn't it?
That made me happy, nice pass, ;D
My last dealings with unemployment went like this, The staff worker was incredibly surly and rude and shoved a stack of paperwork to me, to fill out, i looked at it and went all puppy dog eyed, " I cant do that, I cant read." She had to read and fill out everything. The policy is they have to accomodate the illiterate, she soon knew she'd been had, aint that a dirty trick.
I m happy because my bra seems fuller today!
Quote from: Liam Erik on May 21, 2012, 11:52:36 AM
I lost my cell phone. :D
That makes you happy? *blinks*
I just spent ages looking at the little flags on the back of some packaging wondering why Britain only had one bullet point of information when France, Germany and everywhere else had three. Then I was thinking I'm sure that's the flag for Ireland...really? They've put something in Gaelic? . Then I realised the two bullet points next to the flag for Ireland were actually in English and it just meant people from Britain and Ireland should read those three bullet points >.<
It's good job I find my stupidity hilarious isn't it.
Found a new (to me) song I like.
Staying home.
My son is on the phone with his sister, and I can overhear his end of the conversation. He's trying to talk her into seeing The Avengers with him, and I heard him say:
"Dad and I saw it last night, and she thought of a great way to describe it."
He calls me "Dad" and "she." I love that dichotomy.
That's cool, Connie.
I want to see The Avengers again.
Just sent out 3 job applications. I may not get the jobs, but at least it feels like I'm doing something about my life =)
Getting wolf whistled and such by a car full of college boys :) I figure that they were probably just flattering me because I thought I looked like crap but hey, I'll take it :laugh: It did make me feel a bit better
I got to feed a stray kitty cat, today. I LOVE being able to help animals ;D.
I was able to ask someone where he bought his shorts. I shook for bit beforehand and after, but I did it. Yay conquering extreme shyness! Sort of...
I was also able to smile on a bus full of teenagers. Normally, I glower because I'm shy and teenagers make the shyness worse.
found a two dollar scratch off ticket that was only partially scratched off and it won $50.
My kitten slept with me all day by my side. When I woke up he woke up and both took a bathroom break and got something to drink and now we are back in bed. It may not be a woman beside me but at least I don't feel as lonely.
I can tell when he's had a good sleep because he walked out of bed with a limp like I do. He's okay now.
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I video chatted with Tigger tonight wearing this Mario hat. the 'stache is one of Google Hangout's video effects. I thought my son would get a kick out of this picture too, but deep down, I had to do something silly or I was just going to keep crying about my day. But what caught me off guard was how I don't look like a guy much anymore. I never thought I would say that. I mean even a fake mustache couldn't cut it.
Realising that there are only 6 more days left in this semester. ;D
This also causes a major freak-out too, unfortunately. :o
Karen.
Quote from: casey on May 23, 2012, 10:10:51 PM
Edge - I freaking HATE teenagers. You don't even know. They make me so damn anxious, and then I'm embarrassed because I'm older than them.
I know, right? I don't want to tar them all with the same brush, but I feel like I've got a target on my forehead whenever I'm near them. Especially because I'm older than them, but not old enough to be obviously older than them.
What made me happy was when a stranger held the lift door open and let me in first at the train station and the old age lady that asked me a question on the platform cause she said I have good vide compared to others young people that don't care about no one but them selves, then there are the guys that lend me a hand in the course I'm doing cause I'm a female...
Cheers Tracy
Saw two doctors. First one said surgical site from a few weeks ago is healing nicely, I don't have to come back unless I have problems :) Second said the strange lump on my knee I first noticed last week is a harmless cyst. :)
Quote from: casey on May 23, 2012, 10:10:51 PM
Edge - I freaking HATE teenagers. You don't even know. They make me so damn anxious, and then I'm embarrassed because I'm older than them.
I've been teaching at a high school for over a decade.
My first day teaching, I was so scared. I kept flashing back to the way brash cocky fellow students treated me.
My experience has been surprisingly positive (you can guess, because I'm still there!) I've gotten in touch with how much they're looking to older folk to show them how to be part of the world (though they would deny that if you asked them).
Finding out that
a) My car's going to be a lot cheaper to fix than I was originally thinking, and
b) My amazing brother's willing to pitch in for the cost, since I'm close to broke
Yay cool siblings! ;D
I was in the mens room at Barnes and Noble. A little girl, was, with her dad. I went to use, the stall, in the bathroom. I overheard, the little girl, ask her dad, several times, if, that person was a boy or a girl. That made me very very happy. I am so glad, that, my natural build is feminine. I still, can't wait to do/get HRT!
Whenever I think of teenagers or see them I think back on what it was like to be one. I also think that I'm going to be teaching them next year so they don't really bother me.
_____
I got my first pair of swim trunks! :D
There's actually a couple teenagers on that bus that I wish I could talk to. (Not in a creepy way. They just look interesting.) I'm waaayyy to shy though, so I usually glower at them too. *sigh*
I'm seeing one of my "friends" tomorrow who I haven't seen in a long time.
I'm a girl (mostly) today, dressed like a girl, and although I wasn't completely girl all day, I still felt ok looking like one. :D I also felt ok being one. I think maybe the part I have trouble with is while I'm in the middle of shifting and I think (*fingers crossed*) that it might be getting easier to deal with.
I'm learning to keep my anxiety company instead of trying to push it away - so now when I get anxious, the association I have is that it leads to love instead of distress.
Oh, and I'm going to the bank today to get my account title changed to Ms :).
Quote from: Padma on May 25, 2012, 01:39:17 AM
I'm learning to keep my anxiety company instead of trying to push it away - so now when I get anxious, the association I have is that it leads to love instead of distress.
Sounds pretty zen. I get anxious and it's all HULK SMASH! and lol I feel proud to finally have a bit of spine. I don't actually smash anything, of course. I think stomping around is my personal next stage between curling up in a ball and walking around like a normal person.
It's not zen so much as pragmatism - my anxiety has been making me feel sick for a couple of months now (and feeling sick makes me anxious, and...), so I'm trying to find ways to alleviate that. Fighting it (in my case) just makes it worse - it's like pushing myself away from myself (maybe I'm wired up for flight instead of fight).
I'm proud of myself, because I just cooked a meal that I greatly enjoyed. I definitely would have what I just had again.
I saw someone, like a friend, who, I have not seen in a year and a half. That made me, very happy. Hopefully, he and I will hang out tomorrow.
juice
I got... my letter... to get my gender marker changed! HAHAA! suck on that Valeo! You should have seen the look on the HR rep's face when he read it. It was great. Then I made him photocopy it and put it in my file!
Quote from: Keaira on May 25, 2012, 10:46:28 PM
I got... my letter... to get my gender marker changed! HAHAA! suck on that Valeo! You should have seen the look on the HR rep's face when he read it. It was great. Then I made him photocopy it and put it in my file!
Congratulations, Keaira! This is awesome news!
Quote from: Keaira on May 25, 2012, 10:46:28 PM
I got... my letter... to get my gender marker changed! HAHAA! suck on that Valeo! You should have seen the look on the HR rep's face when he read it. It was great. Then I made him photocopy it and put it in my file!
YAY! Grats Keaira. ;D
I washed my face using a cotton pad and ended up having to pick bits of cotton out of my stubble.
Thank you guys and girls! ^_^
@ Lee: next is being able to light matches with stubble. I never mastered it, but I believe you can :P
Quote from: Keaira on May 25, 2012, 10:46:28 PM
I got... my letter... to get my gender marker changed! HAHAA! suck on that Valeo! You should have seen the look on the HR rep's face when he read it. It was great. Then I made him photocopy it and put it in my file!
So you have to use the female loo, as you are officially female, or you sue them?
Great news
Quote from: Cindy James on May 26, 2012, 03:23:04 AM
So you have to use the female loo, as you are officially female, or you sue them?
Great news
dumb question, but, since I have that letter, Can I tell them to finally chnge my paperwork at my place of employment? I know I still have to go to the Social security office and BMV to get that taken care of, but my HR Rep looked at me afterwards and said, "I don't know if I can legally change your paperwork..."
I don't know the legal requirements in the USA, but if you have a legal letter saying you are female, then you are female. I would normally be a bit cautious but the HR people have been >-bleeped-<s to you. I would be very tempted to give the letter to them, I see you have, and then drop them into a heap of poo. Just tell them you want you gender marker changed, you expect every right to be treated as female, and if there is any contradiction to that, you will instigate proceedings under the sexual discrimination act.
Sweat them.
They deserve it.
I'm writing this under a presumption that there is such an act where you are. Where I am it is very simple, discriminate against me in anyway and they are cactused. But, they can suggest a unisex toilet unless I am full time. But it has to be safe for me, and that means in my opinion. At a minimum it has to be a single stall and I can lock access when I am present.
Keep up the fight Sis
Cindy
Oh honey, I think that I made my point loud and clear today. I will do some things to keep the peace but I am not messing around. I am the only transsexual working there. I am fighting for the next person to who come's out as transsexual, not just my rights.
I realise that Sis.
Just trying to throw in some support
CJ
My iron count was 13.5, and they're letting me donate blood! And even though they verify donor identity via my ID, they're calling me Connie and using feminine pronouns!
Quote from: Cindy James on May 26, 2012, 05:15:36 AM
I realise that Sis.
Just trying to throw in some support
CJ
I know and I am thankful of it. *hugs*
Connie, that's wonderful news to read! I can't donate blood because I was in the UK when they had that Mad Cow disease scare.
PFLAG INTRAA and the Transgender Law Center are now aware of my issue.
It is hot out so I am wearing shorts...and my legs look great.
Ice cream
Quote from: Liam Erik on May 26, 2012, 05:50:35 PM
I watched a video of Dr. Medalie doing a DI top surgery. Pretty straightforward. Yeah, he just skyrocketed to the top of my list.
Was it the one on Youtube? I liked that one and it's pretty cool to see what's probably going to happen to me when I get it. He's second on my list to get it if for some reason Dr. Garramone can't do mine.
I got to see a friend :laugh:. Plus, my rash is no worse, then, last night ;D. Another plus :eusa_clap:
I got inspiration for doing new promo and got it mostly done. I should be able to finish it up tomorrow. I'm really enjoying doing voice work in my new studio and playing different characters, tweaking the pitch to make it sound more masculine or more feminine, etc.
I really love that the new people at work have no idea. Theres this lovely girl I talk to and when she says 'he' I feel so happy because I know she means it and I know that was the first and only pronoun in her head.
D / 鳥籠御殿～L'Oiseau bleu～ | PV in 720p (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FFXfk_g3ll0#)
^ That video has made me very happy. :D
the GazettE The Invisible Wall full PV (HQ) (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ez6NJ2BfP78#)
^ This video also made me very happy....I about died when he licked his finger.
Quote from: Keaira on May 26, 2012, 03:55:40 AM
dumb question, but, since I have that letter, Can I tell them to finally chnge my paperwork at my place of employment? I know I still have to go to the Social security office and BMV to get that taken care of, but my HR Rep looked at me afterwards and said, "I don't know if I can legally change your paperwork..."
I don't know what kind of letter you got. I got my DMV marker changed with a letter from someone on Oregon DMV's list of approved therapists, but I can't get my Social Security marker changed without a letter from a surgeon. I was asked about my gender marker at my doctor's office, but I asked them not to change it because Medicaid told me they were keeping it F unless Social Security switched to M, and anyhow I still have a uterus that needs taking care of.
You might need to just tell your employer what you want and stand your ground. It doesn't sound like they know what they're doing themselves.
Quote from: Arawn Gabriel on May 27, 2012, 07:53:52 PM
D / 鳥籠御殿～L'Oiseau bleu～ | PV in 720p (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FFXfk_g3ll0#)
^ That video has made me very happy. :D
the GazettE The Invisible Wall full PV (HQ) (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ez6NJ2BfP78#)
^ This video also made me very happy....I about died when he licked his finger.
Cool! they look like Characters from the Final Fantasy games. Damn those Japanese and their oh so pretty guys! :P
I went and spent the day with 'Aunty' Dana and a few of our other friends. It was great to spend a day with someone who is also trans and understands the headaches we go though. And then I came home to my wife's fantastic pulled BBQ beef. I'm also enjoying some cherry-lime winecoolers. First time I've touched alcohol in 13 years. I think 1 bottle will be enough though.
Reading various posts here on Susan's has me crying quietly and happily. Thank you friends. I feel loved.
Looking in the mirror when I got up and seeing a women.
Realising I have the power to control my inner snob that gets the better of me sometimes..
Cheers Tracy
The president of INTRAA emailed me last night about the situation with work. Valeo may finally get educated as to what is okay and what isn't as far as Transgender employees go.
I always thought that my grandmother would never accept my transition, but today she called me and when I answered with just an 'hello' she asked if it really was me - and she was using the correct name! :)
Meh, There's a lot of hurt at that plant. And I am still looking elsewhere for work. But I can hope that the next person to transition there has a way smoother ride than I have. That's what matters more to me. Oh, and it would be INTRAA's president herself that would be coming in to talk with HR.
I worry that this will spiral into something bigger though. All this over a place to pee.
Quote from: Keaira on May 28, 2012, 03:24:27 PM
Meh, There's a lot of hurt at that plant. And I am still looking elsewhere for work. But I can hope that the next person to transition there has a way smoother ride than I have. That's what matters more to me. Oh, and it would be INTRAA's president herself that would be coming in to talk with HR.
I worry that this will spiral into something bigger though. All this over a place to pee.
Your looking very nice in your new DP Keaira =]
I hope this all sorts itself out for you.
I'm happy because I'm watching my lord of the rings Blu ray
I just got a "thank you mam" on the phone. I haven't even started working on my voice yet. ;D
Quote from: Tom on May 28, 2012, 03:35:37 PM
Your looking very nice in your new DP Keaira =]
I hope this all sorts itself out for you.
I'm happy because I'm watching my lord of the rings Blu ray
Thank you. ^_^
I trust it is the special collectors edition with all the extra footage, bells and whistles?
I had a bra fitting today, which I've never had, and the fitter said that I was almost wearing the exact right size. That was awesome and made me smile. Also, I have a $50 gift certificate from my mom and dad for my birthday I'm going to spend on FUN STUFF tomorrow :) THAT made me super happy too. Oh, plus my life, I just love my life. Granted, I could be balled up in the fetal position in the bottom of my daybed in a few hours, lol, but for now, for right now, that's where I am.
Quote from: Keaira on May 28, 2012, 03:49:06 PM
Thank you. ^_^
I trust it is the special collectors edition with all the extra footage, bells and whistles?
Your welcome. Yes it's the extended editions if that's what you mean. I was going to get the originals but the Blu ray review wasn't as good, so glad I got these anyways they are loads better. I haven't watched all the extras yet theres so much.
This happened a few days ago, but I'm still happy about it. I've been trying to lose weight for a while now. My target weight is 180. I started at 260 lbs. I went for a weigh in and, low and behold, I've lost a total of 54 pounds! I'm down to 206 with only 24 more lbs to lose.
I've lost nearly three pant sizes and am down to a 14P, so my legs look great and my hips have some measure of feminine definition, even without hormones. Sadly, my upper body isn't keeping up with the program. While I've lost some belly fat, I've got a long way to go, (about 24 lbs).
Also, my wife said last night that I wouldn't have any trouble passing with the right make-up/outfit. She even complimented how I walked in heels. Said I was getting the hang of it. (Only been practicing since I was 12).
We started evolution in class today.
Quote from: casey on May 28, 2012, 06:40:02 PM
That makes me sad, because few people truly understand what evolution actually is. Even if they accept it to be true. Lol.
True. People seem to have some very strange ideas about evolution. (Although if the X-men were possible, that would be awesomely cool. Too bad.) I, however, find it to be a fascinating subject.
Rest assured that I will correct my teacher if need be. I have before. ;D
Oh! Have you ever read Richard Dawkin's
The Ancestor's Tale? I highly recommend it.
I am happy, my rash is improving again ;D!!!
Was it deja vu or a dream come true?
I'm not sure which but it's was great. About 4 years ago, in male mode, I was leaving the mall on a warm, sunny, windy day. Was walking to my car in the parking lot when I say this women with a long flowing summer dress. The wind was lightly blowing the dress. She was free and so feminine. I so wanted to be her; I just couldn't stop watching her until she got into a car.
I had just left a store and was heading for my car.It was a warm, sunny windy day. Today I remembered that incident as my summer dress was blowing in the breezy. I felt so free and feminine.
Was it me all those years ago or a dream come true?
Lol I actually socialized with real, in-person human beings and it wasn't exhausting and didn't cost money. Yay. ;D
My French reading oral exam didn't go too badly. :)
Quote from: justmeinoz on May 29, 2012, 03:42:29 AM
My French reading oral exam didn't go too badly. :)
Have to be careful writing that sentence :laugh: >:-)
Ice cream and cinema ;D
I made a wonderful new friend. She accepts me for who I am.
The test today was extremely easy.
Quote from: Liam Erik on May 28, 2012, 06:26:35 PM
Hey, that's awesome, Athena's Own!
Thank you, Liam.
Successful writing ;D
It was boiling hot so I washed my car and I've gotten much better at rubbing the wax in.
I got 100% on my test again.
I met a really cool guy on the bus. ;D I was too shy to ask for his number though. :embarrassed:
Well, it hasn't happened yet, but later I'll be having dinner with my daughter and then we'll go on to Rainbow Skate.
I went to the dermatologist today. The doctor said, my rash was better :eusa_dance:.
Looked around at Home Depot and picked out things for my bathroom renovations (I am renovating my bathroom and a tenant's). I was feeling pretty good about the choices and the ultimate bottom line as far as how much it's going to cost, though I still have to hear the contractor's estimate for all the baseline stuph like the plumbing, greenwall, etc.
Quote from: Brooke777 on May 29, 2012, 05:22:15 PM
I made a wonderful new friend. She accepts me for who I am.
I'm happy for you =)
QuoteWhat Made You Happy Today?
Being called "ma'am" at the restaurant I went to for lunch.
I went to the city administrative court this morning and showed them the papers I've got from all the three different doctors. First, they still didn't seem to understand what do I want, but in the end I got them understand that I want my social security number to match my real gender and that's why I'm there. Results? I might have the new social security number tomorrow if I'm lucky!
Quote from: Cryss on May 31, 2012, 12:10:24 AM
Being called "ma'am" at the restaurant I went to for lunch.
I can relate to this.
Almost every cis-woman I know hates being called "ma'am." I, however, love it. It's a great feeling.
Spoke with my therapist today she said my voice had dropped loads and my face had almost seemed to change shape, she said 'its more angular now'. We spoke about top surgery and shes booked me in to have my first approval in July, then I will need a second from someone else and then I will be referred. She said everything should be done roughly by nov/dec. Very exciting.
Just got off the phone with my 4 year old nephew and we were talking about power rangers. I asked him if I could be the red power ranger and he said, "no you're not a man yet." I ask him what did he said just to clarify and he said again, "No you are not a man yet."
I love how he added yet to the end. He probably knows more than he's letting on and mind you I really haven't even told him I was trans or that I want to be a boy. Heck I don't even dress like a male.
Quote from: Casey on May 31, 2012, 03:19:40 PM
That's awesome Tom!! ;D I can't wait for my referral for top, although I'll probably wait ages. Canada's health system covers it (does the NHS?), but because of that I'll likely have my surgery years after the referral.
Well yeah the NHS covers it and im not having to wait very long so maybe you wont either?
Quote from: Malachite on May 31, 2012, 07:06:08 PM
Just got off the phone with my 4 year old nephew and we were talking about power rangers. I asked him if I could be the red power ranger and he said, "no you're not a man yet." I ask him what did he said just to clarify and he said again, "No you are not a man yet."
I love how he added yet to the end. He probably knows more than he's letting on and mind you I really haven't even told him I was trans or that I want to be a boy. Heck I don't even dress like a male.
Oh and I wanted to add that if your talking about the 'mighty morphin power rangers' and not all the wannabes that came after then the blue was clearly the best ;D
Your nephew is one smart dude.
Quote from: Tom on May 31, 2012, 07:57:03 PM
Oh and I wanted to add that if your talking about the 'mighty morphin power rangers' and not all the wannabes that came after then the blue was clearly the best ;D
Your nephew is one smart dude.
Lol if I had to choose then I would certainly have been the blue one. I just said red because I know he would want to be red. I did tell him that I wanted to be the "old school" power rangers like you mentioned. I showed him how the original power rangers were like and he told me he wanted to be both the old and new power rangers. He was even surprised to see different power rangers back then.
Quote from: Malachite on May 31, 2012, 08:10:01 PM
Lol if I had to choose then I would certainly have been the blue one. I just said red because I know he would want to be red. I did tell him that I wanted to be the "old school" power rangers like you mentioned. I showed him how the original power rangers were like and he told me he wanted to be both the old and new power rangers. He was even surprised to see different power rangers back then.
It was so cool! it was my favourite show....hmm im gunna go watch the opening theme..
I am happy, I get to help, a very good friend this weekend. It is the least, I can do, since, they have done so so so so so so much for me!
I wrote a poem.
Not a very good one, but I'm happy I wrote it. :)
Sephirah, do share. I love poetry.
Okay, I'll post it in the poetry section when I've thought of a title for it. :)
A PFLAG family member sent me, KNOW YOUR RIGHTS: EMPLOYMENT DISCRIMINATION AND TRANSGENDER PEOPLE, in pdf form. and after browsing it, Valeo is violating 3 of my rights. And I have it in black and white. :D
I was talking to my brother about a bundle of indie games that I was thinking of getting, and this evening I opened my email to find that he bought it for me. The bad news is that I no longer have an excuse to not play Amnesia...
Quote from: Lee on June 01, 2012, 02:50:56 AM
I was talking to my brother about a bundle of indie games that I was thinking of getting, and this evening I opened my email to find that he bought it for me. The bad news is that I no longer have an excuse to not play Amnesia...
Play it with company.
I've heard it's a lot less frightening of a game then, if that's what you're concerned about at least.
Quote from: Casey on June 01, 2012, 12:51:02 AM
Hm, well, I know that for one doctor they said the waiting list was 3 years!! But then it turned out, as I heard from a local guy, this doctor isn't taking any more FTM patients because he's so overloaded. So I'll mention that at my appointment and see if they can send me to someone else with a shorter wait.
I think I'll ask for the hysto referral at the same time, since they'll likely end up spread apart.
Well I don't know anything about your health system but I know according to 'gires' if you can find a cheaper option abroad sometimes the NHS will fund that.
Getting a good pass on my French conversation test. Coming out to my lecturer and getting a supportive response, and having a a great night with two lesbian friends at our favourite pub. Having a great Chilli Prawn Risotto there, and having to get a taxi home rather than driving.
All in all not a bad end to the Semester!
Quote from: Sephirah on May 31, 2012, 11:02:47 PM
Okay, I'll post it in the poetry section when I've thought of a title for it. :)
That is really good. It makes me feel so many things at once. It is beautiful. Thank you.
Cheese tortellini for breakfast
Yeah, I might have to put my cat on guard duty. If all else fails, not being able to sleep would give me extra time to study.
What made me happy today was a new shirt that makes me look flat as a board and wide through the shoulders. ;D I may leave it on permanently.
I just weighed myself. 4lbs away from my goal weight.
Getting caught up on work and actually had time to clean my bench off a bit...now I Have room to set more stuff on it, lol
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My favorite work attire when it's 95 degrees in the shop...ugh
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Queen. Live in Budapest on MTV.
Oh Lordy I miss that band and I miss Freddie
Queen is playing right now on MTV? That's probably with the digital Freddie Mercury. I love & miss Freddie! I don't have MTV but maybe I can look around on the internet channel.
Sorry yes it was obviously a recording. I'm in Australia so the programming would be different as well.
He held a stage as no other artist I have ever seen.
Quote from: Cindy James on June 02, 2012, 02:50:11 AM
Sorry yes it was obviously a recording. I'm in Australia so the programming would be different as well.
He held a stage as no other artist I have ever seen.
Yes, I agree. Freddie Mercury was awesome! ;D
Human biology, kangaroo rats, old (and really really bad) comic books, and cumin.
And lol, antidepressants. They probably add a little to the happy. ;D
Quote from: Cindy James on June 02, 2012, 02:39:14 AM
Queen. Live in Budapest on MTV.
Oh Lordy I miss that band and I miss Freddie
Have you seen Queen live at Wembley? I have it on DVD well worth the money. Although my favourite song is bicycle race and it never gets played.
Today I went to costa's with my mum and the woman came to clean the table and said to me
'is that your tea love?' so my mum replied no for me and she said 'oh I wasnt sure if it was the young mans because he was playing with his thingy' LOL she meant my phone >.<
Quote from: Casey on June 02, 2012, 06:28:27 PM
;D Nice pass!
My dog finally learned how to jump on my bed.
Thanks mate
When I walked up to the counter at my favorite cafe in Redwood City, the barista asked, "The usual, Connie?"
Quote from: Casey on June 02, 2012, 06:28:27 PM
My dog finally learned how to jump on my bed.
Imagining this made me laugh.
I heard an acapella version of the Doctor Who theme at my favorite cafe.
Playing the Wii with my son
And having a beautiful conversation (via email) with a wonderful friend.
This:
Invictus
by William Ernest Henley
Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.
What can I say, I have a weakness for poetry. :) Especially poetry which resonates with me.
Here's one guy, who's gender is legally male now!
Already ordered a new ID, there was just too many people at police station, but I waited with a big grin on my face and I'm quite sure my smile made the day for other people, too! :police:
Quote from: Sephirah on June 04, 2012, 12:39:48 AM
This:
Invictus
by William Ernest Henley
Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.
What can I say, I have a weakness for poetry. :) Especially poetry which resonates with me.
"Invictus" is my favourite poem. :)
Quote from: jokkemies on June 04, 2012, 08:57:22 AM
Here's one guy, who's gender is legally male now!
Already ordered a new ID, there was just too many people at police station, but I waited with a big grin on my face and I'm quite sure my smile made the day for other people, too! :police:
I was so happy when this happened for me too.
Congrats bro!
The prospect of spending my morning drawing ;D
Quote from: Your Humble Savant on June 04, 2012, 11:14:27 AM
The prospect of spending my morning drawing ;D
What are you drawing?
My best friend whom I have known since we were six is kind of a redneck. He lives and works on his family's ranch. Last night I sent him an email outing myself. I just got an email from his fiance letting me know that he read my email, and is accepting. He hasn't replied yet because he is distracted with his mom who has cancer. She also said that the look forward to seeing me at their wedding in August. She then said that she just wanted to let me know, because she knows that as a woman I am probably stressing out waiting for a reply. She referred to me as a woman. I am so happy right now.
Quote from: Brooke777 on June 04, 2012, 01:54:21 PM
My best friend whom I have known since we were six is kind of a redneck. He lives and works on his family's ranch. Last night I sent him an email outing myself. I just got an email from his fiance letting me know that he read my email, and is accepting. He hasn't replied yet because he is distracted with his mom who has cancer. She also said that the look forward to seeing me at their wedding in August. She then said that she just wanted to let me know, because she knows that as a woman I am probably stressing out waiting for a reply. She referred to me as a woman. I am so happy right now.
Wow glad that went well for you
I got a thank you, for, helping a dear friend. Apparently, all went ;D. I do not need a thanks, from them, as I love to help them.
Somehow I got it in my head that I only had maybe $100 or $200 in my bank account. Turns out I had about $850. I was struggling to come up with money to pay bills. Turns out it was not really an issue. Don't know how I got the numbers screwed up in my head.
Now I am even more happy. I just spoke to my best friend and he was actually more shocked that I thought this was going to hurt our friendship than he was with me becoming a woman. He is completely supportive. I am so happy, I am almost in tears.
Quote from: jokkemies on June 04, 2012, 08:57:22 AM
Here's one guy, who's gender is legally male now!
Already ordered a new ID, there was just too many people at police station, but I waited with a big grin on my face and I'm quite sure my smile made the day for other people, too! :police:
Congratulations! It is such a thrill to get the correct ID.
I got my license a few weeks back, but just today I had another surprise as my passport arrived with a F and it is a regular valid for 10 years one so I'm all set now.
Just finished one of my classes, so I started a new one today. Apparently I finished second in my class- first place went to a student who was re-taking the class after he had to drop out. So I'm just number 2 out of 12 students, but still. ^_^
Quote from: Tom on June 04, 2012, 11:25:49 AM
What are you drawing?
D&D maps based on the Pokémon multiverse.
Quote from: Your Humble Savant on June 05, 2012, 03:29:08 PM
D&D maps based on the Pokémon multiverse.
That sounds cool :)
I watched some more Game of Thrones it's getting so interesting but I only have 2 more episodes left to watch and it will be the end of season 2.
I talked to my school councillor about living out as genderfluid. She is very supportive. I think I can do this.
Dr. Doom, Loki, and Magneto.
I went to a TG support group for the first time, and they mistook me for an ftm pre-T. I took it as a complimant since I am mtf pre-anything.
I got my name changed!!!
Got all company bookkeeping taken care of, wired funds for BA on the 26th and wrote an awesome new tune :)
Video game price drops
The thought of he-who-must-not-be-named getting wiped out in November
Finishing and printing the 2 pages of notes I can take into my Gender Studies exam, and printing them in 8 point font so they actually all fitted in. Due to the need to reference our selected readings we already had the exam questions.
One exam virtually done and dusted. :)
It's my 21st birthday :D, which means in the US that I'm finally a full adult and am old enough to do whatever I want. I viewed the transit of Venus, got my driver's license renewed (now it's oriented horizontally instead of vertically; I wonder how many places besides Illinois do that), had cake and presents with my nuclear family, and went out for drinks and tater tots with friends from high school. My sister referred to me both in her birthday card and her facebook status as her sibling rather than her sister, which happies me a great deal. All in all, it was a wonderful day. I'm still rather tipsy, which doubtless adds to the general cheer I'm feeling. :P
Congratulations and Happy Birthday Julian. Sounds like a great day all round. :)
Karen.
I put some pink (well, the bottle says "magenta," but whatever) nail polish on my toes- it definitely suits me better than the red I got before.
Quote from: Casey on June 06, 2012, 01:11:08 AM
Happy Birthday!! *hug* Cake for Julian:
Ahaha cake! *huggg* Thanks, Casey!
Quote from: justmeinoz on June 06, 2012, 01:12:15 AM
Congratulations and Happy Birthday Julian. Sounds like a great day all round. :)
Karen.
Thanks, Karen! It was wonderful.
For the first time in years I feel like I'm both comfortable with and capable of dealing with life. It's been weird having a week or so of living beyond just existing.
Quote from: Jamie D on June 05, 2012, 11:44:04 PM
The thought of he-who-must-not-be-named getting wiped out in November
Voldemort?
Two new books I'm getting today and Tesla from Sanctuary.
It was last night, but I went out to dinner with my 2 adult kids and my ex-wife to celebrate being on HRT for 1 year.
It was my treat, as I invited them. But I paid with my debit card, which still says "David." When the server brought the little folder back with the receipt to sign and my card, she set the folder next to my son, the only male in evidence at the table.
We all had a good laugh about that.
Quote from: Your Humble Savant on June 05, 2012, 03:29:08 PM
D&D maps based on the Pokémon multiverse.
Ah, this and the MtG cake... You folks are so delightfully nerdy. I just want to have a big group nerd hug!
