having got caught up in a stupid semantic thing with someone online, (and particularly finding that my lesser motivation caused a like reaction), though that totally wasn't the initial thrust, I found out for (virtually) real how abyss-like an argument might get.
I looked for a meditation or what-have-you, on it, and found this, from a Chinese source, which may help someone, who knows:
When engaged in any activity we should ask this question: 'For what reason am I engaged in this activity?' If we are conscious that we are acting from some unworthy motive - because of discouragement, vexation, or some other evil instinct - we should cease the action. But if we are conscious that we are acting from some good motive, such as charity or some spiritual service, then we should go on with the activity. If we go on with the activity we should concentrate the mind on the pure activity with no ulterior purpose in mind. If we cease the activity, or the mind is disturbed by desires or angry or egoistic thoughts, then we should practice stopping. What is meant by this? It means that the mind should be tranquillized by getting rid of the thoughts which prompt the action. Action in itself is unwise as it lead to further multiplicity and increased confusion and dissatisfaction and suffering...
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