Topic: MTF in need of help 2

[Rachel]

@Margret, I have no doubts. I am a woman and I have been expressing 100% of the time since November 2015. I had FFS 9/2016 and GCS 11/2016.

I am looking for some face and tummy work in July 2022. I want to go with one of my girlfriends and my sister. Maybe my other girlfriend will go too. All of us getting work done. Now there is another covid variant and there is a lot of uncertainty.

I took my avatar down until I have work done.  Originally I took it off for another reason but that has changed.

I had gotten pricing from Dr. Cardenas. I am in the process of getting pricing from Dr. Sigler
----------------------------------

So I had a uti and at the urgent care I got on the scale and I was 175 and 6'1". This is with clothing on and flats. The nurse just touched the top of my head. I think the flats are maybe 1/2 inch or so high.

So I am less than 6'1". I started HRT at 6'3" 8 years ago.

[Margrit]

I am looking for some face and tummy work in July 2022. I want to go with one of my girlfriends and my sister. Maybe my other girlfriend will go too. All of us getting work done. Now there is another covid variant and there is a lot of uncertainty.

Hi Rachel
I keep my fingers crossed for you and hope that everything turns out as you wish.
Take good care of yourself.
Best wishes
Margrit

[Rachel]

I had 4 hours of electrolysis today at Papillion. My face is sore and black and blue.

I sent a second e-mail to Dr. Siegler. I think the first e-mail had too many pics to go through.

I was with my girlfriends E and M Friday night to Sunday Morning. I look forward to seeing them again next weekend.

Rachel Lynn

[Northern Star Girl]

I had 4 hours of electrolysis today at Papillion. My face is sore and black and blue.

I sent a second e-mail to Dr. Siegler. I think the first e-mail had too many pics to go through.

I was with my girlfriends E and M Friday night to Sunday Morning. I look forward to seeing them again next weekend.

Rachel Lynn

@Rachel
Dear Rachel:
I am sad to read your comments regarding the pain and hurt that are a result of your 4 hours of electrolysis...
... many of us have "been there" with having to deal with the aftermath of hair removal....
as the old saying goes, "no pain, no gain".

I trust that you will feel better in a few days.
HUGS and more HUGS,
Danielle

[Rachel]

@Northern Star Girl, thank you.

---------------------------------------------
So I asked for a script for finasteride from my NP-c at Mazzoni. I went to CVS where my prescriptions must go through and they said it was not covered. They said it is $210. I said no thank you. I ordered it from a pharmacy on-line for $89 for 3 month supply. I will check the cost at the Mazzoni pharmacy and may get it there in the future. They have a community price for meds not covered by insurance.

 I purchased the medication for less than 1/8 the cost on-line, including registered air mail. 

[Courtney G]

So I asked for a script for finasteride from my NP-c at Mazzoni. I went to CVS where my prescriptions must go through and they said it was not covered. They said it is $210. I said no thank you. I ordered it from a pharmacy on-line for $89 for 3 month supply. I will check the cost at the Mazzoni pharmacy and may get it there in the future. They have a community price for meds not covered by insurance.

 I purchased the medication for less than 1/8 the cost on-line, including registered air mail.

It might pay to check prices of different dosages. I found that the price varied due to the typical use. I'm getting a larger dose and cutting mine in half in order the get the prescribed daily amount. Something to check into if your doc allows it (I don't see why they wouldn't).

[Rakel]

So I asked for a script for finasteride from my NP-c at Mazzoni. I went to CVS where my prescriptions must go through and they said it was not covered. They said it is $210. I said no thank you. I ordered it from a pharmacy on-line for $89 for 3 month supply. I will check the cost at the Mazzoni pharmacy and may get it there in the future. They have a community price for meds not covered by insurance.

 I purchased the medication for less than 1/8 the cost on-line, including registered air mail.

Finasteride is used for 2 different reasons. A higher dose is used for prostate issues, which is covered by insurance. The other indication is for male pattern baldness, which is a much lower dose and is not usually covered by insurance.

Many people have been buying the high dose tablets and splitting the tablets into half or even quarter tablets for their needs.