Was building a list of an order for bathroom renovations at Home Depot yesterday and the final bill seemed high to me, but I just kind of shrugged and figured "that's how it goes". The delivery came this morning and was messed up. Lots of missing or wrong items. I'm sure it will all get cleared up. However, the biggest boo-boo was that they seemed to have billed us in two places for whole boxes of tile rather than the individual tiles. So like, in one case where I ordered 36 sq ft tiles, they billed for 36 BOXES of those tiles.
The reason I'm happy about this is it means my total bill is going to drop by over $1000. That makes me happy. My contractor says he's also going to squeeze some extra goodies out of them for screwing up our order so badly and wasting his time (time which I'm paying for).
The endo clinic just called. Instead of waiting till the end of July to get in, I now have an appointment Friday morning.
Got a beautiful LARGE bunch of pretty flowers, belated for my birthday FROM A MAN - and some nice chocolates, plus a tasty 4 course meal.
It may be quite usual for many women my age to have experienced such - for me, it is a FIRST and I feel chuffed to bits, am over the moon... :)
Happy, really happy,
Axélle
I was trying to tell my mother about the various types of dreams that I've had within the past few years and weeks and she told me that I need to see a psychologist and I immediately asked her if she would take me to see one and she repied, "if I had the money I would".
A lovely friend of mine found out today that he graduated from university with a first class degree with distinction, the highest honour my university offers. Can't stop smiling. :D
Geeking out over Sanctuary and their version of Tesla.
I put together a demo video of my lightsaber animations and designs.
Animation and Design Demo video (Lightsabers) (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U_Jk0lrPovU&feature=plcp#)
EDIT:
Forgot to add, in Valeo's daily newsletter today was news that on Friday, EVERYONE has to attend a training class about sexual harassment. Honestly I'm laughing my butt off because I'm pretty sure I've stirred up a hornets nest in HR, now that they can't hide behind a difference in the legal system of 2 countries. It was always "As long as your legal name on your social security car has your old name you have to answer to that name as well. right now, Keaira is just a preferred name."
Add to the fact that my HR rep met with members from PFLAG and INTRAA, it's getting interesting.
Keaira those animations are impressive! :)
I am happy because I spun my car, slid off the road, and came to rest what had to be less than an inch from a tree. I could clearly see damage to the tree, and in fact I was so sure I'd hit the tree against my front wing that I thought "right well my car is smashed, it's done and I might as well keep going." i refused get out for a look.
When I got home I walked slowly round to the other side of the car, peering through my fingers so afraid of what I'd see, then....NOTHING! Lots of dirt and grass everywhere, but not a dent! Yayyyyyy!! ;D
As for the damaged tree, apparently it was hit by someone else....and if you ask me it right deserved it. Bloody tree jumped out of nowhere!
Quote from: Brooke777 on June 06, 2012, 10:43:21 AM
The endo clinic just called. Instead of waiting till the end of July to get in, I now have an appointment Friday morning.
I saw my endo today. Pending a new batch of "baseline" blood tests, I can start over with my hrt.
It is a step back nine months, but also a step in the right direction.
I'm happy that I gave a really solid crap on Boers and Bernstein's Who Ya Crappin' segment today when crapping New York City Mayor Michael Bloomberg. He really deserved getting this crap.
The sound of the wind. It's so calming.
I have been introduced to a show about non-humans and a safe place for them to go where they don't have to hide. Two of the characters are Jack the Ripper who is a teleporter and Nikola Tesla who (in this show) is a mad scientist vampire with electrical and magnetic powers who wants to take over the world. And it works.
Quote from: Jamie D on June 07, 2012, 03:13:11 PM
I saw my endo today. Pending a new batch of "baseline" blood tests, I can start over with my hrt.
It is a step back nine months, but also a step in the right direction.
Congrats Jamie. I hope it goes well for you.
Scooter.
And I can't, for the life of me, figure out what it is about his tracks that makes me happy. But every time I hear one I end up with the biggest smile on my face and just feel... good. Like the following one. I've listened to it about four times now and I just end up grinning like an idiot for no apparent reason.
Most of his tracks make no sense whatsoever, being over-the-top, sometimes cheesy euro-dance with only the vaguest attempt at coherent MC lyrics, backed by often synthesised covers of more traditional songs - but maybe that's the point.
What other MC do you know that comes up with stuff like: "It's not a bird, it's not a plane, it must be Dave, who's on the train!" It's just... crazy, but crazy in an innocent, bubbly way.
Emotional, powerful stuff has its place but tracks like these are just... fun, bouncy and infectious. I mean look at the title, lol. Also it has b>-bleeped-<ipes in, and for some bonkers reason it actually works (although I somehow doubt the girls scantily clad in tartan micro-skirts are actually playing them, but still). It seems to be a typically over-the-top homage to Lord Of The Dance. Frankly, it's brilliant. And it made me feel really good.
Scooter - The Sound Above My Hair (Extended Video Mix) (Official Video HQ) (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wTz_rJMBTe8&feature=relmfu#)
I am starting HRT today!!!!!!!!! Aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!
Quote from: Brooke777 on June 07, 2012, 07:47:42 PM
Congrats Jamie. I hope it goes well for you.
Thanks, Brooke. It has been a struggle the past (nearly) three months.
Quote from: Brooke777 on June 08, 2012, 12:12:01 PM
I am starting HRT today!!!!!!!!! Aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!
And congratulations are in order as well.
Quote from: Brooke777 on June 08, 2012, 12:12:01 PM
I am starting HRT today!!!!!!!!! Aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!
Woooooo! Let's have a virtual party! Sephirah can bring Scooter for us to dance too. I'm not going to dance though I'm just going to sit looking cool with a coke 8) or......I could just say congrats lol
I have no idea what has made me happy, but I tend to be happy most days and that's fine by me =]
Thank you both. I am so excited. The doctor started me on E, P, and AAs. I was kind of surprised because I go through the VA, the endo has worked with over 30 MTFs, and has a very good understanding of what I need.
Congrats Brooke ;D That's great that you can work with an experienced endo
Quote from: Sephirah on June 08, 2012, 10:07:07 AM
Scooter.
And I can't, for the life of me, figure out what it is about his tracks that makes me happy. But every time I hear one I end up with the biggest smile on my face and just feel... good. Like the following one. I've listened to it about four times now and I just end up grinning like an idiot for no apparent reason.
Most of his tracks make no sense whatsoever, being over-the-top, sometimes cheesy euro-dance with only the vaguest attempt at coherent MC lyrics, backed by often synthesised covers of more traditional songs - but maybe that's the point.
What other MC do you know that comes up with stuff like: "It's not a bird, it's not a plane, it must be Dave, who's on the train!" It's just... crazy, but crazy in an innocent, bubbly way.
Emotional, powerful stuff has its place but tracks like these are just... fun, bouncy and infectious. I mean look at the title, lol. Also it has b>-bleeped-<ipes in, and for some bonkers reason it actually works (although I somehow doubt the girls scantily clad in tartan micro-skirts are actually playing them, but still). It seems to be a typically over-the-top homage to Lord Of The Dance. Frankly, it's brilliant. And it made me feel really good.
Scooter - The Sound Above My Hair (Extended Video Mix) (Official Video HQ) (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wTz_rJMBTe8&feature=relmfu#)
Wow! I've never seen the lead singer but he looks just like how I thought he would look. I think they are driving in I think is in a German or Bavarian town, based on the buildings there.
I filed for my name change today. Hearing is for this Tuesday, 930am. Should be in and out in under 10 minutes, according to the clerk.
Very happy.
:)
I went out with some people I'm not out to, and a guy started wondering about how bottom surgery works for ftms. A girl launched into a very good description of what hormones do and the types of surgeries. He was interested and respectful. I was impressed.
I put up a new "bigger-deeper" pool for this summer! 18ft x 48"
Just in time as this week is gonna be in the 90's and we wont see a drop of rain till October here :)
neighbors?? I dont see any neighbors...swimwear is anything we may or may not want to wear ;) But I am working on a proper "bikini tan" this summer :)
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Flipping through the TV channels, I found the Les Miserables 25th anniversary concert. Now I'm geeking out and singing along. I'd forgotten how much I love this show.
A colleague said this to another person on our table about me after I described how lazy I am.
'he's exactly like every other lad his age isn't he' *laugh*
Made me smile.
Well, I hope I'm not stealing my daughter's thunder (she's known here as Your Humble Savant), but I found out today that's she's engaged!
I like and accept myself today and it feels amazingly good.
Quote from: Keaira on June 05, 2012, 05:10:43 PM
I got my name changed!!!
SWEET! I've not been around enough and I'm trying to catch up but had to stop for this. I'm so happy for you Keaira. :)
Thinking about this video I watched yesterday:
Star Trek + Nine Inch Nails = Closer (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3uxTpyCdriY#)
I've always had a Spock fetish. :angel:
My chest hurts. This is a good thing.
We had the first meal in our makeshift kitchen since the water damage was cleaned up. Still a long way to go, but at least we can cook at home now. Shannon cooked a brisket in the oven and I made whipped potatoes. Then we microwaved a steamer bag of green beans and lightly toasted the fresh bread.
Unfortunately beef often bothers our tummies now since we don't eat it often. So I decided to have a cup of mint tea to help sooth it. As it was steeping it occurred to me that this is the first cup of spearmint tea I've had since my orchi and it just made me so happy to know that I didn't have to care if it was a weak anti-androgen or not. I still need to have GCS, but it will be a while and for now I'm going to celebrate what I've done instead of what I still need.
Quote from: Jeneva on June 10, 2012, 07:09:04 PM
We had the first meal in our makeshift kitchen since the water damage was cleaned up. Still a long way to go, but at least we can cook at home now. Shannon cooked a brisket in the oven and I made whipped potatoes. Then we microwaved a steamer bag of green beans and lightly toasted the fresh bread.
Unfortunately beef often bothers our tummies now since we don't eat it often. So I decided to have a cup of mint tea to help sooth it. As it was steeping it occurred to me that this is the first cup of spearmint tea I've had since my orchi and it just made me so happy to know that I didn't have to care if it was a weak anti-androgen or not. I still need to have GCS, but it will be a while and for now I'm going to celebrate what I've done instead of what I still need.
What is brisket? Yes I could look it up, but getting it first hand is better
Spending the afternoon with a couple of Lesbian friends talking gay and girl talk including filling them in on some details of transition that they were interested in. It's great to be treated as one of the girls.
Might have shocked the old biddys at the next table if they overheard, but I think my friends having a pash might have given the game away. :laugh:
One of the waitresses had a bit of an attitude to dykes. One of the other waitresses is a fellow Uni student and that made up for it, nice to catch up outside class. A great afternoon. :)
Karen.
Karen
It is 3C here in the mornings
Ahhh
That should make you happy.
hugs
Cindy
It was about 8 in Hobart this morning, but got a lot colder on my hill. Cold ride down to the Uni for 1st exam this morning . I am still waiting for the snow on the top of the hill I am on. Apparently it does happen.
Kaz.
Quote from: Cindy James on June 11, 2012, 02:09:03 AM
What is brisket? Yes I could look it up, but getting it first hand is better
Basically it is a cheap cut of beef because of it's potential for toughness, but if it is cooked properly (low and slow) it rivals both a nice roast cut or even a steak. We usually smoke it in the charcoal grill, but our oven has a temp probe so we can cook it low and slow in the electric oven too. We didn't have enough time for the grill so it was oven yesterday. That one flat cut brisket will feed all four of us all week meat wise (roast style yesterday, and then open faced roast sandwiches, cottage pie, stir fry....)
Since we've got the kitchen back I'm on my 1600cal diet again, but I ate just my breakfast and lunch oatmeal and skipped my snacks so I could allocate enough for a nice 800 calorie plate.
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From wikipedia
Brisket is a cut of meat from the breast or lower chest of beef or veal. The beef brisket is one of the nine beef primal cuts. The brisket muscles include the superficial and deep pectorals. As cattle do not have collar bones, these muscles support about 60% of the body weight of standing/moving cattle. This requires a significant amount of connective tissue, so the resulting meat must be cooked correctly to tenderize the connective tissue.
This lady made me smile today. What an inspiration she is to all ages. Looks at the shoulders on that septuagenarian!
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Seeing my daughter's reply to my FB status update about her engagement:
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MY DADDY IS THE COOLEST DADDY; she's gonna wear a tux to my wedding ^^
Yeah, I'll be wearing a tux. And full makeup, and heels, and my breastforms.
Quote from: Connie Anne on June 11, 2012, 09:13:56 AM
Seeing my daughter's reply to my FB status update about her engagement:
Yeah, I'll be wearing a tux. And full makeup, and heels, and my breastforms.
This is something to smile about for sure. I am happy for you.
Seeing Catherine Sarah back
;D
My new.... SOCIALSECURITYCARDCAMEINTHEMAIL!!! WOOOHOOO! KISS MY BUTT VALEO AND HR, GET READY TO CHANGE A LOT OF DOCUMENTS!!
And yes, I jumped up and down with joy.
Quote from: Malachite on June 11, 2012, 11:58:35 AM
Seeing Catherine Sarah back
;D
Yeah, it's good to see her back.
Quote from: Keaira on June 11, 2012, 12:23:15 PM
My new.... SOCIALSECURITYCARDCAMEINTHEMAIL!!! WOOOHOOO! KISS MY BUTT VALEO AND HR, GET READY TO CHANGE A LOT OF DOCUMENTS!!
And yes, I jumped up and down with joy.
That's awesome, Kearia!
Having lunch with Dad/discussing my new engagement :3
OMG OMG OMG OMG !!! I won tickets to Artists Den taping @ Bimbo's in San Francisco next week !!
"LIVE FROM THE ARTISTS DEN: THE WALLFLOWERS
Private concert and TV taping. You and a guest have been selected to attend a private Artists Den concert taping"
Quote from: Keaira on June 11, 2012, 12:23:15 PM
My new.... SOCIALSECURITYCARDCAMEINTHEMAIL!!! WOOOHOOO! KISS MY BUTT VALEO AND HR, GET READY TO CHANGE A LOT OF DOCUMENTS!!
And yes, I jumped up and down with joy.
Congrads ;D
My average mark for my class is 98%! Woohoo! I'm smart!
I also met my new neighbour who is really cool and has a lot in common with me.
Congrats, Keaira!
Got home earlier than expected and found a penny.
I got a printout of some of my stats from my exam today.
Height: 165.10cm ( 5.416666666667ft)
Blood Pressure: 130/64
BMI:30.7 kg/m2
Weight: ummm.. yes, I weigh something
So I'm 5'4 now... when did that happen? o.O
My endo increased my Estradiol dosage again.
Some guy called me ma'am as I was leaving for hell... err.. work. He was handing out Aaron's rental store catalogues. Guess I pass just fine. ^_^
Fantastic thing to find in the mail Connie! ;D
Picking up my Biology Prac Book and finding that so far all my class work has been marked 85%. If I can do well on my exam on Friday I could be looking at a HD!
My son was cuddly this morning. :)
THIS!
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makes a nice Before/After comparison actually. ^_^
Even looks like you, which is a first for that sort of thing! Great news.
Sex. Oh wait no I just imagined that. ;D
I'm pretty happy for Keaira. That photo is such a milestone.
Just found an old giftcard in a xmas card.....bought some killer boots. :P (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.smakynet.com%2Fimages%2Fhello.gif&hash=4eb1a6f8f195c3402626816cdf7ba516b213b544)
Quote from: Keaira on June 14, 2012, 03:35:53 AM
THIS!
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makes a nice Before/After comparison actually. ^_^
A very nice comparison indeed!
Thank you. ^_^
What was really funny was they changed my computer login details yesterday too, but didn't tell me. So when I tried my old name/password combo and couldn't get in. I tried with my new name and it worked.
A couple of friends have said if they had met me today for the first time, they would have maybe thought that he was my brother. I even think the new picture makes me look younger than in the first. lol
Last night, I had a chat with Doshia, AKA Momma Bear,my former friend. She says she doesn't want to know about the person I was before transition. she was tired of hearing about him. We talked for a while, but I think things are good again. I hope.
went on a little shopping trip yesterday, found a couple cute skirts and a sundress to wear on these hot California days/evenings.
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got a little early morning sun before heading off to work....no customer appointments today so its "wear whatever" day here :)
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I like the skirt in the middle. I'd pick that too. ^_^
Quote from: Keaira on June 14, 2012, 12:39:32 PM
I like the skirt in the middle. I'd pick that too. ^_^
thanx...its so comfy!! cant wait to wear the sundress, maybe tonight, with a margarita on the deck watching the sunset!
btw Keaira...big congrats on the name tag!! thats a nice badge pic :)
Quote from: Felix on June 14, 2012, 05:13:52 AM
Sex. Oh wait no I just imagined that. ;D
Me too! I had a damp dream, something I don't get very often. It was pleasant, though I was a little disappointed when I realized it was a dream and the str8 guy I was crushing on wasn't actually into me for no logical reason.
Quote from: dalebert on June 14, 2012, 01:40:23 PM
Me too! I had a damp dream, something I don't get very often. It was pleasant, though I was a little disappointed when I realized it was a dream and the str8 guy I was crushing on wasn't actually into me for no logical reason.
I find it annoying that I never have sex dreams....or even just 'I fancy you and you fancy me back' dreams. No my dreams are the sort of things that I'd expect someone who was high to imagine. They are sort of always a bit Alice in wonderland-ish .
My ps1 finally came yey! I've been playing Spyro for quite a while. Bust-a-move got broke in the post so I'm hoping the dude will let me have FIFA 99 and railroad tycoon as replacements seen as he said I could have 2.
Kitties!
Even better, they're not mine so I don't have to deal with cleaning up after 'em. Sorry I don't have pics yet. Forgot to bring my phone charger to my sister's apartment and my phone's too dead to use the camera.
And congrats, Keaira. That's a hell of a before/after change.
Stir fried chicken and brocoli has made me happy today.
Quote from: Malachite on June 14, 2012, 05:52:25 PM
Stir fried chicken and brocoli has made me happy today.
I could live off stir fry.
A good friend on here. They know who they are. Oh, and my boobs jiggle now.
Quote from: Casey on June 14, 2012, 09:01:33 PM
I could live off stir fry.
Same here. I may just do that eventually. That's pretty much all I ever want.
And there's just so many ways to make it.
Quote from: Casey on June 14, 2012, 09:13:06 PM
And there's just so many ways to make it.
Indeed and because of that it won't get boring real quick.
Knowing that I'm not quite as bent and stuffed up as others I see
Rereading old pages of this thread. Brooke's arc in particular is pretty triumphant.
Also I'm sleepy and warm.
VM, these boots made me think of you :)
Is this what good Texans where in the summer?
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Quote from: Michelle G on June 15, 2012, 01:38:16 AM
VM, these boots made me think of you :)
Is this what good Texans where in the summer?
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Possibly, but I'd have no idea really :laugh: I grew up in So. Calif. but live in the Northwest now
Quote from: Malachite on June 14, 2012, 09:15:34 PM
Indeed and because of that it won't get boring real quick.
Are they good for you?
I'm watching airline, always funny
I am snuggly in front of the heater with my kitten. :)
I had a job interview this morning. I think it went pretty well. We'll see how I did when they call me next week.
Today I jumped around and played outside with my daughter and I actually managed to not get hurt. ;D
I'm off to a pop culture convention tomorrow, and I am about to sit down, relax and play Resident Evil: ORC. ;D
realizing how far I have come in so short a time. I think it was around this time last year that I started using the womens restrooms at work.
So, I know I posted these in another thread but it made me smile.
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Big change indeed Keaira. :)
Euro History exam done and dusted, think I might have done fairly well.
Then lunch and a wander around Salamanca Market with friends from the other end of the state I haven't seen for a while. Home for a 'nanna nap', exams are mentally exhausting, then watched Australia defeat Wales in the Rugby. All round great day.
Karen.
Quote from: Casey on June 16, 2012, 05:27:08 AM
;D Quite the change! You went from a very handsome "man" to a very beautiful lady. :)
Aww. Casey you're so sweet.
Quote from: justmeinoz on June 16, 2012, 07:18:22 AM
Big change indeed Keaira. :)
It's funny, I look at the two pictures and they look different, but yet not so much. I don't know how to explain what I see. lol
Sounds like you had a busy and fruitful day Karen ^_^
Creature comforts. Food, music, a nice shower, books.
Oh yes, Good music, food and a nice shower are def. the things that 'Feel good' stuff is made of :)
Neve Campbell in a movie. :) She's so cute, every time she does that little smile everything inside me gets all mixed up and happy.
Hi. I'm pretty new around here, but I love this conversation. There is never a shortage of things that make me happy. Today? My spouse and I spent the morning drinking coffee and chatting about joy, happiness and bliss in our covered patio. We stopped by our favorite thrift store and found a brand new croquet set for 10 bucks, a beautiful 4 by 6 carpet for our front porch dirt cheap among many other cool things. My spouse made the most amazing, delicious SUPER spicy veggie burgers ever! I ate beautiful sweet strawberries fresh from our garden until I was almost sick (but not quite.) I got 2 brand new colors of hair extensions today, chocolate cherry and this amazing raspberry blue that is absolutely gorgeous in my waist length hair!!! My spouse and I finished the day playing pool until 3:30 in the morning in our Barbie Billiards Room, complete with a pink pool table. Today was the most spectacular day ever... until tomorrow!
Hugs!
Miharu
I was able to help out a couple of friends. They are looking to earn a few dollars by making coffee tables and similar, and doing custom computer builds.
I was able to give them an indefinite loan of a Triton portable workbench, a saw and a router.
It felt great to be able to help someone who needs it in a really concrete way.
Karen.
They were handing out red carnations to the fathers in church today, and I was given one. Then when they asked that all people who had been fathers in any way to anyone to stand to be honored, I stood. It was a great feeling to be a woman in a church who was being honored as a the father that she is!
Quote from: Connie Anne on June 17, 2012, 02:43:26 PM
They were handing out red carnations to the fathers in church today, and I was given one. Then when they asked that all people who had been fathers in any way to anyone to stand to be honored, I stood. It was a great feeling to be a woman in a church who was being honored as a the father that she is!
:) you sound like you have a lovely church. I really admire your courage - I personally don't feel like I will be able to attend church unless I can be stealth as male, because I can't imagine trying to tell people and getting accepted. I'm so glad that you've been able to find such a great group of people who love and respect you for who you are!
Thanks, Casey. Yeah, I've got a great church home. It's a relief to be there and just be me.
Music
A funny little song about Nikola Tesla and a song that tickles my evil bones.
I had a great Father's Day dinner and evening with my kids and ex-wife. I love cooking for my family.
Having the guts to email an online therapist a few of my questions
My Beloved spouse picked a great big bowl of sweet strawberries from the garden and turned them into strawberry ice cream... which we had after dinner with fresh sliced strawberries piled on top. That made me happy!
Putting on makeup even though I never left the house today, because I know that my partner loves it when I get dolled up for her... that made me happy.
A joyful Sunday at home with my Beloved spouse, listening to music, playing pool, eating good food, and enjoying a warm sunny day together... that made me so happy today.
This opportunity to share what made me happy today... this is making me happy. Thank you all!
playing Frisbee with my youngest brother. It was fun even though I'm not in the shape I once was, haha.
I was happy with my hair. Until the humidity in the factory just ruined it.
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Let's see...posted a few times here to talk about what I'm feeling and where I'm at with myself. Reading this thread, and realizing that I'm going to be happy and be ok in the end. I'm happy about other things such as living and breathing, seeing the sky outside, happy about feeling free because I have a right to live freely! I'm also happy about the support I can find here :)
My kids gave me a special book about Dad's this past Father's Day. I feel kind of awkward about the day its self now, but never awkward about my children and how they see me.
Quote from: Keaira on June 18, 2012, 05:09:54 AM
My kids gave me a special book about Dad's this past Father's Day. I feel kind of awkward about the day its self now, but never awkward about my children and how they see me.
You know, my daughter has never been able to keep track of holidays - even the ones she loves, like christmas and her birthday - but I got a cool animated Happy Father's Day text from a wrong number today, and it made me smile. ;D
There was one point today when Leah was reminded it's father's day, and she responded by turning to me and giving me a big hug. That was nice. :)
Quote from: Dawn Heart on June 18, 2012, 04:55:22 AM
Let's see...posted a few times here to talk about what I'm feeling and where I'm at with myself. Reading this thread, and realizing that I'm going to be happy and be ok in the end. I'm happy about other things such as living and breathing, seeing the sky outside, happy about feeling free because I have a right to live freely! I'm also happy about the support I can find here :)
That's good to hear!
Quote from: Miharu Barbie on June 18, 2012, 12:25:18 AM
My Beloved spouse picked a great big bowl of sweet strawberries from the garden and turned them into strawberry ice cream... which we had after dinner with fresh sliced strawberries piled on top. That made me happy!
Putting on makeup even though I never left the house today, because I know that my partner loves it when I get dolled up for her... that made me happy.
A joyful Sunday at home with my Beloved spouse, listening to music, playing pool, eating good food, and enjoying a warm sunny day together... that made me so happy today.
This opportunity to share what made me happy today... this is making me happy. Thank you all!
I don't even like strawberrys but that sounds nice >.<
What made me happy...I got a pay rise yey.. Bring on 14p more an hour lol
Eating freezies with my son (one each).
I found what I think is a Thomas the Tank Engine tv show. My son will be pleased. :)
Decided to have a Neve Campbell marathon. All her movies, the shows she's appeared in. Starting with 1991, when she was...18?
She's going to be 40 next year. :icon_blink:
happy :)
My daughter that lives in San Francisco stopped by when she got off work yesterday, took me out to dinner and spent the night...always so fun when she is here! we floated around in the pool and cleaned up her car real nice before she had to go to work this afternoon.
I talked with my son. He was so encouraging about my upcoming surgery. You see, I am kinda terrified today.
Lizzy
Actually this was yesterday but I am still very happy about it.
Called two of my sons yesterday to wished them a Happy Fathers Day.
I didn't know if they would call me or even want to talk because they have not been happy that I am moving forward in transition. In fact I was not sure if they wanted anything to do with me.
My youngest son had already said he didn't want me around him or his family.
I had a nice talk with both of them although it was awkward at times.
They both still want me in there lives and the lives of there children.
Oh Wow! I am on cloud nine.
my cousin that i havent talked to in 3 years, messaged me on facebook. :) and has been texting me all day. i missed her alot. :)
LOL... I'm sick as a dog and feel like crap and figure I look like crap :P But a few guys still were giving me 'Hey baby' looks and smiles at the grocery store 8)
freemusicarchive.org. Now that I can play music on my computer and view other websites at the same time.
I'm getting my receiver and speakers and disc player and stuff finally set up in the new house too. So much of it is scavenged that getting all the wires and plugs right is like playing a puzzle game.
Eating watermelon and a 2/3 lbs monster burger with extra cheese and bacon lol
Finding sia's "the codependent" and "lullaby" once again on my iPad. "the codependent" is for when I want to kick someone's ass, and "lullaby" just has me bawling like a baby :'(
I met two trans folk at Porcfest (http://porcfest.com) and it was only the first day (technically yesterday). Also sold a lot of tickets for the Bigger Gayer Dance Party and it looks possible we'll actually sell out! (I was nervous about even selling enough to pay for it) Stayed a little tipsy most of the day. That was fun. I'll put the "got sunburnt" on a different thread. haha.
My Gardenia Bush is producing LOTS of blooms this season :)
The kitchen smells like a tropical paradise when I put them in the window :)
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A friend just gave us the book IN ONE PERSON by John Irving - check it our to see why I am so excited.
Lizzy
I got the results to a very important test.
I'm going to be alive a long while.
I was able get my rear speakers for my surround sound system from my old room at my parents' flat. This flat has even better acoustics than my own room had at home, it's great to hear my full sound system in action, I just love it. It was a great technical challenge to build and tune this system, and the result is worth the time and thought I put into it. Listening to music is very important to me and can affect my mood very much. One more thing which makes this place feel like home for me.
Piña colada (sp?) ice cream ;)
I'm in a bed and I'm about to go to sleep...bliss.
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I got the matching set. lol. I was happy to have a real before and after set of pictures from my workplace timecards.
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I got the matching set. lol. I was happy to have a real before and after set of pictures from my workplace timecards.
Your shoulders and neck seem smaller now and your skin looks a lot softer. Your very cute looking Keaira.
The photo on the right made me grin you look way happier. Good on you.
Quote from: Tom on June 20, 2012, 05:32:37 AM
Your shoulders and neck seem smaller now and your skin looks a lot softer. Your very cute looking Keaira.
The photo on the right made me grin you look way happier. Good on you.
Your comment made me happy too. ^_^
and you're right. I am happier and I'm at peace with myself. I can see it in my eyes that I was miserable in the first picture. I honestly don't see much change except for longer hair and. Big genuine smile. Tigger thinks I looked feminine to begin with but I don't see it. Lol
Oh and Casey, I'm really happy you got called Sir. Feels like you're seen for the first time for who you are doesn't it ;)
Quote from: Keaira on June 20, 2012, 06:02:02 AM
Oh and Casey, I'm really happy you got called Sir. Feels like you're seen for the first time for who you are doesn't it ;)
Definitely! It never happens, haha. Oh well, in time it shall happen more.
My new neighbour who seems to have a lot in common with me invited me over for tea. :)
Something happy did happen to me other than watermelon; i got my dad to finally buy me a men's shirt! ^-^
I finished my Community Services Work course today, and it's the first time I've stuck to my studies voluntarily since the end of 2009 (and even before then, I guess that wasn't really voluntary either.) I'm very proud of myself, and so are my family and friends. :)
Now I am qualified to study the next certificates/a diploma in Mental Health, Alcohol & Other Drug Work and some other interesting stuff. I'm very excited. :D
I actually slept in peace last night and woke up in a better mood, with less anxiety than usual! This makes me happy!
Seeing Valentina Litsitsa at the Royal Albert Hall, yesterday. Anyone else go? Loved it.
The anesthesiologist called me for my pre-surgery written evaluation and instructions - good to go with that!
Visited with my grandson (age 7 months!)
Three people told me they love me.
Good day all in all
Lizzy
Read the new issues of Batwoman and Saga, they were epic.
i got sir'd on the PHONE! :3 and then still when they saw me in person, they still called me sir. and funny thing is, my coworker convinced me to wear eyeliner today. lol. (for the first time in like 2 years) and i'm STILL getting "SIR'D" :D my life is amazing. :3 i've been seen as a male all day! :D
Replaying "Dead Space 2 - Stross kills Isaac" over and over again. This has brought happiness to my soul.....until I can start T at least.
Quote from: Malachite on June 20, 2012, 07:29:57 PM
Replaying "Dead Space 2 - Stross kills Isaac" over and over again. This has brought happiness to my soul.....until I can start T at least.
I can't play dead space. Scared me half to death lol
Is it so wrong that I love I'm 5'9 (actually 5'8.5) not 5'10 like I thought?
Quote from: Tom on June 20, 2012, 07:32:36 PM
I can't play dead space. Scared me half to death lol
I'm trying to get more desensatized to it so I can play Dead Space 3 one day. The death/attack music particularly scares me lol.
Quote from: Malachite on June 20, 2012, 07:48:13 PM
I'm trying to get more desensatized to it so I can play Dead Space 3 one day. The death/attack music particularly scares me lol.
I don't even think I got five minutes into the game. The music got me creeped out then some thing came flying at me down a dark corridor and that was it console off. Nearly had a bloody heart attack.
Quote from: Tom on June 20, 2012, 07:52:37 PM
I don't even think I got five minutes into the game. The music got me creeped out then some thing came flying at me down a dark corridor and that was it console off. Nearly had a bloody heart attack.
