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Tuesday 27 March 2018 - This is day one of the medical start of my transition from male to female.

Arrived at my endocrinologist's office about an hour early for my 1200 hrs. appointment. Checked in and took a chair in the waiting area. I had dropped in last Friday to do all the paperwork so that was out of the way.

In about 10 or 15 minutes after arriving they came for me and took me to the exam room. One of the doctors assistants asked me a few questions, the first being how I preferred to be addressed. Extremely courteous and professional. We chatted while she was entering all the data from the forms I filled out Friday.

About five minutes after the assistant left there was a knock at the door; I responded with "come in;' When that door opened the place lit up with a sparkle. Doctor "X" walked in. I immediately knew I had struck gold. She is very petite with long shinny black hair and eyes that smile.

We talked for awhile and then I gave her the bio I wrote, which is a very personal document. After she finished reading it I answered a couple questions she had. She then gave me an exam. Since I had a complete physical a couple of months earlier, she didn't need to draw blood or take a urine sample this visit.

She follows WAPATH. We discussed the AA's, which I told her I wanted to avoid. She agreed that they would not be necessary for me since I have been dressing and living as a woman for six years. She explained how she wanted to start HRT and I was in complete agreement. I will only mention her prescription in general terms so as to not provide dosing or the actual medication. She preferred to use Transdermal patches rather than oral or injections.

She spent over an hour with me during which we discussed a lot of things about my personal life, which I did not include in the bio for brevity. As the time passed I knew for certain that she is a blessing.

I asked her if she would be willing to treat other members of our community. She said yes but she can't take anyone else on at the moment. She is the only endocrinologist in this practice. She said she has to assemble a team to help her and once that is done she will tell me that it is ok to give out her name.

They have everything computerized so she entered my prescription and sent it to my favorite Drug store, which I have been using for 22 years.

I applied my first patch at 1600 hrs. CDT Tuesday 27 March 2018. Since I use two patches per week the second will be applied Friday 30 March 2018.

Since I still have my testes, the meds I am taking will work much slower, that is until I've had my orchiectomy.

She said she would write a letter to the surgeon I am seeing on the 9th of April, for my pre-surgical consultation, approving my orchiectomy without delay.

Her office called me today, Thursday 29 March 2018,  wanting to verify the info I provided as to the surgeon and his address.

I am hoping that when I have my pre surgical that they will schedule me for surgery that week. I want "Borchiday" to get here ASAP. That will be the day I'll feel reborn as the woman I have always wanted to be.

Tomorrow I'll change my transdermal patch; It will stay on until next Tuesday. It's a 3 day / 4 day routine. Eight patches come in the box, which cost $70.00. My insurance did not cover any of it. This actually isn't too bad; I can cut back on my monthly junk food consumption and actually have money left over and less fat on my body; I'm a junk food junky. Fortunately, I have three kids,  Arf, Arf, and Big Arf who require five walks per day each; that's 15 walks for me, so I do get a lot of exercise walking them and even more doing other activities like climbing trees (I'm an arborist among other things).  I think I am outing myself here, which is ok.

I may have gotten ahead of myself the other day. I ordered a bra that I thought would be a good starting point. It arrived today and darn if it didn't fit perfectly. It's a sports bra so there are no wires or hooks. It's all nice stretchy material and it even has removable cups. My nipples are exactly where they should be, right in the center of the cups. I slipped a nice T-shirt on just to see how I looked. Not too bad if you don't see my mug. My hands are another issue; aside from being fairly large, they have suffered numerous interactions with machinery, so the fingers do have quite a tattered look to them; it adds character, I have been told. I think I can do without any more character, having more than enough for several people.

I have not felt anything from the HRT I'm on; should I be? It has been just three days and it is low dose. I want the orchiectomy so I can progress at a more enjoyable pace. Once done, how long before I should see boob growth?

Next update when I have something interesting to post. I know this is a long and boring piece; I felt like I needed to "splain" things a bit more than probably necessary. I'll try to keep the updates shorter.

Thanks to everyone for being here,

Christine

Edited: Thursday 19 July 2018,  0112 hrs CDT - cjh
Reedited: 04 August 2018 - cj78

@ Christine:  Thanks for posting your very informative and interesting treatise on your first endocrinologist visit, HRT prescriptions, and a future appointment for an orchiectomy.... and your new bra too.  It is indeed wonderful that your visit and your impression of your doctor went very well for you.
You are certainly moving at full speed and I am certain that you are pleased with that.

Yes, 3 days is usually way too soon to see any results from HRT....  patience is required, as I always tell those that are just starting HRT.

Thanks for starting your own Forum thread that you will hopefully keep updated by frequently posting your progress....  and using your word..... thanks for wanting to "splain" all of this to your readers.

Best wishes and hugs,
Danielle

Update #2 08 Apr 2018
On my fourth HRT patch. Am now peeing better. Have ditched Flomax, HRT fixed what Flomax could never do. Attended an MTF transgender group meeting yesterday. Really enjoyed the ladies there and plan to continue. Monday 09 Apr 18 is my pre-surgical consultation for an orchiectomy. I am now happier, calmer, able to focus better, sleep better and the aforementioned ability to pee better. My wing-nuts seem to have shrunk about 20% and so has my water spout. Don't think the latter is caused by the cold weather we are currently experiencing here in Fort Worth.

Best always,
Christine

Today 11 Apr 2018 had my pre-op visit. Borchiday is scheduled for Friday 13 April;  my "Lucky Day." Couldn't have picked a better one.

I know there are a lot of ladies out there that have had orchis; my thinking is that at some point there will be a noticeable testosterone crash. Is this the "proverbial calm" that settles in or is it something else I can look forward to? This is my one and only "Borchiday" so I want to be prepared to enjoy it and the days following.

Best always
Christine
EDITED: 04 August 018 - cj78

Best wishes for Friday. I only wish it could be so quick here. My urologist appointment is next Thursday and I'll discuss an orchi then. It's 2 weeks early at 11.5 months. Then who knows how long if it's approved. If he needs the letter that is still 6-8 weeks away. The one plus for next week is I get my eligard shot to turn off the testicals which will chemically castrate me for now, I can hardly wait.
I wish you well and all happiness to you

Quote from: Donna on April 11, 2018, 10:55:03 PM
Best wishes for Friday. I only wish it could be so quick here. My urologist appointment is next Thursday and I'll discuss an orchi then. It's 2 weeks early at 11.5 months. Then who knows how long if it's approved. If he needs the letter that is still 6-8 weeks away. The one plus for next week is I get my eligard shot to turn off the testicals which will chemically castrate me for now, I can hardly wait.
I wish you well and all happiness to you

Thank you Donna; I'm happy my transition is happening quickly but I am saddened by what I read here on Susan's Place about how difficult it is for some of you to get the care and treatment you deserve. I wish you all could come here to the Dallas Fort Worth area to have your treatment.

I had a long talk Wednesday with my primary doctor. I told him about how long it takes for some of you to just see a doctor. He thinks it could be that there aren't enough doctors in your area. He also said that here in this area we have everything you could possibly want in the way of medical care. I am embarrassed that when I have my orchi Friday morning, I will have officially been in transition about 6 or 7 weeks while you struggle to just see a doctor in a year.

I asked the folks at the surgery center where I will be having mine about this same thing. They said they have people coming from all over the US and the world because they can't get the care they need at home.

A neighbor lady friend is taking me to the surgery center Friday. I was telling her of your difficulty seeing a doctor. She told me about her sister in Pennsylvania that needed an OBGYN Oncologist. There isn't one in the area where she lives. Periodically, an OBGYN Oncologist comes up from Atlanta to help out.

I'm here in my big bubble where everything is fine and I think it's fine everywhere else. I get on Susan's Place and I'm finding things aren't fine everywhere else. I don't know what the answer is but there has to be one somewhere.

I wish I had that answer. Thanks again Donna.

Best Always,
Christine

QuoteCan't have everything and I'm actually glad they will start to become history this Friday at 1030 hrs. CDT.

Friday the 13th?    Uh-Oh!    ;)

You're probably done by now.  How did it go?

Thanks Christine. I will survive and move forward. I'm doing well the way it's going. Got great news yesterday. Went for a bra fitting and had to dump my 40C which was squishing the girls.
I'm now the proud owner of a brand spanking new 40DD bra and  loving it. Just love the help from the estrogen.

Quote from: AnneK on April 13, 2018, 04:20:31 PM
Friday the 13th?    Uh-Oh!    ;)

You're probably done by now.  How did it go?

All went well; I arrived home a couple of hours ago and a couple of ounces lighter. Thanks for asking.

Best Always
Christine

Only us Templar Knights have to worry about Friday the 13th!!!!!!

Quote from: Donna on April 13, 2018, 04:48:19 PM
Thanks Christine. I will survive and move forward. I'm doing well the way it's going. Got great news yesterday. Went for a bra fitting and had to dump my 40C which was squishing the girls.
I'm now the proud owner of a brand spanking new 40DD bra and  loving it. Just love the help from the estrogen.

Donna,

I am glad to hear that you are doing well; 40DD I have no idea what that size means other than it is considerably larger that 40C. I wish only the best for you and everyone in the transgender community. Until I got here I really didn't have much understanding of your fight to be who you really are. Nothing like being hit alongside the head by a 4X4 to awaken one to others plight and it's not just Transgender folks; there are many other folks that are forced to live marginalized lives because of ignorance (I'm a prime example of the ignorance) and outright bigotry of which I am probably guilty of as well.

Going forward I will do everything possible to help those that need it rather than what I have done in the past by turning a blind eye to what has been happening to folks different from what I pretended to be. I have been on this planet longer than most; I hope I can dedicate whatever time I have remaining to helping those that need it.

Muchas gracias and best always to our family here and elsewhere; you all are my salvation. All my love,
Christine
 

Six weeks to orchie? Lucky. We have to wait a year here. Working on the red tape now :) 40DD nice. I don't want to be that big though. At 37c atm and that's just about where I'd be happy to stop. Body has different ideas though, think it may stop around D.

Christine,

As a veteran I would suggest working with the VA to get your patches. Would be a lot less expensive. You should be able to coordinate a outside physician requesting and an VA physician ordering the meds. My dad did it for years.  They will also do breast forms etc if you want them prior to the real thing showing up.

Quote from: krobinson103 on April 14, 2018, 12:22:38 PM
Six weeks to orchie? Lucky. We have to wait a year here. Working on the red tape now :) 40DD nice. I don't want to be that big though. At 37c atm and that's just about where I'd be happy to stop. Body has different ideas though, think it may stop around D.

Thanks Krobinson,

I had no idea this could happen in such a short time. I didn't have to pay someone to facilitate things. I went to my counselor for two sessions and had my first letter. Then it was to my primary care physician where I outed myself and asked him to refer me to an endocrinologist, which he did. The referral was sent to a woman doctor who is in a practice with a male doctor. The male doctor took the referral w/o the doctor it was sent to ever seeing it. This guy looked at it and told the staff he didn't see any need.

I decided I wasn't going to waste my time with him so I started searching the net for a female endocrinologist in the Dallas/Fort Worth area (I live on the Fort Worth side of the DFW Metroplex). I found one relatively close to home so I called. The receptionist told me she had moved on and wanted to know if I wanted her number. Something told me to ask if they had anyone there that treated transgender folks. She asked me to wait while she checked. She came back and said they have a new doctor there that said she didn't have a lot of experience with transgender people but if I would let her she would take care of me. At that moment I knew I had found a doctor that was what I was looking for. She was candid in her response. I agreed and they made me an appointment for Tuesday 27 March 18. This was Friday 23 March, only four days between the call and appointment. Dr. jerk gave me an appointment 3.5 months down the road. I'll write more about this A-hole later.

When I was in the exam room I heard a knock on the door; when she walked into the room I knew I had struck gold; it was like fireworks going off when she came in. She spent over an hour with me checking me over, talking and getting to know each other. She has 21 years experience as an endocrinologist, She had recently attended a seminar on Transgender Health Care. She said she is putting a team together so she can treat members of our community. At the moment, she is the only endocrinologist in this medical center.

If you ever get to meet her you can not help but like her; she is everything one could wish for in a doctor and so are the members of her staff.

I left that day with her having sent my prescription for Estradiol to my pharmacy. I can't describe how happy I was as I left her office and headed for my favorite "Drug Dealer;" who I have been with since 1996. Of course this outed me to them, which was fine and actually fun.

Now that I had the patches I made an appointment with the surgery center to have a consultation with the surgeon that would do my orchiectomy. When I made the appointment it was around the 28th of March, give or take a day. They made me an appointment for Monday 09 April 18. I had to get one additional letter from a counselor and some blood work and an EKG. Got that taken care of and had my pre-op Wednesday and Surgery yesterday Friday the 13th. Went back for my post op checkup today Saturday 14 April, and here I am. Someone has been looking out for me and I know who it is; the "Big Guy Upstairs."

I'm not some rich gal, just an old retiree on SS; nobody special. I am grateful to everyone that has helped me arrive at this point. I learned a lot from all of your posts and am still learning.  Yes Krobinson, I am lucky; I wish there was something I could do to help all of you accomplish your goals in such a short time. It troubles me deeply to see that many of you have to wait long periods of time just to see a doctor. To my way of thinking that is just flat wrong and unnecessary.

As soon as my Endocrinologist gives me the word I will make her name, address and phone number public.
 

Quote from: 2.B.Dana on April 14, 2018, 12:48:18 PM
Christine,

As a veteran I would suggest working with the VA to get your patches. Would be a lot less expensive. You should be able to coordinate a outside physician requesting and an VA physician ordering the meds. My dad did it for years.  They will also do breast forms etc. if you want them prior to the real thing showing up.

Thanks Dana,

That's a good idea to get the VA to provide some of the transition meds I will need as I travel down the "Highway." I didn't realize you could get trans meds from the VA. That could save me a lot of money.

I do get a few things from them, hearing aids, eyeglasses and some meds. The last time I was there for my annual physical, I asked the doctor for Testosterone patches. I did that so I could see his reaction, which was: " We won't give you those; they cause cancer." I knew I was onto something.

I've had a suspicion that the main cause of prostate cancer is Testosterone. I have searched the Internet and found enough evidence  to make me believe this is true. I provided this info to my primary and urologist. Both agree it is the main culprit; genes also play a roll. PC needs "T" to grow; an orchi is PM (preventative maintenance).

Thanks everyone, love you all.
Best always,
Christine
EDITED: 04 August 2018 - cj78

I've been for 8 counseling sessions and need two more before the paper work. It took two months to get the letter from the doctor asking for the paper work. I'm in no rush as I'm letting every thing sink in. I've got my meds and they are working great. On Thursday I get my eligard and then who knows what the girls will do with zero testosterone. My original idea was DD girls but never expected them already after only 3 months and a bit on Estrogen

Quote from: Donna on April 14, 2018, 11:37:53 PM
I've been for 8 counseling sessions and need two more before the paper work. It took two months to get the letter from the doctor asking for the paper work. I'm in no rush as I'm letting every thing sink in. I've got my meds and they are working great. On Thursday I get my eligard and then who knows what the girls will do with zero testosterone. My original idea was DD girls but never expected them already after only 3 months and a bit on it.

Donna,          15 Apr 2018

Congratulations, it looks like you are progressing along at a nice pace. I am sure that once the "T" is blocked the "Girls" will progress at a faster rate. You must have great genes to have double D's after only three months. If I have too many of my mother's genes I'll probably be lucky to make it to "Training" bra size. Oh well, that's why they have implants.

Take care of yourself and stay warm up yonder. It's cold here in Fort Worth so I imagine it is a tad more chilly at your place.

Best always; Love
Christine

Thanks Christine. It's acually nice here today. 54 degrees
As for the girls who knows what they will do without T. I've done a photo log of the growth since last may and it's crazy the changes. I do love them though

For what it's worth, my procedure was an inguinal bilateral radical orchiectomy using general anesthesia (Propofol and Fentanyl only, no Benzos). The cost, $3,225.00 with a military discount. That was for everything, surgeon, anesthesiologist, operating room, and all the other things like Pre-op and 2 post ops. I had to pay up-front as my Ins. would not pay for it or my meds. With GoodRx.com the Estradiol should cost about $40.00 for a 4 week supply of 8 patches, Cutting out some of my junk food will take care of that and will be healthier.

I still feel the same as I did before the surgery, with a minor amount of discomfort and discoloration; Willy has the look of a barber pole and the scrotum is obviously missing something; in their place I am sure there is an accumulation of blood or other fluids. Not a whole lot, just enough to let me know something happened.

I would think that at some point my "T" will crater and I'll feel something as the Estradiol becomes dominant. I have no idea how long it takes to exhaust the remaining "T." I asked the doctor if I could go horseback riding when I returned home; he said wait two months. Today, I know he gave me good advice.

My surgeon is Dr. Peter Raphael MD in Plano, Texas, just north of Dallas.  They do a lot of TG care and I can vouch for the fact that they are as nice of a group of health care folks as I have ever had the pleasure of helping me get where I wanted to go. I get nothing for referrals, which I only give if they are great. They have the American Institute for Plastic Surgery, International Center for Transgender Care and Surgery Center of Texas; all are located in the same large building. It's all first class so if you are interested, google them, you'll get multiple hits as they have a lot going on. There are at least four surgeons on staff.

Best always,
Christine
EDITED: 04 August 2018 - cj78

Quote from: Donna on April 15, 2018, 03:58:38 PM
Thanks Christine. It's acually nice here today. 54 degrees
As for the girls who knows what they will do without T. I've done a photo log of the growth since last may and it's crazy the changes. I do love them though

Donna,            15 Apr 2018

Please keep me posted on your progress. I'm hoping I can make it past a "Training Bra."

Temp here is 63°F and windy (which it almost always is); not much different than your temp.

Best Always; Love,
Christine

My urologist told me the Twill bottom out with eligard in about 5 days and stay away for 4 months. He has 4 treatments so that should cover me long enough to get the boys gone. I got my WCB claim to cover it due to other issues that it is designed and fall within the guidelines of my workplace accident. This is a good thing as it's $1870.00 per injection.
BTW my wife and I really miss Texas, we where in Laredo sometime 2 or 3 times a month when we where still trucking.

Quote from: Donna on April 15, 2018, 05:41:10 PM
My urologist told me the Twill bottom out with eligard in about 5 days and stay away for 4 months. He has 4 treatments so that should cover me long enough to get the boys gone. I got my WCB claim to cover it due to other issues that it is designed and fall within the guidelines of my workplace accident. This is a good thing as it's $1870.00 per injection.
BTW my wife and I really miss Texas, we where in Laredo sometime 2 or 3 times a month when we where still trucking.

Donna,           15 Apr 2018

Didn't realize Eligard was that expensive; how does the average TG afford that stuff if they don't have insurance? You are lucky you have it. I'd have to sell my dogs, house, yacht, plane, vacation homes, and my lingerie. I have the dogs, house and lingerie but none of the other stuff. I'd never make it with what SS pays.

If you are ever in the Dallas Fort Worth area, PM, email or call me. Glad you and your wife are together. I wish I still had my first wife, she was a jewel and I messed up. It's my private hell that I live with every day. Long story... let's just say I was a POS.

I better hurry and post this or I'll have to change the date on it.

Best always; Love
Christine

Hi Christine,

I look forward to following your journey. You seem so happy! I hope that I can someday feel that good.

I'm 68. I started seeing a gender therapist a little over four months ago. Since about the age of 5 I've known something wasn't right in regards to my gender. But, like a lot of others, I tried very hard to bury it and live a "normal" life. I'm married with a wife that's 100% on board. I'm extremely lucky in that regard. I have 3 grown children who do not know. That's my biggest concern.

I have my first appointment for an HRT consult on 4-24-18. I'm in pretty good shape for my age, but I do have some typical issues that us older people live with. I'm pretty sure I'll be approved to start hormones and I'm starting to believe that this can actually happen after all these years. Honestly, it's a little scary.

I have a great therapist. She recommended the doctor I'll be seeing. We'll see how far I can actually go.

Take care!

Well you are never too old to start a new chapter in your life. I think you will love the HRT and all the changes it brings in time. Be prepared to be overwhelmed in a good way.

Quote from: Katie Ellen on April 16, 2018, 01:24:26 PM
Hi Christine,

I look forward to following your journey. You seem so happy! I hope that I can someday feel that good.

I'm 68. I started seeing a gender therapist a little over four months ago. Since about the age of 5 I've known something wasn't right in regards to my gender. But, like a lot of others, I tried very hard to bury it and live a "normal" life. I'm married with a wife that's 100% on board. I'm extremely lucky in that regard. I have 3 grown children who do not know. That's my biggest concern.

I have my first appointment for an HRT consult on 4-24-18. I'm in pretty good shape for my age, but I do have some typical issues that us older people live with. I'm pretty sure I'll be approved to start hormones and I'm starting to believe that this can actually happen after all these years. Honestly, it's a little scary.

I have a great therapist. She recommended the doctor I'll be seeing. We'll see how far I can actually go.

Take care!

Katie Ellen,           16 Apr 2018

Congratulations and best of luck. I'm glad your wife is onboard 100%. You have every right to be happy; no one has a right to deny you that. Thank you for posting on this thread, I really appreciate your post and hope you come back and keep in touch; I'd like to follow you on your path to happiness. I believe having your wife on board is the biggest and best asset you could have; you both can share the joy of your transition. It'll be a team effort.

I think your children will surprise you with how accepting they will be. You are ten years younger than me; some members of my generation have a difficult time accepting anything outside their frame of reference; the younger generations are not so hung up on folks who are different from themselves.

If my folks were still alive, they would disown me, which I would readily accept. To their credit, they provided me with food, clothing, a decent house to occupy, lots of toys and junk. To their discredit, they did NOT provide a home.

I divorced my first wife 43 years ago; the biggest, stupidest mistake of my life. I have had to live with that decision ever since; it's my private hell.

She passed away a few years ago; before she did I was able to talk to her and apologize for what I did. She accepted my apology and forgave me, but I haven't forgiven myself and never will. She was the best thing that ever happened to me and I threw it all away. I continually lied to myself about why I walked out on her to try and make myself feel good and try to excuse myself. Eventually, I had to stop the lying, it made me the biggest fraud on Space Ship Earth. I hated myself and there was nothing I could do to rectify or justify what I did.

Shortly after we were married, I started wearing women's panties and some clothing with her blessing. She liked my doing so and would buy things for me. She liked to put makeup on me and see how nice she could make me look as a woman. We had fun; then I started cheating, which is a long sordid story. One day I will write it and post it on this site.

I always knew there was something wrong with me, just not what, and I'm not referring to crossdressing. It wasn't until I was 47 that I found out. My parents were alcoholics and our family was completely dysfunctional in all respects. On top of that they sent me to a parochial school, which further screwed me up. Nine years of that horse hockey and I got myself kicked out. By then I was so messed up I found it difficult to have a relationship with anyone other than my close buddies. I had to find people that were as screwy as I was; we got along well.

In 1987 one of my best friends confided that he didn't realize how screwed up he was until his wife had to call 911 on him. His folks were also alcoholics. It turned out that all five of us guys that grew up together and have remained friends had alcoholic parents. I guess that is what bound us together without knowing the real reason we became friends.

Looking back, had I not been the jerk I was and had remained faithful to my wife, I would have transitioned long ago and I now know I would have lived a much happier life and chances are my wife would still be alive (another story).

Even after our divorce I kept wearing women's panties and whatever else I could get away with. About 6 years ago I realized I was wearing almost 100% women's clothing; slacks, jeans, T-shirts, socks, sneakers, shorts, tank tops, panties and everything in between. I did not try to wear a dress as I would have failed miserably. So I just started living as a woman and didn't bother to tell anyone and no one ever questioned me. I did receive a lot of compliments on my selection of clothing. Sometimes I think you can do just about anything and no one will notice; everyone's to busy with their own stuff.

I don't remember the exact date, though it was close to the first week in March that I decided to see a counselor to find out if I had lose screws, was gay, or whatever. At the end of my first session she flat told me I wasn't gay and that I was a transgender woman and that I like women. Went home and thought about it and came to the conclusion she was right. Fortunately, I had been doing some research on another subject that led me to two Web sites, this being one of them. I started reading everything I could and had an inkling there was more to me than just being crazy.

Two sessions and I had my first letter; started outing myself to my doctors, friends and just about anyone that would listen to me. It even became fun. I started looking for an endocrinologist and found one, after first encountering a real jerk endo, a male. I located the nicest lady endocrinologist I could have hoped for. I called on the 23rd of March and had an appointment for the 27th, four days after I called. She started me on HRT sans AA's that day. In the interim I saw one more counselor and got a second letter, went to my primary doctor and asked him to write a letter, which he did.

I made an appointment with the surgeon that was recommended to me by my first counselor for Monday 09 April 18. Met with him and some of his staff. They made me an appointment for a pre-op visit on Wednesday 11 April 18 and an appointment for Friday the 13th for my orchiectomy. I think I spent 6 weeks getting to the surgery from the time I officially started pursuing my transition. I had what I call my Borchieday this past Friday and am as happy as I can be. I had no reservations about having this done; its irreversible and I am glad those nasty things can never cause me to do stupid testosterone fueled macho crap. Since I've been on HRT, 4 weeks tomorrow, I have been much happier, more relaxed, sleep better, and able to pee better than I have in 20 years. 

I don't know how far I'll go with the transition. I have been thinking about the cosmetic VJ because I don't see me ever being with a cismale so why would I need a vagina; just something extra to maintain. I'm not against full SRS, except for me. I whole heartedly support everyone else's decision to seek it.

This ended up being longer than I had planned; your post triggered something in me to start talking (typing) and that's an interest in you and your wife's journey. I hope to read about it and hope you both find great happiness and long lives together. Don't worry about what others think and say; you're not hurting them so they have no right to say anything negative.

Best wishes and God Bless you, your wife and children; Love,
Christine

EDITED: 05 August 2018 - cj78

Hope the surgery went well. I sure hope I have an answer on Thursday afternoon about my boys being gone soon. Can hardly wait.

Quote from: Donna on April 16, 2018, 11:23:51 PM
Hope the surgery went well. I sure hope I have an answer on Thursday afternoon about my boys being gone soon. Can hardly wait.

Donna,          16 Apr 2018

Everything went well, thank you. I hope yours goes even better. I didn't have a moments hesitation in getting rid of them. I couldn't wait until they did the surgery. I was originally supposed to have the surgery at 1030 CDT but more necessary surgery required rescheduling about four times that day. I think I went in at 1430 and the rest is history. Haven't had any real pain, just minor discomfort at times. The strongest pain reliever I used was Tylenol and very little at that. Still haven't experienced a testosterone crash. If your doctor is correct, I should hit bottom about Wednesday.

My procedure was a bi-lateral, radical inguinal orchiectomy. Don't understand the use of the word "Radical" in this context. I didn't create the terminology so who am I to say anything. I just know I liked having it and I am happy.

I'm sure you will be happy once the "boys" are on their way to the path-lab, never to cause problems again. When I was a kid I didn't know what they were for and hated them. They were ugly and when they got hit by something, the pain was excruciating and was a common occurrence; probably why I never had kids.

Take care Donna; Best always, Love
Christine

I grew up in a typical post World War II middle class family. Dad worked, mom stayed home and helped out at school. We walked to school and came home for lunch every day. It was the "Ozzie and Harriet" days. I was the oldest of three children. With a brother and sister each a year apart.

I was always envious of my sister. I was a sensitive boy and my father pushed me into defending myself. My neighbor friend always pushed me around. At age 8, my dad signed me up to participate in his favorite sport. Baseball. It became my diversion because I became pretty good at it and at other sports also. I knew my dad was proud of me.

At age 12, when home alone, I stumbled upon some of my moms clothes. Basically a bra. I have no idea why, but I tried it on. I then found and put on a pull over top and looked in the mirror. I can't describe the feeling I had seeing myself. I knew right then I was not "normal". Honestly, I thought that I must be the only one in the world like this!

The rest is history. No one ever caught me. I buried it deep. Unfortunately, a few years later I started having panic attacks and constant anxiety. Both of my parents died when I was 20 and I hardly left the house. This continued until I was thirty and met the woman that would become my first wife. She never knew.

All of a sudden I was happy, popular, and successful. Thought that's what I needed and was cured. Little did I know what was to come.

To be continued (Don't mean to steal your thread!). I'll start my own soon.

Quote from: Katie Ellen on April 17, 2018, 06:58:06 AM
I grew up in a typical post World War II middle class family. Dad worked, mom stayed home and helped out at school. We walked to school and came home for lunch every day. It was the "Ozzie and Harriet" days. I was the oldest of three children. With a brother and sister each a year apart.

I was always envious of my sister. I was a sensitive boy and my father pushed me into defending myself. My neighbor friend always pushed me around. At age 8, my dad signed me up to participate in his favorite sport. Baseball. It became my diversion because I became pretty good at it and at other sports also. I knew my dad was proud of me.

At age 12, when home alone, I stumbled upon some of my moms clothes. Basically a bra. I have no idea why, but I tried it on. I then found and put on a pull over top and looked in the mirror. I can't describe the feeling I had seeing myself. I knew right then I was not "normal". Honestly, I thought that I must be the only one in the world like this!

The rest is history. No one ever caught me. I buried it deep. Unfortunately, a few years later I started having panic attacks and constant anxiety. Both of my parents died when I was 20 and I hardly left the house. This continued until I was thirty and met the woman that would become my first wife. She never knew.

All of a sudden I was happy, popular, and successful. Thought that's what I needed and was cured. Little did I know what was to come.

To be continued (Don't mean to steal your thread!). I'll start my own soon.

Katie Ellen,        17 Apr 2018

You're welcome here, you are not stealing anything, you are participating. I love it.

I used to sneak my mom's panties, they made me feel great. I envied all the girls, they had pretty clothes and all I had was drab ill fitting slacks and shirts. Then going to a catholic grade school didn't help; most of the penguins (nuns) were meaner than junk yard dogs. I hated the place so much that any time I got anywhere near that school, my stomach would be in knots. How bad was it? That lasted until I was around thirty. I finally had to talk to myself and tell myself they couldn't hurt me anymore. It finally went away. I'm amazed that I didn't develop ulcers.

You weren't the only one trying on mom's clothes; most boys have done it or tried on their sisters clothes. My sister was too little so there wasn't anything she had that would fit. Besides, it wasn't silky.

I'm from the state of Ohio; been gone for most of my life. I'm in Fort Worth, Texas and this is home and where I should have been from day one. Took me a while to get here (another story), best place I have ever lived and I have been all over the US and many foreign countries. Have lived in several, I enjoyed my stays but wouldn't want to be there on a permanent basis. Spent five years in Japan. Also lived in Mexico, Singapore, Malaysia. I did enjoy Mexico (another story).

Thank you for being here, please join me as you are very welcome. If you'd like to stay I'll ask Susan to change the name of the thread to something appropriate. You and I have some things in common; I think it would make a more interesting thread.

Gotta run, have to take the pups out then get myself ready for an appointment.

Best Always,
Christine

Quote from: Katie Ellen on April 17, 2018, 06:58:06 AM
I grew up in a typical post World War II middle class family. Dad worked, mom stayed home and helped out at school. We walked to school and came home for lunch every day. It was the "Ozzie and Harriet" days. I was the oldest of three children. With a brother and sister each a year apart.

I was always envious of my sister. I was a sensitive boy and my father pushed me into defending myself. My neighbor friend always pushed me around. At age 8, my dad signed me up to participate in his favorite sport. Baseball. It became my diversion because I became pretty good at it and at other sports also. I knew my dad was proud of me.

At age 12, when home alone, I stumbled upon some of my moms clothes. Basically a bra. I have no idea why, but I tried it on. I then found and put on a pull over top and looked in the mirror. I can't describe the feeling I had seeing myself. I knew right then I was not "normal". Honestly, I thought that I must be the only one in the world like this!

The rest is history. No one ever caught me. I buried it deep. Unfortunately, a few years later I started having panic attacks and constant anxiety. Both of my parents died when I was 20 and I hardly left the house. This continued until I was thirty and met the woman that would become my first wife. She never knew.

All of a sudden I was happy, popular, and successful. Thought that's what I needed and was cured. Little did I know what was to come.

To be continued (Don't mean to steal your thread!). I'll start my own soon.

Hello Katie Ellen

I think we first "met" in February on your thread here in TT "Finally realized something last night". So already have your own thread. Nice to hear from you again.

I am in UK and from a typical post war middle class family also. I was born in 1955 and "knew" I was trans in 1959 when I told my grandmother I wished to have been a born a girl and started crossdressing at 7 and have bodyshaved all my adult life. Like you I buried and suppressed and only last year sought therapy and as you see started HRT 10 weeks ago and already feel some emotional benefits and look forward to the physical ones.

I just thought you may like to read on the MTF Transsexual Talk board the thread "The long Road to HRT" as so many of "late bloomers" have commented there and useful to know our contempories.

I wish you the best on your transition journey.


Hello again Christine

I just thought you may like to read on the MTF Transsexual Talk board the thread "The long Road to HRT" as so many of "late bloomers" have commented there and useful to know our contemporaries.

Hugs to you both

Pamela

Quote from: pamelatransuk on April 18, 2018, 06:20:12 AM
Hello Katie Ellen

I think we first "met" in February on your thread here in TT "Finally realized something last night". So already have your own thread. Nice to hear from you again.

I am in UK and from a typical post war middle class family also. I was born in 1955 and "knew" I was trans in 1959 when I told my grandmother I wished to have been a born a girl and started crossdressing at 7 and have bodyshaved all my adult life. Like you I buried and suppressed and only last year sought therapy and as you see started HRT 10 weeks ago and already feel some emotional benefits and look forward to the physical ones.

I just thought you may like to read on the MTF Transsexual Talk board the thread "The long Road to HRT" as so many of "late bloomers" have commented there and useful to know our contempories.

I wish you the best on your transition journey.


Hello again Christine

I just thought you may like to read on the MTF Transsexual Talk board the thread "The long Road to HRT" as so many of "late bloomers" have commented there and useful to know our contemporaries.

