First off, I have been visiting this site off and on for quite a while and thus far imho everyone is top notch. There I said it.
My name is Rebecca (Becky or Becca work as well) and I am MTF currently on HRT (2 yrs) plus I am older than most - 62 years young. I guess I am a late bloomer. I have always wanted to be female but lets just say there would have a high price to pay if I kept to my ways when I was young. When I say young, I mean from when I can remember to about 10 yrs old. But that is not why I am hear. We all have baggage - so what, we are hear.. I am extremely lucky to have the support of a loving wife who understands what is in my head and lens that I look through every day. Some days I like what I see in the mirror and others I do not. It's almost as if my skin is wrong-that is a topic for another day. For what it is worth I am in an extremely good place, I am sorting out the mental stuff with a new therapist this upcoming Monday, my hormone levels are good, I am talking to some plastic surgeons for some work I am thinking about having done. For the first time in a long time I like who I am. I am working on what others see and what I see in the mirror which is all I can do.
There you have it, my intro.
Becca
Hello and Welcome Becca!
Sounds like you are in a very good place with all this stuff in your mind and in your marriage… Those things alone provide a great foundation upon which amazing things can be built!!!… Enjoy the liberation to be found in finally moving in the direction that has always called to you and enjoy all the amazing and unexpected discoveries that have patiently awaited you for all your life… 🌻
My favorite snippet of Whitman for you as you find your self, your new place in the world and your place amongst others in your life’s journey… All good things to you!!!
From this hour I ordain myself loos’d of limits and imaginary lines,
Going where I list, my own master total and absolute,
Listening to others, considering well what they say,
Pausing, searching, receiving, contemplating,
Gently, but with undeniable will, divesting myself of the holds that would hold me.
I inhale great draughts of space,
The east and the west are mine, and the north and the south are mine.
I am larger, better than I thought,
I did not know I held so much goodness.
All seems beautiful to me,
I can repeat over to men and women You have done such good to me I would do the same to you,
I will recruit for myself and you as I go,
I will scatter myself among men and women as I go,
I will toss a new gladness and roughness among them,
Whoever denies me it shall not trouble me,
Whoever accepts me he or she shall be blessed and shall bless me.
Onward We Go Brave Sister!
Ashley 🙋♀️🌻💕