hey, alright heres my story so far...
When i was about 8 years old i had feelings, that i wasn't like other boys, not serious issues or anything, but i found myself longing to hang around with more females, had more things in commen..
I am not very social person and had major issues with school, missed enough school 2 not make really any friends, now in highschool, with just afew guy friends that have slowly made it into my life over the years, never had a chance 2 make female friends, had afew when i was yonger but they moved away b4 i was 10.. Quite recently i been longing for some friends where i could share this with, if i was able to make some female friends i would be able to find if i fit in better, and would be able 2 experement..
And im not sure if my frends would understand if i told them anything.
Im 17 now and still havn't talked to anyone about TS issues, I have crossdressed in past, very hard for me 2 get ahold of clothing tho.
Still trying to find out where i belong, This is hard 2 explain, I feel comfortable on my body, but i truly have a longing inside me, something that despritly wants to express itself.. I am ok with being boy but just as much as me, if not more wants 2 be female, and i cant deside which path 2 choose, and i really scared to go public with this cause if i do and some therapist says that im still boy and will never change, then i revealed this secret, and im scared my family wont treat me the same way aggain..
Another question i had, If i started taking hormones at 17, or early 18, would i suffer from major effects from trans later in teens? I mean no offence, and hope i have not offended anyone by this, hope this made sence to all of u, just trying to get this all down.