Hugs to you both

Pamela

Hi Pamela, Katie Ellen,           18 Apr 2018

It kind of looks like the three of us share a lot of common ground in growing up. Being a bit older I was born before the US became directly involved in WW II. I had lots of fun in those early years though they didn't involve fun with my family, it was my playmates. One of them was a girl a bit older than me, don't remember exactly the difference; I was about 5 and she may have been 7 or so. She liked to play doctor so she would have me go with her into her parents garage. I was the doctor and she was the patient. I got to see a lot of her anatomy at an early age and loved it. I envied he VJ as it didn't have those goofy dangly things. I still remember her name, how the heck could I forget her when she provided me my first, sort of, sexual experience. Unfortunately I didn't know what I was doing, all I knew is I liked it, liked her, and liked girls and wanted to be one. And now here I be, 73 years later. Don't think I'll try to find her, she still might want to play doctor, and I'm not "UP" to it these days.

One of the good things in life is the ability to remember the good times; we can live them over and over. Fortunately, we also have the ability to shove most of the bad time into the dust bin of history.

Take care mis amigas. Best always,
Christine

Quote from: christinej78 on April 16, 2018, 11:56:43 PM
Donna,          16 Apr 2018

Everything went well, thank you. I hope yours goes even better. I didn't have a moments hesitation in getting rid of them. I couldn't wait until they did the surgery. I was originally supposed to have the surgery at 1030 CDT but more necessary surgery required rescheduling about four times that day. I think I went in at 1430 and the rest is history. Haven't had any real pain, just minor discomfort at times. The strongest pain reliever I used was Tylenol and very little at that. Still haven't experienced a testosterone crash. If your doctor is correct, I should hit bottom about Wednesday.

My procedure was a bi-lateral, radical inguinal orchiectomy. Don't understand the use of the word "Radical" in this context. I didn't create the terminology so who am I to say anything. I just know I liked having it and I am happy.

I'm sure you will be happy once the "boys" are on their way to the path-lab, never to cause problems again. When I was a kid I didn't know what they were for and hated them. They were ugly and when they got hit by something, the pain was excruciating and was a common occurrence; probably why I never had kids.

Take care Donna; Best always, Love
Christine

Don't worry about the radical part. It just means total and complete. I had radical prostatectomy which mean they took everything including the nerves and as close to the margins of surrounding structure as possible. Unfortunately the cancer had traveled beyond that and I needed radiation. That went very well and here I am 11 years later happy and healthy.

Quote from: Donna on April 18, 2018, 05:53:26 PM
Don't worry about the radical part. It just means total and complete. I had radical prostatectomy which mean they took everything including the nerves and as close to the margins of surrounding structure as possible. Unfortunately the cancer had traveled beyond that and I needed radiation. That went very well and here I am 11 years later happy and healthy.

Hi Donna,          18 Apr 2018

Eleven year, that's extremely good; glad for you.

Don't know who comes up with the terms the medical profession uses. Guess they want to make it sound complicated so they can charge more.

The orchi is healing up fine; still a lot of bruising though it is dwindling. The penis looks like a vandalized barber-pole. The nut sack is shrinking as is the penis. Fine by me, it's just a water spout. Hopefully by the end of the month the healing will be complete and the bruising gone.

I didn't have any real pain, just some discomfort and swelling. Used a few Tylenol, maybe 8 caplets total since day one. Now it's almost discomfort free. I'm doing much of what I always do except I'm not climbing trees; that'll have to wait a few more weeks.

Best Always, Love,
Christine

Quote from: christinej78 on April 18, 2018, 10:05:13 AM
Hi Pamela, Katie Ellen,           18 Apr 2018

It kind of looks like the three of us share a lot of common ground in growing up. Being a bit older I was born before the US became directly involved in WW II. I had lots of fun in those early years though they didn't involve fun with my family, it was my playmates. One of them was a girl a bit older than me, don't remember exactly the difference; I was about 5 and she may have been 7 or so. She liked to play doctor so she would have me go with her into her parents garage. I was the doctor and she was the patient. I got to see a lot of her anatomy at an early age and loved it. I envied he VJ as it didn't have those goofy dangly things. I still remember her name, how the heck could I forget her when she provided me my first, sort of, sexual experience. Unfortunately I didn't know what I was doing, all I knew is I liked it, liked her, and liked girls and wanted to be one. And now here I be, 73 years later. Don't think I'll try to find her, she still might want to play doctor, and I'm not "UP" to it these days.

One of the good things in life is the ability to remember the good times; we can live them over and over. Fortunately, we also have the ability to shove most of the bad time into the dust bin of history.

Take care mis amigas. Best always,
Christine

Christine,  Katie Ellen

Indeed. It is always wonderful to recall the happy events in life especially those early childhood days perhaps the happiest in my life up to this point.

Three things I did in those days aswell as crossdressing was playing tea sets with the girls, playing with them in a Wendy House and skipping.

I said above "up to this point" as I have so much to look forward to after HRT produces some physical results hopefully. Then I shall at last properly "live".

Love to you both

Pamela

PS: Just out of interest in the US did you in 1950s and 1960s always say "Wendy House" just like here in UK? Here some still use the term "Wendy House" but some younger people use "Play House". Thank you.

Quote from: pamelatransuk on April 19, 2018, 06:18:28 AM
Christine,  Katie Ellen

Indeed. It is always wonderful to recall the happy events in life especially those early childhood days perhaps the happiest in my life up to this point.

Three things I did in those days aswell as crossdressing was playing tea sets with the girls, playing with them in a Wendy House and skipping.

I said above "up to this point" as I have so much to look forward to after HRT produces some physical results hopefully. Then I shall at last properly "live".

Love to you both

Pamela

PS: Just out of interest in the US did you in 1950s and 1960s always say "Wendy House" just like here in UK? Here some still use the term "Wendy House" but some younger people use "Play House". Thank you.

Pamela, Katie Ellen,              19 Apr 2018

Play house is what I remember. Several kids on our street had them in their backyards. There was one in a vacant lot that everyone used though I never knew who built it or owned it. It was just there all by itself. I'll have to remember this and write about one of the nasty incidents that occurred there. No one was killed but one person went to hospital (I have been to the UK... long ago).

Best Always; Love you,
Christine

PS:
What a great place Susan's is!

Went to the urologist today. My T is down to half of what it was in October. Got my injection today and in 5 days I should hit 0. The doctor wants me to go the next 3 months on the injection and when I go in in three months for the next injection to make sure I am handling the 0 ok and that this transition is what I really want( it is).
At the 3 month visit he will book the removal if I'm happy with the 0. It's done outpatient here so it could be as little as a week later. He figures within a month of the next visit.
IM SOOOOO HAPPY

So, I'm only 4 days away from my HRT consult. I'm not nervous about it, except I'm not sure how to dress for it. I've gone to my therapy sessions dressed as Katie, but minus the wig seen in my avatar. I've been growing my hair for about 9 months and it's about 4.5 inches long. Unfortunately, it's quite fine, fully grey, and a little thin at the crown. Hopefully, HRT will help fill that in some???? If not, I'll need to go with wigs.

I don't think that I'm going to dress the same for this appointment though. Thinking about just wearing a pair of girl jeans and a neutral pullover top. I'll have to wear panties, but no bra. This doctor see's many trans people so I may have my toes painted. Any thoughts?

I love being fully dressed all the time. Why not go full out to the appointment. You won't be judged for it. I've notice my crown hair getting fuller since starting on dutatriside last fall so best of luck for you hair growth. I keep my natural hair short and love having wigs to chose from. Yesterday I wore a skirt and blouse, stockings and knee boots. Full make up and my wig and this is the first time in a year that he has seen me. He actually complimented me on the changes and agreed without argument to remove the boys. Present as you wish to be and it shows you are committed to your new life is my mindset.
Good luck

Well I'm not out yet, so going full out is not happening.

The doctor knows my therapist and my therapist knows I'm fully committed. Not worried on that front.

Just concerned about moving through the university to get to her office. I'm not worried about being at her office.

Well you have to do it as you feel comfortable. I've live in my condo for 15 years and I was the building manager here for 6 years. I can wander thru the building now and people don't even recognize me. It's a great feeling and being out in public has been no different. Once you go full time you will love it.

Quote from: Donna on April 21, 2018, 10:14:20 AM
Well you have to do it as you feel comfortable. I've live in my condo for 15 years and I was the building manager here for 6 years. I can wander thru the building now and people don't even recognize me. It's a great feeling and being out in public has been no different. Once you go full time you will love it.

Quote from: Katie Ellen on April 21, 2018, 09:31:46 AM
Well I'm not out yet, so going full out is not happening.

The doctor knows my therapist and my therapist knows I'm fully committed. Not worried on that front.

Just concerned about moving through the university to get to her office. I'm not worried about being at her office.

Donna, Katie Ellen,            27 Apr 2018

I love both of your Avatars, you gals look fabulous.

When I went to my 1st counselor I was dressed 100% female; what I wore was jeans, t-shirt and a pink, blue and white plaid shirt. I wanted to make a good impression; I think I did. I have gotten so used to wearing women's clothing that I don't give it much thought. I hardly have any men's clothing except old stuff I use for dirty-work. Granted, most of the bottoms I wear are slacks and jeans which could be considered gender-neutral, but I almost always wear something pink, my favorite color. No one around here gives me a second look so they either don't care, don't suspect, or think I'm a kook. At my stage of life, soon to be 78, I don't care; I just want to be who I want to be so I can be happy, which I am.

Orchi update: Almost all the minor bruising is gone; Willy's helmet still has a couple remnants of the hematoma but it should be gone in a few more days. Today is the second week since my surgery, no pain, I like the fact that the sack-o-nuts is empty and is shrinking rapidly. Tested my libido... none, which is good. Tested it with some porn, Willy didn't even drool. My "T" must be at zero or less. The two incisions, about 1 inch in length each right and left side, are completely healed and barely any noticeable scar. I'm glad I chose the inguinal, which is the only orchi the surgeon I used will do. They try to minimize scaring.

Monday I see my Endocrinologist for a checkup and blood test. I'm wondering what she will do to my Estradiol dosage. It's now a patch twice weekly. I'll let you know Monday. I thought I might be developing boobs but nothing much seems to be happening on that playing field. Maybe I need to quit thinking about them and then one day they will just pop up compliments of the "Boob-Fairy," which would be welcome. If and when they pop up, I think I'll just let them poke out as much as they want; no bra, just free standing (I hope) or sagging (whatever) some. It will be interesting whatever happens.

I've been on HRT exactly one month today. I don't seem to have lost any upper body strength or stamina. I'm working on my mower today so I can mow the pasture tomorrow. Also have a couple of trees that need to be wrecked out (taken down). Finally getting some decent weather on a weekly basis rather than a day or two at a time. I cannot handle being cold.

Gotta go, have to get the mower fixed so I can be productive tomorrow.

Love you gals, best Always,
Christine

Hi Christine,

  I'm Laurie And I said hi to you when you joined us. I am sorry  to say I haven't been keeping up with this thread but have read some of it tonight. It's a pretty good read from what I did read. Keep it up.
  I see you have your own following of girls that are in my age bracket and that being a little younger than yourself. They say it's never too late to transition and you are putting the truth to that as are we. Btw I am 65 so I pass the age restriction. You all are having a very nice conversation here and I won't interfere with it. I just thought I'd drop in and say hello.

Hugs,
  Laurie

Quote from: Laurie on April 27, 2018, 08:53:44 PM
Hi Christine,

  I'm Laurie And I said hi to you when you joined us. I am sorry  to say I haven't been keeping up with this thread but have read some of it tonight. It's a pretty good read from what I did read. Keep it up.
  I see you have your own following of girls that are in my age bracket and that being a little younger than yourself. They say it's never too late to transition and you are putting the truth to that as are we. Btw I am 65 so I pass the age restriction. You all are having a very nice conversation here and I won't interfere with it. I just thought I'd drop in and say hello.

Hugs,
  Laurie

Good Morning Laurie,               28 April 2018

Thank you; muchas gracias! I do remember your welcome; thanks a bunch. You and anyone else that wants to join is welcome on this thread.

When I was a snot-nosed kid most people my current age resided in boneyards or nursing homes. In 1979 there was a documentary on PBS; it was about two doctors in St. Paul, MN that had a theory that there was no excuse for getting old. They went to nursing homes and found people that had been bed ridden for long periods of time. They put them on special diets and exercise programs. In a months time they had these folks up and walking around.

At the end of the program one of the doctors made a statement that I'll have to paraphrase. He said that there was no reason why someone 85 couldn't do anything they wanted to do; obviously you can't do anything about wrinkles, falling  and or graying hair. He said that the biggest problem people have is that many of them think that when they become 55 or so they have the idea they should just sit and watch TV. That inactivity then becomes a self fulfilling prophecy. Never forgot that message.

In 1990, one of my co-workers suggested an "Office Ski Trip." I was almost 50. It was organized by a travel agency so there was a plane load of skiers going to the same place. One of those folks has been an inspiration ever since; he was a man of 85 years young. Won't ever forget him. It turned out to be a fun trip. Went from crashing multiple times on the Bunny slopes to skiing the Black Diamond runs. Continued skiing spending lots of time skiing Taos Ski Valley, New Mexico. They have some of the most difficult runs in this country. Between Ski Valley and the emergency room in town I was a regular visitor to both. Never was a good skier but I enjoyed the thrill of those dangerous runs. I now pay a price for that "fun." Everything in life has a price tag attached; it's just when does the bill come due.

I would hazard a guess I may be close to being one of the oldest members on this site. Anyone out here 78 or older? Hope there is, I don't need the title "Geezerina" just yet; I want to complete the fourth quarter and then go into overtime. Once in overtime I'll willingly accept the title. I hope we are all still here then.

Best Always, Love,
Christine

PS:

Keep Moving.

Quote from: christinej78 on April 28, 2018, 11:03:41 AM
I would hazard a guess I may be close to being one of the oldest members on this site. Anyone out here 78 or older? Hope there is, I don't need the title "Geezerina" just yet; I want to complete the fourth quarter and then go into overtime. Once in overtime I'll willingly accept the title. I hope we are all still here then.

You may be the oldest transitioning member but as for members near your age, I think we have several. They don't post often but they do pop up every once in a while.

I though I was the oldest surgery for a while but we have had a few come through that their surgery before me. Seems like just when you think your the winner, somebody will outdo you.

Quote from: Dena on April 28, 2018, 11:39:10 AM
You may be the oldest transitioning member but as for members near your age, I think we have several. They don't post often but they do pop up every once in a while.

I though I was the oldest surgery for a while but we have had a few come through that their surgery before me. Seems like just when you think your the winner, somebody will outdo you.

Dena,            28 Apr 2018

You're still a Spring chick; stay that way and never grow up.

Best Always,
Christine

Quote from: christinej78 on April 28, 2018, 12:12:03 PM
Dena,            28 Apr 2018

You're still a Spring chick; stay that way and never grow up.

Best Always,
Christine

Who ever said my avatar was current? It dates back to around 1986. Problem is I haven't been able to take a good replacement image because my photographer passed away about 5 years ago and my selfies turn out really bad. I am better behind the camera instead of in front of it.

Quote from: Dena on April 28, 2018, 02:27:30 PM
Who ever said my avatar was current? It dates back to around 1986. Problem is I haven't been able to take a good replacement image because my photographer passed away about 5 years ago and my selfies turn out really bad. I am better behind the camera instead of in front of it.

Hi Dena,             28 April 2018

I bet you're even more beautiful today.

Best Always,
Christine

Quote from: 2.B.Dana on April 14, 2018, 12:48:18 PM
Christine,

As a veteran I would suggest working with the VA to get your patches. Would be a lot less expensive. You should be able to coordinate a outside physician requesting and an VA physician ordering the meds. My dad did it for years.  They will also do breast forms etc if you want them prior to the real thing showing up.

Hi 2.B.Dana             01 May 2018

Went to the VA today to get fitted for new hearing aids; that's done so they should be ready by 31 May. While there decided to see my primary VA doctor. When I sprung the Estradiol patch script my endocrinologist wrote for me yesterday, he asked me if I knew what the side affects are. It was time to educate him on some basic transgender issues. I'm his first TG patient. Told him about the gender Dysphoria, the long desire to be a woman, counseling, HRT and the orchi. He asked If I still had a penis and prostate, to which I answered in the affirmative. He then wanted to know if I was going to hook up with men, to which I responded in the negative. He sat there with a puzzled look to which I responded I'm a lesbian, I love women. He seemed relieved.

He has referred me to the women's clinic for OBGYN consultation. He did approve the Estradiol patches, which he was initially hesitant to do. I think our frank talk alleviated his concerns so I ended up with my other prescriptions corrected and the patches compliments of the VA.

Well Dana, I owe you big time; you gave me the nudge needed to get may butt in gear and give the VA a shot. Thank you bunches.

Are you anywhere near the Dallas Fort Worth area? If you are ever close by contact Susan, she knows how to get hold of me. Lunch or dinner is on me; I don't do McDonald's. I'd consider it an honor.

Best Always, muchas gracias mis amiga,
Christine

Well done. More first step on top of a life time of first steps. Interesting him asking about the prostate. I don't think may think about that uniquely man part. Just glad mine fell in the cancer grave yard and I don't have to consider it.

Quote from: Donna on May 01, 2018, 08:18:20 PM
Well done. More first step on top of a life time of first steps. Interesting him asking about the prostate. I don't think may think about that uniquely man part. Just glad mine fell in the cancer grave yard and I don't have to consider it.

Good evening Donna,              02 May 2018

It was obvious he didn't know too much about transgender. I schooled him as best I could with my extremely knowledgable old wives tales (sarc). He said he would put in a consult with the Women's Clinic for me. Sure enough they called today and asked me if I wanted to transfer to their part of the VA clinic. I told them I'd make an appointment with them and stay where I am. As I have had time to think things over I now think it best if I move there as I won't have to compete with all the guys that use the regular clinic. I'm going to call them tomorrow and make an appointment for my regular physical come this October.

The lady I talked with kind of made me laugh when she said I could move up there (2nd floor) where I could have my vaginal swabs, mammograms, birth control and what not taken care of right there. I had to remind her that I'm transgender post orchi, with a Willy and on HRT.

She did verify my Estradiol patches have been approved and ordered. I should probably have them by early next week.

Now I won't have to give up $70.00 worth of feel good (junk) food each month. That's a lot of "Marinela Sponch Marshmallow Cookies" I can eat. If you have never tried them, don't, they are habit forming. I started buying them 28 years ago when I lived in Mexico City. When I returned to the US I couldn't find them until recently. Phoned Bimbo (pronounced Beembo) Bakeries of Horsham, PA. They told me I could find them in certain Wally-World stores and Fiesta Super Markets. Every time I find them I buy all they have on the shelf. I'm not addicted to them; really I'm not; honest injun. (Hope that's not a derogatory comment as it isn't intended to be; it's from my earlier childhood days, which have yet to end.)

I noticed something today, maybe it's just my imagination, but I think my facial skin is sagging less and smoothing out. Is this possible this soon after starting HRT? Hope it's not wishful thinking. I would take a picture but my camera broke the last time I tried. Gotta get that thing fixed one of these days. Can you believe this: The camera and lens both cratered at the same time. That's what I get for trying to take a selfie.

Best Always,
Christine

Hi Everyone,                  04 May 2018

Called the VA Women's Clinic yesterday and had them transfer me to it; they made an appointment for me on the 21st of this month. That's the quickest I have been scheduled for an appt. It usually takes 2 months; think the decision to move will prove to be a good one.

Hope you like my new avatar; she is one of my munchkin rescues. Thanks Dena for the help with the photos.

Was thinking of something today; if we could take Susan's Place and all the members and build a city where we all could live together, I bet it would be the safest, happiest and most peaceful place on earth. Just a thought.

Best Always,
Christine

Great news with the woman's clinic. So mind settling for you to have them working with you and not against. It should be great to get everything in one place and quicker as well.
Great and best luck moving forward

Hello Christine

I am so glad to see things are progressing for you. Not to long to wait till 21st.

As for Susan's City, what a wonderful thought. Everyone would live in harmony friendship love and peace.

Hugs

Pamela

Quote from: pamelatransuk on May 05, 2018, 08:27:30 AM
Hello Christine

I am so glad to see things are progressing for you. Not to long to wait till 21st.

As for Susan's City, what a wonderful thought. Everyone would live in harmony friendship love and peace.

Hugs

Pamela

Hi Pamela,                   05 May 2018

Thanks, I sure wish you were close by w/o all the water separating us. I guess that's why they make ships and planes.

I am anxious to get there on the 21st. All the doctors in the Women's Clinic are women, which I like and as is my civilian Endocrinologist, who I can't say enough great thing about; she is an absolute jewel.

I cannot believe how lucky I have been on this journey. The only thing I may have done to help things along is I don't take NO for an answer when I want or need something.

If I had stayed with the 1st endocrinologist I went to I'd still be waiting to see him. As it is I saw two counselors, my primary doctor, my new endocrinologist, on HRT, saw the surgeon, had my orchi, all in less than 6 weeks.

Today is our monthly MTF transgender group meeting; look forward to being there this afternoon and seeing all the gals.

Take care, and tell your wife I said Hi. Best Always, all my love,
Christine

PS:
We need to work on making Susan's City a reality.

Quote from: christinej78 on May 04, 2018, 08:16:55 PM
Was thinking of something today; if we could take Susan's Place and all the members and build a city where we all could live together, I bet it would be the safest, happiest and most peaceful place on earth. Just a thought.

Best Always,
Christine

Quote from: pamelatransuk on May 05, 2018, 08:27:30 AM
As for Susan's City, what a wonderful thought. Everyone would live in harmony friendship love and peace.

Hugs

Pamela

Haa, two potential moderator who have no idea what they are in for.   >:-)

Quote from: Dena on May 05, 2018, 01:08:34 PM
Haa, two potential moderator who have no idea what they are in for.   >:-)

Hi Dena,               07 May 2018

Maybe one of these days after I develop a better feel for how things are "Supposed" to be rather than how I might think they should be.

Had my second post op today; while I was with the doctor and his assistant, they called me "sweetie" several times. I liked it; moving right along!

It's been three weeks and three days since my surgery; the doctor looked a lot younger than he did the day of the surgery. Do the hormones change the way we perceive what we see?

In one of Chelsea's posts she mentioned her sweat smelled sweet. I have noticed I don't stink like I used to when I would perspire during heavy physical activity; now there's no odor "atoll." Thank you "GoneNads."

My next post op is six months out; all these have been included in the one price they charge.

Received my meds from the VA; unfortunately, they sent the wrong strength patches; talked with them this AM, just waiting to hear what they are going to do. I've also transferred to the "Women's Clinic;" moving right along, even more so.

All is well, hope the same for you and everyone here at Susan's Place, our happy home.

Got to run, I hear a tree calling me.

Best Always,
Christine

Excellent post and great news. Don't know about changing vision unless it's my dirty glasses. For sure the body odour thing is real. I really notice how pleasant mine became and no put odour at all. I can get away with deodorant once or twice a week now. I really notice other people's strong smells more so now.

Quote from: Donna on May 10, 2018, 05:33:32 PM
Excellent post and great news. Don't know about changing vision unless it's my dirty glasses. For sure the body odour thing is real. I really notice how pleasant mine became and no put odour at all. I can get away with deodorant once or twice a week now. I really notice other people's strong smells more so now.

Hi Donna,              10 May 2018

Hope all is great with you; things are fine here. Back to doing tree work, and that be me up in the tree. That was shot in 2013 while wrecking out that tree. It was about 65 feet tall, which is fairly large for this area of Texas. Along streams and lakes it's a different story, they can get quite tall.

The VA is sending me a duplicate of the prescription they originally sent; I'll just apply two patches twice a week then when I order a refill, they will supply what was originally prescribed. I'll probably have the additional meds by Monday.

I don't seem to be losing any strength, I'm not gaining weight, but my butt & hips appear to be changing. My jeans and slacks are tighter in that area and I think the booty looks a bit more fem like. The boobs are making themselves known, albeit slowly. The nips are definitely getting more sensitive. Fortunately, I have a sport bra; I think I'll wear it when I climb. You do get banged up a bit and lots of stuff will hit you, especially when trimming limbs above ones position. You can't always be above what you are working on.

The tree in the photo was an old Cotton Wood; notorious for being weak, limbs will snap off w/o warning. Most folks think when you fall out of a tree that you are injured or killed by the fall. Not true, it's the sudden stop at the end.

There is a lot of rope up there with me. I usually climb with double lines for safety and maneuverability.

Weather here has finally turned the corner, it's summer here even though it's not official. I do love the hot weather. I have a good bit of tree work to do. I need to find a cheap pair of hot pink shorts and a matching top. I want to wear them while up in the tree and have someone photograph the event. It'll be a good way to finish off my outing.

Time for me to go to our local Braum's Dairy Store. They have great products, I especially love their fat free milk and their Ice Cream. It's a family run business; they have a 48,000 acre dairy farm in Tuttle, Oklahoma. They deliver their products within a 350 mile radius of Tuttle. I am out of milk; I go through about 2 gallons per week. I need to stop eating cookies and milk for lunch and dinner.

Take care mis amiga.

Best Always, Love
Christine

Thanks for the update. No cookies, I need natchos as the salt craving on spiro are getting to me.
I don't mind being that high up in an loft but not a tree. I have to move a couple 15 ft trees beside a building but I'm just going to strap them to a lift then cut them and lay them down that way.
We have hit a cold snap again with rain. Not nice for outside work.

Quote from: christinej78 on May 02, 2018, 10:26:28 PM
Good evening Donna,              02 May 2018

It
I noticed something today, maybe it's just my imagination, but I think my facial skin is sagging less and smoothing out. Is this possible this soon after starting HRT? Hope it's not wishful thinking. I would take a picture but my camera broke the last time I tried. Gotta get that thing fixed one of these days. Can you believe this: The camera and lens both cratered at the same time. That's what I get for trying to take a selfie.

Best Always,
Christine

Most of the wrinkles and crows feet that had started to form left with hrt. People say I look in my 30's when I'm 43 so I say yes, skin is one of the first things to change and it makes you look younger. I used that how old are you website the other days and it came out with 28! I think it was being a bit nice but it agrees with my co-workers who asked what the secret to looking younger was.

Quote from: krobinson103 on May 11, 2018, 02:21:14 AM
Most of the wrinkles and crows feet that had started to form left with hrt. People say I look in my 30's when I'm 43 so I say yes, skin is one of the first things to change and it makes you look younger. I used that how old are you website the other days and it came out with 28! I think it was being a bit nice but it agrees with my co-workers who asked what the secret to looking younger was.

Hi Krobinson,               11 May 2018

Thanks for the info. I need to get a camera that I can use for a selfie. Looking in the mirror doesn't give me anything to compare my current looks to. My memory can't do a comparison of what I looked like yesterday vs. today. I'm fairly certain something is changing, just can't be sure it's not wishful thinking.

Another problem is hairy ears. I have had them waxed, which turns out great but doesn't last too long, I pluck what I can with tweezers; that's time consuming and the results are iffy.

I haven't tried electrolysis on them; has anyone had it done? My concern is the electrical energy imparted is close to the brain. At my age I don't have brain cells I can spare. I remember when I was having my pubes done, every once in a while a nerve would feel electrical pulses which made my legs jump around. If you have had electrolysis for your ear garden, I'd like to know how it went.

Today I received my gender confirmation letter from the doctor that performed my orchiectomy. It's filled with legal mumbo jumbo, which I am sure some lawyer composed. My take on it is I now have the necessary paperwork to initiate my legal name and gender change. The only thing I have to do is contact my health insurance provider to obtain a letter that states they will alter both without causing a change in my insurance. The reason I'm a bit concerned is I have a policy that covers more that what is currently being sold. I am grandfathered in on this policy. If I can maintain this w/o losing my grandfather status, I'll proceed.

Things seem to still be moving along smoothly. the VA fixed the problem with the meds; a new supply should be here tomorrow or Monday. This just reminds me, it's time to change my patch.

I was your age once upon a time, 35 years ago. I wish I had done this back then; I'm sure the results appearance wise would be better. Since I feel better, am more content and have diminishing aggression, I am happy with whatever I get. I am experiencing an inner peace I have never known before. If that is all I receive from my transition, it will have been well worth it.

Sunday, I plan on visiting the nudist resort I am a member of. I talked to one of the owners and asked if they had any policies regarding LGBTQ persons. Everyone is welcome, their policy is all inclusive; everyone has to abide by the same set of rules, no exceptions. It is a family resort.

Thank you very much for the info; I'd sure like to put an end to the weed gardens that grow in my ears. I haven't even mentioned the nose; saving that for later. Take care.

Best Always,
Christine

Hello Everyone,                 13 May 2018

Today marks one month w/o nuts; One of the best things I have ever had done to my body.

Weather was nice, slight wind so I did Poison Ivy eradication today. Will repeat the process again tomorrow, weather permitting (low wind).

I am feeling fine, I am happy, low in aggression, calm, sleep well, pee better each day, boobs are starting to poke a tiny bit, the nips are sensitive, my hips and booty seem to be expanding based upon how my jeans and slacks fit (more feminine). I don't think I have lost any strength, I lifted and carried several large logs today w/o any extra effort.

This next week I should be climbing the trees that need work. That will be the real test for strength and stamina; all bets are off until that reality check. My gut says "No Problem." One of my goals is to maintain my male fitness and actually improve it. I know I can never pass as a woman, just too rough around the edges. If the edges were ground off there'd be nothing remaining. I can't live in a fantasy land of my own making. That said, I am having fun, and that's one of the important things that should count for all of us.

Best Always,
Christine

Good afternoon everyone,            15 May 2018

Learned something this past week after I had put my previous Estradiol patch on: I had placed it about an inch above my bellybutton, Big mistake. That area has a bit of flab and is subject to a lot of rolling and folding from bending over. It caused the patch to loosen and almost get lost during a shower. I had to add adhesive tape over it to keep it in place until it was time to replace it, which it was today.

Took all the tape and the patch off; lots of residue from the tape but nothing noticeable from the patch, Applied baby oil and let it sit for a few minutes. Was able to get it all off but it took longer than patch residue. Took a shower, and applied the new patch along my side where it isn't subject to bending and folding skin. Lesson learned.

Also need to get the flab off and that means stopping the enormous quantities of junk food starting today. Also need more aerobic exercise so out comes my road bike for a spring cleaning, lube and adjustments. It'll take a couple of weeks riding it before my butt and crotch acclimate themselves to those wonderful road bike saddles (seats). They remind me of the cutting side of a fire axe blade being used for a seat. I did learn several years ago that panty liners of a reasonable thickness are a tremendous help in reducing the pain and suffering (torture).

I had my chest, back and Brazilian area waxed about one week before my orchi surgery. This AM I noticed that the hair on my chest and abdomen is barely noticeable and what is returning is very fine compared to growth prior to HRT and orchi. The hair on my chest has always reminded me of a giant Brillo pad.

That's it for today, I'm going to start my diet tomorrow as I have a lot of junk food to get rid of before commencing it. Just joking, the diet has commenced. I am going to allow a small and measured amount of junk food once a week. My goal is to lose at least 10 pounds of fat, get rid of the flab in front and rebuild my six-pack. We'll see how this goes. If I fail, you be the first to NOT hear about it. I've done this before and I won't fail.

Something I learned long ago was reinforced today: "You can lead a horse to water, but you can't make it drink."

Years ago I climbed a mountain just to see what I thought would be a beautiful beach on the other side. When I got there all I found was another mountain. Decided to accept what I could accomplish rather than trying to do the impossible.

Best Always,
Christine

Hi Christine,

  I hear you about that tummy problem. I worked decades on my beer belly and now want it gone. I have thought of getting a bicycle but I doubt it would really get that much use. That and I am a loyal opponent to giving up roadways to cyclists that don't like sharing the roads with cars. Here in the Portland area they have been catered to too much and to the expense of motorists. AND it costs them NOTHING. They ride on the sidewalks when they have bike lanes. Few obey traffic laws running stop signs and lights. They block traffic when they feel like it. So I really do not care to join their ranks. I feel road rage at them every time they get catered to and I'm usually not even behind the wheel of my pickup.
  Sorry, sore subject but good exercise. I'll walk.

  I try to watch what I eat but I love food. Portion size is my downfall. Good luck with reducing your excesses.

Hugs,
  Laurie

Quote from: Laurie on May 15, 2018, 09:56:20 PM
Hi Christine,

  I hear you about that tummy problem. I worked decades on my beer belly and now want it gone. I have thought of getting a bicycle but I doubt it would really get that much use. That and I am a loyal opponent to giving up roadways to cyclists that don't like sharing the roads with cars. Here in the Portland area they have been catered to too much and to the expense of motorists. AND it costs them NOTHING. The ride on the sidewalks when they have bike lanes. Few obey traffic laws running stop signs and lights. The block traffic when they feel like it. So I really do not care to join their ranks. I feel road rage at them every time they get catered to and I'm usually not even behind the wheel of my pickup.
  Sorry, sore subject but good exercise. I'll walk.

  I try to watch what I eat but I love food. Portion size is my downfall. Good luck with reducing your excesses.

Hugs,
  Laurie

Good evening Laurie,                      15 May 2918

I completely agree; I hate bikes mixing with cars on major roadways. I ride in a fairly quiet neighborhood where I just ride laps. I know where the nitwits live so I watch their driveways for stuff coming out in my direction. I wear super bright clothes so no one has an excuse that they didn't see me. Of course that won't do me a lick of good if I am "Road Pizza."

I try to get to where I ride 22 miles every other day; that's as far as I generally push it. Once in a while I'll shoot for 36 miles.

Haven't had any junk food today. Tomorrow, I will make a schedule for my weekly junk treat.

Thanks my Dear.

Best Always,
Christine

Would love to take up riding again but back is not going to allow it.
I have been loosing a crazy amount of weight lately and my wife even noted my butt is disappearing. Not what I wanted to hear.
Just healthy food and smaller portions. 1 year and 4 months and 90 pounds lighter now.

