Cant you ignore your feminem features and pretend there not there, have you ever wanted to remove your breasts when you where upset. Do you hate having to bind everyday just to hide the fat that shouldn't be there, do you hate looking in the mirror and seeing your feminem figure and wife hips knowing the only way to change what you see is going into extreme lengths via surgery in most cases. I understand your voice isn't that bad because I'm assuming it takes about 6 months to make deeper which isn't so bad, but breasts standout they are the giveaway to knowing if someone is female or male and even tho it's mainly just fat and milk ducts they can cause the biggest problems, if your lucky enough and realise your trans earily you can do methods to halt there growth before puberty puts them on you, but if you have puberty before you realise your transgender it's up to chance on how big they can grow and You will be in the backseat as nature takes conrol. I honestly am concerned how you can carry on your day hating your breasts or hating how big they where when you could of got lucky and prevented there growth before they started to grow and stay with you until you spend God knows how much on top surgery.
I am not sure of how to answer these concerns, but I will give it a try anyway.
Comfort with your physical body all depends on your gender identity. If they match, good for you. Just drive on.
If you have any dysphoria between your body and brain, then we have a problem.
For me, I identify as female and I very much enjoy having breasts and a female form as much as possible. I feel correct.
For those of us who are on the other side of gender identity, I can understand your discomfort. For a FTM who has developed large breasts and hips, has a bigger problem than a thinner FTM.
Going through puberty just make things worse for people like us. There are a few of us who have been lucky enough to have parents who recognized our problem at an early age and have sought medical intervention before puberty. But the rest of us have all been through puberty, which is a rough ride especially when the changes do not match our gender identity.
HRT and surgery can do wonders, but we all must live with the limitations of GCS. For the FTM on HRT, a vigorous workout regimen with heavy weight training will help put on muscle and lower the subcutaneous fat. This will do a better job of hiding the female form than binders. Keep in mind that the men with incredibly tight bodies spend hours every day in the gym. Also a vigorous workout will help take your mind off of your discomfort. Many men workout just to let off mental steam. :laugh:
Luck's got little to do with it, really. It's a series of choices, compromises, and arranged priorities. What are you willing to do to get that flat chest? How much are you willing to diet to slim those hips? How much time do you want to spend in the weight room to build those shoulders? Are you willing to come across as a jerk so people don't ever question your "alpha" masculinity?
I guess I'm lucky in that I don't "hate" my body. I did for many years for other reasons; self-harmed, flirted with eating disorders, the whole lot. Coming from that experience, hating my body for this just seems downright petty. It's gotten me through a lot, and put up with a lot of my crap over the years. My body's one of my best friends, as a matter of fact, even though it's not perfect.
I don't play "what-if" games. I don't waste my time thinking about what could have been. I'm here now, and that is more than enough to deal with without having to bring the previous 30 years into it too.
It sucks. I got an eating disorder but even that doesn't control "nature". In the end the only thing to do was to transition.
I have not been able to ignore my female features. They're a constant reminder of what I'm not and what I can't be. I could sometimes ignore my breasts during sex before I had them removed surgically, but only if they were not touched or otherwise focused on. I couldn't ignore them any other times.
Now 4 years after I had my mastectomy, I don't think much about the "what if's" in regards to what my chest was like before. They were medium size and I had the double incision method, but the scars don't bother me anymore. That sort of surgery is for free in my country.
My hips are still large as neither testosterone nor weight loss has helped reducing them. I developed an eating disorder because of that, but have recovered from it now. They were just as wide in proportion to the rest when I was at the border to underweight. I still have the pics of myself at 53 kg that shows it. So at this point it's just building upper body muscle mass and/or have surgery (lipo, which is not for free in my country) on them that could slim them down. I'm size small on upper body and large on lower body, now at a healthy weight. My proportions are messed up.
I hate that female shape of my body constantly and if I think too much about it I get very angry, frustrated and feeling hopeless and helpless about it. At best I can distract myself from the issue by thinking about something else, dress in ways that hides the width, avoid mirrors/reflections, and focus on the features I like on myself instead.
I was actually born with wide hips, by my parents' words and photographic evidence. So I don't really see the point in wishing I had prevented my female puberty. I like the rest of my body now though, which has been masculinised by the testosterone, or at the very least it's okay. I do love myself, but I hate aspects of my body. But I am not my body, whether I hate it or not.