Also, brand name products are outrageously much higher in cost than generic drugs of the same quality.

[Rachel]

@Courtney G, thank you.
@Rakel, thank you.

I ordered the higher dose and I was planning on cutting it in 4. The order will last me a year and cost 1/3 the cost of my co-pay if insurance covered it.

Here is my thought process, I had started putting T on. Just a small amount as directed by my doctor. I was putting it on my clit thinking it would help it to grow a little. It is very small. Well, it did not cause my clit to enlarge. I saw another method but I do not care to use it. I am just going to leave it as is. It is my whole glands penis and in the same spot as pre GCS.

Next I put it between my boobs. The thought was it is close to the heart and maybe it would cause better circulation of the T through my body. I noticed hair growing where I placed the T. I stopped using the T and the hair went away in two months ( I shaved it and it has stopped growing).

So the thought is that hair growth needs T. DHT is made by 5A reductase. Hair susceptible to DHT miniaturize and fall out. I like the increased drive from a dab of T daily but do not want head hair negatively effected. I was thinking after I get the fin to try placing T on a very very small spot on my scalp in a controlled experiment.
-----------------------------------------

I have been packaging all weekend all product is sold for the year. I have one more order to package and I am done.

I found a new product yesterday and I want to contact the artisan to initiate a deal. I will work on that this week. I talked to him briefly yesterday and he is definitely a good person.   

---------------------------------------

Electric guitar update. I am learning Wish You Were Here. I have a left and right electric and bass guitars.  I just need to get faster and I will have blackbird down well.   

[Rachel]

I returned from a Weekend at Erica's. I do not know but I feel that we are drifting apart. I left a present on the placemat where she eats as I left today. I have a feeling I will not see her again.
---------------------
I had a meeting with the COO and my boss last week. It is in preparation for a meeting this week with Faculty. I was a little early to the meeting (MS meetings) and he logged on early too. He asked so how have the holidays been and I said quiet. Then he asked are you taking any time off? I said no. Then my boss got on line and we started the meeting.

I was thinking that the price of transition so far for me has been the quiet and alone time, especially during the holidays. I lost my immediate family.  I only have my sister left and on occasion my daughter. My ex and I eat out once in a while and then there is Erica and Melissa.

Parties are but a brief moment in time and have no meaning. It feels good though

I am learning the electric guitar. I have been selling on-line for 25 years. I have a very demanding job. Yet, something is missing. As I drive to north Jersey I pass the Princeston airport and I also pass the Trenton airport and the Newark airport. As I see the airports or signage for the airports I think I would love to fly. So Maybe I will learn to fly. IDK, but it looks like fun. Crazy thoughts, I know.

So this deal came up and I was asked how much did I want. I said all of it. I am in the middle of the deal and it will work out. It was crazy of me to think I could do this deal. I got 2.99% money and made it work. 3 months ago I would have thought that is impossible. So maybe learning to fly is not so crazy. I was offered another large deal and I said yes.

I do not have a therapy appointment for another 3 weeks but if there is anything that comes up I can schedule.

I was thinking some more. My brother, sister and I were physically abused. I had made excuses for it but the reality is there was no excuse for it. My brother was 6.5 years older than me and he abused me as well. No excuse. There was sexual abuse as well.

I did not talk much until I was in school and then not much. I stared out the window a lot and watched birds. I watch them build they nests and feed their young. I hated school. Not learning but the types of schools I was placed in. I was extremely afraid of authority or authority figures. I promised myself many times I would not be like my Father, mother or brother. I promised myself I would never repeat the cycle and I did not.

I realize now I have been holding my self back because of fear. Fear of everything. Transition was a step in the process but not the end. Going to a dudgeon, sex parties and having a relationship was part of the process. I think I need to challenge myself more and do the things I really want to do in life. When I was in Belize 10 years ago Tropical Air has a sign, learn to fly and work for Tropical Air.

I think 2022 will have a new goal or two. Maybe I will have another job I really enjoy some day.