What did you do with the game? I haven't seen Dead Space 1 but I watched the entire walkthrough on Youtube to save money since I was just more interested in the story (which is something I need to start doing more in the future).
The way I actually found out through it was it was that all of the death scenes were in a thumbnail while I was watching the Uncharted 2 walkthrough and I just couldn't resist.
Quote from: Malachite on June 20, 2012, 08:03:35 PM
What did you do with the game? I haven't seen Dead Space 1 but I watched the entire walkthrough on Youtube to save money since I was just more interested in the story (which is something I need to start doing more in the future).
The way I actually found out through it was it was that all of the death scenes were in a thumbnail while I was watching the Uncharted 2 walkthrough and I just couldn't resist.
Sold it >.<
I really love the anime though
Quote from: Tom on June 20, 2012, 08:06:42 PM
Sold it >.<
I really love the anime though
You didn't try to have a go at it again? :o
Quote from: Keaira on June 20, 2012, 05:08:22 AM
I got the matching set. lol. I was happy to have a real before and after set of pictures from my workplace timecards.
Big changes Keaira, all for the better of course.
You look amazing, indeed a credit to the work you have put in.
I hope you're proud of yourself.
Keep doing what you are doing, because you do it so well
We need bright stars like you to follow.
Be safe, well and happy
Lotsa huggs
Catherine
Quote from: Catherine Sarah on June 20, 2012, 08:22:04 PM
Big changes Keaira, all for the better of course.
You look amazing, indeed a credit to the work you have put in.
I hope you're proud of yourself.
Keep doing what you are doing, because you do it so well
We need bright stars like you to follow.
Be safe, well and happy
Lotsa huggs
Catherine
Aww.
This. This made me happy.
That's so sweet! *hugs* :D
I'm not doing anything different from anyone else really. We all have our challenges to overcome. And you don't need to follow me, because each and every one of us shines with our own light. And I could not have got this far alone.
Do I really look that confidant in my pictures? If so I can tell you I'm quite the opposite. :P
Ha! I remembered who you remind me of Keaira! You look like a girl I went to high school with.
Quote from: Malachite on June 20, 2012, 08:08:18 PM
You didn't try to have a go at it again? :o
Nope, traumatised for life.
My viral load is undetectable and I have a higher CD4 than a lot HIV neg people without going on meds. I'm ecstatic but WTF?? I just hope this trend continues.
Quote from: Erin_Grey on June 21, 2012, 09:57:32 AM
My viral load is undetectable and I have a higher CD4 than a lot HIV neg people without going on meds. I'm ecstatic but WTF?? I just hope this trend continues.
I don't really know what this means, thought you were on about a computer at first but seen as you said your 'ecstatic' I will just say congrats >.<
I know myself, I like myself, and gosh darn it, I'm enjoying it. ;D
Quote from: Keaira on June 21, 2012, 04:27:01 AM
Do I really look that confidant in my pictures? If so I can tell you I'm quite the opposite. :P
Hi Keaira,
Specifically speaking about your before and after photos, I think may be a poor set to evaluate from. All those "official" photos always seem contrived. However using that set alone, I do see a quite resolve emanating from your before, that is not as strikingly evident in your after shot. The after shot smile looks a bit cheesy, but that's the nature of the beast.
However I will mention that other shots I've seen of you over time, do have that aura or attitudinal look of strong self confidence. You may not feel it, but your body does express it. Maybe you just need to take about a 10" stroll. From your head to your heart. All the confidence you are looking for is just 10 inches away. And it's oozing out of your body.
Thank you for the :icon_hug: I really appreciated that. You are so kind and thoughtful.
Have a spectacular day
Lotsa huggs
Catherine
Successful writing/brainstorming ;D
I made a sale yesterday, 50$! And Ben bought me a thing of Propel, which is like magic for me in this crap weather.
My league pool team won a very tough 9 ball match tonight against a highly skilled team. In 26 games we took them out 14 to 12. We were awesome! All three of us were in tune and shooting pool like champs.
I began 1 week of vacation when I got off work today! I'm looking forward to camping on the beach this weekend , where my best friends, Chuck and Emily, will be getting married. I love my life!
The kind words from Catherine again made me smile. Thank you for that. ^_^
And I got this in my email:
Dear Keaira,
Please call Sondra Bolte at Cummins. She is the person I told you about, and she would like to help you through the hiring maze, if she can.
Her phone number is: (***) ***-****. I am sending her a copy of this email.
Ed
If I am lucky, maybe Valeo will be a past company I worked for.
My mum brought me a bar of fudge back for cat sitting last night
I got clocked today on the bus. Since I still present male that is a good thing.
I looked in the mirror and realized that I'm not any uglier than I was yesterday:)
well yesterday I was speaking to my sister and she let "sir" slip out of her mouth but she quickly corrected herself
"Yes si- I mean yes mam"
I had a big smile on my face and laughed and she knew I was eating it up since she doesn't approve of me being transgendered......hehehehe >:-)
What made me happy today? Sailor Moon yuri
The support I have from a small circle of friends, and how I have slept in peace recently. Besides this, my dreams are really becoming dreams when I sleep...nice dreams of being beautiful places.
I had an awesome day full of fun and conversation with my daughter.
Quote from: crazy old bat on June 22, 2012, 12:42:08 PM
I looked in the mirror and realized that I'm not any uglier than I was yesterday:)
You are like a fine red wine, that ages gracefully.
Quote from: Connie Anne on June 22, 2012, 10:09:30 PM
I had an awesome day full of fun and conversation with my daughter.
She's a hoot!
Quote from: Jamie D on June 22, 2012, 11:08:29 PM
You are like a fine red wine, that ages gracefully.
Nah, more like turns to vinegar.
Today, I acted like a fangirl, watched a princess movie, and currently feel a bit ditzy. I've been a guy all day. Yay! The things I've learned about gender roles aren't affecting me (yes, I was worried about that which is silly I know).
Although, I also feel like a kid at the moment, so it might just be that. Oh well. ;D I feel happy.
That's wonderful to read about Edge.
I did the unthinkable. took a vacation day off from work. I am free from hell all weekend long! I spent the day not covered in sweat and dirt and it was great! and I liked my hairstyle with almost zero effort today. :)
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Quote from: Edge on June 21, 2012, 09:38:38 AM
Ha! I remembered who you remind me of Keaira! You look like a girl I went to high school with.
yay! Girl from school. ^_^ I'm glad I look young. Really young. Which reminds me of the time I dropped my daughters off at high school when they were late. The Secretary sent them to their home room and then asked me who's class I was in. :)
thank you. :)
Great afternoon tea at Hobart Botanical Gardens restaurant. Fundraiser for Rainbow Communities. Even lashed out and bought a watercolour.
I ended up liking and buying the first bathing suit I tried on. Fastest bathing suit shopping ever! Woohoo!
I'm in love with tim burton
I got the nightmare before christmas, corpse bride, and lots of other movies, James and the giant peach etc!!! <3 <3 <3
Even though it was memorial service, I got to be part of celebrating the life of a matriarch of my church. Also present was a former pastor who I hadn't seen in years. I got to reintroduce myself to her.
After the service, my ex-wife joined me for dinner.
Jumping in water puddles in the parking lot at work after it rained.
Quote from: crazy old bat on June 22, 2012, 11:14:24 PM
Nah, more like turns to vinegar.
Well, I'd pop your cork any day! ;)
I saw a bunny!
Probably someone's pet. It was on the sidewalk, nibbling on some grass. I let out a girlish squeal of "♥omigod a bunny!♥", and a couple of youths came walking towards us. The rabbit hopped into someone's yard, and I felt like a dork for squealing like that in front of people.
technology
I video chatted with Casey. Then Tigger and Azmaria. I really enjoyed it. ^_^
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Now, look at that face above. If that's not brimming over with confidence. I don't know what is. And as for the smile? Lawdy doo dee. That's a smile that says, "I've got it all"
Don't you ever doubt yourself again Keaira.
Huggs
Catherine
I didn't get fired. Not even a lecture.
Learning that this site existed and just in a few minutes talking to other girls like me :)
Quote from: LordKAT on June 25, 2012, 11:09:34 PM
I didn't get fired. Not even a lecture.
Not even a 'naughty kitty'
Hugs
I'm very pleased.
Cindy
I started off the night feeling kind of bad about myself, all in all. But now I feel just fine.
As in the "What did you do today" thread, dropped over to a friend's house and made her dinner as she is quite sick. Being able to do that for her made me happy. She is a dear friend.
Karen.
My son asked to watch Tangled. I am so proud. :) (Plus, I'm happy because that means I get to watch Tangled too.)
Also, some pics of Keaira in another thread made me smile. She's adorable.
I feel absolutely perfect.
Fun at swimming lessons followed by cuddling with hot chocolate when we got home.
Quote from: Edge on June 26, 2012, 06:27:29 PM
Fun at swimming lessons followed by cuddling with hot chocolate when we got home.
I had booked in to get my back waxed. The girls know me. When I showed up at 10 am they had just opened and were having
hot chocolate, they had made one for me, they then took turns doing their hair and make up and the chat was none stop and i was included in all of it.
Eventually got my back done and a free back massage.
Mmmm
Love this life
Cindy
Last night, my Mom (without prompting from me) said she would shape my eyebrows. It almost sounded like she was as excited about it as I am! I know she's still confused and grieving, but she's responding SO well.
Still many hurdles to cross, but I'm bubbly. :)
A cashier at the grocery store said to me, "You look pretty today."
Quote from: Papa Taco on June 27, 2012, 05:51:26 AM
Keaira proposed that I write: Keaira making the heart symbol on webcam.
But I'm just going to go with Keaira.
Now you're trying to make me blush. :P
What makes me happy is coming home, getting online and talking with Caleb, Azzie and Don. sometimes we have a guest or two drop in as well. ^_^
Just got home from work, and for the first time since leaving school I have a real vacation, for the next five days :D
Quote from: Keaira on June 27, 2012, 12:26:20 PM
Now you're trying to make me blush. :P
What makes me happy is coming home, getting online and talking with Caleb, Azzie and Don. sometimes we have a guest or two drop in as well. ^_^
Well you've seen what colour my face can turn, so if you blush I feel no guilt.
True. Bright red looks good on you BTW. ;)
:P Well you'll be home soon, maybe you'll get to see more of it then!
Maybe :P
I hear thunder! exciting.
Quote from: Tom on June 28, 2012, 05:03:07 AM
I hear thunder! exciting.
I love thunderstorms ;D
I've gotten so much accomplished in these past days. After months of being completely stagnant. :p Amazing how doing one little thing can really help you feel better.
i work at a hotel, and i've always had to wear a womens vest. today i asked my boss for a mens vest... :) and i got one. :3 i'm super excited about it. it looks so much better. it looked really weird to have the vest shaped for having a chest, and wearing a binder... so it was like lose around where breasts should be... but now it actually helps me pass much better with a vest that's designed for a flat chest.
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Totally Rockin' it Dude :)
I got a job! ;D
Quote from: kelly_aus on June 29, 2012, 07:07:46 AM
I got a job! ;D
YAY SIS,You awesome go girl. Congratulations. Well done. Hope you're proud of yourself
When do we celebrate?
:icon_hug:
Catherine
:icon_bunch:
My son was singing a truck song. It went like this: "Truck truck truck truck truck...."
I told my 6 year old son that I am transgender, and will become a woman. His response was "cool". I asked if he had any questions and he said "no, you are still going to be my daddy". It went so much better than I expected.
Katy Perry - Part Of Me (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uuwfgXD8qV8#)
This is really cool! Interesting that she chose to bind her breasts, but I gotta say, the short hair look really suits her.
I had a great lunch and conversation with my daughter, and then an evening full of more great conversation with a close friend.
Standing at our local lake and watching a storm blow in as the lightning crashed from cloud to cloud and cloud to ground. Nature is awesome!
Keaira woke me up with a text. :) Got to have a short video chat before she went off to work. She's cute in the morning.
had a quick chat with Caleb before work. ^_^
I got 3 pc games for £10 YES.
And one of them involves sending my armies forth to batter the living daylights out of another army.
Simple pleasures.
Oh I also got theme hospital which I've heard a lot of good things about and always wanted to try.
My mom is visiting for the first time since I came out, and since I started hrt. To show her support she took me out shopping to get some women's clothes. ;D
Quote from: Brooke777 on June 30, 2012, 03:55:37 PM
My mom is visiting for the first time since I came out, and since I started hrt. To show her support she took me out shopping to get some women's clothes. ;D
That's awesome!
I decided I was tired of taking care of my unruly mop of hair, so I got it restyled. I really like the results.
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My a/c is working properly again and it was only a capacitor, so the a/c guy should be kind to me on the bill, I hope. Heck, I told him what the problem was when I called him, so no diagnostic time was needed.
Quote from: Liam Erik on June 30, 2012, 01:10:57 PM
You two are both being awful cute recently. :-* :D
It's just because she's cute enough for the both of us, that's all. :P Lol. OK, I'll stop now.
Getting rid of my Gameinformer magazines
$6
The power and, therefore, the AC came back on today.
Quote from: twistedpixie on June 30, 2012, 11:12:24 PM
The power and, therefore, the AC came back on today.
That is something to be happy about 8) Especially if it's hot where you're at
I was out with my mom, and she wanted to take me to get some new panties. She said that she does that with my sisters, and wanted to treat me like the other girls. ;D ;D ;D
juice
Quote from: Brooke777 on July 01, 2012, 05:47:28 PM
I was out with my mom, and she wanted to take me to get some new panties. She said that she does that with my sisters, and wanted to treat me like the other girls. ;D ;D ;D
this, just made my day brighter. i'm excited for you. it's nice to see other's parents being so accepting and loving. it makes me feel like i have that too. :) i can just borrow the happiness from your story. :)
Quote from: Brooke777 on July 01, 2012, 05:47:28 PM
I was out with my mom, and she wanted to take me to get some new panties. She said that she does that with my sisters, and wanted to treat me like the other girls. ;D ;D ;D
I'm very happy for you also Brook :) Sounds like you have a great mom
*Tries to hide her jealousy*
Quote from: V M on July 01, 2012, 06:52:20 PM
I'm very happy for you also Brook :) Sounds like you have a great mom
*Tries to hide her jealousy*
Quote from: Wil Najera on July 01, 2012, 06:08:58 PM
this, just made my day brighter. i'm excited for you. it's nice to see other's parents being so accepting and loving. it makes me feel like i have that too. :) i can just borrow the happiness from your story. :)
Thank you both. She is great, especially since she has only known for about 3 weeks.
Wil- I am more than happy to share some of my joy...use it well ;D
I have a "silly voice" I used to go along with songs, since I can't actually sing. And when I tried to do it, I cracked! I couldn't hit the old high-pitched note. ;D
Some people noted the drop already, but I now feel confident in saying it's official. Lol. Finally.
Watching DBZ Abridged and a bunch of other dumb but funny videos on YT with my kids.
Quote from: Papa Taco on July 01, 2012, 09:56:46 PM
I have a "silly voice" I used to go along with songs, since I can't actually sing. And when I tried to do it, I cracked! I couldn't hit the old high-pitched note. ;D
Some people noted the drop already, but I now feel confident in saying it's official. Lol. Finally.
Congratulations! ;D
Chocolate peanut covered apples on the drive from upstateny. :laugh:
Opening the envelope from the registrar of Imperial County, California where I was born and seeing my "certified" original birth certificate inside. It was required since I wasn't born in Oregon.
Tomorrow I file for my legal name change--YES!!! ;D
Quote from: Brooke777 on June 29, 2012, 08:47:06 PM
I told my 6 year old son that I am transgender, and will become a woman. His response was "cool". I asked if he had any questions and he said "no, you are still going to be my daddy". It went so much better than I expected.
Beautiful moment. Children are amazing.
Quote from: Papa Taco on July 02, 2012, 05:35:06 AM
I'd say, but it would sound incredibly redundant. Starts with a K and ends with an A. :P Texting!
*rolls eyes*
Congrats on the voice by the way pal.
I woke up and realised not everyone does so then I was happy. Yey to me living for another day :D
Casey and Keaira sitting in a tree. K-I-S-S-I-N-G Sorry I tease. Immature moment over.
My son is being cute and is asking if he can watch The Incredibles. Like tractor like son.
Getting my nails done this morning made me very happy. The couple that I had broken off last week were really bugging me and the rest were looking kind of beat up a bit.
Planted our mint plants today, found some really good granola bars, and its cooled down a bit outside.
Quote from: Papa Taco on July 02, 2012, 01:29:06 PM
lmao. Tease all you want, there has been no kissing of Keaira (not that it would be a bad thing :P but yeah).
yeah but i bet theres been plenty in your dreams :laugh:
Sharapova is fit but not as fit as Pironkova. Im obsessed with Pironkova.
Lol wrong thread thought this was 'what are you thinking'
erm well Pironkova makes me happy anyways
Quote from: Tom on July 02, 2012, 02:30:44 PM
yeah but i bet theres been plenty in your dreams :laugh:
maybe. :angel:
Not really what happened today, more what happened this weekend that made me happy
Got to take a real 'vacation' which was nice for a change
Caught up with friends, and had an excessively, bordering on criminally, good time doing so
Got to cook for pleasure rather than business which is always nice
Met two people here from Susan's in person and had a really great time/great conversations both times
And now, to seal the deal, I'm going to be getting some desperately needed sleep before having to go back to work for the foreseeable future
Yep, I wouldn't change a thing about the way things went :D
I was reintroduced to a song I really like.
Quote from: Edge on June 29, 2012, 06:17:21 PM
My son was singing a truck song. It went like this: "Truck truck truck truck truck...."
This is brilliant.
I had a dinner and fabulous evening of conversation with my daughter and a friend who is like a sister to both of us, and somewhat like an additional mother to my daughter.
My beard is definitely creeping higher. No more neck beard for me!
Also, everything fell into place for selling my grandmother's apartment without us having to even list it.
Finally, cherries were on sale.
It's been a really good day.
I have always wondered how you can possibly 'own' an apartment. You have no land, no outside, and surely can't change too many walls or remodel much. I really have a hard time with the concept. I think someone still has to control the building and the land, do you get to choose what is outside your walls and windows or maybe add new windows?
City folk are hard to comprehend.
work was crappy but, seeing Caleb eat a cheese and onion sandwich, and the faces he made afterwards, was priceless. I hope you feel better Caleb *hugs*
The ginger pills are starting to kick in. :P You'd only be more happy if you got the screencap of my vomitus. :P
not true! I would have been sad. I don't want to see you sick. :(
But it was fairly entertaining anyway.
Aw, lol, you wouldn't have to be sad. I'd have been amused. Nauseated, and in need of some cough drops and lots of water, but amused. :P
Caleb, Azmaria and I just watched the first 2 My Little Pony: FIM episodes. ^_^
Ice cream
It's beautiful outside today. The sun is shining, the sky is blue, it's not too hot (in the shade), and there's a slight breeze.
Rocking out to Super Villain by PM5K and various Oomph songs.
i got a ps vita and lisicki looks like shes making a comeback
The guys from my absolute FAVORITE YouTube channel (http://fndfilms.com/) called into my show last night! We got to talk about all the gay stuph in their videos. They were really cool and it was a fun chat. I'm still experiencing celebrity shock.
Technically it was yesterday, but since my show ends at Midnight, I don't think I could possibly have posted this the same day.
I used the last of my Father's Day Barnes & Noble gift card to pick up a cookbook called 200 Ramen Noodle Dishes.
Took a look in the mirror today and I'm actually starting to see a guy.
My eyebrows have thickened. I didn't wash my hair (I think I might be overwashing), so it's in a cool position, and for once it makes me look older than 8 (maybe like, 14 or 15, lol). My skin looks more masculine, to me. I'm pretty sure there's been some subtle face shape changes.
I'm starting to get really excited. A few voice drops to go and I should have no trouble passing 100%, I think. ;D
Quote from: Papa Taco on July 04, 2012, 04:50:54 PM
Took a look in the mirror today and I'm actually starting to see a guy.
My eyebrows have thickened. I didn't wash my hair (I think I might be overwashing), so it's in a cool position, and for once it makes me look older than 8 (maybe like, 14 or 15, lol). My skin looks more masculine, to me. I'm pretty sure there's been some subtle face shape changes.
I'm starting to get really excited. A few voice drops to go and I should have no trouble passing 100%, I think. ;D
I'm happy for you dude! I wanna see the changes.
Btw you really need to let me know if you change your name and picture again I had no idea who you were for ages until I saw the banter going on between you and Keaira lol.
Sore all over from a nice bike ride. ;D I also ate a bacon cheeseburger and apple pie with ice cream. Amurrica.
Fourth of July bbq with some new friends
Claymoring people in Call of Duty: Black Ops
Yesterday; but there was no working internet connection where I was.
Saw a second psych in Melbourne for the SECOND LETTER!!!
Felt totally stoked. ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D
Karen.
Quote from: justmeinoz on July 05, 2012, 04:24:27 AM
Yesterday; but there was no working internet connection where I was.
Saw a second psych in Melbourne for the SECOND LETTER!!!
Felt totally stoked. ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D
Karen.
Congrats Sis,
I've got a new axe I can undercut the opposition >:-)
Hugs great news.
Cindy
Quote from: justmeinoz on July 05, 2012, 04:24:27 AM
Yesterday; but there was no working internet connection where I was.
Saw a second psych in Melbourne for the SECOND LETTER!!!
Felt totally stoked. ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D
Karen.
Stocked, is that the word... :)?
I got MY second letter today confirming I have a vaja ... stocked, eh.
This was the latest requirement by Home Affairs that keep chipping away on my new ID since ... 8 1/2 month...
Will be interesting what they will come up with next...
Still stocked for now :) i.e. HAPPY
Axélle
I had an epiphany yesterday. I'm still confused, but I think things are starting to click.
Quote from: justmeinoz on July 05, 2012, 04:24:27 AM
Yesterday; but there was no working internet connection where I was.
Saw a second psych in Melbourne for the SECOND LETTER!!!
Felt totally stoked. ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D
Karen.
Hi Sis,
That is TOTALLY (damn straight) AWESOME. Big congratulations, girl. You've worked hard for this, and you deserve it.
Now it's really GAME ON. I'm just so excited for you.
Huggs
Catherine
My mother commented that my beard has the same shape as my dad's. She then reached up to rub it and said "It's so fuzzy!"
Getting a new charger for my iPad after losing my old one in Arkansas!
I finally got a call back from Richmond Centre. Hopefully soon I'll be hooked up with a therapist and well on my way to starting T! ^_^
Also, the pride parade is today!
I have cute freckles on my shoulders :angel:
Quote from: Adam1 on July 07, 2012, 11:00:44 AM
I have cute freckles on my shoulders :angel:
Haha, I love shoulder freckles! I get them too. ;D
Went to my beautician and had her dye and trim my hair.
Never had my hair professional dyed before. She did what is called a 14 foil dye.
I think it looks great with all the highlights in it.
And I feel pretty and absolutely giddy about it.
I got new glasses (they're on order) and a haircut that makes me look a lot more male.
Quote from: Edge on July 07, 2012, 11:28:48 PM
I got new glasses (they're on order) and a haircut that makes me look a lot more male.
Congrats! I know in my case this made a deal of difference.
Nicer weather! The heatwave is over!
i officially started going by Wil this weekend. not in front of family yet, but in front of friends and new aquaintences. everyone i met this weekend used the proper pronouns, and i passed 100% everywhere we went. totally made my day. :) also, i cut all my hair off. haircuts make me happy. :3
I had a productive session with my therapist today.
The woman at the charcoal chicken place up at the local shopping village gave me a free container of tabouli to give to my Mum, because she has the flu right now. Plus, I had a chance to have some me-time today, with a cappuccino and a good book. I also got Scream 4 on DVD. Woo!
A friend who I haven't seen for a while came to my lab. I told her that I had come out to everyone , and she says, yes I know it's all over the hospital and no one seems in the least concerned. People just say how happy you are.
Oh well, another none event.
:laugh: :laugh: :laugh: :laugh:
Cindy
Survived the first non-training day at my new job.. :)
Quote from: kelly_aus on July 09, 2012, 05:01:22 AM
Survived the first non-training day at my new job.. :)
How did it go Sis, Pm if you wish
Hugs
Cindy
new kitty cat. also not totally panicking over problems that would have floored me even a year ago.
I have new facial ;D
Quote from: kelly_aus on July 09, 2012, 05:01:22 AM
Survived the first non-training day at my new job.. :)
CONGRATULATIONS You big girl. I knew you could do it. You'll breeze this one in.
Keep up the mighty effort, and remember to take time out for yourself and congratulate yourself on all your wins and successes. You deserve it.
:icon_hug:
Catherine
I dodged a knife today.
No, literally, I dodged a knife.
Wonder Woman has those brass bracelets that repel bullets.
I was in the kitchen in my undies making breakfast - no magic bracers -
when my improved peripheral vision noticed an extra large and sharp pink knife was falling off the cutting board that was above my extra large and vulnerable leg and foot.
Flick! my wrist flung out my only protection and met the blade with my mighty red thumb nail, deflecting the weapon safely into a bag of cans that didn't belong there.
First reaction: "Gah, that knife put a chip in my gel set nail. If you look close it really shows!"
Second reaction: (staring at thumb still attached, and all of me intact) "MAGIC nails!"
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Something about the way my body was allowed me to hide my chest perfectly under my arms. That used to be a rough experience for me, because I'd just see a girl with no boobs. But with the way my face is slowly changing...I actually saw me. i actually got an idea of what this was going to look like. I don't think I fully realized the feelings of futility that I had before I began hormones, and even after. I was convinced that nothing would "really" happen.
Chicken strips
I was told by a Plastic Surgeon who knows me from before that i have a very female face and body. :D.
Quote from: Dawn Heart on July 08, 2012, 03:35:36 AM
Nicer weather! The heatwave is over!
I second that. Says a lot when low 90's means "cooling off". :)
My friend Brett did a video tour of my studio which I've been working on and improving for some time now.
WARNING: He says a wordy dord or two, so don't play it at work or around your kids. Oh, Brett...
Liberty Radio Network (Manchester) Studio Tour (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0J8vnkrzhZg#)
I forgot how much I enjoy Taylor Swift's music. ;D
I also looked through some old journals and videos. When you feel stuck, never, ever forget how far you've come. Your past doesn't bind your present.
My Adams apple has grown. I hope that doesn't mean my voice has stopped dropping though >.<
all of my drama with my ex wife is officially halted. now just to complete my divorce and i shall finally be free. :) and i talked to my step dad for the first time in a year and a half today. :) felt good. there was no tension or hostility in his voice. made me feel really good. also, been called sir a hell of a lot more lately with the new hairdo. :) things are quite swell today.
Browsing for clothes, thinking about make-up items, planning for transition to happen
A guy gave me his ticket so I don't have to pay for parking. Plus I'm just in a very good mood anyways =]
It being Friday :laugh: :laugh: :laugh:
Getting a new haircut similar to Leon S. Kennedy (for you gamers out there ^^), getting paid, off from work, sleep...
Getting my hormones from the chemist and the attendant asks me when I'm changing my name because she can't keep referring to me by my male name as it feels odd to her
Feeding a corndog to my mom's dog when she was not looking. He has gained 20lbs since getting neutered and she can't figure out why :angel:
Watching Yugioh as Saturday Morning Cartoons
Quote from: JayKyle on July 14, 2012, 12:23:28 AM
Getting a new haircut similar to Leon S. Kennedy (for you gamers out there ^^), getting paid, off from work, sleep...
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I always thought that was an awesome hairstyle. :D Leon is badass.
Quote from: Sephirah on July 14, 2012, 11:09:21 AM
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I always thought that was an awesome hairstyle. :D Leon is badass.
Awesomeness!!! Leon was always the best!
I have to set up my Resident Evil 4 again now.
I got to have a really wonderful, long sleep today. ;D Undisturbed. It was absolutely delightful.
Yet I still feel exhausted. I think it's because my ovaries are going to sleep.
Blasting metal in my car and hanging out with one of my college buds
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Thank you Papa,
Yes the other one was getting a bit more than just pixalitated. This new camera is light years ahead of what I did my original avatar on. My earlier one even came with some 'flash powder' and a black cloth to put over it :laugh: :laugh: :embarrassed:
Tinted my back windows yesterday...did the flower decals a few days ago.
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This stuff makes me happy whenever I get in the car. :)
Quote from: Liam Erik on July 14, 2012, 11:05:46 PM
I acquired some carders and I'm spinning thread now from my own sheep. ;D
I don't believe I've mentioned this, but I'm very, very envious of you right now. I taught myself to spin a little once. It didn't turn out very well, and I'd like to try again, but I've since moved pretty far away from the yarn shop where I bought my roving. That must be so cool, to be able to spin from your own sheep.
Do you knit/crochet/weave/plan on doing anything with that thread?
Got to sleep in today! I get to do nothing except for try and feel better which is a relief in and of itself
Also, really interesting offer today and I finally got my new chef coats
Yea, good day so far. Just need to get better now
I just realized I no longer have a problem with my leg/armpit hair XD (TMI?)
Quote from: JayKyle on July 16, 2012, 06:19:09 PM
I just realized I no longer have a problem with my leg/armpit hair XD (TMI?)
same here. i'm no longer self concious about my armpit hair. i let them bad boys out in public. lol. i'm totally comfortable now. my brother used to tease me all the time. and i just got over it.
Quote from: Wil Najera on July 16, 2012, 07:35:34 PM
same here. i'm no longer self concious about my armpit hair. i let them bad boys out in public. lol. i'm totally comfortable now. my brother used to tease me all the time. and i just got over it.
yeah my mum used to complain a bit about it, but now she cool with it
Quote from: Wil Najera on July 16, 2012, 07:35:34 PM
same here. i'm no longer self concious about my armpit hair. i let them bad boys out in public. lol. i'm totally comfortable now. my brother used to tease me all the time. and i just got over it.
I concur. Plus I'm hoping the hair on my legs will distract from how stick thin they are. Damn genetics...damn father and his chicken legs! :D ....and mother actually now I think about it. Geez no wonder theyre thin, I was pretty much screwed from the get go.
I spent most of my day lying down playing on my vita with a few cups of tea and occasionally rubbing a ginger cat behind the ears. What's not to be happy about in that situation ;D
Finding myself capable of hope and inspiration. Also finding time for myself.
Being trans means i'm a guy who can relate to girls with their problems but still be the rock to help support them...i love my friends and our bondship ^o^
Quote from: JayKyle on July 17, 2012, 08:24:25 PM
Being trans means i'm a guy who can relate to girls with their problems but still be the rock to help support them...i love my friends and our bondship ^o^
totally know how that goes. also, i have several gay friends. and they're all pretty femme. haha. they make me feel manlier. :3
Quote from: Wil Najera on July 17, 2012, 08:28:32 PM
totally know how that goes. also, i have several gay friends. and they're all pretty femme. haha. they make me feel manlier. :3
haha i understand that too though i'm still not sure how high i stand on the manly scale yet XD lol
Quote from: Liam Erik on July 17, 2012, 09:55:00 PM
I did a lot of carding and spinning today, and when I got two strands to ply together I ended up with a lot more yarn than I expected. I'm getting ready to ply a second skein now. ;D
That's really cool. Do you know what you're going to make out of it yet?
What made me happy was that I found out that all of my practice PCAT scores would fall into the 99th percentile. Oh god, please let that happen.
