Hi,
I’ve been visiting Susan’s Place for years and have often though of joining. Lot’s of reasons for not joining sooner, but none of them were really very good. But they were enough until now. I had been thinking more and more about joining lately, and Heather’s post “Dr. Office Visit” was the push I needed. There have been many posts that I could relate to or felt I could contribute to over the years, but this post was a subject that I had just dealt with. It was a big step for me and I was very apprehensive going into it. It was a positive experience for me and felt sharing it would be helpful.
A little about me now. Mid 60’s, 6’ and about 140lbs. Married for about 8 years now to a woman that I was married to once before (long story). She’s very accepting of my crossdressing, she’d rather I didn’t but she more than just ok with it. She’s helped my pick out cloths and has even bought things for me. That was not always the case and it took a while to get here, but we are in a good place.
I’ve been crossdressing for about 20 years now. Started slow, simple dresses and kind of uni-sex woman’s under wear. I originally used road bike riding as an excuse to shave my legs. It’s been a long journey getting to where I am now and I have a dresser and closet full of clothing marking the way. The number of woman’s denim shorts are now outnumbered by denim skirts and other skirts for that matter. I have a ton of tops that I don’t know how to describe other than very girly. The simple dresses have been replaced by flowery and very feminine ones. During covid when I was working from home, I picked up a lot of office attire. Skirts, blouses, and dresses that would be appropriate for female office wear. I’d dress up for “work”.
Other than under dressing that I’ve been doing for 10+ years, most of my crossdressing has been at home. Inside or in the yard. We live out of town and back up to BLM land. Pretty private till the last few years as more houses have been popping up on the vacant lots.
Lately I’ve been inclined to be who I am out in the real world. That’s the reason I went to the dr. office visits with my bra and panties on. In the past I’ve always reverted to less feminine under garments. In the past few years, I’ve acquired bra’s with slightly larger cups. When I go out, to work or where ever, I’ve been wearing them with padding under fairly trim fitting shirts. With my build, it’s pretty obvious there’s something there that’s not your typical man <not allowed>. Often you can make out the bra from the back and sides and bra straps do show sometimes. I’m not trying to make it an “in your face” thing, I’m just trying to be me without drawing much attention.
So, where am I now? Well, I’m not trans. I very happy with who I am. I’m a crossdresser, I love the way woman’s cloths looks and feels. I love the colors and patterns – floral and other wise. I love the fit, the necklines, the lace, all of it. I love the skirts, the dresses, and the shoes (I have lots of shoes). I have also pretty much eliminated all body hair, and I paint my toe nails. When I can I wear stocking, stay-ups and some with a garter belt.
I stuff my bra’s because most of the woman’s clothing I have looks much better with a bust line. Even when I’m underdressing, I know the bra looks better with padding even though I know, no one sees it. I do it for me. So here’s a twist, I’ve talked briefly with my GP about implants. I’ve even made the initial contact with a plastic surgeon. No appointment yet, just the contact us stuff from the website. I have several low-cut top and dress that would look so much better with a demi bra with real breast in them, vs the inserts. It would really make me happy. Is that too far for a crossdresser?
Well, this has been a very long-winded introduction, sorry about that. I’m not sure what I should have left out. I’ve already been through all of the “Things you should read links” and I like the way the Susan’s Place is setup. I’m pretty excited about participating in the Crossdressing forum.
Thank you.
Sincerely,
Paulie.