  I want to apologize to responsible cyclists. Many cyclists are good stewards of the roads and ride as they are supposed to obeying laws. These I thank. I will admit that motorists also are part of the problem. My main complaint are those that ride in the middle of back roads blocking the way and city cyclists that have no respect for laws, pedestrians and auto traffic.. But more of all are the politicians that cater to them like is done in Portland.
  I regret my other post can be taken as bashing all bicyclists. That is not my intent.

Laurie

Quote from: Donna on May 15, 2018, 11:01:46 PM
Would love to take up riding again but back is not going to allow it.
I have been loosing a crazy amount of weight lately and my wife even noted my butt is disappearing. Not what I wanted to hear.
Just healthy food and smaller portions. 1 year and 4 months and 90 pounds lighter now.

Hi Donna,             15 May 2018

That's fantastic. I'm sure you feel great. Hope you reach your target goal on schedule.

Quote from: Laurie on May 15, 2018, 11:14:35 PM
  I want to apologize to responsible cyclists. Many cyclists are good stewards of the roads and ride as they are supposed to obeying laws. These I thank. I will admit that motorists also are part of the problem. My main complaint are those that ride in the middle of back roads blocking the way and city cyclists that have no respect for laws, pedestrians and auto traffic.. But more of all are the politicians that cater to them like is done in Portland.
  I regret my other post can be taken as bashing all bicyclists. That is not my intent.

Laurie

Hi Laurie,                    15 May 2018

You won't get any argument from me. I think they're an arrogant bunch. The city here even encourages them to ride on the narrow congested streets. I plane to go to a city council meeting and complain about the city encouraging them to ride on these tiny high traffic roads. Won't do any good, but at least I'll give them a chunk of my mind.

Best Always mis amigas, Love you both.
Christine

Hi everyone,           16 may 2018

Another surprise yesterday, the remainder of my prescription showed up in the mail without me mentioning it was missing. Our Fort Worth VA is getting better. Thanks folks.

Best Always,
Christiene

Hello Everyone,                  17 May 2018

Long day today, too many trees need pruning. They will get done in due time.

Went on a diet; cut out the junk food. It's been only two days and no junk. Checked my weight, down 6 pounds. I'm almost down to the weight I was the day I joined the Navy 55 years ago. I've had one small DumDum lollipop, two 12 ounce bottles of 7up and that's it.

Still haven't made a schedule for my one day of the week for junk.

Best Always,
Christine

Hi Folks,                      19 may 2018

Here we are two days beyond the prior update. Weighed myself again, this time with only underwear. One pound over my weight  the day I joined the Navy 55 years ago, two inches shorter and two balls lighter.

Speaking of balls, now that I know how much better I feel physically and mentally without them, my only regret is that I didn't have them removed years ago. Everything is better now, happiness, calmness, disappearing aggression, better sleep. The orchie was one of the most positive things I have ever done to my body and HRT is right in there with it.

I'm letting the "Magic Mushrooms" work their magic; hopefully by November when my 3rd post op is due, I'll have some decent "Speed Bumps" adorning my chest.

If I could pick what I wanted in boobs, I'd want a set like Carol Wayne had. She was two years younger and passed away 13 January 1985 by drowning. She made over 100 appearances on The Tonight Show with Johnny Carson appearing as the Matinée Lady.

If I could develop a set like hers were, I'd never get bored; I'd always have nice things to play with.

Best Always,
Christine

Hi Everyone,                      21 May 2018

Here it is, Monday AM, I should be in bed. Any how, I was walking past a full length mirror when I caught a glimpse of my profile... ok, so I looked. I noticed little speed bumps poking out from under my white T-shirt. The ends of those bumps seem more sensitive than they have in the past. Does this mean they are groooowing?

As soon as I figure out how to use the simple camera I bought last year, I'll take a photo of the twins and post them. Are we allowed to do that? Before I do that I think I better consult with a higher authority.

I'm off to LaLa land.

Best Always,
Christine

Before you do anything you will regret, street wear and swim wear are ok. Nudity and underwear are not.

Quote from: christinej78 on May 21, 2018, 01:14:26 AM
Hi Everyone,                      21 May 2018

Here it is, Monday AM, I should be in bed. Any how, I was walking past a full length mirror when I caught a glimpse of my profile... ok, so I looked. I noticed little speed bumps poking out from under my white T-shirt. The ends of those bumps seem more sensitive than they have in the past. Does this mean they are groooowing?

As soon as I figure out how to use the simple camera I bought last year, I'll take a photo of the twins and post them. Are we allowed to do that? Before I do that I think I better consult with a higher authority.

I'm off to LaLa land.

Best Always,
Christine

Welll I sure hope they are growing for you. Nothing better than owning your very own pair of girls

Quote from: Dena on May 21, 2018, 01:17:48 AM
Before you do anything you will regret, street wear and swim wear are ok. Nudity and underwear are not.

Quote from: christinej78 on May 21, 2018, 01:14:26 AM
As soon as I figure out how to use the simple camera I bought last year, I'll take a photo of the twins and post them. Are we allowed to do that? Before I do that I think I better consult with a higher authority.

Hi Dena,            21 May 2018

I was just checking to see if you actually read every post; you DO!

Now everyone will know for certain we can NOT gat away with breaking the rules. You passed the test 300%.

100 for reading the post, 100 for how quickly you responded and another 100 for staying up 24 x 7 watching over all your little peeps.

Best Always, Love
Christine

PS:
Right here and now, I'm not trying to be funny; Thank you for keeping Susan's Place and all of us safe. You are our MaMa Hen. Love You

Quote from: Donna on May 21, 2018, 02:13:36 AM
Welll I sure hope they are growing for you. Nothing better than owning your very own pair of girls

Hi Donna,                  21 May 2018

Yesterday I was noticing they seemed more sensitive than before. My little dog "Friday" likes me to carry him during part of our walk; he can see better when he is up at my level. When I picked him up and held him close to my chest I noticed a sharp jabbing pain that was more intense that before. Does this mean they might be having a growth spurt?

The last time I went through puberty all I cared about was getting rid of that nasty beard Willy was sprouting. There'd be several hairs poking out so I'd yank them out. Next time I took a bath there'd be twice as many. Kept doing that plucking bit until I realized it was a futile effort. Now I have them all waxed off. 

Friday loves to watch TV; his favorite move is "Shane" staring Alan Ladd. It's a two hour flick and he will watch the whole movie, unlike me who falls asleep through most movies.

Best Always, Love
Christine

For me my growth spurts have come thru with a solid pain followed by a very strong and intense tingling over several days. They started tingling again last night so hopefully here I go again. My wife won't let me buy any more than one bra at a time now until they pick a size and that difficult with the weight loss as well reducing the band size. Lol so now I have 7 beautiful 40C bras I can't wear anymore, so sad.
I hate shaving but I have shaved the privates for so many years now that the growth is rather slow which I can deal with for now.

Quote from: Donna on May 21, 2018, 11:12:18 AM
For me my growth spurts have come thru with a solid pain followed by a very strong and intense tingling over several days. They started tingling again last night so hopefully here I go again. My wife won't let me buy any more than one bra at a time now until they pick a size and that difficult with the weight loss as well reducing the band size. Lol so now I have 7 beautiful 40C bras I can't wear anymore, so sad.
I hate shaving but I have shaved the privates for so many years now that the growth is rather slow which I can deal with for now.

Hi Donna,                          21 May 2018

Thanks for the info. The pain I have is only when something presses against the boob right over the nipple.

After I wrote that sentence I started laughing; here I am, almost 78 and I'm talking about my boobs. Forty-eight years ago when I first started wearing women's wear, who would have "thunk" I'd be conversing, via a computer, with a gorgeous lady in Canada, about boobs and their growth patterns. Wow, times have changed and "That Be Progress."

I really like your new avatar; you are gorgeous and HOT. You're so HOT Canada is going to have an early Spring.

Thanks Bunches mis amiga.

Best Always, Love
Christine

Lol. Too funny. Your making me blush. I can appreciate the beauty of your statements and feel the same about being here and being able to talk about damn near anything.
💗💕donna💗💕

So I finally started a thread of my story. It's called " On Becoming Donna" and hopefully it's readable. I'm going to add more as time goes on but I sometimes get to emotional writing.

Quote from: Donna on May 21, 2018, 02:48:06 PM
Lol. Too funny. Your making me blush. I can appreciate the beauty of your statements and feel the same about being here and being able to talk about damn near anything.
💗💕donna💗💕

Donna, That's the beauty of Susan's Place, we are free to be who we be.

Best Always, Love,
Christine

Quote from: Donna on May 21, 2018, 02:53:10 PM
So I finally started a thread of my story. It's called " On Becoming Donna" and hopefully it's readable. I'm going to add more as time goes on but I sometimes get to emotional writing.

Hi Donna,                 21 May 2018

Had a tough time geting my previous post to post; Error message = "The message body was left empty."

I'll drop by your new thread as soon as I retrieve Ella from the groomer's. It was time for her spring bath and trim.

Gotta go get her; luego.

Best Always, Love,
Christine

Quote from: Donna on May 21, 2018, 11:12:18 AM
For me my growth spurts have come thru with a solid pain followed by a very strong and intense tingling over several days. They started tingling again last night so hopefully here I go again. My wife won't let me buy any more than one bra at a time now until they pick a size and that difficult with the weight loss as well reducing the band size. Lol so now I have 7 beautiful 40C bras I can't wear anymore, so sad.
I hate shaving but I have shaved the privates for so many years now that the growth is rather slow which I can deal with for now.

Hi Donna,             21 May 2018

I started shaving my whole body 48 years ago; my wife took care of my back and anyplace I couldn't safely get to and I did the same for her. It was a win, win situation. When I was a snot-nosed kid I wanted to be "Hairy" like all the men at the pool. Once my body became covered in rug fibers, I wished I had never wished to be like those hairy gorillas.

HRT seems to be having a decent impact on my body fur; I just wish it would go away. The only thing worse than body hair is Gray Body hair, and that's what I have had in surplus for the last 40 years. Any one need some spare hair?

Think I mentioned I tried electrolysis on the pubes; Came back heaver than what was removed. I'm seriously thinking of going back to the person that did mine and have them try a small area on my head where the hair is quite thin. I think this might tie in to what Jayne01 said about a special setting that changes gray to dark. There may be a connection. I'd sure like to find a cure for cue-balldness.

I started this post before I went to pick Ella up at the "Beauty Saloon;" when we got home I fed the crew, except me, took them out and then crashed. I went to bed this AM around 0530 hrs. and got up around 0720 hrs. I have to stop this less than 8 hours of good sleep each night. Its not a healthy situation, especially someone as young as I am. I need beauty rest and lots of it.

Did get a nice surprise today, twice. Two friends, a female and male. noticed my boobs poking out. Now that made my day. I think they are close to needing a training bra but I'm going to let them roam free as long as I can get away with it. I hope they end up at the high end of a "B" or low end of a "C." New toys to play with.

Still have a few more things to do here tonight then I am crashing until late tomorrow. Looking forward to my VA appointment on the 31st; get my new hearing contraptions and my transfer to the Women's Clinic, all in one day.

They did send me a three month supply of Estradiol so I'm now in good shape. Thank God for the Magic Mushrooms. I better check my appointment schedule for my next endocrinologist appointment; it should be coming up soon.

Do like the new avatar; aside from the smashing good looks, the photo is much clearer than the previous. Way to go girl.

Best Always, Love to you and your Wife,
Christine

Let see cue baldness. Wig maybe
The hair I really don't need any extra. Lol
5 hours of sleep is about it for me then the bladder hurts to much. Have a nasty infection going on again. 6 weeks now and third round of antibiotics yucky
Thanks about the picture. That is a new wig my wife gave me.

High Everyone,                    22 May 2018

My PC will be going dark for a few days; I have so many projects that need finishing I am going to devote the next three or four days to getting them done. Thanks for visiting this thread. Hopefully when I return I'll have something interesting to share with you-all.

I'm going to try and change my avatar to a more current me and my levitating Pooch "Friday," which was taken last summer. The tree photo is about 5 years old.

It worked.

Best Always, Love,
Christine

Be safe and be well

Quote from: christinej78 on May 22, 2018, 10:31:53 PM
High Everyone,                    22 May 2018

My PC will be going dark for a few days; I have so many projects that need finishing I am going to devote the next three or four days to getting them done. Thanks for visiting this thread. Hopefully when I return I'll have something interesting to share with you-all.

I'm going to try and change my avatar to a more current me and my levitating Pooch "Friday," which was taken last summer. The tree photo is about 5 years old.

It worked.

Best Always, Love,
Christine

@christinej78
Christine:    So, you are going to leave all of your faithful readers hanging???
No worries, of course your life, your relationships, your projects, and your work always come first.   
Most of us here have to be careful that we don't neglect our life's activities by being here excessively on the Forums instead of tending to our life....  as all of us know, the Forums and the friends that we have made here can become quite addicting if we are not careful.

I will be looking for your return with  more of your updates as you feel so led.

Hugs,
Danielle

Quote from: Alaskan Danielle on May 23, 2018, 03:19:51 PM
@christinej78
Christine:    So, you are going to leave all of your faithful readers hanging???
No worries, of course your life, your relationships, your projects, and your work always come first.   
Most of us here have to be careful that we don't neglect our life's activities by being here excessively on the Forums instead of tending to our life....  as all of us know, the Forums and the friends that we have made here can become quite addicting if we are not careful.

I will be looking for your return with  more of your updates as you feel so led.

Hugs,
Danielle

Hi Danielle,                     26 May 2018

I be back but I have to temper the amount of time I spend here. As you said, it is addicting; I enjoy being here but I do have other responsibilities. I think I'll do my visiting here during the evening hours as there isn't much to do outside when it's dark.

See my comment in:   What made you happy today? For mtF members only, please. 4.0

Thanks for you lovely comments.

Best Always, Love,
Christine

Hi Everyone,                   27 May 2018

Had a good day yesterday; outed myself to one of my best friends and his family. It went very well; everyone was surprised but very supporting. Have one more to do up near the Oklahoma border. We are going to drive up and film this outing. Should be interesting.

Is this supposed to be as much fun as I am having doing it?

The very first was a bit spooky, then fun; now they are a blast. I think it's the shock I see from them, then their acceptance and support.

Maybe it was the gradual phasing in of women's clothing why no one noticed a big change. They just kept seeing me. After outing they mentioned they saw the different colors and styles, but didn't think anything of it; it was just me being me, always outside the box.

Not much for 4 days. will try harder next week.

Best Always,
Christine

I don't know about you but the fun level is off the meter for me. My gradual phasing of female clothing was called February. Everyone was very surprised and hugely supporting. I'm amazed how often friends will just stop and talk where as before everyone would typically just say hi and keep going. I'm happy your outings are going smoothly for you.

Quote from: Donna on May 27, 2018, 06:57:17 PM
I don't know about you but the fun level is off the meter for me. My gradual phasing of female clothing was called February. Everyone was very surprised and hugely supporting. I'm amazed how often friends will just stop and talk where as before everyone would typically just say hi and keep going. I'm happy your outings are going smoothly for you.

Good Afternoon Donna,                28 May 2018

I have been wearing women's underwear for 48 years and gradually increasing what I was wearing that was conspicuous. Sometime back I was dressed up (so I thought) to go out with my friends. I stopped to look at myself in a full length mirror. I was aghast at what I looked like: A frumpy looking bum in clean ill fitting clothes. I was disgusted by how I looked. I started looking on the net for how to convert my male size into women's sizes. Figured out I was a size 8 and bought a pair of women's jeans. I couldn't believe how well they fit and looked. I never went back to men's wear. My closets are full of women's slacks, jeans, shirts, shoes, socks, panties (fit even better after the orchie) and even one dress, which needs to see a tailor. I'm a happy camper and am happy the testosterone generators are history.

You know what I think? I think a lot of men are somewhat envious of what we have done. Every male has a feminine side though are loathe to admit it, let alone act on it. During my search for sizing, I found some interesting stats; 40% of the women's jeans that are sold are bought by men for themselves. A large percentage of men wear women's panties. I don't remember the percentage number but it is higher than I thought. Go to Jockey's web site and look through the reviews for some of their women's panties. Half the reviews for some styles are written by men. Why shouldn't they wear them, they are more comfortable than anything made for men now and in the past and are a whole lot prettier.

So far I haven't had a single negative response to my outing; it's all been positive. What I am also finding is that transgender people are really some of the nicest people you could ever want to meet..., excluding me of course.

Take care my dear; your thread should be declared a "World Treasure." Like I said in my last post to it "You Deserve the Medal of Honor." I hope it is read by everyone as it is a real eye opener. What you went through makes my early problems look like piss-ant stuff.

Anyone reading this thread, if you haven't done so already, should read Donna's main thread. Just thinking of what she went through brings tears to my eyes. Thank you Donna.

Best Always my Dear, Love to you, your wife and family,
Christine

Quote from: christinej78 on May 28, 2018, 02:45:37 PM
Good Afternoon Donna,                28 May 2018


You know what I think? I think a lot of men are somewhat envious of what we have done. Every male has a feminine side though are loathe to admit it, let alone act on it. During my search for sizing, I found some interesting stats; 40% of the women's jeans that are sold are bought by men for themselves. A large percentage of men wear women's panties. I don't remember the percentage number but it is higher than I thought. Go to Jockey's web site and look through the reviews for some of their women's panties. Half the reviews for some styles are written by men. Why shouldn't they wear them, they are more comfortable than anything made for men now and in the past and are a whole lot prettier.

Best Always my Dear, Love to you, your wife and family,
Christine

Hello again Christine

I'm a tad surprised at such high statistics (eg 40%) but I do believe you.

I hope you have a good week.

Hugs

Pamela

Quote from: pamelatransuk on May 29, 2018, 06:54:02 AM
Hello again Christine

I'm a tad surprised at such high statistics (eg 40%) but I do believe you.

I hope you have a good week.

Hugs

Pamela

Hi Pamela,                        31 May 2018

The 40% is of the number of women's jeans sold, not 40% of men. I should have made the distinction.

Today was a great day at the VA; received my fancy new hearing contraptions. They have direct Bluetooth streaming to my cell phone and the device they are sending me that allows me to hear the TV through those contraptions.

Next I went to the Women's Clinic where I met my new doctor. We discussed all the female issues I now happily have: boobies, happy juice (Estradiol), mammograms, pap smears (oops, that's for the person in the next room), bone density scans (she put in a consult for one) and hormone check. She also concurred that with the "McNasty Twins"  gone, the chance of developing prostate cancer is close to zilch.

This was rightfully a great day today.

Yesterday was also a great day, had dinner with Tia Anne yesterday evening; what a beautiful and great lady she is. Hope to see her again the next time she is in Tejas.

Best Always, Love
Christine

Hi Everyone,                       03 June 2018

Today I'm preparing for another adventure that starts tomorrow morning. I'm getting all my ducks lined up in a nice neat row. This part of my trip is quite enjoyable. Lots to do between now and my departure tomorrow morning at 0750 hrs CDT. I have a whole list of things I need to gather up for my overnight case and things I personally need to do to prepare myself physically for the rigors of this adventure. If you have ever been on one of these adventure trips you'll know exactly what I'm about to tell you.

One of the neatest things about this trip is there will be video of the trip from beginning to end. This trip requires a special diet to get me into tip top condition for the rigors I will experience. Just thinking about it gets my adrenalin flowing. I can hardly wait for tomorrow. For the first part I am going alone, then later in the day I will be met by a good friend who will pick me up and bring my back to my starting point.

This diet is a gem to behold. This past Thursday I had to stop eating high fiber foods, raw fruits, vegetables, whole grain wheat and multi-grain foods, nuts, popcorn, seeds, bran and anything that causes bulking.

Today the menu is quite complex; I can have clear liquids for Breakfast, Lunch and Supper. I'm supposed to drink all this fluid all day long. I can just see me at the pee trough every 15 minutes. My clear liquids consist of strained fruit juices without pulp (apple (ugh), lemonade, white grape (ugh)), water, Gatorade, popsicles, snow cones (where am I going to find one of those) carbonated soft drinks (yay), Jell-O, clear broth and bouillon, coffee or tea without creamer or milk and nothing red or purple. Looks like a diet to die from.

At 1800 hrs CDT I take my first dose of cleanser called Clenpiq. I have to drink the 160 ml bottle of this solution followed by five 8-oz cups of clear liquid within the following two hours. At 0330 hrs CDT Monday morning I repeat the 160 ml of Clenpiq followed by three 8-oz cups of clear liquid within the next hour. I have to have all this completed four hours before my scheduled arrival time.

I have made this trip about five times over the last two centuries. The only pleasant thing is the trip to Happy-Land compliments of "Milk-of-Amnesia" aka Propofol. This stuff is so good Michael Jackson highly recommends the stuff... What you say, Michael is no longer above ground. I better be careful. The great thing about this stuff is you go off to "Happy-Land" at the flick of a switch to ON. When you are ready to return to the World of Fake News, they flip the switch to OFF and in moments you are back.

I am doing this without sedation; no benzodiazepines, aka Benzos such as Midazolam. Versad, Valium, Xanax, Diazepam, etc. These meds are dangerous for old geezers like me.

The place I am going for my trip makes you wear a stupid and uncomfortable gown. I am going to refuse the gown and do it nude with a sheet covering me. I'm a nudist and could care less who sees me naked. Hm, maybe anyone that sees me will get sick at the sight of a wrinkly empty nut sack.

My trip is for my periodic colonoscopy and endoscopy. I'm also going to request doing this totally conscious, though i don't think they will agree to it because of the gag reflex during the endo procedure. I'll have a talk with the doctor prior to the procedure.

Since they video both procedures from beginning to the back end, I am going to request that they supply me with a complete copy of the video for both procedures. If they do, I'll post a link to it.

Tomorrow, I'll let you know how everything comes out, literally and figuratively.

Best Always, Love,
Christine

PS:

I'm hungry. If I could just have a BLT

Dear Christine:  Your thread update is really exciting stuff.... this is something that all of us will eventually go through or have already been there. 
I have heard that the prep stuff is much more uncomfortable than the "probing" procedure itself, and I have also heard that you will be spending quite a bit of time sitting on the porcelain throne during your cleansing.

In the end (no innuendo intended), we are all trusting that the results will be good news and then you can relax, enjoy the fact that you lost some weight and then treat yourself to your favorite meal or two... I am thinking that you will be quite hungry.

Please keep us updated.

Hugs and Hugs, and wishing you well.
Danielle

That trip sounded more familiar the more of your post I read.  I have taken it three times so far, and will take it again in a couple of years.

I hope your results are good.  I'll pass on watching the video.  ;)

  I have had both done once. I am told I no longer need to have at least the posterior one done. I am also able to forego the squishing of the breasts. How can this be at the ripe old age of 65? Well let me tell you, it is easily done. All you have to do is have 3 bouts with cancer and win quarterly CT scans from neck to groin to see if it has returned. They tell me these scans are able to detect abnormalities pretty good in the scanned areas regardless of location. See? Didn't I tell you it was easy? It even detects my other ailments like severe emphysema, collapsed lower lung areas, and arthritis in my shoulders. Isn't it wonderful?
  Good luck on that nasty prep and on the procedures themselves. I too will pass on the home videos.

Hugs,
  Laurie

Im 10 years apart o. The colonoscopy so five more to go. I do them with mild sedative due to the pain From previous damage.
Good luck and best wishes with your tests and i hope all are clean and clear

Hi Everyone,                           03 June 2018

This is going to be brief; I think I have consumed at least two gallons of water today. This new prep was a lot easier to get down than anything I have had in the past. It's two 160 ml bottles of something that kind of tastes like Sprite. It's even a bit fizzy.

I started the prep at 1805 hrs then spent two hours drinking clear liquids. I just drank water for the first four times then a 7-UP.

It's now 2219 and things have calmed down somewhat. I have to do a repeat at 0330 hrs Monday morning. I then have one hour to drink three 8 oz glasses of clear liquid. I have to be finished with the prep (consuming clear liquid) by 0430, which is four hours before my scheduled arrival time of 0830 for a 0930 procedure. That leaves enough time for the prep to do its dastardly deeds. At that point I cannot have anything additional to drink until after the procedure.

The last time I had this was 5 years ago. They found one polyp and my esophagus was messed up from GERD, which is under control via omeprazole (generic Prilosec). I also have a hiatal hernia and dyspepsia. This periodically requires dilation of the esophagus. Whatever the condition actually is, it causes food to get stuck on the way to the stomach causing me to choke. I have learned to never swallow food without having my lungs fairly full of air. That way if food gets stuck in my airway I can cough it out. If my lungs were empty when it gets stuck I have to have someone do the Heimich Maneuver for me if they are available. If no one is available I have to do it myself using the back if a chair. There are several ways to do it for yourself and for someone who is choking.

Here's a link that shows several methods:   https://www.wikihow.com/Perform-the-Heimlich-Maneuver

I just weighed myself; I weigh less than I did when I joined the Navy 55 years ago. I'm down to 149 lbs. Hope it isn't too windy today.

I have an insulated small shopping bag that Braum's Dairy Store gave me late last year. It's in the freezer right now. Before I leave I'll put a few of my junk food goodies in it so they will stay cold until I'm done waking up and am able to indulge myself.

So far everything feels calm so I'm going to get dressed and take the pups out for their evening stroll. Also have to put the trash out as tomorrow is trash and Recycle pickup. I'm kind of wishing I had boarded the Dogs for the night and part of tomorrow. If everything comes out alright, I should be home by noon. It'll be time to feed them and take them out for their lunch stroll.

While waiting for the prep to make its grand entrance, I had begun thinking it wasn't going to work. Then all of a sudden it was like a Typhoon erupting. I don't know if any of you have been in one, but let me tell you they are violent out in the Pacific Ocean. We'd spend days with the ship "hove to" heading into the wind and remaining as stationary as possible (little or no forward progress).

Will update you mañana en la tarde.

Hasta luego mis amigas, Muchas gracias.

Best Always, Love,
Christine

Hi Everyone,                          04 June 2018

Got home about an hour ago; fed the pups, then took them out. They did just fine without their mom this AM. They didn't get into any mischief and were waiting at the door when I walked in. Can't ask for more than that.

I received good new from the scoping; all is fine but not perfect. I do have Diverticulosis that hasn't been causing any problems. If I eat a high fiber diet that will help keep things under control.

I am very tired; haven't had much sleep these last few days. It has taken about two hours just to get this far with this post. I'm going to take a nap then come back later and finish this in another post... if I can remember.

I am glad I didn't try to drive home. I left the car there and had a friend come and retrieve me.

Luego mis amigas.

Best Always, Love,
Chrostine

Hi Everyone,                     Wednesday   06 June 2018

Monday around 2000 hrs I felt good enough to retrieve my car, which I left parked at the endoscopy facility. I wasn't in any shape to drive home when I left the facility after my procedures. I was so tired from all the prep stuff staying up almost 48 hours. I was like a zombie when I arrived there.

I did get my wish and was able to forego the stupid gown; buck ass naked covered by a warm blanket. Spoke to my doctor about skipping anesthesia for both procedures. He said he has done a couple of them. He said the colonoscopy was no big deal w/o anesthesia, but the endoscopy can be very difficult for the patient to handle due to the gag reflex. He also said the people he did w/o anesthesia said they would never do it again. One of his partners had him do his w/o it; he got violent on the table trying to punch my doctor. When it was over he said it was like someone trying to shove a Coke can down his throat.

They do the Endo before the Colo, due to the possibility of cross contamination, I decided to go ahead and accept the anesthesia for both procedures. They only used propofol which is fast acting and short duration. Takes about 2 minutes for the full affect and lasts 5 to 10 minutes after infusion has ceased. I now regret that I didn't try the non anesthesia route. We'll do this again in 5 years, maybe I'll try it then.

When I picked up my car I still felt extremely tired. I really didn't feel like doing much Tuesday either though I did get a lot of rest and decent sleep. Right now I feel fine and could probably stay up all night but I am going to shower and go to bed as soon as I am finished with this post.

On the way home yesterday, I did stop at Krispy Kreme to pick up some hot donuts for my friends and myself. Those donuts are all I had to eat yesterday and this morning. What a way to start off after those procedures. Did eat a real meal yesterday late afternoon. Think I may have a small bucket of ice cream before I take my shower; haven't had any for about a week.

Thanks for visiting this thread. Oh yeah, one piece of advice from my doctor: Eat more high fiber foods and less red meat. Think I am going to make a real effort in this regard. I did it once before and I felt like a million bucks. It's not easy but it is worth the effort.

Best Always, Love,
Christine 

Update and Misc BS                         13 June 2018

It's been one week since I posted on this infamous thread. Finally finished repairing a toilet that had been out of commission forever. Had to replace all moving parts. Nice to have a fully functioning bathroom close to my bedroom.

Visited my endocrinologist Monday to arrange for a bone density scan. My VA doctor suggested it to establish a base line for future reference. The referral should be ready today so I'll give the lab a call after they open.

The transaxle (how about that, a trans machine part) is finished and needs to be reinstalled in the trans-tractor. Do need a bit of help installing it; would hate for it to fall. Already spent $400.00+ on parts for it. Once it's bolted into place the rest will be easy.

Lots of tree work to do along with mowing. Weather has been decent, hot and dry. Do need rain; looks like there may be some at the beginning of next week.

Still haven't done anything with my bike; need to clean and lube it. It's the best method for me to keep in shape without going to a gym.

Since my endoscopy and colonoscopy, I have been eating less red meat and more high fiber foods and have further reduced the junk food. My BMI was 23.83 (18.5 - 24.9 range) at this last endo visit. I spoke to her relative to taking on additional trans folks. She has hired a new endocrinologist who will be starting in August. Once the new doctor is in place they will begin taking on additional trans patients, which is good for our community. Monday 11 June I called for an appointment and was able to get a 1220 hrs that same day.

If you found this post boring, don't feel bad, so did I.

That's about it for this week; off to the shower, slap on a couple new estradiol patches and have breakfast. Have a great week everyone.

Best Always, Love,
Christine

@christinej78
Dear Christine: 
OK now, it has been almost 2 weeks since you have updated your thread.... where have you been and why haven't you kept your readers and followers satisfied with your always interesting and thought provoking updates and pictures? ???

We are a curious bunch so it is past time for you to get on your computer and get your fingers on the keyboard and compose your long awaited posting and update here on your thread.   Your curious followers are indeed waiting impatiently to read what you have to say.

Hugs and well wishes as always...
Danielle

Quote from: Alaskan Danielle on June 26, 2018, 01:20:23 AM
@christinej78
Dear Christine: 
OK now, it has been almost 2 weeks since you have updated your thread.... where have you been and why haven't you kept your readers and followers satisfied with your always interesting and thought provoking updates and pictures? ???

We are a curious bunch so it is past time for you to get on your computer and get your fingers on the keyboard and compose your long awaited posting and update here on your thread.   Your curious followers are indeed waiting impatiently to read what you have to say.

Hugs and well wishes as always...
Danielle

Hi Danielle,                            26 June 2018

Holy moly, it's been 15 days since I posted on this thread. Let's see... what have I been doing that's boring during that time; everything:

1. Cleaning up my office, which hasn't been attended to since 2014. Reason: Don't like doing things I don't like doing.

2. Upgrading my PC's peripheral items: New illuminated Logitech keyboard. Now I can sit here in total darkness and find the keys I need while using the "Hunt and Peck" method of typing. I used to type over 200 words per minute. Problem was no one, including me, could read it. I added a 7 port USB 3.0 externally powered hub with a charging port. Added a Logitech Pro Webcam and a home grown camera stand that is quite nifty, if I say so myself.  My goal is to get Skype up and running soon. I did download Skype home version then deleted it with the intent of using Skype for Business. After consultation with Dena, I decided to take her advise and use the home version. The Business version costs money, Skype is owned by Micro Limp, who I detest with a passion so I will not be putting any more money in Bill and Malinda Gates' pockets. My next PC will NOT be running Windows; there's better stuff out there like Mac. I do not have stock in either. I do have several things in common with Bill gates; we both have been in: 1. the computer business; 2. In jail. If you don't believe me, look him up; he was arrested by the Albuquerque, NM police on 29 April 1975.

3. Had my "Bone Density" scan/test this past Friday. I asked the lady that tested me how my bones looked; she said they would probably make good soup. I should find out today from my endocrinologist whether that was a valid or fake CNN evaluation.

4. Over these past 2+ weeks we have had some windy weather. At one point it seemed like we were in a typhoon. I have been in them numerous times while working aboard ship operating in the Pacific Ocean. If you have never been in one, don't go looking for one because they are violent and dangerous. They are probably more dangerous than visiting and eating at "Mickey D's" "grommet" establishments. They really should supply free Ex Lax for desert with each order.

I did manage to do a fair amount of tree work during these past couple of weeks. Now all I have to do is clean up the branches that are scattered around the pasture. I have half a notion to call in someone with a large chipper to turn the branches into compost.

5. I have outed myself to just about everyone I know that I care about, a whopping total of 1 peoples. Unfortunately, I think that friendship turned out to be a pseudo friendship. I see it as a positive; I no longer feel obligated to send them Get Well cards. Yes, outing oneself is a very rewarding endeavor; you truly find out who your real friends are. One nice thing about my situation, having had only one friend, I didn't lose much. This brings to mind my Coyote friend I met last year. She initiated the friendship, which I felt was the highest honor I have ever received. She just liked being with me; if I called her she would come within 5 minutes if she was in hearing range. On 06 July 2017, she said goodbye and went off with the mate she selected. I miss her more than I miss most people on this planet. I knew she had to go away so she could be what she was supposed to be, a Real Coyote, a mate and Mom. Believe me, this portion of this thread is one of the truest things I have written about. This ain't no Sea Story nor BS

6. I have been letting my hair grow; nothing new to report on this item, still looks like moth eaten cotton. I'll give the magic mushrooms a year before I declare victory or just shave it all off like I had done the previous 14 years. I realize I'm not a spring chicken, I'll never be an attractive woman (there's not enough money on earth for that to happen) so most likely I'll just continue dressing as I have done for the past 6+ years and let people think what they want to think. All I care about in my transition is that I am happy with who and what I am. As long as I don't do something to harm someone other than me, I'll be fine and no one should take issue with it, though there will always be some Jack-Ass that will take issue with someone else's business.