First real lecture for Gender Studies this Semester, unit title is 'Sex and Bodies'. I think TS and IS issues will get a good run, especially if I have anything to do with it. Already have my Tutorial questions worked out for next week.
I am really enjoying Uni.
Our lecturer is an American, but we don't hold that against her. :laugh: She is great. I was talking to her this afternoon, and it really does look like it will be a great unit.
I will admit to having a bit of a crush on her too. ;D
Karen.
Seeing Laura Jane Grace live in concert :-)
I felt quite good about how I looked/things turned out today and I got some new deoderant...also found out that the harris teeter right next door is starting to carry my soy fruit protein milk. A big beautiful butterfly also crossed the road while i was waiting at a stop light....life just seems really good right now...even though things aren't the best right now. (how strange how things turn out the way they do)...maybe i had this day off for a reason.
Everything has worked out so I can go to my friend's birthday party, I went to her place for supper, and I got to know another person who is pretty cool.
Also, I got my marks back: 98%. I didn't beat the record for the exam, but I got the same mark as the last person who beat it.
Being able to help one of my neighbors in distress
She is somewhat bound to a power chair due to her age and physical size and had gotten stuck in the lobby entrance door with several bags of groceries which were tearing open and spilling out her goods
I got her to her apt. and groceries put away
Some people at my apt.s have complained about me doing regular rounds to to check the entrances etc. I and others have been glad on several occasions that I continue to do so
Humph!!! To the complainers
The sunset over the Pacific Ocean this evening looked like a Maxfield Parrish painting.
Quote from: Jamie D on July 18, 2012, 11:54:49 PM
The sunset over the Pacific Ocean this evening looked like a Maxfield Parrish painting.
Sounds gorgeous
What made me happy is a glass of champagne right now, for no reason at all
Quote from: Jamie D on July 18, 2012, 11:54:49 PM
The sunset over the Pacific Ocean this evening looked like a Maxfield Parrish painting.
And by the time dawn broke in Oz this morning it looked like his oils had run overnight. Can't trust that Pacific, can you? Same sun obviously
Still happy about the fun I had with my friends yesterday. I think things might go right this time.
Dancing around to Family Force 5 and other fun music.
The absolutely fabulous reception I was given by a Public Servant bureaucrat at the Births, Deaths and Marriage Registry when making application for name and gender change on my birth certificate.
Just need to provide the mountain of ID and copious other document that keep the Public Service ticking over and I will be legal.
Another step closer. YAY
Huggs
Catherine ;D
I have work today! (unless i show up and they send me home...but so far so good!)
scratching an itch
Watching the doggy have fun chasing whatever and pulling up grass in the yard and running in circles as fast as he can with occasional runbys on my feet and then leaping and smacking himself into my thigh belly first.
Being able to video chat with Caleb, Don and Azmaria every night in Google Hangout makes me happy. Caleb's a great guy, he's sweet and very entertaining The 'cleaning of the fridge' was like a trainwreck. I couldn't stop watching him clean out his fridge because his reactions were so funny. Don as always helps fuel the flames of laughter and gives us a non-Trans perspective on life He's like my councillor and dear friend in one... only better. And Azmaria sit's in the shadows. She too has a great sense of humor and always falls asleep in front of the camera, like she doesn't want to miss a moment with the gang.
I can't think of a better bunch of people to chat with every night. ^_^
about to work out hoorah!
I got a 96 on the PCAT :) There was also a hot guy doing pushups in the middle of the room during the break.
Now it's time to celebrate with munchies and video games.
I'm also headed to a metalsmiths conference this weekend which is going to be fantastic.
Quote from: Keaira on July 19, 2012, 12:49:33 PM
Being able to video chat with Caleb, Don and Azmaria every night in Google Hangout makes me happy. Caleb's a great guy, he's sweet and very entertaining The 'cleaning of the fridge' was like a trainwreck. I couldn't stop watching him clean out his fridge because his reactions were so funny. Don as always helps fuel the flames of laughter and gives us a non-Trans perspective on life He's like my councillor and dear friend in one... only better. And Azmaria sit's in the shadows. She too has a great sense of humor and always falls asleep in front of the camera, like she doesn't want to miss a moment with the gang.
I can't think of a better bunch of people to chat with every night. ^_^
These things make me happy too. :) Seeing all of you in the evening is one of the highlights of my day. I can honestly say that each and every member of the group has taught me something unique, important, and valuable.
Being able to tell my mom that I wish I was a female without her freaking out on me!
Cauliflower
I got to hang out with my friend again today.
Aww my son gave me kisses and cuddles and now he's off with his trucks again.
Cowboy Bebop music
I didn't realise how tense and tired my body was until I slipped into bed and it relaxed and I couldn't help but go 'aaaahhhhhhhh....'
It was epic.
New workout routine is intense (and i'm so out of shape hahhaha) but i felt kind of beastly for at least being able to complete the first advance session (i guess thats what its called ^o^)
Woke up and I actually feel like a person again. Finally over being sick :D
laughter
Rice Crackers: Black Seasme with wasabi soy all over Freak to the yeah!
$6
Lemon Drops *sugar sugar sugar!*
My adorable son. Music.
Bought a few bottles of wine to share with friends next week as an early birthday present to myself
Had a really nice afternoon/evening with some friends
Oh, and had my lunch paid for out of the blue
My friend bought me some new underwear XD
While we were waiting for a bus at the bus stop, a very intoxicated man decided to give me a free can of beer. SCORE! ;D :o ;D
won $50 on a two dollar scratch off that I bought on a whim.
a piece of fruit
Caleb and I watched Episode 1 of Hourou Musuko (Wandering Son) together. Knowing just what kind of emotions I felt watching it, I knew he would feel much the same too. and I was right. ^_^
It makes you happy knowing I cried? :P
*hug*
Listening to Cinema Bizarre
Seeing my sister
Quote from: Papa Taco on July 21, 2012, 06:21:33 AM
It makes you happy knowing I cried? :P
*hug*
It made me happy that you could watch such a beautiful anime and feel something. That you cried because of it was besides the point. Besides, there's nothing wrong with a grown man crying. ^_^
I did also enjoy watching
One Of The Girls with you too.
Great ride to Miena on Great Lake with the Uni Motorcycle Society, vbia New Norfolk, and Bothwell. No traffic and lots of bends.
Not so happy discovering that my Triumph Street Triple doesn't get 200km out of a tank! Filled up with less than a litre remaining.
Quote from: Keaira on July 21, 2012, 12:19:15 PM
It made me happy that you could watch such a beautiful anime and feel something. That you cried because of it was besides the point. Besides, there's nothing wrong with a grown man crying. ^_^
I did also enjoy watching One Of The Girls with you too.
:) Yeah, it was a nice evening. Well, a little late to be evening, but you know what I mean.
I'm still really surprised at how the tears came out though. I've obviously cried since starting hormones, but when the one part came up...it was the first time I've "sobbed" since starting T. And I was really, really shocked at how it sounded and came out. It has a really rocky/gravelly feeling as it came out of my chest, and the actual sound of it felt very rough and broken in relation to how it used to sound. I can't pinpoint if it's due to the slight voice change or just the difference in where my emotions are located and how I feel them in my body now.
But yeah, it really is a well done anime. Difficult, at times, hits close to home, of course. But it uses the visual to express what is so hard for us to put into words, and it does so very well.
Quote from: Papa Taco on July 21, 2012, 02:07:25 PM
:) Yeah, it was a nice evening. Well, a little late to be evening, but you know what I mean.
I'm still really surprised at how the tears came out though. I've obviously cried since starting hormones, but when the one part came up...it was the first time I've "sobbed" since starting T. And I was really, really shocked at how it sounded and came out. It has a really rocky/gravelly feeling as it came out of my chest, and the actual sound of it felt very rough and broken in relation to how it used to sound. I can't pinpoint if it's due to the slight voice change or just the difference in where my emotions are located and how I feel them in my body now.
But yeah, it really is a well done anime. Difficult, at times, hits close to home, of course. But it uses the visual to express what is so hard for us to put into words, and it does so very well.
Now I'm curious to know what I sound like when I cry. I may have to try that anime out to see...although I watched schindlers list the other day and I used to cry a river to that and nothing happened lol.
In the words of Hermione granger I now have the 'emotional range of a teaspoon'. T is wonderful for that, I was always super happy or super depressed and it could from one extreme to the other in 5 minutes. Now I'm just constantly 'fine' lol.
1 cent
My money worries for the month got worked out.
Watching the Batman movies and looking forward to seeing the new one next weekend.
Had a three hour phone call with my youngest sister. We reconciled via email and facebook just two weeks ago, and today was the first time we talked in like 5 years. It is great to have one of my best friends back, and our relationship stronger than ever. :)
Coming home and seeing my dog still in her crate. xD
Oh...and having my dog curled up next to my legs because she has to be next to me. I love my baby. <3
Yesterday, my friend told me that she has always considered Robyn to be a male name. Alright, so she's the first I know of (other than me and Robyn Hitchcock and his parents), but it makes me smile with glee. ;D
Breakfast ;D
Soda
Quote from: Edge on July 22, 2012, 08:38:09 AM
Yesterday, my friend told me that she has always considered Robyn to be a male name. Alright, so she's the first I know of (other than me and Robyn Hitchcock and his parents), but it makes me smile with glee. ;D
When I hear 'Robyn' I automatically think of Robin Hood and because of that I associate it far more with men then women.
My vita made me happy
Quote from: Lee on July 19, 2012, 03:00:04 PM
I got a 96 on the PCAT :) There was also a hot guy doing pushups in the middle of the room during the break.
Now it's time to celebrate with munchies and video games.
I'm also headed to a metalsmiths conference this weekend which is going to be fantastic.
congratulations Lee :)
I have a good friend who does that kind of work. He makes giant art works for museums and parks and super rich people
Quote from: Tom on July 22, 2012, 05:22:38 PM
When I hear 'Robyn' I automatically think of Robin Hood and because of that I associate it far more with men then women.
My vita made me happy
Thank you! This made me happy today.
I've heard so many Robin Hood, Batman and Robin, and bird jokes over the years...
Getting my ears pierced.
Noticeable muscle growth? ^ ^ (even my mom said something!)
Quote from: Jillieann Rose on July 22, 2012, 09:16:07 PM
Getting my ears pierced.
Well done honey. DON'T touch them. Without cleaning your hands. I look back and see the 'massive' studs I had first time, I felt so self conscious. Hee Hee, I now routinely wear one inch silver hoops and drop stone rings in my second ear piercing. If you got them flaunt them. Buying ear rings is a very high ranking hobby, it is up there with shoes and handbags. You cn never have too many.
OK, it was last Friday, but I've been too busy IRL to be online...
Took a friend to a dinner for one of the trans groups here.. She and I had a blast - and coincidently annoyed some people, which also made me happy.
waking up to an "I miss you more." that was sent 5 hours ago
Quote from: JayKyle on July 22, 2012, 10:07:19 PM
Noticeable muscle growth? ^ ^ (even my mom said something!)
Uh oh Arnie's got competition :P
Watching my grandad sneakily spraying weed killer over next doors garden. They haven't touched it in ten years.
Got home way earlier than I though I would from work :)
Messing around with a few scratch offs tonight. I started with about 24$ and ended up with a little over a hundred. also the maintenance guy with the company I work for actually referred to me as she today when he was there, normally he's a bit of an ass to me.
Perusing/bookmarking a new cookbook :icon_joy:
Quote from: Cindy James on July 23, 2012, 04:40:03 AM
Buying ear rings is a very high ranking hobby, it is up there with shoes and handbags. You cn never have too many.
Truer words have never been spoken. :)
Madison
Quote from: Your Humble Savant on July 24, 2012, 01:14:47 AM
Perusing/bookmarking a new cookbook :icon_joy:
So much fun!
I've been on HRT for 8 months today and I'm just so happy about that simple fact. I know it's kinda not a big deal; it's just a date on a calendar, but for me it is big. I never would have predicted that my life would be turning out like this. So grateful for that :D
My first game review.
I came out to my landlady today because I needed to ask her some questions relating to my situation. She is very supportive and understanding which makes me happy. Also, I told her I'm ftm and didn't get into details about the potential fluid part. It made me feel happy to refer to myself as just a man and it makes me happy that that makes me happy (even though it makes no sense).
Got to be really girly when I got a chance to help a friend pick a wedding dress from an on-line catalogue. Both I and another woman helping were more excited than the bride-to-be. ;D
WARNING !! WARNING !!Quote from: justmeinoz on July 25, 2012, 07:02:56 AM
Got to be really girly when I got a chance to help a friend pick a wedding dress from an on-line catalogue. Both I and another woman helping were more excited than the bride-to-be. ;D
Careful Karen. This one may back fire on you yet. Don't worry, should you be needing a bridesmaid or two, I'd be honoured ;D :)
Just be cautious.
Huggs
Catherine
Some cool Bleach amvs are making me happy today.
Mint feast
Quote from: Liam Erik on July 21, 2012, 10:19:18 PM
I finished spinning and plying my fourth skein of yarn today. It shows a marked improvement from skeins two and three. I'm very proud of myself. The wool is from my big wether, Finny, and he was a rejected lamb I fed from a bottle. I'm going to have a Finny blanket. It's gonna be special. :icon_walk:
Seeing your posts makes me so happy, Liam. Now I wish I lived on a farm with sheep. I don't think I actually want to, but you just seem to enjoy it so much, and I want a little piece of that happy.
Also, I'm not going to fail my class. My professor is willing to give me an extension on the work I'm behind on. That's a weight off my chest.
My son, a hetero cis* male, was told by a friend of his, a gay FTM, that he's a "rampaging feminist." The comment was made and received in good humor!
Not only do I love my kids, I love their friends whom I've never met!
There's a box in the office with a printer!! ;D Maybe this means we can actually print stuff off without having to attempt to get a computer in the crowded undergraduate labs.
Olympics soon yey! Paralympics after yey!
I'm excited ;D
Two slices of pizza
called to set up my consultation apointment for my counselor. i'm taking my first step towards starting t and getting further along in my transition. :D i'm overwhelmed with spritely feelings. :3
Quote from: Wil Najera on July 25, 2012, 06:33:57 PM
called to set up my consultation apointment for my counselor. i'm taking my first step towards starting t and getting further along in my transition. :D i'm overwhelmed with spritely feelings. :3
Congrats!
Juice has made me happy....a can of juice
It's fun to be a fanperson.
I went to a party. I didn't even care that I had no success with talking to girls (as I'm really awkward still and don't really want to get involved right now anyway). The thing is though the party wasn't local and some guy actually wound up talking to me by accident because he mistaked me for a guy that works somewhere locally. I never get misgendered from strangers anymore, but after being around my horribly confused family all week, to be told I actually look like a guy someone knows made me feel really good for some reason.
My swimsuit arrived today and it looks great (if I do say so myself)!
Quote from: Connie Anne on July 25, 2012, 09:30:25 PM
My swimsuit arrived today and it looks great (if I do say so myself)!
No pictures - didn't happen ;)
Modesty is NO EXCUSE!!
I'm really looking forward to seeing Batman in a couple days and going out dancing after. Also, I think I'm ready to date again, so it would be a good opportunity to fight my shyness and see if I meet someone.
A handful of ripe, juicy Rainier cherries on the stem.
Quote from: Jamie D on July 26, 2012, 12:00:29 AM
No pictures - didn't happen ;)
Modesty is NO EXCUSE!!
Jamie dear, if you buy a bikini ---- I'll take your word for it :P :-* :laugh: :laugh:
Quote from: Jamie D on July 26, 2012, 12:00:29 AM
No pictures - didn't happen ;)
Modesty is NO EXCUSE!!
Go over to the 'The official "You look fabulous darling" thread. 2 (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,122149.msg970192.html#msg970192)'
More thigh hair! ;D Still really soft and downy, but hey, it wasn't there before.
Now if those few random bald patches would start growing SOMETHING, I'd be over the moon. I feel a bit asymmetrical right now.
Well, I have been trying to lose weight and one of the ways is going on a walk.
Usually I dread going on walks because it gives me time to think and I usually depress myself when I think. Today though it was pretty good I was thinking positively and picturing myself as a girl and looking pretty good. :)
Also my therapy session today made me pretty happy.
Lemonade
Me and my best friend managed to get tickets to a sold out concert 'cause he's disabled and they decided to be nice and help us out.
And www.Autostraddle.com (http://www.autostraddle.com) (pretty much the most awesome place on the net for queer 20-something trans girls fyi) managed to fund its $40k donation drive in 22 hours.
Today people are being awesome. Keep being awesome people.
Not today, happened Wednesday, but I finally got the courage to get my lip pierced and it went fantastic. The guy who did it was really sweet, asked me off the bat to confirm for him what pronouns I preferred (something I never would've expected), and it was a lot cheaper than I thought it'd be.
its Friday and works done for the week...
Had coffee and chat with a good friend I haven't seen for a few weeks; and got another set of false eyelashes, for tomorrow's "Christmas in July" GLBTIQ fundraiser at a friends farm.
I order new glasses Monday and got them today.
They are very feminine and I love the way they make me look.
Catching up with my friend DRAIN. :)
A REALLY long day at work. It got my mind off of a lot of the crappy things rattling around in there for most of the day
My friends. I've been having a somewhat down day today and just knowing my friends has lifted me up.
Walked into a 'Suzanne Grae' shop, and the manageress said Hi Cindy I've got some new season stock in and I've kept this in reserve for you so you could have first dibs. Geez now the shops are shopping for me :laugh: Me thinks I'm accepted, or a least my wallet is :laugh: :laugh:
Keaira was singing on webcam. Possibly one of the sweetest* things I've ever heard. :)
* she then proceeded to be a total "girl" and analyzing how the word "sweet" could possibly be taken badly. ;)
*Blush*
I didn't do it, I didn't sing so much as....hum, scream, warble and butcher some songs. It's amazing what entertain's some people :P
Yeah yeah. So modest. :p
Dancing to Sailor Moon music at 6:11 am while waiting for Yugioh to come on at 11:30 a.m. Pretending to cosplay the episode where Fiore tries to destroy the planet.....EPIC
Quote from: edderkopp on July 28, 2012, 05:09:59 AM
Yeah yeah. So modest. :p
Uuuhuh! and you're biased. :P
I actually still hate my voice though.
Quote from: Keaira on July 28, 2012, 06:10:59 AM
Uuuhuh! and you're biased. :P
I actually still hate my voice though.
I have no biases. They have all been eliminated through, er, very scientific processes and checks. Yep.
Feeling more at peace knowing that I am not alone and finaly feel like I fit somewhere with what I am suffering from since I recently joined.
Saturday is my day to shop for my needs plus.
Will come back with groceries and other needs to see me throught this week.
But I'm sure there will be at least one article of clothing among the stash. ;D
I tried out my new swimsuit this morning when my daughter and I went swimming at my apartment's pool. The water was pretty damn cold, but it felt great to be in the water in that suit.
Also, the bike shop was able to fix the broken spoke on my bike shortly after I dropped it off. I have wheels again!
Went to the Credit Union and the clerk couldn't believe that I was the person pictured on my drivers licence.
Also a clerk at a store who knew me ask if I had a bother with my old male name. I said that he was a relative. We continued chatting while she checked me out. There was no indication that she realized who I was.
What a wonderful day. ;D
I had a fun time today putting on make up and finally finding a foundation that matches me :D
My oldest stepdaughter finally addressed me as "Maddie" and referred to me as "she". It took 11 months for her to come around, but I am very happy she did.
Talking to Caleb made my day. I hope we can talk again sometime.
This many sound bad but I looked in the mirror.
I was amazed when I saw a women that would have turn my head when I was young and thought I was a male. Oh how things have changed.
Quote from: Jillieann Rose on July 28, 2012, 11:08:43 PM
This many sound bad but I looked in the mirror.
I was amazed when I saw a women that would have turn my head when I was young and thought I was a male. Oh how things have changed.
That's great!
Quote from: Edge on July 28, 2012, 11:08:32 PM
Talking to Caleb made my day. I hope we can talk again sometime.
;D I was just about to post that in here too. Well, except that I was talking to you, not myself, obviously.
Since midnight has passed, I can now say that talking to Keaira has made me happy today. :) Not that it doesn't always. She probably thinks my IQ probably appears about 20 points lower than it really is, because she makes me smile like a damn fool all the time. If I keep it up my face might get stuck that way, along with a blush. :P
Quote from: edderkopp on July 29, 2012, 06:20:53 AM
Since midnight has passed, I can now say that talking to Keaira has made me happy today. :) Not that it doesn't always. She probably thinks my IQ probably appears about 20 points lower than it really is, because she makes me smile like a damn fool all the time. If I keep it up my face might get stuck that way, along with a blush. :P
I think the lower IQ is from the stuff you've put up with from me. :p
I've audibly tortured you for 2 days and you haven't told me to stop. Caleb, you're pretty tough. :D
Quote from: Keaira on July 29, 2012, 06:27:37 AM
I think the lower IQ is from the stuff you've put up with from me. :p
I've audibly tortured you for 2 days and you haven't told me to stop. Caleb, you're pretty tough. :D
The only thing from talking to you that might lower my IQ is our appreciation for toilet humour, lol.
As for the sound torture, oh yeah, I was clearly suffering. :P
Well friday for me was getting pampered with a hair cut / restyled and died maroon for a new look $120, then going shopping for a new pair of denim jeans $10 thank to a gift card I had, what a great day it was...
I realized that for the first time in years, I'm in a very good "place."
I'm transitioning...I'm getting a divorce...I can save money for SRS and FFS...I'm not that bad-looking...I have a really cool car (fixed up as *I* like it)...on schedule for losing weight...taking care of myself...and have a really nice place to live with great neighbors.
Yeah, life is good.
:)
It just sank in. The first person I shared my poetry with, after my therapist and my spouse, gave me a great compliment.
So, maybe my voice is worth hearing. Maybe I can do this. :)
Ice cream, progress on cleaning, and generally feeling happy.
"I love you Alan!"
Juice
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Quote from: edderkopp on July 29, 2012, 06:26:55 PM
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For some reason I
really admire your arm.
For some reason, I'm suddenly craving a burger... Cue fast food run tomorrow.
Quote from: Malachite on July 29, 2012, 06:31:07 PM
For some reason I really admire your arm.
Haha. That is hands down the most random compliment I've ever gotten. But thanks man. :)
I had a productive session with my therapist today.
finishing my long bibliography citation paper thingie for english. The rush of happiness that flooded my mind was that of extreme relief and bliss that I could goof off once again.
Quote from: edderkopp on July 29, 2012, 07:48:37 PM
Haha. That is hands down the most random compliment I've ever gotten. But thanks man. :)
You are welcome. It has made me happy today strangely.
My mouth was so dry, and I made some orange juice blended with some ice...it turned out so frothy and amazing. I swear it came from the teats of goddesses.
Quote from: edderkopp on July 30, 2012, 11:35:52 AM
My mouth was so dry, and I made some orange juice blended with some ice...it turned out so frothy and amazing. I swear it came from the teats of goddesses.
You're missing the double shot of whipped cream vodka.
:P
Quote from: JasonRX on July 30, 2012, 11:38:02 AM
You're missing the double shot of whipped cream vodka.
:P
Dang, you're right.
I need a smoothie.
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Quote from: edderkopp on July 30, 2012, 11:42:01 AM
Dang, you're right.
I need a smoothie.
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Lulz.
Why the picture of PepperAnn's mom?
XD
It's Miriam Pataki from Hey Arnold! There's a ton of veiled references to her being an alcoholic, lol. She always says "I need a smoothie", and it took me years to realize what was actually in them...she was basically sauced all the time.
Getting some money from selling books back to my college. Sadly not all the money belongs to me as two of the three books were my sisters so I'm going to have to give her her share. I had to go to the main campus and I felt all....collegy even while clearly presenting as a female.
I can't believe I've never asked you, Malachite...what are you taking at college?
Quote from: edderkopp on July 30, 2012, 12:58:15 PM
I can't believe I've never asked you, Malachite...what are you taking at college?
I am taking Criminal Justice. :police:
Quote from: Malachite on July 30, 2012, 01:02:07 PM
I am taking Criminal Justice. :police:
:police: Best be on my best behaviour.
Quote from: edderkopp on July 30, 2012, 11:48:09 AM
It's Miriam Pataki from Hey Arnold! There's a ton of veiled references to her being an alcoholic, lol. She always says "I need a smoothie", and it took me years to realize what was actually in them...she was basically sauced all the time.
*lulzatbeingbadwithrecognizingcharacters*
What you just said makes me want to watch "Hey Arnold" again at some point though.
Shoes in the mail!
Went out at lunchtime and saw three girls as tall as me.
Gives us all hope that there are real girls who are 6' tall.
They did not stand out and looked very natural.
Most of the anorexics staggering down catwalks are over 6' anyway Jenny, so if you are tall and look like a woman instead of a stick insect you are ahead of the game. ;)
Starting to regain some of my self-esteem and resilience after a bad bout of family rejection, and lesbian transphobic indifference.
Karen.
Karen
Yes your right they are a bit on the stick side of thin.
That's one thing I really don't have to worry about regarding family. It would be nice to have some after everything I have been through.
Keep you head up and do the best you can. Realised that after I lost my partner 5 years ago and much therapy later.
Another good thing is that I am coming to terms with how I feel and can relate to so many here in so many ways for once.
I feel I don't have to pretend to anyone here and can be true about who I am. Such a relief in so many ways.
Jen
Caleb made me laugh so hard I threw up! 4 TIMES!!
Quote from: Keaira on July 31, 2012, 07:15:33 AM
Caleb made me laugh so hard I threw up! 4 TIMES!!
Now, to my defense, we were laughing together at videos so it was not all me! :P Like this one...
Extreme Movie-Fart Scene (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FB7rKMcNnak#)
had my first meeting with my counselor today. :) went well. next week we're gonna be starting the process to get my letters for t and name change. :) i'm stoked!!!
A general feeling of contentment.My apartment is clean.
Bleach. I'm a little nervous about rambling about it too much in case I look like a dork, but I love being a fanboy. It's so much fun and it takes so little to make me happy. :laugh:
I submitted my Name Change today - if only it wasn't going to take 20 days..
Quote from: kelly_aus on August 01, 2012, 03:13:09 AM
I submitted my Name Change today - if only it wasn't going to take 20 days..
I sent mine off today as well, that was going to be my post :laugh: :laugh: :laugh: :laugh: :laugh: :laugh: :laugh: :laugh:
I went to the police station to get my forms certified for theabove. A really cute trainee cop asked what was going on to the policewoman who was certifying my papers. So I told him about my name change and he asked why. So I told him about having a sex change and he asked what I was changing from and too (fell in love). Was going to offer to play with his truncheon but thought that might be too forward before the first date >:-)
Reading posts from friends who have put in the papers for their name change. :-* to both of you!
Also hearing from Cindy, as my posts over the last few days were a bit dismal. Thanks. You should have asked him if he had an extendable baton. >:-)
I was thinking today that I have so, so much to show for being myself. More than I ever would have if I had walked the "safe" path.
today shopping: everyone spoke to me as a girl :eusa_dance:
I remembered that my university has a health plan.
Also, I made a decision to talk to my doctor about starting T. I will wait a bit because I need to be sure and I want to get some stuff out of the way first, but making the decision makes me feel happy.
Quote from: Edge on August 01, 2012, 02:39:37 PM
I remembered that my university has a health plan.
Also, I made a decision to talk to my doctor about starting T. I will wait a bit because I need to be sure and I want to get some stuff out of the way first, but making the decision makes me feel happy.
I think you will be happier on T. I was thinking the other day you seem to be male way more often at least on here. So you might feel more comfortable more often with a male body.
My best mate made me happy today
Quote from: Edge on August 01, 2012, 02:39:37 PM
I remembered that my university has a health plan.
Also, I made a decision to talk to my doctor about starting T. I will wait a bit because I need to be sure and I want to get some stuff out of the way first, but making the decision makes me feel happy.
This is a big step! I am happy for you. ;D
Quote from: Edge on August 01, 2012, 02:39:37 PM
I remembered that my university has a health plan.
Also, I made a decision to talk to my doctor about starting T. I will wait a bit because I need to be sure and I want to get some stuff out of the way first, but making the decision makes me feel happy.
I'm with the other guys on this. Congrats mate! Hope it all works out for you. :)
Thanks. :) Your support makes me happy. The idea of having a male body makes me feel giddy.
Webcam antics. ;D
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OH DEAR LORD!!! lol
It should be your avatar. :P
Lol.. uuuumm.. no. Halloween maybe. lol. of all the pictures you have in your stalker collection.... :P
Roughing out 500 word History essay and getting 100% on an on-line Biology quiz!
Spending time with my kinda, sorta, but not really, GF..
Quote from: edderkopp on August 02, 2012, 06:13:20 AM
Webcam antics. ;D
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I wonder what caleb was doing on the other end of the web cam to make you have that facial expression ;D
*goes into hiding*
Quote from: Tom on August 02, 2012, 08:22:14 PM
*goes into hiding*
I second this motion. *hides too*
Somehow I feel safer in the "unhappy" thread. >.>
Quote from: Tom on August 02, 2012, 08:22:14 PM
I wonder what caleb was doing on the other end of the web cam to make you have that facial expression ;D
*goes into hiding*
LOL. She was just messing around. That's one of her less terrifying/crazy faces. :P She knew I was going to post a picture but she wasn't sure which one, so the "DEAR LORD" is her honest response, lol.
"What made you happy today?"
Well, for me, I got my eyebrows waxed. :-) They look pretty, if I do say so myself.
I went to the library and got so many books that they barely fit in my backpack. We went with my beautiful friend and her son and had a great time.
I won £500 in a poker game tonight
*dances jig of delight*
x
Did some homework, wigged out a bit on my game and I am about to go running I think :)
Reading that mandyh92 is getting better finally..
I had the best day for as long as I can remember. I find it hard to remember true happiness.
I went for my first laser session on my face to get rid of my facial hair as I have very aggressive growth.
Can't describe how wonderful it feels to know that I am making slow and steady progress after so many years of pain and suffering by being in denial of my feelings.
I have a second session booked and am looking forward to that when the time comes around.
I feel it will make me look more neutral without facial hair and much easier for the steps ahead in this marathon that we all are participating (enduring?) in to find our true selves.
I know not every day will be a good as this but we should take them when we can.
Love
Jen
Had my nail extensions/gels replaced. The girl doing it asked me why I was having nails done as a guy (sad) I told her I was TG undergoing SRS. She then looked at me a and smiled and said. 'I will do extra special job' . This was a young Asia woman, who didn't speak very good English, and was suffering from time of month and feeling rotten and tired. She told me so and was wonderful. She didn't do a special job, She did a brilliant job.
Thank you Trinity you will never read this, but thank you.
Cindy
Congratulations Jenny. It hurts but it is worth it in my book. :icon_flamed: Welcome to the Fried Follicle Club!
Cindy, if I need my nails done any time I am in Adelaide I will make a point of going there.
I have finished the rough draft of a 1000 word Gender Studies essay that was a tough slog. :P Even more pleased that it actually bears some resemblance to rational thought and English grammar. ;D
Karen.
My son has been giving me a lot of hugs. :) He's so cute.
Kids are a lot of hard work and it gets very frustrating at times. One hug is all it takes to make it all worth it. I've been getting several in a row for the past few days.
Sorry for gushing about my son, but I love him very much and am very happy.
I have been off of smokes this entire day. Which doesn't mean much but my body feels better :)
Quote from: Snowpaw on August 04, 2012, 12:39:16 PM
I have been off of smokes this entire day. Which doesn't mean much but my body feels better :)
Congratulations!