Rachel Lynn




 

[Courtney G]

It's so odd....we're in this giant world together (all of us) and I'm reading all of the updates to topics on a daily basis, so of course I read yours and what's blowing me away is that you're probably passing within 15 minutes of my house at times, maybe closer. Strange world.

Anyway, I'm so sorry for the troubles you've been through. As a child of an alcoholic, with parents that both died when I was young, I've seen my share of tragedy, but I consider myself lucky, because somehow I made it through. I hope you continue to search for and find what you're looking for. Love will come to you, as they say.

[Rachel Montgomery]

I love flying.  And, I love playing guitar. 

Flying is expensive.  Aircraft are neither cheap to buy or maintain.  If there are planes you can rent when you get your license, that may be more economical.  There are no such planes where I live available to new pilots (except flight schools for lessons).  Getting a private pilot and an instrument rating will help you build hours, which will help you rent from more owners.

There may also be a flying club you can join, or some part ownerships you can buy into.  Part ownerships are great if you can get into one, because you have co-owners to help pay for maintenance. 

Check with the FAA regarding any medical conditions and medications you take to see if you are eligible.  It took me almost a year of hoop jumping to get my medical, and then it expired a couple of months later.  Still waiting renewal. 

[Rachel]

@Courtney G, Thank you. If you ever want to go to parties ley me know.
@Rachel Montgomery, thank you for your support.


So next weekend Erica and I are going to Massachusetts and then to a party.

[Julie H]

Glad to hear that you are still seeing Erica hopefully things will get back to normal with you ladies.

[Rachel]

@julie H, thank you, Poly relationships are definitely something that take getting use to. So, I was leaving last Sunday and Erica had a guy coming over. I felt like I was not of value to her. In reality it is the time we are together that is important.

A very different type of relationship.

[Rachel]

The trip to Mass. today and Connecticut tomorrow is cancelled due to weather and covid. I will go to Erica's today and stay over.

I sent pictures and e-mails to Dr. Alicia Ziglar. They have the information and I requested a consultation.  I am planning to go in July 2022. We have a major inspection we need to get through and covid surge. Then I can do my thing.   

[Maddie]

Sounds like it's about happiness in the moment. 
Poly is tough for me, unless I feel like I have power and self love. 

Good luck in 2022 Rachel.

[Rachel]

@Maddie, happy new year and good luck in 2022. How have you been holding up??

So next weekend Erica and Machelle are going to a BDSM event in Philly. They are going to hotel in South Philly after the event. It happens the First Friday of the month. There are a bunch of swinger/BDSM places in Philly. Anyhow, Erica said it is a Machelle weekend and I could go another month. I was born and raised and work in Philly and know where they are going but I am not invited. Erica is going to a few parties during the week up where she lives as well.

So I guess I need to focus on the moment.

So Michael texted me Merry Christmas and then again Happy New year. He is in NYC which is 45 minutes South of Erica's. My wheels are spinning. He is a super nice man and we have a lot of fun together. Maybe NYC Saturday night.

We did not go to to the party in Connecticut or go to Massachusetts this weekend. The hotel was taken over by the town for emergency housing, covid is crazy now and the weather looked like there could be snow. I guess it is for the best.

Rachel Lynn

[Rachel]

20% of the patients in our hospital have covid. 4 staff out of 40 ( down 17 staff) have covid.

I need to call Dr. Siglers office and make some inquiries about a face lift and some other procedures. 4 or 5 of us want to get work done by her.

I am learning another song on the electric guitar. That is coming along slow and steady.

I would love to get a cat but I work long hours and stay at Erica's for a few days at a time. So no pets for me.

It is rather odd. My past is getting further and further behind me. As time passes I am gaining more time and memories as Rachel. I have been Rachel for over 15% of my life. As I was going to the bathroom today at work I was thinking about all the people that I work with now that have only known me as Rachel.

Snow tonight

[Rachel Montgomery]

What songs are you working on?

[Rachel]

@Rachel Montgomery, I am still practicing black bird and wish you were hear. I just started with Hallelujah. My music teacher said it will strengthen my weakness in cords.

I am improving but it will take time. I am alone so I have hobbies like guitar and selling on-line.