7. My plan is to get Skype up and running within the last five days of June. The only thing that worries me is folks will be  able to see my messy office. It's my office so I can have it look like Albert Einstein's office did when he was alive.

8. I'm sure I have missed something. If I remember something please rest assured I'll forget it before I post again.



Ok Danielle, I posted for you, now answer these questions please:

a. Which model and cal. S&W did you take on your camping trip?

b. Did you practice with it before the trip or are you highly experienced with these toys?

c. If a Grizzly was charging you: would you run, stand your ground, climb a tree, play dead, start shooting.

That's it for this morning; it's 0656 hrs. CDT and I need to get to bed so I can get up this morning pretending like I had a good night's rest. I'm going to cheat and have a bowl of Ice Cream before I crash.

Best Always, Love,
Christine

Welcome you-all,                         27 June 2018

Time for an early update:

Yesterday late afternoon I received a phone call from my endocrinologist. This past Friday I had a Bone Density Scan at Baylor, Scott and White in Grapevine Texas. She called me with the results of that test.

I have been diagnosed with Osteopenia; what this means is my bones are not as strong as they should be, but are not so weak that I am prone to breakage, otherwise known as Osteoporosis.

Since what she told me is relative to osteopenia and nothing to do with trans issues, and the meds are over the counter and the info is readily available on the net, I will disclose what I am supposed to do.

My  normal consumption of fat  free milk is about 2 gallons per week. I take a multi vitamin that has Vitamin D3 listed as 1000 IU 250% DV. She suggested adding another 1000 IU so I bought an OTC bottle of D3 50 mcg (2000 IU), which I will add to my daily Vitamin regime. I also take a 1000 mg Vitamin C tablet with rose hips. I presume the rose  hips are to help feminize my hips.

I have an appointment on the 30th of next month for a hormone check and a follow-up on my Osteopenia. At this juncture my bones wouldn't make good soup.

Guess it's time to hit the gym and start pumping Aluminum (easier than Iron and is more impressive looking). I know I'll never be an attractive woman, so I have decided to become a "hguot drah dessa hctib."

This concludes my transition update. I have transitioned surgically as far as I desire. I want nothing further than the Orchie I had this past April.

If and when I beat my body into something I like, I'll be back.

FIN

Hasta Luego mis amigos,
Christine

PS:

Rather than post again, I am editing my last post to keep my promise to my self. I meant this post to be my last post on this site and it is.

I realize this site is not mine, it belongs to Susan and she makes the rules. I have no problem with that. I do have a problem with how some things are handled. Yesterday, and early this AM I decided to leave this site until the issues are resolved. I'm not the only one concerned about them.

I love the people here, and that is everyone. I will miss you folks and will work to help find a solution to these issues.

There are some of you that I feel very close to; you know who you are. I believe you have my contact info; please feel free to use it for your own use.

I hope everyone here that needs help finds it and has a successful and happy life. Everyone deserves a chance.

May God Bless each and every one of You, your Families, Pets and Friends.

Best Always, All My Love,
Christine
                                                                FIN

Thank you Christine. I have enjoyed following your story.

I like your latest comment about the Rose Hips.

I wish you every happiness and I hope you will stay on Susans as your posts are most enlightening.

Hugs

Pamela

SNIPPED:

Quote from: christinej78 on June 27, 2018, 01:37:39 AM
Welcome you-all,                         27 June 2018

Time for an early update:

- - - - - - - - - - -

Guess it's time to hit the gym and start pumping Aluminum (easier that Iron and is more impressive.) I know I'll never be an attractive woman, so I have decided to become a "hguot drah dessa hctib."

This concludes my transition update. I have transitioned surgically as far as I desire. I want nothing further than the Orchie I had this past April.

If and when I beat my body into something I like, I'll be back.

FIN

Hasta Luego mis amigos,
Christine

Dear Chistine:   Sorry to hear about your latest medical news but the report from your doctor and your frame of mind about how you are dealing with this latest health issue give me the impression that this is not a life ending condition... so that is good news as far as I am concerned.

Now, what I am concerned about is how you worded and phrased your last few sentences....
First, the good news:    I love your attitude about your transition and how you have accepted your progress as good as it will get without further surgical intervention.   I wish I could hear that kind of self realization and self acceptance from more transitioners on here.   Obviously if expectations are unrealistically too high, one is setting themselves up for major disappointment... as I have seen that happen.   In life we have to play the cards that we are dealt and we don't always get an Aces high full house or a Royal Flush.

Second, the disappointing news:   When you stated "I'll be back" and signed off with "Hasta Luego mis amigos" (see you later my friends)   .... I did not like how all of that sounds.   I, for one, am expecting to see and read further updates and comments from you on your thread and other various threads around the forums as you have be doing here on Susan's....
 
Dear Miss Christine:  Don't you dare leave us hanging here... without your constant presence to remind us all of how life is for a late bloomer.... we all want to know this important information that you dole out on your postings.   You have been here on the Forums for over 3 months, my dear friend on here, our own beautiful @Jessica warmly welcomed you when you became a member on March 16th, you are a Gold Subscriber,  and have posted 374 times since then.... 
...so Miss Christine, we are not anywhere being done listening to your story....  your followers and readers are a curious sort, and we want to know what you know and what you have to continue offering us.   So get back on your Texas horse or longhorn and continue on here on the Forums.

I am done (for now) with my tirade aimed at you so far... there may be more to come... so prepare yourself.
Hugs and hugs,
Danielle

Quote from: christinej78 on June 27, 2018, 01:37:39 AM
Welcome you-all,                         27 June 2018

Time for an early update:

Yesterday late afternoon I received a phone call from my endocrinologist. This past Friday I had a Bone Density Scan at Baylor, Scott and White in Grapevine Texas. She called me with the results of that test.

I have been diagnosed with Osteopenia; what this means is my bones are not as strong as they should be, but are not so weak that I am prone to breakage, otherwise known as Osteoporosis.

Since what she told me is relative to osteopenia and nothing to do with trans issues, and the meds are over the counter and the info is readily available on the net, I will disclose what I am supposed to do.

My  normal consumption of fat  free milk is about 2 gallons per week. I take a multi vitamin that has Vitamin D3 listed as 1000 IU 250% DV. She suggested adding another 1000 IU so I bought an OTC bottle of D3 50 mcg (2000 IU), which I will add to my daily Vitamin regime. I also take a 1000 mg Vitamin C tablet with rose hips. I presume the rose  hips are to help feminize my hips.

I have an appointment on the 30th of next month for a hormone check and a follow-up on my Osteopenia. At this juncture my bones wouldn't make good soup.

Guess it's time to hit the gym and start pumping Aluminum (easier than Iron and is more impressive looking). I know I'll never be an attractive woman, so I have decided to become a "hguot drah dessa hctib."

This concludes my transition update. I have transitioned surgically as far as I desire. I want nothing further than the Orchie I had this past April.

If and when I beat my body into something I like, I'll be back.

FIN

Hasta Luego mis amigos,
Christine

PS:

Rather than post again, I am editing my last post to keep my promise to my self. I meant this post to be my last post on this site and it is.

I realize this site is not mine, it belongs to Susan and she makes the rules. I have no problem with that. I do have a problem with how some things are handled. Yesterday, and early this AM I decided to leave this site until the issues are resolved. I'm not the only one concerned about them.

I love the people here, and that is everyone. I will miss you folks and will work to help find a solution to these issues.

There are some of you that I feel very close to; you know who you are. I believe you have my contact info; please feel free to use it for your own use.

I hope everyone here that needs help finds it and has a successful and happy life. Everyone deserves a chance.

May God Bless each and every one of You, your Families, Pets and Friends.

Best Always, All My Love,
Christine
                                                                FIN

Oh Christine o am going to miss you girl. Wish you could stay and work things out but you have to do what you have to do. Remember you have friends here and we all support you. I've enjoyed our chats and always look forward to hearing from you either here or PM. Please stay in touch girl. 💕💗Love Donna💗💗

Hi Everyone,                   Friday 13 July 2018

It has been exactly 3 months since my Orchiectomy Friday 13 April 2018. By the way, this is the last Friday the 13th for this year (Thanks Dena for that info).

The information I have for you-all is, in my opinion, more important than my promise to not post here:

As I mentioned l have been diagnosed with Osteopenia. This can be caused by several things, for example: low Testosterone, low Estrogen, lack of weight bearing exercise, little to no exercise and LONG TERM USE of Prilosec/Omeprazole.

My "T" after the orchie was 10 and my estradiol was 58, which my endocrinologist is happy with. This is not the cause of my osteopenia, it is too short of a time period to have had any detrimental affects and I am on Estradiol, which takes over for the missing "T."

I recently saw my Gastroenterologist's PA and asked to get off the Prilosec/Omeprazole and on to something else. Unfortunately, I have a condition that needs proton pump inhibitors so this was not possible. She recommended additional Vitamin D3 and the addition of a calcium citrate supplement, which is a natural form of calcium as opposed to most other forms which are made from calcium carbonate, "ground up rock" (an easy explanation), which can be found in much of the fat free milk sold in stores. If you are lucky enough to live within a 350 mile radius of Tuttle, Oklahoma, you can probably find a Braum's Dairy store; their fat free milk uses the calcium from milk, as they use two gallons of whole milk to make one gallon of Fat Free milk. I am fortunate, I have Braum's Dairy stores close by and buy their milk exclusively. Actually, I need to go there this morning as I am down to about a small glass full.

Please do yourself and everyone that loves you a favor and have a Bone Density Scan, especially if you have been on Proton Pump Inhibitors long term.

I do watch this site as a visitor so I can keep abreast of you all. To keep you abreast of my breasts, they are a growin, and becoming quite noticeable  :) :) :), and I love it. One of the fun things is watching men look at me (I wear a lot of pink, which is one of my favorite colors) and seeing them stare at my chest. That's positive affirmation.

All is well here, been doing some heavy tree work :) and enjoying it. The weather has been fairly warm, high 90s and low 100s :) :).

Dear Chelsea, I hope everything is improving for you and hope you know I do care a lot for you. Please take care of yourself, you're very important to everyone here at Susan's.

Best Always, Love,
Christine

@christinej78
Dear Christine:
.....  WELCOME BACK TO YOUR THREAD and back to the Susan's Forums.

***I, for one, missed seeing your presence here.

Thank you for posting your last update today... and for your "good news" report....
...and for keeping your followers and readers informed about your life events.

Hugs, and well wishes to you,
Danielle

Hello Christine

It was a wonderful surprise to see you have returned to posting. I hope you continue to post but I understand we all need a break at times.

I thank you for your advice and which I thoroughly support as I have had bone problems since 2007 and have regular bone density scans and have previously had infusions. All is well at present and my next BDS should be April 2019 (previous was January 2017) and of course when I attend for the BDS, they will see my medical records and note like you that I am on HRT.

I doubt I will be public by April 2019 - wish I could be though!

Love to you

Pamela  xx

Quote from: pamelatransuk on July 14, 2018, 06:56:38 AM
Hello Christine

It was a wonderful surprise to see you have returned to posting. I hope you continue to post but I understand we all need a break at times.

I thank you for your advice and which I thoroughly support as I have had bone problems since 2007 and have regular bone density scans and have previously had infusions. All is well at present and my next BDS should be April 2019 (previous was January 2017) and of course when I attend for the BDS, they will see my medical records and note like you that I am on HRT.

I doubt I will be public by April 2019 - wish I could be though!

Love to you

Pamela  xx

Hi Pamela,                   15 July 2018

Thank you very much; happy to be back. Like I said, I watched as a visitor.

Bone problems are nothing to ignore as you are obviously aware. My osteopenia is kind of strange; it's in my right hip and spine, the left hip is fine. Go figure. I've been on Prilosec/Omeprazole for over 20 years. I wish I could get off of it but I have a hiatal hernia. During my first endoscopy, they found my esophagus to be so irritated it looked like the red butts of the zoo monkeys that have the distinction of owning them. I have the pictures here somewhere but doubt that they would pass muster if I posted them. That irritation caused a lot of scar tissue to build up in that area, which necessitates dilation periodically. This whole thing caused a problem called dysphasia (trouble swallowing), which then leads to choking. I have to be extra careful when eating, small bites, water handy and never swallow after having exhaled. I need that air to cough the stuck food out. Nice subject... ugh.

I hope you have your issues totally under control. Best to get after these thing early on before they become more serious.

Why not go public now? This day and age hardly anyone cares and the only stares I get are from men, which I do enjoy. I love the confused look on their faces.

Gotta run, late for a Skype visit.

Best Always, Love,
Christine

Hi Folks,                             26 July 2018

Things are moving along; Have met a very nice and beautiful young lady I like a lot. I'm a lot older than she is so I'm hoping the age difference isn't an obstacle. The fact that I fell asleep and fell out of my chair the last time we had dinner probably didn't help my case and the fact that she had to tie a rope around the chair and me just so we could finish eating didn't win me any points either.

Here's the part I left out in my original post on someone else's thread: When it was time to go home, she had to load me into a wheelbarrow and push me out to the cab. I just hope I can recover my dignity enough that she will have dinner with me tomorrow. I will load up on No-Doze and several energy drinks so I don't have a repeat performance. I have to get this old age thing under control. My mind thinks I'm 25 and the mirror tells me I'm 125.

Have another dinner date this evening. Now if I can only remember where this other lady lives.

Gotta go now; I shall return.

Best Always. Love,
Christine

Quote from: christinej78 on July 26, 2018, 03:03:18 PM
Hi Folks,                             26 July 2018

Things are moving along; Have met a very nice and beautiful young lady I like a lot. I'm a lot older than she is so I'm hoping the age difference isn't an obstacle. The fact that I fell asleep and fell out of my chair the last time we had dinner probably didn't help my case and the fact that she had to tie a rope around the chair and me just so we could finish eating didn't win me any points either.

Here's the part I left out in my original post on someone else's thread: When it was time to go home, she had to load me into a wheelbarrow and push me out to the cab. I just hope I can recover my dignity enough that she will have dinner with me tomorrow. I will load up on No-Doze and several energy drinks so I don't have a repeat performance. I have to get this old age thing under control. My mind thinks I'm 25 and the mirror tells me I'm 125.

Have another dinner date this evening. Now if I can only remember where this other lady lives.

Gotta go now; I shall return.

Best Always. Love,
Christine

@christinej78
Dear Christine:
Your readers and I will be anxiously awaiting your next installment of "Dinnertime with younger women" ...
Perhaps during the dinner you need to keep sipping lots of hot black coffee, you know, the kind you used to drink when you were in the Navy... that will keep you awake for sure.

Hmm, having troubles keeping all of your lady friends sorted out? 
Perhaps you should have an "old school" black book to keep names, numbers and date appointments... mixups are not a good thing when it comes to the ladies.   
Hint, if you just address them by "Dear" or "Honey" then there will not be the danger of mixing up names and calling her by the wrong name... that usually ends the date very quickly.

Good luck in advance... I hope that things go well for you tonight.
Danielle

Quote from: Alaskan Danielle on July 26, 2018, 03:14:02 PM
@christinej78
Dear Christine:
Your readers and I will be anxiously awaiting your next installment of "Dinnertime with younger women" ...
Perhaps during the dinner you need to keep sipping lots of hot black coffee, you know, the kind you used to drink when you were in the Navy... that will keep you awake for sure.

Hmm, having troubles keeping all of your lady friends sorted out? 
Perhaps you should have an "old school" black book to keep names, numbers and date appointments... mixups are not a good thing when it comes to the ladies.   
Hint, if you just address them by "Dear" or "Honey" then there will not be the danger of mixing up names and calling her by the wrong name... that usually ends the date very quickly.

Good luck in advance... I hope that things go well for you tonight.
Danielle

Hi Danielle,                          27 July 2018

I got back from my dinner date; had a wonderful time, didn't fall out of the chair, found her home after a few trips around the block. Took those few before I recognized her standing out front. I just thought it was a hitchhiker thumbing a ride.

My eyesight ain't what it used to be; I'm almost to the point where I need a "driving eye dog." I do have a new prescription for glasses so I'll take it to the VA in the morning and drop it off at the eyeball store; have to go there to have my hearing appliances repaired. The right aid eats power cells like they were gummy bears, causing the batteries to leak and ooze battery gunk in my ear. Sure doing a number on my right ear. It's causing the hair in my ear to grow  10 times faster than normal.

This is a really nice lady; I've had dinner with her twice now. Now please keep all this under your hats, neither one of them know about each other and they don't know about this site, thank goodness.

All went well, I behaved myself as best that I could; don't think I committed too many faux pas. All in all it was a successful evening, well almost. I accidently ran over her foot as I was leaving. She didn't yell too much so I guess it wasn't hurt too bad. I did call her when I got home; she was in the emergency room having a cast put on her right leg.

Gotta go now, will update latter today.

Best Always, Love,
Christine

@christinej78
Dear Christine:   I am glad that your dinner date went well, considering that you almost ran over her with your car. 

Regarding your other comments, I am having a difficult time knowing if you are telling a true story or if you are kidding... I know that you like to kid around... which is good... laughter is good medicine.

Thanks for keeping us updated....
   Oh, by the way, the rule here on the forums is  ... "Pictures or it didn't happen"  ... so we need to see pictures, or is your date camera shy???   Since she is in the emergency room and has a cast on her broken leg, she won't be able to run away from you so easily now.

Hugs,
Danielle

Quote from: Alaskan Danielle on July 27, 2018, 12:52:44 AM
@christinej78
Dear Christine:   I am glad that your dinner date went well, considering that you almost ran over her with your car. 

Regarding your other comments, I am having a difficult time knowing if you are telling a true story or if you are kidding... I know that you like to kid around... which is good... laughter is good medicine.

Thanks for keeping us updated....
   Oh, by the way, the rule here on the forums is  ... "Pictures or it didn't happen"  ... so we need to see pictures, or is your date camera shy???   Since she is in the emergency room and has a cast on her broken leg, she won't be able to run away from you so easily now.

Hugs,
Danielle

Hi Danielle,                              27 July 2018

Being a fairly compassionate soul, I drove on down to the emergency room to see my lady friend. They had just finished her whole body cast. As bad as this appeared to be, I couldn't figure out why she didn't scream louder. I'd have at least stopped and hauled her down to the local "Doc-In-The-Box" that's open 24x7.

Needless to say, my stock seems to have dropped big time; when I came up close to shake her hand and ask her if I could sign her brand new cast, she threw the bed pan at me... and it weren't empty. I kind of think she may have been upset over something. She kind of acted as though she had been subjected to severe trauma of some sort.

I tried my durnedest to calm her down, which  didn't work so I got  her onto a gurney and wheeled her out to the parking lot. Problem was, by the time I found my car I forgot she was in the parking lot and drove home without her.

I have a feeling I won't be seeing much of her anymore; she didn't even thank me for getting her to the parking lot. Just can't please some folks these days.

About the camera and photos, I bought a camera about 2 years ago and I still haven't figured out how to make it work. I went out to YoobTube and the guy demonstrating how to use it only spoke Chinese and the subtitles were in Korean. Didn't do me a nickels worth of good. When I finally figure out where to turn it on I'll let you know.

Best Always, Love,
Christine

OK, do you want the Whole truth and nothing but the truth" Here's the whole truth of what I have written over the past few posts:

Hi Folks,                             26 July 2018

Things are moving along; Have met a very nice and beautiful young lady I like a lot. I'm a lot older than she is so I'm hoping the age difference isn't an obstacle.

Gotta go now; I shall return.

Best Always. Love,
Christine
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Hi Danielle,                          27 July 2018

I got back from my dinner date; had a wonderful time, didn't fall out of the chair,


This is a really nice lady; I've had dinner with her twice now.

All went well, I behaved myself as best that I could; don't think I committed too many faux pas. All in all it was a successful evening


Gotta go now, will update latter today.

Best Always, Love,
Christine
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Hi Danielle,                              27 July 2018


Best Always, Love,
Christine
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                                   27 July 2018
The above are the truthful elements of my last three posts. The text that follows is the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth:


I had dinner with Tia Anne Thursday evening; she was in town so we got together for dinner and a wonderful conversation.  The first time we had dinner was almost two months ago.

She's an absolutely beautiful and wonderful lady. I like her a lot and enjoy her company. Hopefully I'll get to meet her wife one of these days. I'll let her tell you the rest of the story.

The first lady exists; I like her a lot, more so than I have wanted to like anyone for a long time. She is absolutely beautiful and a fantastic lady. We see each other occasionally but not as often as I'd like; logistics are a problem. Time will tell where things will go. I have to keep in mind that I have been single for 35 years and I will have completed 78 orbits around the sun on "Space Ship Earth" in a few days. That's when I qualify for my astronauts patch.

Why am I telling you this here on Susan's website? Most of you know I goof around and kid quite a bit' probably enough to get my butt kicked off the site.

I have told my lady friend how I feel; by making it public I hope she will know I am serious and not in kidding mode. One of the problems that come with kidding around too much is no one takes you seriously. Where  will things go? Only time will tell. Had I done nothing, nothing is the only thing that could have happened. I have always believed that if you want something, ask for it; you have a 50/50 chance of getting a yes. If you don't ask, your chances are near zero. I like the odds for asking.

The last part brings to mind a question asked of Babe Ruth and his answer. Someone asked Babe how he managed to hit so many home runs. His answer was, and I have to paraphrase here: "Most people don't know that I hold the record for being struck out. You can't hit the ball unless you swing the bat."

Good night, I have an appointment at the Fort Worth VA outpatient Clinic at 1100 hrs. today.

Best Always, Love,
Christine

Hello Christine

Thank you for all your stories especially those of yesterday and today. I really appreciate your humour.

I am truly happy that you have found a young lady you are very fond of and that you have let her know how you feel.

I wish you success both in romance and on your journey in general.

Hugs

Pamela

77 or 78 is not too old and anyway as you stated, your mind tells you that you are 25.

Hi Folks,                     29 July 2018

While typing what was to be this post, it was blown away by my wonderful fat fingers hitting the wrong key; which one? I haven't a clue. This has happened so many time you would think this brain dead author would write her posts on another medium rather than IE, which is no longer supported by Microsoft.

Time for a new PC.

Did see my beautiful lady friend today; she is fine. I think I have previously mentioned that I have been single 35 years; I miss spoke, it should have read "been on my own 35 years." I was separated two years before the divorce so technically, I have been single 33 years.

During all those years I have worked hard to construct and maintain a wall around myself to protect me from becoming romantically involved with another woman. I have dated several nice ladies but never allowed them to cross over to my side. The wall I built was impenetrable, no one ever breached it...... Until Now.

Best Always, Love,
Christine

Quote from: christinej78 on July 29, 2018, 05:51:03 AM
Hi Folks,                     29 July 2018

While typing what was to be this post, it was blown away by my wonderful fat fingers hitting the wrong key; which one? I haven't a clue. This has happened so many time you would think this brain dead author would write her posts on another medium rather than IE, which is no longer supported by Microsoft.

Time for a new PC.

Did see my beautiful lady friend today; she is fine. I think I have previously mentioned that I have been single 35 years; I miss spoke, it should have read "been on my own 35 years." I was separated two years before the divorce so technically, I have been single 33 years.

During all those years I have worked hard to construct and maintain a wall around myself to protect me from becoming romantically involved with another woman. I have dated several nice ladies but never allowed them to cross over to my side. The wall I built was impenetrable, no one ever breached it...... Until Now.

Best Always, Love,
Christine

@christinej78
Dear Christine:   Wow-whee, what wonderful NEWS that you are reporting!!!   You need to tell us more about this very lucky young lady that you are infatuated with.

Where did you meet?   Please describe her in more detail.  What does she do for a living?  What do both of you like to do when being with each other on a date?  Where do you both like to go when on a date?  What things do you talk about when just relaxing and conversing?

Just to make certain that you know the rules here on the forums...
    "Pictures or it didn't happen"    Of course, like I do in many cases you can mask the person's face to conceal her appearance and give her some privacy... 

Again, Christine, I am very happy for you as I am certain that all of your readers and followers are as well.
Please keep us updated about this exciting NEWS.

Hugs and well wishes as always,
Danielle

Quote from: Alaskan Danielle on July 29, 2018, 08:26:25 AM
@christinej78
Dear Christine:   Wow-whee, what wonderful NEWS that you are reporting!!!   You need to tell us more about this very lucky young lady that you are infatuated with.

Where did you meet?   Please describe her in more detail.  What does she do for a living?  What do both of you like to do when being with each other on a date?  Where do you both like to go when on a date?  What things do you talk about when just relaxing and conversing?

Just to make certain that you know the rules here on the forums...
    "Pictures or it didn't happen"    Of course, like I do in many cases you can mask the person's face to conceal her appearance and give her some privacy... 

Again, Christine, I am very happy for you as I am certain that all of your readers and followers are as well.
Please keep us updated about this exciting NEWS.

Hugs and well wishes as always,
Danielle

Hi Danielle,                               29 July 2018

I appreciate your comments and your desire to know more. More than anything else, I have to do whatever I can to protect her; she is aware of Susan's Place and the fact that I post here and write about our relationship in very guarded terms. I do not want our relationship to become fuel for a tabloid three ring circus. She means more to me than anyone else has ever meant to me in my entire life. I'm not about to jeopardize our relationship as it is and as I hope it will grow to be. I am sure you and everyone on Susan's Place understands and respects my decision.

If at some point in time she decides to post about our relationship on this site, she can decide what she wants to make public. She is an extremely intelligent and rational woman, and I respect and applaud whatever decision she makes.

I did mention that I will no longer be writing goofy posts/stories trying to be funny. That part of me here at Susan's is dead; the "Funny Man's" is history. My plan is to post what I hope will be informative, helpful, factual and uplifting. If something funny and or embarrassing happens to me, is true and does not cause harm to anyone other than me, then I will post it.

I have another post to make, which is the one I attempted to make earlier when my fat fingers interrupted the process and purged the system of my entire text. I shall return after I post this and take care of my kids, Abbie, Friday, and Ella; they appreciate having their meals and walks on time, every time.

Hasta luego mis amigas.

Best Always, Love,
Christine

Quote from: christinej78 on July 29, 2018, 03:13:41 PM
I did mention that I will no longer be writing goofy posts/stories trying to be funny. That part of me here at Susan's is dead; the "Funny Man's" is history. My plan is to post what I hope will be informative, helpful, factual and uplifting. If something funny and or embarrassing happens to me, is true and does not cause harm to anyone other than me, then I will post it.

Christine, mi amiga,
It's OK if the Funny Man rides off into the sunset - but only if he's replaced by the Good Humor Lady.

Lord knows you never want or intend to hurt others but the way you relate to us with your (ahem) different and (possibly) offbeat view of your life's events gives a whole passel of us varmints reasons to smile.

Protect and shield your new friend; we'll meet her when she's ready to meet us.

Susan

Quote from: Susan Baum on July 29, 2018, 06:16:37 PM
Christine, mi amiga,
It's OK if the Funny Man rides off into the sunset - but only if he's replaced by the Good Humor Lady.

Lord knows you never want or intend to hurt others but the way you relate to us with your (ahem) different and (possibly) offbeat view of your life's events gives a whole passel of us varmints reasons to smile.

Protect and shield your new friend; we'll meet her when she's ready to meet us.

Susan

Thank You Susan,                     29 July 2018

I appreciate your understanding of where I am coming from. She means so much to me; even I cannot find all the words to describe how I feel about her and how happy she makes me. I wish I could be with her 24 X 7, but life's circumstances prevail. I am working on my plans to rectify this so I will have the flexibility to do what needs to be done. Her happiness and safety are of paramount importance to me.

She managed to penetrate my wall undetected by me until she was in. My thinking is when I was constructing it, the Man upstairs fixed my plans so she had a way in that only she could detect and use. I am grateful for his intervention in my life now, in the past and in the future.

Ah, the "Good Humor Lady," I like that and will have her come out once in a while when appropriate. I thank you for her.

Best Always, Love,
Christine

Hi Folks,                            30 July 2018

Trans Update
Yesterday was VA Clinic day; some good and some eh. Arrived at the audiology department about 2 minutes late, not a big deal. Reported in for my appointment; the receptionist looked me up in the computer and said: "You don't have an appointment, your last appointment was 30 May 18." I know I made the appointment, it was in my computer. She offered me the opportunity to wait as a "Walk-In" which I took. About an hour and a half later, I got in to see a technician. He said all the corrosion in the right aid was caused by perspiration. He asked me if I sweat heavily around the right ear. I told him no more so than the left ear. Rather than argue with him, he was bigger than me, I asked him to make me an appointment with my hearing doctor. I now have an appointment at 1130 hrs. 07 September 18 to see the doctor and order the new appliances. As of now, I'm stuck using my original hearing aids, which are at least 7 or 8 years old. They work better than no aids but not much.

Next it was downstairs to kill time before my appointment at the Women's Clinic. Stopped at the snack bar, bought a large Coke and sat down. I got to thinking of the eye exam I had a couple of weeks prior and decided to have a talk with the lady checking folks in. I told her the eye exam I had there at the VA was suspect and that I went to my civilian eye doctor and had another exam, which was more comprehensive than the 5 minute quickie exam by the "In-and-Out-Burger" guy , who was moonlighting as an eye doctor at the VA. I asked if I could have them fill my prescription from my real eye doctor rather than the burger guy. NO Such Luck, they only fill prescriptions they produce. I said Thanks but No Thanks, I'll just buy my glasses at WallyWorld.

Went back to the snack bar and sipped some of my Coke until it was time to head to the Women's Clinic. As luck would have it, I got a really nice young lady that helped me get myself "Officially" transferred to the Women's  clinic. I now have an appointment 24 August with my new VA doctor. That made my day.

Next post: Today's Update.

Best Always, Love,
Christine

@christinej78
Dear Christine.... the Good Humor Lady  ;)    I like that new moniker of yours... humor and happy attitudes are not only encouraging and helpful to others but also can make you feel better about life and about yourself.

Your update is really good news for you in a lot of ways.
Congratulations on getting your appointment next month with your new VA doctor.... you have that really nice young lady to thank for that.

Again, thank you for updating your readers and followers.
Hugs and well wishes...
Danielle

Dear Christine

I just read through your whole thread and found it incredibly inspirational with your positive attitude.
I know that I'm late contributing to your thread,  but as Danielle said there are some of us waiting to hear about your current events and I'm so happy to hear about your budding relationship and dare I say it could lead to the L word, which I most sincerely hope you find because I believe it is Life's greatest gift to experience and share together.
Thank you so much for your help in the past and I'm looking forward to sharing our futures together because much of what we have done in our lives is very similar.

And I see that you like to play in trees do you ?
  I'm going to have to p.m. you some stories I think you'll find amusing about some of my playing with trees.

All my very best to you
Love Tatiana

Quote from: Alaskan Danielle on July 30, 2018, 06:11:26 PM
@christinej78
Dear Christine.... the Good Humor Lady  ;)    I like that new moniker of yours... humor and happy attitudes are not only encouraging and helpful to others but also can make you feel better about life and about yourself.

Your update is really good news for you in a lot of ways.
Congratulations on getting your appointment next month with your new VA doctor.... you have that really nice young lady to thank for that.

Again, thank you for updating your readers and followers.
Hugs and well wishes...
Danielle

Hi Danielle,                      31 July 2018

Thank you for the nice comments; Susan Baum deserves the credit for the "Good Humor Lady." , which was her idea. Honestly, I'd never have thought of it. As soon as I saw her suggestion I jumped on it.

Continued 01 August 2018 Had to suspend writing; important issues to address.

My favorite person in the world, deserves all of the credit for helping me see that my sometimes stupid and caustic remarks are not helpful to anyone. She is a blessing in my life; she makes my life have purpose and worth living to it's fullest.

I'm far behind in my updates / posting. Shopped for a new PC, bought my first Dell. Now all I have to is install it and download all the files from my old HP unit. The HP has been a problem child since the day it was brought home from the maternity ward. As soon as it arrived it began  exhibiting anti social behavior Hopefully this task will be completed by this afternoon and the Dell will make Michael proud.

Visited my Endocrinologist Monday afternoon. We discussed my progress with HRT. She had the nurse draw blood for a hormone check. She said there was no need to test for testosterone as the supply line has been severed and there is no chance they have returned from the medical waste dump. I should get a report today or tomorrow. If my Estradiol hasn't gone up she plans to increase the dosage. What ever she does, I hope it ups the size of the headlights.

Stopped by the local WallyWorld emporium and selected new frames for my next set of peepers. When i'm searching for new frames I never look at the price tag until I have selected the style I want. Only then will I look. The pair I selected are very pretty, are a translucent reddish pink, almost a Candy Apple red. They looked stunning on this old biddy and her pink outfit. Looked at the price tag and almost passed out from sticker shock. They cost a whopping $9.00. I thought I was seeing things or there was a mix up with the price tag. Nope, they were about the pretties and cheapest frames I have ever purchased. They should be ready the 8th of August.

Unfortunately, when I picked out the frames I didn't have my prescription so I had to wait until Tuesday the 31st to pick up  a copy of my prescription and take it to the nice lady at WallyWorld's eye-ball store.

I know I'm forgetting something; just don't remember what I forgot. I know that doesn't make a lot of sense until you consider the source.

Think I had better close this post out and post it so I can edit it in the afternoon while I'm trying to figure out what it was that I said.

Best Always, Love,
Christine

EDIT NOTE:It did need some editing; I did fall asleep several times before I posted it.

Quote from: christinej78 on August 01, 2018, 04:47:16 AM
I know I'm forgetting something; just don't remember what I forgot. I know that doesn't make a lot of sense until you consider the source.

Think I had better close this post out and post it so I can edit it in the afternoon while I'm trying to figure out what it was that I said.