Lord of the rings, extended version of course. I still get giddy about watching it even now.
My dream I had about kneeling down to Sailor Saturn. I have no clue why.
Finishing Sailor Moon S even if it was the edited circumcised version-now time to relax and play video games.
They were playing '80's music at the pizza place I went to for lunch today.
Quote from: Malachite on August 04, 2012, 06:04:10 PM
My dream I had about kneeling down to Sailor Saturn.
Given that I have no idea who/what sailor Saturn is, is that meant to sound the way it does? >.<
Quote from: Tom on August 04, 2012, 06:22:14 PM
Given that I have no idea who/what sailor Saturn is, is that meant to sound the way it does? >.<
I plead nolo contendere >.>
Quote from: Tom on August 04, 2012, 05:49:59 PM
Lord of the rings, extended version of course. I still get giddy about watching it even now.
Fellowship, The Two Towers, Return of the King or the entire 11-and-a-half hour marathon? I've only ever managed 2 in one go :embarrassed:
You'll get to do it again now its been announced that The Hobbit is going to come in 3 parts :)
x
I feel fantastic right now.
One of the books I got out of the library is really funny and I am looking forward to reading more of it. It's a comic book/graphic novel/whatever called Creature Tech.
Thinking about anime is making me happy.
Quote from: Malachite on August 05, 2012, 12:19:28 AM
Thinking about anime is making me happy.
Thinking about anime makes me happy everyday. It's so much fun being a fanperson.
Quote from: Edge on August 05, 2012, 12:21:11 AM
Thinking about anime makes me happy everyday. It's so much fun being a fanperson.
I whole-heartedly agree with that. Even if I'm not watching any particular anime at the moment I still think about it everyday. It's the one thing that keeps me going totally bonkers especially since I it will be years before I transition. I can honestly my brain is totally warped and nearly burnt to a crisp from too much Sailor Moon because of my desire to escape this world and go into theirs and at times it has even clouded my judgement as I tend to think I'm the characters occasionally but I wouldn't have it any other way. I think of it as a way to keep my morale up.
Good news Erik. Being a country girl I always like to hear a farmer is doing well.
Actually managed to get my 500 word History essay finalised and printed, my 1000 word Gender Studies finished, although there will probably a bit of final editing needed, and my French homework done as well.
I have just opened a well deserved Barossa Valley White Frontignac, Kies winery, 2007. Very nice and will go well with the Marinara Carbonara pasta on the stove. :)
Quote from: justmeinoz on August 05, 2012, 02:48:04 AM
Good news Erik. Being a country girl I always like to hear a farmer is doing well.
Actually managed to get my 500 word History essay finalised and printed, my 1000 word Gender Studies finished, although there will probably a bit of final editing needed, and my French homework done as well.
I have just opened a well deserved Barossa Valley White Frontignac, Kies winery, 2007. Very nice and will go well with the Marinara Carbonara pasta on the stove. :)
As Devlyn said in another post. I travel with fork (and wine glass). Congrats on the hard work.
I took my wife out of the nursing home for lunch. It is our 30th wedding anniversary this week.
Quote from: Cindy James on August 05, 2012, 02:51:40 AM
I took my wife out of the nursing home for lunch. It is our 30th wedding anniversary this week.
Congratulations. :-*
I actually *GASP* slept. About 4.5 hours total. It felt like a whole night at this point.
Science makes me happy.
I am so excited about getting started.
Speaking of being a fanperson, it's still fun and amvs may be really nerdy, but they're so much fun to watch.
Being the only folks with air conditioning in our neighborhood. OK, I wish everybody else had it too who needs it, but ahhhh it feels good to have it. Portlanders weren't built for 100+ degrees F on top of the humidity. People were still milling around outside grumbling at each other in their pajamas at 2:00 a.m. while my wife and I curled up in blissful, cool insomnia. A/C helps me enjoy one of the sunniest Willamette Valley summer in recorded history.
Sailor Moon S Music-it's jazzy
I'm trying out a new workout routine ;)
I also had a three course Sunday lunch dinner today at restaurant with the family
They found it highly amusing that I got charged as a 'child'
A young guy said hi to me today, but I ignored him as I just wanted to use the computer, now if it was a girl it would of been a different store..but still made me happy he said hi...
I was reading on a Sailor Moon forum on how others would change the show and the majority of them thought like me and that made me happy knowing I wasn't alone in my feelings.
My cat loves me a whole lot. Also just cat things in general. They are weird animals. I like how he takes an extra special bath after he eats food, and I like to see him kill his catnip toy over and over, and it's funny to watch him get really purry sometimes and headbutt furniture so hard he falls over. It's all so silly and I like how low-stakes it is. Not scary at all, very chill.
This happened on Saturday.
I was at my Brother-in-law's house preparing for my mother-in-law's memorial when his dad came in. he stared at me and I said, "Wow! you have lost so much weight." he told me he has lost 200lb. then I went outside. After the memorial service, my Brother-in-law told me, "Oh, by the way, your transformation seems to be working. My Dad and my Pastor both asked who that black-haired woman was and I had to explain who you were."
His pastor also told him that his job was to love me, not to judge. So now my Brother-in-law said I am welcome in his house again. Since he is meeting me half way, I went to church with him this past sunday.
Went to the doctor today expecting yet more disappointments, as I have grown quite accustomed to them over the last year. Left with an appointment for blood tests on the 20th, and the knowledge that if everything comes back positive, it is all systems go on HRT. Thanks for the surprise, universe, I love you too~ <3
We went to the park today, had a lot of fun, had ice cream on the way home, lazed around outside, then went to my friend's house for supper.
I found another song that I like.
Got back from the beach and ate a ton of meat. In Ecuador, the beaches are actually CLEAN. I know that's a strange concept for you guys in America.
Going to see Better Than Chocolate tonight for free, with my lovely Portuguese friend (she called me 'a star' for emailing her a photo of where it's showing, and I got all shivery... sad :) )
Quote from: Keaira on August 06, 2012, 01:38:37 PM
His pastor also told him that his job was to love me, not to judge. So now my Brother-in-law said I am welcome in his house again. Since he is meeting me half way, I went to church with him this past sunday.
Nice to hear Keaira. :)
Met three new people at my support group meeting, and caught up with two girlfriends I haven't seen in a while as well. :) :)
I changed my avatar in celebration of my son's upcoming birthday. Kenpachi (the guy with the spiky hair) represents me and Yachiru (the girl with the pink hair) represents my son. :) Yes, I know they're fictional characters, but shh! I'm having fun.
The book I reserved came in at the library today. In a little while I'll ride over there and get it!
Got an email from my HR department in reply to how do I change my name on their records. They sent me a form with old name new name, old address new address, old gender new gender.
Geex another toughie. They sure make life difficult at my work :laugh: :laugh: :laugh:
I found out what my Brother-in-law's Dad's reaction was when he learned who "the dark-haired woman in the living room" was. he said, "Not half bad!"
And I'm watching Transformers the movie with Azzie and Caleb. ^_^
Quote from: Keaira on August 08, 2012, 04:22:15 AM
And I'm watching Transformers the movie with Azzie and Caleb. ^_^
Yeah, Keaira can literally quote the whole movie off by heart. I look down and see her lips moving along with the dialogue/music. Horrifying, but awfully awesome. ;D
The fact that my avatar is officially and extremely awesome made me happy.
My parents invited one of their friends over to my house for dinner (still trying to figure out how that happened btw)
I was expecting something a bit awkward and my heart wasn't really in it, but it turned out to be a lot of fun. Not sure if it was an 'in your face' to mom and dad, but not really caring right now. Plus their friend brought me 6 stellar bottles of wine :laugh:
A guy leaned over and then apologized and explained that he thought I was his boyfriend for a second.
My mother said that I sound like a baritone.
Having several gender-affirming dreams last night, although I can't remember any other details.
*uncharacteristic girly hero-worship squeal*
I just got a message from Daniela Sea :) :) :)
Quote from: Padma on August 09, 2012, 02:48:01 PM
*uncharacteristic girly hero-worship squeal*
I just got a message from Daniela Sea :) :) :)
Omg this has made me happy today!
The best cupcakes I have ever eaten, exercise, and tacos. And my son ate half a container of cherry tomatoes (so far... unless he hid them under the couch). Muahahahahahahaha!
Who's Daniela Sea?
Quote from: Padma on August 09, 2012, 02:48:01 PM
*uncharacteristic girly hero-worship squeal*
I just got a message from Daniela Sea :) :) :)
*perhaps not so uncharacteristic girly GASP* ;D
I am so jealous!!
Quote from: Edge on August 09, 2012, 06:37:33 PM
The best cupcakes I have ever eaten, exercise, and tacos. And my son ate half a container of cherry tomatoes (so far... unless he hid them under the couch). Muahahahahahahaha!
Who's Daniela Sea?
Q: What's red and invisible?
A: No tomatoes!
Daniela Sea was Little Prince in Shortbus (sigh...), also Max in The L Word - she's my tomboy role model (and has amazing eyes...)
Caleb's face when he smelled the rotten bisk in his Fridge. I made him smell it twice.
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And smell it twice for you I did.
You're also the first person who gets to post my face on Susan's, you even got to do it before I did... :P
you get to be privy to so many awful and dark corners of my life. Lucky you!
The first time was for your own twisted enjoyment. LMAO! second was for the camera.
I have witnessed so many things that have made me cringe. OMG!
I will admit, I did it out of a sick masochism the first time. Cannot deny.
oh and it's only going to get worse. I suggest you run for the hills while you can. I've already made you puke 4 times. :P 4 times in one night at that.
Caleb's actually pretty cute when he isn't looking like he is about to barf. ^_^
Catching up with friends at "Out For Drinks" tonight, and felt totally relaxed even though I was one of the few singles there. Followed by a fantastic Thai dinner.
Quote from: DianaP on August 06, 2012, 08:56:33 PM
Got back from the beach and ate a ton of meat. In Ecuador, the beaches are actually CLEAN. I know that's a strange concept for you guys in America.
I've never been to a dirty beach. Really? I've visited lots of gulf coast locales and a handful of west coast beaches. I don't have conscious memory of my atlantic coast exposure. But I've never heard of one that had litter or scuzz. Are you visiting oceans or rivers?...I should probably go back and read the thread. I've been inattentive.
My son likes this cool, artsy book.
I think I've succeeded in shedding some redundant labels. I'd somehow ended up with the impression that being a woman who's not feminine must mean I'm in some way bigender, or androgyne, or gender-neutral, or or or (and I've been encouraged in that belief by some people, including some trans women who are uncomfortable with my non-femme-ness).
But realising that there are loads of women out there who are just like me made me realise I'm fine just calling myself a woman. Just because society has a problem with my gender expression doesn't make my gender-identity ambiguous. So there :). I'm just a tall hippy dyke, end of story (well, until the next time I decide different...)
I don't mind thinking of my gender expression as androgyne, in a way - though that kind of presupposes "men should be like this, women should be like that, so if you're not, you must be..." - it's all so loaded.
Blah blah - and yes, this is making me happy (and yes, I have eaten 2 packets of biscuits...)
Being able to help someone who is struggling a bit
Claire Stanfield amvs
General anime nerdiness has made me very happy.
Tonight I sat with a trans guy and a person whose gender I don't know, and we got tipsy and showed each other our top surgery scars and talked about T and respected each other's pronouns and it was wonderful. Also, one of them was really cute and now I have a little bit of a crush.
Throwing my son his first birthday party, after never having celebrated one before in my life due to previous religious beliefs. He was so excited and happy with the presents and the cake, candles, and everything. It really was a beautiful day.
I've just had 2 great evenings in a row.
Last night I had a very productive meeting/pastoral care session at my church (which I've detailed in the Christianity board). And tonight, I had dinner with my daughter, my son, and a friend of my son who is FTM. All in all we had a great dinner conversation, and my son's friend seemed grateful to have transition be "acceptable dinner conversation."
Bleaching my hair blonde in preparation for going a crazy colour..
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Quote from: kelly_aus on August 11, 2012, 04:58:03 AM
Bleaching my hair blonde in preparation for going a crazy colour..
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You look great in this picture. I think its the twinkle in your eyes. The lighter shade suits you. Can't wait to see the final look.
I got some very positive feedback from the editorial evaluation for the book I'm trying to publish.
I got this message from a women that I have worked with for the last 6 months.
She has never seen me outside of work. I am slowly transitioning there.
QuoteWOW!!!!! I did not recognize you!!!
That was me shocked. LOL You are absolutely beautiful!!!!
You looked completely different...you looked happy.
It was wonderful to see you happy for a change.
You Go Girl!!!!!!!!!
I am now on cloud nine.
I got to talk to another bigender person and he was very understanding. I feel better and more confident about my gender identity now. He also told me I'm a very positive person. :)
Spoke with my Mom for the first time in 5 years. Tomorrow we are going to breakfast, and I am loaning her an outfit to wear to my niece's wedding this week, since my mom doesn't own any dresses or skirts. We wear the same sizes.
That's ace :) x
(I'm still awake at 6 in the morning - and for some reason I'm happy.)
Right on Madeline :) Very happy for you and hope all goes well with you and your Mom
Hugs
I spoke to my aunt and she told me that I'm more than welcome to come up to NY and stay with her before my jobs this coming weekend, so right after I take care of a few things thursday morning, I'm going to drive up and spend a day or two with her before I have to get to work
I've had my studs out of my ears for a few weeks because I had to have a procedure done just under my left earlobe :P I was worried that the piercings might close up and I'd have to get them redone
Well, I put the studs back in today and it was just in the nick of time because the holes were starting to close up :) The left had started closing the most but I was able to poke the stud through the thin layer that had formed :o Yipes! That kinda hurt a bit but not too badly
This was actually last night, but I had dinner with the ever lovely Cindy..
And I must thank her again for putting up with me and my crazy hair..
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My binder and packing device arrived today (and ahead of schedule!) *happy dance*
Music :D
I *just* found out that I still access to my school's server. I'm going crazy downloading all of the course manuals and everything from all of the classes that I didn't take. (just in case this is a glitch and I get booted) Yay! Free learning! :D
LOL... Getting ma'amed at the store still makes my day ;D
"Are you finding everything okay ma'am?"
"Yes, thank you"
They think I'm saying thank you because they've offered to help me find something :) Little do they know I have my own reasons for cheerfully saying thank you :laugh:
Quote from: kelly_aus on August 12, 2012, 07:55:04 PM
This was actually last night, but I had dinner with the ever lovely Cindy..
And I must thank her again for putting up with me and my crazy hair..
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I wish my hair could do that, but it takes a special woman to pull it off. You do!
Was too tired to post yesterday, but it was an amazing day. My mother and I have more in common than either of us imagined. We figured out that as female as my brain is, hers is male. I loaned her a skirt and blouse and accessories to wear to my niece's wedding this week, since Mom doesn't own any feminine clothing. She brought me fresh fruit and a pair of canteloupe melons from Utah. She said when she found out about my transition that she read up on the subject so she understood intellectually, but she didn't "get it" until she was able to actually see and talk with me. She said she always loved me, but likes me more as a girl because everything about me "feels right" to her now, my voice, gestures, dress, mannerisms, thinking, all fits the person I am. She said I am a delightful young woman and she is so proud that I am her daughter. We both cried and wore out our arms hugging. :)
That's great! *big bear hug*
I got my psychologist's appointment for August 30th and after that all the obligatory stuff is completed and I can start awaiting for the diagnosis! ;D
I walked out of the courthouse on cloud 9 today.
August 29 my new name will be legal and official.
Amazing what one little thumbtack on a bulletin board can do.
Quote from: MadelineB on August 14, 2012, 05:17:35 PM
August 29 my new name will be legal and official.
Amazing what one little thumbtack on a bulletin board can do.
One mighty big humongous congratulations, Girl. AND such a lovely name as well. One of it's meanings is related to 'Tower.' Depending on the various forms of spelling, the meaning magnificent can be derived. So all in all, you certainly live up to your names sake Madeline. You are a tower of magnificence.
Even the definition of Tower has some awesome implications. A tower of strength. WOW.
How do you plan celebrating the mighty occasion?
Huggs
Catherine
Quote from: Catherine Sarah on August 14, 2012, 07:07:18 PM
How do you plan celebrating the mighty occasion?
Huggs
Catherine
Thanks Catherine. I haven't decided yet, except I know that I will immediately start a spree of updating all of my other documents to match me. Just seeing my correct name and gender on my driver's license, insurance, medical records, paychecks, credit cards... is going to be a daily celebration.
Congrats, Madeline. It's a pretty cool name.
Getting my first-ever student loan approved. Yay I get to stay in college! :eusa_dance:
Quote from: MadelineB on August 14, 2012, 05:17:35 PM
I walked out of the courthouse on cloud 9 today.
August 29 my new name will be legal and official.
Amazing what one little thumbtack on a bulletin board can do.
Congrats! And your new pic is wonderful! You're very photogenic! ;)
Got to talk to my friend at school, poor thing was just in a car wreck and still stiff from it :<
Quote from: Your Humble Savant on August 14, 2012, 09:24:47 PM
Getting my first-ever student loan approved. Yay I get to stay in college! :eusa_dance:
Congratulations Savvy! :eusa_dance:
Arranging hanging out with friends and a possible date for this week ;D
I also re-watched Big Fish. Spent the last 20min or so crying, but man that's a good movie.
Also my neck, ankle, and stomach all decided to heal this afternoon, so I went on a nice walk.
Oh, I almost forgot about my new, shiny trash can. Little things make me happy.
One of the male trainers in my gym seemed to have a boob fixation. So I sort of had to adjust my bra and, since I was wearing a V neck T I gave them a little blow of air from the fan to cool them down. He didn't seem to cool down >:-)
I was discussing GRS and where self validation ends and conforming to society's norms with a tutor at Uni Philosophy Club, also drinking cheap beer and eating cheap pizza :laugh:
Ended up explaining being Trans to someone who hadn't read me even though we have been meeting all year, and I was sitting next to him. Also talked about the similarities and difference between TS and Intersex. Once I reassured him I didn't hate guys as a result of my past , and certainly none of the guys there, he was completely accepting.
Felt good, and we acquired another ally. ;D
Karen.
Finishing a fanfic I was reading.
Finding out that I lost 5kg's in body weight no wonder my belt and jeans feel loose..
I just wrote a letter to my kidgirl self (in reply to one from her) explaining that I can't rescue her (after a life time of "obligation" to rescue everyone (but myself) I have to stop this) - but I can keep her company, and I can wish her well. I think she gets it.
Now I'm listening to Steve Reich and eating chocolate :).
I spoke with an editorial consultant at iUniverse about the book I submitted and he said it was a "very strong manuscript"!
second counseling session down, one more to go, then i get my letter's for t and my gender change on my id. and my top surgery letter. :3 woot! going to be changing my name real soon too. within the next two months.
i'm exuberantly happy. :3
I am super hyper happy today and grinning ear to ear.
I had my initial consult with a therapist today who seems to understand what I'm going through and is willing to help me. She suggested something I hadn't thought of before that I can look into. I'm a man and that makes me happy. I'm also becoming increasingly convinced that I am actually male albeit a queer one. I am so happy about that. I hung out and went for a walk with my friend. We went into a comic book store and I acted the entire time like a living person, not a shy scaredy cat. I listened to music I really like. I thought about anime I really like.
I'm really really happy.
Quote from: Edge on August 15, 2012, 08:10:12 PM
I am super hyper happy today and grinning ear to ear.
I had my initial consult with a therapist today who seems to understand what I'm going through and is willing to help me. She suggested something I hadn't thought of before that I can look into. I'm a man and that makes me happy. I'm also becoming increasingly convinced that I am actually male albeit a queer one. I am so happy about that. I hung out and went for a walk with my friend. We went into a comic book store and I acted the entire time like a living person, not a shy scaredy cat. I listened to music I really like. I thought about anime I really like.
I'm really really happy.
What made me happy was reading this :)
Alexis also makes me happy.
Such a simple thing as when I got my food at Taco Bell today and the guy behind the counter said "Have a nice day, sir." I don't know why, but when I pass with guys especially it really gives me a lot of confidence. ;D
Quote from: Edge on August 15, 2012, 08:10:12 PM
I am super hyper happy today and grinning ear to ear.
I had my initial consult with a therapist today who seems to understand what I'm going through and is willing to help me. She suggested something I hadn't thought of before that I can look into. I'm a man and that makes me happy. I'm also becoming increasingly convinced that I am actually male albeit a queer one. I am so happy about that. I hung out and went for a walk with my friend. We went into a comic book store and I acted the entire time like a living person, not a shy scaredy cat. I listened to music I really like. I thought about anime I really like.
I'm really really happy.
That's wonderful! Sounds like you are moving into a better space in your life. :)
Finally finishing this final paper for my english class. My brain is so busted now I may just go to sleep here soon.
Having a long talk in a short queue with a regular checkout operator today, who said I actually glow.
I told her the day I left denial, depression and mediocrity behind was the day I started to live.
I've NEVER felt this good in my whole life. It's no wonder I glow. ;D :icon_dance:
New chequebook arrived - with Ms printed on it. Oh, yeah 8).
Quote from: Padma on August 16, 2012, 08:28:56 AM
New chequebook arrived - with Ms printed on it. Oh, yeah 8).
Hummmmm. I sense a shopping spree coming up to celebrate. YAY!!!! :laugh:
Huggs
Catherine
Just found $20 in the pocket of an old pair of jeans as I'm gathering up things to donate :laugh:
Quote from: Cindy James on August 15, 2012, 04:25:58 AM
One of the male trainers in my gym seemed to have a boob fixation. So I sort of had to adjust my bra and, since I was wearing a V neck T I gave them a little blow of air from the fan to cool them down. He didn't seem to cool down >:-)
Hoo boy. You go Cindy! ;)
I woke up and remembered I only had one day left before I get to go camping at my favorite place ever ;D
Quote from: Your Humble Savant on August 16, 2012, 11:10:43 AM
I woke up and remembered I only had one day left before I get to go camping at my favorite place ever ;D
Funny, I woke up thinking something quite similar!
I was debating ordering pizza for lunch until I looked in the mirror and thought "I look too damn good for food that crappy." ;)
My employer will be holding an off-site thing in Monterey at the end of October, and I just found out that my room will be booked under my real name instead of my legal name and that ID won't be checked upon arrival.
Quote from: Lee on August 16, 2012, 04:28:39 PM
I was debating ordering pizza for lunch until I looked in the mirror and thought "I look too damn good for food that crappy." ;)
Haha! I would think to myself "Damn, I'm sexy, I'd look better with a slice of pizza in my hands." :P
Thanks, Madeline. You make me happy too.
I had what I think is a good meeting today and I found out that my ex will help pay for child care. Woohoo!
I'm rewatching No Ordinary Family which I didn't get to finish the first time around. Yay!
Starting tomorrow officially on vacation for ten days!!! ;D ;D ;D ;D
Quote from: Edge on August 16, 2012, 08:02:18 PM
I had what I think is a good meeting today and I found out that my ex will help pay for child care. Woohoo!
Excellent! Money doesn't buy happiness - if you already have enough money. :O
Quote from: Liam Erik on August 16, 2012, 09:16:43 PM
I officially can afford top surgery. ONWARD!!
Congratulations Liam Erik! That's awesome.
Quote from: Connie Anne on August 16, 2012, 04:45:06 PM
My employer will be holding an off-site thing in Monterey at the end of October, and I just found out that my room will be booked under my real name instead of my legal name and that ID won't be checked upon arrival.
Very cool! While you are there, get your girl self out to Point Lobos if you can. It's amazingly beautiful, especially if the ocean is at all stormy. I miss that area very much.
Quote from: Violet Bloom on August 16, 2012, 10:00:48 PM
Starting tomorrow officially on vacation for ten days!!! ;D ;D ;D ;D
I just finished a one day vacation, which was glorious in itself. Way to go, Violet B!
Today was great. I just got home an hour ago from my niece's wedding - my third social event since being full time. It's amazing, for someone who suffered from painful shyness at social events, that since I began presenting female I haven't had an ounce of social anxiety return. I love getting out and interacting with people, especially friends and family. Only hitch was when I was composing poetry while driving on the freeways, I ended up taking the long way there, but I completed two new poems, and wrote a third during the ceremony, and gave it to them as a gift along with an antique altar cloth and some original sheet music from the 40's musicals. The groom's family thinks Aunt Maddie is the cat's meow. Rowr.
Quote from: Catherine Sarah on August 16, 2012, 08:23:23 AM
Having a long talk in a short queue with a regular checkout operator today, who said I actually glow.
I told her the day I left denial, depression and mediocrity behind was the day I started to live.
I've NEVER felt this good in my whole life. It's no wonder I glow. ;D :icon_dance:
That's sweet! It's amazing how contagious true joy can be. Authenticity rocks.
Finishing my finals and actually knowing the answers for once :)
Terrific Maddie,
I went to presentations by Honours Students, as one of mine was presenting and several others as part of their course. . Virtually all of the other Hons Supervisors know me very well but not all were aware of the latest developments.
So I went wearing a denim skirt, and jumper with stockings and knee high boots. Now they know :laugh:
Quote from: Cindy James on August 17, 2012, 02:39:59 AM
Terrific Maddie,
I went to presentations by Honours Students, as one of mine was presenting and several others as part of their course. . Virtually all of the other Hons Supervisors know me very well but not all were aware of the latest developments.
So I went wearing a denim skirt, and jumper with stockings and knee high boots. Now they know :laugh:
Another brick in the Mighty Wall of Cindy James. Go for it girl, you are going to ... rock..... your industry. You are invincible.
Quote from: MadelineB on August 16, 2012, 10:13:49 PM
That's sweet! It's amazing how contagious true joy can be. Authenticity rocks.
You are absolutely right about joy. You should know. You are the quintessential authentic woman
Huggs
Catherine
Most of my posts in this thread have involved Keaira, so it seems appropriate that my 1000th post should be in this thread and that it should be dedicated to her. She makes me happy and makes me smile an awful lot, which is just one of the reasons that I am very lucky to have met her.
My middle son got out of Juvie yesterday, and leveled with me that he wanted to stay with me, not his mom.
At her place, there is constant bickering, bellyaching, "jumping to conclusions", and he knows he won't get a fair hearing of events as he understands them.
"Stress and drama, brought on by Mom and (sister + boyfriend)"...We went to my place, which is pretty quiet and serene (just the way I like it). And, even though he likes ICP etc, he respects (and really appreciates) my place...so he listens at a pretty low volume or with headsets.
Wow...someone actually thinks I can make a decent home!
:)
my hormones have kicked in so hard I can't stop crying. I blame this scrubs marathon. Still, it's affirming and a good cry :)
Music and how much I like myself.
My hopes, dreams, and diet coke being on sale at harris teeter.
Quote from: edderkopp on August 16, 2012, 05:05:09 PM
Haha! I would think to myself "Damn, I'm sexy, I'd look better with a slice of pizza in my hands." :P
Sexy men and sexy pizza were made for each other. I'm making chicken soup tonight. It is made for me.
Quote from: Snowpaw on August 17, 2012, 12:49:16 AM
Finishing my finals and actually knowing the answers for once :)
That's the spirit!
Quote from: Snowpaw on August 17, 2012, 06:27:24 PM
my hormones have kicked in so hard I can't stop crying. I blame this scrubs marathon. Still, it's affirming and a good cry :)
Tears rinse away the stress away when we finally let ourselves cry. :)
Quote from: Cindy James on August 17, 2012, 02:39:59 AM
Virtually all of the other Hons Supervisors know me very well but not all were aware of the latest developments... Now they know :laugh:
I keep wondering how you are getting away with so much hotness, then I remember that the seasons are opposite on the antipode! Keep melting that winter away, spring is just around the stocking.
Quote from: edderkopp on August 17, 2012, 03:51:42 PM
Most of my posts in this thread have involved Keaira, so it seems appropriate that my 1000th post should be in this thread and that it should be dedicated to her. She makes me happy and makes me smile an awful lot, which is just one of the reasons that I am very lucky to have met her.
1000 reasons to be happy and it all comes back to the heart.
Quote from: Beth Andrea on August 17, 2012, 05:53:44 PM
My middle son got out of Juvie yesterday, and leveled with me that he wanted to stay with me, not his mom.
Wow...someone actually thinks I can make a decent home!
:)
I'm not surprised Beth Andrea- you help make Susan's a better home with your humor and even temperament. Rock on.
Quote from: Edge on August 17, 2012, 09:12:10 PM
Music and how much I like myself.
And you should.
Quote from: JayKyle on August 17, 2012, 09:38:49 PM
My hopes, dreams, and diet coke being on sale at harris teeter.
Three good reasons. :)
Quote from: DianaP on August 17, 2012, 09:43:14 PM
I saw "The Expendables 2". It kicked ass!
I then visited my little cousin today and we had a stuffed animal tea party. I brought my favorite teddy bear, Mr. Snuggles.
Oh my, I need to bring my ballerina bear Tatyana Bearishnikov. She hasn't had a decent tea in ages, DianaP!
I'm happy to be starting the weekend.
Quote from: edderkopp on August 17, 2012, 03:51:42 PM
Most of my posts in this thread have involved Keaira, so it seems appropriate that my 1000th post should be in this thread and that it should be dedicated to her. She makes me happy and makes me smile an awful lot, which is just one of the reasons that I am very lucky to have met her.
*blushes*
The feeling is mutual Caleb ^_^
*huggles*
Being awake at 4am. Wait, no. Well. Being back and reading everybody's posts and seeing how folks are doing makes me happy.
Quote from: Felix on August 18, 2012, 06:11:19 AM
Being awake at 4am. Wait, no. Well. Being back and reading everybody's posts and seeing how folks are doing makes me happy.
Seeing *you* back makes me happy. That's my "today = happiness" post. :)
Welcome back, Felix!
I found a new scent today. The one I had to stop using is called Dear John, which ironically reminds me too much of my girlfriend who dumped me.
The one I've ended up with is called The Smell of Freedom ;D. Deelicious...
Two months today since I registered on Susans and started speaking up a little. :D
400 posts later... ::) ;D
Music. And admitting that life sucks. Kinda paradoxical but coping drags us all into grey areas at times. My cat, too. He's so sweet. :)
Music and a sweet cat are always good coping devices :)
Hugs
Quote from: Beth Andrea on August 17, 2012, 05:53:44 PM
Wow...someone actually thinks I can make a decent home!
:)
Hard to top that Beth. :)
Finally getting my Luddite finger ::) out and buying a Tablet to store all my Uni stuff, so I don't have to carry heavy books around.
Karen.
Really good and funny fanfiction.
Also, my quest to defeat shyness and that pesky habit of caring what people think is working swimmingly.
A very good friend and tottaly sweet gal called me from Dr Suporns clinic today. She had her srs yesterday and she had to call me and let me know. She was scheduled for next month but she was able to get in earlier and didn't tell me! She wanted to surprise me.
:D
I do not generaly get this happy from the joys of loved ones, but in this case it is differant. She is like a sister to me.
Dad making me some soup to fend off some awful cramps
I was thinking of how, if my ex used me being trans against me, there are some pictures of him in a dress around somewhere. Then I thought of him and his friends and realized I could write a totally plausible yaoi version of events that would actually make an interesting story. (As a story idea, not to use against him.) It's too bad I don't like yaoi, but I could perhaps give the idea to someone who does.
Sailor Moon music
Packing for my trip to Melbourne. :)
Managing to get my nails done without an appointment. Pink in Shellac, they will last for weeks.
