Ok, so I made a pros and cons list of why I may or may not be transgender. What are your thoughts?
Reasons I may be transgender:
-Literally my earliest memory is wearing my sister's clothes and loving it. I have been crossdressing ever since then.
-I started daydreaming about being a girl at age 5. It subsided for a little while, but then since the age of 13, I have sexually fantasized about being a girl every single day, multiple times a day for the past 8 years.
-I am not trying to sound crass, but my first orgasm was while wearing girl's clothes.
-Imagining myself as a woman gives me the greatest pleasure and fulfillment that I've ever experienced in life.
-I am engulfed by transgender culture. I subscribe to transgender blogs, I watch transgender video journals on youtube, I read transgender news websites. I am really fascinated by it.
-My whole sexual orientation seems defined by these crossgender feelings.
Reasons I may not be transgender:
-I have zero female likes, interests, or hobbies.
-I am very masculine
-I am going into a male dominated career path (mathematician)
-I can't imagine myself participating in stereotypical female social roles, like sitting around and doing girl's gossip hour.
-I would not want to alter my voice if I transitioned. My voice is part of my identity.
-I would say that I am attracted to women, but I've never really envisioned myself as a lesbian. I have never been attracted to lesbian pornography.
-I see old ladies and I'm like, "lol, no. I don't want to look like them." They seem to weak and frail.
-When I'm done fantasizing, the feelings subside temporarily.
-I am romantically and somewhat physically attracted to women, but I don't really get too sexually attracted to them. If I do, it's very weak compared to my crossgender sexual attraction. My so called "crossgender sexual attraction" involves me fantasizing about being a woman and sometimes having sex with men (because it makes me feel more like a female).
-I could never relate to the other guys in the locker room who would boast about "banging girls." I don't get normal sexual feelings towards girls. I've never thought, "Man, I would love to have sexual intercourse with this girl."