Hi, Christine,
Between recalcitrant computers, medical waste and CRS (Can't Remember Squat) disease, I think the Good Humor Lady is making her debut. (Interesting word, debut. Can't type it without thinking about my own too-large caboose.  :P)

Thank you for the credit, but I really never quite thought of you as a man; you've always been a lady in my eyes. Opinionated, maybe, but always a lady.

Susan

Quote from: Susan Baum on August 01, 2018, 01:51:02 PM
Hi, Christine,
Between recalcitrant computers, medical waste and CRS (Can't Remember Squat) disease, I think the Good Humor Lady is making her debut. (Interesting word, debut. Can't type it without thinking about my own too-large caboose.  :P)

Thank you for the credit, but I really never quite thought of you as a man; you've always been a lady in my eyes. Opinionated, maybe, but always a lady.

Susan

Hi Susan,                               02 Aug 2018

Opinionated? Me? Heaven forbid. I've never had an opinion I didn't think everyone should agree with. Uh Oh, there I go again; stop right here.

As for the "Funny Man's," I got that from the Movie "Stalag 17" It was from a line spoken by Otto Preminger when he was speaking to /questioning a prisoner.

Yes, I have been known to have an opinion or three; sometimes even more.

Thanks again.

Best Always, Love,
Christine "Good Humor Lady"

UPDATE: News                        02 Aug 2018

Yesterday, I received my hormone lab report; my Estradiol is low and the dreaded Testosterone is UP(?). Holy cow, a second Orchie? That only occurs when they either leave behind part of a testicle or the orchi was a unilateral orchie (one testicle) and the second is being removed.

My endocrinologist sent a note that she will be issuing another prescription that will increase in my estradiol level. Hopefully, that will cause an increase in headlight wattage, something like "High Beams" pointing skywards.

Since she has told me how to increase my dosage, I can do it quite easily and as soon as the script arrives, run it down to the VA and have them fill it.

The Dell PC is up and running. Problem is... I'm not. Everything in Win 10 appears totally different from 8.1, which wasn't and isn't worth a hoot. Trouble is, I'm an Old Dog and don't take kindly to learning new tricks. I Like my kibbles and bits placed in the same spot every time. Hunting is for young pups.

Aside from the above, all is well; I'm finally getting around to cleaning my desk and doing a general cleaning of the office. While working on the area where the new PC was to go, I found over $100.00 worth of gift cards. I should be able to have three meals one day... if I don't misplace them again.

The weather seems to have moderated a bit. The last three days have been nice, mid 90s. low humidity, and nice breezes, It must have been my charming attitude and personality that caused the change.

Again, I think there is something I have forgotten, just can't remember what. Maybe I'll do better if and when I get a bit more sleep.

Time to crash.

Best Always, Love,
Christine

@christinej78
Dear Christine:
Like you said, a basically good news report... except of course for the medical news about your T Levels... and OMG, a 2nd Orchi???

You will like Windows 10 much better that the Windows 8 nightmare.

I got a kick out of how you worded the breast changes....
    "Higher Headlight Wattage"
    "High beams pointing Skyward"

As always, I am enjoying reading your updates.
Please continue to keep them coming often.

Wishing you well with all that is going on in your life.
Hugs,
Danielle

Quote from: Alaskan Danielle on August 02, 2018, 10:34:43 AM
@christinej78
Dear Christine:
Like you said, a basically good news report... except of course for the medical news about your T Levels... and OMG, a 2nd Orchi???

You will like Windows 10 much better that the Windows 8 nightmare.

I got a kick out of how you worded the breast changes....
    "Higher Headlight Wattage"
    "High beams pointing Skyward"

As always, I am enjoying reading your updates.
Please continue to keep them coming often.

Wishing you well with all that is going on in your life.
Hugs,
Danielle

Hi Danielle,                       02 August 2018

Thanks young lady; the hormone imbalance was explained to me by an expert, my special friend. She said that since I had the blood drawn right at the end of the patches application time (84 hours) the dosage I was receiving was tapering down. The boost in dosage should resolve the issue. Fridays and Tuesdays are my patch change day. With all the patches I am aware of they are 3 day, four day. I chose to do 84 hours per patch, Tuesday morning, Friday evening.

Something I just thought of is that we had been having hot weather, I was perspiring a lot and that didn't help the patch remain firmly attached to my skin.

I'm not completely sold on Win 10. I didn't realize it was a huge change from 8. I should have listened to my lady friend's advice and gone with the Apple. Since the Dell was relatively inexpensive compared to the Mac, and I thought it would be an easy transition, I bought the Dell. Won't happen again. I will probably switch to Mac not too far down the road. When I do, I know someone I am going to heavily rely on to help me with that conversion.

Thanks again, take care up yonder and try to stay warm.

Best Always, Love,
Christine 

Quote from: christinej78 on August 02, 2018, 03:33:22 PM
Hi Danielle,                       02 August 2018

With all the patches I am aware of they are 3 day, four day. I chose to do 84 hours per patch, Tuesday morning, Friday evening.

Something I just thought of is that we had been having hot weather, I was perspiring a lot and that didn't help the patch remain firmly attached to my skin.

Best Always, Love,
Christine 

Like minds think alike! I also follow the 84 hour rule instead of the 3/4 day rule for patches and secondly last week was also very hot (as is today) in UK with temperatures of 30C or 86F and indeed likewise patches risky somewhat due to perspiration and hence I add some tape.

Hugs

Pamela

Quote from: pamelatransuk on August 03, 2018, 03:51:23 AM
Like minds think alike! I also follow the 84 hour rule instead of the 3/4 day rule for patches and secondly last week was also very hot (as is today) in UK with temperatures of 30C or 86F and indeed likewise patches risky somewhat due to perspiration and hence I add some tape.

Hugs

Pamela

Hi Pamela,                        03 Aug 2018

I thank you for your confirmation that I'm not totally whacked out; whacked out... Yes; totally... No.

I didn't add tape  this time, mainly because I didn't think of it. I have used it before when I noticed the patch didn't feel secure.

My prescription / script is increasing my Estradiol so I'll start the new dose tonight. Hope it kicks the boob voltage up, turns the High Beams on and lights up the sky..

Hope all is well on your side of the pond. It's been nice here, hot but not too hot and lower humidity.

Making a quick trip to Brazil this afternoon; will return in time to see a very special lady.

Thanks again; Best Always, Love,
Christine

The method of choice here is to put a theraderm covering over the patch to help secure it. They are about50 cent each and are surgical grade wound and bandage coverings. They keep your cloths from moving the patch as well as hold better when sweaty

Quote from: Donna on August 05, 2018, 11:40:07 PM
The method of choice here is to put a theraderm covering over the patch to help secure it. They are about50 cent each and are surgical grade wound and bandage coverings. They keep your cloths from moving the patch as well as hold better when sweaty

Hi Donna,                    06 Aug 2018

Thanks for the info; where can I get them? We have CVS, Walgreen's, WallyWorld, Kroger, etc. and a few independent drug stores.

Right now I have multiple patches on; my dosage has been bumped up. I was looking for a quart of Estradiol per day but someone wisely decided otherwise. I think I ended up with xxx.xxx mg of estradiol. Seems to be working, my boobs seem to have taken a jump and are tender. They also look nicer as they poke out while wearing a t-shirt. This transition thing is way more fun than I ever imagined. I'd like to do it a second time; unfortunately, it's a one shot deal.

Take care Donna; tell your wife I said Hello and give her a kiss on the cheek for me.

Best Always, Love,
Christine

Hello Folks,                  12 August 2018

Just a quick note to let you know that my new avatar is actually me as I normally present when I'm out and about. Rarely do I wear anything masculine unless it's a day like yesterday was; lots of rain. I wore an old pair of men's sneakers when outside just due to rain and the possibility of mud.

Got my new peepers from the Walmart Vision Center yesterday afternoon. The lady I bought them from gave me a nice pink hard case for them.

Received some new Pink Navy ball caps yesterday.

My increased dosage of Estradiol seems to be working; my parking lights are showing and they have a nice golden glow. The 17th of this month will mark the 5th month on HRT. It be doing great.

Best Always, love
Christine

@christinej78
Dear Christine:
Wowzers.... a pink Navy cap and a pink case for your new glasses.

Your new real life Avatar-profile photo of you looks great.
Thank you for updating us ... yes, HRT WORKS!
Hugs,
Danielle

Hi Folks,                        22 August 2018

Don't zackly know why my boobs started to shrink; yes they have shrunk too much to suit me. Not sure what is causing it. I have been on an antibiotic, Sulfamethoxazole, Trimethoprim oral. This med was prescribed due to a puncture wound to my left foot at the last joint of my great toe. Since I've been on the drug, I have lost about 10 lbs.; I'm at the weight I was the day I joined the US Navy over 55 years ago.

Unfortunately, it's not a wise decision to stop an antibiotic prior to the end of the treatment course. I looked up the drug and didn't find anything that it would cause this temporary setback.

This week I plan to begin the process of changing my gender and legal name. Since I was born in Ohio, a very good state to be from.... far away from, it appears that some clown in the "Ohio Department of Health" refuses to allow a gender change on a birth certificate. I believe the law allows it but the misguided individual that runs the department won't allow it. "Currently, the Ohio Department of Health refuses to issue birth certificates with updated gender markers. From "NAME & GENDER CHANGE GUIDE FOR OHIO RESIDENTS (ADULTS) 

I'll let you know how it goes. I'm going to start here in Texas and get everything done here first, saving the Ohio stuff for last.

Best Always, Love
Christine

@christinej78
Dear Christine:
Sorry to hear about your injury and the resultant and unexpected weight loss, perhaps you should ask your doctor about that.... unexpected weight loss can be an indicator of other issues that may need medical intervention.  Please tell me that you will talk to your doctor soon.

Arhhh... OHIO is defintiely a good state to be from....  there must be some way or some agency that can assist you in getting your birth certificate gender and name changed.   Be sure to ask around and perhaps start a new thread titled, "State of Ohio Name and Gender Change difficulties"... there might be other members on here that have gone through the same thing.

Thanks for posting your update... and please don't lose any more weight.  For some that would be a blessing but for others such as yourself you don't want to lose any more, especially if it is unintentional.

Thanks for your report, I will be looking for your update.
Hugs,
Danielle

Hi Everyone,                     02 September 2018

Last night a very good friend let me know that I have been building up way too much fat in the belly area. We examined my diet and therein lies the problem ... or I should say problems. I am eating and drinking way too much JUNK. I remember one of my doctors asking me why I eat that stuff; I told him: "Because it tastes good and is easy." This is not healthy and if I continue doing so will be detrimental to my plan to live at least another 25 years.

What kind of friend would tell me I'm looking like I'm pregnant? I'll tell you: "The best friend I have." A true friend will always be truthful and never tell you things just to make you feel good. I appreciate her honesty, I'll be healthier because of it. Thank you my Dear, I appreciate your honesty and candor.

Best Always, all my Love, Always
Chris

PS:
Chris is my new nickname suggested by my best friend.

The boobs are back in growth mode I'm happy to say.

@christinej78
Dear Chris:  Thanks for your good report, especially the part about your best friend.
Pregnant... I don't think so  ;) :o ???.... but like you stated, it was an honest and true statement delivered as only a best friend could do.

Either way Christine, or Chris, I like both names but since you expressed your preference...
... it will now be Chris as far as I am concerned.

Hugs and well wishes,
Danielle

Quote from: christinej78 on September 02, 2018, 06:00:08 AM
Hi Everyone,                     02 September 2018

Last night a very good friend let me know that I have been building up way too much fat in the belly area. We examined my diet and therein lies the problem ... or I should say problems. I am eating and drinking way too much JUNK. I remember one of my doctors asking me why I eat that stuff; I told him: "Because it tastes good and is easy." This is not healthy and if I continue doing so will be detrimental to my plan to live at least another 25 years.

What kind of friend would tell me I'm looking like I'm pregnant? I'll tell you: "The best friend I have." A true friend will always be truthful and never tell you things just to make you feel good. I appreciate her honesty, I'll be healthier because of it. Thank you my Dear, I appreciate your honesty and candor.

Best Always, all my Love, Always
Chris

PS:
Chris is my new nickname suggested by my best friend.

The boobs are back in growth mode I'm happy to say.

It's been awhile since I last updated this thread so here goes with not too much info because there hasn't been much to write about.

My weight was a prominent issue for me; I have been hovering right around 150 pounds for weeks on end. Fifty-five years ago I joined the Navy; I weighed 152 lbs. and was 4' 23", I'm now 4' 21" and am much the same weight. I still have too much belly fat for my liking, it seems to be stuck there. I have eliminated almost all junk food, rarely eat anything that isn't healthy. I am continuously working which requires a lot of physical exertion yet my weight stays the same within a pound or two.

I realize I no longer have T so I guess I'll have to step up the exercise. I've never experienced this before as I was always able to shed fat and put on muscle. My best friend has told me that this is the way it works without T. I have no plans for adding one spec of T to my body nor do I want to. Since the start of HRT and the riddance of the testes, I have been happier than at any other time in my life. Still have a ways to go ridding myself of learned aggression, which is fortunately directed at myself. It takes time to cleanup after 77 years of living with T flowing through one's veins. Call it a work in progress and there is progress being made, thanks to my best friend and you folks here at Susan's Place. I have learned a lot from your posts and the sage advice you have provided. I've been here six months and four days. My life has changed an enormous amount in that time and I am grateful that it has taken place and continues to do so thanks to Susan's Place, it's members and the one fantastic Lady that occupies a special place in my heart and soul.

It's late and I need to go outside and fix the wiring mess in my ISP's Network Interface where the FIOS fiber optic data is converted to cat-5 WAN/LAN, It's a rat's nest of spliced wire. Just looking at it causes errors. It was so bad that the ability to Skype became impossible, and Skype is of extreme importance in this abode.

Almost forgot; I did something quite stupid last night. It was around midnight thirty when I took the first dog out for her last P break before going to bed. We went out the door and just as it closed I checked to see if I had my keys in my pocket. You guessed it, I didn't and was locked out of the house. Fortunately, I have a neighbor that keeps a spare key for me. Of course all the lights were out and they were in bed asleep. Unfortunately, I had to call them and ask them to give me the spare key. I'm sure they appreciated my phone call. When will I ever learn... probably never.

Best always to all, Love
Chris

yes the tummy doesn't want to go, same problem here. The key thing , my flat has a self closing fire door and would lock me out, mum has a spare key but then my pone and car keys will be in the flat!!!!!Not done that yet but that now tempting fate-------

@christinej78
My Dear Christine:
WHERE ARE YOU
....and why are you not keeping your thread updated ???

You have curious followers that want to follow your transition journey and your adventures.
I realize that you started another thread "My Life's Stories and Adventures"  in the Writing forum that you will be writing personal stories about yourself and your escapades but you have NOT posted any followup to your first September 26th posting there....  link below:
    https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,241176.msg2178834.html#msg2178834

So, the question remains, Where Are You ?...
...   you are missed by me and others here on the Susan's Place Forums.
Hugs and well wishes,
Danielle

Quote from: Alaskan Danielle on October 09, 2018, 12:21:13 PM
@christinej78
My Dear Christine:
WHERE ARE YOU
....and why are you not keeping your thread updated ???

You have curious followers that want to follow your transition journey and your adventures.
I realize that you started another thread "My Life's Stories and Adventures"  in the Writing forum that you will be writing personal stories about yourself and your escapades but you have NOT posted any followup to your first September 26th posting there....  link below:
    https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,241176.msg2178834.html#msg2178834

So, the question remains, Where Are You ?...
...   you are missed by me and others here on the Susan's Place Forums.
Hugs and well wishes,
Danielle

Hi Danielle,                             12 October 2018

I have been busy with many things, visiting doctors, having my body probed and pierced, having wax jobs, speaking of which, I had one that sent me to the doctor. I haven't had time to dig out the stories I want to post but I will when I return.

The doctor visits, for the most part, have been of the annual physical variety. As most of you know I am one of the youngest well seasoned transgender females on this site. When you become a member of the minority group known as "Seasoned Citizens" you will find there are certain dues you have to contend with, such as aches, pains, failing sight, need for prunes, etc. Twenty five years ago I saw a doctor once every ten or so years when I damaged something; now I see a doctor ten times a year. These visits are so frequent they have become social events.

I am fortunate in that I have a vast, out of necessity, network of very good doctors. As an example I recently found it necessary to pay a visit to my dermatologist. I recently had the lower half of my body waxed as I have been doing for several years. Most of you have probably heard of the Brazilian, you know the very private area in the V area between the thighs; a most tender area for certain.

I've had that area waxed numerous times without incident. Well, there's always a first time for everything and this Brazilian was mine. This puppy went south while in progress. I can withstand a lot of pain, and I withstood this, but let me tell you this was one painful procedure. It felt like someone was peeling off several layers of skin. As I found out after arriving home, this is exactly what happened. Now most of us MTF folks know what a scrotum is and how sensitive it and its contents can be. To be precise, mine is empty, like MT, nothing inside, post orchie; I think you have the picture. Oh that reminds me, I have photos of my orchie; anyone want to see them? The answer is you can't, they're private and shall remain so until I'm offered enough money for them that will allow me to buy a new Lambo.

I don't know why what happened, happened, but it did. A couple of layers of skin came off the MT sack along with the hair. This left a very sore spot in a very sensitive area. Off to the Dermatologist's office for an important visit. Long story short several layers of skin were missing. The only explanation seems to be the thinning of the skin due to HRT. Maybe the wax was too hot, maybe it was too cold. All I know it hurt like heck. A powerful steroid and anti-biotic has about cleared up the damage. I think that's my last Brazilian. Electro-shock therapy seems to be in my future.

During my Annual Physical exam, I had to have some lab work. The only thing that concerned my Doctor was my high LDL cholesterol, which was at 113, about 14 points too high. This was offset by the good  news; my Testosterone is at <3 (less than 3) and my estradiol is at 129.1. Now I know why I have been feeling so frisky lately.

I'm tired and am going to crash, I have to mow my lawn today as I have a very important mission coming up very soon, which I am very anxious to go on. Catch you all up later when I return...... make that: "If I return."

Best always, Love
Chris

Always refreshing to read your stories, Christine, but sorry to hear about the mishap and the pain you suffered from the Brazilian.

Hugs

Pamela

Quote from: pamelatransuk on October 12, 2018, 08:38:49 AM
Always refreshing to read your stories, Christine, but sorry to hear about the mishap and the pain you suffered from the Brazilian.

Hugs

Pamela

Hi Pamela,                              19 October 2018

The Brazilian was not as I had expected; a bit more abusive than previous episodes. Hopefully, I can find where the lady that used to do it for me went.

Back from my mission; all is going very well. I have lots to do and not much time to do it in. I gave myself a year to accomplish my life's quest; I now have 9 1/2 months remaining. My goal now is to have it completed before next summer. It's a major life change and one I want more than anything else in life.

I just returned to Texas today. My home is now where my heart is, which is no longer in Texas where I have been for the last 40 years.  I'll write about it once I have the photos where they can be posted.

This much I can tell you, this past week I have been happier than I have ever been in the 78 years I have lived aboard "Space Ship Earth." Today has also been one of the :( saddest days of my life; I had to return to the dwelling I exist in. Not all is lost, it's a necessary intrusion that will enable me to get to where I belong and to be with the most special :angel: person ever in my life.

Best Always, Love
Christine

I am delighted to hear you have truly found happiness, Christine, and regret the temporary sadness.

Hugs

Pamela

Quote from: pamelatransuk on October 20, 2018, 06:04:16 AM
I am delighted to hear you have truly found happiness, Christine, and regret the temporary sadness.

Hugs

Pamela

Hi Pamela,                            20 October 2018

Thank you for the comments and concern. I don't think I knew what true happiness really was until she entered my life. She has become the driving and guiding force in it, and I cannot imagine what it would be like without her. I know this is a temporary and necessary situation; though unpleasant, it is bearable. I plan to make occasional visits so that will ameliorate the seperation. We do make use of Skype, which is another great asset.

Thanks again, hope all is going well for you on your end of this world.

Best Always, Love
Christine

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Quote from: christinej78 on October 27, 2018, 01:26:38 AM
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Dear Christine:   Don't you know the rule here regarding your thread?

If you delete a comment your followers are expecting that you will post a new comment right away!!!

Hugs,
Danielle

Quote from: Alaskan Danielle on October 27, 2018, 10:29:40 AM
@christinej78
Dear Christine:   Don't you know the rule here regarding your thread?

If you delete a comment your followers are expecting that you will post a new comment right away!!!

Hugs,
Danielle

Hi Danielle,            27 October 2018

Deleted? Who done it? Must have been the mice.

Best Always, Love
Chris

@Alaskan Danielle

Quote from: Alaskan Danielle on October 27, 2018, 10:29:40 AM
@christinej78
Dear Christine:   Don't you know the rule here regarding your thread?

If you delete a comment your followers are expecting that you will post a new comment right away!!!

Hugs,
Danielle

Hi Danielle,                           18 November 2018

I didn't realize it has almost been the 30 magical days since I last posted on my tired old thread. Nothing new to report here in Texas. The weather reminds me of why I left Ohio. With climate change rearing its head four time each year I'm going to head to where the four changes are: 1. Spring, 2. Summer, 3. Spring, 4. Summer. I don't like being cold.

I don't know how all you folks up norte handle the cold and lack of sunshine. I have heard from very reliable sources that "Light Boxes" are a must and a fixture in most houses. I wish I could find a spot where the sun was shining 24 hours per day and was never below 85 degrees; somehow I think that's going to be a bit difficult to find.

I'll post a comment in the deleted post when you have a new avatar. Take care young lady and take care of your Tooth Bunny.

Hope you've ditched faker shy guy.

Best Always, love
Chris

Hi Folks,                    27 November 2018

Thanksgiving Day I was Skyping with the Love of my Life, when I felt the need to scratch my left leg. When I got to the ankle area I noticed that my leg was excessively warm, almost hot and the area was swollen and red with signs of Petechiae, clusters of red pinpoint spots. I realized the possibility of a blood clot or some other problem.

Friday I went to the emergency department at Baylor, Scott and White in Grapevine. They ran a blood test and an ultrasound of my left leg. They confirmed that I have a DVT (Deep Vein Thrombosis), blood clot in laymen's terms. This isn't something I wanted to hear.

When I began HRT I was prescribed Estradiol Transdermal Patches. At my second blood test my Estradiol was at 10 so my dosage was bumped up. I was cautioned that Estradiol can cause DVT. My thinking is that this condition has been present for a couple years and went unnoticed as it only presented as what appeared to be a rash.

I was prescribed Xarelto; this is a fairly new clot buster and seems to be working well. I have an appointment with my primary today and one with my Endo on Wednesday. I'm talking about this because there are known instances of DVT being triggered by Estradiol / Estrogen. This condition can be extremely dangerous to your health.

When I know more I'll post any additional information I have learned.

Best Always, love
Christine

Sorry to hear you have DVT, you do need to get with your Endo and see if your estradiol can be adjusted so you don't get DVT.  Did they recommend more walking to help reduce your changes of getting more DVT's.

Quote from: christinej78 on November 27, 2018, 04:14:10 AM
Hi Folks,                    27 November 2018

Thanksgiving Day I was Skyping with the Love of my Life, when I felt the need to scratch my left leg. When I got to the ankle area I noticed that my leg was excessively warm, almost hot and the area was swollen and red with signs of Petechiae, clusters of red pinpoint spots. I realized the possibility of a blood clot or some other problem.

Friday I went to the emergency department at Baylor, Scott and White in Grapevine. They ran a blood test and an ultrasound of my left leg. They confirmed that I have a DVT (Deep Vein Thrombosis), blood clot in laymen's terms. This isn't something I wanted to hear.

When I began HRT I was prescribed Estradiol Transdermal Patches. At my second blood test my Estradiol was at 10 so my dosage was bumped up. I was cautioned that Estradiol can cause DVT. My thinking is that this condition has been present for a couple years and went unnoticed as it only presented as what appeared to be a rash.

I was prescribed Xarelto; this is a fairly new clot buster and seems to be working well. I have an appointment with my primary today and one with my Endo on Wednesday. I'm talking about this because there are known instances of DVT being triggered by Estradiol / Estrogen. This condition can be extremely dangerous to your health.

When I know more I'll post any additional information I have learned.

Best Always, love
Christine

@christinej78
Dear Christine:
Oh my, oh my.....  I am so very glad that you recognized the seriousness of the symtoms that you saw and experienced on your leg, and got yourself to the hospital emergency room right away.   I am very glad that you knew that DVT's are nothing to fool around with for sure.

I will certainly be looking for your updates and for your postings...  please stick around and get well soon so we can all continue to enjoy your postings and musings on your threads.

Hugs and hugs and hugs .... and wishing you well and a speedy recovery.
Danielle

Quote from: Alaskan Danielle on November 27, 2018, 12:26:16 PM
@christinej78
Dear Christine:
Oh my, oh my.....  I am so very glad that you recognized the seriousness of the symtoms that you saw and experienced on your leg, and got yourself to the hospital emergency room right away.   I am very glad that you knew that DVT's are nothing to fool around with for sure.

I will certainly be looking for your updates and for your postings...  please stick around and get well soon so we can all continue to enjoy your postings and musings on your threads.

Hugs and hugs and hugs .... and wishing you well and a speedy recovery.
Danielle

Hi Danielle,                         28 November 2018

Thank you young Lady. I visited my primary Tuesday (Maybe it was today and maybe it was yesterday) 27 November 18. He said everything looks like it's going well. I'll most likely be on this med for 6 months and then wean off of it. I have an appointment with my Endo on Thursday so I should find out where my Estradiol level is. When this hiccup occurred, I removed all 97 patches. What a relief it was to get all that gooey stuff off my body. I was looking like the wall tile in a run down men's room in Alcatraz penitentiary.

We shall see what she has to say. Personally, I think this started long before this incident and prior to my even thinking about my transition so I don't think the Estradiol played much of a part in this if any at all. One does need to keep in mind that the older we are the more susceptible we are to certain negative medical occurrences; I'm older than most and younger than some. I'm also the oldest I've ever been and the youngest I'll ever be.

When I asked my Endo to bump my estradiol she cautioned me about the possibility of developing a DVT (Deep Vein Thrombosis), so I was well aware of what could happen. Sometime last year I noticed Petechiae around my ankles after mowing the pasture. As time went on the Petechiae increased; my thinking was that it itched like a rash. Certain OTC meds made things calm down. Little did I know what was in store for this old biddy.

Why am I telling you all this? I want you to be aware of the dangers and make you aware of the symptoms so if you have them you will seek medical intervention immediately. DVT is something you shouldn't ignore; it call kill or worse reduce one to a vegetable.

I'll return Thursday with an update from my Endo.

Best Always, Love
Chris

From another old f**t (though a youngster in mind) Mind how you go and hope it gets sorted soon XXXXX

Quote from: davina61 on November 28, 2018, 03:57:40 AM
From another old f**t (though a youngster in mind) Mind how you go and hope it gets sorted soon XXXXX

Hi Davina,                   28 November 2018

Thank you for your thoughts and post. You're not an old f**t, you're a young one. Growing older is mandatory, growing up is optional. I prefer and practice the latter.

Best Always, Love
Chris

Thank you Chris, for keeping us informed.  For us young folks it is very important to watch the blood clot thing.  So far, I seem not to have anything. 
Do you, or did you take low dose aspiring prior to this thrombosis?  I wonder if daily intake of low dose aspirin could have avoided your problem?
I have slightly swollen feet for a few days now, but this is very common with estrogen intake (cis women on estrogen therapy have the same problem).  My swollen feet are actually the only indication for me that estrogen is doing anything for me!

Yikes!  Sorry to hear about your DVT, Christine.  Good move to get to Emergency and have it treated right away!

We get told about the risk when we sign our informed consent forms, but it is important to know that the risk is real.  Thank you for spreading the word.

Hello again Christine

I am so sorry to hear it has been confirmed you have DVT. I think most of us will or at least should have been informed of the possibility of DVT as side effect of estradiol. However I think most of us will not  - certainly I was not - aware of the symptoms and some of us may have brushed aside at first. I thank you for providing details of the whole matter and for highlighting the urgency of seeking medical diagnosis and treatment.

I wish you a speedy recovery.

Thanking of you &  sending Hugs

Pamela

@Alaskan Danielle
@davina61
@Dietlind
@KathyLauren
@pamelatransuk

Hi Danielle, Davina, Linde, Kathy, Pamela,                    28 November 2018

I am going to try and answer all of your questions in the order of there occurrence to my DVT issue.

I was cautioned about DVT prior to receiving a prescription for Estradiol patches. After my Orchie and having been on the patches about one month I had a blood test for my hormone levels. I had been on Estradiol for 16 days sans AA's when I had my orchie and about 30 days of Estradiol so far. Believe me I was feeling great, no more problems with peeing due to BPH, sleeping better, aggression mostly gone after a lifetime of that BS, happiness, Boobs presenting themselves, which by the way I make every effort for them to be noticed and when they are I am greatly thankful.

When I went back to my Endo after the blood test, my "T" was 10 and Estradiol was 58. I had a second blood test about a month or so later and my "T" was <3 (not detected) and "E" was way down. (don't remember the exact number but it was low). I asked if we could bump the "E" and she said yes and also reminded me of the very real possibility of DVT, which by the way is well documented in medical literature.

We went ahead and bumped it up and tested it a month or so later; it was now 128 and "T" was still <3, all well and good. I was feeling great and the boobs, albeit slowly, were becoming more noticeable, which I really liked.

I had been mowing the pasture for several years using a combination of a tractor and a commercial walk behind mower. I preferred the walk behind because it afforded me a lot of exercise while mowing. I calculated I was walking about 7.7 miles each mowing. Last year, prior to HRT and me even knowing how to spell Transgender. I was noticing what appeared to be a slight rash around my ankles that looked like Petechiae though I assumed it was a rash because I knew my platelet count was high (clotting factor), I was on 81mg low dose aspirin and bled quite easily if cut. This fact in itself made me think it was Petechiae except for the fact that it cleared quickly and responded well to OTC salves. The other reason: It only appeared where my socks weren't covering my ankle.

I discontinued the aspirin thinking it might possibly be "P." The fact that it cleared quickly and responded well to salves kind of ruled out "P."

Have to back up here; in 2007 I noticed I was limping a lot. I analyzed my gate and sure enough my left leg was weaker than my right. I went to a sports medicine doctor that ran tests on my legs and determined that I had Asymmetric Peripheral Neuropathy. That was exciting. I started walking more and working out my legs. I managed to strengthen the left leg to where the limp was gone.

Sometimes Peripheral Neuropathy of the leg presents itself with severe pain, sometimes with numbness, sometimes both. My case was numbness, which is better than pain. I had tests run twice by a neurologist who confirmed the original diagnosis both times. His conclusion was that at some point I had damaged the Sciatic Nerve. He didn't know when or how and neither did I. I had numerous injuries while skiing (never a good skier though I enjoyed the excitement of skiing the dangerous terrain). I beat myself up pretty good, destroying my knees in the process, but having what I thought was fun (If I only knew what was ahead).

The last time I skied was in 1998 when I realized if I kept it up I was most likely destined for a wheelchair. Not an option I wanted to even consider so I quit that endeavor. Over time I figured out that everything we do has a price tag attached; we just don't know when the bill will come due; my bills were and are piling up.

Back to DVT and its precursor. I never had an indication that I knew of that indicated the possibility of a DVT, until this past Thursday 28 Nov 2018, Thanksgiving Day. That's when I realized that what I had been thinking was a rash really was "P" and now there were additional symptoms that indicated a blood clot (DVT): Itching, leg red, "P" present and leg hot. I took a couple of Alka-Seltzer tablets dissolved in water, which helped calm the heat and "P." When this hiccup occurred, I removed all patches as a precaution. Oh how I miss my Estradiol.

The next day we came to the conclusion I had better go to the emergency room. Now let me set the record straight; It wasn't me that convinced me to head to the hospital emergency room. It was the love of my life who I had been Skyping with that convinced me to go there and not to one of those "Doc-In-a-Box" places, which do have their place in the scheme of health care but not when time is of the essence.

Just so you know, she's right here at Susan's Place though most of you don't know who she is. She is the most beautiful, intelligent, Lady I have ever known and I love her more than anyone or anything else on this earth. There are many more great adjectives to describe her, which I would do if Susan's servers had enough capacity for all of them.

In the emergency room they drew blood and did an ultrasound of my left leg. The diagnosis was DVT. They prescribed a standard treatment, Xarelto starter pack. Since this has nothing to do with transitioning, I'm going to supply dosage as there is only a standard dose available. I was prescribed 15mg bid for 21 days and 20mg qd until the doctor says to discontinue it; bid = twice a day, qd = once per day. This med must be taken with food. There is no generic for it and it's relatively expensive. I'm also back on the 81mg low dose aspirin.

Thursday will be the day I visit my Endocrinologist to see where we go, hormone wise, from here. My thinking is the problem was already here before I started my transition. "E" may or may not have played some part in the DVT, which already was an accident waiting to happen. I'm going to present to my Endo what my love suggested and that is to reduce the "E" to post menopausal levels.

Tomorrow I'll update this thread with anything I know that is pertinent to this topic. Some day I'll tell you who she is unless she tells you first.

Now I have a few PM's to answer so I'll attend to that after I take care of the kids; they need to eat and go out so they can pee and poop.

Thank you all for your kind thoughts and concerns. Hopefully we all can learn something from this.

Best Always, Love
Chris

Hi Folks,                 29 November 2018

Back from the Endocrinologist; news is not what I wanted to hear but is what it is. I have two clots, both in the deep veins of the left calf. One is about midway up and the other is where the knee bends. I have to stay off the hormones for a couple of months or until the veins clear. No massaging the muscle, no support socks/hose, no heavy work, running, mowing, etc. I get the picture.

My Doctor thinks the Estradiol is the culprit, especially since this occurred after increasing the dosage. I was totally aware that this could happen; since I was "bullet proof" I didn't have a thing to worry about. What happened to that Kevlar I was supposed to be made of?
Weather beaten and worn from deflecting too many bullets.