Gave another lecture.
Three girls at the front were into heavy smirking at me. I was talking about how different subsets of white cells interact to produce an immune response. I decide some role playing was going to be helpful.
So had my three angels out in front of the auditorium being subsets of cells demonstrating interaction. I wasn't cruel but the class enjoyed it;, they didn't.
I did.
I don't expect smirks in future.
Himself could never have done that :embarrassed:
Earlier today I found out the date I started HRT and living the real me how time fly's when you don't have to pretend to be someone your not,
And that lovely doc that saw me after he finished work and was about to leave when I worked in with my hand in ice, then he said I will see you tomorrow after xrays are taken even though I'm fully booked out, I wish all doc's were like him and 2 others I have seen where the patient comes first not the come in get out types that care more about the number of people they can see each day/hour and leaving you unhappy with a 5 minute diagnosis ..
Quote from: Cindy James on August 20, 2012, 04:22:49 AM
Gave another lecture.
Three girls at the front were into heavy smirking at me. I was talking about how different subsets of white cells interact to produce an immune response. I decide some role playing was going to be helpful.
So had my three angels out in front of the auditorium being subsets of cells demonstrating interaction. I wasn't cruel but the class enjoyed it;, they didn't.
I did.
I don't expect smirks in future.
Himself could never have done that :embarrassed:
You are totally awesome .... girl!!! God forbid anyone who stand in your way. They won't know what hit them ;D You keep going from strength to strength.
Any chance of bottling it. I could sell a truckload over in the east here.
Interesting comment about what "Himself" couldn't do. Bet you there would be a lot of those. But the good news is; He's gone. Nice bloke and all.
Huggs
Catherine
I really like being me. There's no one else I'd rather be. I feel like I'm starting to show the real me more often. I like that.
My ex has a crush. I thought it would make me a little jealous with the history and all, and for a moment I thought "I HOPE I'M BETTER LOOKING", but. When I saw how she smiled and blushed, and couldn't even tell me this girl's name for fear of jinxing it, I felt really happy. She deserves to be smiling and blushing. I haven't seen her that happy since...well, since she first met me. Lol.
Besides that, I always have sort of...held on to a great deal of guilt and insecurity because she was hurt in our relationship. I felt like this terrible monster who was too bad to ever have friends or relationships because I'd just hurt them with my weirdness and whatnot. But here she is, she is happy, she is ready to love again (once she gets a few things together career-wise), and she's going to be just fine. I guess I feel like this gives me permission to let go of the guilt from the past and focus on having a happier and healthier future.
Quote from: edderkopp on August 20, 2012, 04:38:17 PM
My ex has a crush. I thought it would make me a little jealous with the history and all, and for a moment I thought "I HOPE I'M BETTER LOOKING", but. When I saw how she smiled and blushed, and couldn't even tell me this girl's name for fear of jinxing it, I felt really happy. She deserves to be smiling and blushing. I haven't seen her that happy since...well, since she first met me. Lol.
Besides that, I always have sort of...held on to a great deal of guilt and insecurity because she was hurt in our relationship. I felt like this terrible monster who was too bad to ever have friends or relationships because I'd just hurt them with my weirdness and whatnot. But here she is, she is happy, she is ready to love again (once she gets a few things together career-wise), and she's going to be just fine. I guess I feel like this gives me permission to let go of the guilt from the past and focus on having a happier and healthier future.
Aw I'm glad your happy and looking at it in a positive light mate.
I had an awesome picnic in the sunshine with a friend. We ended up talking for so long that I am now sunburned, but it was really nice.
Had an awesome weekend in NY :D
Both of my kids were over for dinner tonight as we were celebrating their mom's, my ex-wife's, birthday. Her birthday is actually this coming Sunday but being a minister means she'll be working all day. Today actually worked better for her.
It wasn't bittersweet the way lunch was with her yesterday. And when she left, she didn't give me a side-hug. She gave me a real hug.
Cross-pollination. People appreciating my blog, and me finding I like theirs too, it's sort of like making new friends, at a safe distance :).
My first pair of heels!
Trivial I know, but it put a smile on my face. ::)
Quote from: ani on August 22, 2012, 01:46:42 AM
My first pair of heels!
Trivial I know, but it put a smile on my face. ::)
Nice! And ooh, thanks for reminding me, I just got my maroon low converses :).
Eating a half a jar of sweet pickles. :P
Oh, and pwning page 176. >:-)
The Cindy going FT- train continues to roll.
After a discussion on a research project a male colleague thanked me for my input and then said, 'I owe you chocolates and flowers'. Oh such sweet sexism :laugh:
It used to be ' Thanks, I'll buy you a beer.'
My name hasn't been officially changed on the computer systems and it can't be until I present my legal name change document. One of the very senior people printed off some requests for me to deal with, crossed out my male name, and hand wrote my new name, scanned them and sent them to me. With a quick apology note, hoping I didn't mind their action. But they felt that the response should be from me and not from the ex-me.
I'm struggling to find discrimination.
:eusa_dance: :eusa_dance: :eusa_dance:
Sounds more like a Major Event Ani!! Right up there with buying the first lipstick. :)
Putting some of my demons behind me after they surfaced yesterday. Thanks Cindy, your PM helped a lot. :-*
Even though I didn't get the childhood and adolescence I would have preferred, I can make up for it now by being as girly as I like, when I like, and no grown-ups can stop me.
Karen. Still a rock-chick and bikey mole. >:-)
The ripples in my pond at work continue to widen, as I can't help but be about the happiest new old employee that anyone has ever seen. The department next to mine is information security, they were most feared and considered unapproachable. But I sit next to them and have made them feel welcome, loved, and encouraged them to cut loose and have fun while guarding us. I never asked them, and they already had told human resources and several senior vice presidents a hard no, but because of their new sister with a name like a mister, they changed all the corporate security policies ; now every employee has been given the right to change their email nickname (the description name at the start of email, and in the corporate directory) to whatever name they use; also all security badges and company directories now feature nicknames with a hidden cross reference to the legal name.
And yesterday was the first employee level training in "gender and cultural competence". Every employee is now offered refresher courses in improving the workplace by understanding and respecting differences in gender expression and identity. Management and supervisors got the new training right after I came out. :)
The purple shirts, feathered haircuts, and earrings among male presenting employees are proliferating happily.
Oh Dear god Maddy,
You are one incredible power not to be reckoned with. You are out to change the world for the better and you are doing that on a daily basis. Thank you soooooo much.
I love your new avatar. It's you to a tee. Unstopable.
Keep on keeping on, because whatever you do, you do sooooo damn well.
Huggs
Catherine
a 9 hour conversation with the same delightful person :)
6 pounds down in four days. I figured out how to drop water weight finally. Also, I can do way more pushups than I could a month ago.
Quote from: Catherine Sarah on August 22, 2012, 10:30:12 AM
Keep on keeping on, because whatever you do, you do sooooo damn well.
Huggs
Catherine
Thank you Catherine, you are too sweet as always!
Quote from: MadelineB on August 22, 2012, 10:03:34 AM
The ripples in my pond at work continue to widen, as I can't help but be about the happiest new old employee that anyone has ever seen. The department next to mine is information security, they were most feared and considered unapproachable. But I sit next to them and have made them feel welcome, loved, and encouraged them to cut loose and have fun while guarding us. I never asked them, and they already had told human resources and several senior vice presidents a hard no, but because of their new sister with a name like a mister, they changed all the corporate security policies ; now every employee has been given the right to change their email nickname (the description name at the start of email, and in the corporate directory) to whatever name they use; also all security badges and company directories now feature nicknames with a hidden cross reference to the legal name.
And yesterday was the first employee level training in "gender and cultural competence". Every employee is now offered refresher courses in improving the workplace by understanding and respecting differences in gender expression and identity. Management and supervisors got the new training right after I came out. :)
The purple shirts, feathered haircuts, and earrings among male presenting employees are proliferating happily.
Great news Maddie
We'll rule the world in next to no time :laugh: :-* :-*
Before work I stopped in Peet's near the office. While in line, the barrista was calling out to regulars about their orders. But, there was only 1 name she actually called out.
"Constance, you want your medium white mocha no whip?"
"Yes, I do," I replied.
I love that they recognize me there and I love hearing my chosen name.
Quote from: Cindy James on August 23, 2012, 02:56:42 AM
Great news Maddie
We'll rule the world in next to no time :laugh: :-* :-*
Skirts of the world! ARISE! Up with legs! Up with Knees! Down with injustice, if you please!
P.S. They also announced that all employees can now change their official corporate portrait any time they want; before I popped the cork on the old policy and poured it down the sink, you could only change your portrait if you lost over 50 lbs, or left the company then came back. Now you can have facilities take a new picture for your id badge and company directory, or just bring one from home. :)
Nothing specific. I just really like myself and that makes me happy.
I had a great date with a fantastic girl, and I'm still feeling warm and fuzzy. ;D
Quote from: Lee on August 24, 2012, 03:25:44 AM
I had a great date with a fantastic girl, and I'm still feeling warm and fuzzy. ;D
I had a sudden image of John Travolta and Livy Newton-John in Grease.
Summer Love etc.
Congrats Lee
Cheesy, but, in general, my partner <3
Quote from: Liam Erik on August 24, 2012, 03:29:43 PM
As of yesterday, I am out at work, and everybody is fine with it.
Congratulations on a MAJOR step! Way to go, Liam!
Quote from: Liam Erik on August 24, 2012, 03:29:43 PM
As of yesterday, I am out at work, and everybody is fine with it.
Congrats Liam. Very good news.
Welcome to a new life my brother
Yet again it is hard to top reading all of the above. Congratulations to all of you.
For me, catching up with a friend who helped me choose a topic from a too extensive list for a Biology assignment and having a couple of G & T's while the sun was actually out.
Also finding out that I am actually quite good at leather-work by altering a pair of too baggy leather jeans successfully. Next project will hopefully be a skirt.
Karen.
Sleeping for more than 8 hrs (actually I should say sleeping more than 4 hrs which is my norm) I really want to go for more, but I'll take it :)
Went to a local LGBTQ bar, got freaked out a bit with my anxiety issues and was going to leave...my two friends stayed with me until I could calm down, without pressuring me or making me feel bad about myself...we went outside and talked a bit, then went back inside and they were right there for me. :)
THAT IS HUGELY IMPORTANT!! Never ever met two people like that...so caring, so patient. It's awesome to have good friends.
Ended up staying there and actually had a good time all night...fears settled and went away with them by my side.
*hugs*
:)
Quote from: Beth Andrea on August 25, 2012, 02:00:34 PM
THAT IS HUGELY IMPORTANT!! Never ever met two people like that...so caring, so patient. It's awesome to have good friends.
It is indeed. I'm happy for you, and it's awesome that you had a good time!
Just found out that I don't have to work tonight after all. I'm SO happy! Hooray for lazy day :D
Quote from: Beth Andrea on August 25, 2012, 02:00:34 PM
Went to a local LGBTQ bar, got freaked out a bit with my anxiety issues and was going to leave...my two friends stayed with me until I could calm down, without pressuring me or making me feel bad about myself...we went outside and talked a bit, then went back inside and they were right there for me. :)
THAT IS HUGELY IMPORTANT!! Never ever met two people like that...so caring, so patient. It's awesome to have good friends.
Ended up staying there and actually had a good time all night...fears settled and went away with them by my side.
*hugs*
:)
Awe, awesome! : )
Finding a nearly new nude/black lace Victoria's Secret bra on the free table :) Also learning that I can now fill up a D-cup
I was concerned when I looked at the size and thought it would be too big and I'd have to put it back on the free table :-\ Sometimes 'tis good to be wrong :laugh:
Quote from: V M on August 25, 2012, 09:17:28 PM
Finding a nearly new nude/black lace Victoria's Secret bra on the free table :) Also learning that I can now fill up a D-cup
I was concerned when I looked at the size and thought it would be too big and I'd have to put it back on the free table :-\ Sometimes 'tis good to be wrong :laugh:
Hi Sis, I've said it before; 'You are developing into a big blonde bimbo' :icon_bunch: :icon_chick: :icon_kiss: :icon_wave:
Hugs
Guess Who :-*
Putting paid to some of my trust issues. This has allowed me to deal with my rejection of men as a hangover from a history of bullying and a failed relationship with a guy when I was trying to untangle my gender and sexuality.
After quite a bit of self-work I am now feeling comfortable with men and having a Bisexual orientation rather than regarding myself as a Lesbian.
This has added further incentive to pursue SRS this year rather than waiting until late next year. I have made an appointment with a Surgeon in Sydney for an initial consultation.
Karen.
Hi Karen,
Quote from: justmeinoz on August 26, 2012, 03:36:58 AM
After quite a bit of self-work I am now feeling comfortable with men and having a Bisexual orientation rather than regarding myself as a Lesbian.
This has added further incentive to pursue SRS this year rather than waiting until late next year. I have made an appointment with a Surgeon in Sydney for an initial consultation.
Karen.
Big congrats for moving out of your comfort zone. You've done well, and I see big achievements for you in the near future.
Let us know when you come to Sydney and we'll arrange dinner for you.
Huggs
Catherine
Went over to my neighbors house after church and she took one look at me and said that I was beautiful.
She has been a neighbor for years and knows my past.
I just love her. :)
I'm happy today because...
Well, just because. ^-^ It's so odd for me to be happy without a reason...but it's been happening more and more often (like, once or twice a month now, as opposed to....NEVER....before).
I just wanna go skipping and jumping down the road (but I know my knees won't outlast my happy ::) )
That is so great Beth Andrea.
Now I am happy for you too.
Quote from: Jillieann Rose on August 26, 2012, 03:26:22 PM
That is so great Beth Andrea.
Now I am happy for you too.
Yay! for Jillieann Rose!
*hugs*
:)
My mom understands that I'm ok and I'm happy. :) I was afraid she was thinking I was "messing up" again.
Listening to 80's music in the car at night. Barely anyone else on the road, window open, cool night air blowing in. Fantastic.
Quote from: Tom on August 26, 2012, 06:41:34 PM
Listening to 80's music in the car at night. Barely anyone else on the road, window open, cool night air blowing in. Fantastic.
OMG you just gave me whiplash...memory whiplash!
8) (Now if I just owned a 1982 Camaro it'd be complete...ahh, the memories, the memories...)
This morning before church, I stopped in the Peet's downtown. Just as I was about to place my order, the cashier said, "Connie you cut your hair! It looks great!"
I looked at her name tag but I ddin't recognize her. While I felt a little guilty that I didn't recognize her, I felt great to be recognized and greeted so happily by name.
Also today, I officially joined my church as Connie. My picture and a short bio was in the morning bulletin, too. It was a great morning all around.
My neighbor gave us this homemade wine he made. I'm wary of it, but it was a nice gesture.
Thanks Catherine Sarah, I will be trying to get a date before Christmas, so hopefully will be able to meet.
Holding a friend's newborn boy this afternoon. My reaction was totally clucky! I want one!! :laugh:
Had a good laugh with another friend who was there.
Karen.
Quote from: Connie Anne on August 26, 2012, 09:05:26 PM
This morning before church, I stopped in the Peet's downtown. Just as I was about to place my order, the cashier said, "Connie you cut your hair! It looks great!"
I looked at her name tag but I ddin't recognize her. While I felt a little guilty that I didn't recognize her, I felt great to be recognized and greeted so happily by name.
Also today, I officially joined my church as Connie. My picture and a short bio was in the morning bulletin, too. It was a great morning all around.
How cool is that huh? Kudos!
Talking with the lovely Alexis.
Quote from: Edge on August 27, 2012, 11:32:52 AM
Talking with the lovely Alexis.
awwww
that made me happy :D
also, I'm enjoying having absolutely nothing that I need to accomplish today. I'm being so lazy...this can't be good
http://whatsnormalanyway.net/ (http://whatsnormalanyway.net/)
:laugh: The last panel is the only one I can relate to. And sorta the first one because, if I drank (which I don't), I'd totally stick with the ones that taste like juice. I'm pretty sure most of them are meant as a joke. If it said "envying the male bodies on magazine covers" I'd be able to relate to it.
How did it take me so long to figure out I'm a dude?
Probably.
That's another thing that makes me happy. I'm going to be a mad scientist!
Quote from: Edge on August 27, 2012, 05:56:26 PM
http://whatsnormalanyway.net/ (http://whatsnormalanyway.net/)
Thats a cool comic =]
lol I have 2 friends, one of whom is a cat >.<
Well, I think you're pretty cool, but that may just be because you remind me of Wolverine for some reason. :P
hanks Edge and I assure you both I dont claws, although that would be very cool.
My mischievous side would have a field day.
DianaP
I have just noticed this - 'stairs, thou art nothing but an organised hill' LOL. I've never thought of stairs like that.
Quote from: DianaP on August 27, 2012, 06:49:32 PM
Well, I would probably go about giving out free haircuts and cutting loose threads on peoples' clothes, but then again, I've never been the bad-girl type.
Edward Scissorhands style?
I'd totally go all Wolverine.
(I can speak properly. Sometimes. Kinda.)
Quote from: DianaP on August 27, 2012, 06:49:32 PM
Well, I would probably go about giving out free haircuts and cutting loose threads on peoples' clothes, but then again, I've never been the bad-girl type.
I'm a compulsive label tucker, OMG not a good thing to do to the woman in front of you while waiting to get your Starbucks. :eusa_naughty:
Quote from: DianaP on August 27, 2012, 07:07:50 PM
Also, I'd cut 3 lines into every movie billboard to make it look like a sequel.
This makes me laugh.
I'd use them to make a sandwich ;D
First day back at school: My only class today was fieldwork (I'm a Music Therapy major), and OMG I am sooo excited for it!! Eek I'm making my career path a reality and yay! ;D
Quote from: Your Humble Savant on August 27, 2012, 09:49:47 PM
First day back at school: My only class today was fieldwork (I'm a Music Therapy major), and OMG I am sooo excited for it!! Eek I'm making my career path a reality and yay! ;D
more {{{{{HUGS}}}}} ;D
I'm playing league ice hockey this summer and I scored the tying goal in our playoff win tonight!!! ;D
I may not be so strong and athletic but I'm most definitely determined.
BTW, how on earth do I insert those emoticons shaking the cheerleading pom-poms?!?
I passed as cis in a trans bar today!
That, and, of course, my partner <3
A second great date that was even better than the first. I was planning on bringing up gender with her today, and she beat me to it by asking how I identify and saying that either way is fine. I'm feeling so damn lucky. ;D
I made eggs for me and one of my roommates this morning and she said I should always be the egg-maker from now on ;D
Nikola Tesla makes me happy.
This didn't happen today but over the weekend, but it's still making me happy today - I had several guys (who hadn't seen me since I began transitioning) tell me they hadn't recognised me at first :).
Hanging out with my best friend.
So had my appointment at the endo today and...
for the first time my hormone levels came back perfect ;D
Now that I'm finally officially recognised as being unfit for work due to PTSD, "the system" if finally being supportive instead of spending 6 months assessing me over and over :). It's a huge weight off.
I got asked to come in to work tomorrow morning at 5 am (yay! I normally have to come in at 4 am) but yeah, it made me happy not because I really want to be at work, but I m kinda excited because we will be stocking the halloween candy! I love halloween
Just got back from the courthouse, and I'm heading off to work.
But it felt so good when I heard the following words from the court clerk:
"Your name is now Madeline B"
Happy doesn't begin to describe it.
After I walked out of the courthouse, it hit me,
and I sang "Waltzing Matilda" up the road.
It just seemed appropriate somehow.
;D :D :D ;D :D ;D :D ;D :D ;D
A big Atta Girl for you honey, kudos!
The girl in the wheelchair from Macau China is fiiiiiiiit.
(im watching the paralympics)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SON! He turned three today. ;D
Quote from: Edge on August 29, 2012, 06:20:04 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SON! He turned three today. ;D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIDDA :icon_birthday:
Quote from: Edge on August 29, 2012, 06:20:04 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SON! He turned three today. ;D
Happy Birthday Big Boy! :icon_joy:
Oh this week has been just wonderful <3 <3 <3 So lets make a list shall I?
1. Got into my classes this week, OH MY GOD I love my texas history teacher, german teacher and classical guitar teacher. Intro computing teacher, you remind me of Ben Stein, you bore miss snowpaw.
2. Got my new phone and guitar. God I love this guitar. Here is an image of it. It has this little mad scientist flip up bar to get to the pickup switches. granted now this makes it difficult to switch on a whim, I will replace it with a start button small enough to fit in there :3 If I really wanted to I would put old nintendo controller b button. YES I KNOW THEY ARE THE SAME BUT B IS BEST!!!!! >_<
http://img802.imageshack.us/img802/8067/22515321799313166382711.jpg (http://img802.imageshack.us/img802/8067/22515321799313166382711.jpg)
3. I took a ride to get home in a taxi, first time for miss snowpaw :3 guy was super nice, gave me his card and has become my new go to guy for taxi stuff.
4. Came home to my bum bum, bum bum is my pet term for dallas my kitty :3 I love him so much, he is my world. He cries for me if I'm not there, he is like a little doggy <3
This really just amused me: I was on my way to a job interview this morning, and Mötley Crüe, Knock 'em Dead was playing on my iPhone, not loud enough for anyone to hear. As I got out of my car to get coffee, this guy started talking to me. He asked me where i work, and I mentioned I was on my way to an interview. As i was leaving, he said" good luck with the interview, knock 'em dead, would you?"
Quote from: MadelineB on August 29, 2012, 12:21:46 PM
Just got back from the courthouse, and I'm heading off to work.
But it felt so good when I heard the following words from the court clerk:
"Your name is now Madeline B"
Happy doesn't begin to describe it.
After I walked out of the courthouse, it hit me,
and I sang "Waltzing Matilda" up the road.
It just seemed appropriate somehow.
;D :D :D ;D :D ;D :D ;D :D ;D
Rolf Harris - Waltzing Matilda (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bl-YI44XYjI)
One more day until Mid-Semester Break. :)
Quote from: MadelineB on August 29, 2012, 12:21:46 PM
Just got back from the courthouse, and I'm heading off to work.
But it felt so good when I heard the following words from the court clerk:
"Your name is now Madeline B"
Happy doesn't begin to describe it.
After I walked out of the courthouse, it hit me,
and I sang "Waltzing Matilda" up the road.
It just seemed appropriate somehow.
;D :D :D ;D :D ;D :D ;D :D ;D
Congrats Doll,
We might have to get the honorary 'Aussie Shelia' branding iron out.
My name change finally came through!
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi.imgur.com%2F1fsaG.jpg&hash=21d6529c05fe66060f6010e53c218975d527ac35)
Brilliant! :-*
I bet you will try and sign everything in sight for a week, just to look at the new signature. I know I did. :laugh: :laugh:
We're going to the beach today!
I'll most likely get the diagnosis later this fall. ;D
Two new Victoria Secret tops!
Quote from: kelly_aus on August 30, 2012, 05:40:34 AM
My name change finally came through!
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi.imgur.com%2F1fsaG.jpg&hash=21d6529c05fe66060f6010e53c218975d527ac35)
Congrats from one new name to another!
I understand that down under that is a MAJOR accomplishment.
:) :D :) :D
My son kept trying to go deeper into the water. (I was there with him to keep him from going too deep.) He loved it! That's my boy.
Quote from: Edge on August 30, 2012, 06:52:53 PM
My son kept trying to go deeper into the water. (I was there with him to keep him from going too deep.) He loved it! That's my boy.
He's brave =] I wont go in it, I watched too many shark programmes ::)
My mate gave me a rainbow cookie 8)
We went to the fair today. Owen was cranky most of the time, but I think he had fun. My friend watched him while I went on a ride and it was a lot of fun. When he's older, we'll be able to go on more rides together.
The Korean lady at my favorite foodcart complimented my hair. Then her son translated her compliment into English. I speak Korean, so I got to hear the compliment twice. :D
And I took a beautiful heap of taejie poolkogi back to my office to eat. An extra two tubs of gochew jong and my sinus pain was gone. That and the kimchi. :laugh:
I have respite care and no prior commitments for the first time this summer. :)
And the bar down the street has wifi. Yay. Omg I feel like the weight of the world is lifted, even if it's just for a couple days.
Quote from: kelly_aus on August 30, 2012, 05:40:34 AM
My name change finally came through!
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi.imgur.com%2F1fsaG.jpg&hash=21d6529c05fe66060f6010e53c218975d527ac35)
This made me want to cry. Lol I'm such a wuss. Congrats Kelly.
Quote from: Felix on August 31, 2012, 11:52:56 PM
This made me want to cry. Lol I'm such a wuss. Congrats Kelly.
Seeing Felix's almost smiling face made me happy today. :)
Oh, and Felix, real men do cry.
Quote from: kelly_aus on September 01, 2012, 01:46:06 AM
Seeing Felix's almost smiling face made me happy today. :)
Oh, and Felix, real men do cry.
Congrats Kelly! Yes, Felix has a nice face, proof that what hasn't killed him has made him stronger!
Waking up to morning snuggles with my fiance :icon_love:
I got a student loan!
Quote from: Edge on September 01, 2012, 03:11:48 PM
I got a student loan!
Those are pretty awesome. :3 I was terrified I wasn't going to get one because I think my credit isn't all that great, but I got one. ^_^
What made me happy:
I won a gift basket from the Hermit Crab Addiction Store! :D I didn't think I'd win, but I did. ^_^ It's kind of funny because it only required sharing a picture and I only shared it once while others shared it 57 times or more. xD
Yesterday I helped a woman carry her granddaughter in a buggy across the railway bridge. Today I bumped into her again, and we had a nice chat. I'm feeling accepted by women a lot this week :).
Under my jaw and along up to where my sideburns will eventually be feels nice and stubbly
The bike shop didn't charge me for the broken spoke, and the bike was done about 2 hours earlier than estimated.
Today, my friend's mother commented on how I was "turning into a boy" because of my short hair and tie (I'm a Slytherin fanboy). That comment made me feel so happy.
I got to hear my chosen name appended to the end of the phrase "I love you, too."
Quote from: Felix on August 31, 2012, 11:52:56 PM
This made me want to cry. Lol I'm such a wuss. Congrats Kelly.
Have you changed your hair colour again Sis?
I thought the pink was going well
Hugs
Quote from: Connie Anne on September 01, 2012, 07:32:03 PM
The bike shop didn't charge me for the broken spoke, and the bike was done about 2 hours earlier than estimated.
You are looking hottttt
Congrats
Ciindy
Yesterday actually. Had a great day with Uni Motorcyle Society ride-day at Baskerville circuit just outside Hobart. Not as good a track and facilities as the previous day at Symmons Plains up north, but we pretty much had the track to ourselves all day. Spent most of the day learning the track and tying the corners together. Followed by a BBQ and drinks at members place. Awesome day!
Quote from: justmeinoz on September 02, 2012, 03:40:21 AM
Yesterday actually. Had a great day with Uni Motorcyle Society ride-day at Baskerville circuit just outside Hobart. Not as good a track and facilities as the previous day at Symmons Plains up north, but we pretty much had the track to ourselves all day. Spent most of the day learning the track and tying the corners together. Followed by a BBQ and drinks at members place. Awesome day!
There was me thinking you were going to Uni to learn. No; she spends my taxes riding a motorbike.
God-damn Students
Probably a commie lesbo as well.
Has the weather improved?
Cindy
Quote from: Cindy James on September 02, 2012, 02:21:49 AM
Have you changed your hair colour again Sis?
I thought the pink was going well
Hugs
Yeah, back to a more 'normal' colour.. :( And all for reasons that didn't work out in the end.
And for something that made me happy today, I got a job. :)
Quote from: kelly_aus on September 02, 2012, 03:52:15 AM
Yeah, back to a more 'normal' colour.. :( And all for reasons that didn't work out in the end.
And for something that made me happy today, I got a job. :)
Good one.
Ahhhhhh normal and Kelly? I'm missing something?
Quote from: Cindy James on September 02, 2012, 03:55:00 AM
Good one.
Ahhhhhh normal and Kelly? I'm missing something?
I meet
my definition of normal, if I don't meet any one elses, that's their problem.. :P
You must be standing up then, because 'normal' to me is just something at right angles to a surface. A Geometrical term. I was not very normal last night after the 18 y/o whisky came out! ;)
Karen.
Well, your whisky is old enough to make its own decisions now, so it can't blame you for what happened...
I've always been amazed by the Scots. How can anyone let whisky get that old?
What do they do to amuse themselves :laugh:
The sermon as preached by the seminary intern was great, and I had a very productive session with my therapist.
Today I got to meet five WONDERFUL people from Susan's and a wonderful significant other too. Still smiling. :D
^_^ My friend said he saw a guy in my picture and my long hair was visible. x3 It made me so excited.
New here, but as to the OP, painting in my newly created art studio :)
Nothing serious, just personal art therapy!
Looks like I will be keeping my job for another 4 years. So no economic problems during transition.
Quote from: Apples Mk.II on September 03, 2012, 05:39:23 AM
Looks like I will be keeping my job for another 4 years. So no economic problems during transition.
Great news Apples. That's one hurdle over. The rest should be easy. Keep up the good work.
Huggs
Catherine
Quote from: ashley_thomas on September 02, 2012, 11:31:05 PM
New here, but as to the OP, painting in my newly created art studio :)
Nothing serious, just personal art therapy!
Sounds wonderful! I just found my old stash of oil paints and need to get back to it.
Quote from: Apples Mk.II on September 03, 2012, 05:39:23 AM
Looks like I will be keeping my job for another 4 years. So no economic problems during transition.
Congratulations Apples!
Quote from: Liam Erik on September 02, 2012, 11:53:32 PM
I'm halfway through spinning my fourteenth skein of yarn. :D On a freakin' drop spindle. That's like a hundred and seventy-five hours.
Wow, your arms must be like oak trees.
The pork chops I got at the store are relatively inexpensive, quick and easy to make, and taste delicious. We'll definitely be having those again.
The things that make me happy sound really boring and mundane, but that also makes me happy. After all, it makes it much easier to be happy in general when little things make me happy.
My wonderful girlfriend, and noticing my breasts looking fuller in the mirror this morning :)
Quote from: MadelineB on September 03, 2012, 03:33:56 PM
Congratulations Apples!Wow, your arms must be like oak trees.
Still not official until the paperwork is signed ("pacto entre caballeros", we usually say), but it is something.
Sadly, that was not my biggest issue. Meeting my dermatologist in 15 days and managing to get a prescription for finasteride is my current top priority. Each time I see my temples I enter into a panic state.
BlackAcreBrewing.com - Click "I am under 21". You will not regret it. Made my day. :laugh:
Looking at cute boys I don't have the nerve to hit on. ::)
Quote from: Ayden on September 04, 2012, 03:14:58 AM
BlackAcreBrewing.com - Click "I am under 21". You will not regret it. Made my day. :laugh:
That musical number is a work of art. I need those purple tights.
Good deed for the day :) - I went to book online for a meditation day for gay/bi women (in Brighton, England, if anyone else is interested, 30th September), noticed they'd undercharged on their full/concessions price dropdown, phoned them up and told them, so now they won't lose money on the day 8).
Today is my birthday.
xD
I guess that's something to be happy about, no?
:P
Quote from: JasonRX on September 04, 2012, 07:26:30 AM
Today is my birthday.
xD
I guess that's something to be happy about, no?
:P
Happy birthday! ;D (sorry about this...)
Altered Images - Happy Birthday (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HgqD826HGuI#)
Happy Birthday Jason. :)
Had a nice meeting of my Trans support group with some new faces.
