So does this means I'm out of the closet?

[Bird]

HRT + everything else I'm doing have bought enough facial changes that now it is impossible for me to hide what is going on to those who already know me.

Additionally, months ago before I started with HRT, I had polished my nails and woke up with gall bladder pain in the morning. Do you know how tough it is to clean red nail polish when you have huge amounts abdominal pain? It is impossible! I ended going to the hospital and meeting my teachers and colleages with red fingertips from bad cleaned nails

Yesterday I went to class wearing a feminine winter jacket and makeup. I don't know why, I just felt like wearing those clothes and did. I thought no one would notice. Honestly.

I never use my male voice anymore, which wans't really masculine to begin with.

My classmates are getting used to the new situation, but are in shock mostly. I received no negative comments so far, only positive ones. I'm not passing AT ALL though, since I can't at the moment. I don't realy know what happened, I think I outed myself at university without realising!

[Jillieann Rose]

It does sound like you are in the process of coming out.

Yesterday I went to class wearing a feminine winter jacket and makeup.
I don't know why, I just felt like wearing those clothes and did.
I thought no one would notice. Honestly.

Sorry but I don't buy that. If you went to class dress, at some level of thinking you wanted people to know.
It is all a part of being trans you wanting people to accept you as your true gender.
Maiara how long have you been on the meds? I've been on HRT for 1 1/2 years.
For me close friend and family don't seem to not notice the changes but strangers see me as my true gender.

[justmeinoz]

Red fingers could be from painting the garage, but the makeup and the jacket sound like your subconscious thinks it is time to let yourself be who you should.
Karen.

[Cindy]

Fantasy and reality do get close at times.

Sleep and enjoy

Cindy

[Jillieann Rose]

"Want" is an understatement

Beth sounds like your subconscious, which lacks the fear factor, is ready.
But you conscious mind knows the risk.
My subconsciously is more than ready for 24-7, but in reality/logically I can't do it right now.
As Cindy said

Fantasy and reality do get close at times.

And I have found that some times if you work at or toward your fantasy it just might become reality.
Hug,
Jillieannn

[Bird]

@Jileann

I have been on hrt for 3 months. I believe I'm a early bloomer, because my face and body changed fairly dramatically. I'm unsure of what is going on with me, but CONSCIOUSLY I -honestly- didn't think I would draw so much attention. But there is something inside me pushing me forward and forward like a moto continum. I am merely looking forward to eliminating by beard shadow and then possibly I should be ready for full time except at work at the hospital. I have to work towards being nerly 100% passable so I am seen as a calm and healing figure to my patients.
I didn't mean to sound like I am oblivious with my previous posting, but at that moment, I simply didn't realise I'd be outing myself. I did it though! I believe if I continue changing my clothes gradually, I should be accepted without much ruckus both at uni and work.
When the climate heats up here in Brazil, at october or november, I should be changed enough and ready to go full time or nearly so, at least I won't have to hide myself below guy clothes at summer.


All my friends mention HRT has changed me dramatically, but the ones who see me more often didn't notice many changes. My parents are playing blind.

[Jillieann Rose]

Maiara,
You are a lucky girl, 3 months and already changing.
I can tell by you avatar that you look very passable.
Do watch yourself if you are not ready to come out.
But at a point in the near future you will not be able to hide,
you body will out you hon. So do be ready for that time.
Hugs,
Jillieann