I'm going to take it easy for a bit; think I'll retire from  Football, boxing and marathon running. Don't know how the Oakland Raiders are going to do without me.

Why couldn't this be as simple as the Orchie? I am going to go to the hospital and retrieve the reports from my emergency treatment. Want to keep informed as well as possible. So that's it for today.

Best Always, Love
Chris

@christinej78
Dear Christine:
Even though you did not get the report from your doctor that you wanted to hear, the very good news is that you are alive and (mostly) well.  Your followers are very happy indeed that you are still able to post about your interesting life endeavors...

Hmmm, so you will be retiring from the Oakland Raiders NFL team... does that mean that Colin Karprinick will be coming back to the team to take over your head QB duties???  This is a big disaster for sure.

Well, as we all know, DVT blood clots are nothing to fool around with... you don't want a clot going to your brain that could cloud your brilliant sense of humor and a knack for your transition musings. 

Please follow your doctor's orders, get the frequent checkups that are required, and stay positive...

Hugs and well wishes,
Danielle

Christine

Sorry to hear the latest piece of bad news. However I know you will pull through it. Sorry also you must temporarily cease HRT.

As you say, take it easy for now.

I wish you a speedy recovery.

Thinking of you and sending Hugs

Pamela

Quote from: christinej78 on November 28, 2018, 04:20:34 AM
Hi Davina,                   28 November 2018

Thank you for your thoughts and post. You're not an old f**t, you're a young one. Growing older is mandatory, growing up is optional. I prefer and practice the latter.

Best Always, Love
Chris

Hi Chris -
Why does that line sound familiar? Could it be I resemble that remark?

I'm sorry to hear about the DVT but it sounds as though the medics are trying to get a handle on the problem. Thank you for listening to Your Beloved - she does have a well-vested interest, you know. Does your forced hiatus mean you will have to postpone any trades to other football teams?

Take care - please?

Susan

Quote from: Susan Baum on November 30, 2018, 06:02:39 PM
Hi Chris -
Why does that line sound familiar? Could it be I resemble that remark?

I'm sorry to hear about the DVT but it sounds as though the medics are trying to get a handle on the problem. Thank you for listening to Your Beloved - she does have a well-vested interest, you know. Does your forced hiatus mean you will have to postpone any trades to other football teams?

Take care - please?

Susan

Hi Susan,                       01 December 2018

I stole that from you. Should have attributed it. Sorry, next time.

I think the DVT is under control; the meds I am on are supposed to work very well. I did stop the estradiol as soon as she figured out what was going wrong. God, she is one brilliant woman and Lady. She has made me happier than I have ever been in the 78 years I have been riding this spaceship.

There won't be any trades, I want more than ever to get to Phoenix and leave this place. Since meeting her and falling in love with her, it's the first time I have considered leaving my home of 40 years. Now it can't happen soon enough; I wish I could leave tonight.

Hope all is well with you and your family. Take care and I'll do likewise; I now have the best reason in my life to do so.

Best Always, Love
Chris

Hi Folks,                               01 December 2018

Did retrieve my records from the medical department; lots of paper filled with technical/medical globally-guck. Now a quick "cut to the chase" splains it all:

Occlusive deep vein thrombus identified in the left popliteal and posterior tibial veins. It means I have two blood clots in the deep veins of the left calf muscle. I now have to behave myself, no more mowing the pasture with the walk-behind-mower, no climbing trees, ladders, long plane flights, parties, horseback riding, dancing, you name it. A life filled with exciting things like watching grass grow, a favorite pastime here in Texas.

Now to top off this whole ordeal, I went to another doctor today due to a non healing infection in my right index finger, yes index finger, the one just to the left of the "signal" finger. Back on antibiotics and sits baths for my finger. I have an infection of the nail bed. Had a manicure about four weeks ago; came down with the infection. Either the lady that worked on my nails caused it or I stuck my finger somewhere I shouldn't have. Where would that be you ask? I haven't a clue cause I don't stick my fingers where they shouldn't be.

About time for me to retire for the evening even though it's early morning. I'm going to treat myself to Klondike bar before I retire.

Best Always, Love
Chris

Quote from: christinej78 on December 01, 2018, 04:22:08 AM
Hi Folks,                               01 December 2018


Now to top off this whole ordeal, I went to another doctor today due to a non healing infection in my right index finger, yes index finger, the one just to the left of the "signal" finger. Back on antibiotics and sits baths for my finger. I have an infection of the nail bed. Had a manicure about four weeks ago; came down with the infection. Either the lady that worked on my nails caused it or I stuck my finger somewhere I shouldn't have. Where would that be you ask? I haven't a clue cause I don't stick my fingers where they shouldn't be.

Best Always, Love
Chris

Now you are talking about my field of specialty in the medical world, infection control & prevention!  Manicure and pedicure places are notorious for causing infections on treated digits.  Very often they do poor or no real cleaning and sterilization of their tools, and carry infections from one client to the next! 
You should alert the licensing authorities about this to make sure they inspect the place and ensure proper tool cleaning and handling!

Quote from: Dietlind on December 01, 2018, 09:14:21 AM
Now you are talking about my field of specialty in the medical world, infection control & prevention!  Manicure and pedicure places are notorious for causing infections on treated digits.  Very often they do poor or no real cleaning and sterilization of their tools, and carry infections from one client to the next! 
You should alert the licensing authorities about this to make sure they inspect the place and ensure proper tool cleaning and handling!

Hi Linde,                      01 December 2018

Thanks for  the suggestion to report the nail incident. I'll do that Monday. I can guarantee there will be no more manicures for me from anyone other than myself. It was the first manicure I have had since the one I had in Oakland CA around November 1964. Good thing they don't rely on me to make a living, 54 years between visits won't do much for their bottom line.

Best Always, Love
Chris

Hi Folks,                          05 December 2018

It's been 2 weeks since the clot problem reared its ugly head and one day shy of 2 weeks from going to the emergency room. I hope I'm not premature in letting you know my leg appears to be getting better. The swelling has diminished considerably since the onset of the DVT symptoms. The magic pill, XARELTO, appears to be working. I won't know for certain until I have another ultrasound of my left leg, where the problem appeared. This time, 29 January 2019, they are going to do both legs.

DVT is a serious problem that can cause many health issues including death and is not something one should ignore thinking it'll clear up on it's own. Had it not been for Dena, I would not have gone to the emergency room when I did. She probably saved my life and/or saved me from losing my leg.

What caused this problem? Don't yet know for sure. Dena and I have discussed all the symptoms I have noticed over the past few years; at first they seemed minor, then as time wore on, they came more often and with more severity culminating in my trip to the emergency department the day after Thanksgiving.

One thing I do know is that Estradiol can cause this to happen. Again, Dena and I have discussed this and it is a possibility but, considering the symptoms I have had, which I also had last year prior to my orchi, HRT and transitioning, the chances of the Estradiol/estrogen being the culprit is doubtful. My opinion is that the Blood Pressure med I had been taking until recently, Lisinopril, was a major contributor to this issue.

Bottom line, we need to take charge of our own health care by monitoring our bodies for any changes that may be occurring no matter how insignificant they seem, and asking our health care providers questions. As I learn more about my problem, I'll update this thread. Take care of yourselves.

And now you know who she is. Thanks Dena, I Love You.

Best Always, Love
Christine

@christinej78
Dear Christine:
I am so glad that you are still alive and kicking and have not had another emergency room forced visit...   
Regarding med Lisinopril, I have a friend taking it for her blood pressure and it has so many bad side effects, her biggest issue is dry coughs and terrible continuous headaches.

For her blood pressure it has been working great but she is due to visit her doctor next month and talk about alternative blood pressure meds... there are so very many available and perhaps her doctor can be comfortable prescribing something different...   then of course with a different med there may be new and different side effects to deal with or it just may not work as well for her.   So far she has had no issues with blood clots as you have experienced.

.... I am so glad that you have found a very good advisor and confidante in our lovely @Dena  .... based on her myriad and plethora of past posts here on the Forums she is quite knowledgeable on things like this and other issues relating to transitioning.

Thanks for posting and keeping us up to date....  try to stay out of the emergency room if you can, the food, if there is any is not good, the beds are uncomfortable and it is so noisy that you can't sleep!

Hugs and wishing you good health as always,
Danielle

Congratulations to you, Chris, and to @Dena. You are both important to us here on Susan's, and now to each other as well! I hope your recovery goes quickly.

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Quote from: christinej78 on December 05, 2018, 04:42:39 PM
Hi Folks,                          05 December 2018


What caused this problem? Don't yet know for sure. Dena and I have discussed all the symptoms I have noticed over the past few years; at first they seemed minor, then as time wore on, they came more often and with more severity culminating in my trip to the emergency department the day after Thanksgiving.



Best Always, Love
Christine

Good to hear that you are doing way better Chris!
Have you ever smoked, if yes for how long and when did you stop?
Tobacco use can cause delayed blood clots and vein problems.  The clotting could have been caused by a combination of different small issues that together resulted in his clod.
I wish you a continuous good recovery, and hold back a little with that aggressive foot ball playing of yours!

Quote from: Dietlind on December 05, 2018, 10:51:54 PM
Good to hear that you are doing way better Chris!
Have you ever smoked, if yes for how long and when did you stop?
Tobacco use can cause delayed blood clots and vein problems.  The clotting could have been caused by a combination of different small issues that together resulted in his clod.
I wish you a continuous good recovery, and hold back a little with that aggressive foot ball playing of yours!

Hi Linde,                        05 December 2018

Did I ever smoke? Does a steam engine smoke? When I was smoking you couldn't tell the difference between us except I gave off more soot than those old Iron Horses.

I started smoking around 3      I mean 13. whatever I could steal from my folks packs. Not a lot until about the tenth grade. Then it was about a pack a day of Lucky Strike LSMFT regular size and no filter. I really didn't smoke the cigarettes all the way to the end; took a few drags off of it and handed it off to someone else. We did this between classes.

My total smoking amounted to no more than 10 years and wasn't heavy until the year I quit for good, 05 March 1969, 49 years and 9 months as of today. When I quit I was smoking 3 packs a day of those same Lucky Strike coffin nails.

Something a lot of folks don't know is that if you ever smoked you are susceptible to aortic aneurisms, which is why I have an abdominal ultrasound done every other year during my physical. It's non invasive, painless and quick.

I wouldn't doubt that the smoking I did caused damage that is just now presenting itself. As I have said for many years: "Everything we do has a price tag attached; we just don't know when the bill will come due.

I can say this with 100% certainty, there is nothing that would get me to take even one drag off of a cigarette or any other smoking device.

Dena and I are skyping at the moment, just a few minutes ago I measured both of my ankles. When this whole thing started my left ankle was 2" larger in circumference than my right. I measured them about a half hour ago and the left is down to 0.75" larger; quite a reduction in size.

I gave up my football career with the Oakland Raiders to be on the safe side. Really don't miss it as I never was comfortable showering with a bunch of men. Now I can shower with us ladies and I enjoy it.

So far the magic pill is doing the job they said it would. The thing they cautioned me on was to not massage the muscle where the clots are, no support hose/socks, and to not lie or sit around doing nothing.

So far so good, I'm just glad I was Skyping with Dena when I noticed the swelling and the red and hot area on my leg. She sent me packing to the Emergency Department probably saving my life and/or my leg. All I can say is since she came into my life I am happier than I have ever been in the 78 years I have been on this spaceship.

Thank you for the additional info. I also have asymmetric peripheral neuropathy in my legs, with the left side being the worst. Oddly enough, my feet have been feeling better since I started on the XARELTO protocol. I hope it improves my ability to walk like a sober person. I carry a letter from my doctor explaining I cannot pass a field sobriety test due to this condition. I didn't realize how much I staggered around when I am walking until we had a snow fall. When I went down to the pasture and walked across it then looked back I could see I had been wandering around like a classic drunk.

Take care my friend and enjoy the fantastic trip transition provides us with.

Best Always, Love
Chris

Good news its clearing, just had a random thought- does this mean if you walk like your drunk when you are sober do you walk sober when your drunk??? (I do have a VERY random brain)

@ Christine
Good to hear that you are doing really better!  And I hope that the rest of us will be lucky enough to find our own version of Dena for the case that we are looking for a partner (I do I am still hoping for Dena's sister  :angel:).

When you get older, your body can play funny games with you.  My extreme spinal stenosis had put me into a wheel\chair for a while, until back surgery got me out of it again.  But I lost about 26% of my nerves in ach leg, I think it might be more in the left on.  Anyway, my legs don't give the proper feed back to my brain, after I stood still for a while without any real movements.  Once I want to walk again, i have to first stamp my feed onto the ground for a few times, to tell my brain in which position they are.  Once that is achieved, i can walk for miles without problems.
I think it must look kind of odd for bystanders, to see this person stamping the feet onto the ground for no obvious reasons!
Oh well, C'est la vie !

Congratulations Christine on both counts. I am so happy that you are progressing well and wish you a full and speedy recovery. Wonderful that Dena and you are together. Your stories are always interesting and this latest news is so uplifting!

Hugs

Pamela

Quote from: davina61 on December 06, 2018, 06:06:03 AM
Good news its clearing, just had a random thought- does this mean if you walk like your drunk when you are sober do you walk sober when your drunk??? (I do have a VERY random brain)

Hi Davina,                        06 December 2018

Very interesting question. Since I do not use alcohol, illegal substances or any other mind altering things, I wouldn't know. Maybe one of these days I'll do a supervised experiment and see what happens. If I do, you'll be the second to know, Dena will be the first.

Thanks, Best Always, Love
Chris

Quote from: Alaskan Danielle on December 05, 2018, 05:02:47 PM
@Alaskan Danielle
@RandyL
@christinej78
Dear Christine:
I am so glad that you are still alive and kicking and have not had another emergency room forced visit...   
Regarding med Lisinopril, I have a friend taking it for her blood pressure and it has so many bad side effects, her biggest issue is dry coughs and terrible continuous headaches.

For her blood pressure it has been working great but she is due to visit her doctor next month and talk about alternative blood pressure meds... there are so very many available and perhaps her doctor can be comfortable prescribing something different...   then of course with a different med there may be new and different side effects to deal with or it just may not work as well for her.   So far she has had no issues with blood clots as you have experienced.

.... I am so glad that you have found a very good advisor and confidante in our lovely @Dena  .... based on her myriad and plethora of past posts here on the Forums she is quite knowledgeable on things like this and other issues relating to transitioning.

Thanks for posting and keeping us up to date....  try to stay out of the emergency room if you can, the food, if there is any is not good, the beds are uncomfortable and it is so noisy that you can't sleep!

Hugs and wishing you good health as always,
Danielle

Hi Danielle,                   06 December 2018

The dry coughs are fairly common with many BP meds. I could barely speak while using lisinopril, my voice would squeak, be extremely hoarse and sometimes no voice at all. It's an old med and works well if you are lucky enough to escape the lousy side affects.

You're glad? I'm thrilled and feel very privileged to have her as my best friend, advisor, confidant and the person I love and cherish beyond all else. She has brought more joy to my life than I have ever known prior to meeting her. 

Quote from: RandyL on December 05, 2018, 05:22:13 PM
Congratulations to you, Chris, and to @Dena. You are both important to us here on Susan's, and now to each other as well! I hope your recovery goes quickly.

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Hi Randy,                  06 December 2018

Thanks Randy for the kind thoughts and congratulations. Dena is the most precious person ever in my life. She has an IQ that Einstein would be envious of. Her knowledge base runs from Nuclear Energy to cooking and everything in between. It is extremely rare that I use Wikipedia, I just ask Dena.

Well my friends, I thank all of you for your thoughts and gracious comments. I also want to thank Dena for being in my life; I Love her more than words can say.

Best Always, Love
Christine

Hi Randy R,                      07 December 2018

I'm thinking you will be quite surprised that I am posting this for you and all the folks I know at Aero Valley Airport (52F) in Texas. I hope you now believe that I wasn't joking when I told you I am a MTF (Male To Female) transsexual.

For me this has been a most fantastic adventure on the "Transition Highway." Here at "Susan's Place" I have met some of the finest people one could ever want to meet; this is where I have met the love of my life. Hopefully in the near future I will have all my ducks lined up and will be relocating to Phoenix, AZ to be with Dena.

So now you know where to find me and learn of my adventures. I'll be back out to the airport sometime this next week. It will have to be a day when the sunshine is other than liquid. Maybe we can discuss a certain 1969 Dodge 440 Six-Pack with 0002681 original miles on it that has been stored these past 49 years.

See you soon; take care amigos.

Best Always, Love
Christine

Hi Folks,                          21 December 2018

Just stopped by to wish one and all a Blessed Christmas and New Year and hope all here at Susan's Place achieve all their hopes and dreams.

Best Always, Love
Christine

Thank you Christine, I wish the same to you!

And I would like to wish everybody here a Susan's a wonderful holiday season!

Dear Christine and Linde

Wishing you a Happy Christmas and a wonderful 2019.

I look forward to reading and sharing and posting with both of you.

Christmas Hugs to you both

Pamela  xx

Quote from: pamelatransuk on December 22, 2018, 07:45:21 AM
Dear Christine and Linde

Wishing you a Happy Christmas and a wonderful 2019.

I look forward to reading and sharing and posting with both of you.

Christmas Hugs to you both

Pamela  xx

Thank you so much Pamela
I hope we all will continue our adventurous journey into fem-dome with lots of good experiences, and to finally be able to live our real lives!

Happy holidays to all of you!
Linde

Quote from: Dietlind on December 22, 2018, 07:27:48 AM
Thank you Christine, I wish the same to you!

And I would like to wish everybody here a Susan's a wonderful holiday season!

Hi Linde,                       22 December 2018

Thank you my friend. I hope you continue your progress and the sharing of it here on Susan's Place. Wishing you and your family a fantastic Christmas.

Quote from: pamelatransuk on December 22, 2018, 07:45:21 AM
Dear Christine and Linde

Wishing you a Happy Christmas and a wonderful 2019.

I look forward to reading and sharing and posting with both of you.

Christmas Hugs to you both

Pamela  xx

Hi Pamela,                        22  December 2018

Thank you young lady, I wish the same for you and yours. I love hearing from you and Linde, you both are great posters and have lots of great advice for those of us out here.

Quote from: Christine
My DVT seems to be getting better. I am satisfied with the med, Xarelto. I'm now on 20mg qd (once per day).This will last for another five months as the standard protocol is six months total which includes the starter kit with two separate dosages over the course of the first month.

This was a close call, which could have been a real disaster had it not been for Dena coming to my rescue with great advice: "Get yourself to the hospital emergency room immediately and not the Doc-In-A-Box variety." She saved my life and I cannot thank her enough.

If anyone out here experiences the same or similar symptoms, please follow Dena's advice and get to a hospital emergency department ASAP. DVT's are serious business and should not be looked at as though they are minor problems; they are serious and could result in death if not treated promptly and correctly.

Thank You Dena my Dear for saving my rusty bucket. I love you more than words can say and I always will.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year everyone!!!

Best always, Love
Christine

@christinej78
Dear Christine:
I hope and trust that you are finding the joy and happiness that you deserve so I am giving you my expression of the holiday season that we are now in:
wishing you a very MERRY CHRISTMAS and a prosperous and Happy NEW YEAR  in 2019

Hugs and as always, Well Wishes
Danielle

Merry Christmas and I hope the new year brings you everything you want!!

Quote from: Jenny1969 on December 30, 2018, 09:27:37 PM
Merry Christmas and I hope the new year brings you everything you want!!

Hi Jenny,                         30 December 2018

Thank you Dear. Wishing you and yours a Very Blessed Christmas and New Year.

Welcome to Susan's; I see you are fairly new here and hope you have been welcomed by the official Welcome Wagon folks. I'm nobody special, just the "Good Humor Lady," an unofficial title Susan Baum bestowed upon me, so all I can do is welcome you without all the bells and whistles.

You are in a great place as Susan's Place is full of very nice, kind and knowledgeable folks, excluding me of course. Ask any question you have and don't be afraid it might be a dumb one. The only dumb question is the one we are afraid to ask.

Welcome to the club; enjoy yourself.

Best Always, Love
Christine

@christinej78
Dear Christine:
It was wonderful for me to meet you on the Forums this past year...
I have so much enjoyed your updates as you continue on in your journey.
Thank you for feeling free to share your life events with all of us.   

I have very much enjoyed swapping comments and thoughts with you on your thread, my thread, and on various threads around the Forums.
Obviously some bumps in the road that all of us experience so continue to hang on for an exciting ride.
 
I am so very happy that I found you and your thread on the Forums this last year and I will be eagerly following your upcoming reports and updates in the New Year in 2019.

Wishing you a very HAPPY NEW YEAR   in 2019...

Hugs and as always, well wishes.

Danielle

Hola, mis amigas y amigos,                   01 Enero 2019

Just a short DVT update; my treatment appears to be going well. My feet have regained some feeling that has been absent since 2007 when I was first diagnosed with Asymmetrical Peripheral Neuropathy with the left side being more pronounced than the right.

I have been on and off BP meds for about 10 years (best that I can remember). I have found that if I maintain a healthy diet and get a fair amount of regular aerobic exercise, I can usually wean (key word) myself off those meds. The reason I mention this here is I have a suspicion that BP meds may have contributed to the formation of my DVT.

A note of caution:

Never stop BP meds cold turkey. This is a prescription for a heart attack and or a stroke. Only do so under the supervision of a qualified heart doctor.

If at any time you suspect you have a DVT, get to a real hospital Emergency Department. DVT's are not to be taken lightly, they can kill you or cause you a crippling disability you don't even want to contemplate.

Dena, the love of my life, has been overseeing my treatment. She is the one that saved my life by telling me to get my buns to the real hospital Emergency Department and not some "Doc-In-A-Box" located in a Wally World parking lot.

We have discovered what appears to be good way of administering the medication Xarelto. It is supposed to be taken with food. It seems if the med is taken right after a fairly substantial meal the med performs much better. The swelling in my left leg diminished substantially when this has been done. Dena's thinking is that the med remains in the digestive tract longer when there is more food preceding it thereby putting more of the med into the blood stream.

Almost forgot: My high school Alumni Association has commissioned a new alumni directory. I was contacted by the publisher to update my records (not the prison ones). I decided to have them publish my bio under the name and gender I will have when I officially change them early this year. Thought this would be the ideal way to out myself to my classmates, saving me a bunch of stamps and time.

That's about it for this morning. Hope you all have a Very Healthy and Happy New Year.

Thank You Dena, You are my Guardian Angel and I Love You.

Best Always, Love
Christine

Looks like a good start for a happy new year, glad you have the DVT under control . Stay safe XXXX

Had a little excitement late Thursday (17 Jan 19) evening. Dena and I were Skyping when I realized it was getting late and I needed milk for breakfast. Around 2200 hrs (10:00 PM) I decided to head to Braum's Dairy store. I headed east on my only access road out of here; cruising along at the posted speed limit, about a mile and a half along I woke up and wouldn't you know it, a couple trees jumped right out in front of me. I swerved and missed the BIG one and kind of gave the second one a right punch to the torso with the passenger side of the car.

It felt and sounded like an explosion; glass and all kinds of shrapnel were flying around inside. Once safely past those nasty trees, I looked around and saw a huge gap where the door used to meet the "A" pillar and roof; the dashboard ain't the same as it used to be either. Conclusion: The car is no longer weather tight. The right "A" pillar was moved rearward and up changing the contour of the roof, The right front fender and door are trashed, But the old buzzard continued to drive in a normal fashion so I continued on to Braum's.

When I stepped out of the car, lots of glass crumbs fell to the ground. Went in, got my milk and headed home. It was a drafty ride to say the least,  and my vision out the right side of the windscreen was somewhat compromised by the distortion of the glass. I made it home in one piece and the car made it home in more pieces than it started with.

Dena was there waiting for me on Skype. She suggested I run to the emergency room to have them check my right eye as some junk did get into it, possibly glass. I do follow her advice as She has saved me before and I wasn't about to question her judgment.

Decided not to drive my recently customized S10 Blazer so I asked a neighbor to do the deed for me. Got in quickly and had it checked; nothing could be seen in it but the eyewash eliminated the sensation of foreign substances being there.

When I arrived home about an hour or so later, Dena was still there waiting for me. Thank You Dena, I Love You more each passing day.

My decision to go out to buy milk was a poor one. I was tired and knew it. As I started down the road a voice inside me told me to turn around and go home. I told myself I could make it OK. Results indicate otherwise; my decision to push on was an extremely poor one. Fortunately, no one was injured.

Moral to this story: If you can't figure it out, my telling you won't be of much help.

Anyone want to buy a 1999 S10 Blazer? I'm selling one cheap that has new tires on the rear and a full tank of gas.

Best always, Love
Christine

This is no good. At least you seemed to make it out ok. On the flip side, tomorrows breakfast is taken care of right?

I'm always trying to look on the bright side.

Quote from: GingerVicki on January 19, 2019, 03:22:50 AM
This is no good. At least you seemed to make it out ok. On the flip side, tomorrows breakfast is taken care of right?

I'm always trying to look on the bright side.

Thanks GingerVicki,                       19 January 2019

So have I been since I met Dena, She is the Sunshine in my life.

Best Always, Love
Christine

Christine

I hope this incident did not upset you or Dena too much.

I am relieved you were not injured or caused injury.

Wishing you both a good weekend.

Hugs

Pamela

Christine,

We are so sorry to hear of your accident. Take care of yourself girl! And next time, please tell us to fix our car ourselves and to not let you crawl around working so hard to help us and tiring yourself out.

We love you lady,
Debi & Tia Anne

Christine
Those 10 sec naps really succ, don't they.  One misses so many important things while napping!  I modified a vehicle like this (and it was close to Fredericksburg in Texas), mine was a Subaru Outback (exactly one year old!!), but I had to be cut out of the vehicle with those things called Jaws of Life.  Needles to say, no dealer wanted to take my Subaru as a trade in for a new vehicle.

Be careful in the future, as I said,  am not ready to be the only old trans woman here!  And i think you will not get to many takers for your Blazer, after all, who wants an old car like this?  A different version of pimping it might have worked for selling it easier?

Good luck for your future car rides, and be careful!
Hugs and love
Linde

So sorry to hear about your accident. Life indeed sucks sometimes. But so glad to hear that you were able to walk away from it.

Quote from: Anne Blake on January 19, 2019, 09:05:55 AM
Christine,

We are so sorry to hear of your accident. Take care of yourself girl! And next time, please tell us to fix our car ourselves and to not let you crawl around working so hard to help us and tiring yourself out.

We love you lady,
Debi & Tia Anne

Dear Debi and Tia Anne,                      19 January 2019

Had nothing to do with you Ladies or your car. I have done this for years, nodding off that is. It was going to catch up to me one of these days; it did and the only one hurt was a car that was destined for the ash heap anyway. I guess my ego was a bit bruised, but that's a small price to pay considering how bad it could have been. I've mentioned the little voice that gives me advice, and when I don't listen to it I get into trouble; this was one of those cases. It told me to turn around and go home early enough to have avoided it, had I done what it told me to do. Instead I told myself "I can make it." Should have listened.

I have a sleep study the 31st of this month. Dena has been encouraging me to have one so the 31st was the earliest I could get in.

As strange as this may seem, I had my primary give me a referral for the study. The referrals were sent multiple times but never got there. Long story short the neurologist that does the sleep study moved and somehow wires were crossed and the referrals never arrived.

Eventually, I found where he went and got the ball rolling. Believe me, Dena has been on me everyday about this. If I had already been in Phoenix you can be assured She would have made the appointment Herself and taken me there. This was a wake up call I won't soon forget.

Now, I hope the trip is going along very well and that you Ladies are having a great time. I really enjoyed our visit Thursday and am looking forward to your return in February and us getting together again. Hopefully, the sleep study will discover the cause and the doc can find a remedy that'll work without pumping me full of drugs. I do know that caffeine works so that may be a clue to what the source of the problem is; if only I had taken one of the 'Stay Awake" pills I have in the medicine cabinet. Hindsight is always 20/20, and there are NO do-overs.

I really admire and envy you Ladies for all you do and have done. I'm hoping that Dena and I will soon be doing things I know she likes to do. Believe me I'm working on it. Now, if I can just keep myself out of trouble for the next few months. Once I'm in Phoenix I am going to let Dena take charge of me. She is a beautiful, brilliant and wonderful Lady who I trust implicitly. With her running the show I'll probably live much longer than if I continue making many decisions. I can't wait until I am actually in Phoenix with Her. She is the Sunshine and the Love of my life. I Love You Dena and Always will.

Please keep us updated on your Honeymoon, it's a real pleasure reading about you Ladies and your adventures.

All my Love to both of you Ladies and God Bless you both.

Best Always, Love
Christine

Christine,


I am sorry that you had the car accident.  I am glad nothing got into your eyes.


Take care,


Chrissy

I never thought the"Transition Highway" in your thread title was literally a highway!  ::)  Glad that nothing more than metal and glass was broken!

Quote from: christinej78 on January 19, 2019, 01:46:46 PM
Long story short the neurologist that does the sleep study moved

I was sure you were going to say that he fell asleep on the job.  :D

I am glad you are getting your sleep looked into.  My brother has narcolepsy, and one of the things he was afraid of was falling asleep at the wheel.  He has been fine since he started getting treatment for it.

You take care of yourself dear, yes I ignore my 6th sense as well it its always right but luckily nothing risky yet.

Quote from: davina61 on January 19, 2019, 02:08:34 PM
You take care of yourself dear, yes I ignore my 6th sense as well it its always right but luckily nothing risky yet.

Hi Davina,                          20 January 2019

Thank you dear. glad you're not taking risks like I have most of my life. I have told myself repeatedly, when the little voice gives me a message, LISTEN TO IT. Somehow, I manage to screw up from time to time. I will heed your words. I have One Very Good Reason to not take unnecessary risks, Dena, the Love of My Life.

I have a sleep study coming up Thursday 31 January 2019. I hope it's something simple  and doesn't require taking a bunch of medication. Thanks for your concern.

Best Always, Love
Christine

Quote from: KathyLauren on January 19, 2019, 02:07:49 PM
I never thought the"Transition Highway" in your thread title was literally a highway!  ::)  Glad that nothing more than metal and glass was broken!
I was sure you were going to say that he fell asleep on the job.  :D

I am glad you are getting your sleep looked into.  My brother has narcolepsy, and one of the things he was afraid of was falling asleep at the wheel.  He has been fine since he started getting treatment for it.

Hi Kathy,                        20 January 2019

You and me both on both counts. I don't know how the referrals got so messed up. The last time I visited my primary I asked them to give me the Neurologist's name, address and phone number. The only thing they had that was current was his name. I looked him up on the net and then went to the office and set up an appointment. I hope they can figure out what is wrong with me aside from being 78. I'll keep you all updated when I find out what is going on inside my melon, good or less good.

Best Always, Love
Christine

Quote from: ChrissyRyan on January 19, 2019, 01:49:17 PM
Christine,

I am sorry that you had the car accident.  I am glad nothing got into your eyes.

Take care,

Chrissy

Hi Chrissy,                     20 January 2019

I'm also sorry and am glad my eyes are OK. Thank you for your concern.

When that tree jumped out in front of me and the car hit it, it was like an explosion. Glass, parts of the car, the dashboard, chunks of tree bark and who knows what all flew into the cockpit showering me with debris. It was a rude awakening, pun intended, to be intimately involved in this fiasco. If only I had consumed a Coke prior to heading out, or better yet, had I listened to the little voice none of this would have happened.

Best Always, Love
Christine

Quote from: GordonG on January 19, 2019, 01:38:52 PM
So sorry to hear about your accident. Life indeed sucks sometimes. But so glad to hear that you were able to walk away from it.

Hi GordonG,                         20 January 2019

Thanks for the kind words. Usually when I find myself in one of those "SUX" moments, it's usually my fault, and this time it was in Spades. You'd think someone 78 would have their stuff together enough to preclude these idiotic decisions.

Best Always, Love
Christine

Quote from: Dietlind on January 19, 2019, 09:32:15 AM
Christine
Those 10 sec naps really succ, don't they.  One misses so many important things while napping!  I modified a vehicle like this (and it was close to Fredericksburg in Texas), mine was a Subaru Outback (exactly one year old!!), but I had to be cut out of the vehicle with those things called Jaws of Life.  Needles to say, no dealer wanted to take my Subaru as a trade in for a new vehicle.

Be careful in the future, as I said,  am not ready to be the only old trans woman here!  And i think you will not get to many takers for your Blazer, after all, who wants an old car like this?  A different version of pimping it might have worked for selling it easier?

Good luck for your future car rides, and be careful!
Hugs and love
Linde

Hi Linde,                       20 January 2019

I'm not sure of the duration of my Nap while "Sleep Driving" but it could have been "worser." I really think the Good Lord allowed me to escape injury to teach me a lesson. Had I been wasted, what would I have learned; only what it's like being on the non-green side of the lawn. As stated earlier, I have one Very Good Reason to stop the foolishness: Dena. I think the Boss Up Stairs wants me to be with Her so He arranged a small demonstration of what can happen when I do stupid things. Yes Boss, I got Your Warning Big Time. Yes Sir, I'm a going to get my act together. Napping while driving ain't going to cut it.

Getting serious, the one really great thing to come out of this is that no innocent person was harmed. As for the tree, it shouldn't have jumped out in front of me, especially since I was napping.

Take care Linde; hang in there mi amiga, you will find your someone special. Thanks my friend.

Best Always, Love
Christine

Quote from: christinej78 on January 20, 2019, 02:43:46 AM

I have a sleep study coming up Thursday 31 January 2019. I hope it's something simple  and doesn't require taking a bunch of medication. Thanks for your concern.

