Topic: Did you have any physical signs/traits pre-HRT of your transgender/gender status

[WolfNightV4X1]

I think a lot looking back how my body was very unfeminine. Not that it was masculine, I just didnt hit any puberty that well, I’ve always been quite young looking for my age. I know I’m technically not intersex but I always felt inbetween states, I genuinely felt that transition went so smoothly it was very much meant to be for me.

Some things that contributed to my transition:

-underdeveloped/late puberty: I always looked younger than my age. I didn’t have an ‘adult’ female face, I looked like a child. I got periods at 14, and my chest budded around 12 and didnt grow quite large. Thankful for the lack of femme traits everyday, I don’t have a curvy body. No curvy thighs/hips/butt.

-thick body hair and eyebrows: I never thought about this but my hair was always “thick”, I learned that this is kinda a male trait in my family?? I also had thick eyebrows, I never understood the big deal about eyebrows, but at some point my mom suggested I tweezer the hairs out. I think it’s starting to dawn on me why that is

-Adam’s apple and slightly deep voice: When I went to a doctor for some normal checkup, they paused a second at my throat, seemed confused and thought something was wrong before they shrugged it off and moved on. I never asked, but I’m suspicious as to why that wasn’t “normal”
I also had a voice that I could drop the pitch if I be careful to speak more monotone instead of getting too excited

-Larger downstairs: Whenever I see pictures of woman a lot of them hardly ever have any clit, mine was fairly decent sized even before T

-Sex drive: Consequently, I’ve always had a active sex drive.

-Dysphoria: My first puberty made me dysphoric before I knew what it was. Like maybe puberty just sucks, but I remember feeling defeated and that my life drastically changed forever when my breasts grew in and I had this wave of revulsion looking in the mirror, knowing I had to get over it and accept it. I also didnt look down at myself for a year it seemed like

Height: I am not very tall, but genetically the men in my family just arent tall anyways. I am taller than my mom, who is quite short. I have a sister 12 years younger, she is hitting puberty and might be settling in height soon, her height takes more after my mom.

[Rakel]

While many of us do not have the ideal feminine or masculine body, we are who we are. Many people like us have a disconnect between our mental self image and our physical body. Regardless of our individual situation, this disconnect has been the cause of much of our dysphoria. We do what we have to do to reconnect our minds to our physical body and unload this dysphoria.

While my own situation is greatly different from your own, I can appreciate the pain this is causing you. I was there a while ago and for me, the only relief I found was in full transition. We are all unique and we all must find what we need to do to unload our dysphoria.

Take care. 

[Maid Marion]

Yes, I've always been misgendered  I'm one of the less than 8% of the population with an hourglass figure.
I'm also short for a female.

Marion

[Jessica_Rose]

i always had hips, so pants never seemed to fit properly... until about six years ago when I discovered how well women's jeans fit!

Love always -- Jessica Rose

[big kim]

Pre HRT I had hips.Very little muscle mass, tall & slim Very little body hair. Unable to grow a full beard as chin area was very sparse. Thin wrists. Good shaped long legs. No Adam's apple (but still got a voice like Lemmy!) I'm a DES child born 1957

[MaryXYX]

No Adam's Apple, thin wrists and hands that are more a female than male size.  I was 5' 7" which is OK for a man but fine for a woman.

[WolfNightV4X1]

While many of us do not have the ideal feminine or masculine body, we are who we are. Many people like us have a disconnect between our mental self image and our physical body. Regardless of our individual situation, this disconnect has been the cause of much of our dysphoria. We do what we have to do to reconnect our minds to our physical body and unload this dysphoria.

While my own situation is greatly different from your own, I can appreciate the pain this is causing you. I was there a while ago and for me, the only relief I found was in full transition. We are all unique and we all must find what we need to do to unload our dysphoria.

Take care. 

Yeah apologies, I really should have made it clear I was looking for similar experiences and this was just one discussion topic, not a baseline. I fully agree with you, the baseline for being trans is always gender incongruence and anyone that doesn’t experience the gender they were assigned at birth is trans. I appreciate this clarification for newer people who stumble on here and think this is the most important thing to have to be trans when everyone experiences that journey differently. Take care!

[Allie Jayne]

Life is a lottery and we all win or lose in different areas. Like Big Kim, I was a DES child from the 1950’s, so nothing about my development has been ‘typical’. Parts of my puberty were delayed, I didn’t start shaving ‘til my 20’s, and then couldn’t grow a beard. I was naturally well muscled for a male, with smaller hips than usual, and shorter than my brothers at 5’8” I did go through a strange phase between 12 and 15 where I had abdominal cramps and nose bleeds for a week every month, but it finally resolved itself. I had to work to get my voice into the male range. I was, and still am, asexual, but I did manage to father 2 children.

My midlife saw my testosterone levels fall, and I was diagnosed with Hypogonadism. This meant that I kept my full head of hair, little body hair, but it also meant my genitals atrophied so much that by my 60’s they had receded internally, and I struggled with a condition known as phimosis where the hole at the end of my foreskin was so small it caused problems with urination. I never had to tuck. My Testosterone was in the female range before I started HRT at 65, so I never needed blockers. My doctor said my body had decided to transition decades before I finally did.

I am still cursed with a large upper body structure and small hips, but I did lose an inch in height to 5’7” and my naturally softer facial features are now an advantage. My body has been a mixed bag for me growing up and going through transition, with advantages and disadvantages, but few of us get a perfect ride through life!

Hugs,

Allie

[kcberri]

So many things. My hands are small, my fingers are long, and my nails are big and beautiful. Feet. too. Adams apple? Nope. Breasts? Yes! omg! ive never believed I was a man. i wonder, did anyone?

[Kaleig_hC]

I used my faith to shrink my hands and feet. Without hormones, I lost two shoe sizes and my nail plates are no larger than many cis women's fingernails on my hands.

[Kouji]

Broad shoulders, muscles without needing to work much to keep them/strong for size, male finger length ratios, late puberty. Good at reading maps and spatial stuff, not great at talking or emoting.