Good Morning friends:
It’s been a while since I posted and I thought you all would like to know what’s going on.
Most recently we had the carpets cleaned and in moving stuff for the carpet cleaner I found a plaque from a renaissance festival. It reads ‘Beware of the Wench.’ Well as a person who has a wife, an ex-wife, and 3 daughters, when I was asked ‘Who’s the Wench?’ My response was always ‘Can’t tell you, it changes on daily basis!’ Why am I sharing this? I observed that lately “I’ve been the Wench!”
Additionally, in this blog I’ve wanted to share not only my physical successes (and occasional setbacks), I’ve wanted to share some inside stuff as well.
I’ve realized that my biggest fear in my life is that I won’t be able to complete this transition. There are two parts to that fear. First is that something would happen medically that would stop it or kill me. My response is that of the two, the later is preferred and I’ve gone so far as to tell my wife, if she has to, please bury ‘Kate.’ Second is the fear that I never make it to fully live as the woman I am. It’s not a physical thing. It’s a mental thing where I see other women and long to have that personality, or be that free, or even have some sexiness about me.
I have no reason to doubt I will complete this journey, but I have to acknowledge the fear is a repeat visitor.
Physically, electrolysis on my face is almost over.
Unfortunately Dr. Bluebond-Langer confirmed a suspicion that I’ve had. I need to have some permanent hair removal down there before the next surgery.
I politely broached the subject with my electrologist. She indicated that with some documentation from my therapist, she is willing to do it for me. She bluntly stated ‘I don’t work on men.’ However she was willing to work on me. She has done before for patients of other surgeons.
Had my final follow-up from my orchi last week. That’s healed up nicely. There is still the scar treatment that I will be doing for the next few months. During one of those little self treatments, I felt the need to poke around a bit and make sure those two little pains were gone. They were!!!
Things are moving forward. Yea!!!
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