Christine

Just to ease your mind, I have 3 sleep studies behind me over the years.  None of them ended up in meds prescriptions, but a sleep apnea machine, and later different adjustments to that machine (and a different machine),
I am now 10 years into using a C-Pap machine, and I sleep like a baby with it.  Most nights I sleep 7 + hours, of which I have about 5 to 6 hours of REM sleep!  Once you have found the face piece that is most comfortable for you, those machines are nifty little devices.  I don't even think about it anymore, just put the face piece on (I have something under my nostrils only, similar to the oxygen supply tubes, just a little bigger to allow for the higher air volume), and dream away!

Good luck with your study, it is kind of weird to be all wired up!
Hugs
Linde

I am far from an expert on sleep issues but my guess is a mild form of Narcolepsy. She will drift off for as little as a few seconds or as long as 20 minutes then wake up almost as if nothing happened. It's something that dated back to when she was very young and she seems to live by a different biological clock. There doesn't seem to be any breathing problems so I don't think a C-pap machine would make any difference. It's also relatively easy to wake her up as I have done it accidentally by making noise so now I mute my microphone so I can observe what happens naturally.

Quote from: Dena on January 20, 2019, 09:59:19 AM
I am far from an expert on sleep issues but my guess is a mild form of Narcolepsy. She will drift off for as little as a few seconds or as long as 20 minutes then wake up almost as if nothing happened. It's something that dated back to when she was very young and she seems to live by a different biological clock. There doesn't seem to be any breathing problems so I don't think a C-pap machine would make any difference. It's also relatively easy to wake her up as I have done it accidentally by making noise so now I mute my microphone so I can observe what happens naturally.

Here is what the mayo Clinic has to say about diagnosis and treatments.

https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/narcolepsy/diagnosis-treatment/drc-20375503

Quote from: Dena on January 20, 2019, 09:59:19 AM
I am far from an expert on sleep issues but my guess is a mild form of Narcolepsy. She will drift off for as little as a few seconds or as long as 20 minutes then wake up almost as if nothing happened. It's something that dated back to when she was very young and she seems to live by a different biological clock. There doesn't seem to be any breathing problems so I don't think a C-pap machine would make any difference. It's also relatively easy to wake her up as I have done it accidentally by making noise so now I mute my microphone so I can observe what happens naturally.

Hi Dena and Good Morning,                       20 January 2019

Thank You Dear, You are my Guardian Angel and I Love You.

Tomorrow is the day the vascular surgeon will check my DVT and do an ultrasound on both legs. Ten days later, it's the long over due "Sleep Study." I hope they can find an easy treatment that will put this problem in the rear-view mirror. This has gone on far too long and I am at fault for ignoring or "pooh poohing" it over the years.

I now care because You are in my life and You are truly the "Sunshine and Love of My Life" and I don't want that to change or come to an untimely end. I still have at least 25 more years to go; I'll accomplish this if I listen to You, my Angel.

Thank You Dear for Your frank and honest post. I value Your opinion and thoughts and I know You care.

To all here at Susan's, if Dena gives you advice you really should listen to Her; She is extremely Brilliant and knowledgeable and has many years of experience; She truly cares about each and every one of us, not just me.

Thanks everyone for reading and posting.

I Love You Dena Dear,
Your Christine

Quote from: Dietlind on January 20, 2019, 10:22:58 AM
Here is what the mayo Clinic has to say about diagnosis and treatments.

https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/narcolepsy/diagnosis-treatment/drc-20375503

Hi Linde,                    20 January 2019

Thanks for the link Linde. A lot of what I read applies to my situation. I hope we can put and end to this problem as it has gone on far too long. There are times when it doesn't occur, which is when I am physically active. Sitting seems to exacerbate it, and what do we do when we drive ....sit.

Muchas gracias mis amiga.

Best Always, Love
Chris

Hi Christine,

I'm glad you made it through all that with mainly damage to the ego and a "wake up" call so to speak. I hope the sleep study will be illuminating. I can back up Linde's enthusiasm for the C-Pap machine as quite a few friends and family swear by it. It would be an easy and non-medical fix if appropriate.

Take care
Randy

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Quote from: RandyL on January 20, 2019, 12:48:19 PM
Hi Christine,

I'm glad you made it through all that with mainly damage to the ego and a "wake up" call so to speak. I hope the sleep study will be illuminating. I can back up Linde's enthusiasm for the C-Pap machine as quite a few friends and family swear by it. It would be an easy and non-medical fix if appropriate.

Take care
Randy

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Hi Randy,                           20 January 2019

Thank you for your concern and comments. This has been going on for most of my life. When I was a kid I'd fall asleep in school, at the movies, just about anywhere there wasn't physical activity. One thing that helps to prevent this is caffeine. I can drink a Coke or take a "Stay Awake" caffeine pill and I'm good to go. Of all the effects of caffeine, the most significant is that it blocks the action of Adenosine on its receptor, consequently preventing the onset of drowsiness induced by adenosine. I think this could be a clue to my problem.

For years I have carried Coke with me on long trips to prevent drowsiness. I don't like caffeine but it can be a life saver. I was just too bull headed to return home before the disaster struck. I did make it to the store and back without further incident.

I just wish the sleep study was sooner than 11 days away. I'm going to print what Dena wrote in Her post and take it with me to the study. Her comments are from first hand observation; I trust what my Guardian Angel thinks and says. Her observations are much more accurate and detailed than mine.

Thanks Randy, hope all is going well with you on your journey.

Best Always, love
Chris

Quote from: christinej78 on January 20, 2019, 03:55:58 PM
Hi Randy,                           20 January 2019

Thank you for your concern and comments. This has been going on for most of my life. When I was a kid I'd fall asleep in school, at the movies, just about anywhere there wasn't physical activity. One thing that helps to prevent this is caffeine. I can drink a Coke or take a "Stay Awake" caffeine pill and I'm good to go. Of all the effects of caffeine, the most significant is that it blocks the action of Adenosine on its receptor, consequently preventing the onset of drowsiness induced by adenosine. I think this could be a clue to my problem.

For years I have carried Coke with me on long trips to prevent drowsiness. I don't like caffeine but it can be a life saver. I was just too bull headed to return home before the disaster struck. I did make it to the store and back without further incident.

I just wish the sleep study was sooner than 11 days away. I'm going to print what Dena wrote in Her post and take it with me to the study. Her comments are from first hand observation; I trust what my Guardian Angel thinks and says. Her observations are much more accurate and detailed than mine.

Thanks Randy, hope all is going well with you on your journey.

Best Always, love
Chris

@christinej78
Dear Christine:
     Subject:  Bent metal, glass shards, and sleep>>> message to Christine
For a several days now I have been closely following your thread and your exciting adventure of going to buy some milk at 10pm in the middle of skype sessions to a gal we both know in Arizona.

I am so very glad that you survived and still have a sense of humor...  please know that you have a lot of caring friends that are always concerned for your well-being.   I am glad that so far your DVT concerns are becoming less of a concern... and that your injuries and eye concerns are not seemingly an issue.   Please keep us all informed of any ongoing health problems... and of course we all want to hear about your sleep study at the end of this month.

I have fallen asleep at the wheel myself a few times but the one bad time I was on an Interstate and ended up sideswiping a guard rail and ruining the entire left side of my vehicle...  if I would have fallen asleep just a few seconds later I would have hit a concrete bridge abutment head-on at 70 MPH and I probably wouldn't be around to write this message to you.  That pretty well cured me so now if I find myself in the place of having a hard time keeping my eyes open I will pull off of the road and take a cat-nap and then carefully drive off to find somewhere to get some strong hot coffee or possibly a hotel room for the night.   Arriving a day late alive and kicking is better than arriving in a casket.

Any luck on selling your 1999 S10 Blazer with a full tank of gas and new tires ... sounds quite tempting?

Keep writing, sharing, and posting...  you are a most interesting member here on the forums for sure..

Hugs and well wishes as always.
Danielle

Quote from: Alaskan Danielle on January 20, 2019, 04:23:16 PM
@christinej78
Dear Christine:
     Subject:  Bent metal, glass shards, and sleep>>> message to Christine
For a several days now I have been closely following your thread and your exciting adventure of going to buy some milk at 10pm in the middle of skype sessions to a gal we both know in Arizona.
Any luck on selling your, your 1999 S10 Blazer with a full tank of gas and new tires is quite tempting?
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Keep writing, sharing, and posting...  you are a most interesting member here on the forums for sure..

Hugs and well wishes as always.
Danielle

Hi Danielle,                          20 January 2019

Thank you young lady. I gave up coffee in May 1986. I was drinking 20 cups a day minimum, a six-pack of Coke and had a diet that was almost total fat and cholesterol. I landed in the Emergency Room (When have I experienced that?) with my BP at 400/200, my heart skipping beats and who knows what else was wrong.

I talked to my Boss Upstairs, you know, The Good Lord. I made him a promise that if he would fix my problems I'd change my ways. He did and I did and for a long time I behaved myself. Back then, before I changed, I ate and drank everything I shouldn't and nothing of what I should. Once out of the Hospital, I turned a new leaf. 18 years later I was in the best shape of my life. I was 64, breezed through the Police Academy and was on top of the world.

I plan to get back on top again, probably not as high as before but I'm not going to throw in the towel any time soon. I have a Very Important Person waiting for me in Phoenix. Dena is the best Person and Lady to ever be a part my life and that includes my family; she surpasses everyone and I'm not about to do anything to mess things up. I know I have come close but those close calls should now be extinct. There are no words to adequately describe how much She means to me. As I've said: She Is the Sunshine and the Love Of My Life.

Thank you young lady for your comments and concerns.

Best Always, Love
Chris

Christine,
I am glad that you are OK.
So, what can we now do about that poor delusional and misguided tree's apparent wanderlust. I am sure it's been traumatized by unwittingly modifying a 20 year old steel and glass cage; I can all but feel it's angst and pain. How can we get it some help? I have heard of tree surgeons but a Google search of Topiary Therapists has precious few practitioners in your neck of the woods.

Keep smiling - or we'll sic Dena on you. (Thanks, sweet lady.)
Susan

Quote from: christinej78 on January 20, 2019, 03:55:58 PM
Hi Randy,                           20 January 2019

Thank you for your concern and comments. This has been going on for most of my life. When I was a kid I'd fall asleep in school, at the movies, just about anywhere there wasn't physical activity. One thing that helps to prevent this is caffeine. I can drink a Coke or take a "Stay Awake" caffeine pill and I'm good to go. Of all the effects of caffeine, the most significant is that it blocks the action of Adenosine on its receptor, consequently preventing the onset of drowsiness induced by adenosine. I think this could be a clue to my problem.

For years I have carried Coke with me on long trips to prevent drowsiness. I don't like caffeine but it can be a life saver. I was just too bull headed to return home before the disaster struck. I did make it to the store and back without further incident.

I just wish the sleep study was sooner than 11 days away. I'm going to print what Dena wrote in Her post and take it with me to the study. Her comments are from first hand observation; I trust what my Guardian Angel thinks and says. Her observations are much more accurate and detailed than mine.

Thanks Randy, hope all is going well with you on your journey.

Best Always, love
Chris

Please don't them tel what Dena feels, until they ask for it.  Best is when they do the study without knowing anything they are not asking for.  This way it can be ensured that the study result are not biased (remember, the people evaluating the data are also humans, and can be subconsciously influenced, we don't want that to happen).  Once the study is finished, the data is evaluated, you can give Dena's information as additional data points to the physician, and they can see if the additional information has anything to due with the obtained results, and they can act/react accordingly.
They will find the reason for your problem, they are professionals who do this a lot of times every week.


I hope everything turns out that you just don't sleep well at night, because you had a pea under the sheets! :angel:

Good luck!  Be good and be brave!
Hugs
Linde

Quote from: Dietlind on January 20, 2019, 07:55:59 PM
Please don't them tel what Dena feels, until they ask for it.  Best is when they do the study without knowing anything they are not asking for.  This way it can be ensured that the study result are not biased (remember, the people evaluating the data are also humans, and can be subconsciously influenced, we don't want that to happen).  Once the study is finished, the data is evaluated, you can give Dena's information as additional data points to the physician, and they can see if the additional information has anything to due with the obtained results, and they can act/react accordingly.
They will find the reason for your problem, they are professionals who do this a lot of times every week.


I hope everything turns out that you just don't sleep well at night, because you had a pea under the sheets! :angel:

Good luck!  Be good and be brave!
Hugs
Linde

Hi Linde,                       20 January 2019

Thank you so much, that is an excellent point you made.

I sure hope Susan and everyone else at/on Susan's knows and understands what a treasure they have in Dena and Linde. You both are brilliant, well educated, informed, experienced and are both fantastic sources of valuable information, Anyone ignoring the advice you both provide does so at their own peril. I may come across as biased, and I am and should be; I have made no secret of the fact that I Love Dena with all my heart and soul, but that fact doesn't color what I am saying here. We all have a real treasure in these two members of Susan's Place. I hope everyone here appreciates them as well as I do.

Best Always, Love
Christine

Now you made an old lady blush!
But thank you for your confidence in me!
Hugs
Linde

Hi Folks,                         21 January 2019

Had my appointment with the vascular surgeon today. All is not bad but things are not as good as I'd have liked. I cannot remember all the medical terms that were laid on my plate today. Thursday I will pick up the Doctor's report and his diagnosis. Once I have it I'll be able to share it with you.

He did tell me to stay off the Estradiol until after I see my Primary, a hematologist, my endocrinologist and him again. What is going on is complicated but manageable. I will be wearing Medical Compression Hosiery from now on. The pair I bought at the doctors office are of the alluring colour Beige; I can hardly wait to (gag, gag) put them on.

The good news is they do have other colours; just so happens they do make them in Pink so I can assure you I will have a couple pair in that colour along with some in Violet and Fuchsia if they are available. Beige just doesn't ring my bell.

He did say the Estradiol could have contributed to the DVT in that Estrogen is a factor in clotting as is Testosterone, except more so for estrogen, which is why more women develop blood clots than men. Now I find out. There will be a way around this. I think the hematologist and endocrinologist will be able to come up with something so I can get back on the estradiol and my feminization process.

I know DVT's are serious business and nothing to be sneezed at. They can kill you or mess you up so badly that you will wish they had.

The Doctor was upset that the emergency room PA instructed me to NOT wear a compression stocking.

The ultrasound done today was more comprehensive than the one done in ER. The lady doing the study only found one clot, but she found other problems that very well may have contributed to my DVT. If there were two clots, then I have made progress. He did inform me that the clot they found today may never disappear completely. I didn't like hearing that but reality is what it is so no point in dwelling on it. I'm just going to seek out the best medical care I can and will follow what they instruct me to do.

I can be a pretty obstinate individual and I am going to do everything I possibly can to clean up this mess and get back as close as possible to normal. This and my tree meeting have been humbling experiences. I've always thought on myself as bullet proof; that illusion is now history.

As soon as I know more I'll post it. In the mean time I appreciate your concern and comments. I thank you for your support, you make me proud to be a member of this great family.

Thank You Dena for being the Love of My Life. I Love You Dear, Christine

Best Always, Love
Chris

Christine,
Just hang in there my friend we cross all possible limbs for you.  You ill do it, and come out with shining colors!

Lots of hugs
Linde

Hi Christine,

I just wanted to drop in to say that I hope you're doing better and pray that things work out for the best. You were always there to support me last year when things weren't going well for me and my wife.
I'm thinking of you!

Please take care of yourself.

@christinej78
Dear Chris:
I am glad that you had your followup exam a couple days ago... and that the news while not all bad, certainly did have some good news mixed in.

None of us are bulletproof, to use your term.   Medications, previous health issues and as you are painfully aware "age" are all a big factor.   Certainly any drugs we take, certainly HRT included, promotes positive things that we want to happen... but the side-effects can sometimes appear to be worse than what the drugs are treating.

I am 38 years old, in a couple weeks I will be 39, and I already know that I don't have the stamina and energy that I had some years earlier... I don't know how I will ever make it to 60 or more at this rate!!!.....  but I will keep on keeping on, staying as active as possible.

As our dear friend @Katie Ellen mentioned about supporting you with hope and prayers, I will be sending up prayers for your health as well....   and please know that others that follow your thread will also be certainly wishing you well with their thoughts, prayers, support and best wishes.

Please continue to keep us updated and continue your fight to regain your good health and then be able to focus again on your transition journey.... we are all your biggest fans and we are all rooting for you.

You are a bright shining star and an example for us all of staying positive in light of the difficulties that life throws at you.
My many HUGS and my well wishes to you. [emoji173]
Danielle

Hi Folks,                       29 January 2019

Hmm, seems I have been neglecting this thread. After a bit of prodding I thought I'd take a few minutes before returning to the rack, (got up to P) to update everyone.

Have an appointment tomorrow, Wednesday 30 Jan 19, with a Hematologist to see what may have caused the DVT. There are certain factors (Markers) in our blood that may predispose us to these nasty events. Hopefully I'll find out I don't have any and can get back on my hormones. When I get the results, I'll let you-all know.

Thursday, 31 Jan 19, I have my preliminary appointment for a sleep study. I'm sure you all have read about the tree that jumped out in front of me. Well, some people sleep walk or walk in their sleep. Then there are folks like me that sleep drive or drive in their sleep. Apparently I have a problem that causes me to drop off at the most inopportune times, to wit the tree incident. I checked the tree yesterday, doesn't seem any worse for wear and tear. Darn those immovable objects; you should see the car. I'll try to post a photo one of these days before I send it off to the scrap heap.

That meet up kind of put a dent in my vehicle's ability to provide me protection from wet and cold weather so I decided to bring out my favorite car, that I have allowed to languish in semi-retirement, or maybe an extended vacation. At any rate, the trusty old Crown Vic seems to have developed a couple problems just sitting around. Since the CV was my trusty Police Car when I was a cop, I want to rehabilitate her and get her back on the road.

I chose to drive the Blazer only because it has a lot of room in the back for my tree tools and it works well for the three pups when they have to go somewhere. But, it is by far the most uncomfortable vehicle I have ever driven or ridden in. There's just no room in the front area for anyone over 3 feet tall. Also the seats are a sorry excuse for something that holds our posterior in its confines. I think the people that designed this car were sadists; being in this car for any trip over 5 miles was/is a real pain in the can. Hopefully, I'll have the CV back in top notch shape in short order.

On Monday 11 Feb 19, I have a visit scheduled with my Endocrinologist. Between her, the hematologist, my vascular surgeon and my primary doctor, we will decide if I can return to Estradiol. Just a note here; We have been warned that Estradiol can cause DVT's; So can Testosterone. Both hormones cause the blood to be sticky but "E" makes it stickier than "T" does. Nothing is perfect, there's always something that can upset the apple cart.

Not to forget Thursday 28 Feb 19 I have another ultrasound of both legs at the local Baylor hospital. By the time all this is done, three months will have elapsed since Dena saved my life.

Since I am a poor decision maker, Dena and I have decided she will have the final say on my decisions, other than mundane items like which panties to wear today; I can make those without endangering anyone.

I gotta go, I got up to P, have a cup of hot chocolate, which I did and now it's time to return to the rack, lots to do today.

Thank You Dena Dear, I Love You, Christine

Remember folks, She saved my buns so I could continue posting my sordid life's story, which reminds me I haven't posted a story in a while.

My best recommendation for everyone is "Don't try the stuff I have done." It's a prescription for disaster.

Best Always, Love
Chris

Chris - You are not alone. I believe I've been to the doctor or ER more in the last year, than I have over the rest of my life! Some of that because of neglect (colonoscopy,etc), but a lot of it from my body getting older and/or HRT follow-up,etc.

I have a follow-up today with my urologist for my kidney stone surgery and I'm probably going to need to see my GP for my back pain from my fall last week.

Oh well, could be worse!

Take care!

@christinej78
Dear Christine:
It is so nice to see that you have returned to your thread to treat us all (your followers) to you wisdom and life endeavors as you travel down your personal transition road.

I am so happy that you survived your recent serious life events and that you are wisely seeking additional medical advice for various health issues.   You are only issued ONE BODY when you were born so you have to take the best care of it that you can... and as you have shared, it is wonderful to have someone special looking out for your well-being.

Thank you for allowing us and feeling free to share with us about you life endeavors...  you have certainly lived and interesting life so far, and I have a feeling that there is so much more to come for you.

As always, I will be eagerly following your thread and your postings all around the forums.   
Also, as you and I have already been doing, please feel free to continue exchanging PMs with me.
Great big HUGS and well wishes to you.
Danielle

Hi Folks,                       26 February 2019

It has been almost a month since I updated this thread. My tree accident happened about a month and 9 days ago. I have a second car that I preferred over the Blazer, but chose the Blazer as my daily driver because it was handy for taking the pups to the places they have to go and for hauling my Arborist equipment.

Since I turned the Blazer into a  semi-drivable junk pile, I am limited in when and where I can drive it. Back in 2011, 09 June to be exact, I decided to quit driving my 2000 Crown Victoria; I let it sit for almost 8 years. I'd start it periodically to keep the battery charged and to let it know I hadn't forsaken it. About four years ago it wouldn't start; the electric fuel pump up and quit. So it sat here until the Blazer disaster. I have been working on the problems I have found with it that would prevent it from passing the mandatory safety/global warming inspection.

I found that the windshield wipers only worked on high speed and wouldn't park, the neutral safety switch is defective and of course the fuel pump, which is in the fuel tank, is Kaput and was immersed in approximately 17 or so gallons of 8 year old stale fuel. So far I have managed to extract over 15 gallons of that stinky substance, replaced the wiper motor and have the car ready for a new windshield, which I forgot to mention that it needs.

Tomorrow the neutral safety switch will be replaced and if time and weather permits, I will tackle the fuel pump which requires removing the fuel tank, a nasty job at best. I checked with the Ford dealer to see what they would charge and got an estimate of $1100.00. Being retired and on a fixed income, I decided I could do the job a whole lot cheaper and probably better. It just takes me longer due to the weather and sheer laziness. My current goal is to have it running by Friday. That may be fantasy, but what the heck, I can dream can't I.

The Crown Vic was my cop car and is still my favorite ride. It's fast and maneuverable and handles well. It's been over 140 mph during a few high speed chases, which I won against motorcycles. I won because I was a crazier idiot than the idiots I was chasing. Those days are long behind me and I know Dena would kick my backside if I ever tried anything like that again.

Once the Vic gets to Phoenix, it's going to the body shop for a minor bit of body work to patch the bullet holes and a nice paint job and new leather interior. I'm considering Pink in place of the original black with a pink and blue leather interior to replace the current dark gray.

Thursday I go in for another ultrasound of my legs to see if the DVT has hopefully  disappeared or is digressing at a significant rate. Will let you know. The drug I am on is Xarelto which seems to be working well. It does have some issues relative to bleeding out if cut or a hemorrhage occurs. There is no known antidote like there is for warfarin or some of the other blood "thinners' (actually anticoagulants) that some folks take. The med I'm on is usually a 6 month course of treatment. I have a little under three months to go if everything goes well and the doctor thinks I can be weaned off this drug. I'm sure I'll have to go on something to help prevent further DVT's or other clots. I'm hoping I can resume HRT; I miss it, I'm not as happy as I was, don't sleep as well as before stopping HRT, peeing is becoming slightly more difficult though not as it was before I began HRT. Everything is going to be up to my doctors; I have no intention of going it alone (self medicating), I have one habit I want to continue with and that's Breathing.

Take care, I'll post any info I get that's relevant to this situation.

Best Always, Love
Christine

@christinej78
Dear Christine:
I just want you to hear it from one of your faithful followers... ME ...   that a MONTH is way too long for you to update us on your thread.   As followers, we want to follow and you have deprived us of going along with you during your latest life endeavors... good and bad adventures for sure.

I am so glad that have have survived your harrowing and life threatening events of late and that you are still with us here on the forums.

Please don't wait so long to check in next time... in fact, another update or two today would be just wonderful!!!   Pictures are allowed here also... just a reminder since you have not posted any pictures lately.

Many hugs, best wishes, and trusting for your good health,
Danielle

Hello Christine.
I am very glad to hear that you are doing well, but going down that low to drive a Crown Vicy?  Even the interceptor versi ws a dog (same dog type as the Chevy Caprice interceptor I owned once)140 mph I did with a rented Mini cooper S in Germany on the Freeway, and I was not the fastest car there.  My chipped Quattro TT roadster could do close to 160 mph, and still was pretty Ok to handle.  But I would be scared like heck doing 140 in a Crown Vic!

Anyway, now that I am, like you,  a member of the club without balls, testosterone does not want me to drive that fast anymore anyway, and I do the easy peasy way of purely estrogen controlled emotions!

I hope you will continue to heal well, and everything goes as planned!
Take care and lot's of hug!
Linde

Quote from: Dietlind on February 27, 2019, 09:34:03 AM
Hello Christine.
I am very glad to hear that you are doing well, but going down that low to drive a Crown Vicy?  Even the interceptor versi ws a dog (same dog type as the Chevy Caprice interceptor I owned once)140 mph I did with a rented Mini cooper S in Germany on the Freeway, and I was not the fastest car there.  My chipped Quattro TT roadster could do close to 160 mph, and still was pretty Ok to handle.  But I would be scared like heck doing 140 in a Crown Vic!

Anyway, now that I am, like you,  a member of the club without balls, testosterone does not want me to drive that fast anymore anyway, and I do the easy peasy way of purely estrogen controlled emotions!

I hope you will continue to heal well, and everything goes as planned!
Take care and lot's of hug!
Linde

Hi Linde,                                   05 March 2109                   "The 50th Anniversary of my Quitting Smoking."

On Thursday 28 February 2019, I had a "Bilateral Lower Extremity Venous Ultra Sound." In laymen's terms, they used a sonar system to check the two outer legs for blood clots. Today, 05 March 2019 I went to the records Department of Baylor Hospital Grapevine, Texas to obtain a copy of the radiologist's report.

The Radiologist's diagnosis: "No convincing sonographic evidence of DVT in either outer lower extremity." In other words, the Blood Clot (DVT) appears to be history.

There's still more testing to be done. I have a blood test scheduled with the Hematologist 17 April 2019 for a D-Dimer test. This is a complex test that indicates if there are remaining clots and how the body and meds are handling them (Disposing of Them).

Right now I feel very happy to have received this good news. I'm more happy because Dena spotted the DVT symptoms and sent me packing to the Hospital. She saved my life; if it hadn't been for her I would probably have ignored the symptoms until it was too late. Thank You Dena, You are the Love of My Life.

Hopefully, my Crown Vic will be running this week.

Hope all is going well for you Linde. I'm assuming your surgery went well, no complications and is completely healed.

Best Always, Love
Christine

Hello again Christine

It is so wonderful to read that yesterday the radiologist's report confirmed DVT problem resolved and I hope you get further good news and confirmation from hematologist on April 17th.

In case you don't know, I have a thread on HRT Board and as you may see there, I am going fulltime as soon as I sell my house - so hopefully in Summer.

Wishing both You and Dena good health and happiness.

Hugs to you both.

Pamela

Quote from: christinej78 on March 06, 2019, 12:09:10 AM
Hi Linde,                                   05 March 2109                   "The 50th Anniversary of my Quitting Smoking."

On Thursday 28 February 2019, I had a "Bilateral Lower Extremity Venous Ultra Sound." In laymen's terms, they used a sonar system to check the two outer legs for blood clots. Today, 05 March 2019 I went to the records Department of Baylor Hospital Grapevine, Texas to obtain a copy of the radiologist's report.

The Radiologist's diagnosis: "No convincing sonographic evidence of DVT in either outer lower extremity." In other words, the Blood Clot (DVT) appears to be history.

There's still more testing to be done. I have a blood test scheduled with the Hematologist 17 April 2019 for a D-Dimer test. This is a complex test that indicates if there are remaining clots and how the body and meds are handling them (Disposing of Them).

Right now I feel very happy to have received this good news. I'm more happy because Dena spotted the DVT symptoms and sent me packing to the Hospital. She saved my life; if it hadn't been for her I would probably have ignored the symptoms until it was too late. Thank You Dena, You are the Love of My Life.

Hopefully, my Crown Vic will be running this week.

Hope all is going well for you Linde. I'm assuming your surgery went well, no complications and is completely healed.

Best Always, Love
Christine

It is great to hear the good news about your clots and all!
Yes, I lost my balls for good now.  I still have a little blood spotting, but I am told that is normal.  This made me to start to use female maxi pads.  A new learning experience was to find the best way to put them into my underwear and still fell OK comfy sitting on them! I am now so versed in doing this that I am ready to handle any Periode I might ever get.   >:-)

I think it is now about time, to phase out my guy briefs, because the extra packing pouch in them is not really needed anymore, and I. don't plan to use the convenience of urinals in my future life.

Any way, I hope the Crown Vicky  will be running nice and smooth for you, and glide with you all the way over to Arizona!

Good luck with the new maiden drive, and even more good luck with those DVT pests!
Love
Linde

Quote from: pamelatransuk on March 06, 2019, 06:01:55 AM
Hello again Christine

It is so wonderful to read that yesterday the radiologist's report confirmed DVT problem resolved and I hope you get further good news and confirmation from hematologist on April 17th.

In case you don't know, I have a thread on HRT Board and as you may see there, I am going fulltime as soon as I sell my house - so hopefully in Summer.

Wishing both You and Dena good health and happiness.

Hugs to you both.

Pamela

Hi Pamela,                                     07 March 2019

Thank you so much for your kind words and post. I'm happy you are going full time. I know you will enjoy being who you are and want to be. Originally, one of my regrets was that I didn't transition long ago. That's no longer the case.

Had I transitioned then, chances are I'd never have met Dena. Meeting Dena and falling in Love with Her has brought new meaning and purpose to my life.

I'll be sure to find your new thread and will bookmark it. I'm sure it will be interesting, informative and fun.

Wishing you everything good that life has to offer. I know you will be a success. God Bless You.

Best Always, Love
Christine

Quote from: Dietlind on March 06, 2019, 08:51:48 AM
It is great to hear the good news about your clots and all!
Yes, I lost my balls for good now.  I still have a little blood spotting, but I am told that is normal.  This made me to start to use female maxi pads.  A new learning experience was to find the best way to put them into my underwear and still fell OK comfy sitting on them! I am now so versed in doing this that I am ready to handle any Periode I might ever get.   >:-)

I think it is now about time, to phase out my guy briefs, because the extra packing pouch in them is not really needed anymore, and I. don't plan to use the convenience of urinals in my future life.

Any way, I hope the Crown Vicky  will be running nice and smooth for you, and glide with you all the way over to Arizona!

Good luck with the new maiden drive, and even more good luck with those DVT pests!
Love
Linde

Hi Linde,                              07 March 2019

Thanks for the good wishes. I'm glad the DVT appears to be heading for the ash heap. Those things can be more dangerous than most people think. Had it not been for Dena, I'd have most likely ignored it until it was too late.

Ol Miss Vicky has been languishing for 8 years. It'll be nice to have her as my main ride again. I've been driving a 1999 S10 Blazer (Chev), one of the most uncomfortable automobiles I have yet to drive and/or ride in.

I trashed off men's underwear about 49 years ago when my wife had me try a pair of her panties. No going back except one time when I purged. That didn't last long, just wasted a lot of money. Now I barely own anything male unless it's stuff for dirty work. I have some nice expensive clothing I'm planning on having a tailor feminize for me; too nice to trash or sell.

Take care Linde, enjoy not having those pesky things dangling between the legs. Getting rid of mine was like a dream come true. I could hardly wait to get in the OR and have them removed from my body forever. I never liked having them, even before I knew what they were for. Once I get to Phoenix my plan is for Dena and me to visit Dr. Ley and see about feminizing my outie into an innie.

Take good care my friend.

Best Always, Love
Christine

Dietlind, I hope wearing pads works out fine for you.  I could never could get use to the feeling and messiness of wearing them and sure glad when I found out about tampon.

Quote from: mm on March 07, 2019, 10:28:10 AM
Dietlind, I hope wearing pads works out fine for you.  I could never could get use to the feeling and messiness of wearing them and sure glad when I found out about tampon.

MM, I do pretty OK with the pads, tampons would not work on me, because I don't have he orifice to put a tampon in.  I hope I will done pretty soon with the pads, because my wound spotting becomes less and less.

Hi Folks,                        20 March 2019

Here we are, almost 1 quarter of the year used up. I did accomplish a few things, which will follow:

Monday evening I had a sleep study to find out why I keep falling asleep at inappropriate times. Dena had been on my case to get it done since last year. I wasn't procrastinating, it was a mix up at the doctor's office. Had I had it done when Dena suggested it, I most likely would not have had the accident I had 17 January 2019.

The sleep technician woke me up about 0625 Tuesday morning and said they found the problem. The only comment she made was: "Dena saved your life again." I have been trying to decode her message and have developed a couple theories, which I'll leave where they lie. Hopefully I'll have a follow up this week or early next week.

As you are probably aware I have been working on Vic, my favorite car, which was my cop car when I was a LEO. She is now running extremely well. On Thursday 14 March 19, I sent her to a shop to have the new fuel pump installed. At 1724 hours CDT I received a call that I could take Vic home and that she would be ready when I got there. I drove her home, the first time I had driven her in almost 8 years. What a pleasure it was to feel and hear the power of her mighty engine.

There were still a few things I had to do. She needed her fuel injectors cleaned, a couple rubber insulators installed on the exhaust system. I added  fuel injector cleaner to the fuel tank and drove her a fair amount. After about 150 miles the "Check Engine" light came on. She was running lean in both banks, a good indication that the injectors were a bit clogged. Added more injector cleaner and drove her a bit hard. The more I drove her the better she ran. On Monday 18 March 19 I took her in for inspection. She passed.

Yesterday I bought her a new set of tires; what a difference that made to her ride quality. I have continued driving her a bit hard, lots of hard acceleration to help clear the injectors. Today I took all my paperwork to the county tax office and registered her. They even allowed me to use the same plate she got about 15 years ago. When I got home I put the new sticker on her new windscreen and fastened the plate to the rear. She is now legal to drive in 50 of the 57 states. I did take her out for a couple fast romps. I'm sure she is as happy as I am to have her back doing what she does so well. I know she will enjoy having Dena at her controls once we get to Phoenix.

That's about it until I hear from the sleep follow up. I'll be sure to let you know the results.