Oh, and reading good things above.
Quote from: JasonRX on September 04, 2012, 07:26:30 AM
Today is my birthday.
xD
I guess that's something to be happy about, no?
:P
It is when you're not so old:P
Happy Birthday, kid!
Quote from: JasonRX on September 04, 2012, 07:26:30 AM
Today is my birthday.
xD
I guess that's something to be happy about, no?
:P
Happy birthday Jason! BTW - Like your tuxedo cat avatar, they are always the smartest kitties!
Quote from: Shantel on September 04, 2012, 08:20:16 AM
Happy birthday Jason! BTW - Like your tuxedo cat avatar, they are always the smartest kitties!
I have two of them.
They are brothers and really are very sweet & intelligent cats.
I love them dearly.
:]
I come out to ma collegue today and he have no problem with it
Yesterday I talk with boss and he is also supportive ;D
Quote from: Medusa on September 04, 2012, 09:04:33 AM
I come out to ma collegue today and he have no problem with it
Yesterday I talk with boss and he is also supportive ;D
Congratulations Medusa! I know that is a big step, and having it go well has got to be a big relief. :D
The following conversation:
How old are you?
Me: 32
No way! You don't look older than 25. That's not fair.
Me: ummmm... thank you. *grinning like the Cheshire Cat*
Picking up my kitty from the local private animal rescue place this evening! Her name is Kiah. She is a total snuggle WHORE, which is exactly what I wanted.
http://www.petfinder.com/petdetail/23668401 (http://www.petfinder.com/petdetail/23668401)
Congrats Dalebert :) Kiah the snuggle whore looks like a sweet kitty
Quote from: dalebert on September 04, 2012, 10:36:27 AM
Picking up my kitty from the local private animal rescue place this evening! Her name is Kiah. She is a total snuggle WHORE, which is exactly what I wanted.
http://www.petfinder.com/petdetail/23668401 (http://www.petfinder.com/petdetail/23668401)
Cool, Kiah looks like a chilled-out sybarite - everyone should have one :).
Happy Birthday Jason! ;D
A couple guys came up and introduced themselves to me. One of them called me "dude." ;D
I was recognized by one of the councillors I'm already met (once last year at the QuSA meeting).
The orientation for mature students was very funny and well done.
I got a free water bottle.
Yes, but that pays for my better future.
I'm happy it went well Robyn! ;D
Guess who got the afternoon tutorials? THIS GUY RIGHT HERE. Thank God, I hated teaching in the morning. Hated. I do need to wake up early in order to attend the larger group lecture, but that's only two days a week.
Not a morning person, fully accept this now.
Quote from: Sephirah on September 04, 2012, 10:27:25 AM
The following conversation:
How old are you?
Me: 32
No way! You don't look older than 25. That's not fair.
Me: ummmm... thank you. *grinning like the Cheshire Cat*
That's awesome! Something like that happened to me with a former colleague of mine - not only does he tower over my 5'9 self, but he thought I was in my 20's (I'm in my 30's), and he's the sweetest, most adorable teddy bear of a guy you could ever hope to meet : )
Quote from: edderkopp on September 04, 2012, 04:21:02 PM
I'm happy it went well Robyn! ;D
Guess who got the afternoon tutorials? THIS GUY RIGHT HERE. Thank God, I hated teaching in the morning. Hated. I do need to wake up early in order to attend the larger group lecture, but that's only two days a week.
Not a morning person, fully accept this now.
Congrats! I hated teaching morning classes in grad school.
Quote from: edderkopp on September 04, 2012, 01:01:06 PM
Happy Birthday Jason! ;D
Thank you, Caleb.
:)
Oh, & everyone else too.
last time, I taught on Fridays, from 9 am to 11 am. I hated it with a burning passion. Then the lectures were another story.
Quote from: JasonRX on September 04, 2012, 04:23:52 PM
Thank you, Caleb.
:)
Oh, & everyone else too.
I missed the post, but happy birthday : )
Quote from: edderkopp on September 04, 2012, 04:25:12 PM
last time, I taught on Fridays, from 9 am to 11 am. I hated it with a burning passion. Then the lectures were another story.
Most of my classes are from 9:30 to 12:30 (the only exception being a lab on tuesdays atm) and I have trouble getting to sleep. :P That works for me though because the tiredness usually hits me mid afternoon.
Oh I forgot to mention that there are two gender neutral bathrooms at my university. Now if only I could remember where they said they were...
And also, the guy who called me "dude" did so without any prompting from me. He just acted like I was regular guy without me telling him anything.
I wish our campus had gender neutral bathrooms. I just go to the private-ish ones.
Did I ask you what you're taking at uni?
Probably, but I'll answer anyway.
I need to take a math course and then I'm transferring to a bachelor of science. I'm going to major in biology and probably minor in chemistry. After that, depending on my finances and options, I'll either go on straight to my masters or work in a bio or chem related field before doing my masters. After my masters, I'm doing a PhD. I want to go into neuroscience and/or genetics (and I'll try to do both if I can). Research is the kind of work I want to do.
This future makes me very happy especially since it is now within my grasp.
Quote from: Edge on September 04, 2012, 04:57:53 PM
Probably, but I'll answer anyway.
I need to take a math course and then I'm transferring to a bachelor of science. I'm going to major in biology and probably minor in chemistry. After that, depending on my fiances and options, I'll either go on straight to my masters or work in a bio or chem related field before doing my masters. After my masters, I'm doing a PhD. I want to go into neuroscience and/or genetics (and I'll try to do both if I can). Research is the kind of work I want to do.
This future makes me very happy especially since it is now within my grasp.
Ambitious. I have no doubt you'll succeed! :)
Jason: Happy birthday! Hope it was a good one!
Dalebert: That cat is ADORABLE. I love the colors.
Its really dumb, but I got to sleep an extra an hour this morning and it was awesome. I really needed it.
I got called ma'am.
With the shorter haircut and lack of breastforms now being my default presentation, I had steeled myself be called sir or worse (that 3-letter F-bomb). I do have bra pads, but that's it. So, I have an AA maybe an A-cup bosom.
But, I still got called ma'am.
Quote from: Connie Anne on September 04, 2012, 10:14:58 PM
I got called ma'am.
With the shorter haircut and lack of breastforms now being my default presentation, I had steeled myself be called sir or worse (that 3-letter F-bomb). I do have bra pads, but that's it. So, I have an AA maybe an A-cup bosom.
But, I still got called ma'am.
Yay! : )
Watching four hours of convention coverage on public television. Seeing perhaps half a dozen of the transgender delegates featured in crowd reaction closeups, not because they were transgender, but because their faces were so full of emotion and sheer pride for being there, that the camera kept coming back. It was great; it wasn't for LGBT rights segments, but in segments about women's rights, or overcoming job discrimination, or working hard against great odds, or the need for everyone to have a voice.
One perso adn't told personally about going FT was my ex-suprvisor and long time mentor. He is in his 70's bright as anything and still a research director. We have been friends for years. I was in the city today where he know works so I called in unannounced at 8.00am. As usual his door was open , I knocked he turned around and looked at me and said 'Yes?', then it was "Oh XXXXXX" I didn't recognise you. We didn't have long and I told him I wanted to catch up and let him know my life changes personally rather than by email or whatever. He said he had heard (as has everyone in the medical area and hospitals and Universities I work in) and he was glad I was happy and would I mind if he took a little time to get used to the new me.
We had a very pleasant friendly chat.
I have no more bridges.
I have burned everything.
There is nothing to go back too.
The finality is quite awesome.
I'm me. Finally.
Quote from: Cindy James on September 05, 2012, 02:55:19 AM
One perso adn't told personally about going FT was my ex-suprvisor and long time mentor. He is in his 70's bright as anything and still a research director. We have been friends for years. I was in the city today where he know works so I called in unannounced at 8.00am. As usual his door was open , I knocked he turned around and looked at me and said 'Yes?', then it was "Oh XXXXXX" I didn't recognise you. We didn't have long and I told him I wanted to catch up and let him know my life changes personally rather than by email or whatever. He said he had heard (as has everyone in the medical area and hospitals and Universities I work in) and he was glad I was happy and would I mind if he took a little time to get used to the new me.
We had a very pleasant friendly chat.
I have no more bridges.
I have burned everything.
There is nothing to go back too.
The finality is quite awesome.
I'm me. Finally.
That is so awesome!!!
When you have nothing to go back to, you have everything here with you.
A couple of guys were helping a new move-in that is wheelchair bound at my apt.s and a some other tenants were standing about laughing and talking smack about how the the guys were struggling with some things so I jumped in to help
Sure, I have injuries that bother me and it was a strenuous activity, but I couldn't just stand there and watch or listen to the stuffing
I was glad I could help and received several thank yous and overhearing something about the amazon woman didn't bother me
Quote from: Cindy James on September 05, 2012, 02:55:19 AM
He said he had heard (as has everyone in the medical area and hospitals and Universities I work in) and he was glad I was happy and would I mind if he took a little time to get used to the new me.
What an honest response! This fellow is most thoughtful and considerate, we can all only wish to be received in that same manner by others!
Quote from: Cindy James on September 05, 2012, 02:55:19 AM
We had a very pleasant friendly chat.
I have no more bridges.
I have burned everything.
There is nothing to go back too.
The finality is quite awesome.
I'm me. Finally.
How wonderful and uplifting is that, huh? Just like being born again.....congratulations are due everyone, Cindy has indeed finally arrived and we have a girl!
Quote from: Connie Anne on September 04, 2012, 10:14:58 PM
I got called ma'am.
With the shorter haircut and lack of breastforms now being my default presentation, I had steeled myself be called sir or worse (that 3-letter F-bomb). I do have bra pads, but that's it. So, I have an AA maybe an A-cup bosom.
But, I still got called ma'am.
I would say ma'am too just judging from your current avatar photo. Personally hair length has never been a big issue between male/female ID in my thinking as I've seen a lot of really darling female faces nestled in little boy style haircuts. You look just darling too dear!
Classes start Friday for me! I'm so excited.
I'm getting new books today.
I'm struggling a lot with fear this week, as I prepare for EMDR therapy for my PTSD (moar! we demand moar four-letter acronyms!!) - but small kindnesses make a huge difference. I just saw my GP to arrange a blood test, and she was lovely with me, and I feel full of appreciation - which is a good antidote to fear :).
Someone just called me 'streetwise' ;D. I'm in two minds whether to post this in "What made you laugh?" instead :D.
Masculine pronouns...(but why is our society so dependant on them? or at least where i live?)
I almost have my student loan stuff sorted. Just need to fax a couple things and I'm done.
Quote from: Liam Erik on September 05, 2012, 08:17:52 PM
Do you guys find it boring/annoying that three-quarters of my posts these days are about sheep? I'm very interested in that stuff, and not much else, so I apologize.
I wouldn't apologize, sheep are your primary interest, GID issues are secondary which sounds healthier than the other way around. I was quite interested in your daily reports when you had pregnant ewes.
Quote from: Liam Erik on September 05, 2012, 08:17:52 PM
Do you guys find it boring/annoying that three-quarters of my posts these days are about sheep? I'm very interested in that stuff, and not much else, so I apologize.
Today I acquired 2400 pounds of hay, and tomorrow will get more. I did a herd check and half the ewes are fat as hogs, and the other half is in good weight, too. I feel better about not having enough grass to go around.
I like sheep...and would find it rather interesting to be a shepard so its no bother to me. I enjoy reading your posts, they are quite fascinating to me. :)
Quote from: Liam Erik on September 05, 2012, 08:17:52 PM
Do you guys find it boring/annoying that three-quarters of my posts these days are about sheep? I'm very interested in that stuff, and not much else, so I apologize.
Today I acquired 2400 pounds of hay, and tomorrow will get more. I did a herd check and half the ewes are fat as hogs, and the other half is in good weight, too. I feel better about not having enough grass to go around.
Cant say im all that interested in sheep but I cant say i've ever found your posts boring or annoying either. Its just part of the package when your interacting with other people to expect them to have some different interests to you. I really wouldn't worry about it, much less feel the need to apologise.
my cat is sleeping with me.
Quote from: Liam Erik on September 05, 2012, 08:17:52 PM
Do you guys find it boring/annoying that three-quarters of my posts these days are about sheep? I'm very interested in that stuff, and not much else, so I apologize.
Not at all. Talking about what matters to you, and what you take meaning from is what it's all about. :)
I do have one question though - what do you count when you want to try to sleep? Or actually, does counting sheep even make you feel tired? If not, I wonder where that came from.
Quote from: DianaP on September 05, 2012, 08:58:09 PM
It originated in 1854 in Northern England (as a tribute to the task's monotony, I'd presume) and I think it was sheep because sheep have white fur and thus are more readily visible at night.
Yeah, when you don't get much sleep, you run out of things to do, and this is what happens...
You'd think I'd know that, being from Northern England. But no.
Thank you. :)
I definitely caught up on all my sleep
AFTER 2 DAYS, MY IPOD CAME BACK TOO LIFE AFTER GOING THROUGH THE WASHING MACHINE!! XD
I've had that thing for so many years. It is officially invincible :D
Quote from: Shantel on September 05, 2012, 07:59:08 AM
I would say ma'am too just judging from your current avatar photo. Personally hair length has never been a big issue between male/female ID in my thinking as I've seen a lot of really darling female faces nestled in little boy style haircuts. You look just darling too dear!
Thanks, Shantel.
I got sir'd twice today, but had an awesome day nonetheless.
The fact that sheep make Liam happy makes me happy because I like when people are happy.
Quote from: Cindy James on September 05, 2012, 02:55:19 AM
One perso adn't told personally about going FT was my ex-suprvisor and long time mentor. He is in his 70's bright as anything and still a research director. We have been friends for years. I was in the city today where he know works so I called in unannounced at 8.00am. As usual his door was open , I knocked he turned around and looked at me and said 'Yes?', then it was "Oh XXXXXX" I didn't recognise you. We didn't have long and I told him I wanted to catch up and let him know my life changes personally rather than by email or whatever. He said he had heard (as has everyone in the medical area and hospitals and Universities I work in) and he was glad I was happy and would I mind if he took a little time to get used to the new me.
We had a very pleasant friendly chat.
I have no more bridges.
I have burned everything.
There is nothing to go back too.
The finality is quite awesome.
I'm me. Finally.
This reminds me a a lot of my transition when I was a grad student in the biological sciences. By the time I had gotten to the point where changes had started to become obvious, I was done with my classes and my research, and I was working on my thesis and my defense and really had very little reason to be on campus. I came out to the people I needed to, defended, and I was done. After that, word kind of spread through my department, so quite a few people had "heard" before they ever saw me after graduation the times I went up to visit.
I don't think my graduate advisor was all that surprised, and, in general, everyone was really wonderful about it. I only had one negative reaction from a post doc, I think, but he was always a schmuck anyway.
Really, it was a great place to do it, and the timing couldn't have worked out better if I had planned it that way.
Finding the Top Box that had abandoned ship off the back of my motorcycle, having a nice rest in the grass by the side of the road.
Quote from: Liam Erik on September 05, 2012, 08:17:52 PM
Do you guys find it boring/annoying that three-quarters of my posts these days are about sheep? I'm very interested in that stuff, and not much else, so I apologize.
Sheep make you seem cool and mystical.
I'm a country girl at heart, so I think sheep are actually quite neat. :)
Post away, better than talking about the weather, like everyone does in real life when they run out of things to say.
Today I received my DMV (department of motor vehicles) gender change letter from my therapist. :laugh:
Nice work by your therapist, now for the DMV! :-*
one guy at work turn back to hold me door ;D
Someone just told me:
You're like a modern day super hero <3 lol
Best compliment I've ever gotten. :o
Quote from: DianaP on September 05, 2012, 08:58:09 PM
It originated in 1854 in Northern England (as a tribute to the task's monotony, I'd presume) and I think it was sheep because sheep have white fur and thus are more readily visible at night.
Yeah, when you don't get much sleep, you run out of things to do, and this is what happens...
Uh-ooooo!!! Gee and I thought it was all about the sexy Serta mattress commercial with pouty Joey Heatherton that was on TV several years ago!
Like sheep that pass in the night... :)
Quote from: Padma on September 06, 2012, 08:10:16 AM
Like sheep that pass in the night... :)
OMG... the sheep too?! They pass so well. I would have never guessed. ;)
Bah :).
Well, this topic has turned to sheep, hasn't it?
Bl33t 8)
I have a job! ;D
Also yes, sheep are cool.
I got to hang out with my sissies and we went and had a fuzzy taco :D I really really missed them, it was sooooo wonderful to be out in public and totally girl mode :D Those tacos are the best, I had meat in mine but they had veggie ones :P I was teasing them to try mine the entire time :P Amazing time today with my sisters.
Quote from: Snowpaw on September 06, 2012, 09:05:39 PM
I got to hang out with my sissies and we went and had a fuzzy taco :D -snip- I was teasing them to try mine the entire time :P
Oh, the innuendo is irresistible, lol.
Quote from: Snowpaw on September 06, 2012, 09:05:39 PM
I got to hang out with my sissies and we went and had a fuzzy taco :D I really really missed them, it was sooooo wonderful to be out in public and totally girl mode :D Those tacos are the best, I had meat in mine but they had veggie ones :P I was teasing them to try mine the entire time :P Amazing time today with my sisters.
What is a fuzzy taco? I *really* must know...not the innuendo variety, I'm pretty clear on that : )
Oh it's a taco joint :P they just sell texmex I think. I had a awesome margarita too :)
Quote from: Snowpaw on September 07, 2012, 12:21:33 AM
Oh it's a taco joint :P they just sell texmex I think. I had a awesome margarita too :)
Oh, thanks : ) Mexican food sounds uh-mazing right now....
Quote from: Erica on September 07, 2012, 01:16:31 AM
Oh, thanks : ) Mexican food sounds uh-mazing right now....
Haha yeah it was amazing, they put some kind of salad dressing in it and it tasted sooooo good. :3 Oh and the good thing for today :D 1:32 am here :3 My fingers have strengthened up and I can play my guitar better.
My fever broke over the night :D
Still feel meh, but I'm getting better
Realizing that Saturday is shaping up to be great. It will be another day of perfect weather in Portland, and if I plot my trajectory correctly, I should be able to visit all three (free) events:
1. Parking Lot Sale at SCRAP (http://scrappdx.org/), the art supply and retasking non-profit store
2. PDX Baconfest (http://www.pdxbaconfest.com/). An entire city block dedicated entirely to the worship and consumption of bacon in all its myriad forms.
3. Oktoberfest (http://www.mcmenamins.com/events/104603-Oktoberfest-at-Kennedy-School) at McMenamin's Kennedy School.
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fmedia.oregonlive.com%2Fportland_impact%2Fphoto%2Fbaconfestjpeg-d72cf1e27d6b2e24.jpeg&hash=4accac9518441be1a9fd6c4988f1132a6f32d8f3)
PHOTO: THE OREGONIAN. Kenji Altheide, 23, of Vancouver gobbles a strip of bacon in the 3 Minute Bike/Eat Bacon Challenge, sponsored by Get Fit Training, Inc., at Baconfest 2010
Having my Tax done this morning and finding I will get a decent refund. Hellooooo shoes!!! ;D
Getting a very interested response from a cute young lady at a local bakery when she saw the rainbow tattoo I have on one of my fingers. Far too busy for conversation, but did my ego no end of good!
I will be back there to buy bread and see if there is more to this! :)
Rejoining this forum
I have a job interview on Monday! It's not the greatest in terms of hours and pay, but it's in a ceramics studio, which is one of my favorite types of places to be. I went to pick up something I'd painted there, and all the people working there loved it, so I asked if they were hiring.
I really, really hope I get it.
New pants, new tank tops and new kick drum.
Quote from: Cain on September 07, 2012, 12:19:41 PM
I have a job interview on Monday! It's not the greatest in terms of hours and pay, but it's in a ceramics studio, which is one of my favorite types of places to be. I went to pick up something I'd painted there, and all the people working there loved it, so I asked if they were hiring.
I really, really hope I get it.
Good going Cain! In this economy we take what we can get and it sounds like you will be right in your element with artsy types. Best wishes, let us know...
My psych professor called me a man. ;D Also, my geology teacher looks gender variant herself (although probably not trans) and she's funny and my math teacher seems sweet.
The veins in my arms stick out all the time now
Jealous. My skin and arms are still pretty soft looking.
Quote from: edderkopp on September 07, 2012, 05:02:49 PM
Jealous. My skin and arms are still pretty soft looking.
Don't be jealous it actually looks kinda odd to have a such a manly feature on such pathetic sticks ;D
I've never. Noticed a difference in my skin texture...
Are you on msn ?
I am now ;D And I am armed with the Subway my dad bought me for dinner.
I went out in public for the first time today and everything was totally normal =^.^=
I also heard back from my martial arts instructor (who I came out to via email) who says there will be no problem with me continuing to attend classes as a girl so YAY!
Today has been really good ;D
Thanks Liam! Spinning your own yarn is wonderful, I used to work almost entirely in knitwear before I left to start my own company. So many amazing things you can do with knits!
Quote from: Twyla on September 07, 2012, 11:12:10 PM
Thanks Liam! Spinning your own yarn is wonderful, I used to work almost entirely in knitwear before I left to start my own company. So many amazing things you can do with knits!
Hugs Twyla, that is great news and it is such a relief to know you can just be you. And no one seems to care no matter how much we worried.
:-*
Cindy
Quote from: MadelineB on September 07, 2012, 10:00:44 AM
Realizing that Saturday is shaping up to be great. It will be another day of perfect weather in Portland, and if I plot my trajectory correctly, I should be able to visit all three (free) events:
1. Parking Lot Sale at SCRAP (http://scrappdx.org/), the art supply and retasking non-profit store
2. PDX Baconfest (http://www.pdxbaconfest.com/). An entire city block dedicated entirely to the worship and consumption of bacon in all its myriad forms.
3. Oktoberfest (http://www.mcmenamins.com/events/104603-Oktoberfest-at-Kennedy-School) at McMenamin's Kennedy School.
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fmedia.oregonlive.com%2Fportland_impact%2Fphoto%2Fbaconfestjpeg-d72cf1e27d6b2e24.jpeg&hash=4accac9518441be1a9fd6c4988f1132a6f32d8f3)
PHOTO: THE OREGONIAN. Kenji Altheide, 23, of Vancouver gobbles a strip of bacon in the 3 Minute Bike/Eat Bacon Challenge, sponsored by Get Fit Training, Inc., at Baconfest 2010
The bacon thingy sounds awesome
Quote from: Twyla on September 07, 2012, 09:06:43 PM
I went out in public for the first time today and everything was totally normal =^.^=
I also heard back from my martial arts instructor (who I came out to via email) who says there will be no problem with me continuing to attend classes as a girl so YAY!
Today has been really good ;D
That's wonderful! First of many good days ahead.
I went out walking and it's late (2 am). I was pretty scared, but I got myself some coke (drink :P) from the convenience store.
I don't think I'll ever have the sense of confidence and safety that a male would, even once I pass more, but it was nice not to let the fear of something very unlikely take over me.
Quote from: edderkopp on September 08, 2012, 03:13:18 AM
I went out walking and it's late (2 am). I was pretty scared, but I got myself some coke (drink :P) from the convenience store.
I don't think I'll ever have the sense of confidence and safety that a male would, even once I pass more, but it was nice not to let the fear of something very unlikely take over me.
I don't think men actually do feel safe at that time of night. I have walked home many times with my dad in the early hours of the morning and although outwardly he was all confidence, I noticed he would always be checking his surroundings.
Quote from: Tom on September 08, 2012, 10:55:06 AM
I don't think men actually do feel safe at that time of night. I have walked home many times with my dad in the early hours of the morning and although outwardly he was all confidence, I noticed he would always be checking his surroundings.
Always a smart thing to do regardless of gender or of how big and bad you might be! Times are becoming more perilous with so many out of work, losing homes and feeling disenfranchised. It brings out the dark side of humanity as they vent their frustrations on total strangers. A few days ago a well known local man was shot in the side of the head and killed as he drove his car through a middle income neighborhood. The shooter was driving a silver BMW convertable, not the time, place or situation one would expect something like this to happen. The cause? Road rage!
I did a cannon ball into a pool full of mud and ended up covered from head to toe.
Also, I went to lunch with a friend whom has been very unhappy lately, and she seemed in really good spirits.
Quote from: Lee on September 08, 2012, 05:01:14 PM
I did a cannon ball into a pool full of mud and ended up covered from head to toe.
Wow. That is like a dream for me. I love the feeling of mud.
I literally just spent 10 minuites thinking "was I even happy at all today" I felt my version of happy for a few minutes so I guess that counts even though it isn't really happy it's just not deppressed or suicidal.
I was doing a livestream and I was making these cute charms out of fimo clay and someone said I have nice hands and that the clay jelly I was making was cute.
This wasn't today but yesteday but I want to share it anyway.
I went to the mall to buy some new clay and art supplies, I got on the bus and asked for my ticket and my voice sounded so deep (I have a cold) and I had to fight the urge to smile at hearing my own voice, there was this cute girl on the bus who kept smiling at me and when I smiled back she blushed. When I was walking around a cute guy walked into me and knocked me over (I'm rather small) and he helped me up and said "sorry about that bro...your hands are so small it's cute", then I went to the toilet, I am not confortable going to the male toilets so I went to the girls but as I turned to go into the toilets a little girl said "sorry mister this is the girls toilets" so I said "sorry" smiled and went to the guys toilets, when I was in the que for the bus home a little old lady said "sorry son you were infront of me" I said "oh no you go infront so you can grab a seat" and she said "what a nice young man you are", so yeah I passed a lot yesterday.
Aww, yay! That's great CandyBoy :D
Reading about your day yesterday made me happy!
^.^
Very cool indeed way to go CandyBoy!
I had dinner and conversation with my older brother this evening.
Quote from: Liam Erik on September 08, 2012, 09:16:51 PM
I am two-thirds of the way through making (knitting) a special scarf for my mom, with a widened part in the middle so she can wear it around her head as she likes to do. I sort of winged it, but it came out perfectly. I used the softest, longest wool from my best Border Leicester ewe. Unfortunately, I ran out of yarn, so it's back to the old drop spindle for a few days.
I would love to have nice yarn to knit with. I am stuck with the store bought stuff. What stitch did you use to widen the middle? I'm assuming you added stitches and then slowly dropped them as you progressed.
I went to a park where there was a free market today about four train stations away (by monorail) and we saw a lot of gay couples, which is only now becoming semi-okay in Japan. I also saw a woman who I am about 95% sure was trans, and she had the cutest shawl/sweater I have ever seen. The girl that I bought a jersey shirt from told me that she didn't know American boys were "so good looking". Confidence booster!
Realising my 20th birthday is exactly a month and one of my fellow ftm friends has bought my present and is giving me it on tuesday instead of making me wait!! I have no idea what it is, my friend Wing knows because Caleb bought it from Wings shop but he won't tell me >.<
I came out to my inlaws last night (well, father in law anyway) and received complete support! I really don't know what I'd been expecting, but it was a huge relief. He'll be breaking the news to my mother in law today....we'll see how that goes.
Im the only one in my work canteenso I can sit on this comfy chair however damn well I please. Which at the moment involves resting my back against one arm and dangling my legs over the other ;D
Big step...so cool!
The gym is a good start, make it an obsession for awhile and you'll have abs of steel and good muscle tone. Trust me it and a lean diet works! I used to be a pudge, now I'm 60 lbs lighter and sculpted.
I am really happy because even though I have a lot of goals in terms of weight loss and strength building still, with relatively little effort I have become quite strong on T. I have been able to keep up with the physical demands of moving the heavy furniture, boxes, going up and down, dealing with stuff in the shed like it is absolutely nothing.
This makes me happy because although our house has four males, none of us have been able to step up to the plate and take on that role of being stronger and doing the heavy work. My dad is old/lazy/unmotivated, my brother is femme and doesn't desire to do any "dirty" work, and my other brother is too young to really appreciate hard work.
So to me, to know I finally have the strength and stamina to step in and be "the man of the house" and help my mother with all of this is just really, really satisfying. I always felt like I was inadequate because I wanted to take on these traditional "men's roles" and help her, but was never physically able to.
And this is nothing. Imagine what I can do with hard work and dedication towards fitness building.
I woke up at 7am to my dogalarms (they want to be let out every day at that exact hour) remembering a wonderful dream, the kind that feel completely real.
The young woman to whom it was prophesied that she would meet and become one with me (and versa vise) unlocked the front door, walked right in, closed the door behind her, smiled, and said "I recognized you the very first time I saw you. You did too, didn't you?" "Yes" I said. And we embraced. It had been such a very long journey, and we had returned to our beginning and found each other perfect and whole after all of our impossible adventures lived in painful parallel.
I didn't even have to wonder what it meant. :D
That was a remarkably spiritual event! How cool is that?
Today I was defined by a girl as "incredibly f*ckable". She could not even believe my age.
Oh well, at least I am keeping my body in good shape.
Quote from: Apples Mk.II on September 09, 2012, 03:46:39 PM
Today I was defined by a girl as "incredibly f*ckable". She could not even believe my age.
Oh well, at least I am keeping my body in good shape.
Cool, getting in shape and staying that way has it's perks!
Quote from: edderkopp on September 08, 2012, 05:32:00 PM
Wow. That is like a dream for me. I love the feeling of mud.
Yeah, it was great. We were helping out with a race where all of the obstacles were mud-related. It was funny as hell watching all of the people who thought it would be shallow face plant right into the pit.
Quote from: Lee on September 09, 2012, 05:10:53 PM
Yeah, it was great. We were helping out with a race where all of the obstacles were mud-related. It was funny as hell watching all of the people who thought it would be shallow face plant right into the pit.
I need to do something like that. *ponders* Sounds awesome ;D
Edderkopp called me Taichi as part of a joke that Im actually 6 years old and from Japan buuuuut had I not felt I had to pick a sensible (as in my mum would have picked it for me in the 90's in the UK) name thats the one I would have picked. I really like Taichi or Tai for some reason.
Quote from: Apples Mk.II on September 09, 2012, 03:46:39 PM
Today I was defined by a girl as "incredibly f*ckable". She could not even believe my age.
Oh well, at least I am keeping my body in good shape.
I mentioned this to a friend, no specifics, but we had a good laugh ^^
Finding that on return to Uni after a weeks mid-semester break, I have actually learned and retained something from all the study I did. :)
Getting outdoors & accomplishing things. And simply just because I want to be happy
Tai is actually a pretty cool name. But I agree, a little too uncommon.
Raspberry sorbet for breakfast
Tipping the scales away from fear towards humour.
Saw my first red dragonfly.
Went to my GLBT club today in school. Was pretty freaking awesome and hilarious when we got down to our favorite sexual positions. Anyway, I find out they are gonna be going to the pride event this sunday too in dallas :3 I can't freaking wait.
i officially came out as trans at work. :) now everyone is using the proper pronouns and calling me Wil. :) everything is going pretty damn good. finished my counseling, just gotta get an apptmnt with a doc to get my perscription. i'm legally changing my name this friday the 14th, and as soon as i get my perscription, i get to change my gender on my id. :)
Soon I will start receiving proper paychecks again.
I'm also happy to be back into things even though there are some stressful parts. I have to admit, over this summer I was starting to feel really useless and discouraged. It's good to be busy, have my connections, to be in a leadership role again.
I just gave myself my estrogen shot and for the first time stuck the syringe all the way in, and I didn't feel a thing :). Plus, no leaking or bleeding.