Best Always, Love
Christine

@christinej78
Dear Christine:
Thank you for posting your long awaited update...
It was interesting reading about your life endeavors and things your have been dealing with.

sleep .... cars.... and tires!!!!    No more blood clot issues thankfully!!!!!

Please stay healthy and alive my friend... I enjoy your musings on your thread and  your postings around the forums... and  the PMs that you send to me....

Hugs and best wishes for a happy life.
Danielle

Hi Everyone,                           27 March 2019

Today marks the 1st anniversary of my starting HRT; notice the key word "Starting." This first year of HRT has been interrupted by a DVT that appeared 23 November 2018; I have been off "Her-mones" ever since. I was on almost 8 months and have been off a bit over four. Yes, I am happy to be alive but not happy to be off.

I had my sleep study on 18 -  19 March. I have a follow-up appointment this Friday 29 March at 1145 hrs CDT. I'm anxious to learn what is causing my problem with staying awake. Hope it's something simple like "Eat more Chocolate Chip Cookies." That would be great but not going to hold my breath.

On 17 April 2019 I have an appointment for another D-Dimer blood test that looks for signs of disintegrating blood clots. If it's above 0.5 then I still have a clot or clots that need to be eradicated. Will I ever get back on Her-mones? I sure hope so as my transition is kind of like a car stuck in Neutral; going nowhere fast.

After the blood test I have an appointment with the hematologist 24 April to figure out how much longer I need to be on Xarelto and what can I do HRT wise. That will require a coordinated consultation between the Hematologist and my Endocrinologist.

So medically, that's where I am at this moment, thankfully, I'm still here.

Yesterday was the day the "wreck," my old Blazer was laid to rest. She served me well for almost 13 years. Believe me, I didn't shed a tear as I rode away leaving her sitting in the Auto Recycler's parking lot. She was without a doubt the most uncomfortable vehicle I have ever ridden in or driven. Now it's Vic taking me where I need to go, though only during daylight hours.

Maybe next time I'll have something more interesting to write about. Wishing you all the very best along your journey along your chosen highway.

Lastly, but not leastly, I want to Thank the Love of My Life for Saving it. Thank You Dena, I Love You With All My Heart and Soul.

Best Always, Love
Chris

@christinej78
Dear Chris:
Sending you my hearty CONGRATULATIONS on your ONE year HRT anniversary.   
A day that you will want to always celebrate for sure.

Thank for you update today, I am also glad that @Dena saved your life... 
... the Forums would not be the same without your incredible posts of your life endeavors.   I really mean that too!!!
I also am so very glad that you survived your DVT episode... that is dangerous stuff for sure!!!

Yes indeed, chocolate in any form, especially Chocolate Chip Cookies always helps me to sleep like a baby, I  hope that it works for you!!

Hey, how about a picture of your Crown Vic restored cop car???   I would enjoy seeing that if you feel so led to post it.

Thank you again for sharing your update, I always look for your postings whenever I log in.

Hugs and best wishes to you.
Danielle

Hi Christine
I think it would be very unfair if you would be forced to eat chocolate chip cookies!  If I am not allowed to eat them (because off diabetes), you should not be either! 
I hope they find a solution for you sleep problems.  I have my own, but a Cpap machine seems to have solved mine.  I  am on this air pump now for almost 20 years, and do well with it!

I hope your blood clot condition will be over and healed soon, and you can get back onto the good stuff!  And off the two of us can march towards a nice set of bottom surgery!
Take care and be well
Hugs
Linde

Quote from: Dietlind on March 27, 2019, 06:00:27 PM
Hi Christine
I think it would be very unfair if you would be forced to eat chocolate chip cookies!  If I am not allowed to eat them (because off diabetes), you should not be either! 
I hope they find a solution for you sleep problems.  I have my own, but a Cpap machine seems to have solved mine.  I  am on this air pump now for almost 20 years, and do well with it!

I hope your blood clot condition will be over and healed soon, and you can get back onto the good stuff!  And off the two of us can march towards a nice set of bottom surgery!
Take care and be well
Hugs
Linde

Hi Linde,                             27 March 2019

Thanks for the nice comments Linde. Dena and I have discussed bottom surgery. Her thinking is the Cosmetic/Zero Depth would be appropriate for me. As I have mentioned previously I have no desire to be with a male so why go through the extra  surgery and maintenance a full depth VJ requires.

Once I'm settled in Phoenix, Dena and I will discuss it further and then make an appointment with Dr. Ley for her opinion. One of the things I want is to do this without General Anesthesia and no sedation. I would prefer a spinal or epidural as opposed to GA. I don't do well with it and I had problems the last time I had it, which was about 5 years ago.

I hope you're all healed from your recent surgery and are enjoying the freedom one experiences without the distraction caused by the evil twins.

One thing for certain, I don't miss those two nutty things and "Wilma" doesn't seem to either; She gets a lot more rest these days.

Take care mis amiga.

Best Always, Love
Christine

Quote from: christinej78 on March 27, 2019, 07:40:55 PM
Hi Linde,                             27 March 2019

Thanks for the nice comments Linde. Dena and I have discussed bottom surgery. Her thinking is the Cosmetic/Zero Depth would be appropriate for me. As I have mentioned previously I have no desire to be with a male so why go through the extra  surgery and maintenance a full depth VJ requires.

Once I'm settled in Phoenix, Dena and I will discuss it further and then make an appointment with Dr. Ley for her opinion. One of the things I want is to do this without General Anesthesia and no sedation. I would prefer a spinal or epidural as opposed to GA. I don't do well with it and I had problems the last time I had it, which was about 5 years ago.

I hope you're all healed from your recent surgery and are enjoying the freedom one experiences without the distraction caused by the evil twins.

One thing for certain, I don't miss those two nutty things and "Wilma" doesn't seem to either; She gets a lot more rest these days.

Take care mis amiga.

Best Always, Love
Christine

Christine
I am a minimal depth believer, too!  But you idea of doing this with a local and no sedation, is a pretty tall one!  We are talking about a surgery that lasts several hours, and requires some extensive fine needle work and creative sewing!  That means, your neither parts have to be motion free for quite some time.  I have my doubts if that can be guaranteed with a spinal only?  If it is know that you did not do well the last time, and the data of that surgery is available, a good anesthetist  could mix a cocktail based on that data that is less complicated for your system.  The earlier you and the medical team are getting to talk about this, the better everything can be arranged in such a way that you will do pretty Ok with the anesthesia, while still meeting the technical requirements of the surgeon.  And the result will be a win/win situation!

I wish you further luck with everything, and everything work out well, we can later do a vulva comparison to see which one is prettier!  >:-)

Quote from: Alaskan Danielle on March 27, 2019, 04:42:56 PM
@christinej78
Dear Chris:
Sending you my hearty CONGRATULATIONS on your ONE year HRT anniversary.   
A day that you will want to always celebrate for sure.

Thank for you update today, I am also glad that @Dena saved your life... 
... the Forums would not be the same without your incredible posts of your life endeavors.   I really mean that too!!!
I also am so very glad that you survived your DVT episode... that is dangerous stuff for sure!!!

Yes indeed, chocolate in any form, especially Chocolate Chip Cookies always helps me to sleep like a baby, I  hope that it works for you!!

Hey, how about a picture of your Crown Vic restored cop car???   I would enjoy seeing that if you feel so led to post it.

Thank you again for sharing your update, I always look for your postings whenever I log in.

Hugs and best wishes to you.
Danielle

Hi Danielle,                         27 March 2019

I have one problem with Chocolate Chip Cookies, no matter how many or how few there are I'll eat every one of them. I especially like them frozen as well as almost any cookie. Does Oreo ring a bell?

The Crown Vic needs to be repainted. I plan to have it done once I'm in Phoenix. Dena knows folks in the paint business that do impeccable work so I'll probably have them strip it and clean up the minor dings (Hail), bullet holes  and anything not perfect. I was thinking of having it painted Pink but decided to keep it black. The interior didn't suffer  from the prolonged storage outside, still looks new inside. I do want to have it reupholstered in dark denim blue with bright pink accents. Haven't decided on the design yet.

Texas has Vanity plates, which are produced by a civilian company that has a contract with the state. Once I had Vic up and running I decided to buy a special plate for her. I went to their site and found that I could get a pink plate with white letters, seven to be exact. I called them up and asked if I could have MTF TRAN. They said yes, took my order and $195.00 of my money. I thought I would have the neatest plate in Texas. I was told it would take about 4 weeks for the plate to be produced. After about a week and a half I called them to check on the status of my order. I was told that the Texas Dept. of Transportation declined my requested plate because my choice was a derogatory statement. I called Tex Dot and had a chat with some lady that explained the rules to me. I tried to explain that that statement was not derogatory and that it was in reference to me.

I was told I had the right to appeal their decision but my chances of prevailing were slim to none. Since I plan on being out of here and in Phoenix, Arizona soon, there was no reason to waste my time with the appeal. When I get to Phoenix, I'll try my luck there.

As soon as I have Vic cleaned up and I've had my Saturday bath, I'll have a photo taken of the both of us that might be worth posting.

One thing I have noticed is that Vic runs better each day. I think she enjoys doing what she was built to do. I usually find a place where she can get some real exercise without endangering anyone or breaking too many speed laws, which we all know I would never do.

Take care young lady; I hope your back is all healed and that you are feeling fine. Please take care of yourself and watch for that pesky ice.

Best Always, Love
Chris

Quote from: Dietlind on March 27, 2019, 08:34:14 PM
Christine
I am a minimal depth believer, too!  But you idea of doing this with a local and no sedation, is a pretty tall one!  We are talking about a surgery that lasts several hours, and requires some extensive fine needle work and creative sewing!  That means, your neither parts have to be motion free for quite some time.  I have my doubts if that can be guaranteed with a spinal only?  If it is know that you did not do well the last time, and the data of that surgery is available, a good anesthetist  could mix a cocktail based on that data that is less complicated for your system.  The earlier you and the medical team are getting to talk about this, the better everything can be arranged in such a way that you will do pretty Ok with the anesthesia, while still meeting the technical requirements of the surgeon.  And the result will be a win/win situation!

I wish you further luck with everything, and everything work out well, we can later do a vulva comparison to see which one is prettier!  >:-)

Hi Linde,                         27 March 2019

You've got a deal; we can compare, photograph and post them; then everyone can vote for their favorite.

The closest I came to GA recently was when I had my Orchie. I discussed everything with the anesthesiologist the day prior and we settled on Propofol only, no intubation, my upper torso was elevated, no sedation (Benzos) and a small dose of Fentanyl. Nothing else. That I can handle. I can't handle Benzos of any kind, intubation and the volatile ethers used to maintain anesthesia, Rocuronium bromide (muscle relaxant) and all the other garbage they pump into ones system.

I had surgery in June of 2018 on my left hand using the Bier block method. I had no sedation, was fully conscious. They use Lidocaine, which was only partially successful at numbing my hand. I felt most of the surgery, not a big deal. I enjoy pain, especially when it stops. The main reason I try to avoid GA is that it is extremely dangerous for folks my age. We shall see what we can come up with. The other thing I would like is to watch the surgery real time. I may have to settle for a DVD of the surgery.

Thanks and take care Linde.

Best Always, Love
Chris

Quote from: christinej78 on March 27, 2019, 11:43:15 PM
Hi Linde,                         27 March 2019

The main reason I try to avoid GA is that it is extremely dangerous for folks my age. We shall see what we can come up with. The other thing I would like is to watch the surgery real time. I may have to settle for a DVD of the surgery.

Thanks and take care Linde.

Best Always, Love
Chris

Come on lady, you are not that much older than I am!  A good anesthetist takes age into account when doing that stuff!  Your hand and orchi was child's play, because those are short duration surgeries, but when they go down there to remodel your parts, they need a few hours, because Leggo has not developed a kit for that stuff, yet!

I wanted to observe my orchi, but the surgeon refused to let me, he said he is not interested in hearing me criticizing his work while he is doing it.  Now I have no idea how to do an orchi, and could not do one on me ever, even if I would want to!  He cut everything away I could use to try it out!
Life is just not fair.
But raise your concerns with the surgical team, and together you can work on a solution for your concerns!

Have some nice seat time in the Vicky!
Linde

Quote from: Dietlind on March 28, 2019, 07:29:08 AM
Come on lady, you are not that much older than I am!  A good anesthetist takes age into account when doing that stuff!  Your hand and orchi was child's play, because those are short duration surgeries, but when they go down there to remodel your parts, they need a few hours, because Leggo has not developed a kit for that stuff, yet!

I wanted to observe my orchi, but the surgeon refused to let me, he said he is not interested in hearing me criticizing his work while he is doing it.  Now I have no idea how to do an orchi, and could not do one on me ever, even if I would want to!  He cut everything away I could use to try it out!
Life is just not fair.
But raise your concerns with the surgical team, and together you can work on a solution for your concerns!

Have some nice seat time in the Vicky!
Linde

Hi Linde,                        29 March 2019

Lots of news  today, but first off Anesthesia: My knee surgeon and his group practice quit using GA about 10 years ago due to most patients being older ladies and men. GA has a bad history relative to older folks. I did a lot of research on this and it isn't something I want to fool with. The last time I had it, it took me a good two weeks to get my brain halfway back to abby-normal. Don't want to try it again

The aforementioned surgical team uses a spinal or epidural along with a slow Propofol drip to keep you in the twilight zone. Granted knee replacement surgery is of shorter duration than GCS, about 1.5 - 2 hours to replace a knee. When I had my orchi they insisted I be out so we settled on a propofol drip and a little Fentanyl if necessary. From the photos I have of my surgery, it just might be a bit uncomfortable if one is awake. I still regret not pushing harder to watch.

Had my sleep follow up. Here's the diagnosis:
1. Obstructive sleep apnea/hypopnea syndrome, moderate to severe, severe in the supine position.
2. Nocturnal hypoxemia is also recorded within oxygen nadir of 81%. 4% of the total sleep time is spent in O2 saturation less than 88%.
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5. Her sleep is somewhat fragmented. 142 arousals (please keep minds clean) are recorded with an index of 43 per hour.

The report is five pages long. I sent the original full color report to Dena; she is smarter than me and knows a whole lot more than I do about these things.

As Dena has speculated, they also think it's possible I have a mild case of Narcolepsy. They wanted to try a med and I refused the offer.

As an aside, they gendered me correctly while there and in the report. There was one typo where they stated: "She has abnormal sensations in his feet." I can overlook that and laugh at the humor of that statement. They always use Christine when they address me. Any more, when someone asks for my name, I tell them Christine; it has become automatic because that's who I am.

This coming April "Foos-Day" I have another sleep study, this time while wearing a CPAC or whatever it's called. If I get a good night's rest and don't have all the near death events I experience, I'll be getting one to live with.

Now, as for Vic, she needs some front end work, stuff left over from before I let her rest for 8 years. The pitman arm needs to be replaced along with the upper ball joints and tie rod ends. I have all the parts that I bought about 8 years ago. I'm having trouble getting the Pitman arm off the sector shaft (spline shaft that comes out of the steering gear box that the pitman arm is attached to). If you have rack and pinion steering, the pitman arm doesn't exist.

I soaked it with penetrating oil yesterday afternoon. I'm going to try again using the pitman arm puller I used yesterday w/o success. If it works, I'll replace everything today and have the front end aligned tomorrow. If it doesn't work I may apply heat directly to the pitman arm using my acetylene torch, being careful to not directly heat the sector shaft.

If all else fails, I'll put it back together and work on it Monday if I can find a super heavy duty pitman arm puller. The one I am using is one I borrowed from O'Reilly's Auto Parts; it isn't up to the task. A really good one made in the USA can cost several hundred bucks. Not a good investment for occasional or one time use. I have several options I am letting circulate in my feeble brain.

That about does it for today; next update should occur next Tuesday after my next sleep over.

Thanks Linde, when are you planning your bottom surgery? Once I'm settled in Phoenix, Dena and I will venture over to Dr. Ley's office for a consult on mine. I hope they have kits I can select from by then. I want a Pretty Kitty.

Not much older than you? I bet I have at least 10 or more on you. I'll be 79 this year if I make it to August. No plans on checking out in the next 25 years unless another tree jumps in front of me. Hopefully that possibility will be eliminated shortly.

Best Always, Love
Chris

Be carful of the oil seal in steering box if using heat, last one I changed I cut into it with a very thin cutting disc and split it being careful not to cut the sector shaft.

Quote from: Dietlind on March 28, 2019, 07:29:08 AM
Come on lady, you are not that much older than I am!  A good anesthetist takes age into account when doing that stuff!  Your hand and orchi was child's play, because those are short duration surgeries, but when they go down there to remodel your parts, they need a few hours, because Leggo has not developed a kit for that stuff, yet!

I wanted to observe my orchi, but the surgeon refused to let me, he said he is not interested in hearing me criticizing his work while he is doing it.  Now I have no idea how to do an orchi, and could not do one on me ever, even if I would want to!  He cut everything away I could use to try it out!
Life is just not fair.
But raise your concerns with the surgical team, and together you can work on a solution for your concerns!

Have some nice seat time in the Vicky!
Linde

I have no desire to see what they are doing! The general was great except for the 3 days of feeling crappy after...

Quote from: christinej78 on March 29, 2019, 11:06:42 AM
Hi Linde,                        29 March 2019

Lots of news  today, but first off Anesthesia: My knee surgeon and his group practice quit using GA about 10 years ago due to most patients being older ladies and men. GA has a bad history relative to older folks. I did a lot of research on this and it isn't something I want to fool with. The last time I had it, it took me a good two weeks to get my brain halfway back to abby-normal. Don't want to try it again

The aforementioned surgical team uses a spinal or epidural along with a slow Propofol drip to keep you in the twilight zone. Granted knee replacement surgery is of shorter duration than GCS, about 1.5 - 2 hours to replace a knee. When I had my orchi they insisted I be out so we settled on a propofol drip and a little Fentanyl if necessary. From the photos I have of my surgery, it just might be a bit uncomfortable if one is awake. I still regret not pushing harder to watch.

if th surgical team is comfortable with this, it should be OK!

Had my sleep follow up. Here's the diagnosis:
1. Obstructive sleep apnea/hypopnea syndrome, moderate to severe, severe in the supine position.
2. Nocturnal hypoxemia is also recorded within oxygen nadir of 81%. 4% of the total sleep time is spent in O2 saturation less than 88%.
.
.
5. Her sleep is somewhat fragmented. 142 arousals (please keep minds clean) are recorded with an index of 43 per hour.

The report is five pages long. I sent the original full color report to Dena; she is smarter than me and knows a whole lot more than I do about these things.

As Dena has speculated, they also think it's possible I have a mild case of Narcolepsy. They wanted to try a med and I refused the offer.

As an aside, they gendered me correctly while there and in the report. There was one typo where they stated: "She has abnormal sensations in his feet." I can overlook that and laugh at the humor of that statement. They always use Christine when they address me. Any more, when someone asks for my name, I tell them Christine; it has become automatic because that's who I am.

This coming April "Foos-Day" I have another sleep study, this time while wearing a CPAC or whatever it's called. If I get a good night's rest and don't have all the near death events I experience, I'll be getting one to live with.
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You still have to learn a little more how to have a good case of sleep Apnoe.  I manged to wake up 80 times per hours, which means, I barely slept!  Never went into any kind of REM sleep!  Because of this, I also had a day study following this, to determine how ell I could stay awake.
I am now on a Cpap for about 20 years, and it is important to find the face/nose piece that works best for you.  This is really the make or brake of using the Cpap religiously every night.  I tried about 5 different nose/face pieces, until I found my current one.  I monitor my sleep with a smart watch, and I have REM sleep periods of 4 to 5 hours a night!  I am really sleeping!

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Now, as for Vic, she needs some front end work, stuff left over from before I let her rest for 8 years. The pitman arm needs to be replaced along with the upper ball joints and tie rod ends. I have all the parts that I bought about 8 years ago. I'm having trouble getting the Pitman arm off the sector shaft (spline shaft that comes out of the steering gear box that the pitman arm is attached to). If you have rack and pinion steering, the pitman arm doesn't exist.

I soaked it with penetrating oil yesterday afternoon. I'm going to try again using the pitman arm puller I used yesterday w/o success. If it works, I'll replace everything today and have the front end aligned tomorrow. If it doesn't work I may apply heat directly to the pitman arm using my acetylene torch, being careful to not directly heat the sector shaft.

If all else fails, I'll put it back together and work on it Monday if I can find a super heavy duty pitman arm puller. The one I am using is one I borrowed from O'Reilly's Auto Parts; it isn't up to the task. A really good one made in the USA can cost several hundred bucks. Not a good investment for occasional or one time use. I have several options I am letting circulate in my feeble brain.

My son could tell you moe about that stuff, he is a master Mechanic for almost 15 years now, and is running a big repair shop.

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Thanks Linde, when are you planning your bottom surgery? Once I'm settled in Phoenix, Dena and I will venture over to Dr. Ley's office for a consult on mine. I hope they have kits I can select from by then. I want a Pretty Kitty.

Not much older than you? I bet I have at least 10 or more on you. I'll be 79 this year if I make it to August. No plans on checking out in the next 25 years unless another tree jumps in front of me. Hopefully that possibility will be eliminated shortly.

Best Always, Love
Chris

You only think you are that much older, I'll be 76 next month.  I am lucky that this intersex thing keeps me looking way younger than I am.  It is now my time to reap the benefits of it, most of my life I had to suffer in some way or the other because of it!  For age I set a lofty goal of getting 150 years old, after all, I want to have some time to have fun being a woman!  I really wonder if the intersex keeps the interior of my body as young as it's exterior?

Lots of hugs
LInde

Hi Ladies,                             02 April 2019

Had my second sleep study last night / this morning. Used a CPAP machine, started with a nasal piece (2 different styles) and then graduated to a face mask. The latter seems to be the direction I will be going. Had a lot of REM sleep (don't remember the dreams I supposedly had) and left there fairly well rested.

Using the CPAP will require some serious changes here at home. The pups currently sleep with me. That will soon stop. I'll let them have the current bedroom and I will move to one with it's own bathroom, the Mother-In-Law room, currently used for storage.

I have been packing things for the move to Phoenix and this room is where the boxes are stacked. I think there's enough room for the bed. I'll miss the pups but that's the price I have to pay so I can hopefully avoid additional unexpected sleep episodes.

The accident I had in January was a rude awakening. Dena had been on my case to have the study back last year and the night of the accident She warned me and asked me to not go to the Dairy store. In my arrogance I didn't listen to Her; we all know the result of my stupidity. Dena is now in charge; I'm a poor decision maker when it comes to me. I have always taken too many chances, constantly pushing the envelope; an accident looking for a place to happen. It finally caught up to me. Fortunately, only the car, tree and my ego were damaged. The car? It's in the junkyard where it should have been the day it came off the assembly line. That's the best I can say for the Chevy S10 Blazer.

Time to have Bfast , wash my hair and shower. The sleep study entails a large number of electrodes attached to one's melon. Mine is full of gooey goop that kept the electrodes in place. Later this week I should learn exactly which machine I will be getting. It'll probably be Nuclear Powered and in my favorite color PINK. That's what the sleep tech has requested.

Thank You Dena for saving me from myself; three times and counting. I Love You With All My Heart and Soul.

Back when I know more.

Best Always, Love
Christine

Quote from: christinej78 on April 02, 2019, 10:01:24 AM
Later this week I should learn exactly which machine I will be getting. It'll probably be Nuclear Powered and in my favorite color PINK. That's what the sleep tech has requested.

Thank You Dena for saving me from myself; three times and counting. I Love You With All My Heart and Soul.

Back when I know more.

Best Always, Love
Christine

And along that line you'll learn that that air pump is your second best sleeping partner!  She is hugging my face for some 20 years already!

Good luck with getting the pink one, mine is some kind of industrial gray!
Linde

Hi Folks,                     03 April 2019

Today there are a couple items Vic needs taken care of. She needs a new fuel filter and the Pitman Arm removed without resorting to heat from a torch.

The fuel filter needs to be replaced for two reasons: the fuel that was in the tank when I started reviving her was 8 years old. It smelled bad and needed to be removed. The fuel lines were filled with this old gunked up stuff and there was some remaining in the tank.

So far she has run about 500 miles, some of it hard in an attempt to force the fuel system cleaner to purge the system of contaminants. By replacing the filter, I'll be able to tell just how much junk has made it to the filter. If it is fairly clean then I can allow her to run 5000 miles before replacing it again.

The next item is removing the Pitman Arm from the sector shaft. So far it has been a pain in the posterior. Tomorrow I should have something arrive that will make removing the pitman arm a lot easier. I'm hoping to have the arm replaced tomorrow without resorting to heating the pitman arm. Will let you know how it goes.

I'm going to Dallas Saturday 06 April for our monthly MTF meeting. Hopefully there will be several new members.

Will update the pitman arm adventure later today.

This is my 600th post on Susan's; that's a lot for this old gal.

Best Always, Love
Christine

Quote from: christinej78 on April 03, 2019, 02:06:53 AM
Hi Folks,                     03 April 2019

Today there are a couple items Vic needs taken care of. She needs a new fuel filter and the Pitman Arm removed without resorting to heat from a torch.

The fuel filter needs to be replaced for two reasons: the fuel that was in the tank when I started reviving her was 8 years old. It smelled bad and needed to be removed. The fuel lines were filled with this old gunked up stuff and there was some remaining in the tank.

So far she has run about 500 miles, some of it hard in an attempt to force the fuel system cleaner to purge the system of contaminants. By replacing the filter, I'll be able to tell just how much junk has made it to the filter. If it is fairly clean then I can allow her to run 5000 miles before replacing it again.

The next item is removing the Pitman Arm from the sector shaft. So far it has been a pain in the posterior. Tomorrow I should have something arrive that will make removing the pitman arm a lot easier. I'm hoping to have the arm replaced tomorrow without resorting to heating the pitman arm. Will let you know how it goes.

I'm going to Dallas Saturday 06 April for our monthly MTF meeting. Hopefully there will be several new members.

Will update the pitman arm adventure later today.

This is my 600th post on Susan's; that's a lot for this old gal.

Best Always, Love
Christine

My son (master mechanic), has a cool device for removing parts that require hatting, but don't like flames.  It is some type of inductive heating they use for it.  It just heats the part that is needed to be heated, and off it comes.  I am absolutely amazed how smooth this works!  I bet you could find something like it at a place that rents out tools (Napa???), and use it for the Vic.  I would probably flush the tank out, to make sure you have no solid matter inside, and get all the old varnished stuff out of it!
Good luck with the old girl!
And hugs, too!
Linde

Hi Folks,                        26 Apr 2018

Had a visit with the Hematologist Wednesday 24 Apr 19. My result from the D-Dimer blood draw and test on Wednesday  17 Apr was better but nowhere near normal; normal is <=0.49. Mine was 1.73, down from 2.31 earlier in the year. This can mean several things, clots are still present, clots are still forming. All I know is I'm still on Xarelto and will be for at least another month.

On Wednesday 15 May I'll have another BT and then see the doctor again on 22 May. We have talked about stopping Xarelto for a month and going on Warfarin (rat poison) for a month and then having another blood test that will tell if my body has a propensity to produce clots. Right now it's continue as I have been doing and wait and see.

Went to the Endocrinologist yesterday. Still on No-mones and it'll have to stay that way for the time being. Still sitting at a traffic light in a stalled car.

Sleep issues have been somewhat of a bear. I have moderate to severe Sleep Apnea. I started using a CPAP machine, which I have had trouble with. It's either me or the machine. I finally had a decent night's sleep last night, which was after the sleep tech at the Sleep Doctor's office changed some of the settings on the machine; she did this remotely so it's a high tech unit. She made a couple more changes for me today so I hope I'm over the hump in adapting to sleeping with it. Time will tell.

My little pooch Friday, the only man in the house, had his teeth cleaned Wednesday while I was at the doctor's office. He had to have one tooth extracted that was cracked, loose and infected. Thankfully he's doing a lot better today.

That about does it for this boring update. When I know more I'll update this thread.

Best Always, Love
Christine
That's about it for now.

Good day my friend
You will get used to the air pump.  I had difficulties in the beginning, too, but once you found the right face piece and the right pressure and ramping settings, you will sleep like a baby with it.  As i said, i am on the thing since a t least 20 years now, and it is automatic for me to put the face piece on before I turn the light of! It has become a simple routine for me!

The blood clot situation sucks, and that is why my endo wants me to not have more than 150 E in my blood.  Was your level higher at the time when it started?

I hope they can put you back onto the real fuel soon, so you can keep up with the Vicky when she runs!

See, you have a guy dog, but I have a lady dog, and as a got girl she currently has a UTI.  What else should one expect of a female?

Take care and have a little fun!
Linde

Quote from: Dietlind on April 26, 2019, 05:17:50 PM
Good day my friend
You will get used to the air pump.  I had difficulties in the beginning, too, but once you found the right face piece and the right pressure and ramping settings, you will sleep like a baby with it.  As i said, i am on the thing since a t least 20 years now, and it is automatic for me to put the face piece on before I turn the light of! It has become a simple routine for me!

The blood clot situation sucks, and that is why my endo wants me to not have more than 150 E in my blood.  Was your level higher at the time when it started?

I hope they can put you back onto the real fuel soon, so you can keep up with the Vicky when she runs!

See, you have a guy dog, but I have a lady dog, and as a got girl she currently has a UTI.  What else should one expect of a female?

Take care and have a little fun!
Linde

Hi Linde,                       26 April 2019

Thanks for posting mis amiga. The CPAP has been a pain in the can. They have a portal for the patient to see the results of their treatment with the machine. The problem is the website was designed for the 95% of the population that haven't a clue. Unfortunately, something designed for them is essentially useless for an engineer. It's not doing much for Dena and me so I have been having the doctor's sleep tech print out what she sees, which is much more detailed. Logistics is a problem and she has other things she needs to do besides answer my questions.

We made some changes to the machine's settings; decreased the ramp time, upped the minimum pressure and the maximum. They gave me three full face masks, S, M, L. They fitted me with a M. Last night I switched to L and slept the best so far. I want this thing to work. I'm sick of being paranoid while driving and I'm sick of just dropping off to sleep without warning.

My accident 17 Jan 19 was enough for me, and it got my attention big time. It was totally my fault because I didn't listen to Dena when she warned me not to go that night. She is now in-charge; I only make mundane decisions like which shade of pink panties to wear. 

As far as the clot issue, it is what it is. I'm not about to risk a stroke or death by self medicating for E. I don't have to worry about T, it's history. Somehow this will get resolved on the positive side, just don't know how or when. I'm going to let the Doctors and Dena make the decisions. I haven't the expertise or medical knowledge to risk going it alone.

Aside from these issues, everything is fine. Vic is running well, in fact better than expected, especially for having been stored and exposed to the elements for 8 years. She needs the A/C fixed, I have the parts, a blower and the climate control module. The blower is a no brainer and easy to replace. Not so for the CC module. It goes into the firewall behind the engine, which will require removing hoses and other items just to get at it. It's on a low priority list at the moment. If it ever warms up maybe I'll get "rountoit."

My priority now is to sell the collector cars I have; once they are gone I'm off to be with Dena in Phoenix. She is the Sunshine in my Life and I want to be with Her for as long as I am on the green side of the lawn; in the case of Arizona, the sunny side of the sand and or rocks. The only place I want to see grass is anywhere I don't have to care for and/or mow it.

My "E" was 58 the first time it was checked. I don't recall what it was when the clot reared it's ugly head. This is something that will take time to resolve. I may have to remain a Eunuch that presents female.

I have three pups, Abigail (Abbie), Friday and Ella. Abbie is a mixed breed terrier, Friday is a Jack Russell and Ella is an Australian Shepard with a full tail. Friday is the Man of the house, everyone else is female. Friday has it "maid."

Take care Linde; help keep the folks here at Susan's Place informed; you have a lot of expertise, which you do share; thank you for doing so.

Best Always, Love
Christine

Hello out there.                          19 May 2019

Here is a quick update:

CPAP
Friday 17 May 2019 - Machine replaced due to defect. Had an intermittent problem that would leave me gasping for air in the middle of the night. Dena figured out it must have a defective air pressure sensor. Called the supplier and they replaced it, under warranty, with a new unit. Used it last night and it worked as it is supposed to.

DVT
Had another D-dimer blood draw Wednesday 15 May 2019. Will learn the results Wednesday 22 May 2019. The result will determine how we proceed with treatment and my suspended HRT. Whatever Dena, the Doctors and I decide, will be subjected to extreme caution and safety.

Phoenix & Cars
Cars are now visible and can be viewed. A collector is coming to see them sometime in the next two weeks. We've looked at recent sales of similar cars and it appears that they are in demand due to their rarity. As soon as they are sold, I'll be on my way to be with Dena so fast that my shadow will be my only remaining vestige in Texas.

More later this week.

Best Always, Love
Christine

Quote from: christinej78 on May 19, 2019, 02:58:16 AM
Hello out there.                          19 May 2019

Here is a quick update:

CPAP
Friday 17 May 2019 - Machine replaced due to defect. Had an intermittent problem that would leave me gasping for air in the middle of the night. Dena figured out it must have a defective air pressure sensor. Called the supplier and they replaced it, under warranty, with a new unit. Used it last night and it worked as it is supposed to.

DVT
Had another D-dimer blood draw Wednesday 15 May 2019. Will learn the results Wednesday 22 May 2019. The result will determine how we proceed with treatment and my suspended HRT. Whatever Dena, the Doctors and I decide, will be subjected to extreme caution and safety.

Phoenix & Cars
Cars are now visible and can be viewed. A collector is coming to see them sometime in the next two weeks. We've looked at recent sales of similar cars and it appears that they are in demand due to their rarity. As soon as they are sold, I'll be on my way to be with Dena so fast that my shadow will be my only remaining vestige in Texas.

More later this week.

Best Always, Love
Christine

Dear Christine
All there points sound positive to me!  Just keep on trucking!
Hugs
Linde

Hoping for a quick and lucrative sale!
Love Randy

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