In reverse chronological order:
I watched "Gentlemen Prefer Blondes" without commercials. (I heart Jane Russell).
I made my best pot of scratch chicken soup ever.
I had lunch with my older sister at a great Thai place.
Oh, and I got my driver's license in my new name and gender.
Good day.
Booked myself in the hairdresser for the works. I'm getting the chief creative hair stylist, colour consulting technician and the owner told me to expect to be here for a number of hours.
And I'm leaving the style to them, well with some input from me.
And no Kelly I'm not going Pink :-*
Tomorrow I can pick my finasteride/dutasteride order from the post office. Putting a stop to the hair loss should ease a bit the anxiety (Minoxidil does nothing for me).
Quote from: Apples Mk.II on September 11, 2012, 07:43:09 AM
Tomorrow I can pick my finasteride/dutasteride order from the post office. Putting a stop to the hair loss should ease a bit the anxiety (Minoxidil does nothing for me).
That will work! I read an article about Minoxidil written by a chemist that said the Minoxidil in it's original strength would grow hair on a brass door knob, but as could be expected the regulators (FDA) forced the manufacturers to water it down significantly to the point that it doesn't work for many. Besides the effects are only temporary as it has to be used continuously to keep what grows as a result.
I have my serious doubts about minoxidil working after more or less one year and a half, but you know... The shedding. Every time I run out of it and after one week or two of "It did not do anything" , in the moment it starts to fall non stop, I run to the pharmacy. I started using it with the thinning, but now it is what comes next.
Tried ketoconazole shampoo, but that thing turned my hair into some sort of plaster and almost decolorated it. I tried to comb it and I almost lost hald the scalp. If the *ides start working, I hope the thinning will go away and the areas in a warning status (next to the temples) will revert. It will need more than 6 monthx to appreciate the effect, but... I have wanted to have long hair for my entire life, and I always had to give up because of the fear of falling even more. Even a Justin Bieber haircut would do.
Being androgynous most of the time I had previously worn my hair to almost shoulder length. It's always been very wavy in back but a bit sparse toward my forehead, so I usually wore a bandanna on the front and tied under my hair at the back of my head. That and my faux diamond ear piercings and the fact that my face is 99% clear of facial hair got me mam'ed a lot. One day I got tired of that charade and pulled the earrings and got a buzz cut. I know....WTF??!! Just the ups and downs we all go through with GID issues I suppose. Now I'm growing my hair back out again...Duh!!!
Apples....If you are going to go full-time woman and are dealing with tremendous hair problems consider a few nice human hair wigs as a good investment in your final presentation. There are some good companies online that deal in a vast variety of wigs at really reasonable prices. If you have a large noggin, they have wigs for women with big heads too. You can call and talk with a rep, they are usually either very knowledgeable gay males or TG friendly females that can help you. If you decide to go that route, you can get a buzz cut and forget about hair problems. Just one less thing to be anxious about!
Thanks. There's still plenty of time until the therapy advances (I hope they can redirect to support groups). I know a few local shops that deal with wigs, but I have no intention on running. A good synthetic wig will do if I need to do a trial, but when it comes to presenting as a woman... Gradually and without rushing it. Being non-binary, I don't have an urgent desire for presenting ASAP and the androgynous transition stage is more than welcome.
Years ago I would have wished to appear more androgynous, but... I did not care enough for my body. accepting I was worthless and without future was more than enough
Happy thing of the day: We have a plan for visiting some ruins and take photos during the weekend.
I'm trying hard to think of what made me happy today, but nothing really happened specifically. I'm just happy. So I guess...life?
My 4 yr old son, talking about a much older child who was allowed by his parent to do something my son is not allowed to do yet, said, "But daddy, he's just a baby goat."
I said, "What? What are you talking about?"
He says, "He's a kid. He's just a kid."
That made me laugh. ;D
Quote from: blue.ocean.girl on September 11, 2012, 08:03:08 PM
My 4 yr old son, talking about a much older child who was allowed by his parent to do something my son is not allowed to do yet, said, "But daddy, he's just a baby goat."
I said, "What? What are you talking about?"
He says, "He's a kid. He's just a kid."
That made me laugh. ;D
That is
so cute
Armed with my new driver's license, in two days I have updated my name and gender (except social security just the name) on:
payroll
internal revenue
life insurance
car insurance
health insurance
retirement
credit union
bank
social security
and the bee goes on...
Quote from: MadelineB on September 12, 2012, 01:02:21 AM
Armed with my new driver's license, in two days I have updated my name and gender (except social security just the name) on:
payroll
internal revenue
life insurance
car insurance
health insurance
retirement
credit union
bank
social security
and the bee goes on...
This is super exciting. I don't have my gender changed on my social security either because that's such a hurdle, but getting it and the name changed on everything else is so liberating.
What made me happy today was a big meeting at my daughter's school. I met a lot of the new staff and discussed how 7th grade will go for her, and I'm relieved at the prospects. There are practical ideas being put forth, and none of the new people seem overly idealistic or burnt out or thuggish. There's a science curriculum this year, and they have a safe room so if she gets violent they have options other than just holding her down or trying to stay out of the way. The people at her school seem to really care and they have seen kids like mine before so I don't feel like I have to explain all the time, and I don't feel like I'm the only one on the planet trying to help her. It's good because I was getting fatalistic about her chances at ever having any measure of academic success.
Quote from: Felix on September 12, 2012, 01:47:12 AM
This is super exciting. I don't have my gender changed on my social security either because that's such a hurdle, but getting it and the name changed on everything else is so liberating.
It's amazing how much happiness a few little letters on a few pieces of paper can make for me. I love it. Can you show me some ID? YES!!!
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What made me happy today was a big meeting at my daughter's school. I met a lot of the new staff and discussed how 7th grade will go for her, and I'm relieved at the prospects. There are practical ideas being put forth, and none of the new people seem overly idealistic or burnt out or thuggish. There's a science curriculum this year, and they have a safe room so if she gets violent they have options other than just holding her down or trying to stay out of the way. The people at her school seem to really care and they have seen kids like mine before so I don't feel like I have to explain all the time, and I don't feel like I'm the only one on the planet trying to help her. It's good because I was getting fatalistic about her chances at ever having any measure of academic success.
That's so good to hear. Motivated and well-trained educators are a dad's best friend.
Oh What a day.
Started at the hairdresser, three hours later I'm auburn blonde with lighter highlights. Layered and corrected to fall naturally, tight easy to wear curls and very soft and feminine looking. The staff were just awesomely friendly and focussed. Booked in for a cut and detailing n 6 weeks, have instructions how to care for my new-style.
I got home and my legal name change was in the post. Went and changed my drivers licence, Medicare card, credit card, made an appointment to get contact lenses rather than glasses.
Everyone treated me as a woman with no hesitation. Filling in my drivers licence and my Medicare card, the staff members both asked if I preferred Ms or Miss. I told them Ms.
So happy I'm bursting.
Goddess how have I done this?
Quote from: Cindy James on September 12, 2012, 03:00:26 AM
Oh What a day.
Started at the hairdresser, three hours later I'm auburn blonde with lighter highlights. Layered and corrected to fall naturally, tight easy to wear curls and very soft and feminine looking. The staff were just awesomely friendly and focussed. Booked in for a cut and detailing n 6 weeks, have instructions how to care for my new-style.
I got home and my legal name change was in the post. Went and changed my drivers licence, Medicare card, credit card, made an appointment to get contact lenses rather than glasses.
Everyone treated me as a woman with no hesitation. Filling in my drivers licence and my Medicare card, the staff members both asked if I preferred Ms or Miss. I told them Ms.
So happy I'm bursting.
Goddess how have I done this?
You did it all from the heart. Congratulations!
Madeline and Cindy's great victories and personal success....kudo's! :icon_joy: :eusa_clap:
I think I kinda fancy morrigan from dragon age...
That's not what made me happy it just came in my head >.<
Actually I don't why I'm happy, I just feel it *shrugs*
Out in town in my new maroon fleece-lined hoodie top thing, new purple backpack, meeting with friends to discuss starting a community, and went to the Ladies' public loos for the first time, in good company :).
sometimes it just takes a good laugh to put it all in perspective. I had a huge stress headache over transition and school stuff, Nicki Minaj came on my iPod. I am singing along, and then at the right place, run up to my dog, jump, and yell "POUND THE ALARM." She looked at me like I was absolutely psychotic.
And you know what? I am being so controlling over things i can't control. And who really cares? This isn't what life is about. It is best just to let most things go and happen the way they are meant to. It will all be fine.
Quote from: edderkopp on September 12, 2012, 04:25:54 PM
sometimes it just takes a good laugh to put it all in perspective. I had a huge stress headache over transition and school stuff, Nicki Minaj came on my iPod. I am singing along, and then at the right place, run up to my dog, jump, and yell "POUND THE ALARM." She looked at me like I was absolutely psychotic.
And you know what? I am being so controlling over things i can't control. And who really cares? This isn't what life is about. It is best just to let most things go and happen the way they are meant to. It will all be fine.
Seriously that soothed you that much?? I'm going to have to go run and scream at my cat if that's the case :P
My biggest problem is that I take myself too seriously, and stress out when there's no point because it'll all work out. So to just let go and be a dumbass instead of thinking of what I was "supposed" to do and how I was "supposed" to do it just helped. It gave me enough to get going and now this entire room is boxed up and empty. On to the next one.
If it's something you can control, you shouldn't worry because you can solve it. If it's something you can't control, you shouldn't worry because nothing will make it better and you have to let it unfold. I tried to find Gandhi's original quote on that but missed it.
What's even better is that even though she thinks I am psychotic, she will always come and cuddle me anyway. <3 That's true love. Either that or she realizes we are the only thing standing between her and death. :P
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I realised that over the last few months of learning to live with acute PTSD, I've learned some pretty golden lessons about how to keep my painful states company, instead of fighting them. It's not just an idea, it's something I can do now, something that makes things better. I'm a little proud of myself - and all without going for the cliché of gin tonight ;D.
Quote from: Padma on September 12, 2012, 05:40:18 PM
I realised that over the last few months of learning to live with acute PTSD, I've learned some pretty golden lessons about how to keep my painful states company, instead of fighting them. It's not just an idea, it's something I can do now, something that makes things better. I'm a little proud of myself - and all without going for the cliché of gin tonight ;D.
That made me happy to read. I've been working on the same thing. Finally making progress.
Quote from: Liam Erik on September 12, 2012, 10:53:43 PM
I just finished my first complete project from this whole wool processing, spinning, knitting thing. It is an undyed white knitted scarf with an extra wide section in the middle so it can go over your head. It is extremely warm, let me tell you.
I raised the sheep it came from, and I raised her mother and her grandmother and her great-grandmother, and I sheared her myself, and then I washed the wool, carded and combed, and spun it and plied it, and knitted it, and tomorrow I'm giving it to my mom as a gift.
That's quite an accomplishment, I'll bet your mom will be thrilled!
I got a date! woot. :) Its my first date since i transitioned and hes a nice guy. I'm super excited.
I got to speak my mind to a former friend. It was fun being myself.
Said "F*ct it" and went to work with skinny unisex jeans, white belt, rainbow socks and a blue t-shirt with a unicorn on it. When they saw me they said:
"Finally you got trousers your size. With those baggy pants you looked like some sort of those turkish guards from old Simbad Movies"
My old jeans that I used to disguise my fat legs and belly... I never though being able to tuck my t-shirts would be so satisfying.
Update: Awesome. Even the "too skinny" comments have ceased now that they can see the muscle on thigs and legs.
As usual reading all the above posts. :)
Dropping into the local Triumph dealer to ask whether the Factory would have set my bike up running really rich for running-in, as it uses lots of petrol. Apparently they do, because the mechanic plugged in his lap-top and downloaded a new tune that should give me about 1/3 more km's to the tank. ;D
Quote from: justmeinoz on September 14, 2012, 02:22:24 AM
...the mechanic plugged in his lap-top and downloaded a new tune that should give me about 1/3 more km's to the tank. ;D
Obviously the extended 12" EP version ;D.
I just realized that I have lost 38 pounds in 3 months. I hadn't put two and two together. That isn't a small amount of weight. I have to buy new binders now, but I haven't been at this weight for over a year, and I haven't been able to see that I had lost that much until today.
I just realised I can save myself some osteopath's bills by dancing every morning - yow, it's fun! Today's tune of choice (not to everyone's taste, I'm sure...)
Shakti - Come On Baby Dance With Me (Henry Mosler's Paintings) (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Wj_R3yjNfo#)
Quote from: Ayden on September 14, 2012, 06:13:19 AM
I just realized that I have lost 38 pounds in 3 months. I hadn't put two and two together. That isn't a small amount of weight. I have to buy new binders now, but I haven't been at this weight for over a year, and I haven't been able to see that I had lost that much until today.
WOW good going, you're on a roll! :)
Ooh, just got my blood test back (after starting decapeptyl anti-androgen injections) - my T is way, way down again, phew, but my E is up through the roof (should be around 400, is now 1856 :o). No wonder I've been so weepy! Pah, who needs an excuse for emotion!!! Ahem.
I am finally free emotionally. I found some closure with my ex, I can now date without fear of thinking I missed out. That closure really really helped me out.
Quote from: Padma on September 12, 2012, 05:40:18 PM
I realised that over the last few months of learning to live with acute PTSD, I've learned some pretty golden lessons about how to keep my painful states company, instead of fighting them. It's not just an idea, it's something I can do now, something that makes things better. I'm a little proud of myself - and all without going for the cliché of gin tonight ;D.
Ha. I fight painful states with any and all tools at my disposal, including drugs and alcohol, exercise, cats, books, and sometimes pure mute mindnumbing hypervigilance. My only personal rules are that I don't seek illegal drugs and I don't drink when I'm angry or crying. Also I try not to ever stay in bed if I've just had a nightmare or if my thoughts are racing, because I don't want to associate my bed with anxiety.
Some of my strategies are effective, and some are absolutely not, but none of them are as zen as yours. You sound like you are better at being an adult about it than I am. Props Padma. :)
What made me happy today was getting unexpected respite care for my kid when someone cancelled at the last minute. Yay.
An invite to a birthday party turned into a great day of shark hat hunting, strolling in the sunshine, fondue, cuddling, books, bar hopping, cool new people, and dancing.
Now I just need to figure out how to function tomorrow on two hours of sleep....
My new hat:
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Quote from: Lee on September 15, 2012, 04:01:53 AM
My new hat:
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Holy gods that's a marvellous hat!!
I had three completely separate dreams last night (I was awake for a while between each) - but in each of them, I was accompanied by a friendly and protective black panther. She was deeply gorgeous.
A few things made me happy
Got a new bike today
Had to get a new PC, nice new one, as last one died so have been off line for over a month.
Got a big promotion at work yesterday (bugger)
Great to be back on-line as I have felt bit lost without being here
Oh and seeing great results after my second laser session 2 weeks ago very happy as my thick beard growth is almost gone forever. 3rd session in 2 weeks and will get chest started as well. Very excited by this
Overall its been a crappy week.
Reconnected with two of my oldest friends, women who back then took me under their wings when I was a lost and lonely (male presenting) student in New Jersey and they were Mormon nannies from southern Utah. One is still happily married to the New Jersey turkey farmer she started dating when I knew her, and the other is a bilingual school teacher in southern Utah, and both are very glad that I am finally happy. :D
Found a cute short skirt at a nice thrift store yesterday!
Its a size 4 and fits perfect...yay!!! :)
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I'm down to a size 10. Yaa! :D
Was a size 16-14 at the beginning of the year
I'm relieved to notice that the month's half over. If I can make it to October we can pay more bills and I can get my T and the cat can get vaccinated for rabies, and the weather will be cooler, and Leah will be more adjusted to school. Also I've got a dermatology appointment in just 11 days, and I'm counting on that doctor to know what to do. I've been rashy and itchy for months and it's hell on my self-esteem and my ability to sleep. I'm hoping to see a dentist early next month, too. Things are awful but it looks like improvements are very very close. I can't wait to stop falling apart. I can't wait to go back to being a materialistic and entitled douchebag who takes his comfort and youth and privileges for granted. I intend to act like I earned it and pretend it's never been otherwise. :laugh:
Okay, this might sound nuts, but I was afraid I was falling in love with my best friend hereabouts - but tonight we went to see a film together for the first time... and she talks during films! This is great, I no longer think she's perfect ;D. Oh, the relief...
Quote from: Jillieann Rose on September 15, 2012, 05:24:59 PM
I'm down to a size 10. Yaa! :D
Was a size 16-14 at the beginning of the year
A big Congrats!!!
you should be very proud of that!! :)
Quote from: DianaP on September 15, 2012, 06:10:22 PM
Well, I suppose that way of living is more comfortable. :) I'd prefer to live with few amenities. At least to me, everything is beautiful in its simplicity. :P
I was cool with few amenities for awhile, and I have great respect for that approach to life. I don't want air conditioning at home, or internet on my phone, and I handwash most of my clothes, and I haven't had a television since 1999, and I only have a cellphone because my kid's school and other government authorities so often need me to be available for urgent situations. I don't drive a car and I don't have a yard or a bedroom. I have a table for eating and a table for jigsaw puzzles.
I really love having health insurance and a laptop, though. I also love my cd player and my tape player. I'm so happy that the internet was invented and that I live in a country where I can access it even without being at the top of the income pile. I enjoy the convenience and comfort of being able to use wikipedia and read blogs and talk to actual humans without putting braces on my ankles and diving into face-to-face social situations. I love my microwave. I love having all my teeth. I love my wristwatch and the aluminum that makes my antiperspirant work. I really really like the amenities that I've been able to get.
Quote from: DianaP on September 15, 2012, 07:49:10 PM
Well, I wasn't saying that you should live with nothing. I just use my essentials, including music players (entertainment is essential and I don't like TV :)) and dental visits (I need my teeth to eat).
Teeth are pretty awesome. :laugh:
Watching a show I like a lot with a friend.
Being alone and not having to put clothes immediately after exiting the shower.
Quote from: DianaP on September 15, 2012, 07:49:10 PM
So do these current "phones" which aren't even just phones anymore.
1.5 years ago and after a small test I decided to go against the norm and get a real cellphone instead of a smartphone. Everybody calls me weirdo for having a rugged reinforced cellphone (not a militartec or Sonim, but close) that only makes calls and send messages; but hey, only one battery charge every two weeks, beter call and reception quality, and I don't have to pay for a data plan!
Not to mention it fits in my pocket.
Seeing Lee's Hat. :laugh:
Also connecting with an Intersex woman friend I haven't seen for a while and ending up having a great sexual experience. Realising that, as a result I am now truly comfortable being able to describe myself as Pansexual.
My nephew asked me if I was a boy or a girl and I asked him what does he think I am and he said he thinks I'm a boy. Mind you I'm living as a female still and I'm in more gender neutral outfits. He obviously knows that he sees a girl since he's known me for all his four years but it's still nice to see him question it every now and then.
went to my first pride parade in Dallas today. It was bloody amazing :3 I got spot jacked a couple times but I decided to chill out on the step statue thingie :P Wonder if anyone else from here was there and saw me :O
As of today, I've been living full time as the real me for a year.
I told my mom that I really needed to find a box, because it had my "medicine" (T) in it, and it's been three days since I've taken my gel.
She actually took time out of her work to try and find it for me. She said "I don't want you turning into the hulk." Lol. She also said that lately, I haven't been very "difficult", and I said "that's because I have been feeling better." So, another sign to me that she is slowly beginning to understand this was the right thing to do.
20 years later, I've found my old Dragon Ball cap. This sure brings memories. I was going to discard a lot of old clothing and promotional caps, but I'm keeping this for sure.
My little brothers are visiting, and after a run around the park they're wiped out and napping.
It's nice having the house full with children (albeit hyper ones), at least my bf seems to think so :P.
Despite the pain and a face like a blood orange, my latest laser hair removal session. First for a year and hopefully the last full face session.
I got a really nice thank you note today from someone who was at dinner last night :)
Quote from: Ave on September 17, 2012, 12:31:42 PM
My little brothers are visiting, and after a run around the park they're wiped out and napping.
It's nice having the house full with children (albeit hyper ones), at least my bf seems to think so :P.
aww, that's sweet :)
Quote from: Alexis on September 17, 2012, 12:39:00 PM
I got a really nice thank you note today from someone who was at dinner last night :)
aww, that's sweet :)
lol, yea, but I hope having them over isn't going to give him "ideas" ::) .
My luna moth earrings arrived in the mail today.
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I got misgendered in a big way by a GP at the doctor's surgery today - but instead of going all "poor me", I'm writing a very calm letter to her (with supportive documentation) explaining what the NHS guidelines are for labels and pronouns and how to treat trans people.
I'm also having to do the same for the surgery admin staff, who think they can't fully change my gender details on my records - again, I'm pointing them to the page on their own General Practice Notebook website that explains exactly how to do this ::).
The next trans person to walk through their doors gets an easier ride - go, me! 8)
Quote from: Padma on September 17, 2012, 02:28:48 PM
I got misgendered in a big way by a GP at the doctor's surgery today - but instead of going all "poor me", I'm writing a very calm letter to her (with supportive documentation) explaining what the NHS guidelines are for labels and pronouns and how to treat trans people.
I'm also having to do the same for the surgery admin staff, who think they can't fully change my gender details on my records - again, I'm pointing them to the page on their own General Practice Notebook website that explains exactly how to do this ::).
The next trans person to walk through their doors gets an easier ride - go, me! 8)
Hole their little footsies to the flames Padma!
I had a right nice meal at a restaurant tonight and I didn't have to pay for it ;)
I got a lot of work done. I was sitting at the computer's in one of the offices and I just pounded it all out. Nice, organized, clear lesson plans. Unlike my previous one.
Tried to buy a bottle of wine this afternoon along with my sandwich. When I was paying the woman was convinced my old ID was not me. This was in no makeup or anything. After grilling me on every detail and getting her to be satisfied, she still didn't let me buy my wine because she said it still had to be a fake and I was too young. I was so flattered by all of this that I didn't argue, lol
Quote from: Alexis on September 18, 2012, 04:49:17 PM
Tried to buy a bottle of wine this afternoon along with my sandwich. When I was paying the woman was convinced my old ID was not me. This was in no makeup or anything. After grilling me on every detail and getting her to be satisfied, she still didn't let me buy my wine because she said it still had to be a fake and I was too young. I was so flattered by all of this that I didn't argue, lol
that;s awesome lol!
Im under 21 anyway, so that effect of hormones is going to get me denied beer for a long time lol.
Had a great b day today. Dressed up after work and went out and enjoyed a chinese meal.
:)
Quote from: Jillieann Rose on September 18, 2012, 09:56:45 PM
Had a great b day today. Dressed up after work and went out and enjoyed a chinese meal.
:)
Happy birthday : )
Looking at before and after photos of myself next to each other : )
Quote from: Liam Erik on September 18, 2012, 10:24:53 PM
I decided that in just about a month, the ewes will be bred, and their due date will be the middle of March.
Liam,
Hope we will get some photos again. Are you building a herd or are they being sold? What's the long range plan? I think your lifestyle is way interesting, most here are city slickers that don't know squat about farm life.
I glanced in the mirror this morning and saw a guy. That's not to say I pass or anything, but it makes me feel hopeful.
I got internet today. It didn't make me happy but it should have so I'll say it did. I intend to be very happy about it when I get my head out of my butt and look around.
Quote from: Edge on September 19, 2012, 11:46:11 AM
I glanced in the mirror this morning and saw a guy. That's not to say I pass or anything, but it makes me feel hopeful.
This is great. More important than passing sometimes imo.
I just had a bloody marvellous evening with a dozen dykes in a bar in Exeter, made two new friends, almost missed the last train home. It's so great being accepted as one of them without anyone batting an eyelid :D.
The reviews of these pens:
http://www.amazon.com/BIC-Cristal-1-0mm-Black-MSLP16-Blk/dp/B004F9QBE6 (http://www.amazon.com/BIC-Cristal-1-0mm-Black-MSLP16-Blk/dp/B004F9QBE6)
Quote from: Felix on September 19, 2012, 07:43:09 PM
The reviews of these pens:
http://www.amazon.com/BIC-Cristal-1-0mm-Black-MSLP16-Blk/dp/B004F9QBE6 (http://www.amazon.com/BIC-Cristal-1-0mm-Black-MSLP16-Blk/dp/B004F9QBE6)
Yeah, I'd love to see what Pens For Him would look like :).
This is one for the Do you have pens envy? topic ;D
Quote from: Liam Erik on September 19, 2012, 07:06:12 PM
You'll get pictures, I'm pretty sure. ;D This year I sold both fleece and meat to local people, and I'm building a list of folks in the community who would buy next year. I also thought of, if I get some decent lambs from my purebreds, selling to 4H-ers. (Not sure, and I refuse to dock their tails too short, like show sheep around here have.) That would be great.
Interesting! Sounds like you have a workable game plan. I like the idea of encouraging 4-H kids to get involved with keeping and raising farm animals, it's a healthy activity for them and you're replicating yourself in the process.
Quote from: Liam Erik on September 19, 2012, 07:06:12 PM
I had a good day; I had my three months on T endo checkup and they apparently have my right name in their files, because even though I bit the bullet and just told them my legal name, they called me the right name. I also got to spend time with the horses. And I finished the first bobbin of my sixteenth skein of yarn.
Excellent, one small step for them and a big one for you! Congrats on a stellar day!
Quote from: Felix on September 19, 2012, 04:00:44 PM
I got internet today. It didn't make me happy but it should have so I'll say it did. I intend to be very happy about it when I get my head out of my butt and look around.
This is great. More important than passing sometimes imo.
I'm happy my friend Felix doesn't have to hang out in hospital parking lots with bums at night any more to get WIFI (unless he wants to). YAY!!
Oh, and I had a perfect triple play in the mail today. It was like ID christmas.
I received my physical:
1. new insurance card (name and gender correct)
2. new social security card (name correct)
3. new driver's license (name and gender correct). The lady at the DMV was right, it IS a good picture. No wonder she was surprised. I've never really seen a good DL picture before this one. :)
Congrats Madeline :) That's great!!!
So this is totally weird, but we had a meeting tonight to discuss various aspects of the web series my friends and I are working upon and I was in full girl mode and...I had to work really hard to get anyone to pay attention to what I was saying! In boy mode I tend to dominate any conversation as I have gotten very good at playing the alpha male role but tonight! OMG total man-splaining all over the place. Sooo, on the one hand I was at the mercy of classic gender types, but on the other hand, I couldn't have been happier! I'm still laughing about it.
At one level or another I've always been aware of the privilege that being a well spoken white male afforded, but had always felt both guilty about it and also helpless to do anything about it. Now I feel I that I've left all that bull>-bleeped-< behind! All the need to ameliorate my own man ego had gone and I could just help further a productive group effort.
Such a blessed relief!
Wow, what a strange night!
I experimented a little more today with my gender fluidity: I went out presenting as male, wearing a baggy tshirt, binder, hiking boots, hair bound...and a tye dye skirt that I absolutely love.
Today I was a female-bodied man with a skirt on, and I loved it. An oddly exhilarating kind of defiance ;D
Quote from: Twyla on September 20, 2012, 03:00:58 AM
So this is totally weird, but we had a meeting tonight to discuss various aspects of the web series my friends and I are working upon and I was in full girl mode and...I had to work really hard to get anyone to pay attention to what I was saying! In boy mode I tend to dominate any conversation as I have gotten very good at playing the alpha male role but tonight! OMG total man-splaining all over the place. Sooo, on the one hand I was at the mercy of classic gender types, but on the other hand, I couldn't have been happier! I'm still laughing about it.
At one level or another I've always been aware of the privilege that being a well spoken white male afforded, but had always felt both guilty about it and also helpless to do anything about it. Now I feel I that I've left all that bull>-bleeped-< behind! All the need to ameliorate my own man ego had gone and I could just help further a productive group effort.
Such a blessed relief!
Wow, what a strange night!
Lol, so cool! I'm going to enjoy your posts as you transition Twyla, because you are so able to articulate your experiences and seem so intuitive and take such joy in what's unfolding around you. Little as I know of you personally I get the feeling as if watching a time elapse video of a beautiful flower blooming from a bud or a butterfly coming out of it's cocoon and unfurling it's beautiful wings!
Quote from: MadelineB on September 20, 2012, 02:08:47 AM
Oh, and I had a perfect triple play in the mail today. It was like ID christmas.
I received my physical:
1. new insurance card (name and gender correct)
2. new social security card (name correct)
3. new driver's license (name and gender correct). The lady at the DMV was right, it IS a good picture. No wonder she was surprised. I've never really seen a good DL picture before this one. :)
Just seems so profoundly right when you receive the acknowledgements like these. It's like completing the completer. Couldn't have happened to a nicer and more deserving person either.
Do I hear big celebrations this coming weekend?
Huggs
Catherine
Quote from: Felix on September 19, 2012, 07:43:09 PM
The reviews of these pens:
http://www.amazon.com/BIC-Cristal-1-0mm-Black-MSLP16-Blk/dp/B004F9QBE6 (http://www.amazon.com/BIC-Cristal-1-0mm-Black-MSLP16-Blk/dp/B004F9QBE6)
I wept as I read some of those. Hilarious.
Amazing friends :)
It was Zephyr's birthday, so I stopped by her cafe after work. There was cake.
I'll be celebrating Mabon with my daughter later today. Or, it might be with my son. They're genderqueer so I'm not sure which presentation I'll be interacting with.
For the second time in a week, I've spent hours and hours on the phone, late to very late at night, to an exGF and it seems things are headed back to what they once were.. I'm happy, bemused, confused, and a whole list of other conflicting feelings..
Quote from: Liam Erik on September 21, 2012, 08:38:37 PM
I spent the whole day working on wool. I washed fleece to sell (worth more that way), combed, teased, carded, and spun. It doesn't look like I made much of a dent. However, I did finish spinning my sixteenth skein of yarn, and I'm about to start plying it. Then I can use that to knit a few more inches... and start all over combing and teasing. :icon_dizzy:
Sounds labor intensive but so cool that you know how to do that! How did you learn that skill, who taught you?
Just today was a hoot. My neighbors hate me :P I near about lost my mind playing super mario land. Holy crap that game is like a honey badger.
My day was made after my new wrestling shoes came in the mail today when I got home after a long week waiting for them.
Quote from: Liam Erik on September 21, 2012, 11:04:32 PM
I took a class where I learned how to process wool and use a spinning wheel. I don't have a wheel, so I taught myself to make and use a drop spindle. My grandma taught me knitting. Yeah, I'm not going to be selling any yarn at this rate - if I got twenty bucks a skein, I would be making something like 1.35 an hour.
Edited because I'm terrible at math.
I'm sure you can see now why back in the all-from-hand days, a fine woolen dress could be a full year's income for the average person. Its also why they used to put such artistry into even simple items.
http://soundcloud.com/keaira-finlay/new-sample (http://soundcloud.com/keaira-finlay/new-sample)
Quote from: Liam Erik on September 21, 2012, 11:04:32 PM
I took a class where I learned how to process wool and use a spinning wheel. I don't have a wheel, so I taught myself to make and use a drop spindle. My grandma taught me knitting. Yeah, I'm not going to be selling any yarn at this rate - if I got twenty bucks a skein, I would be making something like 1.35 an hour.
Just the same, what an interesting skill to have! Maybe good thing to know if suddenly we all find ourselves thrown back into the survival modes of an earlier time.
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